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Zwi a Penga - Insert 41

Ndo dzula goloini nda thoma u humbula. Hovha na duvha le Condom ya ita hezwi zwau phamuwa fhedziha Sibu o mphulufhedzisa uri udo renga morning after so the baby can't be mine, mara arali asi wanga, why was she so rude about it. Anyway irani ndilitshe utwa ndi khou dilisa mbilu, if nwana a wanga Sibu ovha atshi do mmbudza, or can she? Hafhu u ngari kha Sibu zwa ndeme ndi tshelede and she would never want me to be the father of her child ngauri nne ndovha ndisina tshithu. Eish anyway ndo pfa ndi khou tea ubvisa bbe wanga namusi. Surprise her a little bit. Ndo dzhia founu yanga and made few calls then ndaya rumuni yanga. Ndowana X odzula ntha ha mmbete a busy na founu yawe.

Me:"uhm X I wanna apologise"

X:"for?"

Me:"the way I reacted when you were giving me advice, I know you have my best interest at heart bro and I am sorry"

X:"thanks bro, I have been on this game longer than you Thembu and I have seen what it does to people who forget who they are so please don't let that be you"

Me:"I get you bro"

X:"yeah", ndo dzula henefho na X ri tshi khou haseledza.

X:"eish bro, that girl from Thembalethu said she wants to see me tonight so she want me to come spend the night"

Me:"ow?"

X:"I mean I never told her we were dating but tjoo that chick just can't get the message,  I have been ignoring her the whole day but do you think she gets tired?"

Me:"just tell her that you are not into her bro"

X:"a guy can't do that, what happens when Sihle is not available and I need someone?"

Me:"yohh I give up on you,.....anyway did you know that Sibu was pregnant?"

X:"your Sibu?"

Me:"yeah I saw her today can you believe it?"

X:"you don't think its yours do you?"

Me:"to tell you the truth neh, I don't know and I guess I will never know"

X:"did you talked to her about it?"

Me:"not really,  I was just shocked to see her pregnant and she gave me the whole speech about how married people are supposed to get pregnant blady blady blah"

X:"auch but you guys were using protection all the time right?"

Me:"yeah"

X:"then you have nothing to worry about"

Me:"but there was a day when the condom broke and Sibu said she was gonna get a morning after"

X:"uhm dude that changes everything hey, the chances that the baby might be yours are a bit high"

Me:"eish I don't wanna think about Sibu and her pregnancy tonight, I just want to take my baby out"

X:"mhm good for you"

Me:"and another thing, do you mind staying with Sihle? I wanna move in with Tshili man, thats if you don't mind"

X:"you have got to be kidding me" oralo atshi khou ya u vula fridge abvisa beer

Me:"give me one too" o mbodi bvisa can a nnekedza

Me:"uhm I am not kidding,  I want her close to me man"

X:"so you are tired of staying with me?"

Me:"I didn't say that man, this has nothing to do with you, I just want to be with Tshili that's all"

X:"but bro you know that I am not the type to live with the girlfriend, how will I run my business because obviously she will want to know my every move and how will I see other girls?"

Me:"but X bro I need this,  as for the other girls you need to stop seeing them and the business thing, you can always tell her that you are with me"

X:"eish so you really want to stay with your girlfriend?"

Me:"yeah man"

X:"owk its fine I will talk to Sihle about this"

Me:"thanks man, I will talk to Tshili" ndodzula henefho na X, ndo takuwa ndaya rumuni ya Tshili nga murahu nyana.

Ndo swika nda wana Sihle a hone. I told her about my plan for the day and she helped me pack Tshili's stuff. Ndo mbo di receiver message une wa khou bva kha Tshililo a tshi khouri u khou tshaisa nga one so ndide ndi mudzhie, ndo tavhanya nda humela rumuni yanga and packed few things for myself. Ndozwi dzhia nda zwiisa goloini and I drove to the mall u tanganedzan Tshililo. Ndo swika nda wana oima nga hafhala tsini na fruits and veg. Ori u vhona goloi yanga a dela kha nne. Nne ndo mbo di tsa nda mu hug.

Me:"mhm so lovha lihani duvha lawe lau thoma?"

Tshili:"lovha li sharp bbe and ndi khou u takalela mushumo hoyu mani ene"

Ms:"zwi takadza bbe wawe hezwo ngoho"

Tshili:"yahh bbe ari tuwe, ndina ndala lunwe ndi khou tea u swika ndi tshi la"

Me:"uhm ringa dzhena hunwe hanefha rathoma ra la"

Tshili:"uhm bbe ahuna need wee ndosia huna zwiliwa hangei rumuni"

Me:"I am not taking no for an answer so ri khouya ula gai?"

Tshili:"Uhm Spur"

Me:"a ri tuwe" ndo mbo di mufara nga tshanda raya Spur. Roswika haningei ra order and we waited for our food. Husi kale-kale zwo mbo di da and we started eating. Rola ri tshi khou haseledza. Ro ri ufhedza ula ra ya goloini.

Me:"ha ngo neta badi bbe?"

Tshili:"not ngauralo bbe"

Me:"owk", ndo mbo di dzhena kha N2 ndadzhia direction hei yau yela Wilderness

Tshili:"uhm bbe ri khouya gai?"

Me:"ndi surprise"

Tshili:"zwauri dzi surprise thi andani nadzo uya zwidivha musi"

Me:"I know bbe wanga but you will love this, ha shumi matshelo neh?"

Tshili:"nope why?"

Me:"nahh ahuna muthu wanga"

Tshili:"kha sokou mmbudza uri ri khouyafhi bbe" I smiled

Me:"u do vhona nga nne ene wee" ro driver a si zwila ra da ra fhira Wilderness,  Sedgefield and then ra swika Knysna. Ro swika nda mbodi tuwa straight nyana nga N2, nda mbo di khonela thungo hedzila dza The Heads. Ndovha ndo booker rumu kha inwe lodge hanefhala. Ro swika ra checka in.

Tshili:"bbe hu khou itea mini?"

Me:"I am taking my wife out"

Tshili:"but bbe you didn't have to"

Me:"I wanted to bbe, u ya zwi deserver zwothe hezwi ene"

Tshili:"uya divha ngoho ene nne ndia mufuna"

Me:"hezwo ndi a zwidivha bbe wanga" ro mbo di tuwa ro livha kha suite yendavha ndo booker yone.

Ndovha ndo ita booking nga phone so ndori nditshi swika ndakona uita payment. Ro swika radzhena ra wana yo naka vhukuma and the best part was that rovha ri tshi khou kona u vhona view ya Lagoon musi ro ima kha balcony ya hone.

Tshili:"woow bbe kha do vhona view yahone" Tshili ovha o ima kha balcony o sedza nnda, nne ndo mbo di ya khae and hugged her from behind

Me:"you like?" o mbo di rembuluwa a ntsedza

Tshili:"u khou vhuya a tou vhudzisa naa"

Me:"so rido tuwa matshelo nga madekwana"

Tshili:"ahuna stress bbe" o ralo atshi khou sea and kissed me

Me:"mara ho ku kwana ndia kufuna ma vhanna"

Tshili:"I love you too honey"

Me:"do you mind if we go for a swim?"

Tshili:"uhm thina zwau bambela bbe"

Me:"don't stress ridoya ra khona hafho moloni neh?"

Tshili:"owk and bege iyi ina mini?"

Me:"kha sedze" I smiled. Tshili o mbo di sedza begeni sa izwi hovha huna zwithu zwanga na zwawe.

Tshili:"o toya rumuni yanga a paka izwi zwithu?" ovha a khou nwenwela nga ndila yeyavha I tshi khou nndadza

Me:"yep mara ndo thuswa nga Sihle"

Tshili:"mara ene ngohoi" o mbo di takuwa ada kha nne a nkhisa

Tshili:"ari ndi tavhanye ndi tambe nehh"

Me:"nne vhoo?"

Tshili:"ene oitani?"

Me:"thi khou vhidziwa uri ndide ndi tambe vhoo naa?" Tshililo o mbomdi sea

Tshili:"khade ha"

Me:"mtzm kha to mmbidza nga ndila ya romantic nyana ai"

Tshili:"ebo" o ralo atshi khou sendela tsini na mmbete atshi khou bvula jean

Me:"u khou hana?"

Tshili:"uhm yep" ndo bo diya khae ndaswika nda mutakula nda muposa ntha ha mmbete ndi tshi khou sea na ene a tshi khou sea

Me:"ndido mukhisekanya nne mani ene"

Tshili:"ndi khou hana" o ralo a tshi khou sea na nne ndi tshi khou sea. Ro mbo di thoma u kissana

Tshili:"bbe khariye u  tamba please rido lenga"

Me:"mhm at least now o tou nkhumbela zwavhudi" lol we laughed,  ro mbo di bvula zwiambaro ra gidimedzana ri tshiya bathroom. Ro swika ra vulela madi shawarani.

