Zwi
a Penga – Insert 81
Mianga
dzo mbo di dzhena kamarani yanga
Mme:”ndo
takala zwone novhuya”vho vha vhana smile tshihulu
Me:”na
nne ndo takala mma, nndu yo naka hei yoh”
Mma”nga
maanda nwananga, zwino goloi ndi ya uyu Xolani?”
Me:”ndi
yanga”
Mma:”mini?”
Mme:”ee
mma ndi goloi yanga”
Mma:”Thembuluwo
no renga goloi inwi?”
Me:”mma
after everything zwine ndono zwiita vhangatwa vha tshi khou mangadzwa nga goloi
mara”
Mma:”ni
khotou shuma ni?”
Me:”ndovha
talutshedza uri Xolani hahawe huna dzi business mma and dzi khou tshimbila nga
maanda and family yahawe yo mpfela nga maanda vhutungu kha situation heila ya
baba”
Mma:”ndi
vhathu vhau luga vhukuma thiri?”
Me:”nga
maanda mma” ndovha ndi tshi kho tou tama uri ngavhe na nne ndivhe ndina
tshivhindi tshau talutshedza mianga ngoho sa Xolani, ndo divhudza uri ndido tea
u muvhudzisa uri miawe o zwi kona hani uvha talutshedza, nne ndivhona unga
mianga vha nga wa nga vhulwadze ha mbilu eish
Mma:”na
hoyu muthannga Xolani u vhonala a muthu o lugaho vhukuma”
Me:”ha
dini na luthihi mmawe, o nndugela nga maanda houla muthannga”
Mma:”huna
zwiliwa thiri, ndiamba arali vheiwe ni na ndala”
Me:”rido
thoma raya u tolela Khathu eish, ndi khou vhona uri udo vhona unga nne ndi
khotou mulata ngau vhona ndina thama yanga ya tshikoloni vha khou zwivhona?”
Mma:”afho
ni khou amba zwone” ndovha ndi tshi khou toda u vhudzisa mianga ngaha khotsi
anga but ndo mbo di dzhia tsheo yau zwilitsha zworalo.
Mma:”irani
nne ndiye u fhedzisa zwendavha ndi khazwo thiri”
Me:”owk
mma” ndosala nda dzhia phone yanga nda founela bbe wanga. Tshifhinga hovha
huvho past 3 nga masiari
Tshili:”bbe
wanga”
Me:”nana”
tshili:”o
tshimbila hani?”
me:”zwavhudi
nga maanda bbe, ndo tou tuvha ene vhathu”
Tshili:”nne
ndo mutuvha worse mani ene, ono swika kale hayani?”
Me:”yeah
hu hani nga ngeo hahawe?”
Tshili:”hu
sharp nga maanda, mianga na vhone vho takala ndovhuya and murathu wanga na ene
o ditakalela”
Me:”hathu
vhona Luvhengo?” owk honestly neh, I was a little worried nga Luvhengo, houla
nwana Tshili a vhona Luvhengo u a dada zwa serious badi
Tshili:”bbe
please ai”
Me:’owk
mara ndi serious asongo mutshuwa bbe, if a sendela tsini na ene fhedzi a
mpfounele please ndido vhonana nae”
Tshili:”bbe
zwi khou pfala and asongotwa a khou vhilaela nga Luvhengo ene, zwinga itea
nauvha Venda avha asiho Venda”
Me:”owk
ndia mufuna neh”
Tshili:”I
love you too, u hani Xolani?”
Me:”
u sharp nga maanda, ndi khou toda u thoma ndabva nae nyana”
Tshili:”ok
bbe ni difhelwe vheiwe neh, a lumelise miawe and a vhavhudze uri zwithu zwido
swika anytime this week”
Me:”owk
bbe”
Tshili:”bye”
Me:”bye”
Ndori
u fhedza u amba na bbe wanga nda dzhia ndishi na Xolani raya u tamba, ahhh well
bathroom yovha I hone and zwithu zwothe zwovha zwoluga but tshikhudini being Tshikhudini
hovha husina madi phaiphini, ndo mbo di namba nda humbula uri maybe ri tea u
vhora madi a fhasi raita thannge, I smiled at the thought, uvha na tshelede na
zwone. Ndovha ndi tshi khou tambela kamarani yanga, Xolani a tshi khou tambela
kha yawe, ndori u fhedza u tamba nda tshintsha zwiambaro, rovha ri Venda zwino
and I had to look hot, hafhu ndi nga si vhe garaba lo bauluwaho lini, nahh
zwitea u sumbedza, naho ndisongo divhudza u charmer vhana but ahuna thaidzo kha
uri vha ntame naho vhasado nngwana thiri. Ndo mbo di ambara Jean yanga ya blue
na Military boots ila yenda renga ino fana na ya Xolani, yanga yovha I grey ya
Xolani I brown, ndo ambara Grey T sanga misi, I loved grey, ndo mbo di doba cap
yanga ya blue ya Addidas. Ndo ri u fhedza u ambara nda dzhia wallet yanga nda
longa tshelede nyana ngangomu, nne na Xolani rovha rovhuya na bege irena
tshelede, I know it sounds funny but rovhona uri we were going to need lot of
money musi ri ngeno and rovha ri sa todi u shumisa tshelede ire banngani
unnecessarily, ro decider uri ya banngani ido shuma musi ri tshi khou renga dzi
fanitshara ngauri ringasi swike rabvisa dzi thousand nnzhi-nnzhi cash vhangari
humbulela zwinwe. Ndori u fhedza henefho ndaya kha Xolani, haaa bra yanga naa,
ndowana yorwa nga jean ya black na hemmbe ya bokhathi ya blue yo dombelelaho,
milenzheni ovha o ambara tshinwe tshienda tshinonga formal nyana
Me:”you
are taking that off and you are wearing that boots I bought you”
X:”what?”
Me:”you
heard me”
X:”are
you acting all Sihle on me now?”
Me:”maybe”
ndoralo ndi tshi khou smiler. Xolani o mbo di bvula tshienda tsheavha o ambara
a ambara boots yawe.
X:”you
have enough money there?”
Me:”yeah
and this is Venda bro, we wont spend much”
X:”but
still, I am not taking my wallet with and I hate running out of cash”
Me:”its
sorted” ro mbo di bvela nnda ra yela sitting room, rowana husina muthu, robvela
nnda ra wana mianga vhodzula tshitupuni
Mma:”nisongo
vhuya vhusiku Thembuluwo”
Me:”rido
tavhanya mmawe”
Mma:”goloi
yanu yonaka zwone”
Me:”avhade
vhavhone” vho mbo di takuwa raya tsini na goloi. Roswika dzadzhena ngangomu
dzari u seai. Rendani na Thendo na vhone vhoda vhadzhenavhoo, Hovha ho takaliwa
lunwe. Vho ri vhono fhedza u vhona goloi nda vha talutshedza uri matshelo
vhathu vhothe ndido vhabvisa ngayo. Nne na Xolani ro onesa rabva. Ndo founela
khathu thama yanga
Khathu:”mutukana
wanga”
Me:”nigai?”
Khathu:”ndi
hafha car wash”
Me:”ndi
khou swika hanefho”
Khathu:”heyi
no vhuya inwi?”
Me:”ndo
touri ndido vharwa nga surprise vhone”
Khathu:”he
vhanna swikai” ndo mbo di dropper phone
Me:”this
is my childhood friend I was talking too”
X:”so
we are going to meet him?”
Me:”yeah
at some spot at the car wash, we usually sit and chill there during the
day….its close to my home…uhm I meant my dad’s home now”
X:”oww”
Me:”yeah
we left my dad there alone”
X:”you
did what needed to be done”
Me:”yeah”
ro mbo di driver raswika hangei car wash. Ndovha ndi tshi touvha na vhutanzi ho
fhelelaho uri Khathu ovha asongo lavhelela uri nne ndido swika nga goloi.
Nne
ndoswika ndapaka hanefhala nga ku ford kwanga. Ndo mbo di tsa ndo ambara na
zaza, Xolani na ene atsa vhoo
X:”so
this is like your famous spot when you are home?”
Me:”yeah
you can say that”
Hovha
huna zwisidzana nyana hanefha na vhathannga nyana. Ndo bvula mazaza ndi tshi
khou yela he vhathu vha vha vhodzula hone. Xolani o ntsala murahu. Ndovhona
Khathu khathihi na dzinwe authu vha tshi nndavhelesa vhomangala. Tshau thoma
vho mmbona ndi tshi khoutsa kha goloi and tshavhuvhili zwiambaro zwe ndavha ndo
ambara zwovha zwi tshi tou diamba uri ‘we are soo damn expensive’ so munwe na
munwe angavha ovha a khou divhudzisa uri hu khou itea mini and one thing for
sure, when you have money, na u penyelela ni a penyelela, so I guess hovha hu
tshi divha na tshanduko nyana kha nne
Me:”Mutukana
wanga”
Khathu:”ho
i tea mini kha iwe mungana? Uri ndi Thembu uyu?”
Me:”ndi
nne uno, ri sathuya kule, this is my varsity friend Xolani and Xolani this is
my friend I was telling you about…so technically you guys are already friends”
ndoralo ndi tshi khou sea
Khathu:”sure”
oralo a tshi khou ita shoulder bump na Xolani
X:”sure,
nice to meet you”
Khathu:”nice
to meet you too” ndoswika ndalumelisa dzi homeboys dzanga henefho and obviously
vhovha vha tshi khou mangala uri hoitea mini kha Thembuluwo. Ndo introducer
Xolani khavho vhothe
Khathu:”so
goloi ndi yanu?”
Me:’yep”
Khathu:”nahhhh
uhm Xolani the car is yours right?”
X:”nope
that’s Thembu’s car”
Guy
1:”are you sure?” ndi inwe yadzi homeboys dzanga henefho
Me:”he
vhanna, guys I am telling you that the car is mine”
Guy
2:”and ni khou ri ambela na nga tshikhuwa, ni khou tonga mtha”
Me:’owk
guys I am just trying to accommodate Xolani, he doesn’t understand Venda”
Khathu:”owk
now we get you”
X:”what
do you guys do for fun around here?”
Guy
1:”what do you wanna do?”
X:”tell
em boy” he said that laughing
Me:”owk
Xolani ndi muthu wa madikita na dzi clubs na mahalwa, that’s his thing”
guy
1:”ri nwiseni nyana mahh Thembu ai” I looked at Xolani and laughed
me:”lets
go for a drink”
X:”you
know I am always game when it comes to that” ndo zama u humbula uri ringaya gai
, ndovha ndi sa khou toda u muisa thungo dza Thohoyandou, nahh ndovha ndi khou
toda uri rinwe ngahanefha mahayani uri atou tshila sa muthannga wa zwitentsini
zwa straight
Me:”ringaya
gai?” ndoralo ndosedza Khathu na havhala vhathannga
Khathu:”ari
tuwe ha munonde mahh”
Me:”sure,
lets go” ndoralo ndo sedza Xolani. The girls that were there were just looking
at us.
Ro
mbo di takuwa rafara bada heila khulwane, ndo mbo di tangana na hokula kwana
Sharon badani, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri ko mmbona naa. Husi kale-kale ndo
mbo di receiver whatsapp message. Ndowana u tshi khoubva khako
“saw
someone that looks like you driving a car”
Nne
ndo reply ndari ndi nne, she just replied with a smiley face. Ndo mbo di panga
phone tshikwamani. Khathu o mbo di nnekedza phone yawe uri ndi connecte na
Radio. Ovha a khou lidza kunwe kunyimbo kwa Tshivenda kwa house kune lovha lu
lwa u thoma ndi tshi kupfa. Ee! Nne ndori u ku thetshelesa ndasea mbabvu dza
vhavha ndi hokula kwaupfi
‘ndi
tshi funa ndinga……’
I
couldn’t stop laughing, lone luna dzi beat dzavhudi but hey mafhungo a honei.
Ro swika ha munonde radzhena mani, ndovha ndi khou tangana na authi dzenda
dzhena nadzo Azwifarwi henefho, vhanwe vhovha vha busy nau nkhumbela bonndo.
Ndo decider uri ri tou renga halwa ribve, hafhu nne na Khathu ri vhathannga vha
kerekeni so zwa swika kha mukegulu zwa halwa ndinga disemisa blind, and na
zwauri ndovha ndi sa todi u vhaisa mianga nga zwithu zwi sa divhalei
Me:”khathu
dzhenani mah nne ndido sala hanefha, but ninga dzhena na Xolani ngangomu”
ndovha ndopaka goloi yanga nnda
Me:”I
am not gonna go in but you can go in with him” ndoralo ndo sedza Xolani
X:’I
obviously wanna go in” ndo nekedza Xolani wallet and vhothe vho mbo di dzhena
ha munonde. Nne ndosala ndodzula goloini yanga. Ndovha ndi khoupfa uri
ndikhwine u keeper low profile nyana hafha hayani, ndovha ndi sa khou toda u
sokou vhoniwa ndofara mahalwa nga zwanda lini. Ndo mbo di bvisa phone yanga
ndawana message wa hokula kwana Sharon “mhm” that’s all it says, ndo mbo di tou
founela
Sharon:”hello”
Me:”Sharon”
Sharon:”Thembuluwo”
Me:”ndi
khou humbela u muvhona”
Sharon:”I
am not that stupid Thembuluwo, after zwoiteaho last time?”
Me:’I
know what you are thinking, you are thinking that maybe I wanna sleep with you
again neh?”
Sharon:”huna
zwifhio zwinwe?’
Me:”ndi
a disola kha zwe nda muita zwone and I would love to apologise face to face”
Sharon:”mara
why ni khou toda u humbela pfarelo?”
Me:”ngauri
ndia disola and huna zwinwe zwine nda khou toda u muvhudza zwone”
Sharon:”ndido
vhona Thembuluwo, and ni songovha ni khou toda u ncharmer nga goloi nne”
Me:”ai
vhathu vhoo, ndi mufounele matshelo?”
Sharon:”maybe”
Me:”owk,
mara ndidovha ndi busy nyana hayani so nda balelwa asongo mangala neh”
Sharon:”owk”
Me:’u
khou itani zwino?”
Sharon:”ndi
ha mungana wanga nga hafha lufule”
Me:’u
busy badi?”
Sharon:”not
really”
Me:”owk
ndi khouda zwino neh”
Sharon:”uhm
zwino?”
Me:’yeah
zwinga itea matshelo nda balelwa thi”
Sharon:”ndi
nga si kone nne, humbelani pfarelo yahone henefha kha phone and just get it
over with”
Me:”Sharon
ndori ndi khou toda u tou amba na ene face to face and ndi khou mufulufhedzisa
thinga mufari na luthihi”
Shareno:”promise?”
Me:”yeah
promise”
Sharon:’owk,
uhm nido nngwana nga hafhala tsini na hamadzhiga”
Me:’owk”
ndo mbo ditsa goloini nda dzhena ngangomu, nda vhidzela Xolani thungo nda
mutalutshedza uri khasale na Khathu na hedzi dzinwe authi nne ndi khou vhuya,
ndori amphe R500 nyana sa izwi ndi tshi nga toda ui shumisa. Ubva hafho ro
humela kha vhanwe ndavha talutshedza uri ndi khou vhuya husikale kha vha vhe
vha tshi khou difhelwa. Ndo mbo di bva nda reila ndolivha thungo dzaha
madzhiga. Ndoswika haningei ndawana Sharon ko nndindela, ndo swika nda ima
kwada kwadzhena nga phanda.
Me:”nwana
nyana wau naka”
Sharon:”Thembuluwo”
Me:”why
a tshi tou mmbidza nga dzina langa lo fhelela mara?’
Sharon:”ndia
zwitakalela”
Me:”mara
o takala?”
Sharon:”yah”
ovha a songo ambara zwino dina nwana wa vhathu sa izwi ovha a tshi khouya ha
mungana wawe. Nne ndo mbo di driver ndalivha KFC heila ya hafhala tsini na
Hollywood, ndoya drive thru ndaswika ndafola laini, hovha huna goloi phanda
hanga
Me:”u
khou toda mini?” o mbo di ntsedza
Sharon:”zwinwe
na zwinwe Thembu, I am not really hungry”
Me:’Yipeeeee
o mmbidza Thembu” o mbo di sea
Sharon:”ngohoi”
ro mbo di swika lainini. Ndorenga zwiliwa zwinzhi nyana and I drove off.
Me:”uya
nthemba musi?”
Sharon:”after
last time?…..nope I don’t”
Me:”ndi
khou humbela uri a nthembe namusi, I wont disappoint and thinga edeli na ene
thi?”, she just looked at me “ndi serious” I added
Sharon:”owk,
if you say so” Ndo mbo di yela thungo dza mbaleni nga hangei husina zwitentsi,
ndaswika ndapaka hunwe fhasi ha muri
Zwi
a Penga - Insert 82
Sharon:"so
mulandu ropaka afha?"
Me:"because
we need some privacy"
Sharon:"oww
ndovha ndi sa zwidivhi" ndo mbo di bvisa zwiliwa ra thoma ula
Me:"ndia
zwidivha uri una zwithu zwinzhi nga maanda muhumbuloni wawe nga ha nne, and i
know u humbula unga ndi player or something like that asi zwone?"
