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Nga tsha matshelo hovha hu Sunday. So nne ndo vuwa late nyana. Nditshi vuwa ndowana mianga dzi busy nau bika. Nne ndo mbodi vuwa ndadi lugisela uya kerekeni. Ndovha ndi tshi ita hezwila zwau lidza kha bennde so I had to be early. Whats funny about this whole thing ndi zwauri musi nne ndisiho huvha huna vhathannga henevha vhanwe vhane vhavha vha tshi khou lidza but now all of a sudden ngauri nne ndovhuya ndi lugaraba nyana lunobva Cape, havhala vhaya dzudziwa fhasi nne ndalidza vhoo, zwipfala zwisi fair khahavho vhano lidza rine vhare zwikoloni risiho. Ndopfa ndi tshi khou takalela nga maanda uya kerekeni ngauri the last time I went to church was in January this year before ndi tshi humela tshikoloni so ndovha ndi khoupfa ndi excited badi. Ndo bva ndaya church, ndori uswika raita zwezwila zwau lugisa zwilidzo. Kereke yo mbo di dzhena, mianga na vhana vhahashu vhoswika vholenga nyana. Service yovha ya mathakheni nga maandesa. After church ro vhekanya zwilidzo, ubva hafho nne nda humela hayani. Ndovha ndi tshi khoupfa ndi tshi khou mangala uri khotsi anga thiathu vhavhona ubva tshe duvha latsha, but ahg ndo sokou humbula uri the less I see him the better.

Khathu mungana wanga o mbo di swika musi nne ndikati na ula.

Khathu:"vhari mini fhedzi?"

Me:"nne ndi grand mngana"

Khathu:"so ri khouya musi ngei?"

Me:"khakula kwana?"

Khathu:"yah"

Me:"ahuna zwinwe, irai ndifhedzise ula hafha, hone una number phone iwe naa?"

Khathu:"yahh, na zwauri uya kudivha iwe hokula kwana mani, u khou kuhumbula kula kukaladzi kwa Magege naa?"

Me:"uhm yah yah ndi khou kuwana"

Khathu:"ndi honokula"

Me:"ku sharp mathina, kukha vhugai nanwaha?"

Khathu:"grade 11"

Me:"perfect"

Ndori ufhedza ula nda tshintsha zwiambaro saizwi ndovha ndotuwa kerekeni ndo ambara zwiambaro zwa formal. Ndo mbo diya nda ambara jean lisadini na tshikhipha tsha simple na mateki. Nne na Khathu robva, ndo mbo di dzhia number phone dza hokula kwana kha Khathu nda mbo di ku founela. Ndo kutalutshedza uri ndi nne nnyi wagai and mashudu mavhuya kovha ku tshi khou nndivha, ndo kuhumbela uri ndi khou toda u kuvhona so, kothoma kwa tonga-tonga nyana ku tshi khou sokouri he he mianga avha tendi ndi tshibva, hehe ndi kha di shuma, mara at the end kofhedzisela kotenda uri kudoda kwa mmbona henefha nga vho 5 ya madekwana. Zwendavha ndi tshi zwifuna ngaha uvha garaba ndi zwauri vhunzhi ha vhana venda vhaya dala nga authi dza magaraba thi, hafhu ndovha ndi tshi zwinyala lunwe hezwila nditshe high school musi authi dzine dzadzhena kule dzitshiri dzovhuya wawana dzi tshi khoula vhana vhothe.

Nne na Khathu roya ravha rodzula car wash hafhala na madzhita. Ndo mbo di humbula Tshili thama yanga (ahg damn I hated calling her that, ‘Tshili mufumakadzi wanga’ yerrr it has a nice ring to it), ndori u humbula ngaurali ndasea ndindothe. Phone ya Tshili yo sokou lila isa fariwi. Ndodovha nda founa hafhu yakona u farwa.

Tshili:"hello", voice yawe yovha I fhasi nga maanda

Me:"hey Tshili uri mini fhedzi?"

Tshili:"nne ndi sharp ene vhoo"

"Ndi nnyi uyo ane na khou amba nae?", li ipfi la munna loamba ngauralo on the background

Tshili:"uhm Thembu wee, I got to go"

Me:"mara Tshi-", thingotsha fhedzisa ngauri phone yo mbo di dropiwa.

Ndodovha nda founa hafhu ndawana yotsimiwa. Ndo mbo di thoma ula mbilu nga murahu ha hezwo. Ndo humela kha vhanwe fhedziha ndovha ndi satsha difhelwa na zwituku-tuku.

Nga vho five ndo founela hokula kwana and by the way kupfi Sharon. Ndo mbo diya ndarenga masimba haya a mazennge ha madzhiga na juice nyana. Ndo tangana na hokula kwana nga haningeno ha madzhiga. Kunwana kwahone kovha kusi bad naluthihi or irani ndi touri kovha konaka thiri. Kovha ko diambarela skinny jean na All star na ku top kwavhudi hangeno ntha. Rori utangana ra hagani, ra tshimbila ri tshi khou yela nga hangei MTG, rori ritshi swika badani yauyela Tshiulungoma 2 rakhona nga hanefhala raswika ravha roima hunwe fhasi ha muri nyana. U tou amba ngoho neh, nwana ovha a hot and all that mara kha nne mbilu yovha I mpheni muthu a dzimauli, ndovha ndi tshi khou balelwa u hangwa nga Tshili na zwauri thidivhi uri hoguma hoitea mini khae. Fhedziha ndo lingedza u entertainer nwana wa vhathu saizwi ndovha ndonovha nae kale, ro zuwa, ra ita mihani, rasea mara nne ndovha ndi tshi khou tou dikombetshedza. Ndovha ndomufha masimba haala ma juice atshi khou zwila. It was not bad though, hu touvha uri ndivhona unga zwoitea nga duvha lisi lone. Aringo spendesa tshifhinga tshilapfu rirothe lini ngauri ndovha ndi khou shavha uri nwana wa vhathu uya swika hayani vhusiku. Past 6 to 7, ndovha ndi tshi khou fhelekedza Sharon hayani. lavhusiwana na lone ndori uli posa nwana asokou setshelela asa gumi, nga mbilu ndari hafha ndo wina. Ndo swika raima mudini muthihi ubva hahawe.

Me:"so ndido muvhona matshelo?"

Sharon:"after school"

Me:"a tshi ngo vala mathina?"

Sharon:"Tshovala but not Azwifarwi lini, grade 10 to 12 ri khadiya uswika nga Lavhuna"

Me:"owk ndidoda nda mudzhia tshikoloni then"

Sharon:"owk"

Me:"khade ndi mufhe hug habe", tsho mbo di sendela tsini na nne tshi tshi khou shonelela. Hei vhana vha mahayani vhadina zwezwi, nne rodowela vho Sibu na vho Nolundi vhasa tshinyi watch. Ndori ufhedza u hug Sharon nda khona ndayela Car wash. Ndoswika haningei ndavha ndodzula na majita nyana.

Vho past 8 nga madekwana ndo mbodi decider uya hayani. Ndori ndi tshi bvisa founu yanga tshikwamani nda wana huna mulaedza ubvaho kha Rendi, wovha wonwalwa hezwi "Thembu nigai? Baba vha khourwa mma", damn.

Me:"khathu wee, inwi ndi do nivhona nehh irani nne ndi gidime"

Khathu:"ari tuwe ndido ni humela mudini"

Me:"nahh ndidovha sharp, irani ndi tuwe", thi ngo tsha lindela khathu atshi fhindula. Ndo gidima ndolivha hayani ngeno muhumbuloni wanga hu tshi khouda mihumbulo minzhi-minzhi yoyaho ngau fhambanana. Ndo swika nda dzhena nga gethe ndawana Thendo na Rendi vhodzula nnda munangoni. Ndo swika ndi tshi khou femeleka nda thoma ndaita hezwila zwau kwatama ndosedza fhasi ndofara magona ngauri  ndovha ndoneta.

