ZWI A PENGA - LIFE AS WE KNOW IT
Chapter 11
TSHILILO
I was sitting with hubby cuddling on the sofa watching TV when Ndivhuwo came in
Ndiv" uhm" he threw himself on the sofa
Thembu:" sure"
Ndiv :" is she back yet?"
Me:" nope" i said taking a deep breath...i had no idea what this meant...i really didn't know
Ndiv:" f*** i never thought that this Andani girl could be this stupid"
Me:" i knew it. I knew she was trouble " Ndivhuwo looked at me and laughed
Ndiv:" if i remember correctly you are the one that was most excited about her presence in the house so i am not buying the whole talk about you knowing she was trouble from the start" i just looked at him and folded my hands on my chest
Thembu:" we have to find her"
Me:" whatever you are doing i am in...you are not leaving me alone in this house" Thembuluwo looked at me in shock
Thembu:" uhm babe come...we need to talk in private. Excuse us bruh" Thembuluwo walked to the kitchen and i followed him
Thembu :" i thought you said you were staying out of trouble my love"
Me:" i know but..."
Thembu:" no buts nana...you are not coming...you said it yourself, you are broken and you are not as strong as you used to be so please you should stay behind" i breathed
Me:" i can’t wait on you either...the waiting and not knowing what is going on is also going to kill me i know that"
Thembu:" come" he pulled me to him for a hug
Thembu:" we are not even sure if that girl is in trouble or if she just ran away so please try and be fine and we will be back before you know it"
Me:" i am sorry nana but i wanna come"
Thembu:" okay i don't wanna fight about this" he kissed me on the forehead and then took my hand and we walked back to Ndivhuwo
Me:" so let’s do this"
Ndiv:" she's coming?" he was looking at me
Me:" yeah i am coming " he looked at me as if wanting to argue about it but i think he didn’t wanna look like he was disrespecting Thembu, i mean Thembu was my husband and he agreed to let me come with them so i guess Ndivhuwo had to respect that as well
Ndiv:" let’s find her location then...hopefully she was not taken and she is just trying to get away"
ANDANI
It was past four in the afternoon when i finally got to Cape Town. I was really excited about meeting my friend and about being my own person and finally taking control of my life again...it was a beautiful feeling. I drove to my friend's complex and parked my car at the parking lot. I was hoping that she was home already because it was past her knock off time. i got to her flat and knocked. I stood at the door with my heart beating faster than normal. I knocked again and then after a while someone came and opened. She stood at the door looking at me in shock.
Vhusani:" uhm...wow" she folded her hands on her chest
Me:" hey" i was smiling...she straightened up her face and looked at me
Vhusani:" what’s this?"
Me:" can i come in?" she moved and made a way for me to walk in
Me:" thank you" i walked in and made my way all the way to her lounge. I sat on the couch and she came and stood in front of me
Vhusani:" is it me or you were not really in Mexico? I mean how could you possibly be here? A flight is supposed to take few hours right?"
Me:" sit down vhusi, i will tell you everything" she laughed
Vhusani:" i guess everything include me taking the back seat in your life huh?"
Me:" but Vhusani i am here now" she sat opposite me
Vhusani:" because i got pissed at you, that's the only reason why you are here not because i am important or because you wanna help...you are just afraid to lose me, to lose a helping hand and that's all" yohh how could she even think that?
Me:" but Vhusani you have no idea about the risk i took to get here...shouldn't that count for anything? "
Vhusi:" what risk Andi? Did you walk on crocodiles in order to end up here?" i closed my eyes in frustration as i try to figure out a way to fix this. I opened my eyes and lazily looked at her...i had to tell her the truth...she wanted honesty and that's what i was going to give her. The worst part here was that once you know the truth then you can’t unknow it
Me:" okay here is the truth...i was not in Mexico"
Vhusani:"there...thank you for being honest now leave my flat"
Me:" Vhusani just shut up okay? Eugene is not what you think he is...i was in George Because i am not safe here or anywhere else for that matter so he is keeping me in George with a family of some thugs so that they can keep me safe" i said all of that without even breathing
Vhusani:" what movie are you playing on? Out of all excuses and that’s the best you can come up with? Really? "
Me:" i am being honest Vhusani...Eugene is a thug...a criminal who even went to varsity to assist himself to be a better thug...that's why he is so rich.. He runs drugs operations in different countries and...well, his sister died because of someone he had a grudge with so he is afraid that the person might come after me...that's why he took me away to the people who can protect me so that's why i couldn't tell you where i was because i couldn't even t-"
Vhusani:" wait wait wait...uhm" she got up and started pacing
Vhusani :" are you being real?" she was really scared... I nodded while looking at her
Vhusi:" so all this time you knew?"
Me:" not at first...i found out after the miscarriage"
Vhusi:" wow, i don't even know what to say right now. I really don’t" she took off her top and threw it across the room and she was only left with her brah...she was in a black formal skirt because she just got home from work
Vhusi:" i don't understand...why are you still with him? Oww my God don't tell me that he is pressuring you to stay with him...is he threatening you to stay with him? Is that it?" she came and knelt in front of me...
Me;" no he is not pressurising me into anything" she took both my hands... She was shaking
Vhusi:" you can talk to me Andani, tell me the truth and we will figure this out together, me and you...tell me if he is forcing you to do this please " i took my hands from hers and stood up
Me:" he is not pressurising me Vhusi... I just love him... Apart from everything else he is still the same sweet Eugene that you know"
Vhusi:" no....no he is not" she was shouting
Me :" i am sorry to tell you everything but i wanted you to understand why i was away and you were not picking up my calls anymore, i couldn't risk losing you Vhusani..... Not because of what i will want you to do for me in the future but because i love you and i really value you and that's why i have put our friendship above everything else" she rolled her eyes and stood up
Vhusi:" and that's supposed to make me happy? What if something happens to the baby? So how much in danger are you?" i looked at her and blinked
Me;" i am not really sure but it’s some international business dealings... I am his woman and i am carrying his child so i am the thing that can really break him so my death will mean pain for him and there are people who actually want to see him in pain so i guess it’s serious danger"
Vhusi:" and you stupidly drove all the way here? How sure are you that you were not being followed?" she said that and walked to the kitchen window and peeped outside....she came back to me and started pacing
Vhusi:" i can't believe that you got yourself tangled in a mess like this and you didn't even bother to tell me"
Me:" this is not something i can just share...a lot is at stake here and telling you might put you in danger but right now you didn't give me a choice"
Vhusi :" i can't believe you were stupid enough to drive all the way here even after knowing all the danger that surrounds you"
Me:" you were not speaking with me...you thought i didn't care and i had to fix that" she rolled her eyes again
Vhusi" so Eugene is a thug in a suit...I can’t believe you said yes to all this Andi...do you love him this much? " i looked at her and nodded
Vhusi:" i am so shaken right now, i don't even know what to do or say" she walked to the kitchen and i followed her. She poured herself a glass of water and gulped all of it....she poured another one and did the same. I just stood there looking at her
Vhusi:" it still feels like a joke...a sad joke…you are in love with a criminal" it never really mattered to me that Eugene was a criminal, i never really saw him as a criminal until now...he's always been my Eugene..... He's always been my one and only cupcake but seeing my friend this terrified brought me back to the actual reality of what i really signed up for. Someone knocked on the door while we stood in the kitchen…he frowned and then looked at me
Me:" okay let me open" she was scared... I guess the fact that i was really tangled up in all this was scary enough. I got the complete shock of my life when i found Detective McCarthy with another strange man standing at the door
Me:" uhm"
McCarthy :" hey miss" i swallowed
Me:" hey"
McCarthy :" i have few questions for you"
Me:" i don't want to answer your questions" Vhusani came and stood behind me...detective McCarthy smiled
McCarthy :" you do know that being an accomplice to crime is also a crime itself right? Are you aware?"
Me:" i know that"
McCarthy :" i am glad we are on the same page then...how is your relationship with...uhm what's his name again? Uhm Eugene "
Me:" fine...now go please"
McCarthy :" i am not going anywhere until you hand him over to me"
Vhusi:" okay Andani who is this?"
Me:" a detective" i was not looking at her but at the two men
Me:" if you don't mind detective... I want to spend some time with my friend"
McCarthy :" you are coming from George, i am curious to know why? Something is up"
"Whether something is up or down....it’s none of your concern...now leave" i looked behind the detectives and looking as cute as ever was Ndivhuwo
McCarthy :" and you are?"