Sharon:"ni
touvha player Thembu"
Me:"well
i am not, which is why ndo muhumbela uri ri tangane namusi"
Sharon:"and
arali ndi songo amba na inwi u thoma novha ni sa do zwihumbula u amba na nne
kani"
Me:"thats
not fair"
Sharon:"no
you are not fair Thembu, you fucked me and then you told me that the whole
thing was a mistake and then na humela tshikoloni and never talked to me again
and zwazwino novhuya and ndi touvha na vhutanzi ho fhelelaho uri ni khou toda u
edela na nne futhi and ndi sorry nga maanda uni disappointer but thats not
gonna happen" o amba heyo sentence ngau tavhanya. nne ndovha ndo sokou
mulavhelesa. I felt sorry for her and nga tshifhinga tshithihi nda dovha hafhu
nda takalela the bravery in her, asi vhanzhi vhasidzana vha high school vhane
vhangavha na tshivhindi tshau vhudza muthannga zwithu zworaliho
Sharon:"so
you are not gonna say anything?" oralo o nndavhelesa o fara nama nga
tshanda
Me:"oita
uri ndivhe speechless nyana, fhedziha nne ndo muvhidzela u humbela
pfarelo"
Sharon:"kha
zwifhio?"
Me:"kha
hezwo zwea amba zwothe, ngoho ndi a disola khathihi nau dishona and asi zwine
ndavha zwone Shaz, u tea u nkholwa"
Sharon:"and
why do you still care? ndiamba uri mulandu ni tshi khou humbela pfarelo? kani
ni khou fulufhela uri ndido dovha nda nifha yone?"
Me:"na
luthihi"
Sharon:"zwino
mulandu?"
Me:"thi
khou toda uri a mmbone sa swina lawe nne kana sa inwe authi ino shumisa
vhasidzana ngauri asi zwine ndavha zwone. Owk khari ndi explaine zwoiteaho neh.
hetshila tshifhinga ndovhuya hayani, ndada nda tangana na ene, fhedziha hovha
huna musidzana we ndavha ndi tshi khou mufuna nga maanda but she had someone,
but that day ndi tshi tuwa ngau tavhanya ovha o mpfounela and i had to go to
her, she had some serious problems and i had to attend to her and i realised at
that moment uri nne houla musidzana ndi a mufuna nga maanda, nne nae roswika he
ra amba and she ended off things with her then boyfriend and we started
dating"
Sharon:"ow"
Me:"angavha
a khou divhudzisa uri why ndi khou di explainer kani?"
Sharon:"yeah
because its weird"
Me:"ndi
a zwidivha, sa zwe nda mutalutshedza, i want you to see me as a guy who made a
mistake, that mistake was sleeping with you knowing fully well that mbilu yanga
i funa munwe muthu and i am man enough to admit my mistakes and ndinga
zwitakalela arali ene a mpfarela and ravha dzithama, heyo ndi yone reason ya
uri why nne ndi fhano" She looked at me and kept quiet
me:"ha
ala maipfi e a mmbudza helia duvha ndi tshi tuwa o mmbaisa nga maanda"
Sharon:"ndi
afhio heneo?"
Me:"a
tshiri na khaladzi anga udo itwa zwingaho zwenezwi nga inwe authi"
Sharon:"ndovha
ndi khou diambela ngoho"
Me:"yah
i know, fhedziha ndi khou toda uri a zwidivhe uri i am not a player and ndo
diimisela uri rivhe vhangana, i really liked you zwa serious and we can
continue to be friends, naho ndi sa khouri ri touvha dzi thama thama fhedziha
ri songo tangana ndilani ra fhirana ro sinyalala vhathu"
Sharon:"ndi
khoupfa ndisina na mafhungo"
Me:"mulandu?"
Sharon:"nga
zwenezwi zwine inwi na khou ita, ndi khotoupfa unga ndi khotou lora"
Me:"u
musidzana wa vhudi nga maanda and khari ndi muvhudze uri arali hu si uri
ndifuna Tshililo, nne ene ovha a tshi odovha a wanga" she smiled at that
Sharon:"so
you are a good guy after all?"
Me:"i
am and i brought you all the way here to say i am sorry for the way i treated
you"
Sharon:"zwoluga
Thembuluwo" she looked sad
Me:"mulandu?"
Sharon:"ndi
tou tama arali hu tshipfi vhathannga vhothe vhanga inwi"
Me:"ndi
sure uri vhahone nyana vhanonga nne" nne na Sharon ro isa phanda na ula.
ro ri u fhedza ravha ri tshi khou haseledza nga zwithu zwa general nyana
Me:"so
are you dating anyone?" o mbo di sokou ntsedza a setshelela
Me:"i
am your friend remember?"
Sharon:"owk
after hezwila zwoiteaho kha nne na inwi, ndo decider usa pfana na muthu lwa
tshifhinga nyana"
Me:"good
decision"
Sharon:"really
now?"
Me:"serious
Sharon, u tshe mutuku ene and mafhungo haya a dzi relationship aya dina and
hudivha nnyi anga wana muthu ano mufuna next year atshi swika tertiary so ya o
dzhia tsheo yavhudi nga maanda"
Sharon:"arali
ni khou ralo" ndo mbo di sedza tshifhinga kha phone yanga
Me:"ri
do tea u humela murahu zwino, ndosia mungana wanga munwe wenda vhuya nae hangei
ha Munonde"
Sharon:"osala
a yethe"
Me:"hai
una Khathu, ndo vhona uri zwau vhonana na ene ndi zwa ndeme"
Sharon:"owk,
so ni vho tou shuma?"
Me:"yahh
but i am still studying too" ndoralo ndi tshi khou reverser goloi uri
ndidzhene badani. ndo mbo di dzhena badani asizwila
Me:"ndi
mutsitse gai?"
Sharon:"he
na nngwana hone"
Me:"asi
kule na ha mungana wawe naa, ndinga muisa haningei ha thama yawe"
Sharon:"ndi
khou shavha u didzhenisela mato ndi tshi vho vhuya nga goloi"
me:"owk
zwi khou pfala" ndo swika ha madzhiga nda paka nga hafhala seli nyana ha
bada
Me:"ndido
muvhona musi ndi sa athu tuwa musi?" she just looked at me
Me:"as
friends of course, kha relax Sharon ndi nga si tsha edela na ene neh?"
Sharon:"owk"
ro onesana a mbo di tuwa.
Owk
u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri izwi zwine nda khou lingedza uita
na uyu nwana Sharon zwipfi mini. Fhedziha ndo sokou pfa uri ndia mukoloda u
humbela pfarelo, i was not a bad guy and zwovha zwi tshi mmbavha uri ndo
murovha mbilu nga heila ndila, at least zwazwino nne nae rovha ri khou amba
zwavhudi and we could be friends, ahuna tsho khakheaho nga hezwo, hu touvha uri
ndi nga si vhudze Tshililo ngauri anga tou gekhisa thoho na fhasi kha la uri
nne na Sharon ri dzi thama.
Ndo
swika ha Munonde nda kombtshedzea u dzhena sa izwi ndo lingedza tshothe u
founela Xolani na Khathu vhasa fare phone. Ndoswika ndaya barani ndavha ndisa
vhavhoni, ndoya ngahafha he havha hu tshi khou tambiwa Snooker, ndowana Xolani
a busy tshothe, o vheya na can ya Heineken nga tsini nae. He seemed to be
getting along with the guys
X:"oww
Thembu" otavha mukosi musi atshi mmbona ndi tshi bvelela
Me:"you
seem to be doing great"
X:"doing
great is an understatement bro, Venda rocks" i laughed
Me:"guys
i think we should get going" ndoralo ndi tshi khou isa mato na kha Khathu
Khathu:"haaa
Thembu" oralo o fara can ya light
Me:"Khathu
mtha ri khou tea u huma ai, mukegulu vhado gungula and inwi ndoguma nisanwi in
public mulandu?"
Khathu:"zwithu
zwi khou shanduka mtha"
Me:"X
we are leaving"
X:"you
really are a party pooper when you are home bro" oralo a tshi khou doba
can yawe a tshi khou dela kha nne, ro mbo dibva raswika radzhena goloini na
hedzila dzinwe authi
X:"do
you guys need more drinks?"
Guy:"obvious"
Xolani o mbodi bvisa tshelede afha khathu, Khathu otsa aya u renga halwa
X:"so
are we buying some for tonight?"
Me:"bro
i forgot to tell you that my mom doesn’t know that i drink and she is totally
against the idea…and oww tomorrow we are going to church" o nndavhelesa a
tshi vhonala o mangala tshothe
X:"what!!!"
Me:"yeah
bro" Khathu o mbo di vhuya, then nne nda driver ndolivha haningei car
wash, ndoswika ndavha tsitsa, vho onesana na Xolani and then we drove home.
X:"you
have lekker friends hey, they are good guys"
Me:"yeah
they are"
X:"where
you serious about the church thing?"
Me:"yeah"
X:"last
time i was at church was when i was in Grade 10 i think"
Me:"look
forward to tomorrow then"
X:"eish"
Ro
swika hayani ndawana giratshi yo vuliwa, ndo mbo di swika ndapaka goloi
ngangomu. Rotsa raya nduni, rowana mianga vhodzula na vhana hu tshi khou
vhoniwa TV
Me:"nnda
mudini" ndo ralo musi nne na Xolani ri tshi khou dzhena.
Mma:"Aa
vhathannga vhanga"
Me:"nne
rono farwa nga ndala eish"
Mma:"ndo
ni bikela nama na mutshaini hafho kitchen, ndo shavha uri hezwi zwadzi kfc
zwingavha zwo ni netisa nwananga, na zwauri notuvha zwiliwa zwa mianu thiri,
ndo tou thavha baphanya"
Me:"eish
mmawe ndia vhafunesa vhone" ndo mbo di sedza Xolani
Me:"come
to the kitchen, she cooked a special chicken and some veg for us, how i miss
her cooking" ndoralo ndi tshi khou yela kitchen Xolani a ntsala murahu
X:"i
am so hungry bro…its chicken and what?"
Me:"obvious
bro, chicken and pap, you’re gonna be eating pap everday, no stamp and all that
bro"
X:"you
are joking right?"
Me:"why
do you think Tshili and i eat pap most of the times, we grew up like that and
we are used to it and you my friend…you’re gonna have to get used to it"
X:"eish
yeah…mhm the chicken looks great" oralo a tshi khou tibula pani ya
tshisevho o fara phuleithi
Me:"you’re
gonna love my mom's cooking" ndovha ndi tshi khou setshelela.
Rori
u fhedza u avha zwiliwa raya ula rodzula sitting room. Zwovha zwi zwa vhudi nga
maanda, rovha ri tshi khou zuwa khathihi nau ita dzi joke ri tshi khou sea ri
tshi dovha. Xolani ovha a tshi khou ri talutshedza na zwitori nyana zwa musi a
tshi khou aluwa, murathu wanga ovha a tshi khou ita a tshi vhudzisa uri naa
manwe maipfi aamba mini sa izwi Xolani ovha a tshi khou amba nga tshikhuwa. Hovha
vhusiku havhudi nga maanda. Roya ra edela late nyana. Ndori ndi sa athu edela
nda amba na Tshililo, ovha a tshi pfala o takala musi a hayani and ori na miawe
avha tsha amba na mafhungo ha ala a Luvhengo. Ndo receiver na sms ye yavha i
tshi khoubva kha Sharon
"Thanks
for today, zwena ita namusi zwo amba zwinzhi kha nne and you are a good guy
indeed Thembuluwo and i take back every bad word i have said about you, good
night"
na
nne ndo reply vhoo
"Ndi
khou livhuwa hezwo zwea amba, and i meant every word that i said, you are a
good beautiful girl who deserves the best, good night"
Duvha
litevhelaho hovha hu Sunday, someone came and knocked on my door
Me:"ndi
nnyi?" ndo ralo nga ipfi li re na khofhe
Mma:"ndi
nne Thembuluwo, vuwani ri khou tea uya kerekeni vhathu, ringa si tuwe rolenga
lini" yohh mianga na vhone
Me:"ndi
khou vuwa"
Vhoya
munangoni wa Xolani vha khokhonya vha amba zwenezwo zwauri kha vuwe a dilugise.
Ndo kondelela nda vuwa, ndo senda mulaedza wa uri good morning kha Tshililo
musi ndi tshi vuwa and then nda mutalutshedza uri avhe na duvha lavhudi, na ene
o reply ari ndivhe na duvha lavhudi. It was kinda nice to have her far away
from me, naho ndovha ndi tshi do mutuvha fhedziha zwovha zwi zwavhudi because
duvha line ra do tangana rovha ritshi dovha ro tuvhana lwau fhedzisela. Ndovuwa
nda tangana na Xolani phatshisini
X:"Morning"
Me:"morning…ready
for church?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou smiler
X:"eish
i dont have a choice bro, the old lady seems strict when it comes to that"
Me:"believe
me she is"
Hovha
huna madi phaiphini, mianga na vhana vhahashu vhovha vhono tamba so Xolani oya
a tamba u thoma and then nne ndaya u tamba. Ro ri u fhedza u dilugisa ravha ri
tshi khou tea ubva. Rodzhena goloini, mianga dzovha dzodzula nga phanda and
then Xolani ovha o dzula nga murahu, Rendani o lwela uri a dzule tsini na
Xolani, this child though. Ro swika kerekeni, zwithu zwavha zwavhudi. Hovha hu
kale ndoguma u lidza nahone ndovha ndisa practise so thi ngo ita zwauya phanda
u lidza, na zwauri ndovha ndi khou shavha u bora vhatukana havha vhano lidza
nga maduvha. Service yovha ya vhudi vhukuma, zwisidzana zwa kerekeni zwovha zwi
tshi ri u sedza nne na Xolani zwadovha
X:"there
are pretty ladies everywhere, daaaamn, i love this church already" Xolani
oralo o kwatamela kha nne musi hu tshi khou imbiwa luimbo
Me:'dont
even think about it"
X:"what?
i am just admiring the good things bro.....auch look at that one"
Me:"you
are insane"
X:"you
never told me that there are such beautiful babes in Venda, let alone at
church"
Me:"i
give up on you" ndoralo ndosedza phanda ndi tshi khou lingedza u
concetrator kha luimbo, Xolani o mbo di sokou sea. Kereke yori ubva rine raya
goloini, roswika ra thoma ra lindela mianga vha tshi khou ralo u onesana na
vhanwe, vhori u fhedza vhada vha ri joiner. Ubva hafho ro mbo di dzhena goloini
nda i kanda
Me:"mmawe
ri khouya ula Nandos neh"
Rendy:"wooow
ee ariye hone" ovha a tshi khou setshelela
X:"i
think i heard you say Nandos, if thats where we are going then yeaaaah,
although i also want to eat mom's chicken" oralo o sedza mianga
Mma:"dont
worry you are still going to eat my chicken my boy"
Rendy:'yeah
zwazwino ariye Nandos" ndo mbo di driver raya Nandos, hahaha Sunday lunch
at Nandos with family, it doesnt get better than this.
Roswika
haningei ra nanga tafula radzula rothe, wau thusa oda ra ralo u order zwiliwa,
believe me rovha ro order maliwa a serious. Zwori uswika ra ralo u dzhena
fhasi. Ro humbela nau fodiwa zwinepe nga honoula weavha a tshi khou rithusa.
Rovha ri tshi khoula khathihi nau sea. Rendani sanga misi ovha a tshi khou
disusuvhedza kha Xolani. Ndo decider uri maybe ndi do tea uamba nae nyana nga
issue hei ya Xolani. Rori u fhedza ula ra driver ra humela hayani. Ro swika
hayani ngavho 6 ya madekwana. Vhathu vhothe vhotsa goloini vhavha vha tshi
khouya nduni
Me:"Rendani
idani" vhathu vhothe vhodzhena nduni hasala nne na Rendani nnda
Rendy:"yah"
she was looking at me
Me:"mulandu
nga inwi mara?"
Rendy:"mulandu
wa mini?"
Me:"Xolani
ndi mungana wanga and ndimuhulwane nga maanda kha inwi"
Rendy:"Thembu
if a tshi edana na inwi zwiamba uri u mphira nga 3 years fhedzi and tshinwe
hafhu, he is a good guy and ndina vhutanzi ho fhelelaho uri he wont be like dad
sa izwi a mungana wanu"
Me:"mini?"
Rendy:"thinga
ni zwifheli nne ndari thimutakaleli, i mean ndi ene muthannga ayethe ane a khou
takadza mbilu yanga" ndofara thoho nga tshanda tshithihi nda sedza thungo
ndadovha hafhu nda musedza
Me:"Rendani
ndi do dovholola, ni nwana and you shouldnt be thinking about these things, itani
zwa tshikolo ni litshe hezwo, Xolani u tounga khaladzi kha inwi and ni khou tea
u zwitanganedza, and dont even think of dating some stupid guy wa litoho lihulu
ngauri ndido raha muthu nne, wait until you go to tertiary Rendani, after that
ninga ita zwau pfana but zwazwino ndi khou hana"
Rendani:"But
Thembuluwo"
Me:"ari
khou zwi discusser hezwi zwithu Rendani, i know what boys are capable of and a
thi todi zwi tshi itea kha inwi, take it from me"
Rendani:"ndi
khou tuwa nduni nne" oralo a tshi khou rembuluwa. Nne ndo mbo di mufara
tshanda
Me:"ni
songo tshadovha ndari ndi khou amba na inwi na ita hezwi zwine na khou ita zwau
rembuluwa na tuwa ri khou pfana?"