Me:"Rendani hu khou itea mini?", ndoralo ndi tshi khou lingedza uima

Rendy:"baba vho sokou vhuya vhokambiwa, vhavhudzisa uri inwi nigai, then mma vhari avha divhi, ndihezwi vhatshi thoma u semana ngaha tshelede uri mmawe vhavhafhe tshelede yevhavha vho vhafarisa yanu yau humela tshikoloni ngauri vhari vha khou toda ui shumisa then mma vhahana, ndihafho he nndwa yathoma hone " oralo mitodzi I tshi khou rotha. Mbilu yanga yo vhavha musi ndi tshi pfa uri mianga vha khou rwiwa nga nthani hanga

Me:"zwino vhagai?"

Rendani:"vhanduni", ndovha ndi khou pfa pain khulu nga ngomu hanga. Naa khotsi anga vhatovha phukha de mara ngoho?

me:"dzulani henefho vheiwe thi", nne ndo mbo di dzhema nduni, u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndi tshi kho tou tama huna zwine ndanga ita u protector vhana vhahashu kha nyete hei. Ndopfa phosho khathihi na gugudu-gugudu kamarani ya vhabebi vhanga. Mianga vhovha vhatshi khou tavha mukosi.

Dad:"nido nndivha zwavhudi namusi, mmbwa henei ya musadzi, noda hafha nisina na fokolo mara zwino nivho toda ulanga tshelede yangai"

Ndopfa khotsi anga vhatshi ralo musi ndi tshi khou sendela tsini na munango, ndo zama uvula vothi ndawana lo khiiwa. Ndopfa gudu gudu futhi, ndovha ndi tshi khou zama u tshetshelesa uri vha khotou vharwa nga mini but I couldn't understand. Ndobva ngau gidima ndaya kitshen, ndovha nditshi khou toda tshithu tshine tshanga nthusa u vula vothi. Mbilu yanga yovha I tshi khou rwela ntha, my mom's life was depending on me. Mitodzi yovha itshi khou rotha. Ndo tinga-tinga ndawana piki, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri ido shuma naa but I had to try, ndo swika nda gidila vothi, fhedzi lisi vulee, ndo dovha ndazama futhi, zwe vhutoto. Ngoho hezwila zwine navhona vhathu kha mimovie vhatshi sokou bvuvhula vothi lo khiiwa nehh, kha real life azwi itei shame, vothi la khiiwa lo khiiwa. Ndo mbo di zwihumbula uri hafhu nne nndu yahashu aina butler proof, so ndo mbodi dzhia linwe bulannga nyana na piki yeneila ndaya nnda nga haningei kamarani.

Dad:"ndenwa yenei ndido ni sumbedza namusi, no dzhia zwa mianui"

Mom:"kha vha mpfarele khotsi a Thembuluwo"

Dad:"ndiuri mushumo ndiu dzhia tshelede ni tshi isa kha vhanna vhanu hangei kerekeni"

Ndovhapfa vhatshi ralo musi ndi fasitereni. Ndo swika nda kwasha fasitere, khotsi anga vhatshi vhona uri fasitere lo kwashiwa vhada vhatolela, avhongo kona uvhona uri ndi nnyi ngauri ndombodi dzumbama nga luvhondo, vhori musi vhonobva fasitereni nda tolela ndavhona vhatshi khouyela vothini, ndo vhea hezwila zwithu fhasi nda gidima ndaya udzhena nduni, ndo mbodi tangana na khotsi anga kitchen.

Dad:"huna muthu okwashaho fasitere hafho nnda", ndovha ndina mbiti nnzhi nga maanda, so ndo mbodi doba pani yeyavha I ntha ha tshitofu ndavha shela ngayo khofheni, hotouvha mashudu mavhuya ngauri nama yeyavha ingangomu yovha isitsha fhisa, vhori vhatshi khadi tinga tinga uri hoitea mini nda vha doba nga mulenzhe vhawela fhasi, ndo mbodi dzhia yeneila pani yeyavha I henefho ndavha mbombonya thoho yothe hei, vhatshi kani kani ndavha ndi tshi khou vha posa nga mavili oimaho ngauri, ndovha ndokwata hezwila zwau fhedzisela. Ndopfa uri ndi khou toda vhatshifa, I really wanted him out of our lives for good. Rendani na Thendo vhopfa godo-godo kitchen vhada uvhona uri mulandu,

Me:"iyani kamarani vheiwe"

Thendo:"Thembu"

Me:"ndori iyani kamarani mani", vhana vho mbodi hwenya vhaya kamarani vhatshi vhonala vhotshuwa, I felt bad for scaring them. Tshifhatuwo tsha khotsi anga tshovha tshono dala malofha, fhedziha ndovha ndi sa khou toda uvha litsha, mianga vhombodi bvelela vhaima vhantsedza in shock

Mma:"Thembuluwo?", she looked horrible, vhovha vhozwimba mulomo hoyu u muhulu-hulu, mato aritsha amba, muvhili wavho wovha u malofha fhedzi. Mbiti dzanga dzo tou nana nne Ndavha ignora ndanga thingo vhapfa, nd otakuwa kha khotsi anga, nda ima nda thoma uvha bvuvhulekanya muvhili wothe, ndovha ndi tshi khou toda uvha pfisa vhutungu hothe he vhavha vha tshi vhupfisa rine na mianga tshifhinga tshothe, I wanted him to pay for the emotional damage he had done to us

Mma:"Thembuluwo vhalitsheni mani", ndoisa phanda nau vha rahekanya nditshinga mianga thingo vhapfa.

Mma:"Thembuluwo please nwananga don't be like him", vhoralo vhathukhula tshililo tshi tungufhadzaho. Mbilu yanga yo mbo di khathuwa and I looked at my dad and what I had done to him and cried. Ndopfa uri na nne ndifana navho, ndopfa uri na nne ndo no tou shanduka phukha, ndi ita hani zwithu zworaliho kha mubebi wanga. Ndopfa mbilu yanga I tshi khouswa. No man nne thifani na khotsi anga na luthihi, ndo humbula ngauralo ndo vhasedza mitodzi yanga I tshi khou rotha. Ndopfa ndi si tsha divha ntsu na tshena, ndovha ndisa divhi uri ndi ite mini.

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Ndopfa ndi tshi khou balelwa u zwi kholwa uri nne Thembuluwo ndoita hezwi zwenda ita namusi. Ndopfa ndina nyofho khulu nga maanda, ndo vha ndi tshi khou ofha uri what if na nne nda aluwa ndanga vhone, khezwi namusi ndo bvisa mavhala anga a vhukuma. Mitodzi yo nana u rotha musi ndi tshi khou humbula ngauralo.

Me:"mma", ndoralo ndo vhasedza ndasedza khotsi anga mitodzi yo mbo di tou nana ubva

Me:"ndifana navho", ndori u ralo ndaya kamarani yanga, ndowana Thendo asiho, udovha a kamarani ya Rendani.

Ndo swika nda vala vothi nda khia nda mbo diya begeni yanga. Ndovha ndo divhudza uri thingado vhuya ndavuwa ndodaha fola dzharatani yahashu but this was too much, I couldn't take it anymore, ndopfa uri I needed something to make me feel better. Ndoya nda hohonyola begeni yanga ndabvisa pocket ya cigarrete na lighter, ndobvisa cigarette nthihi ndai funga, ndoya nda vula fasitere ndaima henefho nda li hoba. Naa ho itea mini kha nne mara ngoho? Ndivhona unga zwo Itiswa nga nyofho nau witnesser abuse every day, ndizwone zwo itaho uri ndi acter ngaurali. Ndori ndo no fhedza udaha heila cigarette ndapfa uri ndi khou toda something tshine tshado bvisa muhumbulo wanga kha hei mihumbulo yendavha ndinayo, ndopfa ndi tshi khou balelwa u tanganedza zwenda ita. Ndo mbo di founela Sharon, yolila luvhili ai fara.