Tshili:"mhm shawara dzahone dzonaka bbe"

Me: I know right?" ndoralo ndofara tshifhatuwo tsha Tshili and started kissing her.

Me:"I love you"

Me:"I love you too"  ro ralo uita zwa vhafunani, ubva hafho ra tamba. Ro humela kamarani ra changer. Nne ndo ambara vhurukhu ha shorty na tshikhipha tsha simple, Tshililo o ambara ku shorty na vest na mathaphuthaphu.

Tshili:"mhm ndi ene o pangaho izwi?"

Me:"yep why?"

Tshili:"hatshena thaidzo nau uri ndi ambare zwithu zwau sia thundu dzawe nnda?"

Me:"bbe please hezwila zwenda ita helia duvha zwi khou ntshonisa mahh, maybe ndo itiswa nga halwa kani?" Tshililo laughed

Tshili:"are you seriously going to blame it on the alcohol?"

Me:"maybe" rofhedza u dilugisa ra ya parking ra swika radzhena goloini. Ro swika Knysna Mall. Roya radzhena Foschini for some swimming costumes for my babe. Ro renga ra badela rabvela nnda

Me:"uhm huna zwinwe zwine a khou toda?"

Tshili:"uhm zwiliwa zwi sharp ngei?"

Me:"yeah and vhana shop so if we need more food ringa renga"

Tshili:"so hanga to di halwa ene?"

Me:"nahh thi ngo diimisela unwa ndina ene bbe, I just want us to have fun together"

Tshili:"owk lets go back then" ro mbo di ya goloini ratuwa asi zwila ra humela hangei The Heads. Ro swika Tshili a tshintsha a ambara swimming costume yawe. Woow ovha a khou fanelwa bbe wanga mah, ovha a tshi vhonga o tou bebwa nayo.

Me:"o naka bbe"

Tshili:"thanks honey" I kissed her neck

Me:" ari tuwe" nne ndobvula tshikhipha na mathaphuthaphu and we went outside to the pool.

Me:"uya kona u bambela ene?"

Tshili:"bbe nne ndi musidzana wa muvenda and ndo aluwa nditshi kuvha mulamboni thiri"

Me:"mhm I will take that as a yes then"

Tshili:"yep and don't even try to compete ngauri zwido shonisa" o ralo a tshi khou sea

Me:"I am offended bbe, u khou toda u mmbudza uri ene uya bambela ufhira nne?"

Tshili:"no offense my love but yeah" I chuckled ndo fara khundu

Me:"hoku kwana kuna vhulinga nanga zwa serious"

Tshili:"bring it on Mr"

Me:"hahaha ene khari betshe hafha"

Tshili:"you won't like this but arali nda wina neh, there won't be sex until tomorrow but if ene a wina neh, rido ita uswika atshi neta bbe" she smiled seductively

Me:"this will be like taking a candy from the baby" ndoralo ndi tshi khou setshelela

Tshili:"don't be so sure and don't underestimate your opponent"

Me:"lets get to it" ro ya raima kule nyana na pool and smiled

Me:"lets go in three" then we count one to three, then ra gidimela phuluni ra bambela. Lol ndori nditshi swika magumoni a pool ndawana Tshililo ono swika kale. I couldn't believe it, nwana uya bambela hoyu, hafhu vhunzhi ha vhasidzana zwia vha balela but Tshili tsho mphira wahh.

Tshili:"I guess this means that there is no sex" she said that smiling

Me:"huh uh bbe ene o tou fhurela hai, o swika hani afha?"

Tshili:"ndo muvhudza ndari don't underestimate me"

Me:"you proved your point, uya kona u bambela ndo tenda but kha ri hangwe nga hezwila zwau betsha"

Tshili:"zwisa itwi ndi zwezwo bbe, ahuna sex namusi"

Me:"hai ndi matudzi hayo" ndo lingedza u sendela tsini nae and she swam away. Rovha ritshi khou sea. Oswika a ima khonani ya pool. Ndoswika nda mukhisa

Me:"bbe washu ari hangwe zwau betsha please"

Tshili:"naluthihi bbe" ndo mbo di isa zwanda zwanga tswaroni dzawe

Me:"really?" ndovha ndo musedza matoni

Tshili:"hai bbe please habe roto betsha zwavhudi-vhudi" oralo nga voice ya weak

Me:"I know" ndoralo ndi tshi khou smiler, ndo mbodi isa zwanda kha madamu

Me:"be warned ndido ita zwa worse musi ritshi swika rumuni and I will see uri u strong u guma gai" ndo mbo di sendela kule nyana and she swam towards me.

Tshili:"ndido muwana ene" lol roisa phanda nau bambela ritshi khou ralo u sea ri tshi dovha. Ahuna zwithu zwino takadza ufana na girlfriend ino kona u bambela mahh.

Zwi a Penga - Insert 42

Ro ri u neta ngau bambela ra humela rumuni.

Tshili:"eish ndo dzhenwa nga phepho lovy"

Me:"khade ndi mukuvhatedze" ndoralo ndi tshi khou mukuvhatedza

Tshili:"ariye u tamba then rikone u relaxer bbe"

Me:"yah eish a ri tuwe" ro tuwa bathroom raswika ra tamba. Ro ri ufhedza u tamba ravhuya kamarani ra ambara zwau edela. Ro ya hangei dining hall yahone ra ya ula dinner.

Tshili:"I wouldn't mind living like this everyday"

Me:"living at a Lodge?"

Tshili:"not really,  just being with you all the time"

Me:"but we can make that happen" ndopfa uri hetshi nditshone tshi khala tshanga tshauri ndi humbele Tshililo uri ade a dzule na nne

Tshililo:"nga ndila de bbe?" o ralo atshi khou nwa juice afhedza a vhea ngilasi fhasi

Me:"ndovha ndi khou humbula uri ri move in rothe bbe, I know zwi vhonala hutshinga ndi u dzhaya but bbe ndivhona unga nne na ene ri ready for staying together and with my job and your job, ndivhona unga zwithu zwinga ri lelutshela arali ri khou dzula rothe" she stopped chewing and looked at me, ndopfa ndi tshi vho disola uri ndo zwi ambela mini

Tshili:"uhm eish Thembu"

Me:"bbe I know uri una mihumbulo minzhi-minzhi zwino but nne na ene ria funana bbe, nga maanda and it wont be that bad, khato imaginer ri tshi khou vuwa ri tsini na tsini duvha na duvha, ri tshi khou thusana u bika and then studying together"

Tshili:"it sounds tempting bbe but…"

Me:"nana but what?"

Tshili:"I am not ready to be your wife yet Thembuluwo, staying together will change our relationship in many ways and I know it won't be long until you get tired of me and I don't want that" o amba the last part of her sentence a tshi sumbedza u dinalea. Nne ndo mbo disea nyana

Me:"bbe wee nne ndinga si vhuye ndaneta nga ene shame, ndi khouri mato anga o pofula wee, ndi vhona ene fhedzi so hezwo zwau neta ngae kha tou hangwa ai"

Tshili:"but still eish"

Me:"owk kha humbule ngahazwo the whole night namusi, udo mphindula nga matsheloni neh?"

Tshili:"but bbe thi khou fulufhedzisa tshithu vhathu"

Me:"its fine bbe just give it a thought and please kha delete muhumbulo hoyo wauri nne ndido neta ngae please, zwi nga si vhuye zwa vuwa zwo itea hezwo na luthihi mufunwa wanga neh"

Tshili:"owk bbe" ro ri u fhedza ula ra humela rumuni yashu, tshifhinga hovha huvho past 8 ya madekwana. Rovha rodzula ntha ha mmbete watching TV.

Me:"why risayi u khona beachin bbe?"

Tshili:"bbe o tshivhona tshifhinga?"

Me:"yep and its gonna be nice"

Tshili:"mara ndi vhusiku thi"

Me:"bbe duvha ndihone lo sunguvhela zwino hafhu atshi zwidivha uri la fhano lia lenga? And ndi sure uri beachin hutshe na vhathu nyana ai, hafhu atshi zwidivha uri makhuwa a hani vhoo so na rine khariye u dipfisa vhoo bbe"

Tshili:"mhm mara bbe wanga ngohoi"

Me:"kha tshintshe ri tuwe habe nana" ro mbo di tshintsha ra ambara hezwila zwiambaro zweravha ro ambara musi ri phuluni, zwovha zwitshe zwo nukala. Rodzhena goloini and drove to Leisure Isle beach, it was just 5 mins drive from heravha ro booker hone. Hovha hu tshi touvha na dzi couple nyana henefho beachin.

Me:"u khou zwivhona zwenda amba, we won't be alone"

Tshili:"yeah ndi khou vhona zwone" robva goloini raya madini ri tshi khou gidima giggling like school kids. Mara ngoho lufuno luya ita uri muthu a dipfe nga inwe ndila. Hafhu nne ndovha ndi tshi vho toupfa unga nazwino ndi nwana mutuku ma vhanna. Roswika rambodi dzhena madini.