Ndiv:" someone you don't wanna know...so leave the girls alone" McCarthy looked at Ndivhuwo and then back at me and then back at Ndivhuwo
McCarthy :" this is not over" he said that and walked away
Ndivhuwo:" I don’t know who she is or why you are here and why you have detectives asking you questions but girl you have a minute to say goodbye to this person here and we leave"
Vhusi:" who is he? He is so rude"
Me:" he is the guy who is supposed to look after me....i left without saying goodbye" i was looking at her. I turned around and looked at Ndivhuwo
Me:" how did you find me?"
Ndiv:" i will pretend like you didn’t ask me that...you have 40 seconds left to say goodbye" i looked at Vhusani
Me:" you're still pissed at me?"
Vhusi:" no...of course not Andi...i want you to be safe but i am just not happy with all this...you being tangled up in this drama…Its...i am still shocked"
Me:" i know…one day we will talk about this for hours so maybe you'll understand"
Vhusi:" i don't know hey" i went to her for a long warm hug. After the hug i walked to the car where Thembu and Tshililo were waiting outside the car.
Tshililo :" i can't believe you did this"
Ndiv:" i don’t understand why. What if something happened to you?"
Andi:" i had to do this because my bestfriend was pissed at me for the fact that i might not be able to plan her wedding...i am sorry guys but i couldn’t lose my best friend"
Thembu:" but you could have told us and one of us would have drove you here"
Me:" i thought you were not going to let me"
Thembu :" how could you think that because you don't even know us"
Tshili:" it’s sweet...really it is for you to still care about your friend's wedding but love there will come a time when these things will matter less...i think that time is slowly creeping in and you need to get on with the program. This life is hard sweety and you chose it when you decided to stay with him even after finding out the truth. Being with him means that you lose a lot of yourself and you become what's expected of you and right now what's expected of you is to keep this unborn baby safe...please you must try these suicide mission after giving birth okay? Stop thinking that you still have some control over your life because you have none...he universe controls your life now, not even Eugene controls your life right now...nobody controls it and when we've reached this stage...it’s important to use your damn mind before you decide to be stupid " she said that and walked to the car
Me:" Tshililo"
Tshili:" what? You had us stressing okay? Do you have any idea what could have happened if something happened to you? Eugene was going to be our enemy and decide to avenge your death and he would have died in the process because we are that good...all of that could have happened because you couldn’t think before you act...accept what you are or walk away before causing anymore problems "
Me:" i am sorry"
Tshili:" i bet you are" she extended her hand for my car keys and i gave her the keys and we got inside my car
The drive to George took us less than four hours... No wonder they were able to get here quickly...i mean it took me just over 6 hours to get here and for them its less than 4 hours? I guess brother Ndivhu and sister Tshililo were seriously driving....i didn't expect such a reckless speeding from Tshililo though but what can i say…the girl was hardcore. We got home and we all got out of the car and all the way to the house. Ndivhuwo sat in the lounge immediately. He looked like he was deep in thoughts...I was walking past the lounge when he said
Ndiv:" where do you think you are going?" i looked at him
Ndiv:" sit down Andani" and i thought Eugene was the only one who had the ability to scare me just by merely starring at me. I sat on the couch opposite his. Thembu and Tshililo walked in and they sat down too
Ndiv:" i don't even know where to begin...like right now i am still shocked by the level of your stupidity"
Thembu :" we thought we could treat you like an adult because we thought you understand what's really going on here but you proved us wrong...even though you understand what's going on you can't be trusted...you don’t care about your safety or your child's...i mean you should have told us about the trip and we would have taken you"
Me:" i am sorry"
Ndiv:" from now on you stay in this house and you don't leave unless one of us is with you...give me the car keys"
Me:" what? " i had tears in my eyes now
Ndiv:" car keys and stop crying, it’s not good for the baby " i threw the keys at him
Tshili:" we tried to treat you like a normal person and not a job but it seems like you prefer to be a job instead "
Ndiv:" no more leaving the house...you are the job now and we will keep an eye on you. You must stop thinking that you have your freedom because you don't have it anymore and as far as Eugene is still a hardcore criminal there is no way out for you. When you are muttering the words ' i love you' to a gangster even after knowing the truth you are actually saying yes i am sacrificing the real me for this love and become whatever life throws at us...ask any of us when last we saw a friend or if we still have friends other than our family and business associates...we don't have friends because you don't wanna endanger more people and explain to people why you do certain things...so that friend of yours...girl you should be prepared to lose her"
Tshili :" sorry we are being harsh but you are not a child and we are not going to try and massage the truth for a grown woman...we will just tell it as it is"
ZWI A PENGA - LIFE AS WE KNOW IT
Chapter 12
EUGENE
After the Doctor had left i went to the bathroom and i found Katlego sitting there with Lusani whose leg was bandaged. I stood at the door and didn't know what to say to them... Especially to Lusani, i mean if it wasn't for Katlego then i would have killed him
Me:" i am going to free you Lusani...you can do whatever you wanna do...i can’t work with you anymore because i feel like i will end up killing you if you disrespect me one more time"
Lusani:" Gee i am sorry, i was only trying to help"
Me:" but you know that you don’t help unless i ask you to help...anyway that's not up for discussion...i am letting you go today...and you…" i looked at Katlego
Me:" get your jacket and leave... The funeral was on Saturday, i really don't know why you are only coming for it today" i said that and turned around and walked away...Katlego ran after me
Kat:" is it her? Is she making you like this? Making you kill the people who have been with you from the start? Is that what love do to people?" she had tears in her eyes
Me:" Kat... "
Kat:" what? You'll kill me too?" i remained calm as i look at her
Me:" Kat i am sorry you walked into that...now get your jacket and leave please"
Kat:" i don't trust you with Lusani...I am taking him with me, i will take care of him"
Me:" fine...as long as you both leave my house" she walked few steps towards the bathroom and then turned around and looked at me
Kat:" i am here if you ever want to talk...i understand you can never be mine again and after what i just witnessed here i am finally glad that you let me go and that you didn’t take me back...you haven't changed at all...you are still the same scary animal you've always been" she said that and walked to the bathroom
Katlego and Lusani left me alone in my house. I had a lot to plan regarding GOLA's brother...his name was Jug...as in a ‘jug’...like i don't understand how anyone could give themselves such a street name. I had to make proper planning and make sure that i teach that guy a lesson once and for all. I needed three days to plan and then on the fourth day i will leave the country. i had the equipments and the man power to make this happen. I wanted to prove to Paps that i was fit to protect our whole family.... Backing down and being afraid was not going to give me the assurance that my family needed. I had booked a flight to Cape Town at 16:00 at OR Tambo and i was going to get to Cape Town somewhere around 6 in the evening. I boarded the flight and got to Cape Town at past 6 as expected. Sizwe was waiting for me there.
We immediately got inside my car and drove to my house
Sizwe:" i don't mean to meddle boss but isn't madam supposed to be in George? " i looked at him and frowned. The boy was driving and i was a passenger...he took his phone and handed it over to me
Sizwe:" go to my pictures...I saw her today and i was confused..." i looked at the pictures and f***it was her...Sizwe took pictures of her while she was at a complex at which Vhusani stays. I knew this place very well
Me:" turn around...we are going to this complex"
Sizwe:" she is not there anymore...that Ndiv guy you asked us to look into came and picked her up"
Me:" when did all this happen? "
Sizwe:" about two or more hours ago...it was past four to five"
Me:" okay let's go to her friend's" i was boiling now...that Ndiv guy was supposed to keep her in George and not bring her back here...what’s wrong with him?
Sizwe:" do you think that he will be able to do the job when the fight starts? I mean if he is bringing her here now there is no tel-"
Me:" that's enough... You take orders and that's all...you don't help me make decisions... Is that confusing for you?"
Sizwe:" no...it’s not...i fully understand "
Me:" good"
We drove to Vhusani's complex...the fact that Andani was spotted here only meant that she was going against my word... She was still trying to help her friend organise the wedding...like what the f*** is a wedding compared to someone's life? I tried my best to keep my cool...i didn't want to scare the poor Vhusani away...i was thankful to the session with the Doctor...i was feeling much better now. We got to Vhusani's place and i got out of the car and left sizwe inside. I got to her door and knocked...she opened after a long while. She looked really shocked to see me and most surprisingly...she was afraid of me...her face grew darker just by merely looking at me
Me:" hi Vhusi"
Vhusi:" h...uhm...hi" okay this was shocking...why was Vhusani Like this? She liked me...she had always liked me and now there was a sudden change in her behaviour? It could only mean one thing...Andani was stupid enough to tell her the truth...oww my sweet Andi what did you do?