Sharon:"hey"

Me:"hey o dzhena hani hayani?"

Sharon:"zwavhudi nga maanda"

Me:"eish thi ngo pfeledza u muvhona mah"

Sharon:"matshelo aliho kule xem"

Me:"please kha ite plane namusi vhathu"

Sharon:"oww Thembu ndingasi kone"

Me:"bbe washu, ndi khou tou luvhelela mah",

Sharon:"eish"

Me:"please, kani hana ndavha na nne ene?"

Sharon:"ndina ndavha"

Me:"then khaite plane ai", ndo mbo di dropper founu, ndovha ndi khou pfa ndo kwata and then I remembered uri nwana wa vhathu u hayani and ubva zwingasi leluwe na luthihi lini. Nga murahu ha 10 minutes o mbodi ntsendela whatsapp yauri ndi bvelele nga vho 10. Ndo mbodi takuwa nda khiulula vothi ndabvela nnda,, ndowana khotsi anga vho no tou dzula kha tshidulo kitchen vhofara ngilasi ya madi. Ndo mbo di khona ndayela kamarani ya vhabebi vhanga, ndo swika nda khokhonya.

Mma:"nga ngomu"

Me:"mma sorry"

Mma:"holuga"

Me:"ndi serious mma"

Mma:"rido amba ngazwo matshelo Thembu"

Me:"owk ndi khou thoma ndaya ha Khathu nne, I can't do this"

Mma:"uita zwifhio"

Me:"mma ndoneta nga zwithu zwafhano, avha vhone namusi ndo ita mini", ndo mbo di khona ndayela kitchen uri ndibvele nnda. Ndowana khotsi anga vhatshi khou lingedza u takuwa.

Dad:"he...he I....nwi ...Thembu", vho vha vhatshi pfala sa muthu are vhutunguni. Mudzimu nthuse ndikone u kondelela galaha heli khazwine la khou toda u amba. Ngoho ndiya uri ndovha ndi tshi khadi toda uvha likita nditshiya phanda. He was the damn reason why ndi tshi khou dipfa nga hei ndila.

Me:"Ndaa"

Dad:"I..I...dani hafha....mu....muthannga", vhovha vhatshi khou tou kombetshedza u amba, ngoho ndi tou tama arali ndovha ndina kubilu kwau vhapfela vhutungu, but I didn't. Ndo mbo di vhafara nga khola ya hemmbe

Me:"ndidovha ndipfe hutshipfi vhorwa mianga, ndido vha sumbedza sumbe nne, hezwi zwenda ita namusi ndi zwituku nga maanda, I will do worse" ndo amba maipfi hayo au fhedzisela nga ipfi lela tshuwisa na nne mune. ndo mbo di vha litshedza ndabvela nnda. Ndori ubva nda founela khathu mungana wanga.

Khathu:"Smogo"

Me:"munna khou toda thuso mah"

Khathu:"ambai ndipfe"

Me:"do nthusa nga room yau mah", khathu ovha ana room heila ine yavha thungo na main house.

Khathu:"zwalini zwezwo muthannga wanga?"

Me:"zwa namusi"

Khathu:"Eeesaahhhn, ndi khou tea utoda hau edela musi zwino arali iwe utshi khou toda uda ngeno"

Me:"itai pulane mutukana wanga"

Khathu:"owk, udoda nga tshifhingade iwe?"

Me:"ndi ngada nazwino arali iwe u sharp uri u mphe key"

Khathu:"swikai", ndo mbo di hwenya asi zwila ndaya ha khathu. Ndo swika nda dzhena ndayela hangei one rumuni yawe. Ndo khokhonya khathu a mbo di vula.

Me:"sure ntwana"

Khathu:"ni vhonala ni tshinga no dinalea Thembu mulandu?"

Me:"nahh ndi right, its nothing to stress about"

Khathu:"mara zwauri ni nga amba na nne nia zwidivha mus?"

Me:"yahh"

Khathu:"khedzi key, nne ndido edela na murathu wanga hangei nduni khulwane but ndido tea u maker sure uri vhabebi vhanga vhasi mmbone"

Me:"owk ahuna stress, kha riye u khona ha majiga mahh"

Khathu:"u itani naa lokovhela"

Me:"khou toda u thoma ndawana mbili"

Khathu:"mbili as in alcohol?"

Me:"yeah" u tou amba ngoho ndopfa uri halwa ndi khou vhutoda, I couldn't deal with this anymore.

Khathu:"uhm Thembu, I thought uri ninwa musi ni tshikoloni fhedzi"

Me:"munna kha ri sokou tuwa mahh"

Khathu:"mara hu khou itea mini kha iwe?"

Me:"eish munna ndi do u vhudza linwe duvha, zwazwino khariye ha madzhiga uri ndikone uya udzhia hokula kwana", nne na khathu ro tuwa raya ha madzhiga. Nne ndo swika haningei nda wana mangolo-ngolo mavhili a lite, ndo anwa ndafhedza ndi songo vhuya nda tshinya watch, ndovha ndi tshi khou daha na fola nga thungo. Ndovha ndi  tshi khou toda lavhuraru musi khathu atshi ri "hai mahh Thembu litshani hezwi zwithu"

Me:"mini?"

Khathu:"ni khou toda uya udzhia nwana wa vhathu no kambiwa naa mah muthannga?"

Me:"mara thi ndi kho tou wana yau fhedzisa naa"

Khathu:"hai mahh, 10 yonovha tsini nau tshaya nahone hai"

Me:"owk khari tuwe"

Khathu:"nne thinga ni fhelekedzi hangei kha muthu wanu"

Me:"ari tuwe ai, inwi ni dotou fhambana na rine musi ronovha tsini nau swika hahanu"

Khathu:"owk sure", ndovha ndono vhupfa nyana zwitukutuku. Ndotuwa na khathu, raswika ra ima khonani kule nyana naha Sharon. Ndo mbo di senda message wauri ndo lindela, a mmbudze a tshi khou bva. O senda munwe murahu ari holuga nahone u khou lindela hu tshi vha safe tshothe akona ubva. Ndodzula na tshomi yanga rolindela hokula kwana.

Khathu:"munna ani mmbudzi uri hobvelela mini naa?", thaidzo ngarine vhathu vha vhathannga ndiya uri, unlike vhasidzana, rine asi kanzhi ri tshi kona u share problem na vhangana vhashu.

Me:"ehh munna hai mahh nne ndi sharp"

Khathu:"owk arali u tshi khou ralo"

Me:"yahh ndi khouralo", hu si kale kale Sharon o mbo di senda message wa uri u khou bva. Ro takuwa ra sendela zwituku nyana, uitela uri nwana wa vhathu asi phadzhiwe. Ko mbo di dela nga hangeno heravha rihone. Ori uswika ndari nga hug khulu heyo, ndafhedza ndari kiss nyana.

Me:"ndo livhuwa oda thi"

Sharon:"ahuna thaidzo na luthihi"

Me:"o nnyitela mutakalo wothe uya divha"

Sharon:"hezwo zwi takadza na nne ngoho"

Khathu o mbo di tshimbila phanda nne nda tevhela nga murahu ndina Sharon, ro tshimbila ri tshi khou sea-sea rofarana nanga khundu. Ro ri uswika ha khathu, khathu aya nduni khulwane nne ndasala na Sharon radzhena ngei one rumuni. Ndovha ndi tshi khou pfa ndikhwine nyana fhedziha ndovha nditshe ndokwata and my head was still spinning. U swikha thi ngo vhuya nda munea tshifhinga nne houla nwana. Ndo ri u vala vothi nda likhia nda mbo di thoma u mu khisekanya. Ovha o ambara vhurukhu ha tracksuite saizwi hovha hu madekwana, ndo mbodi sutula ila tracksuite musi ndikati nau mu ita zwithu.