Tshili:"auch a khou rothola"

Me:"eish and habe rine ro touda nga matata" ro ralo ri tshi khou sea. Ro vha ri tshi khou tamba madini ri tshi khou ralo u sea ritshi dovha. Ro ri u neta ngau bambela rabva madini ra ganama mutavhani and we were looking at the stars.

Me:"uya divha life yanga ndipfa yo fhelela ndina ene Tshili"

Tshili:"na kha nne ndizwezwo bbe, huvha hutshinga ahu tshena tshinwe tshithu tshi re na ndavha vhutshiloni"

Me:"ndidolwa nga ndila dzothe uri ridzule ro rali bbe wanga"

Tshili:"u tou amba ngoho Thembu, I am happy with you" nne ndo mbo di rembuluwa ndada tsini na bbe wanga and kissed her

Me:"ndia mufuna"

Tshili:"I love you too....and ndo dzhia tsheo kha zwau dzula rothe"

Me:"which one is it gonna be"

Tshili:"being with you is all I need right now and ndina lutendo lwa uri hanga neti nga hezwi zwine ravha khazwo and udo dzulela u mpfuna....lets move in together bbe" ndo toupfa unga na zwino thi ngopfa zwone

Me:"bbe kha dovholole please, ori mini?"

Tshili:"ndori a ri move in together bbe wanga" ndo mbodi gonya ntha hae nda mukhisekanya. Ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo takala nga inwe ndila I akhamadzaho

Me:"you have no idea how happy you have made me, ndi khou mu fulufhedzisa neh, I won't disappoint"

Tshili:"thanks" u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndo takala, ahuna zwithu zwine zwado ntakadza ufana nau dzula na Tshililo.

Ro bambela nyana ubva hafho ra bva madini ra di tanda nga dzi thavhula and went back to the car and drove to the Lodge. Roswika ratsa and walked to our room. Roswika haningei rathoma ra tamba ngauri muvhili hoyu wovha u muno fhedzi. U fhedza u tamba ro ambara zwiambaro zwau edela ra shuvhama ntha ha mmbete watching TV. Ro ya ra edela late nyana.

The following morning nga Sunday rovha ri khou fanela u checker out nga 11 ya matsheloni. Ro vuwa ra dilugisa, ubva hafho raya ra la breakfast and then we left henefha nga vho 10. Roya town raswika rayela thungo dzafhasi ngahangei Water Front. Roswika ha ningei ra fodana zwinepe nyana, raita nau humbela vhanwe uri vhari fode ri vhavhili. After that ro ya ra badela u namela tshikepe hetshila tshine tshaya tsha khona ngahangei The Heads. Ro ri ufhedza u badela raya ra renga ma popcorn hunwe nga tsini hanefhala, roya radzhena tshikepeni ra lindela tshi tshi dala. Tshori u dala tsha takuwa. Wooow zwovha zwi zwa vhudi nga maanda shame.

Tshili:"bbe ndo livhuwa neh"

Me:"for what?"

Tshili:"for loving me and for giving me all this experience"

Me:"there is nothing that is better than doing all this with you Tshili, hafhu na kha nne ndi zwiswa zwothe hezwi and ndi khou takalela uri ndi khou zwi experiencer na ene "

Tshili:"mara ene u mpfunela mini bbe?"

Me:"ndi takalela zwine avha zwone bbe, uya divha zwine a khou toda vhutshiloni, u a fanelwa ngauvha mufumakadzi musi ndosedza kutshilele kwawe, o luga and una muya wau thusa and o dala lufuno khae" Tshililo just smiled shyly

Tshili:"ndo livhuwa" Tshikepe tsho swika tsha khona nga haningei the heads and then tsha vhuela murahu. Roswika ratsa ra mona-mona henefho nyana and then we went to Spur to get something to eat. Ro ri u fhedza ula ra mbo di dzhena kha N2 ra humela George. Ro swika George henefha nga vho five ya madekwana. Ro paka goloi parking radzula nga ngomu.

Me:"so u khou toda ritshi thoma u dzula rothe lini?"

Tshili:"tshifhinga tshinwe na tshinwe nne ndisharp"

Me:"uhm owk ndido zwi discuss na X neh, ngauri ndo muhumbela uri aambe na Sihle ngaha uri vhadzule vhothe but if Sihle a hana nne ndido toda apartment somewhere hanefha tsini ine ranga renter"

Tshili:"nne ndi vhona unga zwa apartment zwinga ri durela bbe"

Me:"but ndi khou shuma bbe and ene uya zwidivha uri ndihola vhugai thi"

Tshili:"mara bbe wanga ngohoi, ndi uri hezwi zwau dzula rothe ha khou toda upfa tshithu khazwo"

Me:"na luthihi bbe wanga"

Tshili:"kha ri sokou fulufhela uri Sihle u do tendelana nazwo bbe wanga"

Me:"yeah". Ndodzula na Tshili goloini lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu. Duvha lori litshi vho sunguvhela nda mbo di mufhelekedza rumuni.

Me:"zwezwino hudovha husi tshena hezwi zwau mufhelekedza bbe, ridovha ri khotou dzula rothe"

Tshili:"husina na zwinwe my love" nne na Tshililo ro onesana then nne ndaya rumuni. Ndoswima ndawana X o dzula na Sihle.

Me:"hey guys, I can go back if you still need some privacy"

X:"nah that won't be necessary,  we are going to eat out tonight so we were about to leave"

Me:"owk sure then" X na Sihle vho mbo di dzhena ndilani vha tuwa.

Nne ndosala ndi ndothe. Ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo ditakalela shame, nne na Tshili ro difhelwa vhukuma hangei Knysna, hafhu zwovha zwizwa vhudi vhukuma. Muhumbulo wanga wo mbo di thoma u humbula ngaha Sibu na pregnancy yawe, but ndo mbo di di kaidza uri a ndi litshe u di katudzela mutakalo nga nthani ha Sihle.

Ndori musi ndo ganama ntha ha mmbete nda receiver call I ne ya khoubva kha Tshili. Ndo setshelela musi nditshi humbula uri thanwe u khou toda u mmbudza uri good night.

Me:"hello", ahungo fhindula muthu. And then I heard a guy's voice speaking

"Tshililo ni nga si nnyite ngaurali na luthihi, you can't leave me" muthu hoyo ovha a khou amba o kwata and ovha atshi pfala sa Luvhengo, but why ngauri phone iyi ndiya Tshililo.

Tshili:"Luvhengo ndi khou humbela uri ni tuwe" ovha atshi khou amba nga voice ine ya khou tetemela nahone I ne yanga ya muthu ane a khou lila.

Thingo tsha twa ndi tshi humbula na luthihi, ndo mbo di doba founu yanga ndalivha rumuni ya Tshililo. Ndofhira nga goloini yanga ndi tshi dzhia tshigidi, hafhu ndovha nditshe ndo tshivhea nga fhasi ha seat. Hafhu u nga si divhe uri hu do itea mini hangei phanda so khwine ndiu dzula ndoita ngoma madzula wo vhambwa. Ndotshi vhea hafha kha khundu ndatshi dzumba nga hemmbe ye ndavha ndo ambara. Ndo swika ndakhokhonya and then I tried to open but hovha ho khiiwa. Ndo khokhonya futhi and then Luvhengo came to open the door. Ndo mulavhelesa and tshifhatuwo tshawe tshovha tshodala u kwata khathihi na vengo, ovha o tanda na tsinga tshifhatuwo tshothe hetshi, fhedziha ndopfa ndi sakhou mutshuwa nne, not when Tshili's life was depending on me.

Me:"ni khou toda mini afha?"