Me:" she told you" i whispered
Vhusi:" uhm i don't wa...want to g...get involved... Just leave" i laughed a bit
Me:" the fact that you know the truth means that you are already involved"
Vhusi:" i will pretend like i know nothing...even if those detectives comes back i really w-" okay okay what did she say?
Me:" detectives? Did you just say detectives?" she covered her mouth in regret
Vhusi :" Eugene I am not used to all this okay" she started tearing up right away...this was bad...this girl was not strong enough to deal with detectives asking her questions. So McCarthy is back at it again huh? Yeses
Me:" you are coming with me" yeah i couldn't risk the detectives coming back here and find an emotional shocked Vhusani all by herself....she could tell them everything and then I’d be screwed
Vhusi:" what? No no no Eugene i am begging you, don't hurt me" she cried...i covered her mouth with my hand and walked inside the flat and closed the door...she was shaking by now
Me:" Vhusani i will never hurt you...i don't know what Andani told you but i will never hurt you and the only reason why i wanna take you with me is because i know the detectives will come back here for questioning and until i know for sure that they won’t come back i have to keep an eye on you"
Vhusi:" i can’t disappear because i have to go to work"
Me:" i won't make you disappear...I just want to help you work on your answers when the detectives come to you...you need to believe me...i am still the same Eugene...please come with me" she looked hesitant but at the end she gave in and came with me. I drove to my house with Vhusani and Sizwe. I got there and asked Sizwe to look after her and to revise with her possible answers to questions that the detectives might ask her... At least this way i would know that if they come back for her she won't be around tonight and tomorrow she'll be ready for their questions. I left them in the house and drove to George. I was feeling tired but i couldn't rest without talking to this Ndiv clown.
ANDANI
After the lecture from Ndivhu, Thembu and Tshili i went to my room because it was already late at night, i wanted to rest. I felt tired and defeated...like i had reached the end of my life. Tshili's words echoed in my head....i had no control over my life anymore... The thought of it hurt, like how was i going to raise my son if i couldn’t control what happens to my life huh? I threw myself on the bed and sobbed. Don't get me wrong....i really loved Eugene but was this the price i had to pay for it? Was this what i had to pay? For the first time since i was with Eugene i thought about my late ex husband Rialivhuwa.
"Rialivhuwa why? Why did you ruin us?" i sobbed.
If Rialivhuwa didn't abuse me and become an arse during our marriage then I wouldn't be here, everything would still be exceptional and i would still be living a normal life...all this was too much for me...i was failing to cope with being pregnant and being away from my bestfriend and my fiancée and my son and my family...i was stuck with total strangers who were going to treat me like a prisoner.
NDIVHUWO
After Andani left for her bedroom Tshili and Thembu stayed a while with me and then left for their bedroom. I stayed alone in the dark and just stared into space. I didn't plan on falling asleep but i might have fallen asleep on the couch because i was woken up by a phone call. I checked the caller and it was Eugene... What the hell? It was after midnight and this guy was calling me
Me:" it’s after midnight" that's the first thing i said when i picked up the call
Gee:" i am at your gate...can you please open?" i frowned and went to check on the window? A car with the lights on was at the gate. I pressed the remote to open the gate...i unlocked the door for him and walked to the lounge and slept on the couch. After a while he opened the door and walked in...he switched on the light and then walked towards me in the lounge
Me:" you know where your fiancée's bedroom is...and i don’t appreciate you just pitching without a notice" i was not looking at him
Gee:" you are supposed to be good" i raised an eyebrow and then sat up and looked at him
Me:" excuse me?"
Gee:" i was told that you are good and then you also gave me your word"
Me:" so are you telling me that i am not good?"
Gee:" i really don't know about that anymore...you were supposed to keep Andani here in your house...hidden...one simple task...you failed to do one simple task...i hear she was in George today" owww f*** so he heard...how did he hear about it?
Me:" oww you mean that?" he gave me a funny look
Gee:" yeah i mean that...should i be worried?" i looked at this nigga and laughed while shaking my head
Ndiv :"'dude if you wanna worry then go ahead and worry...your girl ran away from home...I didn't know that i literally have to babysit her and not leave her site...she was alone for like 10 minutes and she ran away...i thought that maybe she went to the mall or something like that but when two hours passed and she was a no show...i knew she had run away so i searched for her location and she was in Cape Town and that's when we followed her...it’s not my fault that your woman is too stupid to understand the situation you are in" he walked over to me like lightning and grabbed me by my t shirt....what the hell...
Me:"' i am gonna count to three and you’re gonna let me go" i said calmly...i don’t know what this nigga was tryna do but this was not going to end well for him
Gee:" how dare you call my woman stupid? From the very first day i met you I knew you were full of s***"
Me:" should i start counting?" he gave me one fake laugh and then punched me so hard on my face and i fell on the couch...that f*****g hurt...wow such a disrespectful short-tempered dickhead. I got up and went to him and gave him a fist on the face... He stumbled and then came back to me with a fist on my stomach...f*** whose child was this? Usually i didn't have to punch a person twice before they tell me they were sorry....
We started fighting...like really fighting...i am talking about serious punches flying all over...we then accidentally fell on the TV stand....the TV plus the sound system plus the flower vase scattered on the floor but that was not of great importance at the moment...as childish as the fight might have been...this was about us proving to each other which one was more stronger than the other...we were both bosses in our own worlds and we both had pride. We grabbed each other’s clothes and wrestled on the floor while we beat each other to a pulp.... We were busy rolling and fighting when Thembu and Tshililo came running with guns on their hands. Andani also walked in...she was shocked to find us fighting...as was Thembu and Tshili. I think they heard the noise of the TV falling
Tshiii:" guys what are you doing? Ow my God look at my TV?" she screamed
Andi:" Eugene please stop it" it was as if we couldn’t hear them...we were busy throwing serious punches at each other wethu...I wasn't going to give up on this fight...doing so would mean that i was surrendering to him...i felt that I was going to fight to the finish and though i had to admit...i had finally met my f*****g match
Andani :" guys stop it!" she screamed while walking to us
Thembu:" let them be"
Tshili :" what? Thembu they will kill each other"
Thembu:" they won't...this is the fight for power...i saw this coming from a distance"
Andani:" i don't like t-" we rolled over to the table and a little flower vase that was on top fell and broke...so now we had pieces of glass on the floor
Andani:" oww my God" she cried.