Sharon:"Thembu"

Me:"mhm", ndoralo ndi ntha hae musi ndi tshi khou mukhisa"

Sharon:"ndi...ndi..."

Me:"arali a sa khou toda kha ambe", ndo ralo ndo imisa tshifhatuwo ndo musedza matoni

Sharon:"hai holuga"

Me:"huh uh ene u tounga ha sure"

Sharon:"ndi sure"

Me:"owk"

Ndoisa phanda nau tamba nae nwana. Ndori musi ndonovha tsini nau ita mushumo muhulwane nda mbo diya kha kunwe kubogisi henefho rumuni ya Khathu ndabvisa condom nthihi, ndovha nditshi divha uri condom dzawe dzi wanala gai saizwi nne nae ri vhangana and nahafha rumuni ndonoda lovhalaho. Ndo humela khae ndoi fara nga tshanda, murumba waralo u tambela tshanda. Ndori ndikati na mushumo ndi tshi khouralo uya ngeno na ngei, nda mbodi delwa nga muhumbulo wa zwothe zwoiteaho, thidivhi uri mulandu ndo zwi humbula nga hetshi tshifhinga, but it all came back. Ndo humbula na zwa musi nditshe mutuku. Mitodzi yanga yotoda ubva but ndo humbula uri naa Sharon udori mini. Ndo lingedza u ignora ndaisa phanda nau ita.

Sharon:"Thembu ndia mufuna", what? Ndovha ndisongo lavhelela uzwipfa hezwo. Nwana uyu u khou funa nne kana zwine nda khou muita naa? Ndo mulavhelesa ndawana atshi nga u khou difhelwa tshothe, ndo kombetshedzea u amba uri na nne ndia mufuna saizwi ndovha ndi sakhou toda umu bora.

Me:"I love you too", ndoralo ndaisa phanda.

I couldn't come and maybe zwovha zwoitwa ngauri muhumbulo wanga wovha ukha zwinwe. Ndo lingedza u concentrater zwe vhutoto, ndombodi humbula Sibu nne uri process itavhanye, ndori u mu humbula zwisi vhuye zwatshinya watch. Ndori ufhedza ndaganama nda sedza ntha, Sharon ovha o nambatela kha nne ngeno nne ndoita hezwila zwau siamela zwanda zwothe. Ndovha ndi tshi khou divhona mulandu ngauri nda humbula nga Sibu in order for me to come musi ndina Sharon.

Me:"uhm ndia mufuna thi", u tou amba ngoho ndopfa ndisi sure uri ndi muvhudze uri mini shem, ndopfa uri kha ndi ambe zwine zwa do ita uri nwana wavhathu avhe khwine

Sharon:"I love you too", mara na venda vhana vhano dzhaya vhahone shem, hafhu nne hoyu nwana ndotangana nae namusi nga masiari, mara zwino khezwi ronovha mmbeteni rothe, what if nne ndovha ndi li via vhathu mara ngoho zwavhukuma?

Founu yanga yo mbodi lila. Ndo takuwa ndaya u I doba. Ndo ri ndi tshi sedza screen ndawana hu Tshililo. Ndopfa mbilu yanga itshi vhai nyana. Ndo ambara vhurukhu nga tshipidi ndabvela nnda ndisongo ambara tshikhipha.

Me:"hello", ndo mbo di pfa muthu a tshi khou lila

Me:"Tshililo....Tshili"

Tshili:"mhm", ndo mbo di mona ngahangei murahu ha nndu ngauri ndovha ndi sakhou toda uvhonwa ngavhathu vhahafha mudini.

Me:"Tshililo mulandu?"

Tshili:"Thembu...nn....nne"

Me:"Tshili mulandu", mbilu yanga yovha yonovha mutanani, ndovha ndi tshi khou stressea tshothe zwino, Tshili udovha atshi khou lilela mini naa.

Tshili:"Themb-", ombodi thukhula tshililo tshi vhaisaho na mbilu nwana wa vhathu. And I felt my head pounding, hezwila zwine nari nopfa dzi bad news napfa thoho yanu itshi ndee! Nga luthihi fhedzi, zwoitea kha nne nga wonoyo muthethe.

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Me:"Tshili kha ambe na nne please"

Tshili:"thidivhi uri ndi ite mini kana ndi ambe na nnyi"

Me:"kha ambe na nne Tshili ndido mutikedza misi yothe"

Tshili:"nne ndoneta Thembu...."

Me:"hu khou itea mini?"

Tshili:"nd...ndi Luvhengo...o...o onthwa", eish damn it, manwe maduna neh

Me:"Eish Tshili"

Tshili:"a...a..zwi fheleli afho fhedzi"

Me:"o ita mini futhi?"mbilu yanga yovha I tshi khou rwela ntha, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri ndi khou toda uya phanda nau thetshelesa zwe avha atshi khou toda u mmbudza

Tshili:"o...o...onkombetshedza Thembu", ori uralo adovha a thukhula tshililo. vhanna vhashu, ndopfa nungo dzanga dzothe dzitshi tuwa. Thidivhi uri ndingari thoho yanga yovha I tshi khadi rema naa ngauri zwezwavha zwi tshi khou itea zwovha zwitshi khou fhira na ipfi urema.

Me:"Tshili...u...uri mi..mini?", oisa phanda nau lila Tshili. Ndopfa mutodzi wanga utshi rotha. Ndoya ngeno na ngei ndisa divhi uri ndiite mini

Me:"oya gai zwino?"

Tshili:"thi divhi, ontsia nduni"

Me:"Tshililo please khaye police station ndi khotou muhumbela vhathu khaye mapholisani"

Tshili:"mara ndi...ndi funana nae, vhangasi zwitanganedze uri o....o...n...kombetshedza"

Me:"vhado tenda ngauri ene una mavhadzi a u rwiwa Tshili please do this for yourself"

Tshili:"eish Thembu…"

Me:"Tshili I am begging you"

Tshili:"nne....nd...ndia muofha houla muthu, he is too powerful and anga ntshinyadza"

Me:"mara izwi zwine a khou ita asi u mutshinyadza naa?"

Tshili:"hezwi asi tshithu compared to what he can do to me arali nda muisa mapholisani"

Me:"mara Tshili washu"

Tshili:"ndido ita pulane zwenezwi tshifhinga tshi tshi khouya"

Me:"nahh I will make a plan now"

Tshili:"hai Thembu please, nne ndovha ndi tshi khotou amba na ini ngauri I needed someone to talk too"

Me:"but Tshili I can't sit around and not do anything, kha drope ndido founa after 5minutes"

Tshili:"mara Thembu-"

Me:"kha drope please",

Tshili:"Thembu ni-", ndo mbo di dropper founu asathu fhedza uamba.

Ndovha ndina mbiti nnzhisa hedzo. Ndo mbo di raha luvhondo ngau sinyuwa, damn, pain yenda ipfa kha mulenzhe neh nazwino gunwe lovha litshinga lo rovhea. Mutodzi wo mbodi elela, thina vhutanzi uri wovha u mutodzi wa zwine nne na Tshili ra khou tangana nazwo naa kana wovha u mutodzi wa uri gunwe langa li khou vhavha . Ndovha ndina tshelede nyana kha account yanga. Ndo check balance ndawana ndina R1000 na zwitshakatshaka. Eish ndo humbula uri maybe inga ita zwendavha ndo humbula uita zwone. Ndo dzhia founu nda dialer nomboro ndavhea founu ndevheni.

Yolila luvhili ya fariwa.

X:"Thembu"

Me:"hey X I need your help"

X:"you sound serious, whats the problem?"

Me:"eish X everything is bad hey, I need some money"

X:"thats not a problem, how much do you want?"

Me:"uhm 2 grand, I will give you when I come back"

X:"are you sure thats all you want?"