Rendy:"yahh"
she looked scared
Me:"ndi
khou lingedza u ni tsireledza and you are going to listen to me"
Rendy:"ok"
Me:"you
can go now" o mbo di hwenya a tuwa nduni. Eish hoyu nwana ngohoi
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Ndovha
ndi tshi khou bva u amba na Tshililo ndonovha tsini nau fara khofhe musi ndi
tshi receiver mulaedza wa whatsapp ubvaho kha Xolani
"come
to my room" thats all it said.
Ndo
mbo di vuwa ndaya rumuni yawe, hovha huvho 12 ya vhusiku sa izwi ro dzhena dzi
kamarani ngavho 11. Ndo swika ndavula vothi la room ya Xolani, mafhefho nga
vhanna!! Rendani ovha oima henefho, yeah its shoking i know, o vha o ambara penty
na bra, like really now. Ndopfa muvhili wanga hoyu wothe u tshi vhila. ovha a
tshi vhonala o dada khathihi nau tshuwa musi a tshi mmbona
Me:"Rendani
mulandu?" ndovha ndo kwata
X:"sorry
i have to wake you up but…" oralo a sumba Rendani, i looked at her, ndovha
ndo fhelelwa nga maipfi ane ndanga amba, i was too angry to talk
X:"i
am sorry bro but she couldnt leave and she is like my younger sister"
ndivhona unga X o lingedza u talutshedza ngau vhona the shocked angry look on
my face. Thi ngo fhindula tshithu, ndokokodza Rendani nga tshanda ndatuwa nae
kamarani
Rendy:"Thembuluwo
sorry" ndoswika nda muposa nga mipama mivhili yo imaho ngauri kha tshifhatuwo,
oima a nndavhelesa o fara tshifhatuwo a tshi vhonala o mangala tshothe
Me:"Ndo
nivhudza uri mini ritshi vhuya namusi inwi?" she just looked at me,
ndombodi muposa nga inwe clapa futhi nda mufara tshanda ndo kwatamela khae
Me:"ndi
khou vhudzisa mbudziso?"
Rendy:"nori
Xolani ndi khaladzi anga"
Me:"zwinwe?"
Rendy:"ndi
songo ita zwa vhatukana" oralo a tshi khou lilela fhasi
Me:"ni
khou alutshela thungo ndi khou nivhona inwi" Xolani o mbo di bvelela
X:"uhm"
he looked speechless
Me:"its
not your fault bro"
X:"i
know but dont hit her"
Me:"this
child needs to know her limit Xolani, imagine if you agreed to what she wanted
huh"
X:"but
i didn’t"
Me:"anything
could have happen"
X:"leave
her bro" o mbo di bvisa zwanda zwanga kha Rendani a mufara a mukokodzela
tsini na mmbete adzula kha mmbete wanga musi Rendani oima phanda hawe, Rendani
ovha a tshi kha di tswimila
X:"uhm
Rendy, i know you might like me or whatever it is that you are feeling, but hey
you are still a child and even if you were older, you are like a sister to me
and thats all we can ever be to each other, a brother and a sister, i do care
about you because i know what you mean to him" oralo a tshi khou ntsumba
"and i want what’s best for you ok?" she nooded
Me:"dont
ever pull a stunt like this again Rendani because ndido ita zwino fhira
hezwi"
X:"so
you need to concentrate on school for now, you still have a long way ahead of
you and you dont wanna ruin your life at such a young age"
Rendy:"sorry"
Me:"you
better"
Rendy:"can
i go to sleep?"
Me:"ro
pfana musi?"
Rendy:"Ee"
Me:"tshimbilani"
o mbo di tuwa aya u edela. Nne ndosala ndafara thoho nga tshanda tshithihi ndo
gogodela luvhondo
Me:"kids!!dammit"
X:"yeah
teenagers"
Me:"thanks
hey, for being a brother to her and not being your usual self"
X:"bro
i know the boundaries that are not meant to be crossed hey"
Me:"you
sure do" i smiled at him. Xolani o mbo di onesa atuwa aya u edela.
Duvha
litevhelahi ndovusiwa nga Thendo atshiri u khou humbela tshelede yau khera
tshikoloni, ndovuwa nda munekedza R10, ndo mutalutshedza uri ndi khotou munea
R10 ngauri nditshe garaba but husikale udo humela kha tshelede yawe ine a khera
yone nga maduvha, ndoshavha u mulema. Rendani hangoda kha nne, ndo humbulela
uri udovha a tshi khou shona hezwila zwea ita madekwe. Ndovuwa henefha ngavho
9, ndowana Xolani ono vuwa kale a tshi khou swiela nnda, nne ndoswika nda ima
munangoni nda mulavhelesa
Me:"really?"
X:"what?"
Me:"you
are cleaning?"
X:"yeah
i think that’s what i am doing"
Me:"you
never cleaned when we were staying together bro"
X:"this
is not campus bro" oralo a tshi khou sea. Mianga dzo mbo di bvelela
Mma:"i
tried to stop him but he couldnt hear of it"
Me:'mhm"
mianga vho mbo di nnekedza lunwe luswielo
Me:'and
then?"
Mma:"iyani
u swiela ngahangei ai"
Me:"mmawe
vhoo"
Mma:"ni
khotou fhirwa nanga mueni, hai tshimbilani niye u swiela" mianga dzombodi
dzhena nduni
Me:"i
think you’re gonna go back to Mthatha very soon" i had a serious face on
and Xolani burst out laughing. Ndo mbodi dzungudza thoho ndaralo u thoma u
swiela nga hangei uyela giratshini, Nne na Xolani rori u fhedza u thusa mianga
nne ndaya u tamba, ndori u fhedza Xolani aya u tamba vhoo. Ndo ambara a blue
denim shorts and a white nike Tee, milenzheni ndo ambara Sneaker tshanga tsho
itaho butsu nyana tsha white tsha adidas. Ndo ambara na cap yanga heila ya
Adidas. ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo ambara nga ndila yone, ndori u fhedza u dilugisa
nda bvela nnda, Xolani ori ufhedza na mianga vhavha vhono fhedza. Xolani ovha o
ambara a blue denim bootleg trousers na tshikhipha tsha blue, milenzheni na ene
o ambara sneaker vhoo tshawe tshovha tshi nike. mianga dzovha dzo di ambarela
tshikete na tshikhipha shame na vhuenda ha vhu pumps nyana.
Mma:"ringa
tuwa musi?" ndi mianga vha tshi ralo
Me:"yeah
lets go" ro mbo di dzhena goloini.
Rovha
ri tshi khouya urenga thundu dza nduni. Ndovha ndo founela Tshililo uri ade a
tangane na rine Thohoyandou, mianga dzovha dzo takala badi uri finally dzi
khouya u tangana na mazwale. Roswika ra paka nga hafhala ntha plaza, ndowana
Tshililo tshanga tsho rilindela. Tshovha tsho ambara rokho ndapfu ya muvhala
mutsuku irena bannda la musuku hafha khunduni, ovha o ambara vhuenda ha brown
milenzheni. ovha o tshintsha na hairstyle, she looked hot shame. o mbo di dela
kharine musi a tshi vhona ri tshi khoutsa goloini. nne ndo mbo di mu hug
Me:"onaka
muthu wanga" ndoralo ndi tshi khou mukuvhatedza
Tshili:"ndo
livhuwa bbe" she whispered, ro mbo di litsha zwa hug and then she briefly
hugged Xolani
Me:"mmawe
hoyu ndi ene Tshililo, Tshili havha ndivhoni mazwale wawe" Tshililo o mbo
di setshelela avha khada
Mma:"ndi
khou takalela u mudivha nwanga"
Tshili:"ndi
khou livhuwa"
Mma:"nwananga
nia kona u nanga ngoho, hafhu mazwale wanga ndi wa vhudi"
Me:"vhaya
zwidivha uri thi iti zwau tamba" Tshililo o mbo di sokou smiler
X:"mhm
mrs Mudau you’re gonna be calling the shorts, where to?" oralo o sedza
Tshililo and we were both looking at her, o lenga nyana u fhindula sa izwi ovha
a tshi khou shona mianga
Tshili:"uhm
owk, so nothing have changed?" o vhudzisa o sedza nne na Xolani
Me:"about
what?" rovha ri tshi khou amba tshikhuwa uitela u accomodate thama yanga
Tshili:"ndi
khou amba uri do you still want me to buy anything without checking the
prices"
X:'yeah
thats the deal lady, just tell us where to go"
Mma:"nne
ri khoupfa nga vhone"
Tshili:"nne
na vhone ri dotou thusana mma" ovha a tshi khou setshelela.
Tshililo
o mbo di rilivhisa kha liya shopho la fanitshara lire fhala tsini na
Woolworths, kana lipfi Geen and Richards wee, ungari ndi zwezwo. Ro swika
henefhala bbe wanga aralo u mona mona na mianga vha tshi khouri u setshelela
vhatshi dovha vha tshi khou khoda zwithu vhasa gumi. Vhonanga zwevha nanga, nne
na Xolani ri tshi khou sokou sala nga murahu, vhori vhono fhedza raya u badela
zwothe zworengwaho. Ubva hafho roya Morkels zwahone, raswika haningei ra renga
zwinwe. Ubva hafho Tshililo ori khariye Game u toda zwinwe nyana, roswika
rarenga renga nyana, ubva hafho roya na Sheet streets raswika ra doba doba, ma
curtains au matcher na fanitshara ori risongo vhilaela sa izwi o order anodo
elana na fanitshara dzera renga hangei HomeChoice, roya na Edgars for some
extra beddings and throws, rori ubva hafho ravha roneta tshothe. Roya radzula
hafhala Galitos ya mvusuludzo, goloi yovha yono pakiwa nga hafhala parking ya
PnP. Rori u fhedza ula rarenga dzi take away and then ra mbodi dzhena ndilani
raya hayani, fanitshara dzera renga dzinga deliviwa matshelo. Roswika hayani
ratsa na zwithu zweravha rorenga, hovha honovha late tshothe and nne ndovha ndi
tshi khou fanela u driver Tshililo hayani sa izwi asongo onesa kha miawe and
obviously vhovha vha si ngasi tende a tshi edela nnda. Tshililo o onesana
zwavhudi na mianga vhaita nau mutalutshedza uri u khou tea uwana duvha a otouda
atwa hahashu. Rori u onesa rabva, hovha huvho past 5 ya madekwana. Ndombodi
driver ndofara bada ya nzhelele. Ndori uswika ngahangei ha Tshililo ndapaka
musi ri saathu swika tsini na hahawe
Me:"zwovha
zwizwa vhudi uvha na ene na mianga babe"
Tshili:"na
nne ndo difhelwa nga maanda bbe wanga"
Me:"i
dont want you to go" ndoralo ndokwatamela khae ndi tshi khouralo u mukhisa
Tshili:"me
too bbe"
Me:"khari
booker bbe"
Tshili:"mianga
vha nga si tende ndi tshi edela nnda bbe"
Me:'eish"
Tshili:"sorry
neh"
Me:"its
fine"
Tshili:"ndina
mafhungo ane nda khou toda u muvhudza one bbe"
Me:"mhm
ndi mafhungode?"
Tshili:"uya
mpfuna right?"
Me:"nga
maanda bbe wanga"
Tshili:"and
u khou mpfulufhedzisa uri hanga ntshandukeli no matter what?"
Me:"ndi
khou fulufhedzisa bbe, naa mathina mulandu?"
Tshili:"uhm
Thembuluwo" she paused and took a deep breath, u tou amba ngoho ndopfa
Tshililo a tshi khou ntshuwisa, i mean why was she nervous?
Me:"bbe?"
ndoralo ndo mubvisela mato
Tshili:"Ndi
pregnant Thembuluwo"
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For
few seconds i was lost for words, uhm maybe for a few minutes because ndovha
ndo sokou fhumula ndomusedza, thidivhi uri ndovha ndi tshi khou lavhelela uri a
mmbudze uri u khou zwifha naa, but i honestly didn't want it to be true. i know
i had joked about having a child with Tshili, but thats what it was...a joke. i
mean huna tshifhinga tshine na tama something knowing full well that you are
not ready for it, ahhh well that was the case with me, i wished to be a dad but
that was because i knew Tshililo was on family planning thing but i guess these
things are not that effective. My mind had drifted off from the car, i was in
my own world of confusion.
Tshili:'Thembuluwo"
and oww i came back to reality
Me:"mhm"
ndovha nditshinga ndo vhona tshipuku, i was terrified of the responsibility to
be the father, it was too much
Tshili:'please
say something" what can i say? naa ndidori mini nne? Ndombo ditsa goloini,
hovha hono swifhala nnda. Ndoya ndavula vothi la Tshililo nda nekedzela tshanda
and she came out
Me:"come
here" ndo mbo di mukuvhatedza. Arali nne ndo tshuwa ngaurali then zwiamba
uri Tshililo ovha o tshuwa worse
Tshili:"you
still love me?" what? how can she ask me that? Ndo mbo di nambatuluwa khae
nda mufara mahada nga zwanda zwothe nda kwatamela khae
Me:"bbe
how can you ask me such question? ndia mufuna ai and at this moment i love you
even more"
Tshili:"zwavhukuma?
u tounga muthu o tshuwaho or ane a khou humbula zwinwe"
Me:"thi
nga muzwifheli ndari thingo tshuwa bbe, but we will figure it all out together
owk" o mbo di tenda nga thoho
Tshili:"na
nne ndo tshuwa Thembu, i never planned on having a child now and my mom...."
she trailed off, ovha a tshi khou fhelelwa nga maipfi au amba. Ndombodi
mukuvhatedza hafhu
Me:"bbe
ndidovha ndinae every step of the way owk? ndido mutikedza and if you want me
to be there when you decide to tell your mom then i am happy to do so"
Tshili:"eish
Thembuluwo"
Me:"u
khou tea u thoma u mmbidza uri Vho-Thembuluwo" Tshililo o mbo di sea
Tshili:"ene
uya funa u tamba nga mafhungo a serious wee"
Me:"ndia
mufuna bbe and rido alusa nwana washu ri rothe and ndia zwidivha uri u khou
tshuwa uri nne ndinga mushandukela bbe but i wont owk?" she looked at me
and smiled. Owk honestly speaking, ndovha ndo tshuwa lwau fhedzisela, but
ndovha ndi khou tea u tikedza Tshililo ndavha strong ndi tshi itela ene ngauri
arali nne nda sumbedza vhu weak zwinga mu stresser even more
Tshili:"khari
ndituwe hayani"
Me:"ndia
mufuna na nwana washu neh?"
Tshili:"na
rine ria mufuna"
Me:'khadori
ndifare" ndo mbo di fara thumbu ya Tshili which was just flat
obviously "nwananga vhathu"
ndo hevhedza ngauralo ndotumba fhasi. Tshililo o mbo di sokou sea. Ndokhisa
thumbu yawe ndatakuwa nda ima
Me:"ndi
khou tea u humbula uri rido vhudzisa hani vhabebi vhashu bbe neh and then we
can take it from there, and please asongola mbilu nga tshithu ene, nne ndia
mufunesa and azwinga shanduki naho ra touvha na vhana vhatanu thi?" she
laughed
Tshili:"thivhoni
ndi tshi dovha na vhana vhangafho nne"
Me:"thoho
ya mudi ndi nne so i get to decide" Tshililo just smiled
Tshili:"bbe
duvha lokovhela khari ndituwe"
Me:"eish
i dont want you to go" ndo amba nga voice yau nga ndi khou lila and
Tshililo o mbo di toufa nga zwiseo.
Tshili:"bbe
udovha strong"
Me:"khari
tuwe ndido huma tsini na gethe" ro mbo di tshimbila ndo mufara nga
tshanda, roswika tsini na gethe lahawe ra khisana, nne ndo ima nda mulavhelesa
musi a tshi khou dzhena hayani. Ndombodi khona ndaswika ndadzhena goloini
ndahumela hayani.
Ndoswika
hayani lonovha vhusiku nyana. Mianga avhango gungula ngauri vhovha vhatshi
zwidivha uri Tshililo udzula kule. Rodzedza nyana ubva hafho raya dzikamarani u
edela. Khofhe dzanga dzolenga nga maanda u fara, ndovha ndi tshi khou humbula
heli lauri huna ku Thembu ndilani. Zwezwavha zwi tshi khou ntshuwisa nga maanda
ndi zwauri ndido kona naa uvha khotsi ane nwananga u do dihudza ngae, i was
scared that i would turn out like my old man and my kids would hate me, i
closed my eyes as the idea of my child hating me creeps into my head. I had to
work hard, i had to be the opposite of my dad, Jay and Sticks were good fathers,
they could guide me, i needed to ask them to guide me through the whole
fatherhood thing. I was about to be a father and my child's life would have to
come first. i took a deep breath. Ndo namba nda decider uri khou tea u mala
Tshililo, i had to make her my wife, i loved her somuch and i didn’t see myself
with anyone so ther was no need to delay it and beside ndovha ndi sa khou toda
nwananga atshiya u dzula nzhelele nne, my child was going to stay with us in
George and musi ritshi vhuya hayani nwana udo vhuyela fhano hahashu. The idea
of my little girl running around with pink clothes made me smile. And then i
realised that i want a baby girl, my first born had to be a girl. i smiled at
the idea.