We managed to get up and i pinned Eugene against the wall trying to strangle him but he managed to grab me so hard and turned around and pinned me against the wall. He strangled me and that’s when i removed his hands from my neck and pushed him so hard he fell to the floor....i went to him and climbed on him and tried to punch him but he caught my fist mid air and we wrestled again on the floor
Andi:" i have heard enough" she walked to us
Tshili:" me too" the girls walked to us
Andi:"' if you don't stop this madness then you better kill me while i try to stop you guys" she got to us and we immediately stopped because l didn't wanna hurt the baby
Tshili :" why are you guys fighting? Oww my God this is madness"
Andi:" you are all too grown for this" i looked at Eugene and he had blood on his mouth...i touched my mouth and f*** i had blood too...my whole body hurt so bad. I struggled to stand up and Eugene did the same. We looked at each other with Tshililo and Andani between us and smiled at each other....Thembuluwo was busy laughing
Gee:" so, who won?" he said while touching his mouth...he was even struggled to talk
Me:" yeah...who did it?" we looked at Tshili and Andani and then at Thembu...Tshili and Andi rolled their eyes
Tshili :" you are serious? You broke my TV and Radio and ruined my tiles and my table and my vase and you have the nerve to ask who won? How old are you guys? Two?" we laughed even though it was painful
Andi:" oww my God they are even laughing" i walked to Eugene and extended my hand
Me:" f*** you...that was quite a fight"
Gee:" i kinda hate you’re a** right now"
Me:" i gotta admit...you're good"
Gee:" nahh...we're good" we chuckled as we shook our hands
Me:" it’s not over...rematch tomorrow...someone has to win this...it can’t be a tie" he smirked
Gee:" exactly...a rematch tomorrow before lunch"
Tshili:" not in my house...it’s not happening in my house"
Andi:" i can't believe this"
Thembu:" i will be the referee tomorrow" Gee and i looked at each other and shook our heads
Gee:" like hell we are doing this again...hell no"
Me:" it hurts like hell f***…no ways…"
Thembu:" that was quite a fight though, i should have taken a video"
Gee:" maybe there will be next time" Gee and I looked at each other while bottling up a laugh
"Noooooo" we chorused and the whole room was in stitches of laughter. I couldn’t believe that i had a serious fight with this guy and we were laughing about it...could it be that we both respect each other now? I mean even if i hate to admit it...that nigga was soo good bruh...maybe we can be a team...we could make a great team...with everything i knew about him already...he was quite good and good is what i liked
Me:” i am gonna go take a shower...yeses” i was limping and Eugene was too
Gee:” ahgg i think i will do the same too”
Andani:” come...i will help you” she took his hand and helped him walk
Tshili:” just when i thought i have seen it all” Thembu smiled
Thembu:” too much craziness in this house...it’s not healthy”
ANDANI
We got o our bedroom and i closed the door while he sat on the bed...he looked like he was in serious pain
Me:” what was that about?” i asked while standing in the middle of the room with my hands folded on my chest
Eugene:” right now i am tempted to call you stupid but i know you are not so i won’t call you that but that means that you deliberately tried to ruin the whole thing, you tried to get yourself killed, you got your friend’s life on the line, my life is on the line because with Vhusani knowing the truth i don’t think she will keep it together, and then there is you and the baby...what if something happened? What if you were being followed? Did you fail to think about that at least? I am putting you here so that you can be safe but noo, Andani just had to be dramatic” i just stood there and said nothing. He gave me a disgusted look and limped going all the way to the bathroom
Me:” i am just tired Eugene, i wanted to feel normal for a change” he looked at me and gave me that evil smile
Eugene:” if only i didn’t love you as much as i do Andani...i’d break your bones” he walked out of the door
ZWI A PENGA - LIFE AS WE KNOW IT
Chapter 13
ANDANI
I sat on the bed and patiently waited for Eugene to get out of the shower...i know he was pissed at me but i am not even sure if i was sorry for what i had done. Why do i have to apologise for trying to live my life? Yeah i get the whole 'you have no control over your life' lecture that Tshililo gave me but i felt like apologising for this would be sending out a wrong message... I mean i didn't regret going to my friend's and telling her what i told her...at least now i knew that my friendship with her was safe...losing Vhusani would have been a tragedy...she wa the only friend that i had and i didn't plan on losing her because i knew that when the going gets tough then she would be there for me. Finally Eugene walked out of the bathroom...he came and sat on the bed...he winced as he do that...he was in pain
Me:" come...I will help you get in bed"
Eugene:" i will do it myself"
Me:" you are still pissed?"
Eugene :" i don't even know if pissed is the right word to use right now...you went against my word...you asked me about the wedding before i brought you here and i specifically told you not to go and I explained why you shouldn't go but no...you don't wanna listen to me"
Me:" we fight about this all the time...you can't just expect me to take orders from you without contesting them at times...i am giving up a lot here Eugene" he looked at me and shook his head.. There was something about the way he was looking at me, i couldn't really make out what it was but there was something there
Eugene:" okay" he said that with a very sad look on his face. He climbed the bed and got inside the blankets
Me:" since you are here, i think we should go for a check up tomorrow together...I mean we don't know when the fight is gonna be over and i really don't wanna go there alone...we can get the chance to look at our baby" i was now sitting on the bed looking at him...he wasn't looking at me though, he actually gave me his back
Eugene:" i am not going" he said in a low voice
Me:" what?" he couldn’t really be serious. This child was important to him...he couldn't just say no
Eugene :" you can do it alone Andani" yohh his voice was icy cold. There was no love on the way he talked and that scared me because the last thing i needed was Eugene falling out of love with me. Even with all the drama in our lives...i still loved him dearly.
Me:" but...baby you are here"
Eugene:" only because you couldn't take orders from me and i had to come here to make sure that you are still safe…which you are" owww God... What the hell was this? Was he giving up?
Me:" so you don't want to see the scan? You don't wanna know how the baby is?" he sat up and looked at me and then got out of the bed and stood a distance from the bed
Eugene :" i had plans for that baby...i had plans for us all and my plans involved keeping you and that baby safe...my plans included not to get you killed...my plans included you carrying the baby full term but it seems like you have other plans and since you are the one carrying the bloody baby then i guess your plan is the one in action. Your f*****g stupid plan involves doing everything possible to endanger my baby...it involves defying me...it involves being selfish and not putting the baby first…your plan includes being the best friend of the year. With all that said....i am not going to take you to the clinic or Doctors appointments and watch the baby on sonar machine knowing full well that you won't carry him or her full term....i can’t do that to myself...i can’t think of that pregnancy as a living human being right now because you are going to kill it Andani....you have no idea about the danger that's out there Andi but you can't listen to those who knows"
Me:" but cupcake... "
Eugene:" don't f*****g cupcake me. You think this is about me wanting to control you? This is about keeping the baby safe Andi...I wanna be able to carry him or her in my arms but i am not sure if it’s gonna happen…with the way you've been carrying on i feel that you'll kill him, i can feel it. I can't allow myself to be so close...do you have any idea how i felt when i learn that you went to Cape Town on your own? But Andani why? Why do you make me regret loving you every chance you get huh? We still have more than 7 months to go and you are already acting this way? I am done with this Andi. Go back home or stay here...i actually don’t care anymore its your choice" owww my God I started shaking...was he leaving me? Oww no
Me:" p...p...ple...please don't do this to me" i cried as my body shake
Me:" Eugene don't leave me" he looked at me and laughed. Wow so this was funny for him? He walked to me and stood in front of me
Eugene :" you think i wanna leave you? Dammit Andani i love you okay? I love you so much but...you are too much for me. Sometimes i just wanna hurt you so bad because you don't listen but you know i can't do that to you so i should just let you be even if it hurts me to do so. I love you but i want you to do you for now...until you give birth....i don't wanna stick around and run around trying to keep you and the baby safe while you do the opposite...I don't wanna invest too much of my feelings to this pregnancy anymore...if we lose it i wanna be able to move on but if i invest my feelings on this baby...then it will crush me Andi... I won't survive losing it" he had tears in his eyes
Me:" we won't lose this baby Eugene, you gotta have faith"
Eugene:" faith?" he laughed
Eugebe:" i gotta have faith? That's what's gonna keep the baby safe? Faith is gonna do it? Andani you don't listen to the plans i put in place in order to keep you safe…I feel defeated here...we don't even know what caused the previous miscarriage and i am doing my best to keep you safe even with everything that's happening in my life so that we don’t suffer the same fate again but you can't meet me half way...i don't want to lose this baby Andani" he said that and wiped off a tear from his eye
Me:" we won't" i got out of bed and went to him...i tried to touch his hand but he moved away from me
Eugene:" i am driving back to Cape Town tomorrow and i will sleep in the hotel tonight " what the...
Me:" a hotel? Baby why?" i was crying by now... Eugene can't do this
Eugene :" i can't stand the site of you right now Andi...I am madly in love with you and you know that...I am a f*****g psycho who only loves you and has been doing everything to keep you happy and safe since we met but even madly in love psychos get tired sometimes... I don't wanna keep worrying about you because it will get me killed if i don't focus"
Me:" cupcake please don't leave me...I promise you I won't put our baby in danger again baby i promise just stay the night....i miss you Eugene please" he walked to me and cupped my face and then kissed me on the forehead
Eugene :" i love you" he said that and turned around and walked to the door
Me:" Eugene don't do this" i cried...he turned around and looked at me one last time and then walked out of the door. Yohhh i stood on the floor and felt the tiles freezing and my feet got glued to the damn icy floor...i felt so cold and so confused and in pain. Looking at him leaving me like that ripped my heart apart. I pushed him way too far...Eugene has always let me get away with everything i had done.... I guess this was a breaking point for him....this was way too much for him. I sank to the floor and sobbed... I had no idea what Eugene sleeping in the hotel while i was here meant for us.... He was so mad at me he couldn’t stand the site of me.
EUGENE
I walked out of the room and stood with my back against the door while i ask myself what this meant....i was not sure what it meant...i was still in love with Andani but i needed to be away from her for a while...sticking around would make me do things that i would regret later and I don't think i could ever be able to live with myself if i hurt her. I walked to Ndivhuwo 's room and knocked. I stood there for few seconds and then he came to open
Ndiv:" back for round two?"