Me:"uhm I think so"

X:"Thembu you sound like you have a serious problem,  I don't mind helping you hey, any amount you need, I am your boy"

Me:"thanks hey"

X:"and one more thing, if you ever need a piece job, let me know, we have a vacancy available at my firm, we are looking for a new person"

Me:"nahh thanks I will pass"

X:"if you ever change your mind, you know where to find me"

Me:"sure but I don't think I will change my mind hey"

X:"sure thing mfana, I will transfer you the money now"

Me:"thanks", ro ri u dropper nda mbo di humbula nga offer ya X, eish hunga shanduka zwinzhi arali nda I dzhia, ndinga kona u thogomela vhabebi vhanga na vhana vhahashu and ringa sitsha depender kha khotsi anga. The offer was tempting but Hai mani Thembuluwo snap out of it, ri khou amba ngaha u rengisa drugs hafha, zwidzidzivhadzi nga tshivenda, mushumo hoyo asi wa vhathu vha mbilu thukhu sa inwi, ndo humbula ngauralo ndoima nnda. Message wa uri ho dzhena tshelede kha account wo mbo di dzhena. Ndo mbodi dialer Tshililo kha founu.

Tshili:"hello"

Me:"Ndi khou da nda mudzhia zwino neh?"

Tshili:"uhm Thembu ndi tshipengo hezwo ai"

Me:"kha mphe directions and I will be there please"

Tshili:"what if ni tshi swika avha ono vhuya"

Me:"ndido dzhena ndada nda mudzhia nne"

Tshili:"Thembu litshani utamba please"

Me:"ndi serious nga maanda nne ene"

Tshili:"ndido tuwa matshelo vhathu"

Thembu:"hai thi khou vhuya ndatoda helo pfene litshi dovha la muita hezwila zwithu futhi, ndi ndilani neh"

Tshili:"uhm-"

Me:"thi khotou muvhudzisa, ndi khotou mutalutshedza neh"

Tshili:"but Thembu-"

Me:"no buts, ndido muvhudza ndonovha tsini", ndo mbo di dropper founu. Ndo dzhia founu yanga nda founela inwe authi ine ra ivhidza uri Gezile, lol zwauri dzina loda hani ndido zwiamba linwe duvha.

Gezile:"ehh Thembu ndi vhusiku ma munna"

Me:"eish Gezi ndi khou toda thuso yanu mah"

Gezi:"mulandu zwino?"

Me:"ndi khou todana na transi eish"

Gezi:"ehhh munna ni khou toda uya gai?"

Me:"eish Nzhelele, u ngasi kone u tuwa na nne naa mah? its a matter of life and death mfowethu"

Gezi:"eish munna ndingasiye nzhelele zwino, no ways"

Me:"Gezi ndi kho tou luvhelela mahh"

Gezi:"Thembu iwe uya zwidivha uri u mutukana wanga and ndinga takalela u u thusa fhedziha eish ndo no edela nne mtha"

Me:"mphei goloi ndi reileha then"

Gezi:"u khou penga hafho zwino:

Me:"Gezi iwe uya zwidivha urie nne ndia kona u reila mah, na zwauri ndia zwidivha uri goloi hau idzula isina tshithu, ndido ishela yavhuya I full tank mah"

Gezi:"u sure?"

Me:"100%"

Gezi:"owk ndi ndilani"

Me:"owk udo nngwana nga hafha getheni la ha khathu neh" ndo mbo di dropa founu.

Hafhu nne ndovha ndo no tou hangwa na zwauri ndina Sharon hafha. Ndo humela hangei nduni.

Sharon:"that was one hell of a phone call"

Me:"eish sharon something is up, ndi khou tea utuwa mani ene"

Sharon:"uhm ngoho?"

Me:"yeah serious, family crisis nyana so....ndido mutuwisa neh"

Sharon:"so matshelo ri do tangana?"

Me:"yahh of course"

Sharon:"owk", ndo sendela khathu message wa uri something came up so ndi khou tuwa, nahone ndosia nndu ndisongo khia so udo tea uda. O mbodi bvela nnda after few minutes.

Khathu:"manje?"

Me:"eish something is up, ndi dou nwalisela matshelo neh"

Khathu:"sure sure", nne na Sharon robva ra ima tsini na gethe la ha khathu. Hu si kale Gezi o mbo di swika ada rambo di dzhena goloini.

Gezi:"u reile zwavhudi mah munna"

Me:"iwe uya nndivha ai"

Gezi:"sure", Gezi o driver a swika a paka hahawe atsa ampha key, nne ndo dzhena kha sit ya driver nda fhelekedza Sharon. Ndoswika ndaima kule nyana na ha hawe nda mulindela adzhena nda kona utuwa. Ndori musi ndisathu dzhena badani khulwane nda founela Tshililo.

Tshili:"hello"

Me:"hey, ndi khou takuwa zwino neh, hathu vhuya musi?"

Tshili:"uhm ni khouda zwavhukuma?"

Me:"yeah, hathu vhuya musi?"

Tshili:"usually aita zwithu Zworaliho uvhuya nga matsheloni"

Me:"owk, antsendele address ya hune adzula hone nga whatsapp", ndosedza tshifhinga ndawana I tshi khouri past 12, ndinga swika nzhelele ngavho 2 musi, hafhu ndovha ndi tshi dovha ndi tshi khotou driver zwavhudi.

Ndo driver asi zwilaa ndolivha nzhelele. Ndovha ndo noya nzhelele zwenezwi ndi tshi khouya Mphephu resort, fhedziha mashango ahone ndovha ndi sa tu adivha zwavhudi. Ndo driver uvhuya uswika nditshi swika hangei Tshikombani he Tshililo ari udzula hone. Ndo mu founela nda mutalutshedza uri ndi gai. O mmbudza uri ndifare dzifhio ndila. Ndo vha ndotou vhea na founu kha speaker uri a n director zwavhudi. O n director uvhuya uswika ndi tshi swika hafho he avha ahone. Ndo imela murahu nyana uitela uri ndi satou ima getheni vhoo lini. Tshili obva atshi khou tshimbila ngau hwenya atshi khou dela goloini. Ovha o fara na handbag nyana. I couldn't hold myself, ndori u muvhona atshi khou da ndabva goloini, I just wanted to hold her. Ori uswila nda mutanganedza nga hug khulu heyo. Thidivhi uri ringavha ro hagana lwa tshifhinga tshingafhani. Tshili o mbodi thoma u tswimila.

Me:"Tshili its owk now, I am here"

Tshili:"Thembu", oralo atshi khou lila

Me:"shhhh don't cry please, zwothe zwido luga Tshili I will make sure"

Tshili:"Ndo tshuwa"

Me:"I know but ndido mutsireledza nne, kharituwe", ro mbo di dzhena goloini and I drove off.

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Tshili:"zwino ri khouya gai?", oralo nga ipfi lire fhasi

Me:"police station"

Tshili:"mini?"

Me:"yeah u khouya u farisa Luvhengo ene"

Thembu:"no Thembu ndi ngasi kone nne hezwo"

Me:"Tshililo u do zwikona, I will be right by your side"

Tshili:"Please Thembuluwo ndingasi kone, asongo nkombetshedza vhathu, please I can't do it", oralo atshi vho lila atshi pfala otshuwa tshothe. Ndo mbo di paka goloi thungo ha bada.

Me:"Tshili?", ndovha ndo musedza nga lito lau sumbedza u vhilaea tshothe

Tshili:"Thembu ndi khotou ni humbela please, ndi ngasi kone u farisa Luvhengo nne, udo mmbulaya zwa vhukuma, nahone thidivhi na uri why ndihafha, udo rivhulaya rothe Thembu", oisa phanda na tshililo tshawe, eish ndopfa ndisitsha divha nne zwino, I mean ha khou toda uya police station muthu khoyu and I couldn't force her to do it. Tshinwe hafhu, hupfala hutshinga hoyu Luvhengo wahone ha dini nyana, ndo divhudzisa uri nne ndido imedzana nae naa arali anga nngwana.