The
following morning hovha hu Lavhuvhili, ndo tavhanya nga maanda u vuwa. Ndo
founela bbe wanga uri ndipfe uri ovuwa hani na kusidzana kwanga
Tshili:"hello
bbe"
Me:"mia
musidzana" ndovha ndi tshi khou setshelela nyana, zwauri Tshililo na ene o
smiler ndo tou zwipfa naho ri tshi khou amba nga phone
Tshili:"bbe
vhathu"
Me:"mini
bbe?"
Tshili:"u
khou dzhaya nga maanda"
Me:"i
know but ndo tou takalesa thats why"
Tshili:"zwauri
o takalesa ndi khotou zwipfa"
Me:"yahh
so ene na ene o takala musi na kusidzana kwanga afho?"
Tshili:"hupfi
ndi kusidzana nga nnyi?"
Me:"i
can feel it"
Tshili:"so
you want a girl?"
Me:"yeah
and i know you want a girl too kani?"
Tshili:"obvious,
who dont wanna go shopping for some pink clothes" we laughed
Me:"ndo
touri ndi mulumelise before ndi tshi vuwa bbe"
Tshili:"nne
ndi vhotou swiela mita"
Me:"matsheloni
mangafha bbe?"
Tshili:"yahh
nana, khari ndi fhedzise rido amba neh?"
Me:"owk
ndia mufunesa"
Tshili:"we
love you too" i smiled at that and dropped the call. Ndovha ndi khoupfa
ndi kha li mood lavhudi nga maanda. Ndovuwa ndaya kamarani ya Xolani, Thendo na
Rendy vhovha vha tshi khou dilugisa. Xolani ovha a tshe o edela. Ndoya ndafha
Rendy na Thendo tshelede ya ula and then ndavhuya kamarani ya Xolani, ndo swika
nda dzula ntha ha mmbete nda mudzinginyisa
Me:"X"
X:"no
man"
Me:"X
wake up"
X:"if
the house is not on fire then i don't understand why you are waking me up"
oralo nga voice ya muthu arena khofhe
Me:"i
am going to be a father" i said with a giggle. Xolani's eyes shoot open, o
mbo di vuwa a dzula a swota mato
X:"what?"
Me:"Tshili
is pregnant" he looked at me for a bit longer
X:"wooow
bro and you look delighted"
Me:"yeah
i am, i was a bit shocked and scared when she broke the news to me but i am
fine now"
X:"wooow
thats a big responsibility, i am happy for you" we did the shoulder bump
thing
Me:"yeah
thanks"
X:"you
know what that means right? i mean its more responsibility boy and i am willing
to help but most of the responsibility lies with you as the father, you don't
wanna end up like our dads bro"
Me:"that
was my biggest fear bro, like what if i become like my dad and my child hate me
the way i hate him but i will have to talk to Jay and the other guys we work
with so that they can give me some tips, i mean they are good dads"
X:"yeah
thats a great idea and i am here for you and i admire your strengths, yohhh the
idea of someone being my child and depending on me and trusting me terrifies
the shit out of me, i mean i am a messed up guy and i would hate to bring my child
to the world knowing full well that i am not even sure if i am really in love
or what......but you are different with Tshili, you really love each other and
i am sure you can pull this off"
Me:"you
think so?"
X:"yeah
of course i think so"
Me:"thanks
boy"
X:"you
have lot of planning to do boy"
Me:"eish
i know, i have to buy the house in George or rent a flat because i cant live
with Tshili and the baby at school you know"
Nne
na Xolani ro amba nyana nga zwau planela pregnancy yanga. Xolani o suggester
uri ndishumise heila nndu yawe ire George but nne ndari ndikhwinne ndi tou wana
nndu yanga uitela uri at least nne na Xolani ridovha rina nndu mbili just
incase something happened. Ro mbo di thoma u doscusser dzi business, eish i
seriously wished i studied business what what ngauri Nature Conservation yanga
was so irrelevant kha vhutshilo hanga zwazwino. Xolani ori u khou nekedza
vhudifhinduleli hau langa heila business ire madzinani anga, o nnekedza na inwe
business yawe nthihi ari kha ndi i lange uitela uri na ene a sale ana mushumo
mutuku. He advised me on how to take care of finances and how to make sure that
the managers delivers at all times. He gave me ideas on how i can expand my
businesses, and he told me that if we happen to be interogated by the police
then i can safely say that i got businesses from him as we had the paper works
to prove it and he could say he did a loan to start off his first business, he
said the loan was to make sure that his businesses origin can look legit. O
ntalutshedza zwinzhi ngaha u runner business. Xolani really treated me like his
brother, i mean naho nne nditshiri Jay uya nkholela tshelede nnzhi, ndovha ndi
tshi dovha ndi saathu u swikelela zwithu zwingafha arali husi Xolani, ndovhona
uri maybe nditshone tshifhinga tshauri nne ndi vhudzise Xolani uri mulandu a
tshi mpfara nga hei ndila. Rovha rono fhedza u amba ngaha business and Xolani o
fulufhedzisa u amba zwothe zwera discusser na loyara yawe, who was soon to be
my lawyer as well.
Me:"but
why Xolani?"
X:"why
what?"
Me:"why
did you do all this for me? I mean you had Thembani and Ncedo as your friends
long before you met me"
X:"you
really wanna know neh?"
Me:"yeah"
X:"uhm....i
had a twin brother, we looked so much alike" o mbo di takuwa aya begeni
yawe abvisa tshinepe atshi nekedza nne....and i saw them, two identical boys,
they looked like they were about 6 or 7 years old, ndovha ndisa divhi uri
Xolani ndi ufhio ngauri vhovha vha tshi khou fana hezwila zwavhukuma
X:"he...."
his voice trailed off, like he was thinking about a painful memory
"he
died when we were about 10, he...well we got involved in a car accident and he
died" he kept quiet and breathed. Ndovha ndi tshi khou mangadzwa nga
mafhungo haya, i mean Xolani had a twin brother woow.
X:"and
when i met you Thembu and we became room mates, you reminded me of him, its
been about 10 years now but i still miss him and with you around, i feel like
he is with me, you have taken his place in my heart, you are like Xolile to
me" ho mbo di rotha mutodzi matoni awe
Me:"is
that his name?" i murmered, X o mbo di tenda nga thoho
Me:"i
am speechless X, i dont know what to say....uhm wow i am soo sorry about your
brother"
X:"its
fine"
Me:"and
i am sorry i reminded you of him"
X:"you
didn’t remind me of him, i never forgot him, what you did is that you helped
fill the void of having a brother because you bacame my brother and i am sure
that Xolile is happy to see us and to see me happy" Owk i was totally
speechless, if we were girls we were gonna hug and cry on each others arms but
we are damn guys and zwau lila nadzi hug asi zwashu
Me:"i
am not Xolile and i wont try to be but i will be your brother Xolani, you've
been a brother to me too and i am sure that Xolile is proud of you, you have
achieved somuch and you have helped me somuch i am sure your brother will be
delighted with what you've done so far"
X:"i
think so too and hearing you saying it makes me to believe it even more"
Me:"uhmm
but are you fine though?"
X:"never
been better" he was now smiling
Me:"let
me go talk to my mom, i have to tell her about the baby and oww we are gonna be
busy parking the furnisher today hey, i think they are delivering it"
X:"eish"
i laughed and walked out. Xolani o mbo di vuwa ayela kitchen, nne ndobva
ndawana mianga vhono fhedza kale u cleaner, hovha huvho 9 sa izwi nne ndofhedza
tshifhinga ndi tshi khou amba na Xolani.
Me:"lochaa"
ndi nne nditshi ralo, mianga vhovha vha tshi khoula vhuswa vhodzula tshitupuni,
lol breakfast ya mianga hovha hu muladza lol. Xolani o mbo di bvelela o fara
bowl yadzi cereal a tshi khoula, oda a dzula tsini na mianga
Me:"where
is mine?"
X:"you
didn't tell me you wanted anything"
Me:"you
didn't tell me you were making anything"
Mma:'Thembu
go and make your own food"
X:"thanks
mom" i looked at him and then at my mom and thety were both smiling
Me:"i
am seriously going to send you back to Mthatha" Xolani laughed even harder
X:"bro
i aint going anywhere" he shouted at me as i was walking to the kitchen.
Ndo swika nda di itela cereal na nne ndada nda dzula na vhanwe tshitupuni. Ro
ri u fhedza ula Xolani a tuwisa zwithu, nne ndosala ndo dzula na mianga
Me:"ndina
mafhungo mmawe"
Mma:"zwipfala
zwitshinga zwi serious ndi mafhungo a mini?"
Me:"uhm
eish"
Mma:"ndi
mini Thembuluwo, kaniha na zwino Tshili o ima?" ndo mbo di fhumula
ndasedza thungo
Mma:"oima?"
Me:"uhm
well....yah"
Mma:"mini
Thembuluwo?"
Me:"o
mmbudza mulovha hezwila ndo mufhelekedza, nne ndovha ndisa divhi tshithu
hezwila nga masiari"
Mma:"yohhh
Thembuluwo nitshe nwana nga maanda inwi nia zwidivha?"
Me:"ndia
zwidivha mmawe but ndinga kona u thogomela nwana nne"
Mma:"ula
Tshililo wahone una minwaha mingana?"
Me:"ria
edana"
Mma:"and
ni khoupfa uri nia mufuna?"
Me:"ee
mmawe, ndi khou toda u mumala" my mom looked surprised
Mma:"zwauri
no tshinyana ndi khou zwipfa Thembu fhedziha zwau mala ndi mafhungo mahulwane,
vhutshilo vhutshe holapfa nga maanda nwananga, nisongo zwidzhaela hezwo
zwithu"
Me:"nne
thivhoni reason yau sa zwiita ngauri ria funana and ri khouda uvha na
nwana"
Mma:"do
diimisela tshothe thiri?"
Me:"nga
maanda"
Mma:"nne
arali ni khouri ni khou toda u mumala ahuna zwine ndanga amba fhedziha mbingano
asi zwithu zwau tamba naluthihi, and 'i love you' doesn't really build a
family, huna zwinzhi zwa ndeme kha mbingano u fhira hayo maipfi, ndi khou
vhilaedziswa nyana na nga helo la uri ni a edana nae, nwananga ni kha di do
vhona vhasidzana vhatuku na vha tama and nidovha nono kokodza hoyu nwana wa
vhathu na muita musadzi wanu, i really hope you will pull this off"
hovhifha tshothe, mukegulu wanga o amba nanga lungezi
Me:"ndido
zwikona, Tshili ndia mufuna and thinga sedzi matungo" and then i felt my heart
pounding, i started to chicken out. zwavhudi-vhudi nne ndina vhutanzi uri ndi
nga si tsha tama munwe muthu naa? i thought about Terresa and Sharon, ahg i
have to pull this off, i know uri Tshililo ovha a khou lavhelela uri ndi mumale
after hezwi zwithu and i could’t disappoint her, na zwauri ndia mufuna
Mma:"zwino
ri khou zwibva hani?"
Me:"ndido
amba na Tshililo and then ndido vhuya kha vhone" i took a deep breath
Zwi
a Penga - Insert 85
Fanitshara
dzo mbo di swika, rine ra ralo u dzi paka nduni. Mianga ndivhone vhe vha vha
vha tshi khou sumbedzela uri mini tshi vheiwe gai. Ndowana hahashu ho no tou
shanduka tshothe hutshi tounga ndi hunwe mudini. Ndo hu lavhelesa ndapfa ndi
tshi dihudza khathihi nau livhuwa Xolani kha zwithu zwingafha-ngafha zwenda
ita. Ndowana mulaedza ubvaho kha Tshililo henefha ngavho 3 ya masiari a tshi
khouri u khou toda u mmbona, ndovha ndoganama ntha ha mmbete wa Xolani nga
hetsho tshifhinga musi Xolani a busy na dzi email dzawe dza mushumo.
Me:"uhm
bro do you mind if i go to see Tshili? She sent me a message saying that she
wants to see me now"
X:"now?
that place is like more than an hour drive"
Me:"yeah
i know but she wants me to come"
X:"owk"
Me:"you
can go to the car wash and then you can take a taxi back at about 6 in the
evening because i am not sure what time i will be back"
X:"that
sounds better at least i wont be bored"
Me:"yeah,
i will show you where to get off when you come back with the taxi and you can
use the same road from the taxi stop to home"
X:"yeah
relax ntwana i wont get lost" i smiled
Me:"i
just wanna make sure"
X:"hopefully
i will meet someone while at the car wash" i looked at him
X:"dont
give me that look, Sihle is not pregnant yet so i can still play"
Me:"oww
really now?"
X:"oww
yeah"
Me:"let
me talk to mom then we can go" ndo mbo diya kha mianga vhevha vha vhodzula
na vhanwe vhafumakadzi sitting room kha masofa maswa.
Me:"ndi
khou humbela u amba navho mmawe" vho mbo di takuwa rayela rumuni yanga
Mma:"ndi
mini?"
Me:"ndi
khouya ha Tshililo zwino, uri u khou toda u mmbona, ndi khou itela uri vhasi
mangale arali ndavhuya vhusiku"
Mma:"ni
khou amba ngei Nzhelele?"
Me:"yah"
Mma:"Thembuluwo
no vhuya na sedza tshifhinga inwi? Ni khouya ngei na vhuya nga tshifhingade
mara? Khee ni songoya tsha matsheloni?"
Me:"mulaedza
ndou wana zwino"
Mma:"hoyu
Tshililo zwahone nne u tounga udo mbora, notou mulema kana u khotou ni langa?
ndiamba uri u lavhelela hani uri niye nzhelele zwino ni tshi kha di tea u
vhuya, hafhu ni khouya u vhuya vhusiku vhukuma"
Me:"mmawe
vhathu"
Mma:"tshimbilani,
thi ni wa munna inwi, nne ndina afhio nwananga"
Me:"ndido
lingedza u tavhanya u vhuya" mianga vho sokou tenda nga thoho.
I
was really lost, just yesterday mianga vhovha vha tshi khou funa nga maanda
Tshililo, fhedziha zwino vhovha vha tshi vhonga a vha tsha mutakalela, kana zwi
khou itwa nga ili la pregnancy na la uri ria edana nga minwaha nne thidivhi
ngoho. Nne na Xolani robva, ndoswika nda mutsitsa car wash he havha huna Khathu
thama yanga na dzinwe authi. Ndoswika ndathoma ndatsa nda lumelisa Khathu nda
mutalutshedza na zwauri ndi nga takalela u dzula fhedziha mia vhana vho
mmbidza. Ndo onesa nda i kanda ndo livha nzhelele. Ndoswika nda kwama Tshililo
musi ndonovha tsini nau swika.
Ndoswika
nga vho four to five henefha. Ndowana Tshililo oima hafhala henda mutsitsa hone
mulovha ndoswika nda ima a dzhena goloini
Me:"hey
bbe" ndoralo ndi tshi khou mukwatamela nda mukhisa
Tshili:"hi"
she was cold
Me:"mulandu?"
Tshili:"khariye
u paka hunwe kule nyana" owk she ignored my question
Me:"u
vhonala asongo takala bbe?"
Tshili:"of
course thingo takala Thembuluwo"
Me:"is
it the pregnancy?" she gave me a death stare.....owk this was confusing
maybe ndi dzi hormone dzahone, ndo driver in silence raswika ra paka hunwe kule
na hahawe
Me:"ndi
sure hango mmbidza uri ndide just to be angry with me"
Tshili:"you
are just unbelievable Thembuluwo" oralo a tshi khou dzungudza thoho, i was
totally lost
Me:"bbe
ndo itani?"
Tshili:"i
am giving you a chance again to tell me the damn truths, huna zwinwe zwoiteaho
murahu nyana zwea si mmbudze?" ndo fhumula nda lingedza u humbula
Me:"hai
bbe, naa mathina u khou amba nga ha mini?"
Tshili:"so
you told me everything?"
Me:"yes
uya zwidivha hezwo"
Tshili:"so
i guess the fact that ene na lugwada lwawe no gwazekanya Luvhengo hetshila
tshifhinga asi zwone" eeessaaahhhnnn, ndopfa ndodada, my jaw dropped, i
just looked at her, speechles
Me:"eish"
Tshili:"kha
hanedze uri you didn't do it"
Me:"bbe
washu ndi zwithu zwakale ai"
Tshili:"i
cant believe you'd do anything like that Thembu, chopping him off with a damn
grander? Naa mathina ene u touvha sathane anobvafhi?" owk that hurt
Me:"it
was the only way to get him off our backs Tshililo, kani ene ovha a tshi khou
takalela zwezwila zwauri atwe a tshi khou mushushedza?"