Gee:" i wish i could say that....uhm i am leaving" Ndivhuwo raised an eyebrow
Ndiv:" now? But you just got here"
Gee:" yeah and i have a revenge to plan...i just came to check on my woman and to find out from you if i can still trust you to keep her safe"
Ndiv:" when Rod's dad said i am good...he wasn't bluffing, he really meant it so yeah i will keep her safe....she was able to leave the house because i didn’t know that i have to literally watch over her. I thought she understood her reason for being here but hey now i know what we are dealing with, you have absolutely nothing to worry about"
Gee:" cool then"
Ndiv:" you are being too hard on her aren't you? Don't be this angry at her...this is your life not hers...she can't just easily give up everything...give her time"
Me:" i have been giving her time...I think the issue here is that she might not be able to really accept this life and if that's the case....then..."
Ndiv:" okay leave...you should really think about this"
Me:" sure" we shoulder bumped and then i went to the door and walked out of the house. i stood outside and took out my phone and called Katlego... Even after taking the shower my body still hurt from the fighting. She picked up her phone on the 4th ring
Kat:" do you have any idea what time it is? Some of us are sleeping" she said in her sleepy voice
Me:" uhm owww i really didn't check the time"
Kat:" its 03:32 in the morning Eugene"
Me:" i am sorry for waking you...i just...well i wanna apologise for what you saw and for mishandling you"
Kat:" two apologies from you in one sentence? Wow is this my last day on earth? Because something got to be up for you to come on and apologise to me like that"
Me:" should i take it back then?" she giggled
Kat:" no...of course not. You don't usually apologise so you are really forgiven"
Me :" thanks, how is he?"
Kat:" don't you think you should ask him yourself maybe?"
Me:" i am asking you"
Kat:" he is fine...he is heartbroken by your actions, that guy really cares about you Gee" i breathed
Me:" the feeling is mutual...I just can't continue working with him...what do you think? You think i am making a mistake?" she laughed a bit
Kat:" i don't think it matters what i think Eugene...you always do what you feel is right...my opinion never matters"
Me:" for once ever since i met you…your opinion was going to matter"
Kat:" okay now i am really concerned...what’s going on? This is not like you...she is hurting you isn't she? You are confused and you don’t know what to do or who to talk to because for few months she was your world. Well, i know i said i will always be there for you but i don’t know about that anymore...just do you and leave me alone in peace...when you are happy with her you make me look like a lost fool following you around...you treat me like i mean nothing when she is around, do you still remember that you almost had me killed just because she asked? Don't call me again Eugene"
Me:" Kat... "
Kat:" let me sleep in peace" and just like that she hung up on me. I have to say that i was a confused man. Everything seemed to be out of control and that's not something that i was used to. I got inside my car and drove off .
NDIVHUWO
After Eugene was gone....i tried taking a shower...I needed someone to help me shower, maybe I didn’t have to be alone. Tshililo was right, i needed someone in my life. I was capable of taking a shower myself but i decided to do what Tshililo asked me either way.... I had to try and date Kate...i mean I’d been sleeping with this girl for a while now and the sex with her was still good so she was worth the try. I don't know if she wanted more though, she made it clear to me from the first day that she wanted nothing more than just a sex partner. I took out my phone and gave her a call. I know it was early hours of the morning... Hopefully she was going to come. She picked up after calling her several times
Kate:" i know i said give me a call every time you feel like it and I will do the same but did you check the time?" she sounded really sleepy...okay maybe my attempt at trying to date came at the wrong time.... I should have waited for morning
Me :" i know it’s late or early... It depends on how you see it but...i want you to come over"
Kate:" now?"
Me:" please"
Kate:" wow you used the word 'please'?"
Me:" yeah I did...come over to my house...i will sms you the address"
Kate:" house? What happened to the hotel room? I am not supposed to know where you stay remember? It’s one of the rules we set together"
Me:" yeah i know about that rule but let's break it...i am smsing you the address now"
Kate:" okay but i really don't like this" i hung up and then send her an sms with the address of the house. I got out of the room and took the remote for the gate and opened it...i unlocked the house and then walked to my bedroom. I sat on my bed and waited for the girl. After a while she called
Me:” Kate”
Kate:” i am at the driveway now”
Me:’ okay walk inside the house and proceed to the passage that’s on your left...walk through the passage and come to the 2nd door on your right”
Kate:’ okay” i hung up and sat there with a smile. Well i gotta smile because Kat was really good bruh...been sleeping with this girl for months and not once had she disappointed me. She walked in shortly. She stood at the door and just looked at me. She was in her pyjama shorts and a vest
Me:” you’re here”
Kate:” so this is your room...i have always wondered how it looked like”
Me:” well, this is my brother’s house and this is the room i use when i am here...it’s not really mine but maybe one day you’ll get to see my house...or my houses” she frowned
Kate:” you look like s***, is that why you called me here at this time of the morning and you are even talking about me seeing your houses?”
Me:” come on in please” she walked in slowly
Kate:” it looks fine though” she was looking around the room
Me:” oww”
Kate:’what happened to you?” i smiled
Me:” you don’t wanna know”
Kate:” i am here for a quick morning f*** but i don’t think you are good for it” i laughed shame...this girl was always straight to the point. She was walking around slowly with her hands folded on her chest
Me:” i thought we can try something else” she raised an eyebrow
me:” well...i just need someone to help me out here...do you mind washing my back and maybe rubbing me afterwards?” she looked at me with a shocked expression
kate:” i don’t understand”
me;”i know we only have sex but please i need your help...you are the only person i can go naked with at the moment...i can even pay you if you want” she looked at me and blinked
kate:” it’s around three in the morning Ndivhuwo and you want me to help you bath? I don’t even know what happened to you? I am not even your girlfriend”
Me:” please” she looked at me and took a deep breath
kate:” i am sure you can walk so let’s go to the shower already...i can’t believe you are making me do this” i smiled and walked to the shower with her behind me. I got inside the bath and she put on warm water for me
me:” cold water please” she raised an eyebrow
Me:” i don’t like warm water i am sorry” she shook her head and put on cold water for me. She started smiling
me:’ do i look that funny?” she took my towel and then took some shower gel and squeezed into the water
Kate:’ well, i drove all the way here expecting some good morning sex and this is what i am doing? Bruh i will have to make you go through this one day...i will surely do this when you really want to have sex and i will turn you down and give you some reason” i laughed…she started washing my back gently
Me:’ i am sure that after this shower we can have some sweet slow sexing”
Kate:” remove the word sweet” i giggled
Me:’ why?”
Kate:’ because it doesn’t exist between us...we don’t do sweet remember?”
Me:” okay...but what if i suddenly want sweet” she stopped what she was doing and looked straight at me
Me:’ God is that how much you are scared of all this? Of sweet?” she was looking at me all terrified...like i just told her the worst story ever...she really was afraid of commitment...okay it’s not like i wanted commitment too...all i wanted was some sexing and we’d been doing that good and i didn’t want to ruin it.
Kate:’ maybe i should just go”
Me:’ Kate please don’t...i am kidding okay? We had an agreement and you are right...We shouldn’t do sweet...i only thought that maybe you’ll want more but if we are still on the same page then it’s cool”
Kate:’ i don’t want more, i can’t do more...i am happy with this...i don’t want to belong to anyone” i smiled
Me:” okay cool...come and finish this and then we can do the none sweet sex” she laughed out loud
Kate:’ i can work with that” she walked to me and helped me bath...when i was done we walked back to my room together.
Kate:” are you sure you are in the position to have sex?” she asked as i looked through my clothes for something to wear
Me:” you can drive the whole show momma...i will just lay on my back and watch you work your magic...you’re going to ride it” she smiled
Kate:” i really don’t mind” i smirked not looking at her. I looked through my clothes and took out a simple shorts and a plain black t shirt. I threw them on the couch and went to the bed and lay on my back and looked at her with a smile
Me:’ i am still in pain momma...so don’t do your usual rough ride...you gotta be gentle a little bit”
Kate:” i can do gentle papi” i smiled...Papi and Momma...that’s what we called each other when we had sex or when we were about to come. Believe me having sex with someone you don’t love is supposed to be gross but this was not gross...maybe because she was the only one i was doing it with and she told me that i’ll be the only one she do it with as well but i didn’t trust her
She slowly took off her clothes while her eyes were glued into mine. Did i say anything about how Kate looked like? She was one of those tall girls...right about my heart...she didn’t have curves or an ass bruhh...she was a slender but not too thin...just a size 30. She mostly wore short dresses and skinny’s with high heels. She was a neat looking woman...she always had her things in order every time we met. I wish i can tell you about what she was doing for a living but i knew nothing. We just met and decided to hit it off...we used to go to the Doctor together every two months for checkups and up to so far the sex relationship was working good for us. We never discussed our personal life...we just f*** and make appointments...that’s all. After taking off all her clothes she walked up to me and started sucking on my D.