Luvhengo:"I could ask you the same thing" ndo muthudza ndadzhena nga ngomu rumuni, Tshililo ovha odzula ntha ha mmbete a tshi khou lila. Ndo gidima ndaya khae

Me:" bbe u right"

Luvhengo:"no muvhidza uri mini?", o ralo ontsumba nga munwe oita na hezwila zwaunga u khou bonya lito lithihi nyana

Me:"uhm dude stay calm, zwitou pfala uri thi khou amba na Inwi so ndi khou humbela uri nibve ngauri thi ni khou zwivhona uri ni khou tshuwisa musadzi wanga" ndo zwidivha uri hezwi zwenda amba zwido kwatisa Luvhengo nau fhirisisa but ndopfa uri I needed to set the record straight,  ndovha ndi sa khou toda u tshila ndi khou muofha nne, kha zwidivhe and azwi tanganedze uri Tshililo una nne zwino

Luvhengo:"muthannga nina luswatho inwi neh? Ni khou nnyadza neh?" oralo o ntsumba a tshi khou sendela tsini na nne

Tshili:"vheiwe ndi khotou ni humbela don't ndo this here please" Tshililo ovha atshi khou ralo atshi khou lila oima vhukati hashu

Me:"bbe khavhudze X yawe uri atuwe hafha"

Tshili:"Luvhengo ndi khotou ni humbela ibvani, nia zwidivha uri zwanga na inwi zwofhela so please get out"

Luvhengo:"hella musidzana, ni wanga inwi and ahuna tshine tshado zwi shandukisa hezwo, vhuhulu hu do tou namba hafiwa" Tshililo o mbo di tou nana u lila

Me:"he mtha tanganedzani uri no taliwa mah nilitshe u diita marothi ai" Luvhengo o mbodi sukumedza Tshililo awela hangei and then a mbo di mpfara khola dza hemmbe

Luvhengo:"tanu livhuwa Mudzimu uri ndosia tshigidi tshanga goloini mtha" oralo o mpfara nga mukulo ndi tshi khou balelwa u fema

Tshili:"Luvhengo please ndido mutala Thembu and then nne na inwi rido vhuelelana please, ndido litsha na tshikolo and we can go back home together" Luvhengo o mbo di mposa nga linwe vili helo ndawela fhasi then aya kha Tshililo aswika a tumba a mufara mukulo

Luvhengo:"nivhona unga ndi tshi daela neh?" o mbo di rwa Tshililo nga mulatela.

Nne ndo mbo di bvisa tshigidi ndaya khae, ori u vhona ndo musumba nga tshigidi atshuwa muthannga. O takuwa aima o imisa zwanda. Ndo mbo di mufara dzi collar nda mu gogodedza na luvhondo and looked at him  musi ndo musumba ngatsho. Ndovha ndokwata and I was not thinking straight, all I wanted was for this guy to be out of our lives and u tou tshiritha fhedzi Luvhengo udovha obva vhutshiloni hanga na Tshililo.

Tshili:"Thembu please don't, asongo muvhulaya Thembu"

Me:"ow so you still want him?"

Tshili:"of course not, bbe if a mu thuntsha vhado mufara and then what?" I looked at Tshililo and then at Luvhengo,  the hatred I had towards this guy was overpowering me, the only thing I wanted was to get rid of him

Tshili:"please"

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Ndo sedza Tshililo and then back at Luvhengo. Luvhengo ovha a sa khou amba tshithu, o vha o sokou nndavhelesa o tshuwa.

Tshili:"Thembuluwo ha muvhulai ene please, you are better than that"

me:"mara bbe oyu muthu udo ri dina uswika lini?"

Tshili:"ndi khotou luvhelela he is not worth it"

Luvhengo:"he munna ni songo mmbulaya ma vhanna"

Me:"anina ndungelo na nthihi dza u amba na nne inwi mah" ndo hwala tshanda tshetshavha tshofara tshigidi ntha ha thoho ngeno tshinwe tshitshe tshofara Luvhengo. Ndo mbo di mulitshedza

M:"ndi khou humbela uri nibve nifhele" Luvhengo o didzudzanya a tshi khouya munangoni.

Ndo vhea tshigidi ntha ha mmbete and sat down and cried. Ho toda u itea mini mara afha fhethu huh? Uri nne ndovha ndo diimisela u vhulaya muthu? for what mara huh? ndi lwone lufuno lune lwa khou itisa naa? arali Tshililo atshi ita uri ndidipfe nga hei ndila then i need to think twice. Ndi sure u swika gai uri nne thi obsessed nga Tshililo? Hone arali uyu nwana linwe duvha anga decider u nnditsha ndido zwibva hani? or worse, arali a decider u vhuelelana na Luvhengo? Ndopfa ndofarwa nga nyofho khulu, ndopfa uri the way yendavha ndi khou feeler ngayo nga Tshililo was scary and not healthy. Tshililo ovha atshe o dzula fhasi atshi khou lila a tshi vhonala o tshuwa tshothe. O mbo di takuwa ada kha nne and gave me a hug.

Tshili:"thank you" ori u ralo nne nda munambatulula kha nne nda dzhia tshigidi tshanga nda tshi vhea khunduni ndaya munangoni

Tshililo:"bbe mulandu?" ndopfa na nungo dzau fhindula ndisina

Tshili:"bbe" ndo vala vothi nda tshimbila sa muthu o netaho tshothe. Tshililo o mbo di vula vothi a ntsala murahu. Oswika tsini na nne a mpfara tshanda

Tshili:"Thembu mulandu?"

Me:"ndoneta Tshililo ndi khou toda u awela nne" she looked at me with a pained look

Tshili:"Thembu sorry uri Luvhengo oda, ndovha ndisa zwidivhi uri u khouda, kha mpfarele bbe please"

Me:"you didnt do anything wrong so asongo humbela pfarelo please"

Tshili:"but mulandu anga iyi ndila bbe talk to me"

Me:"i dont wanna talk Tshililo" ndo hwenya ndaya goloini yanga, Tshililo ovha a tshi khou ntsala nga murahu. Ndo swika nda dzhena kha seat ya murahu nda vhea tshigidi kha seat ya phanda ndavhea zwanda kha tshifhatuwo nda gogodela seat. Tshililo oda adzhena a dzula tsini na nne.

Tshili:"bbe kha ambe na nne"

Me:"thi khou toda u amba Tshililo" mitodzi yanga yovha i tshi khou elela.

Tshililo just looked at me o tungufhala. Ndovha ndi tshi khou humbula zwithu zwinzhi nga maanda muhumbuloni wanga. Like thidivhi uri ndiite mini nga mafhungo haya a tshigidi, ndopfa uri thitsha toda u diwana ndina tshigidi, nne ndi muthu houla ane ndi vho sokou looser temper nga maanda and ndo pfa uri udzula ndofara tshigidi a zwi nga do vhuya zwa nthusa na luthihi ngauri ngoho ndi ya uri arali Tshililo ovha asiho nne ndovha ndi tshi ngavha ndo thuntsha Luvhengo. Ndopfa thoho hei i tshi khou rema, mybe X was right, i have to be careful not to loose myself in the midst of all this. Mara arali nne ndovha ndisina tshigidi Luvhengo avha atshi ngavha ori tshinyadza rothe nne na Tshililo ngauri thi kholwi uri ndovha ndi tshi nga mufhenya nga mafeisi. Tshinwe tshe tshavha tshi tshi khou mmbilaedzisa ndi zwine ndadipfisa zwone nga Tshililo, nne hoyu nwana ndovha ndi khou mufuna lune ndovha ndi tshi sokou pfa uri arali anga ntala ndinga lovha serious and ndivhona unga hezwo zwithu azwi healthy na luthihi.

She made me feel complete, like ndinae ndovha ndi tshi pfa shango langa li perfect, i could tell her everything about mylife ndapfa ndisina thaidzo, ovha atshi ita uri ndidipfe sa nwana at times and adovha hafhu aita uri ndidipfe sa munna tshinwe tshifhinga, ndi uri ndovha ndi tshi ri u muhumbula dethele heli la mona....hafhu ndovha nditshi vhona unga nne Sibu ndovha ndi tshi mufuna, but nahh kha Sibu ndovha ndi khou dadziwa nga lunako mara hafha kha tshili it was deeper than the looks. Ndovha ndi tshi pfa uri arali anga ntala ndipfa uri ndinga vhulaya helo dukana line anga funana nalo nne, i wouldn't even think about it and thats what scared me the most, the things i was willing to do for this girl, it was like arali zwanga nae zwikha risk ndovha ndi tshi balelwa u humbula straight. Ndohwala zwanda ntha ha thoho ngauri ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo dada. Why muthu atshi fanela u funa muthu nga iyi ndila mara? Maybe na Luvhengo u funa Tshililo ngaurali, but nahh ovha asa do murwa arali hu hezwo.

Tshililo:"bbe u khou ntshuwisa nne ene mulandu" ndo musedza lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu, nda phumula mitodzi

Me:"arali nne ndovha ndi songo bvisa tshigidi, ene ovha a tshi do tuwa na Luvhengo zwavhukuma? Like are you that scared of him lune anga tutshela zwothe zwine nne na ene ravha nazwo just because you are scared? Ndi uri hango diimisela na luthihi u diimisa musi zwitshida kha Luvhengo"

Tshili:"bbe asi hezwo vhathu, nne ndovha ndi khotou amba hezwila zwithu ngauri ndovha ndotshuwa zwe Luvhengo avha a tshi nga ita kha ene"

Me:"uya divha tshine tsha mmbilaedzisa ndi mini Tshililo? If something happen to me, arali hanga itea zwithu zwine zwanga sia nne nditshi balelwa u mu protector kha Luvhengo zwiamba uri ene udo kombetshedzea u vhuelelana nae, ndi uri o tou divhudza uvha victim yawe u swika lini mara huh?" o mbo di thoma u lila

Tshili:"thi diitisi Thembuluwo nne Luvhengo ndi tou mu ofha"

Me:"and nne ndia mufuna and and khou muhumbela uri khawane tshivhindi tshau imedzana na houla muthu, i wont always be there Tshililo and ndi khou toda u divha uri ene u do kona uvha safe kha Luvhengo nne ndisiho please"

Tshili:"nne thidivhi Thembu"

Me:"ngoho ndi ya uri hudovha na duvha line Luvhengo ado bvelela nne ndisiho tsini, then what huh? ene khaye aite restraining order and then kha founele Luvhengo a muvhudze to back off, tell him that you are sick and tired and tell him that you are not afraid anymore, alitshe hezwo zwau tswimila everytime you see his face" i dont know but i hated the way Tshililo was around Luvhengo. Tshililo u strong nga maanda and uya divha zwine a toda but habvelela luvhengo nwana u mbodi dzhenwa nga vhunwe vhudodo vhune nne thi thu tangana naho, u mbodi dzhenwa nga mutetemelo u nonga wa muthu ano shumisa Nyaope. Zwovha zwi tshi mmbavha u amba ngoho and i know uri ndovha ndi khouvha a bit harsh kha Tshililo but someone had to tell her the truth, she needed to free herself from Luvhengo.