Tshili:"ndovha
ndi sakhou takalela zwone but how can you be so cruel Thembu? And nina
tshivhindi tshau lila nitshida kha nne hezwi hono vhifha knowing full well that
ni tou ita zwithu zwanu nga khole"
Me:"so
ene zwazwino o kwata hafha a khou kwatela uri ndo huvhadza X yawe ine ovha a
tshi khou musala murahu a tshi khou mutambudza, asi zwone?"
Tshili:"its
not about what you did to him, its about the honesty Thembuluwo, you acted like
you didn't know what happened to him"
Me:"i
am sorry about that"
Tshili:"no
you are not ngauri arali a sorry ovha a tshidovha o mmbudza"
Me:"ndiiteni
nne zwino?"
Tshili:"get
the fuck out of my life Thembuluwo, i can’t do this anymore, you lie to me, you
kill people, you sell drugs for a damn living, you slaughter people, how am i
supposed to relax and raise my child with you knowing that there will always be
this dark clouds hanging over our heads, you are not good for my child" My
whole world stood still, ndo mulavhelesa lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu, ndopfa unga
zwe a amba asi zwone, how can she do this to me
Me:"are
you breaking up with me?" i asked, voice yanga yovha i fhasi tshothe,
mutsiko we wa ndalela ndi muhulu, ndofara tshifhatuwo nga zwanda zwothe ndo
kwatamela fhasi, Tshililo u nnyita hani ngaurali
Me:"Tshililo
u khou ntala naa?" she nodded. i closed my eyes trying so hard to block
the tears that were coming, Tshililo was leaving me and she was carrying my
child, so i was not worthy to be a father, that’s what she was saying
Me:"so
you wanna raise my child with your X?" i asked painfully
Tshili:"mini?
of course not, ndo tou neta ngaudzula ndotshuwa nne duvha na duvha and imagine
honovha na nwana uri zwidovha zwihani, i cant do it, and zwea ita kha Luvhengo
made me think twice about who you really are, maybe you are also just a monster
like the rest of them"
Me:"wow"
this was painful, ndovha ndi khoupfa u vhavha, Tshililo ndovha ndi tshi mufuna
and she chose to do this to me now
Tshili:"sorry
bbe but i have to do this for my child"
Me:"OUR
child Tshililo, that child needs both parents, how is breaking up with your
child’s father good for the child? Just admit, o amba na Luvhengo ene and you
wanna go back to him, i.....ndovha ndisa kholwi uri anga nnyita ngaurali
Tshili, i understand i am just a gangster and i make a leaving out of selling
drugs and Luvhengo on the other side owns businesses, you wont have to worry
about guns and all the baggage that comes with being in my life" ndo
phumula mitodzi and started my car
Tshili:"and
now?"
Me:"i
am taking you home, i am not going to play the violent boyfriend nda
mukombetshedza uvha na nne, maybe you never loved me and as painful as it is
ndido kondelela but one thing for sure, gangster or not, that’s my child and
ndi khou mutoda vhutshiloni hanga"
Tshili:"but
then…"
Me:"Fuck
Tshililo, you broke the hell up with me right now, what do you want me to do? i
am taking you home and then you can play happy family with Luvhengo and my
daughter" mitodzi yo mbo di elela.
i drove back, ndoswika ndaima midi miraru ubva hahawe
Tshili:"bbe
ene ha khou pfesesa, nne ndia mufuna nga maanda"
Me:"i
have a fucked up life and ahuna need yauri a mpfele vhutungu, i mean o tou
mpfounela uri ndide fhano a tshi khou mmbidzela zwenezwi so yahh just leave
Tshililo, i still have to drive back"
Tshili:"kha
ri ambe nyana"
Me:"hai,
i mean ahuna tshine tshado shanduka, i kill people, i sell drugs, i slaughter
people, i have guns, ndi zwea mmbudza zwone and that life style yo munetisa
ene" u tou amba ngoho i was hurt and i just wanted Tshililo to leave
ngauri i was scared of what i might do, this was too much painful, more painful
than anything i had been through. After everything i had done for her, she was
living me and she was taking my child away from me, mitodzi yo mbo di nana u
rotha
Me:"o
mmbaisa bbe......o mmbaisa Tshililo" thats all i could say
Tshili:"uhm"
Me:"kha
mphe number phone dza Luvhengo"
Tshili:"what?
so you want to finish him off now? Naa mathina u touvha muthude ene? Ndovha ndi
tshiri ene o fhambana na hoyu Luvhengo wendavha ndi khou shavha ene but you are
exactly the same"
Me:"avhe
na vhusiku havhudi"
Tshili:"a
reile zwavhudi" and she got out of the car and walked home. J
ust
yesterday nne na Tshililo rovha rotakala and all of a sudden i was not good for
her? She didn’t like my job and she thought i wouldn’t make a good dad. I drove
back home with the huge pain in my heart.
Ndo
swika hayanu nda paka goloi giratshini ndadzula henefho lwa tshifhinga nyana. I
then got the strength and then ndabva ndaya u dzhena nduni, family yahashu
yovha i tshi khou vhona TV
Me:"madekwana"
Thendo:"avhudi"
Me:"nne
ndi khouya u edela mma ndoneta"
Mma:"Thembu
vhoo"
Me:"ndoneta
ngau driver mmawe....uhm X see you tomorrow i wanna sleep" ndo mbo di ya
kamarani yanga and Xolani o ntsala nga murahu, oswika a dzhena kamarani a vala vothi
X:"owk
you look like a train smash what’s wrong?"
Me:"she
dumped me" X looked confused, he chuckled as if waiting for me to say i am
kidding
X:"who
dumped you bro? What are you talking about?" ndovha ndi tshi khou bvula
zwiambaro zwanga
Me:"Tshililo
dumped me"
X:"what?"
Me:"yeah
i am not good enough for her" ndoralo ndosala nga boxer ndi tshi khou
dzhena nguvhoni
X:"what
do you mean you are not good enough?"
Me:"she
said that she can’t be with a gangster bro, she said i kill people and i sell
drugs for a living and that’s not good for HER child"
X:"it
doesn't makes sense"
Me:"she
was talking to that dumb ass ex boyfriend of hers and he told her about what we
did to him to get him to back off and now she thinks i am heartless and i go
around slaughtering people and she went on and on about how i was not being
faithful because i should have told her"
X:"i
am sorry Thembu, thats really bad"
Me:"i
am done bro, my life is crumbling down"
X:"no
it’s not, it’s the hormones man, she is just scared that’s all, she will come
around.....or do you want me to talk to her for you?" i looked at him with
the what-the-F**k look
X:"owk
i get it, i wont talk to her"
Me:"i
wanna be alone please"
X:"i
dont think that’s a great idea"
Me:"X
please"
X:"owk
but just for the record neh......you’d make a great dad bro, you have it in
you" he walked to the door and turned around to look at me
"and
Sihle says hi" and he walked out.
Ndovha
ndodada and ndovha ndi tshi khou vhenga ndila yenda reacter nyayo. why ndisongo
muluvheledza? Maybe she would have changed her mind, but what if she just didn’t
want me anymore? Tshililo ndovha ndi tshi mufuna and ndovha ndi khou toda a
tshivha na mutakalo and if she wanted that happiness without me then zwidovha
zwoluga. Ndovha ndi khou shavha u muita hezwila zwea itwa nga Luvhengo, ndovha
ndi khou toda a tshi ita zwine a funa fhedziha it was gonna be on the expense
of my happiness. Ndodzhia phone yanga ndari ndi musendele mulaedza
"hi
bbe, you broke a big bomb on me tonight, ndo dada Tshililo, ene ndia mufuna nga
maanda and na nwananga ndia mufuna but ndi nga si mukombetshedze u dzula na nne
arali o neta, i knew one day it was gonna come to this, i knew you were gonna
get tired of my life style but i was in denial, i selfishly wanted you to
tolerate everything for me. Ndido dzula nditshi mufuna #yoursalways"
Ndo
presser send and patiently waited for a reply. i waited for 2 minutes, 5, then
10, 15 and then i gave up. Ndovheya phone yanga fhasi ha musiamelo nda edela
and then ha mbo di dzhena mulaedza ndoi doba ndavhala
"thingoto
neta, it’s just that honovha na nwana Thembu, it’s no longer just me and you,
ri khou tea u humbulela vhu safety ha nwana. Thi ngo neta nga vhutshilo hawe
and matter of fact i still love you, nga maandesa but i have to love our child
more and one of us has to protect this child from the life of drugs and i guess
that’s me"
Ndo
fhedza u vhala nda femela ntha. So she still loved me right? Ndopfa uri ndi
khou tea uita plane, thidivhi uri planede but ndovha ndi khou tea u provela
Tshililo uri i can be a dad and a drug dealer at the same time, Sticks and them
were doing it so i could also manage so ndido tea u mu convincer and after that
ndido tea u dealer na hoyu Luvhengo wahone. Ndovha ndi sure uri ndi ene wea
shela Tshililo muya wa uri kutshilele kwanga kungasivhe right for nwana.
Duvha
litevhelaho nga matsheloni ndo vuswa nga Xolani.
X:"uhm
how are you feeling?"
Me:"you
can just take a guess"
X:"sorry
bro"
Me:"nah
its fine, so how was it at the car wash yesterday?"
X:"it
was great bro and then we even discussed going out"
Me:"what?"
X:"yeah
we are going to some resort man....uhm they call it......uhm whats that name
again? Nanda i think"
Me:"Nandoni?"
X:"oww
yeah there, we are going there today"
Me:"yohh
goodluck i dont think i will manage"
X:"there
is no way that you are going to be mopping around the house Thembu, i have
already talked to mom yesterday and she agreed because she want me to explore Venda"
Me:"how
many people are going?"
X:"its
few people, we have 2 taxis"
Me:"that’s
not few people Xolani"
X:"i
know but there are girls as well bro"
Me:"how
did you manage to organise all that Xolani?"
X:"i
can do anything to get the party started bro, so now we will have to leave a
bit a early so that we can buy the booze, we have 2 taxis for the whole day and
they have huge sound system too so its gonna be going down...and oww we are not
taking the car, just incase we get too drunk"
Me:"i
give up on you"
X:"you
will thank me later.....gotta make breakfast, want some?"
Me:"yeah
please" ndosala nda founela Sharon
Sharon:"Hello"
Me:"hi,
uri mini fhedzi?"
Sharon:"ndo
takala ndivhudzisa ngeo"
Me:"ri
khouya Nandoni namusi na vhangana vhanga, do you mind coming with me?"
Sharon:"as
your date?"
Me:"zwa
date ndizwa TVni mah, as my friend"
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Sharon:"ni
khou tuwa nga tshifhingade?"
Me:"thina
vhutanzi"
Sharon:"nne
hafhu ndidovha ndi tshikoloni so zwido bala" eish ndothoma nda humbula, i
really wanted her with me, no offence but i didn’t want some girls throwing themselves
at me, Xolani ndia mudivha ovha a tshi do maker sure uri ndivhe ndina muthu,
nga maandesa nga murahu ha hezwila zwe Tshililo aita, so ndo vhona uri uvha na
Sharon ndikhwine ngauri i knew she wasn’t going to agree to do anything with me
anymore.
Sharon:"ni
tshe hone?"
Me:"uhm
yahh u khoubva nga what time?"
Sharon:"niya
zwidivha ai, Azwifarwi ringa bva nga half past 4"
Me:"mara
angasi kone ubva ari u khou lwala naa?" Sharon laughed
Sharon:"Thembuluwo
vhathu vhado toda lunwalo lwa dokotela"
Me:"ndido
muisa ha dokotela nne and i will pay" owk i can’t believe i just said
that....she kept quite for a while, ungari ovha a tshi khou humbula
Sharon:"eish
Thembu"
Me:"ndi
khotou luvhelela ai, ndidovha ndi tshi khou borea wee and thiho kha li moody
lauvha ndi phoshoni hu touvha uri houla mungana wanga wa muxhosa wenda vhuya
nae ha khou toda upfa tshithu"
Sharon:"uhm
why ni khou toda u tuwa na nne?"
Me:"because
you are my friend"
Sharon:"owk
ndido pretender unga ndi khou lwala and then ndido humbela u tuwa musi tshikolo
tshobva hosala studies neh? ndi khou shavha uri ndingasi litshe a attender
class vhoo lini"
Me:"ndi
zwithu zwa tshifhingade zwezwo?"
Sharon:"vho
two"
Me:"owk
udo nkwama musi?"
Sharon:"yah"
Me:"owk
avhe na duvha lavhudi tshikoloni"
Sharon:"owk
rikha break ya morning studies zwino, tshikolo tshi khouya u dzhena
zwezwino"
Me:"owk
ndidovha ndolindela", ro mbo di dropper. Ndodzula nda femela ntha. Ndovha
ndi tshi khou toda u founela Tshililo fhedziha ndovha ndisa divhi uri ndidori
mini khae. I mean she talked to her damn ex and then she broke up with me
because of something he said. Ndo sokou tsinya ito nda doba phone yanga nda
founa
Tshili:"hello"
Me:"Nndaa"
Tshili:"Aa"
Me:"o
vuwa?"
Tshili:"ndovuwa
ndivhudzisa ene"
Me:"nne
ndovuwa, nwana u hani?"
Tshili:"u
sharp i guess, i am just feeling sickish"
Me:"owk
i see...nne ndovha ndi khotou lumelisa"
Tshili:"owk,
ndia mufuna thi" ndo thoma nda fhumula ndisa divhi uri u khouri nne ndiri
mini
Me:"owk"
Tshili:"ene
ha tsha mpfuna?"
Me:"it
doesn't matter Tshililo, you dumped me"
Tshili:"but
you do know that i still love you right?"
Me:"i
dont wanna do this ngauri azwinga nthusi nne, zwauri ene uya mpfuna kana ha
mpfuni zwidivhiwa nga ene mune i mean dzi opinion dza Luvhengo ndidza ndeme u
fhirisa everything that you and i have ever shared"
Tshili:"what?"
Me:"avhe
na duvha lavhudi Tshili and please asongo stresser ngauri azwingo lugela
nwana" and i dropped the call ndaposa phone ntha ha mmbete.
I
realised at that moment that i was angry at her, how could she listen to her
Ex, not just an ex, ex ine yovha i tshi mu abuser, i had to do something to
rescue her and this was the thanks i get. Zwavhudi-vhudi why ovha atshi khou
amba na Luvhengo? Hoyu Luvhengo heila grendara yo muita zwituku, this time
around i was gonna make sure that he dies and i might even do it myself, ndiu ndowelesa
nne hezwi.
Ndovuwa
ndaya kitchen, Ndowana Xolani a tshi khou pfapfamisa zwitshaka-tshaka zwa
breakfast, ndoswika na nne nda muthusa and then raya radzula na mianga rathoma
ula.
Mma:"ni
khou tea u vhudza khotsi anu uri no tshinya musidzana"
Me:"mini?"
Mma:"ee
khotsi anu na makhadzi wanu vha khou tea u zwidivha"
Me:"vhado
vhavhudza vhone, ahuna uri ndi ambe navho nne"
Mma:"vhakhadivha
khotsi anu Thembuluwo"
Me:"yeah
and i wish heyo title ndi tshi nga vhabvula yone" ndo mbo di takuwa ndaisa
phuleithi kitchen, ndopfa appetite ya zwiliwa yono fhela. I blamed my dad for
all this, ndovha ndi tshi dovha ndisongo didzhenisa khazwa dzi drug if it
wasn't for my dad, and na Tshililo ovha asado ntala. I sat on my bad with my
hands on my face. I was trying to be strong but i was in so much pain. It was
still early in the morning and Sharon udobva tshikoloni nga vho 2. Xolani o mbo
dida rumuni yanga
Me:"which
girls are coming to this thing because the school is on?"
X:"Univen
babes, Khathu organised"
Me:"ow
i see"
X:"yeah
so we’re gonna leave here around 11 and then we can go to town, buy meat and
everything we’re gonna need for the braai and then booze, after that we’re
gonna go pick up Khathu's friends"
Me:"you
have everything planned hey?'
X:"yeah
and the taxis will be ready and waiting for us"
Me:"owk,
i have a date with this girl, but she is in school and will only be available
at 2, so i think i will follow with my car, i promise i won’t drink, but i will
go with you guys when you are buying everything and then you can drop me at the
stop on your way to Nandoni"
X:"do
i know the girl?"
Me:"of
course not"
X:"was
she at church?"
Me:"nope"
X:"so
you are replacing wifey now?"
Me:"no
she is just a friend"
X:"ok,
you need to talk to Tshili though, i think she is just confused"
Me:"dont
mention that name please"
X:"is
it that bad?"
Me:"Nokuthula
bad"
X:"owk
now i understand" o imisa zwanda a tshi sumbedza u tenda mulandu
Rotuwa
raya sitting room ravhona TV nyana. And then roya ra dilugisa henefha ngavho
half past 9. Nne ndo ambara shorty yanga ya blue n white, ndi shorty hedzi dza
ano maduvha dzinovha dzina mavhalavhala, ubva hafho ndo ambara vest yanga ya
white na hemmbe ya blue nga ntha, ndo ambara na cap, milenzheni ndovha ndo
ambara Sneaker tsha nike tsha white. Ndoya rumuni ya Xolani ndawana Xolani o
ambara shorty ya khaki, o ambara na Military boots heila yenda murengela, ovha
o ambara na hemmbe ya check nyana.