TSHILILO
The following morning i woke up and went to the bathroom. I got there and found Thembuluwo in the bathroom
Me:” morning love”
Thembu:” hey nana” he came to me and hugged me from behind
Me:” i am still waiting for something special...you said you’ll prepare something special” i said while giggling
Thembu:” you really can’t wait huh?” i turned around and looked at him
Me:” it’s been a long time nana” i wrapped my hands around him. He picked me up and i wrapped my legs around his waist
Thembu:” tonight baby...we don’t have to worry about Andani anymore so tonight is our night”
Me:” tonight then” i smiled and we kissed. After brushing my teeth and washing my face Thembu and i walked down the stairs
ZWI A PENGA - LIFE AS WE KNOW IT
Chapter 14
NDIVHUWO
After two rounds Kate started getting dressed
Me:" and now? "
Kate:" and now what?"
Me:" you are getting dressed" she smiled shyly
Kate:" we had two rounds and i was riding it the whole time because you claim that you are not well...so i have to go...you know we don't hang out. We have sex and then leave the hotel and in this case i will leave your house"
Me:" it’s almost five in the morning now...come here" she stopped what she was doing and looked at me
Kate:" Ndivhuwo what's going on?" i looked at her and knew that i had to choose my words wisely
Me:" i love having sex with you" she smiled
Kate :" i love that too and that's why we are still doing it"
Me:" be honest with me....have you ever considered us as something more than just sex buddies? Just once maybe? Don't you like me? Not even a slightest bit?" she looked at me and blinked
Kate:" Ndivhuwo..."
Me:" please be honest" she relaxed and looked at me
Kat:" okay…uhm you are cute, strong, good in bed, uhm that's as far as i know about you but you look like a decent guy so yes...there have been days where i fell asleep just enjoying the idea of having you as mine....so the answer is yes...I kinda like you a little bit"
Ndiv:" mhm i...."
Kate:" don't be flattered...rules are rules and we meant them…no strings attached and that's what i still want"
Ndiv:" i get you....but it’s different with me. I love the sex, i won’t lie about that part but as for liking you....i've never really thought about it but...with the sex this good i am tempted to try something else"
Kate:" no...Ndivhuwo no it’s not happening "
Ndiv:" i am 31 and have no girlfriend" she laughed
Kate:" wow that's your reason for wanting more? I am flattered" i laughed
Me:" at least i am not telling you lies"
Kate :" at least "
Me:" come here...you are not leaving this house right now...you’re gonna have breakfast with my family and i will introduce you to them as my girlfriend " she laughed as if waiting for me to tell her that i am joking but i didn't so she stopped laughing and gave me a horrified look
Kate:" i am so done with this" she said that getting dressed and heading for the door. I quickly got out of bed and went to her
Me:" don't" i took her hand to mine
Me:" i don't know your story and i am not going to try and find out but stay...just breakfast and after that if you don't ever wanna see me again then i will understand "
Kate :" just breakfast and please don’t get it twisted, it means nothing "
Me:" i know" i said with a smile. We walked back to bed together and cuddled.
TSHILILO
I went down to the kitchen and left Thembu in the bedroom. Andani was already up when i got there…she was busy frying some mushrooms
Me:" morning love"
Andi:" hey"
Me:" you are up early today...with Eugene here i thought you'll be a bit late"
Andi:” he left" she said while opening the fridge and taking out some eggs
Me:" but..."
Andi:' he is pissed" she looked like she wanted to cry. I went to her and held her hands
Me:" i am sorry"
Andi:' please i am not about to do this with you so do you mind doing scrambled eggs? I will be toasting some bread in the meantime...i have done the bacon's already so that's done"
Me:" ok cool. And uhm...i am sorry about how we talked to you yesterday"
Andi:" i really don't want to talk about it"
Me:" okay then"
Andi:" cool...i wanna go for a Doctor's check up today so i don't know which one of you will drive me"
Me:" we will talk about it over breakfast"
Andi:" cool "
Me:" i would love to take you though" i said with a smile... She just looked at me and continued with what she was doing
Me :"Andi don't be like that...we said all those things because we were upset and we didn’t want anything to happen to you and if we were not as harsh as we were, you wouldn't have taken us serious"
Andi:" i am just...i feel tied down right now...like everything is just spiralling out of control and i can’t do anything about it"
Me:" i know...be patient for a while and it will all go back to normal...we haven’t always been a peaceful family. We've been through so much as a family...i can’t even tell you how many times i've been kidnapped and brought back home and how much i've been scared to lose him while he was out....it’s really a rocket science but we all get better at it with time" she gave me a smile
Andi:" how old are you again? " i laughed
Me:"'26...i will be turning 27 soon" she laughed
Andi :" and i am 27 and will be turning 28 soon but here you are giving me advice on how to get by...how old where you when you got involved in this?" i laughed and stopped what i was doing and started thinking
Me:" i was 19 and a first year student when i met him... We started off as friends but i have always loved him. I made a move on him and he turned me down because he was dating someone at the time but hey they later broke up and on our second year we started dating and that's when it all started. I love him so much and we've been through a hell lot together...we've separated more than once....i've really been through some serious s*** with him but look at us now....some light at the end of the tunnel" Andi smiled
Andi:" it’s never gonna be easy is it?" i shook my head
Me:" no...if i say it will then i will be lying "
Andi:" okay if you were able to do it at that age then i guess i could to"
Me:" exactly" Ndivhuwo walked in right at that moment...
Ndiv:" morning ladies"
"morning " we chorused. He looked fine...like his face was lit bruh....
Me:" what's up with you?"
Ndiv:" he smiled" a girl walked into the kitchen from Ndivhu's room direction...i looked at him in shock...who the f*** is this ass-less thing?
Ndiv:" ladies meet my girlfriend.... Girlfriend, meet my sisters" Andi and i looked at him and just blinked for few seconds
Kate:" hi ladies" she smiled
Me:" hi"
Andi:" hey" okay i don't know why but this was awkward
Ndiv:" uhm you'll meet my brother soon okay? You can either join them over here or come join me in the lounge"
Kate:" i will stay here with the ladies"
Ndiv :" cool then" Ndivhuwo walked away and left the girl with us
Kate:" is it me or he us acting really strange? "
Me:" he is always strange" i smiled and gave her the knife and onions
Me:" cut these...we wanna make onion rings"
Kate:" thank you"
Andi:" he didn’t give us your name" we all laughed
Kate:" owww uhm i am Katherine but they call me Kate"
Me:" welcome to the family Kate" we got busy with breakfast
Me:" i will just be a minute "' i said to the girls and then walked to the lounge and Ndivhuwo was not there so i went to his bedroom. I stood at the door debating with myself whether to walk in or not. I was about to knock when I heard him talking
Ndic:" what? Yeah all i need is you and three more guys and that will be enough man power to do the job. We’re gonna have to meet later tonight for more preparations.... Don't worry i will hack into his phone or computer so that i can find out how he plans on doing this and i will follow him....i have enough machines for t-" I opened the door as i was boiling with rage... He was going back...it was happening again. I closed the door and stood there with my chest expanding with anger
Ndiv :" i will call you back " he said that and hung up
Ndiv :" you are supposed to knock and please don't tell me it’s about the girl"
Me:" i really don't care who you f*** although i wish you could have gotten yourself a think girl as compared to that bony curveless thing"
Ndiv:" but you are not think"
Tshili :" i am a size 34 not 26....enough about that...what was that call about?"
Ndiv;" nothing for you to worry about"
Tshili :" nothing to worry about? Ndivhuwo you are planning a fight of some sort...you are talking about guns and hacking....what the hell is going on? I thought we are done with all this...so you guys are going back at it again? "
Ndiv:" you don't have to worry, your husband will be safe"
Me:" what do you mean?"