Tshili:"uhm ndido ita hezwo"

Me:"bbe kani u khou toda uita izwi zwa councelling? Ri nga mutodela doctor ane anga vhonana nae"

Tshili:"hai khari ndi lingedze u zwiita"

Me:"are you sure/"

Tshili:''yeah"

Me:"bbe sorry i am being harsh on you but u khou tea u zwiita, nne ndinga muthusa ngau mu tsireledza tshifhinga tshothe but you also need to get rid of the fear please, Luvhengo asi tshivhanda na Luthihi"

Tshili:"ndi khou mupfa bbe wanga and thanks", o mbo di sendela tsini hanga a mpha hug. Rodzula ro hagana lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu

Me:"Tshililo ndi khou ofha"

Tshili:"u khou ofha mini bbe?"

Me:"ndo toda u vhulaya muthu Tshililo, hu khou itea mini kha nne mara ngoho huh? Uya divha ene ndia mufuna, ndi mufuna nga ndila ine azwi mphi thoho, ndo toda u vhulaya muthu namusi nga nthani hauri u khou vhaisa ene, what does that tell you Tshililo?"

Tshili:"zwi mmbudza uri u muthu are na lufuno nahone o diimiselaho u thusa muthu ane a mufuna no matter what"

Me:"you are getting it all wrong Tshililo, zwi tou amba uri i am obsessed and tshinwe na tshinwe tshine tshanga lingedza u khakhisa nne na ene ndinga tshibvisa ndilani ngau bonya ha ito. i am scared Tshililo, ndi khou ofha zwine nda khou shanduka zwone nne nga nthani ha haya mafhungo anga na ene"

Tshili:"please tell me you are not having second thoughts please"

Me:"thidivhi, zwine nda divha zwone ndi zwauri ndi khoupfa ndina nyofho dzauri what if nda shanduka livhelete mara ngoho"

Tshili:"you wont i promise" she was now crying.

Me:"ari ndi mufhelekedze rumuni"

Tshili:"no i am not leaving you like this Thembu"

Me:"ndi khou toda uvha ndi ndothe please"

Tshili:"i am not going anywhere"rovha ritshe ro hagana. we broke the hug and looked at each other

Tshili:"i know you are scared Thembuluwo ngauri zwothe hezwi ndi zwiswa kha ene, but please dont push me away, i wanna be there for you and ndido lugisa mafhungo anga na Luvhengo, he wont have to bother us again please"

Me:"thi khou tshuwa mafhungo a Luvhengo fhedzi bbe, hu do itea mini kha nne when you loose interest in me, when you dont want me anymore, ndido penga Tshililo" ndoralo ndofara thoho nga tshanda tshithihi, Tshililo o mbo di dzhia zwanda zwanga zwothe a zwifara

Tshili:"bbe zwi khou bva gai izwo zwothe mara ngoho huh? I will never loose interest on you ufana na ene o mmbudza mulovha uri hanga loosi interest kha nne, ndido mufuna u swikela and kha mpfune nga ndila ine a funa bbe ngauri nne ndiwawe and ndi wawe ayethe"

Me:"u khou mpfulufhedzisa bbe?"

Tshili:"tshothe my love" ro kuvhatedzana hafhu.

Me:"uhm bbe ndovha ndi khou humbula uri hezwi zwau mover in kharivhe roima nyana ngahazwo"

Tshili:"why?"

Me:"with everything that have happened today, ndivhona unga maybe ri khou dzhayesa"

Tshili:"bbe zwido tshimbila vhathu, kha pfe nne ene, khalitshe u tshuwa please"

Me:"you think so?"

Tshili:"i know so"

Ngoho ndiya uri i was getting cold feet, ndovha ndi tshi vho sokou humbula uri what if ha sokou itea zwithu zwinzhi-zwinzhi musi ri tshi khou dzula rothe and then relationship yanga na bbe wanga ya tshinyala. Nne na Tshili rodzula nyana goloini ri tshi khou ralo u humbudzana uri ri funana u guma gai. nga murahu nyana ndo mbo di fhelekedza bbe wanga rumuni yawe, ndovha ndi khoupfa ndi sa khotou funa zwavhudi uri aye rumuni ndo humbula uri Luvhengo linga vhuya but ndovha na fulufhelo la uri hanga vhuyi. nahone Tshili ori ndi so ngola mbilu udovha sharp. Ndo onesana na bbe wanga ubva hafho nne ndaya rumuni u edela. Ndoswika ndawana X ono edela saizwi hovha honovha vhusiku. Ndoswika ndanamba ndadzhena nguvhoni.

Duvha litevhelaho hovha hu monday. Ndovuwa nga matsheloni nda di lugisela kilasi yanga yau thoma nga 9. Ndovha ndi khou attender na bbe wanga. After heyo class rovha rina break ya awara, ro decider uya library u toda bugu dzau ita ngadzo assignment yeravha ro ifhiwa. Roya ra mona mona library ri tshi khou ita ritshi tamba nyana. We got the books and left. Roya radzula nnda rolindela class i tevhelaho ine nayone ri khou attender rothe.

Me:"bbe ndo amba na X nga matsheloni, uri Sihle o tenda uri udo mover in nae meaning that nne na ene ridovha ri khou dzula ri 2"

Tshili:"woow ndi mafhungo a vhudi hayo bbe wanga"

Me:"yeah so ndido discuss na X uri maybe ri ite zwa mipfuluwo nga weekend"

Tshili:"yeah zwinga ita nga maandesa bbe" 11 yo mbo di tshaya ravha ri tshi khou teya uya classini. nne dzanga class dzofhela nga 12, then nda dzula nnda mahatsini ndo lindela bbe wanga atshi fhedza nga one. Ori u fhedza ada kha nne. Rodzula mahatsini ri tshi khou ita assignment ri vhavhili.

Me:"ndi khou vhafuna vho mme"

Tshili:"thipfesesi uri hezwo zwi khou elana gai nadzi theory dza Charles Darwin nne"ori u ralo ra sea. ho mbo di dzhena message kha phone yanga. wovha u tshi khoubva kha Jay "meeting at the club tomorrow at 7 in the evening, dont be late", ndo mbo di dzhia phone nda sumbedza Tshililo. Tshili o mbo di femela ntha a ntsedza

Me:"mulandu?"

Tshili:"ahuna bbe"

Me:"i love you"

Tshili:"i love you too"

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Nne na Tshili ro ri ro no neta nga zwa dzibugu ra takuwa. Ndo fhelekedza Tshililo rumuni yawe and then walked back to my room. Ndo swika nda wana X a yethe o ganama ntha ha mmbete. Ndo vhea bugu dzanga nda di lugisela zwiliwa.

Me:"uhm Jay said i should come to the club tomorrow, are you also coming?"

X:"nahh i was not called, i guess its about your deliveries then"

Me:"yeah i guess so too"

X:"so when are we going to do the moving?"

Me:"i was thinking this weekend"

X:"owk thats fine, i will tell my babe"

Me:"owk sure" ndo ri ufhedza u la nda dzhia bugu dzanga ndaralo uvha ndi khou vhala, ndovha ndi khou humbulela uri ridovha ri khou nwala dzi test next week. Ndori ndono neta ngau vhala nda edela.

The following morning hovha hu Lavhuvhili. Ndo vuwa nda dilugisa sa nga misi and then ndaya rumuni ya bbe wanga. Ndoswika nda khokhonya, Sihle came to open and then a humela rumuni then Tshililo a mbo di bvelela. Ro mbo di tanganedzana nga hug and then a kiss.

Me:"nda ndo tuvha bbe wanga vhathu"

Tshili:"na nne ndovha ndo mutuvha bbe"

Me:"u vhonala atshinga u khou vhilaela mulandu?"

Tshili:"uhm its nothing"

Me:"bbe wee nne ene ndia mudivha so kha mmbudze uri mulandu"

Tshili:"Luvhengo o ntsendela sms"

Me:"ya uri mini?"