Me:"mhm
looking hot for the ladies"
X:"owww
yeah" Ombodi bvisa watch yawe ya Rolex a ambara, obvisa inwe ya Cartier a
nnekedza yone, damn watch yovha yo naka
Me:"how
much did you buy this baby?"
X:"eish
bro i paid few hundred grands for each of these"
Me:"woow
thanks hey"
X:"its
a pleasure" nne na X roya ra onesa kha mianga.
Rotuwa
raya u lindela nthihi ya taxi dzedza hiriwa yada ya ridzhia, Khathu ovha onovha
ngangomu na dzinwe authi henefho. Ro tavha mikosi ri tshi khou lumelisana.
Rotuwa raya Thohoyandou raswika raya PnP ra ralo u renga dzi nama nazwi spices,
ro renga nadzi cold drink nyana for vhasidzana vhane avhanga todi unwa. Rorenga
dzi cooler box dzau vhea halwa ngangomu. U fhedza hanefho roya Tops harengwa
mahalwa uya ngau fhambanana hao. Ubva hafho roya Univen raya u dzhia havho
vhanwe vhorambiwaho, na heila inwe taxi yoda. Vhathu vhahone vhovha vhovhala
nyana, i mean who wouldn't want to go to Nandoni for free musi ni tshi khou
wana na halwa ha mahala? Ubva hafho ro mbo di tuwa, nne vhoda vhantsitsa
hafhala musumani nda tshimbila ndayela hayani.
Tshifhinga
hovha huvho one. Ndo swika hayani ndawana mianga vhasiho, ndo swika nda relax
ndo lindela call ya Sharon, o senda whatsapp message ngavho 2. Nne ndovha ndo
no ita appointment na Doctor hangei doroboni for half past 2. Ndoya Azwifarwi
which was about 5 minutes drive, Sharon o mbo diri ndido muwana musumani. Ndo swika
musumani nda ima ada a dzhena
Me:"mhm
you made it"
Sharon:"i
guess so"
Me:"arituwe
ha dokotela, ndoita appointment for half past 2"
Sharon:"ndidori
ndi khou lwala mini?"
Me:"anything,
hopefully avhanga muthavhi" i laughed at that
Sharon:"arali
nda thavhiwa neh"
Me:"asongo
amba vhulwadze hono dina"
Sharon:"yah"
Me:"so
udoya hayani u tshintsha ri tshi vhuya neh?"
Sharon:"mianga
vhahone hayani, rido tea utuwa ndorali"
Me:"no
ways, i am buying you new clothes"
Sharon:"hai
wee Thembu"
Me:"Please
we are not discussing this, ha khou tuwa na uniform ai" she just looked at
me and smiled. Rotuwa raya ha dokotela, hangovhuya a dzhia na 10 minutes a
consultation room, ori u fhedza a fhiwa na letter yau isa tshikoloni and then
rayela mavhengeleni, ndo swika nda mudzhenisa Identity
Me:"khatavhanye
a nange please" Sharon o mbo di doba kurokho kutuku kwau pata na vhuenda
havhu pump, u fhedza hanefho o mbo diya a tshintsha
Me:"Mhm
now we are talking, o nakelela"
Sharon:"dankie"
nne ndo mbo di driver ndolivha Nandoni. Roswika Nandoni rawana yo no tou
tanganedzana tshothe, hovha hutshiri muzika, he halwa, he u braya, ha dovha
hari vhau bambela
Me:"uya
nwa na ene?"
Sharon:"hai"
Me:"mhm
dankie so udonwa coldrink then" roswika ndawana thama yanga Xolani odzula
na munwe musidzana, ndo tou zwidivha uri zwinga si iteye asi wane muthu Xolani.
Ori u vhona goloi yanga a takuwa adela kha nne, Ndotsa goloini na Sharon atsa
X:"finally
you are here boy"
Me:"sure,
uhm X this is my friend Sharon, Sharon this is my friend Xolani"
X:"mhm
ntwana i am proud of you...hey Shaz" he smiled at her
Sharon:"Hi
Xolani"
Me:"she
is just a friend Xolani"
X:"i
didn't say anything"
Me:"i
am going to ignore you" ndoya ndadzhia camp chair yeyavha i goloini yanga
ndaya ndaivhea murunzini hune ndadovha ndi khou vhona zwothe zwine zwadovha zwi
khou itea. Sharon na ene oda murunzini he ndavha ndihone
Me:"udo
toda unwa mini?"
Sharon:"coke
arali ihone" ndoya ndadzhia can ya coke for Shaz, nne ndo di dzhiela madi,
ndovhuya ndada ndadzula kha camp chair
Me:"khade
adzule hafha?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou musumbedza zwirumbi zwanga, she
looked at me and smiled
Sharon:"ndido
ima"
Me:"ndido
mutakutshela nne ene, khade a dzule ai" o mbo di da a dzula kha nne, ndo
munekedza can yawe a thoma unwa. Khathu o mbo didela hendavha ndodzula hone,
ovha o mangala u mmbona ndina Sharon sa izwi a ene ori tanganyisaho hetshila
tshifhinga and ovha asongo lavhelea uri vhona ri rothe, Khathu o mbo di humela
he avha a hone avha a tshi khou ita zwau bambela na vhanwe vhasidzana, Xolani
ovha o ima na group ya vhasidzana a tshi khou vhala-vhala lunwe.
Sharon:"so
you are not drinking?"
Me:"ndoda
nga goloi yanga so ndingasinwe"
Sharon:"owk
i see" phone yanga yo mbo di lila and then i checked the caller ID, hovha
hu Tshililo, i ignored the call.
Sharon:"trouble
in paradise?"
Me:"maybe,
anyway ene uhani?"
Sharon:"nne
ndo takala, as you can see" nne na Sharon ro amba nga zwithu zwinzhi
zwenezwi nne ndo mutakala, ro amba ngaha tshikolo uri u khou humbula u dzhena
gai nexy year, she asked me about my job and of course i had to lie, ndo
muvhudzisa ngaha boyfriend futhi ari u tshe kha lenelia lau awela
Sharon:"so
what’s happening with you and your girlfriend?"
Me:"i'd
rather not talk about her"
Sharon:"we
are friends Thembuluwo, you can talk to me" i looked at her and assessed
her eyes
Me:"she
is pregnant and she dumped me"
Sharon:"that
doesn't make sense why did she dump you?"
Me:"its
a long story"
Sharon:"and
you thought i could be a good rebound?" i looked at her with a pained look
Me:"huh
uh you know that’s not true, you are my friend and ene ndomuhumbela pfarelo
before my girlfriend told me she was pregnant"
Sharon:"i
think you should talk to her, u touvha stressed nga thumbu hoyo muthu, ningasi
mulatele thaula, especially o hwala nwana wanu"
Me:"mhm
u touvha sis dolly neh?"
Sharon:"we
are friends she smiled"
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Rovha
ri tshi khou difhelwa tshothe. Sharon ovha asina zwau bambela and na kha nne
zwovha zworalo so rovha ro dzulela kule na madi. Vhanwe vhovha vha tshi khou
ralo u tamba bola madini. Ro ita nau namela Tshikepe, and obviously Xolani
mungana wanga na ene o joiner vhoo. Ndovha ndi tshi khou takadzwa ngau vhona
thama yanga Xolani na Khathu vha tshi khou andana and i was happy to see that
Xolani u khou difhelwa shame. Hovha hu tshi khou takadza nga maanda. Nama yo ri
yonofhela u thathiwa raralo u dikanda.
Sharon:"nne
ndido tea u tavhanya nyana u tuwa Thembu, mianga vhanga ntsema"
Me:"owk
khari nambe rituwe" Ndoya kha vhanwe nda onesa and obviously vhovha vho
borea nyana u vhona uri ndi khou tuwa u tavhanya. Tshifhinga hovha huvho past
five ya madekwana ndo laedza Khathu uri vha tshi vhuya vha tsitse Xolani
getheni lahayani.
Ndo
driver na Sharon ri tshi khou huma
Sharon:"ndi
khou livhuwa duvha la namusi"
Me:"it’s
my pleasure and na nne ndi khou livhuwa khauvha hawe thama yanga neh and ndi
khou mufulufhedzisa uri i won’t disappoint"
Sharon:"i
hope so" she was smiling
Me:"mulandu
a tshinga ha khou nkholwa?"
Sharon:"hai
ndi khou mukholwa ai"
Me:"owk"
Sharon:"and
asongo hangwa u founela mia kuThembu please"
Me:"mtzm
ene ngohoi"
Sharon:"serious
you love her and asongo fhela mbilu ngau tavhanya ngaurali ai"
Me:"owk
owk let’s change the subject"
Sharon:"ndi
khou tea u tshintsha nda ambara uniform thi"
Me:"oww
yah mani, udori u khoubva gai this time?"
Sharon:"uhm
hutounga ndidovha ndi tshi touvha one hour late than usual, so ndidori ndovha
ndi khou practiser maths so its not a big deal"
Me:"owk"
ndoswika ndapaka tsini na bada kule nyana na hahawe nga haningei Lufule
Me:"kha
tshintshe" hovha hono swifhala nyana nnda
Sharon:"you
are not serious Thembu, ibvani ndi tshintshe ai"
Me:"Shaz
vhoo"
Sharon:"Shaz
wa mini ow" i smiled, ndo mbo di vula vothi ndabvela nnda nda mulindela a
tshi khou tshintsha back into her uniforms. Ori u fhedza a bvela nnda o beba
mukhwama wawe
Me:"nwana
wa tshikolo mani"
Sharon:"oww
yeah" Ndo mbo di sendela tsini nae nda mufha hug lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu
Me:"aite
zwa bugu a tshi swika hayani please" ndoralo ri tshi khou litsha hug
Sharon:"i
will do so, ndi zwone thi"
Me:"sharp"
ndo ima ndapanga zwanda zwikwamani as i watch her walk to her house. Ori ono
dzhena nne nda dzhena goloini ndaya hayani.
Ndoswika
ndawana mianga na vhana vhahashu vha tshi khou vhona TV
Me:"he
nndaa"
Rendy:"Aa"
Thendo:"u
gai Xolani?" o vhudzisa ngauralo musi nne ndi tshi khou dzula masofani
Me:'u
khou vhuya"
Mma:"no
isa gai munwe inwi?"
Me:"una
Khathu mmawe, vha khou tshimbila nga taxi yevha hira ritshiya Nandoni and
Xolani ndi muthu wa vhathu so ori udo takalela uvhuya na vhanwe"
Mma:"mufouneleni
duvha lokovhela vhathu, hua itea zwinwe kha nwana wa vhathu nne nda toupfi wa
ha nnyi ngoho?"
Me:"mmawe
hanga i-" mianga vho mbo di nkatudza
Mma:"ndori
mufouneleni, ula Muxhosa wavhathu uya xela iwe vhathu"
Rendy:"mmawe
vhasongo isa mbilu kule ai, ndi muhulwane Xolani"
Mma:"ho
vhifha hafho nnda"
Me:"hei
mmawe"
Mma:"inwi
ni khou ita mmawe vha mini ndori founani" Nne ndo mbo di dzhia phone nda
founela Xolani, yolila isa fariwe
Me:"ha
fari mmawe"
Mma:"dovhani"
ndo dovha nda dialer futhi and then ai fara on the 4th ring
X:"hey
bro, yaa reaaally need to come back" ovha a tshi khou kokodza maipfi a
tshi amba
Me:"Xolani
slow down, umama wants you back right now"
X:"what?
Huh uh i am not even sure if i am coming back tonight, we are thinking of going
to this other place.....uhm babe whats that place again?"
Me:"Xolani
i am not playing with you come back now"
Mma:"mpheni
phone heyo" ndo nekedza mianga phone
Mma:"hela,
you are coming back now Xolani do you here me?.......30 minutes.....that’s all
you have to get here" she dropped the call and gave me the phone
Mma:"inwi
mara ni touvha muthude? Na ya fhethu nasia nwana wavhathu ngeo?"
Me:"avha
mpfarele mma" ndopfa uri zwautwa ndi khoulwa na mianga azwinga nthusi nga
tshithu, ndovha ndi tshi khoupfa ndisina ndala. Ndoya bathroom ndaswika
ndatamba ubva hafho nda ambara boxer yanga. Xolani o dzhena husi kale-kale
X:"Nndaa"
Mma:"Aa"
Khathu na ene o mbo divha a tshi khou dzhena
Khathu:"ndi
madekwana vhathu"
Mianga:"avhudi
Khathutshelo, hafhu ni khou tuvhea wee"
Khathu:"nne
ndihone mani, eehh ndo vhuisa Xolani hafha, hei ri khou humbela pfarelo vhone,
rolengiswa nga driver asizwino rolindela, vhado rifarela" Thank God Khathu
o dzhena
Mma:"hafhu
nne ndi khou mangala uri mulandu"
Khathu:"ndi
mafhungo a transport hei"
Mma:"ahuna
thaidzo nwananga"
Khathu:"avhari
rine ridzhene ndilani uri risiswike lono touvha vhusiku vhukuma mahayani"
Mma:"ni
tshimbile zwavhudi nwananga" nne ndobvisa Khathu nda mu onesa. Ndi tshi
vhuya ndowana Xolani asiho sitting room
Me:"ugai
Xolani?"
Thendo:"uri
oneta u khouya u edela"
Me:"owk"
nne ndodzula henefho ndi tshi khou vhona TV. Tshililo tried calling and i put
my phone on silence ndi si fhindule. O founa luno swika luraru. U tou amba
ngoho ndopfa ndisina mafhungo nae, ndovha ndi sure uri zwililo zwawe zwothe
zwido attendiwa nga Luvhengo. O mbo di senda message
"bbe
i am sorry pick up your phone please" o senda hoyo mulaedza u fhedza
henefho a founa futhi ndi si fare. ndo mbo di sokou difhumutshela nne ndisi
fhindule. Husi kale-kale Xolani o tavha mukosi a mmbidzelela, ndo takuwa ndaya
khae, ndowana o fara phone nga tshanda
X:"it’s
for you" ndo dzhia phone ya Xolani ndawana hu Tshililo. Ndopfa ndonyama,
ndo dzhia phone ndaya kamarani
Me:"hello"
Tshili:"so
you are ignoring me?"
Me:"Tshililo
washu"
Tshili:"ndi
khou humbela u muvhona matshelo"
Me:"Tshililo
i am sure Luvhengo will be more than willing to help"
Tshili:"bbe
please"
Me:"i
am not gonna do this with you, uhani nwananga?"
Tshili:"o
takala"
Me:"ok
avhe na vhusiku havhudi thi?"
Tshili:"ndi
khou humbela u muvhona matshelo please"
Me:"ndido
balelwa" and i dropped the call. Ndo dzhia phone ndaya ui nekedza Xolani
Me:"dont
ever do this again"
X:"ow
owk" ndohuma ndaya kamarani yanga u edela.
Duvha
litevhelaho nne ndolenga nga maanda u vuwa. Ndo vuwa duvha lo no tou tsha
tshothe. Ndoya nda tamba ndavhuya nda tshintsha. Xolani was watching something
on the TV and my mom was not around
Me:"morning"
X:"sure
ntwana"
Me:"what
are you watching?"
X:"nah
it doesnt matter, what matters is that you and me we are going to town right
now"
Me:"to
do what?"
X:"i
will show you when we get there but i wanna do something"
Me:"owk
let me eat something first" ndotuwa ndaya ndaita zwiliwa ndala ubva hafho
nne na Xolani radzhena ndilani yauya Thohoyandou. Roswika rapaka nga hangei
Spar
X:"uhm
just wait here i need to make a call" Xolani o mbo di tsa goloini and few
minutes later Tshililo o mbo di bvelela, Xolani o mbo di dzhena goloini and
looked at me guiltly
X:"uhm
you will forgive my my brother but i couldn't just stand by and let a good
thing burn up in flames bro, i had to do something.....give me a call when you
are done talking, i will be walking around" o amba ngauralo atsa abva. Tshililo
o hagana na Xolani a dzhena goloini
Tshili:"hi"
she smiled
Me:"hi"
Ndopfa
ndisa divhi uri zwendavha ndi khou zwipfa zwipfi mini. I started the car
without saying a word, ndovha ndisa divhi uri ndi khou toda uri riye u amba
rigai but i wanted somewhere a bit private ngauri i had too much to say to her.
Ndo tuwa ndaya khoroni, ndo swika ndawana huna dzi units dzire empty, ro booker
room vharifha key radzhena. First time i was here Tshililo ovha a tshi khou
shavha Luvhengo and i booked a room for her for a week and now i was here
ngauri we needed to talk and she needsedto go back to him. Zwi a penga hafha
vhutshiloni. Hovha husina ane a khou amba na munwe, ndo swika nda khiulula
radzhena. Ndoswika nda bvula zwienda nda gonya ntha ha mmbete nda dzula
Me:"here
we are"
Tshili:"yah"
oda a dzula tsini na nne
Tshili:"ndi
sorry nga maanda kha hezwila zwa mbamulovha"
Me:"zwavhudi-vhudi
ene u sorry kha zwifhio? Are you sorry that you talked to your abusive ex
boyfriend? Are you sorry that you regret leaving him and now you want him back?