Me:"Tshili ndido ita plane, you are safe with me"

U tou amba ngoho ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri ndido ita plane ifhio but I was tryng to be a man you know, hafhu arali nda sumbedza vhugoswi hanga zwi dotou ita uri nwana wa vhathu apfe atshi touvha helpless tshothe, but hezwi zwe nda vha ndi khou ita zwovha zwi tshido ita uri apfe ana fulufhelo nyana.

Tshili:"nkhumiseni please, udo mmbulaya" ndo femela ntha ndatsa goloini ndaya nga hangei kha sit ya Tshili. Ndo swika nda vula vothi ndatumba fhasi nda mufara zwanda.

Me:"Tshililo ene ha nga dovha phuli ya muthu musi nne ndi tshi kha di tshila please, hoyu Luvhengo wahone vhuhulu anga namba ari vhulaya rothe, you are not going back to him, zwi khou pfala?"

Tshili:"thi khou toda uni dzhenisa khakhathini nne", oralo atshi khou phumula mitodzi, nau fhumula ovha ono fhumula

Me:"ene wee nne ndi khotou didzhenisa nne mune, kani oto mmbidza afha?"

Tshili:"hai"

Me:"so khalitshe ula mbilu a takalele uri una muthu anonga nne vhutshiloni hawe thi?"

Tshili:"ndi khou livhuwa"

Me:"so can we go now?"

Tshili:"but not police station"

Me:"yahh holuga"

Tshili:"owk", ndo mbo di khona ndaya kha sit ya driver. Ndodzhia founu yanga nda sedza tshifhinga, damn it was past 2 in the morning.

Me:"ndi do toda fhethu hune ranga booker hone nehh, and don't stress I am just being your friend here, thinga todi zwinwe"

Tshili:"ariye fhethu kule nyana"

Me:"owk ari tuwe thungo dzavho Thohoyandou hangei", ndo mbo di thoma u driver.

Ndopfa ndi tshi khou mangadswa ngauri ndovha ndi sa khou kumedza naluthihi, hafhu ndovha na duvha lilapfu vhukuma, hafhu zwinwe zwa zwithu ndi tshi zwihumbula zwovha zwi tshi vhonga zwoitea mbamulovha. Ndo driver asizwila. Roda rawana inwe Lodge nyana ngahafha Thohoyandou, rosala ritshi swika yonovha tsini nau tshaya 4 ya madautsha. Roswika nne ndaya nda booker room vharifha key ra dzhena. Ro swika ndavula rumu. Tshili ovha a murahu hanga, ori udzhena nda mulavhelesa khofheni ndapfa ndi tshi tshuwa. Tshifhatuwo tshawe tshovha tsho tanganana. Ubva murahu hangei ndovha ndi sakhou muvhona zwavhudi ngauri hovha huna swiswi. Naa mathina o tou rwiwa ngaurali?

Tshili:"uhm mulandu?", I was lost of words. Ndopfa ndo kwatela houla Luvhengo wahone, naa u tou vha muthanngade ane arwa musidzana nga iyi ndila? But I guess ndi muthihi na khotsi anga and maybe muthihi na nne.

Tshili:"Thembu?"

Me:"did he do this to you?", o mbo di sedza fhasi

Tshili:"yahh", ndo fara khundu ndo sedza thungo, like arali hovha hutshipfi hoyo Luvhengo wahone ndia divha heavha ahone thi, ndovha nditshi do muita zwia hula nne. Tshili ombodi thoma u rothisa mitodzi.

Me:"no asongo lila Tshili please, come here", ndo mbodi mufha hug.

Ndomangala na wanga mutodzi utshi khou elela, I needed this hug as much as she did, you know sometimes you just want to be close to someone you know cares about you. The feeling of love and care in their heart makes you feel better and Tshili made me feel at peace, ndo pfa ndo vhofholowa ndinae, like I could share my deepest thoughts, ndo pfa uri ndi nga share pain dzanga dzothe and cry in front of her because she had that special effect on me. Hupfi there is always that one girl in every guy's life whom he share his dark deepest pain with and I guess for me Tshililo was that girl. She started crying loudly,  na nne nda thoma u tswimila. Ndovha ndi tshi khou pfa unga life yanga yo ima nga inwe ndila. I mean where to from here? Hayani ndingasi vhudze mianga uri vha farise khotsi anga ngauri na nne ndinga farwa ngauri ndo rwa khotsi anga, nga afha tshili was so terrified of Luvhengo lune ovha asa khou vhuya atoda upfa tshithu nga maxata. Family yahashu yone I khou toda thuso uri I fhambane na khotsi anga and we needed money to do that, nga afha Tshili na ene ovha a khou toda thuso uri a fhambane na Luvhengo and na hanefho hovha hu khou todea yone tshelede khathihi na protection order. Ndo divhudzisa uri ndido zwibva haniha nne Thembuluwo ngeno ndi tshi touvha madzhasi ngauri na nne hafhu tshikolo hovha hu tshi nga namba havha ufhela hatsho ngauri thivhoni khotsi anga vhovha vha tshinga mpha tshelede yau humela Western Cape.

Nga murahu ha tshifhinga tshilapfu nga maanda we broke the hug.

Me:"khaye u tamba thi"

Tshili:"ndo livhuwa Thembu"

Me:"ahuna thaidzo"

Tshili o mbodi tuwa aya utamba, nne ndosala ndo dzula ndi tshi khou kumedza. Ndo sedza tshifhinga ndawana yonovha tsini nau tshaya five. Damn muthu khoyu hango edela vhusiku hothe ngoho zwavhukuma. U ngari ndo mbo di farwa nga khofhe nne ngauri ndo ri ndi tshi karuwa ndawana duvha lo no tou tsha tshothe, Tshili ovha o edela tsini na nne. Ndo vuwa nda dzula nda wana ndo bvuliwa jean yendavha ndo ambara ndosala nga boxer na tshikhipha. So Tshililo ndi ene o mbvulaho vhurukhu. Ndosedza tshifhinga ndawana huvho 9 ya matsheloni. Ndoya bathroom nda swika nda tamba. Ndori uvhuya nda ambara zwenezwila zwendavha ndo ambara. Ndo dzhia founu yanga nda founela Rendani, yo lila isa fariwe and then I remembered that hafhu tshikolo  atshi ngo vala Azwifarwi. Ndo founela mianga, yolila luthihi ya farwa.

Mma:"inwi Thembuluwo mulandu wanu ndi mini mara?", owk I was kinda expecting that from my mom

me:"eish mma"

Mma:"vhuyani fhano hayani ngau bonya ha ito, salini inwi nitshi lala nnda mara ngoho hei"

Me:"mma mungana wanga ovha a khakhathini and ndovha ndi tshi khou fanela u muthusa vhathu, kha vha mpfarele"

Mma:"khathu u khakhathini ya mini zwino ngoho?"

Me:"hu si Khathu, munwe ane nda dzhena nae tshikolo"

Mma:"zwino inwi nori uthusa na sia na khofhe ngeo?"

Me:"mma thi ngo vhuya nda edela na luthihi vhusiku hothe u amba ngoho, mara ndido vhuya nga madekwana nyana vhathu ndi khou toda u awela"

Mma:"mara zwithu zwahone ngohoi"

Me:"vhahani vhone zwino?"

Mma:"haa ndido ita hani nne"

Me:"baba vhagai?"

Mma:"nne thidivhi ngoho, tshe vhabva tsha matsheloni, mara ndo wana lutingo lune lwa khou bva kha khaladzi avho uri udoda matshelo"

Me:"mtzm vha khou da uitani vhala vhoo?"

Mma:"nne thidivhi nwananga, avha khouda u kaidza inwi shuu?"

Me:"ndi khou kaidziwa mini nne, mathina zwi takadza hutshi khou likitiwa vhone duvha na duvha?"