Tshili:"uri hathu fhedza nga nne, nahone zwihulu zwitshe phanda"

Me:"kha do ya u dzhia phone yawe" Tshililo o mbo di dzhena rumuni a vhuya nayo.

Me:"u khou founela Luvhengo ene zwino a mutalutshedza uri khaye u fela dakani hangei nahone kha ite zwine a funa ngauri ha khou ofhiwa and a mutalutshedze na zwauri u khouya uita restraining order"

Tshili:"uhm bbe...uhm"

Me:"its either now or never Tshililo, ha phuli ya Luvhengo ene" ndo mbo di dzhavhula phone, ndaya kha phone book and looked for Luvhengo's numbers and dialed them, ufhedza henefho ndo mbo di vhea phone ndevheni ya Tshili.

Tshili:"uhm Thembu i ca......uhm He..ll...o" o mbo di ivhea kha speaker

Luvhengo:"hello"

Tshili:"ndo u wana mulaedza wanu"

Luvhengo:"ndi a kholwa wo ni shandukisa muhumbulo kha hezwo zwine navha khazwo na hoko kutukana" Tshililo o mbo di sokou fhumula a nthudela mato, nne ndombodi sumbedzela nga thoho uri kha fhindule

Tshili:"uhm naluthihi, nne inwi thi tsha nifuna and ndikale ndi si tsha nifuna and hezwi zwau dzulela u ntshuwisa azwinga iti uri ndi ni fune na luthihi so ndikhwine u tanganedza nadi bvisa kha nne" ovha a khou amba hezwo zwothe o tshuwa

Luvhengo:"hella sesi, kani ndi khou tea u thoma nda nihumbudza uri ndi nne nnyi nahone ndinga ni ita mini? arali ni sa khou toda uvha na nne neh, then na hoko kuthannga aku ngavhi na inwi i will make sure of that"

Tshili:"ni...ni...ni kho...tou zwi amb...ambisa hani"

Luvhengo:"ene u nwana o talifhaho nga maanda Tshililo and ndi sure uri ompfa uri ndi khou amba ngaha mini" Tshililo o mbo di tou tshuwa tshothe and just kept quite, nne ndo mbo di mudzinginyisa

Tshili:"ndi khouya uita restraining order against inwi namusi Luvhengo"

Luvhengo:"kha zwiite hezwo and see if zwitshido nkhakhisa fhethu"

Tshili:"nia divha ndi mini Luvhengo, nne thi ni shavhi na luthihi so itani zwine na funa and see if i care, arali no humbula u mmbulaya nitshi khou mmbulaela uri nne thi tsha ni funa then be it, ndi nga namba nda fa nne u fhirisa u vhuelelana na inwi, so go ahead and kill me. Thi ni goswi inwi, ni khotou balelwa u tanganedza uri nne ndo ni tala nga nthani ha zwiito zwanu zwa vhu goswi zwa u rwa musadzi, so deal with the break up sa munna nne ni nnditshe" and she dropped the call. She looked at me and smiled. Ndo mbo di mukuvhatedza, ndovha ndi khoupfa ndi proud nga zwe Tshililo a ita.

Tshili:"thank you bbe for making me do this"

Me:"i am proud of you"

Tshili:"it feels great uya divha, just u tou diwana ndi khou vhudza Luvhengo hezwila zwothe" rovha ro no litsha zwa hug and Tshili was now smiling.

Me:"u khou zwivhona uri azwidini?"

Tshili:"eish ya my love"

Me:"ri do vhonana nga masiari neh, ndina group duscussion nadzi class mate dzanga mani ene"

Tshili:"owk ri khou attender rothe nga 12 musi"

Me:"yeah ndido muvhona kilasini"

Tshili:"uhm bbe wee, ndo founeliwa nga matsheloni nga boso yanga mushumoni, hupfi huna munwe musidzana wea ri udo balelwa uda kha shift yawe ya masiari so ndo humbeliwa uri ndide ndi mufarele uthoma nga half past one sa izwi ndi khou fhedza u attender nga 13:00"

Me:"owk bbe ndido mufhelekedza then, u khou tshaisa nga tshifhingade?"

Tshili:"nga 7"

Me:"eish ndidovha ndi khouya hangei kha Jay bbe, angasi kone u vhidza cab? ndi do mufha tshelede neh?"

Tshili:"owk bbe wanga and na hezwila zwa restraining order ri do zwivhona matshelo"

Me:"owk bbe ri do vhonana nga 12 thi"

Tshili:"owk" ro mbo di khisana and then i left.

Ndoya hangei hendavha ndo langana na dzi classmate dzanga uri rido tangana hone, ndoswika ra ita discussion ya hone and then i attended my classes and after that ndoya nda attender class yanga ya 12 na bbe wanga. Ro ri ufhedza u attender nda mufhelekedza mushumoni wawe. Ro onesana and then nne nda humela tshikoloni. Nd oswika rumuni ndavha ndo ganama ndi tshi khou lindela uri tshifhinga tshauya hangei kha Jay tshi swike. Ndo mbo di farwa nga khofhe and i woke up henefha ngavho 5 ya madekwana. X na ene ovha o edela henefho.

Me:"uhm bro can i repay you back R50 grand now and then few grands in few weeks?" ndovha ndi na tshelede i no swika 60 something grand ngauri heila yendavha ndo i fhiwa nga X ndovha ndi sa athu i spender yothe, then havha na muholo wa last week

X:"thats not necessary man, sort out all your shit first and then you can pay me when everything is sorted, as long as i know that you are working for Jay, i know that my money is safe"

Me:"are you sure?"

X:"100 percent"

Me:"owk, let me run hey, i have that meeting with Jay"

X:"owk sure" ndo mbo di ya bathroom nda tamba khofheni and then u vhuya nda onesa X nda mbo dibva.

Ndo dzhena goloini yanga ndafhira nga mushumoni wa Tshililo, the time was now around 6, ndoswika haningei ra ita good bye, nda mufha na tshelede yau badela cab and then i left for Jay's club. Ndo driver asi zwila ndalivha ha Jay. Ndoswika nda dzhena nga ngomu, 7 yovha yonovha tsini nyana nau tshaya. Dzi body guard hedzila dzonovha dzo ima munangoni wau fhirela hangei bvungwi kha Jay dzovha dzi tshi vho nndivha. Ndo swika nda vulelwa then nda fhiruludza. Ndowana Jay asiho but hovha huna Gerrit fhedzi, ndoswika nda lumelisa Gerrit and then i sat down. Jay o mbo di bvelela husikale. Hovha ho ambarwa inwe boots heyo ine i tou di amba uri ndo dura, na jean inwe ya black na luvese lwa black hafhedza ha zaziwa, ndovha ndi sakhou pfesesa uri o zazela mini ngauri afha fhethu mavhone a hone o vha o dimiwa. Javas o mbo di bvelela and the other 3 guys. Vhoda ra dzula fhasi rothe.

Jay:"owk thank you all for making it on time hey, uhm the business is doing soo fucking great hey" everyone smiled

Jay:"yeah i am happy with the way that things are running, and V Boy, the stock that you delivered to PE last week is almost finished and we did some shit money out of it" o ralo a tshi khou sea liya liseo lawe lau vhifha

Jay:"and Javas, i see your dealers are doing baie baie good at the location, so we gonna have to celebrate for all that" o mbo di doba whiskey yeyavha i ntha ha tafula a shela dzi shots for both of us a mbo di ri nekedza

Jay:"to more money",

"to more money" ro mbo di tavha mukosi rothe ri tshi khou setshelela

Javas:"so does this mean that our pay is gonna be upped?"

Me:"you mean increased?"

Javas:"upped or increased it means the same thing" i laughed out loud

Javas:"really now V Boy?"

Me:"you are right my man, it means the same thing, so back to the question Jay, are you upping our pay" ndo ralo ndi tshi khou sea and Javas o mbodi mposa nga feisi heila ya muthu ane a khou tamba.

Jay:"we gonna see about that, i want us to talk about this week's delivery to PE"

Guy 1:"owk"

Jay:"thats gonna be on Friday night, as i have mentioned that we dont have to use the same day each week, so V Boy you know die pleek mos?"

Me:"yeah, so who is coming with me this time?"

Jay:"Javas with 2 other guys so its gonna be safe"

Me:"owk thats fine"

Javas:"V Boy should also get a big machine because if something happens and he have that 9mm thing of his, he wouldn't really survive"

Me:"can it get that bad?" they both looked at me like i was gowing crazy

Jay:"drug dealing is the biggest money making business in the world and it is the most dangerous, so i guess that explains a bit of what we are talking about here"

Javas:"things get really bad around here, its not just about making money, there is danger associated with this bitch as well"

Me:"uhm owk, i guess i will get the 2nd gun next time"

Javas:"owk suit yourself" ro i sa phanda nau langana uri kushumele kwa Friday ku do tshimbila hani.