Ndiv:" i am doing this alone...Eugene is blindly walking into a suicide mission and his grandfather asked me to help him without him knowing about it and i said yes. Thembu and Xolani are not doing this so you have nothing to worry about, Thembu will be safe" i looked at him and gave him one hot slap on the face. He looked at me in horror holding his cheek
Ndiv:" the hell?"
Me :" you of all people knows how i feel about you but you keep saying that i don’t have to worry just because Thembu will be safe? How about you? How about your safety? Ndivhuwo you can't go out there and get yourself killed"
Ndiv:" i am sorry but I have to do this"
Me:" but you promised that you will never do it again..."
Ndiv:" i promised not to get the family involved again or put them in danger and that still stands"
Me:" Ndivhuwo you can't do this…did you ever stop to think about what could happen if something happens to you? How devastated the family would be? Your daughter?"
Ndiv :" and you"
i turned around and walked to the door but he walked to me and stood behind me with his hands stretched out against the door as i was about to open the door. I stood there looking at the door as i felt his scent so close to me. I could feel his warm breathing on my neck
Ndiv:" i am sorry I didn't tell you about it but i knew you'll react like this…I am sorry"
Me:" be careful"
Ndiv:" i always am"
Me:" and i am happy you have a girl"
Ndiv:" i am not…she'll never be you but if she lets me i will try" i turned around and looked at him. The way his eyes burnt into mine was electrifying
Me:" can i tell you something that we should never ever talk about?"
Ndiv:" okay"
Me:" i haven't done anything with him...haven't had sex with him since i came back because i felt like i wasn't ready...but right now...right now i wanna give it to you so bad...I wish you could be the one to do it first after so many months" i said and wiped off a tear
Me: I wish it was possible to undo everything" He cupped my face and kissed me on my mouth...i stood there and let him. My whole body was electrified and i wanted it with him so bad
Me:" i am so sorry for everything" he smiled looking at me
Ndiv:" this right here is what makes me feel better" i raised an eyebrow
Ndiv:" the fact that you love me too and that you want me as much as i want you...I am not alone in this" i smiled
Ndiv:" so stop worrying, I am leaving tomorrow for this thing with Eugene and i will be safe i promise"
ANDANI
Tshililo walked back to the kitchen after a while. I was busy cooking with the ladies when my phone rang
Me:" hello" i was hoping that it could be Eugene because I didn’t know the number. I walked out of the kitchen and went outside
Luu:" hey Andani its Lusani here" i smiled
Me:"'hey Luu how is everything?" he sighed
Luu:" bad Andi..Eugene is losing it" what did he do now?
Me:" what's happening? "
Luu:" please don't tell him about this call because he will kill me forever talking to you"
Me:" Eugene will never kill you; yes he can get angry but not kill you"
Luu:" he almost killed me yesterday"
Me:" no Eugene will never do that to you"
Luu:" he shot me Andi....he was ready to kill me when Kat walked in....she saved me and he wanted to kill her for it" oww Kat
Me:" Kat is with him?" the mention of Kat's name was a threat enough
Luu:" no she is with me...taking care of me but she is leaving this afternoon for Cape Town...he is out of control Andi, i don't know what to do anymore...you are the only person i know who could help him"
Me:" so you say he is really bad huh?"
Luu:" very…he fired me after trying to kill me"
Me:" i don't know how i could help because he is also angry at me"
Luu:" keep trying and please don't mention my name....I’ve never seen him like this"
Me:" okay thanks Luu, i wil make sure that he don't kill you and as for Kat...should i be worried?"
Luu:" no...she is over him"
Me;" thank you" I stood there and not know what to do.
ZwiLife
Chapter 15
ANDANI
I tried contacting Eugene throughout the afternoon but he made it a point to ignore my calls. All he did was sending me an sms informing me that he was too busy to talk and that he loved me. I tried calling him even after that sms but i was totally ignored. Having Eugene ignoring me kinda hurt...I was going insane.
So we had breakfast together as a family. It was weird to see Ndivhuwo with a girl but it was also refreshing...i felt like the odd one out though...like i was crowding them.... I mean i was the 5th person on the table...That sucked. After breakfast we washed the dishes and did a little bit of cleaning and then Tshililo drove me to the doctor. She was excited about this more than me
Tshili :" here we are" she said with a smile as soon as she parked the car at the parking
Me:" yeah" i rubbed my hands on my thighs
Tshili :" you want me to come in?" i smiled
Me:" of course...when do you plan on having more kids anyway" I said opening my door and she did the same and we walk out
Tshili :" i don't think i want to have another child"
Me:" but you only have one"
Tshili:" technically i have two...Thembu has another son with another woman"
Me:" so you're okay with two?" she looked at me as if she was thinking
Tshili:" I’ve been through way too much and the idea of being pregnant and fragile for 9 months scares me to death...i have lost one child because of the gangster life and i almost lost my first one due to this life as well so i just can't do it again...it scares me"
Me:" ow" this girl was damaged and looking at her giving me her pained smile i knew i didn't want to be her...i just didn't. She had lost herself...it was as if she was just trying to get by.
Me:" let’s go in" we walked inside.
After about 30 minutes inside the consultation room we walked out after being given some vitamins. Tshililo was happy to look at my baby. The Doctor said the baby was healthy and that nothing was wrong. That was great news. Eugene didn't think i was capable of carrying this baby full term and that kinda hurt....how could he think that? No scratch that...how could he say something like that in my face huh? I took out my phone and sent him an sms
“I went to the Doctor and the baby is healthy...Tshililo was with me but i would have loved for you to be here” after the sms we walked out of the building
Tshili :" you wanna go for some lunch?" she said as soon as we walked out of the building
Me:" is it Christmas? " she laughed
Tshili:" oww i see you are trying to be funny...anyway you are safe with me so let’s do this"
Me:" okay" i smiled and we walked all the way to my car. We drove to Nandos...yep all i needed was some meat. We picked a table and then a waiter came and took our order
Me:" so you and Ndiv...what's up with you two?" okay she was shocked...so she thought i was too dumb to notice huh?
Tshili:" what about us?"
Me:" he was looking at you funny this morning...well not really funny but there was something on the way he was looking at you...it was intense man...if i didn't know better I’d say he loves you" she just smiled and looked away
Me:" oww s*** he is in love with you?"
Tshili :" it’s complicated "
Me:" uncomplicate it for me" she looked at me and breathed
Tshili:" he is my ex" huh
Me:" how? You left him for his brother? "
Tshili:" We didn't know he was Thembu’s brother so i dated him after Thembu and i divorced but Thembu and i got back together and then later found out that Ndivhuwo was family... He is a good guy and i still feel something for him but i can't act on it because it could cause more trouble than we could both swallow...he loves me and Thembu loves me too so it is what it is...Ndivhuwo is family and we can't possibly stay away from him for long but me and him can never happen. He is too dangerous and i really don't wanna break his heart again and bring out the animal in him....there is no telling what could happen if the brothers starts fighting again" okay i thought my life was messed up but nooo...their life was way too messed up
Me:" so you say Ndivhu is dangerous? He seems friendly though...He loves joking around"
Tshililo :" and underneath that it’s an animal we don’t wanna unleash"
Me:"' and i thought my Eugene was the only animal out there"
Tshili:" how are you guys by the way? I mean wasn't he supposed to maybe sleep over and take you to the Doctor?"
Me:" i honestly don't know what's happening...he is pissed at me actually and he said he can’t stand the site of me...he's never done that before so i am actually scared right now"
Tshili:" ncoo I am sorry...he will come around okay...he loves you...there is no doubt about that"
Me:" thank you" the waiter brought our food and we ate.
After lunch with Tshililo we drove back to the house. I was feeling much better...we were back to being friends again...I kinda liked her. We got home and she parked the car and we got out
Me:" uhm...i wanna make a phone call do you mind?"
Tshili:" as long as it’s not a cab" i looked at her and we laughed
Me:” relax i have learned my lesson”
Tshili:” cool then” i turned around and took out my phone and called Vhusani
Vhusi:" Hello"
Me:" hey bestfriend "
Vhusi:" i am not sure about that"
Me:" what happened now?"