Mma:"mhm nazwino hu tounga zwavhudi ndi zwenezwo"

Me:"vhasongo vhilaela mma, ndidovha ndihone nne"

Mma:"ni tea uvha nihone nwananga ngauri zwasa ralo nne ndido thathedzwa", nne mianga vho lugesa ngoho, hafhu arali hu si nne nehh? Eish ngoho thidivhi

Me:"vha songo vhilaela vhone", ndo pfa ndotakala uri mianga vha khou digogodedza nga nne sa nwana wavho muhulwane.

Mma:"owk mungana wanu uyo wenavha ni khou muthusa uhani ha?"

Me:"eish mma zwi khou kondesa mani vhone, zwavhudi vhudi hotea ndi khou vhuya matshela nne"

Mma:"hu khou itea mini mathina?"

Me:"ndido vhavhudza linwe duvha"

Mma:"arali husi khotsi anu nne ndovha ndi tshi dori vhuyani zwenezwo matshelo, fhedziha thivha thembi"

Me:"thivhoni vha tshi nga ita tshithu nga murahu ha hezwila zwenda vhaita zwone, arali vhadovha ndi kho tou ya police station ngatsha vhukoma"

Mma:"izwo inwi thusani mungana wanu nwananga, nivhuye matshelo, arali havha nazwinwe ndido ni founela thiri?"

Me:"ahuna thaidzo mma"

Mma:"owk ndi zwone"

Me:"ndi a vhafuna mmawe"

Mma:"na nne ndia nifuna muthannga wanga"

Me:"bye"

Mma:"bye"

Ndori ufhedza u amba na mianga nda founela Gezile malugana na goloi yawe, o mbo diri udoda Thohoyandou late nyana ada a idzhia saizwi nne ndo muvhudza uri thinga yeli thungo dza hayani. Ndori ufhedza u amba na Gezile nda edela. Ndo sedza tshifhatuwo tsha Tshili ndapfa mbilu yanga itshi vhavha. Nwana o naka hoyu mara danu vhona uri madithu angaho vho Luvhengo a khou tshinya hani luya lunako ngoho zwavhukuma. Ndovha ndi tshe na khofhe, so ndo mbo di edela. Ndo farwa nga dzinwe khofhe khulu hedzo. Ndo vuwa musi ndi tshi khoupfa huna muthu ane a khou khokhonya sa pholisa munangoni. Ndo vuwa ndawana Tshili atshe o edela sa nwana shame, ovha oneta nwana wa vhathu.  ndo ya nda vula vothi, muthu weavha oima munangoni o mbodi n gavha nga mukulo a ntsukumedza ndawela fhasi, ndogoba-goba nda lingedza uvuwa ndaya khae.

Me:"naa mathina mulandu ndi mini?"

Guy:"mulandu ndi inwi no no khou dzhenelela mafhungo asi anu"

Ndoswika khae ratsemba-tsemba, Tshili na ene o mbo di vuwa nga upfa phosho. Ndo wana Tshili otshuwa a tshi khou tetemela holuya lwau fhedzisela. Ndo tsemba-tsemba na houla muthannga lwe ambodi bvisa tshigidi a mmbombonya ngatsho kha thoho ndawela fhasi. Ndo vha nditshi khou kona uvhona fhedziha thoho yanga yovha I vhutunguni. O mbo di ya aswika a kokodza tshili, ambodi murwa nga mulatela Tshili awela fhasi, nne ndolingedza uvuwa fhedziha nda balelwa.

Guy:"ni khou nnyita nwana wanu neh?"

Tshili:"hai Luvhengo, a...a...."

Guy:"ni tshifevhi nga maanda Tshililo mathina ni khou nnyita izwi?", ori uralo a mbo di sumba Tshili nga tshigidi. Ndo lingedza nga nungo dzothe uri ndivuwe. Musi ndi tshi khouri ndiye kha Tshili, o mbodi tshi ritha houla muthannga, Tshili a mbo di wela fhasi, ndo toupfa unga nazwino ndia lora.

Me:"Tshililooooo!" Ndo tavha mukosi nditshi khou gidimela kha Tshili, ndo swika nda mufara, ndawana asi tsha dzinginyea. Houla muthannga o mbodi sendela tsini hanga a ntsumba nga tshigidi, arali ndangari thi ngo dirundela ndi divha ndi khou zwifha.

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I then heard someone's voice calling my name, "Thembu", ndo tinga tinga fhedzi ndi si muvhone, voice yahone yovha I tshinga ya Tshililo. "Thembuluwo", o mmbidza futhi muthu wahone. And then I tried opening my eyes and yesses it was a damn dream, I woke up in a cold sweat, Tshililo ovha o ntsedza atshi vhonala o tshuwa

Tshili:"novha ni khou tavha mukosi and I got scared, mulandu?"

Me:"uhm Tshili u right?" ndo vha ndo dzhenwa nga inwe dadaration isa vhuyi fhano

Tshili:"Thembuluwo mulandu mathina?"

Me:"ovha afhano Tshililo, he was here", ndo vuwa nda vhanda-vhanda Tshililo hafhala he avha o thuntshiwa hone and she was fine.

Tshili:"Thembuluwo novha ni khotou lora mini mara ngoho?", ndovuwa ndaya vothini nda khiulula vothi nda tolela nnda ndawana asiho. Ndovhuya ngangomu nda tibula ma curtains and there was no one and then I went to the bathroom, na henefho thingo wana muthu and thats when mbilu yanga itshi vhuelela vhudzuloni, so it was really a dream

Me:"so wovha u muloro?", ndovha nd odzula ntha ha mmbete fhedziha ndovha nditshe ndodada

Tshili:"no lora mini Thembu?"

Me:"thi khou toda uamba ngahazwo", I didn't wanna talk about it fhedziha hovha huna tshithu tshihihi tshendavha ndi khou fanela uita. Mybe muloro houla wovha u tshi touvha warning. Ndi khou amba warning yauri Luvhengo u khombo uguma gai and nne I have to be prepared.

Tshili:"I am worried about you, I have never seen you so shaken before"

Me:"and thats the reason why ndi sa khou toda u amba ngahazwo, who go around discussing the things they fear the most huh? Hai mani ai"

Tshili:"owk sorry nne ndovha ndi khou lingedza u thusa"

Me:"eish I know a mpfarele thi?", ndori uamba ngauralo nga mbilu nda ri ‘ndo humbula ndofhedza nne, I am taking X's offer, ndiyone ndila iyothe ine ndanga kona u tsireledza Tshili kha luvhengo, hafhu nne arali ndisina tshithu sa zwine ndavha zwone zwino, Luvhengo uvha akha divha na chance tshau divhuisa kha Tshili but if I give Tshili everything that she wants then ahu nga dovha na need ya Luvhengo vhutshiloni hawe’

Tshili:"founu yanu yovha I khou lila isa gumi, Sharon ovha a khou founa"

Me:"uhm ow", ndo pfa ndi guilty nyana, like Tshili was not supposed to know

Tshili:"ndi ene girl friend yanu muswa?"

Me:"nahh of course not, ndi dzhena nae kereke ai and plus ro dzhena rothe high school", hone nne why ndovha ndi tshi khou zwifhela Tshili? Tts not like nne nae ri khou pfana musi

Tshili:"owk I see", ndo mbo di doba founu yanga nda wana nangoho huna missed calls dza Sharon, ndosedza tshifhinga ndawana huvho past 3 ya masiari, tjoo yeah ndovha ndo neta, thats why ndo edela ngaurali.

Tshili:"uhm ndo dzhia tshelede yeyavha I vhurukhuni hanu ndaya urenga zwiliwa hafho Shoprite ya plaza”

Me:"Tshili wee, obvela nnda?"

Tshili:"uhm yeah, rovha risina zwiliwa and hafha zwiliwa zwahone zwia dura nyana, I didn't wanna spend too much money"

Me:"mara Tshili arali a tangane na Luvhengo afho nnda huh? Kha tshelede na vhutshilo hawe mathina tsha ndeme ndi mini?", ndovha ndi khoupfa o nkwatisa mahh, u tou vhona unga a lovha nne ndinga toupfi wa ha nnyi mara?