After few drinks and smokes, nne ndo mbo di onesa nda tuwa. Ndo mbo di founela bbe wanga but she was not picking up her phone. Tshifhinga yovha i vho past 10 ya vhusiku, ndo humbulela uri maybe o vhuya o neta ngau shuma a mbo di farwa nga khofhe so ndo mbo di ya rumuni yanga. Ndo swika ndawana X asiho, ndo humbulela uri udovha a khou ita zwa business yawe. Ndombo di dzhena nguvhoni nda edela.

Duvha litevhelaho hovha hu Lavhuraru. Ndovuwa nga vho 7 henefha nda founela bbe wanga, she still didn't pick up her phone, ndo mbo di ya utamba, nda vhuya ndawana husina message or missed call ya Tshililo, owk it was a bit weird ngauri Tshililo angasi ignore calls dzanga and ndovha ndi sure uri ono vuwa kale nga hetshi tshifhinga. But anyway, ndo tshintsha ndadzhia mukhwama wanga nda yela rumuni ya Tshililo. Ndoswika nda khokhonya, Sihle oda a vula vothi.

Me:"Morning Sihle, can you please call my bbe for me"

Sihle:"uhm what do you mean?" o vha atshi vhonala o dada

Me:"what do you mean what do i mean? i wanna see Tshili"

Sihle:"isn't she with you?"

Me:"she still stays here remember?"

Sihle:"i know but she didn't come back last night" Thoho yanga yo mbo di itisa zwinwevho, ndopfa ndi sa pfesesi uri u khou zwiambisa hani musi a tshiri Tshililo hango vhuya Last night

Me:"did she tell you where she went?"

Sihle:"no thats why i thought she was with you because i last spoke to her in the afternoon when she said she was going to work" ndo fara khundu ndaya ngeno na ngei

Me:"Damn it" ndo ralo ndi tshi khou ginda fhasi nga mulenzhe, ndobvisa phone yanga and tried calling her again but it just rang, ndopfa ndodada, Tshililo can't just dissapear like this, hufanela uvha ho itea something khae, hone something zwinonga mini ngoho? And then zwo mbo di nndela muhumbuloni, huna muthu muthihi fhedzi ane anga lingedza u vhaisa Tshililo or u mu kidnapper

Me:"Luvhengo"

Sihle:"did you say something?"

Me:"uhm nope, i have to go"

Sihle:"tell me when you hear something" o tou ntavhela mukosi sa izwi nne ndovha ndi tshi vho tuwa. Ndovha ndi si sure uri ndi khou fanela uita mini, thaidzo khulu yovha iya uri ndovha ndisina number phone dza Luvhengo nahone ndovha ndisa divhi na uri ndi mutodele gai, khwine ndi uya mapholisani, or ndi founele Jay? ndovha ndina vhutanzi ho fhelelaho uri Jay anga nthusa u tavhanya u fhira na mapholisa. Ndobvisa phone yanga tshikwamani ndi tshi khou toda u founela Jay and then X, ndori ndi tshi khou toda u dialer ya mbo di lila. I looked at the number on the screen and picked it up.

Zwi a Penga - Insert 45

Me:"hello bbe u right naa?" muthu we avha a khou founa hovha hu Tshililo so ndovha ndi khoupfa mbilu yanga yo rula nyana.

Caller:" Morning sir, do you perhaps know the owner of this phone? i checked this phone and saw several calls from your number" i was now totally confused, muthu we avha a khou amba ovha a mufumakadzi, ndobvisa phone ndevheni and checked the caller ID, hovha hu Tshililo but uyu o faraho call ndi nnyiha?

Me:"uhm i am Tshililo's boyfriend, who are you?"

Caller:"i am a nurse, calling from George Provincial Hospital, the owner of this phone has been involved in a car accident and is in a critical state" my mind went totally blank, ndo sokou poidza mato sa Queen wa generation ndi sa fhedzi, my heart was beating so fast you'd swear it was gonna jump out

Me:"uhm..m...ma’am are you sure about that?" na voice yovha i si tshabva zwavhudi

Caller:"yes sir"

Me:"uhm uhm i am on my way", ndo dropper phone ndahwala zwanda ntha ha thoho, she said she is in a critical condition. Ndovha ndisiho kha tshiimo tshine ndanga kona u driver na luthihi so ndo decider uya u amba na X uri a driver. Ndo gidima ndaya rumuni yanga, ndowana X atshi khou la

Me:"X bro please you need to drive me to the hospital" ndo ralo ndofara magona ngauri ndovha ndoneta ngau gidima

X:"uhm whats wrong are you sick?"

Me:"i am not sick but Tshililo was involved in a car acci......." ndo thoma ndaima nda koka muya nyana saizwi ndovha ndi tshi khou balelwa u amba

Me:"in a car accident and they said she is in a critical condition, please drive me, i dont think i will be able to drive like this"

X:"sure sure lets go" o namba a litshi ula a dzhia key dza goloi yawe radzhena ndilani. Ngoho ndopfa lwendo lwauya Sibadela lu lulapfu lunwe. Ndovha ndi tshi khou balelwa u dzudzanyea. Ro ri uswika sibadela X a paka goloi, nne ndotsa ngau tavhanya, nda gidima nda dzhena Sibadela, ndoya hafhala reception hahone.

Me:"uhm sisi my girlfriend was admitted here last night do you know her?" ndovha ndi tshi khou femeleka tshothe

Reception Lady:"uhm sir you gonna have to calm down a little bit, ahh whats your girlfriend's name and when did she arrive?"

Me:"her name is Tshililo, they said she was in a car accident last night"

Reception lady:"let me check for you" o mbo di vula linwe li bugu a thoma u sedza henefho, ndovha ndi khoupfa a tshi khou lenga and atshi khou mbora lwau fhedzisa, ovha a tshi khou shenga tshepisi nga ndila heila yau bora, make up wahone wo khwitiwa unga nazwino i touvha competition

Me:"if you could atleast put the same damn effort on looking for my girlfriend as you do on chewing this bubble gum i am sure you would have found her by now" ndo ralo nda gogonya tafula yawe nga feisi. Xolani o mbo di vha a tshi khou dzhena, o mbo di gavha tshanda tshanga

X:"huh uh Thembu, you have to take it easy my man, sit here i will handle this"

Me:"you cant tell me to sit down when this......this...woman cant find her"

X:"please sit the fuck down" o ralo atshi sumbedza u dinalea, o mbo di ya kha houla mufumakadzi wa reception

X:"i am sorry about the trouble that my friend have caused, he is just stressed about his girlfriend, do you have a female patient who is about 20 years old, she was involved in a car accident last night....lets say maybe around 7 in the evening?"

Reception lady:"yeah we have a lady here, it was a hit and run close to Garden Route mall"

X:"that must be her"

Reception lady:"uhm owk you can go this way to her ward sir, door number 3 to your left"

X:"thank you a lot", nne ndo mbo di hwenya ndaya haningei he houla musadzi wa reception a sumbedza X, ndo swika ndadzhena haningei, X ovha a murahu hanga. Ndowana huna ma nurse na munwe anonga dokotela tsini hawe, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi ho fhelelaho uri ndi Tshililo naa ngauri vhovha vho mutinga. Ndo swika nda mbo di fhiruludza ndaya haningei khavho.

Nurse:"sorry sir you cant come in here now"

Me:"thats my wife right there you can't tell me to get out"

Nurse:"the thing is we are busy with our morning check up can you please wait up a bit?" ndo hwala zwanda ntha ha thoho

Me:"can i atleast confirm if its her then?"

Nurse:"yeah please do, just one sec and you gonna have to wait right there" o ralo a tshi khou sumba bentch ye yavha i munangoni wa heneyo rumu

Ndotuwa nae ndaya mmbeteni, ndovha ndotshuwa uda vhukati, a part of me wished it wasnt't her, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri hu iteye mini ngauri naho arali avhe asi ene, zwiamba uri i still had to look for her, fhedziha ndovha ndi positive uri hudovha hu ene sa izwi ndo founelwa ubva hanefha sibadela. Ndori uswika tsini na mmbete nda tolela, ndopfa na malofha a nga a tshi tou shavha, tshifhatuwo tshovha tshisa vhonali zwavhudi fhedziha ndokona u mudivha nga mavhudzi, Nurse o mbo di nnekedza phone ya Tshililo na handbag yawe. Ndobva hafho he Tshililo avha a hone ndi si tsha kona u tshimbila zwavhudi, ovha a tshi vhonala sa muthu o faho, ovha a sa khou vhuya a dzinginyea na luthihi. Ndoswika ndadzula fhasi ndavhea zwanda ntha ha thoho ndosedza fhasi nda thoma u lila

X:"its gonna be fine Thembu mfowethu"

Me:"you didn't see her X, She looked terrible bro, her face?"