Vhusi:" Eugene came to my place and took me to some house where i spent the night. They fed me all this lies that i am supposed to tell the detectives just in case they come to me" she was talking fast and that could only mean she was scared
Me:" you can't say anything to the cops"
Vhusi:" you think i don't know that already? Just because i am not dating a criminal doesn’t make me stupid" she started sobbing
Me:" Vhusani i am sorry"
Vhusi:"'i was better off not knowing all this Andi, you should have let me be angry and eventually i was gonna get over it...it would have been much better than the actual truth....i am always scared now...can you believe that Eugene's guy threatened to kill me if i say anything to the cops?"
Me:" he did? Eugene will never have you killed" i mean he really wouldn't would he? No he wouldn't
Vhusi:" really? Do you think he'd choose my life over everything he has?" i stood there and swallowed as tears fill up my eyes
Me:" he wouldn't" i was whispering. I refuse to believe that Eugene could kill my best friend
Vhusi:" keep believing that"
Me:" he loves me and he knows how much you mean to me" i was shouting
Vhusi:" he is a criminal who would do anything to protect himself, all i have to do right now is make sure that i don't say anything to the cops because it could mean the end of me" Eugene would never hurt her though, no matter how bad he was he wouldn't do that. I was trying so hard to convince myself that Eugene wouldn't kill Vhusani...could it be that i was doubting him too and that's why i was trying so hard to convince myself?
Me:" you don't know him like i do" i said angrily
Vhusi:" if you say so"
Me:" i love you and i am sorry"
Vhusi:" apart from everything else i am still trying to figure out how you could stay with someone like him"
Me:" its love...he gets me and he respect me and he loves me"
Vhusi :" okay then...let me get back to my work"
Me:" okay i love you"
Vhusi:” bye Andani”
TSHILILO
I left Andani to make a call and walked to the house. I ran into Ndivhuwo walking out of the house
Ndiv:" hey"
Me:" hi"
Ndiv:" uhm i will see later neh....i have to go check on Kate and then go to my house to prepare for Eugene backup"
Me:" cool then and ow about this morning"
Ndiv:" yah?"
Me:" i am sorry about everything...you really deserve to be happy with someone and i shouldn't remind you of us...it was stupid of me" he smiled
Ndiv:" you don't have to remind me of us because i am always thinking about us but don't worry its different now... It doesn't hurt much anymore so i am cool...you should relax" i smiled
Me:" cool then...try not to get killed tomorrow"
Ndiv:" you know me...i always come out of events like these unkilled"
Me:" wow so you've officially added that word into the English vocab huh?" he smiled
Ndiv:" i am creative like that" he patted my back and walked away.
I walked to the house and found my Thembu sitting in the lounge. I was feeling guilty about what i did this morning with Ndivhuwo...i shouldn’t have let him kiss me and i shouldn’t have talked with him the way i did. I wished i could just come clean and confess to him what happened so that i can get rid of the guilt but that alone could end what i have with him and it could also ruin the relationship between Thembu and Ndivhuwo so i didn't wanna do that to them. Is it safe to say i was just confused? I mean i loved Thembuluwo with all my heart and i knew he was the one i wanted to be with and yet i still felt something for Ndivhuwo. I went to him and joined him in the couch
I spent the afternoon with Andani just chilling in the house. Thembuluwo spent some time with us and then he later went to town. In the evening Andani went to bed early and left us alone. Thembuluwo told me to wait in the lounge for few minutes while he prep our room. Okay i stayed in the lounge like he asked and i waited. After about 30 minutes he came back for me. I was excited for this....i know what i said to Ndivhuwo but that's the fantasy i had and this right here was the reality i knew i was gonna get and i was excited about it. I walked into our bedroom with him behind me and the lights in the room were dimmed....only the bedside lamps were on.... I looked back at him and smiled. He had roses scattered on the floor... I couldn't help but giggle...i felt special man... Like all this was worth the wait
Me:” you bought new bedding?” he smiled and picked me up and put me on the bed
Thembu:” i went to @home today...i told you i want it to be special” i looked around the room and i loved the red and white colour theme. Wow our bedroom had always been blue and white and this right here was beguiling. I looked at him and just melted into a smile.
Thembu:” it was all worth the wait Tshili” i looked at him and swallowed
Me:” i am sorry for everything Thembu, just know that i love you...like i really really love you. I know i get confused at times and you’ve battled to trust me but i can’t really blame you...I’ve made mistakes that made you doubt me”
Okay i really wanted to come clean but i couldn’t...it could break him...i was happy to be here with him and i was grateful for all this. I looked around the room and i saw flower vases with flowers everywhere. He left me on the bed and went to switch on the light...God i couldn’t talk or say anything...i was elevated.
Me:” Thembuluwo” there was a big piece of art on the wall. It was a painting of us...and on the left side of it was these words:
“The day we met, Frozen I held my breath, Right from the start, I knew that I'd found a home for my heart...beats fast. Colors and promises, How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone, All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow, One step closer. I have died everyday waiting for you, Darling don't be afraid I have loved you, For a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more. Time stands still, Beauty in all she is, I will be brave, I will not let anything take away, What's standing in front of me, Every breath, Every hour has come to this”
The lyrics of the song took a bigger piece of the wall. Tears started coming out immediately...i know he said he would prepare something special but damn this was too much
Me:’ that’s the lyrics of our song” i said while i wipe the tears off, he came to me and stood in front of me
Thembu:” we played it when we were making love for the very first time”
Me:” oww my God Thembuluwo...i...uhm”
Thembu:” i love you, i really do Tshili...i know I’ve hurt you a lot in the past but this is me showing you that i have changed”
Me” i am so sorry for everything, you really don’t deserve me” he held me tight into his arms
Thembu:’ we deserve each other...we are not perfect but we deserve this” he kissed me on my mouth and i knew i couldn’t betray him...i couldn’t lie to him anymore
Me:” i have to tell you something” i pushed him away and looked at him with tears in my eyes
Thembu:” don’t”
Me;” i can’t lie to you Thembu...i can’t be free knowing that i didn’t tell you this”
Thembu:” you don’t have to say it...you still have feelings for him...i know” what? I looked at him astonished
Me:” you do?” i whispered as i swallow saliva
Thembu:” you love me more and that’s why you chose me” i finally relaxed
Me:” i love you Thembu and i promise to never ever leave you for anyone...not even him” he smiled
Thembu:” we are both adults now Tshili...i know where i stand with you and you know where you stand with me...still my number one”
Me:” i love you” i giggled. He walked back to me and held my waist and then slowly bend over to me and kissed me. He stopped and looked into my eyes
Thembu:’ you can still stop me if you are not ready” i smiled
Me:” i am more than ready” he gave me a peck on the mouth and then went to the little radio that was on the bedside table and put on our song....’Christina Perry – Thousand Years’. God i couldn’t stop the tears...i never thought that after everything that Thembu and i had been through there will be a day when we will be this happy and in love. He came to me and carried me up and i wrapped my legs around his waist and my hands around his neck
Thembu:” i will play this song for us in the next 10 years Tshili”
Me:” i will play it for you after 20 years Thembu...i will always be yours”
Thembu:” always”
Me:’ always” he buried his face on my chest and moved around slowly in circles with me still in his arms. The song was on repeat...he finally put me on the bed and stood in front of me and just smiled
Thembu:” you do know that it won’t take long for me to come right? I haven’t had any in a very long time”
Me:” the night is still young” he leaked his lips and took off his t shirt and came on to me. He cupped my face and kissed me roughly this time around. God i can’t explain the rush of sweet pleasure that travelled through my veins...let alone the drowsiness that made me so weak and submissive...i couldn’t believe i made him wait for this long.
Me:’ i am all yours Thembu”
He stopped kissing my mouth and then went down and leaked my neck...thank God i didn’t have the salty taste in me. He was groaning and holding me so tight and i was enjoying the pleasure of his breath against my skin. He quickly took off my top and then helped me out of my jeans...i was now in my under wears. I helped him out of his jeans and then took off his underwear and held his manhood and bent down so that i can give him a head but he pulled me up and shook his head
Thembu:’ i will come right away if you do that”
Me:” like i said...the night is still young”
I pushed him and he fell on his back and i went down on my knees and sucked on it. He held my head and groaned so loud...i was already wet and even though i wanted him inside of me already...i wanted to make him come first so that when he insert himself in me he won’t have to come too quick. I moved my head up and down as i suck on him. it didn’t take long for him to finally tremble convulsively and i welcomed the bitter/sour liquids inside my mouth. I closed my mouth and allow him to shudder until the end and that’s when i looked up at him with my mouth full of semen and shook my head smiling
Thembu:” f***” he smiled too
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