Kana u sorry uri o mmbaisa? Or u sorry uri o hwala nwana wa ligevhenga? Which
one is it Tshililo? Enlighten me please" she breathed and looked down and
then back at me
Tshili:"i
love you and i am sorry i broke things off but kha hangwe zwenda muvhudza
mbamulovha Thembu, ndi khou balelwa u tshila ndi si nae"
Me:"ene
o dada serious Tshililo, mulandu wawe mathina? i am still a damn drug
dealer.....khari....." ndo sedza thungo ndadovha nda musedza "khari
ndi tou zwiamba zwavhudi nga tshivenda, ndi tshigevhenga Tshililo, ndi rengisa
zwidzidzivhadzi, ndono vhulaya muthu and yes ndo huvhadza helia li ex lawe and
ndizwine ndavha zwone hezwo and i know for a fact that ene zwomunetisa, so why
are you sorry? I am not going to apologise to you for who and what i am ngauri
as far as i know you are one of the reasons why i did this and thidisoli ngauri
ndia mufuna zwavhukuma"
Tshili:"kha
mpfarele khazwothe zwenda amba, ndovha ndotou tshuwa"
Me:"nope
ovha a khou amba ngoho, i won’t be a good father to this child and o dzhia
Tsheo yavhudi nga maanda" ndoralo ndo dinalea tshothe. Tshililo o
nndavhelesa a thoma u bvisa mitodzi
Me:"i
can’t do this Tshililo" ndobvisa tshelede tshipatshini ndavhea ntha ha
mmbete, ndo takuwa ndo livha vothini. Ndo rembuluwa nda musedza
Me:"just
so you know, you killed something in me"
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a Penga - Insert 88
O
takuwa ngau tavhanya ada he nne ndavha ndihone, o mpfara nga tshanda
Tshili:"bbe
please, i can’t do this alone" oralo a tshi khou sumba thumbu yawe, ndo
femela ntha nda sokou musedza
Tshili:"kha
mpfarele Thembu"
Me:"ndia
mufuna uya zwidivha and thina thaidzo nauvha vhutshiloni hawe na vhutshiloni ha
nwananga Tshili but..." i lost my words
Tshili:"but
nothing babe, nne na ene ria funana and nne ndovha ndo tou dada"
Me:"i
understand ovha o dada Tshililo but how do i shake off the fact that you went
and talked to your ex and then you even had the nerve to confront me about it
huh?"
Tshili:"but
bbe ene o-" Ndo mukatudza
Me:"khapfe
nne Tshililo, i am a man and u tou amba ngoho u vhona unga nne ndi khou tea u
humbula mini tshifhinga tshothe ene a hayani arali a tshi do ita izwi zwau
vhonana na Luvhengo......eish i hate that i have to even mention his name while
arguing with you"
Tshili:”sorry"
Me:"Tshililo
khade" ndo mufara nga tshanda raya u dzula fhasi "ri khouya uvha na
nwana zwino neh and if we are going to make this work, then hutea uvha nadzi
line dzine dza tea u drawiwa, ene ha tsha tea u amba na hoyu Luvhengo wawe let
alone u mu discusser ana nne"
Tshili:'hai
Thembuluwo that’s not fair"
Me:"i
am not asking you to do this....i am telling you, ri khou pfana?" she
looked at me as if she was waiting for me to take back what i said but i didn't
Tshili:"uhm"
Me:"ri
khou pfana naaa?" otenda nga thoho
Me:”
yah, if nne na ene ri khouya u tshila rothe, ri khou tea u thonifhana, i
respect you and na ene kha nthonifhe Tshililo, otherwise its never gonna work,
ndi tshigevhenga ndizwone but you chose me right? And ene u tou zwidivha azwi
fhedza uri ndia mufuna so ari litshe u dzhielana advantage"
Tshililo
o sokou mbvisela mato a tshi vhonala o mangala. Owk i think zwendavha ndi khou
amba zwovha zwitshi khou mu mangadza ngauri u nndivha ndisa ambesi, but ndo
zwivhona uri ndi khou fanela uita mikano if nne na Tshililo ri tshi khou tea u
ita uri zwithu zwashu zwitshimbile, nga maandesa ngauri huna nwana and i
honestly could’t have my wife talking to her ex, i mean huvha hu khou ambiwa
afhio? I mean ndia pfesesa uri nne ndovha ndi khou amba na Sharon, but i was a
gentleman and zwi touvha khagala uri Luvhengo was no gentleman
Me:"kha
mphe nomboro dza Luvhengo"
Tshili:"u
khou toda u itani?"
Me:"ndori
kha mphe nomboro dza Luvhengo" o bvisa phone a putedza putedza a mpha
phone yawe, ndo mbo di dzungudza thoho
Me:"so
you still have his phone numbers?"
Tshili:"Thembu
please" she said that rolling her eyes
Me:"don't
roll your damn eyes and dont Thembu me musi ri tshi khou amba mafhungo a
serious Tshililo, asi tshifhinga tshothe tshine a tea u ita hezwo zwine a khou
ita" she quickly straightened up and looked at me
Me:"so
before ndi tshi founela hoyu muthu wawe, ndi khou toda uri a mmbudze zwino
Tshililo, uya mpfuna? Like do you really love me? And arali zworalo you are
cutting all ties with Luvhengo and tshinwe hafhu ene u khadi funa Luvhengo naa?
Arali zworalo, kha mmbudze, i will walk away and thinga mulwisi kha decision
yawe nne, thi khou toda a tshi dzula na nne nga nthani ha nwana or because you
are feeling sorry for me, ndi khou toda uri rivhe rothe ngauri lufuno luhone
from both sides"
Tshili:"bbe
how can you ask me that?"
Me:"ndi
touvha na vhutanzi hofhelelaho uri hezwo azwi fhinduli mmbudziso yenda
vhudzisa" o gwadama fhasi nga magona a mpfara zwanda zwothe sa izwi nne
ndovha ndodzula ntha ha mmbete, i kept a straight face and looked at her
Tshili:"bbe....Thembu....i
love you....and only you, ndi nga si tsha amba na Luvhengo, i will delete his
phone numbers and he will be out of our lives, i want you and that’s all i
want" ndo fhumula nda musedza
Me:"zwa
vhugangster zwone? azwi tsha mudina?"
Tshili:"ndo
humbula ngahazwo and vhathu vhane a shuma navho navho vhana dzi family and zwi
khou tshimbila zwavhudi so na rine ri nga zwikona"
Me:"you
mean that?"
Tshili:"yes
i do" ndo bvisa zwanda zwanga khae nda founela Luvhengo
Luvhengo:"Hi
Tshili"
Me:"sorry
to disappoint, ndi munna wawe" the phone went dead on the other line
Me:"are
you still there?"
Luvhengo:"uhm...ahhhh...yah"
Me:"and
how is your leg? Ndi a kholwa no no fhola nyana kani?"
Luvhengo:"not
really"
Me:"oww
nne ndi khouri nofhola shame, which is why novha ni tshi vho salana murahu na
Tshililo, ndovhona unga i touvha signal yau sumbedzisa uri Grander aingo ita
mushumo wone, you want something a bit......uhm what’s the word again?"
Tshililo gave me a death stare and for the first time, it didn't do anything to
me
Luvhengo"uhm
Thembu murathu, uhm hai mah....uhm kha ndi farelwe"
Me:"uni
farela zwido nthusa ngani?"
Luvhengo:'"Thembu
please thi tshado dzhenelela na luthihi and i am sorry, ndi nga sitsha amba na
Tshililo na luthihi"
Me:"you
better not, ndi ralo ngauri nau vhulaya ndia kona, hezwila zwena itiwa hetshila
tshifhinga hovha u tamba, those guys can cut your body parts one by one while
you watch.....and don’t even think of taking chances because i am
here.......they are everywhere" i dropped the call. Tshililo had a
horrified look on her face, ndofhedza nda munekedza phone yawe, o takuwa a
dzhia phone a dzula ntha ha mmbete, she looked really scared.
Me:"Tshililo
ene u toda u divha zwothe musi so i guess thi tei u dzumba zwine ndavha zwone
kha ene na luthihi, sorry arali ndo mutshuwisa but houla Luvhengo u tea udivha
hune hatea u tambeliwa na husa tambeliwi" Tshililo o sokou mmbvisela mato
Me:"ndia
mufuna and ndido mufuna u swikela and vhathu vhangaho Luvhengo ndidolwa nga
ndila dzothe uvha minula matshiloni ashu, hezwo ndipfulufhedziso" Owk i
think i just scared the poor girl way too much, ovha a khou sokou poidza asa
fhedzi. Ndosendela tsini nae nda mukuvhatedza, she started crying
Me:"shhhhh
bbe asongo lila, its not good for the baby, asongo bilufhala
vhathu.....mulandu?"
Tshili:"promise
me you wont get angry?" i rolled my eyes
Me:"ok
i won’t"
Tshili:"u
khou ntshuwisa Thembu, you sound like a real gangster"
Me:'ndi
gangster bbe although i dont like going all gangster on you but ndizwine ndavha
zwone zwazwino but asongo vhilaela, kha ene thi hezwo nehh?"
Tshili:"uhm
ok"
Me:"so
can you smile for me" ndoralo ndo kwatamela khae, o setshelela nyana and i
kissed her, she kissed me back, we went on about it, roughly and hungry, ro
ralo ravhuya raswika khazwila zwinwe.
Rofhedza
ra ganama rothe rotou tha! Ndo lavhelesa thumbu ya Tshili, hovha husa sumbedzi
uri huna tshithu, she was still flat
Me:"hupfi
ido thoma u vhonala lini?"
Tshili:"thina
vhutanzi, zwavhudi-vhudi i am not even sure how far i am ngauri thi thuya
clinic"
Me:"kha
ri tuwe zwino bbe" i said that with a huge excitement
Tshili:"ri
khouya gai?"
'Me:"ha
Doctor" i saw some happiness in her eyes musi ndi tshi amba hezwo
Tshili:"ari
tuwe"
Rovuwa
ra ambara and then rabva. Ro tuwa raya u vhona Gynaecologist, zwovha zwi
zwavhudisa, Tshililo was 5 weeks preg, hovha hu sa thu vhonala uri ndi nwana
lini but we could see the heart beat. Ndowana tention yothe yeyavha ihone kha
nne na Tshililo yofhela, i guess that what babies do to you, they bring a
smile. Ro ri u fhedza hanefho ratuwa. Ndoya nda tangana na Xolani futhi, Ro
driver Tshililo nzhelela duvha li sa a thu kovhela. Ndoswika nga haningei
hahawe nda mu dropper ra onesana nne na Xolani rahuma. Roswika hayani henefha
ngavho five, Rovha na tshifhinga tshavhudi tshau catch up na family. Mianga dzo
vha dzi tshi khou kaidza khathihi nau laya Xolani ngaha unwa, lol ndowana
Xolani a tshi khou sokou ruda-ruda mato a tshi nndavhelesa, nne ndovha ndi tshi
khou sokou setshelela sa izwi mianga dzovha dzisa zwidivhi uri nne ndianwa.
The
following morning was the usual, ndo amba na Tshili nga matsheloni and oww ndo
amba na Sharon mulovha nga madekwana, she was happy that nne na Tshili ro
lugisa mafhungo. Ndovha ndodzula na Xolani ri tshi khou discusser progress
yadzi business rumuni yanga
Me:"enough
about business bro....uhm i wanna marry Tshili"
X:"oww
that’s great"
Me:"i
want us to go to town for a ring"
X:"what
ring?" oralo a tshi khou tiba laptop o nndavhelesa
Me:"yeah
i just told you i wanna marry her"
X:"i
heard that but i didnt think that you meant right away, i mean what’s the rush
Thembu? You are 20 for heavens sake, you are not ready for marriage please....i
am happy you fixed things but marriage?" he raised an eyebrow at me as he
said the last word
Me:"i
hear you Xolani but Tshililo and i love each other, why do we have to wait? i
have seen many people who married when they were young and they are still together
even today, we will weather all the storms together....me and her" Xolani
o nndavhelesa a tshinga muthu ane a khou humbula. He breathed
X:"Thembu
you were with some girl at Nandoni, are you sure you will be faithful to
Tshili? It’s no use doing this and then you end up hurting the poor girl"
Me:"i
know what i want" naho ndovha ndi tshi khoupfa mafhungo a Tshililo na
Luvhngo a tshi khou nndina nyana ndo zwidivha uri uya mpfuna and ahuna zwine
zwanga itea uri lutanya naluthihi
X:"owk
if you sound so sure then what can i say" o imisa zwanda zwawe o
nndavhelesa
Me:"so
can we go to town, i have to buy a ring, i wanna propose"
X:"let’s
leave then"
Me:"on
the second thought, we only have Sterns here in Thohoyandou and i am not sure
if they will have nice rings or if we should drive to Plk"
X:"how
far is Plk?"
Me:"about
2 hours to 3 hours drive"
X:"no
bro we are not going there for an engagement ring, you can even buy online mus
or lets just go to Sterns and then you can take your time when you buy the
wedding ring, i can even help you search the net for that one"
Me:"let’s
go" I said that smiling at Xolani
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a Penga - Insert 89
Nne
na Xolani rotuwa raya Thohoyandou. Roswika Sterns ravha ri tshi khou lavhelesa
dzi rinngi
X:"i
forgot to tell you about this girl i met at Nandoni bro, her name is Mpho, uhm
she is studying at Univen, i was with her yesterday in town when you were
withTshili"
Me:"oww
anything serious?"
X:"not
really, just having fun"
Me:"mhm
i like this one" ndoralo ndi tshi khou sumba inwe rinngi henefho
X:"yah
it’s not bad but lets look all around first before you choose"
Me:"sure,
so how are things with Sihle?"
X:"all
is good but as you know i am not into commiting and i still wanna play"
Me:"i
get you" Xolani o mbo di receiver message kha phone yawe, o u lavhelesa
aima a tshinga o dada nyana
Me:"and
now?" o nnekedza phone. Ndodzhia phone ndavhala message
"So
you came all the way here acting like a cheese boy to steal my girlfriend? Well
you wont like whats coming to you, back off" Xolani shook his head
chuckling
X:"he
must be talking about Mpho, the girl didn't tell me she had a boyfriend, i am
not a sangoma how was i to know?" oralo o nndavhelesa as if answering my
non asked question
Me:"but
now that you know you should stay away"
X:"this
guy sound arrogant so maybe i should not stay away, i do love a bit of a
challange you know"
Me:"X
you are going back to Western Cape in the next 3 weeks, you can't ruin the poor
girl’s relationship" he looked at me like he was thinking
X:"uhm
maybe you are right"
Me:"yeah
i am right so let it go please" o imisa zwanda zwawe as if to surrendor
X:"back
to the ring" rosedza sedza u vhuya u swika ri tshi wana yeya ritakadza.
Ubva
hafho roya PnP rarenga nyana zwiliwa and then we drove home.
Hovha
hu Friday so nne na Xolani rohumbela mianga uri ridoya ra dzedza hangei ha
Khathu so rido vhuya late nyana. Mianga vhotenda sa izwi rina goloi. Robva late
nyana raya hangei car wash. Roswika haningei ravha rodzula na majita ri tshi
khou zuwa. Ubva hafho ro mbo di dzhia tsheo yauyela Thohoyandou unwa
ngahaningei. Roya kha kunwe ku club nyana hanefhala Thohoyandou, kana kupfi
mini wee. Hovha hodalesa thangana ya murole, rine rovha rotuwa ri vhana.
Roswika haningei rathoma udzivhidza ri tshi khouralo unwa ritshi dovha. Rovha
rodzula kha khona yashu ri vhana, hovha husina musidzana tsini. And then inwe
authi yo mbo dida yolivha Xolani, yoda yaita hezwila zwau mu poker nga munwe
ngahafha kha shada
X:"eita?"
oralo a tshi khou rembuluwa o lavhelesa yeneyo authi
Guy:"so
you are the famous Xolani, Cape Town boy huh?" Xolani o mbo di smiler
smile tsha khole nyana
X:'oww
yeah Xolani is my name aka X"
Guy:"can
i have a word with you in private?" X looked at me and then at the guy
Me:"i
am coming with, that’s as private as it can get" ndopfa uri thi khou
themba hedzi authi, mashudu mavhuya i had my gun with and Xolani naye ovha a na
tshawe so if vhaita zwau ri tshantsela dzido vhuya.
Guy:'owk"
Me:"uhm
ri khou vhuya neh" ndoralo ndi tshi khou vhudza Khathu na heila inwe
authi. Rovhanyuludza raya nnda. Ro swika nne na Xolani ravha sedza
Guy:"owk
dzina langa ndi Sdumo neh, uyu Xolani wahone oda na inwi afha Venda? ndiamba
ngauri ndi ndenwa yau fhedzisela"
X:"i
would really love to know what you are saying bro"
Sdumo:"owk
you came to Venda for like 5 seconds, and already you are throwing parties and
inviting my damn girlfriend and then you even took her out yesterday?"