Tshili:"uhm sorry Thembu"

Me:"asongo tsha dovha adzhia risk yoraloho mani ene"

Tshili:"mara I don't think uri angada ngangeno nne"

Me:"hella that psycho can be anywhere"

Tshili:"owk and he has been calling me the whole day"

Me:"ndia kholwa hango fhindula"

Tshili:"no I didn't", o mbo di nnekedza founu yawe and there was a message from Luvhengo, wovha o nwalwa hezwi

"Owk whatever game you are trying to play neh, I think its game over now and you are supposed to come back home, hafhu na miawe vhari avha divhi uri ugai"

Me:"mtzm u khou lwala"

Tshili:"khaye kha next message", ndo mbo diya kha une wa khou tevhela, hovha honwalwa hezwi

"Ndo kondelela ndoneta neh, nigai ma Tshililo, hune ndado niwana hone neh? Ndido nisumbedza, ni shavha hani nduni yanga nafhedza na ignora calls dzanga....I will distroy you young girl arali nisa nndivhi zwavhudi", Tshili ovha odzula atshi vhonala otshuwa

Tshili:"this is the end of me Thembu"

Thembu:"take a chill pill owk, I will make sure that he doesn't hurt you"

Tshili:"how?"

Me:"kha zwi litshele nne hezwo", o mbo di rothisa mutodzi

Me:"asongo lila nana thi"

Tshili:"you have no idea uri ndo vha ndi khou shona hani namusi mavhengeleni Thembu, dzi blue eyes idzi? I look ugly"

Me:"o zwifhelwa nga nnyi mara ngoho huh? Onaka serious, blue eyes or not nne ndi khou vhona lunako fhedzi", o mbo di mposa nga ku feisi

Tshili:"I know you will never tell me the truth", owk truth be told, nwana ovha o tshinyalelwa tshifhatuwoni but how do I say that? Sometimes you just have to lie a little to make a girl feel better, hafhu arali nditende uri  ngoho blue eyes dzo mutshinya tshothe ovha atshi donga asa di nembeledza thi

Me:"ndi khou amba ngoho mara, khari ndithome ndi foune neh?"

Tshili:"calling Sharon?"

Me:"khalitshe hezwo ai"

Ndo mbo diya bathroom  ndaswika nda founela X

X:"Thembu mfana"

Me:"Hey X"

X:"so did you come right?"

Me:"not really,  does your offer still stand?"

X:"yeah why?"

Me:"count me in bro, I need cash quickly and I can't think of a better way"

X:"are you sure though, I don't wanna look like a bad influence here"

Me:"100% so how much do you make per months?"

X:"its more like how much do I make per week?"

Me:"oww so how much?"

X:"enough to deposit a vehicle bro?"

Me:"in a week?"

X:"yeah"

Me:"so can you please give me few grands and I will give you when I start getting my salary, my family's life is at stake"

X:"sure thing my man, sure thing, so how much do you want?"

Me:"uhm I want few grands hey"

X:"be spesific Thembu, I can even give you a R100 000 grand if you want"

Me:"I think thats what I need"

X:"consider it done, I will go to the bank tomorrow and make a transfer"

Me:"are you sure you gonna give me that?" ndovha ndo tshuwa

X:"yeah but one thing for sure, you can't change your mind about the job anymore because I will surely need my money back hey"

Me:"uhm....I...yeah I wont change my mind"

X:"cool, I will call my boss right away and when you come back you can meet him"

Me:"sure"

X:"xap"

Ndo dzula kha seat ya toilet and thought about this. Ndo divhudzisa uri sure naa uri ndi khou toda uita izwi zwithu, a drug dealer? Nne Thembululo? Hafhu nda vhuya nda zwithoma a hu tshena u humela murahu, but ahg ndovha ndisina choice nne, life can just push us to a certain direction sometimes naho rovha ri songo divhudza, I never wanted to sell drugs na luthihi vhutshiloni hanga, irani ndi touri I never even thought of being close to someone who sells them, but khezwi namusi, in 2 weeks time ndovha ndi khouda u thoma u rengisa. Ndo dzula bathroom nde goo! Ndosala ndi tshi takuwa nga murahu ndaya kha Tshili.

Me:"orenga zwiliwade?", ndoralo ndi khou vula ma plastic

Tshili:"kha sedze"

Me:"onola ene?"

Tshili:"yahh", ndo mbo di bvisa zwiliwa ndathoma ula. Ovha o renga vhuswa na nama ya khuhu na dzi drinks nyana na mitshelo.

Me:"so ene o tou pfa uri arenga zwiliwa afha udovha  o ntshinyadza badi?”

Tshili:”uhm yahh, and  Thembu plane iri mini zwino? I cant stay here forever ni tshi khou badela tshelede”

Me:”yah ndi khou zwipfa ndi do mutalutshedza neh”

Tshili:”so thi khou humela hayani nne?”

me:”unless you wanna die, uto vhona unga arali a humela hayani Luvhengo a nga mulitsha mara?”

Tshili:”eish”

Me:’ene khalistshe u bilufhala vhathu please, kha smile nyana”, she smiled

Tshili:”mara Thembu ngohoi”

Me:”mini?”

Tshili:”you are sweet”

Me:”ndo livhuwa zwone”, founu ya Tshili yo mbo di lila, she checked tha caller ID

Tshili:”ndi mianga:”

Me:”kha I fare ai”

Tshili:”hello…….mma asi hezwo zwo iteaho……hai mmawe……..vhathu kha vha nthetshelese……….u kho nthwa nne hoyo muthu mmawe ndingasi kone ukondelelela nne, vhone everytime vha sokori udo shanduka atshi aluwa, vhone vha khou vhuya vhavhona hu tshi dovha na tshanduko naa……..vhone vhokondelela khotsi anga ndizwone mara nne ndi khou tea u tambula ufana na vhone naa………mmawe arali husina zwinwe zwa khwine zwine vhanga amba ndido dropper nne……..eish”, o mbo di vhea founu fhasi a fara thoho. Nne ndo mbo di sendela tsini nae nda tumba phanda hawe ndo mufara zwanda.

Me:”Tshililo mulandu?”, o mbo di rothisa mutodzi

Tshililo:”mianga vhari khandi mukondelele Thembu, like she don’t give a damn about the pain that he causes in my life, ndi mmede ano ita izwo zwithu huh?”

Me:”Tshili nne ndivhona unga miawe ene vha khou itiswa ngauri vha a zwidivha uri ene arali a talana na Luvhengo zwido thoma ukonda mudini, its not like she don’t care but vha khotou vhona uri arali ene a talana na Luvhengo na tshikolo tshidovha tsho mufhelela so don’t blame her"

Tshili:"mtzm nne ndi tou vhona unga avhana ndavha na nne vhana ndavha na zwine zwa todiwa nga Luvhengo fhedzi”

Me:”a si hezwo na luthihi”

Tshili:”vhari kha ndi vhuye”

Me:”there is no way that you are going back home Tshili, ene udo humela tshikoloni afhano”

Tshili:”Thembu tshelede yau badela afha fhethu ni khou iwana gai inwi?”

Me:”ene khadzike please”

Ndo mbo di wana call yeyavha I tshi khoubva kha Gezi atshiri u ndilani u khouda udzhia goloi yawe.

Me:”ndidobva ndaisa goloi kha mune wayo neh? And ndi khou humbela uri ene asongo vhuya abva please”

Tshili:”owk”, ndo dzula ndamusedza Tshili, one day I will marry this girl, ndori u humbula ngauralo nda setshelela ndindothe.

Tshili:”uhm hu khou takadza mini?”

Me:”uhm ahuna”, ndori uralo ndabva ndofara key dza goloi

Me:”I will be back in 15 minutes thi?”

Tshili:”owk”