Xolani laughed for good 5 minutes, muthannga houla munwe ovha a tshivhonala uri
u khou dinalea tshothe
X:"owk
i am sorry to laugh bro, but who the hell is your girlfriend? Enlighten
me" Sdumo o mbo di fara Xolani nga dzi hemmbe and before i knew it there
were five guys vhori tinga
Me:”uhm
vhanna vhahashu ndia kholwa hovha na phoswo nyana, khari solve mafhungo sa
vhathu vhahulwane please, ndia kholwana na thama yanga ovha asa zwidivhi zwauri
muthu wanu una muthu please"
X:"owk
bro we don’t have to fight, if you are the one who sent me a message this
afternoon then i am sorry, i didn’t know that your girl has a man, she didn't
tell me but i completely deleted her off my phone since i received your message”
Sdumo:"you
are just a spoilt bratt who thinks that you can just do whatever you want
neh?"
X:"seriously
now my man, i don’t appreciate you calling me a damn spoilt bratt because i
have worked so damn hard for the money i
have been flashing around"
Xolani
vhombo di muposa nga feisi, atshiri kani kani avha ono farwa nga authi mbili
Sdumo avha a tshi khou muposa nga feisi. Nne na Xolani rovha rononwa nyana and
na nungo rovha ri si tshena, naho arali rovha risongo nwa vhathannga havha
vhovha vha vhanzhi. Xolani was now on the ground. Ndo bvisa tshigidi ndavha
sumba ngatsho
Me:"mulitsheni"
ndoralo ndokwata tshothe
Sdumo:"scaring
us with the toy huh?"
Me:"i
don't do toys" ndoralo ndatshi rea ndambodi thuntsha muyani. Hopfala
mikosi and then vhao litsha Xolani vha fara dzithoho vha tshi khou banda fhasi.
Ndoya he Xolani avha ahone
Me:"you
need to keep your damn girlfriend on the leash" ndoralo ndi tshi khou
sumba honoula Sdumo zwahone nga tshigidi
Sdumo:"uhm
lo....lopfala"
X:"yeah
you better" havhala vhathannga vho mbo di takuwa vharalo u pungaila
vhatshituwa. Nne ndosala na Xolani rivhavhili, ndovha ndono dzumba tshigidi
ngauri tshori ulila vhathu vhevhavha vha henefho nnda vho shavhela kule, kana
ndiu shavha lone lufu, hafhu ufa ahu felwi
Me:"Xolani
do you see what you have done now?"
X:"how
was i to know that the girl had a boyfriend?"
Me:"but
you were also rude bro, knowing full well what you've been doing with his girl
you should have atleast behaved yourself, i don’t like fighting with people
specially close to home bro, that’s a no no"
X:"owk
i am sorry, it wont happen again....i guess i have to advertise a post and
specify that i want a lady who is single"
Me:"i
am serious Xolani"
X:"owk
i heard you it wont happen again i promise"
Me:'it
better not" rohumela hangei ngangomu. Khathu o vhudzisa uri mulandu, ro
mutalutshedza uri it’s nothing to stress about. Rodzula henefho raisa phanda
nau diitela. rotakuwa nga vho 11 ya madekwana rahumela hayani. Ndoya nda
dropper Khathu na heila inwe authi hahayo and then nne na Xolani raya hayani.
Rovha rina spare key, roswika rapaka goloi radzhena, nne ndoya kamarani yanga
Xolani aya khayawe. Ndo decider uri ndido tea u vhudzisa mianga uri aya
mafhungo au mala Tshililo ringa abva hani. Nne ndovha ndi khou toda u zwiita
ngau tavhanya, so ndovha ndi sa vhoni reason yautwa di tshi khou ima-ima.
Hovha
hunga mugivhela nga masiari, nne na Xolani rovha rovuwa rina babalasi nga
maanda fhedziha zwazwino yovha yonovha khwine. Xolani ovha ana murathu wanga a
tshi khou mugudisa homework, Rendani ovha oya Saterday school. Mianga vhovha
vhodzula tshitupuni vha tshi khou tshetshelela mutshaini. Ndoya khavho ndaswika
ndadzula henefho
Mma:"u
khou vuwa hani Tshililo?" vho vha vha tshi khou setshelela
Me:"o
takala nga maanda, uhm mmawe ndovha ndi serious nga mafhungo haala au mala
Tshililo" mianga vholitsha u tshetshelela vha nndavhelesa
Mma:"Thembuluwo
nne ndi khouri nido dibvisa khahoyo muhumbulo, nitshe mutuku inwi nwana,
mbingano asi zwithu zwau tamba, vhonani nne na khotsi anu ii, difheni
tshifhinga inwi na hoyu Tshililo tshau diprepare"
Me:"mmawe
please nne thingado vhuya ndavuwa ndofana na baba plus hoyu Tshililo ndia
mufuna and ndi khou toda nwananga a tshi bebiwa a dzula na nne kana na vhone
mianga"
Mma:"ringaya
ra badela heila tshelede ya matodela ngeno nwananga fhedziha hezwi zwinwe navha
noima nyana, zwifheni minwaha mina and then ninga ita zwau malana"
Me:"ndi
khou vha thonifha nga maanda fhedziha khavha ntendele ndizwiite, i wanna do
this now, ndia mufuna Tshililo and na ene uya mpfuna. Ndi khou shuma and ndido
kona u supporta mmawe" mianga vhodzula vhafemuluwa
Mma:"no
divhudza thiri?"
Me:"ee"
Mma:"ri
khou tea uamba na khotsi anu na makhadzi wanu uitela uri vhakone uamba na
vhathu vhalushaka vhane vhado tshimbidza mafhungo fhedziha navhone vhadopfa
hezwi tshi tshi touvha tshimangadzo vhukuma"
Me:"mmawe
please"
Mma:"itani
zwine na vhona nwananga ndinga si nidzivhise nne lini"
Me:'ndo
livhuwa"
Zwi
a Penga - Insert 90
Hovha
hu Swondaha nga masiari. Rovha rono vhuya kale kerekeni. Nne ndovha ndo humbela
Tshililo uri aambe na miawe uri u khouya u dalela munwe wa dzi thama dzawe nga
hangeno ha Tshivhasa, miawe vhotenda. Mianga ndovha ndono vhatalutshedza kale
uri Tshililo u khouda u dala, Vhovha vhatshipfala vhotakala nga mafhungo hayo.
Ovha a tshi khouda udala for maduvha nyana. Ndovha ndi khoupfa ndotakala nga
maanda, I would be sleeping with my babe...finally. Ndovha ndoima tshitupuni
ndo ambara jean na tshikhipha tsha Adidas tshonwalwaho upfi number 3 nga phanda
tsha blue, milenzheni ndovha ndo ambara mateki. Mianga vho mbo di bvelela vhada
vhaima tsini na nne
Mme:'Tshililo
ndo mulugisela nguvho dza extra nga hangei kamarani yanga, ndovhona uri udo
edela na nne mazwale wawe, ndovha ndopfa na Rendani a tshiri u khou toda u
edela nae, hafhu nwananga u khou takalela vhoo uri hudovha huna munwe musidzana
fhano mutani" arali hovha hutshipfi hovha huna thunzi tsini yovha i tshi
dovha yodzhena mulomoni nau zwipfa ndisi zwipfe, ndovha ndi khou mangadzwa
ngazwe mianga vhavha vha tshi khou amba zwone
Me:"u
khou edela na vhone?" ndo balelwa u dzumba u mangala hendavha ndinaho
Mma:"arali
Rendani a tenda hafhu na ene u khou toda u edela nae" he vhanna, mukegulu
vha serious wah
Me:"but
mma nne?"
Mma:"inwi
noitani?"
Me:"Tshililo
u khouya uvha mufumakadzi wanga ndivhona unga zwakhwine ndi uri a edele na
nne" ndo amba maipfi au fhedzisela ndosedza thungo ndi tshi khou kweta
tshitefu. this was the most awkward conversation i had ever had with my mom, i
mean mianga vha khotou balelwa u pfesesa uri muhumbulo muhulwane wa uri why
Tshililo a tshi khouda ndi wa uri rivhe na tshifhinga tshauvha ri vhavhili mara
ngoho?
Mma:"zwisa
itwi ndizwezwo, ani athu malana musi"
Me:'mara
mma"
Mma:"ahuna
mara nwananga, a zwinga itwi hafha muduni hezwo" awkwaaaaaaaaard, he
vhanna, ndo mbo di fara khundu nda humela nduni, Xolani ovha ana Thendo sitting
room, X na Thendo vhovha vha khou andana nga maanda.
Me:"you
wont believe what mom said"
X:"what?"
oralo o sedza kha dzi toy dza Thendo dzevhavha vha tshi khou tambisa
Me:"she
said Tshili is sleeping in her room....like really?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou
hevhedza. Xolani o mbo di tou lovha ngazwi seo
X:"wooow
i love mom" oralo a tshi khou femeleka ngau sea
Me:"it’s
not funny bro it’s a disaster"
X:"a
good disaster" he was still laughing
Me:"mtzm
i don’t even know why i am talking to you anyway i am going to pick up Tshili,
wanna come with?"
X:"nahh
you can go i am still busy with the young man here" nne ndo mbo di onesa ndadzhia key dza goloi
ndalivha nzhelele.
Ngoho
Tshililo ovha a tshi khoula hofhola shame, hafhu nga pfanelo hovha hotea a tshi
khotou tangana na nne hafha Thohoyandou. Ndori ndi ndilani nda founela Sharon
Sharon:"Thembu"
Me:"hey
Shaz uri mini fhedzi?"
Shaz:"ndo
takala ndivhudzisa ngeo"
Me:'nne
ndotakala"
Shaz:"a
tshinga u khou driver?"
Me:"oww
yahh ndi khou ya nzhelele u dzhia mia KuThembu vha khouda uri dalela"
Shaz:"oww
that’s great"
Me:"yeah
so ndi khou humbela uri asongo founa kana u senda message neh mungana"
Sharon o mbo di sea
Me:"u
khou sea mini ai"
Shaz:"i
got the message thinga founi"
Me:"owk
dankie, mara zwithu zwothe zwihani kha ene?"
Shaz:"zwothe
zwi sharp, dzi bugu dzi khou nkeeper busy so all is well"
Me:"owk,
khari rido amba neh thama"
Shaz:"owk
thama" ndo mbo di dropper.
Ndovha
ndono amba na Tshililo. Ndoswika ndawana o nndindela henefhala hune ndadi
mutsitsa nga maduvha. Tshililo ovha ori ndisongotsa ndaita zwau mufha hug sa
izwi a tshi khou shavha u dzheniselwa mato saizwi hu mahayani. Kubabe kwanga
kwovha ko ambara rokho ino guma hafha kha magona na vhusandalas. Nd odzula
goloini nda lindela a tshi dzhena
Me:"mia
nwananga" Tshililo o mbo di setshelela
Tshili:"Khotsi
a nwananga" ndo dzhia tshanda tshawe nda tshi khisa and then i started the
car.
Me:"ndo
mutuvha nana"
Tshili:"na
nne ndomutuvhesa"
Me:"how
is our baby?"
Tshili:"u
khou hula i guess, but ndi khadi ita hezwila zwau lwala-lwala nga matsheloni
eish" i smiled
Me:"udovha
sharp bbe zwothe zwi normal"
Tshili:"yah"
Me:"angasi
kholwe uri mianga vhari mini bbe"
Tshili:"vhari
mini?"
Me:"vhari
ene udo edela navho kana na Rendani can you believe it?" Tshililo o mbo di
tou devha tshifhere thovhela, ndivhona unga ovha a tshi khou vhona unga ndi
khou swaswa, o fhumula musi a tshi vhona nne ndi sa sei
Tshili:'babe
u serious?" ovha o nndavhelesa a tshi vho vhonala o mangala
Me:"ene
u khou vhona unga ndi khou tamba?"
Tshili:"bbe
maybe vhado shandukisa muhumbulo or thamusi vhovha vha tshi khou swaswa" u
tou amba ngoho ndovha ndi tshi khotou tama mianga vha tshi khou swaswa kha heli
la uri Tshililo udo edela navho. Nne na bbe wanga ro reila asizwila raswika
hayani.
Ndori
ndi tshi paka goloi Rendani avha a tshi khou bvela nnda ngau gidima. Oda kha
seat ya Tshililo a vula vothi
Rendy:"muhalivho
wanga" oralo a tshiu khou sea a tshi khou dzhia handbag yeyavha ikha
zwirumbi zwa Tshililo
Tshili:"hey
girly uri mini fhedzi?"
Rendy:"do
you even have to ask? Ndotakalesa" Tshililo otsa aita zwau hagana na
Rendani. Nne na nne ndotsa ndadzhia bege ya Tshili yeyavha ikha seat ya murahu
ndadzhena nayo nduni. Mianga navhone vho mbo di bvelela
Mma:'mazwale
wanga iwe vhathu"
Tshili:"ndi
madekwana"
Vhoyela
kha Tshililo, nne ndo mbo di dzhia bege nda i isa rumuni yanga, i was honestly
hoping uri mianga vhono shandukisa muhumbulo. Lovha li tshi touvha zhalinga
vhathu vhotakalela Tshililo. Hovha huvho past 6 ya madekwana. Roya radzula
sitting room ravha ri tshi khou vhona TV. Zwavhudi-vhudi TV yovha i tshi khou
vhona rine ngauri hovha hutshi khou zuwiwa badi, and honestly speaking ndovha
ndisina dzangalela la mazuwo e vhathu vhavha vhakhao, zwe nne ndavha ndi tshi
khou toda zwone ndia dzhia Tshili wanga ravalelana rumuni. So here i was,
sitting on the sofa trying by all means to entertain whatever conversation they
were having but in all honestly i was angry
Mma:"nne
ndono farwa nga ndala kha ite zwiliwa nwananga" vhoralo vhosedza Rendani
Tshili:"na
nne ndido thusa" Tshililo o mbo di takuwa na Rendani vhaita zwiliwa,
Rendani o bvelela o fara phuleithi mbili ada afha mianga na Thendo, Tshililo na
ene oda na mbili afha Xolani na nne
Tshili:"i
love you" o hevhedza ngauralo musi a tshi khou nnea zwiliwa. Rendani ovha
ono disa kale madi autamba zwanda. Vhohumela vhaya udi dzhiela zwavho zwiliwa.
Yombodi tanganedza munwe na munwe avha busy na zwiliwa zwawe, mazuwo ovha atshi
khoudiya phanda. U fhedza ula Tshililo na Rendani vhotuwisa Phuleithi. It was
around 10 ya vhusiku and vhathu vhovha vha tshi vhonala vhatshe kule nau edela
nga kuvhonele kwanga
Tshili:"nne
ndi khou pfa nditshinga ndina khofhe nyana eish" she said that looking at
me
Me:"uhm
kha-"
Mma:"khade
ndiye u musumbedza vhulaloni nwananga" i looked at my mom in horror, so
she was serious?
Rendy:"mma
avhari a edele na nne please" so here i was silently screaming these words
'she is sleeping with me' but i couldn’t say them out load
Mma:"Rendani
nwananga nido edela nae matshelo thi" Tshililo ovha a tshi vhonala o dada
she looked at me surprised nne ndo sokou imisa mahada anga in defeat
Rendy:"why
not namusi?"
Mma:"nne
na Rendani ri khou tea uamba nyana so matshelo udo kona u edela na
inwi.....Tshililo khade nwananga" ndovha ndi tshi khu balelwa u kholwa
zwendavha ndi tshi khou zwipfa. Tshililo o kokodza milenzhe a tevhela mianga na
Rendani o mbo di vhasala murahu. Xolani o sala a tou vhumbuluwa na fhasi a tshi
khou sea
X:"i....i.....i
can’t laugh.....i can’t laugh alone bro i have to call Ncedo" ovha a tshi
khou amba ngauralo a tshi khadi sea. O dzhia phone yawe zwenezwo o ganama fhasi
a dialer nomboro
X:'Ncedo
mfowethu you won’t believe what just happened" and then he burst out
laughing. Nne ndombodi nala ndatuwa kamarani yanga ndasia Xolani a tshi khou
sea. Ndoswika ndadiposa ntha ha mmbete in frustration, so i didn’t even get the
chance to kiss her, ndiamba ku kiss nyana. Someone came and knocked on the door
Me:"ndi
nnyi?" i snapped
Tshili:"ndi
Tshililo" ndovuwa ngau tavhanya ndaya u vula vothi, thingo lindela na upfa
uri u khou toda uri mini, ndo mukokodzela ndangomu kamarani ndakhia ndaralo u
thoma u mukhisekanya musi o gogodela vothi, she kissed me back and at that
moment all i wanted was her
Me:"ndo
mutuvhesa"
Tshili:"i
miss you too....but bbe ndoda u dzhia bege"
Me:"what?
Khavhe oima nyana nga bege babe" ndombodi mutakula nda muvhea ntha ha
mmbete
"Tshililo"
my mom called, ndopfa vha tshi tou nthavha na mbilu mavhanna, ndombo ditsa khae
nda mulavhelesa, zwauri na Tshililo ovha o borea zwovha zwitshi touvha khagala
Tshili:"sorry"
Me:"it’s
fine" i breathed, hafhu ndovha ndi tshi tounga ndisa talutshedza mianga
uri hoyu muthu nne ndi dzula nae hangei tshikoloni, i mean she was carrying my
child already, thipfesesi uri why mianga vho vha tshi khou ita ngaurali.
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