X:"the doctors are working on her so i am sure its gonna be fine"

Me:"its all my fault, if i didn't go to Jay's club Tshililo would be fine now because i would have picked her up, this stupid job is costing me my girlfriend" ndoralo ndi tshi khou lila

X:"no no no Thembu, none of this is your fault please don't blame yourself owk?"

Me:"but its the truth joe, this is my fault" ndo dzula henefho na X a tshi khou lingedza u nkhuthadza nyana henefho, nga murahu nyana ho mbo di bva munwe we avha o ambara sa dokotela

Doctor:"morning sir, is any of you guys related to the patient or is any of her parents or guardien coming?"

Me:"her mom is in Limpopo right now so its just me"

Doctor:"are you related to her?"

Me:"uhm no but i am her boyfriend. We are studying at NMMU" the doctor sighed

Doctor:"we have to do a surgery on her so we wanted her guardian or a family member to sign some forms, uhm i guess we gonna have to take a risk since there is no relative because otherwise wemight lose her"

Me:"but she is gonna be fine after the surgery right?"

Doctor:"we can only hope sir"

Me:"owk thanks" ndopfa ndi sa pfesesi uri why nne na Tshililo Mudzimu vha sa rifhi vhoo tshikhala tsha u tou takala lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu risina mathada. Ndovha ndo tshuwa nga ndila i akhamadzaho, i was scared of loosing her, what if Tshili wanga don't make it?

Me:"what if she doesn't make it Xolani? i will never forgive myself"

X:"stop thinking like that man she is gonna be fine, Tshili is a fighter, you and i both knows that"

Me:"i wish i could be that positive but i am so scared"

X:"she will be fine" ho mbo di bvelela nurse henefho

Nurse:"i think you should go home and get some rest because this procedure is going to take a while so you can come back in the afternoon maybe"

Me:"are you seriously going to tell me what to do with my time?"

Nurse:"sir the thing is we don't want you to wait here the whole day while you can just come back in the afternoon when the surgery is done"

Me:"can someone please explain to me what my staying at the hospital the whole day waiting for my girlfriend to recover have anything to do with this woman?" ndoralo ndo no kwata tshothe

X:"huh uh Thembu please lets go"

Me:"you are not serious right"

Nurse:"owk you can stay here the whole day or you can leave and come back in the aftrenoon, its all up to you" and she walked off

X:"Thembu we can go back to the campus so that you can get something to eat and we can come back when they are done with the procedure"

Me:"X you can leave i will stay here"

X:"you are very stubborn man, owk i will see you in the afternoon"

Me:"sure" X o takuwa and pat me on the back and left.

Ndosala ndo dzula henefho with tears coming out. Ndovha ndi khou toda u amba na munwe muthu but ndovha ndi sa pfesesi uri ndi ambe na nnyi. Tshililo was the only person i could really talk to and now she was lying in a hospital bed unconcious, zwovha zwi tshi khou ntshuwisa. Ndo humbula u founela mungana wanga Khathu sa izwi ndovha ndo no mutalutshedza ngaha Tshili but ahg ndopfa uri anga si ite uri ndipfe ndikhwine lini. Ndo mbo di founela mianga. Mitodzi yovha i tshi kha di elela.

Mom:"hello nwananga"

Me:"mmawe" ndo ralo nda mbo di tou nana u lila

Mma:"Thembuluwo mulandu nwananga?"

Me:"thi divhi uri ndiite mini mmawe and its all my fault"

Mma:'Thembu mulandu?"

Me:"u sibadela and u khou balelwa u vuwa"

Mma:"ndi nnyiha are sibadela iwe vhathu?"

Me:"Tshililo mmawe, houla musidzana we nda ri ndovha ndi khou muthusa hezwila ndi hayani, o wana khombo ya goloi mulovha and she is now in hospital, u khou balelwa u vuwa mma, vha khou ita dzi oparation zwino, ngoho nne thidivhi uri ndiite mini"

Mma:"hai nwananga inwi ni songo diswaya phoswo lini, khombo dza goloi dzia itea, ni songo vhilaela zwido luga vhathu"

Me:"mma ngoho thidivhi nne, ndovha ndo fanela ndoya nda mudzhia mushumoni wawe nga goloi yanga ya mushumoni fhedziha nda balelwa ngauri ndovha ndina meeting, then ambo di tangana na khombo"

Mma:"ndi khou zwipfa uri ni khou humbula uri aralo nivhe noya u mudzhia zwovha zwi sa do itea, fhedziha a ri zwidivhi hezwo Thembu, inwi litshani u di gegenedza ni mu rabelise and everything will be fine na nne ndido murabelisa"

Me:"ngoho thidivhi uri arali ha itea zwinwe khae nne ndidopfi wa ha nnyi ngoho, ndia mufuna mmawe" ndo mangala ndovhudza mianga uri nne ndia funa Tshililo, i guess zwoitwa nga hone u dada

Mma:"nwananga vhathu, zwido luga muthannga wanga ndido murabelisa thiri"

Me:"please vha ite ngauralo mma"

Mma:"owk nwananga, vhofholowani zwino thiri?"

Me:"owk mma, ndido vha updater uri hu khou itea mini, bye"

Mma:"bye" ndori u fhedza u amba na mianga ndapfa ndikhwine nyana.

Ndopfa uri ndi khou tea u founela munwe muthu wa ha Tshililo, so ndodzhia phone yawe nda i pager, i couldn't tell her mom ngauri vhovha vha tshi do nga vha sa fenta. Ndo founela kurathu kwa Tshililo, phone yo sokou lila, i guess kovha kutshe tshikoloni. Ndo founela munwe musidzana mukomana wa Tshililo nwana wa mmemuhulu wawe ane vha sumbedza vho farana bady sa izwi Tshililo atshi amba ngahaye tshifhinga tshinzhi. Dzina lawe ovha a tshipfi Musiiwa.

Musiiwa:"hey murathu wanga"

Me:"hello sorry asi Tshililo, ndi matsheloni"

Musiiwa:"ndi matsheloni a vhudi"

Me:"uhm nne ndipfi Thembuluwo"

Musiiwa:"yeah yeah yeah ono mmbudza nga ha inwi" ovha a khou amba nga voice heila ya muthu ane u khou borea nyana kana ane ha khou funa u amba

Me:"uhm ndo ri ndi founele inwi ngauri ndi khou shavha u founela mia Tshililo nga haya mafhungo"

Musiiwa:"ndi mafhungode?"

Me:"Tshililo o wana khombo ya goloi, thina zwidodombedswa zwothe fhedziha ndi sibadela zwazwino and hu khou itiwa muaro khae and hopefully udovha khwine after that"

Musiiwa:"mini? mmaweeee mmane wanga ndihone vholovha wee"

Me:"ndovha ndi khou humbela uri ni talutshedze mianu and then mpheni duvha la namusi uri ndivhone uri hangavhi khwine naa, then miawe ni nga vhavhudza onovha khwine nyana uri vhasa lese mbilu please"

Musiiwa:"yah ni right, hafhu arali nda vha vhudza nne vhanga nga vhasa fenta, especially nga nthani ha the way yevha mufara ngayo after mafhungo haala a Luvhengo" ahg ngoho ndopfa oto nana u tshinya duvha langa ngau amba helo dzina

Me:"owk ndido ni updater musi ndi tshi pfa zwinwe thiri"

Musiiwa:"owk ahuna thaidzo"

Me:"bye" ndo mbo di dropper phone.

Ndo dzula henefho ndo sokou sedza vothini, hoping that someone will come and tell me that she was fine fhedziha hovha husina muthu ane a khou bvelela. Ndovha ndo dzula ndoita hezwila zwau kwatamela fhesi, ndo mbo dipfa zwienda zwamuthu ane a khou tshimbilela kha nne and then ada aima tsini na nne, ndo mbo di kwatamuluwa ndi tshi khou toda u vhona uri ndi nnyi. Ndopfa ndi tshi tou fhelelwa nga nungo musi ndi tshi wana hu Luvhengo, for the what mara huh? Ndi amba uri u khou toda mini afha? The anger i felt neh eish, i decided to keep my cool and just kept quiet

Luvhengo:"hupfi u hani?" ndo sokou musedza

Me:"ngoho thipfesesi uri inwi ni touvha nisina ndevhe naa? Tshililo don't want you in her life anymore so dibviseni"

Luvhengo:"hella mutukana, just because no ntsumba nga kugidi kwanu kusiho na mulayoni heliya duvha ni vho sokou pfa unga ni munna nehh? i will destroy you boy, ndido ni tshinyadza....irani ndi ni vhudze ngoho nga mahala, nne Tshililo thi tsha mufuna but i want to see her suffer" he whispered the last part

Me:"you are a psycho"

Luvhengo:"i will surely take that as a complement, ndido mutambudza until atshi fhira fhano shangoni, and since inwi ni tshi khou ita rido fhambanywa nga lufu nae, zwiamba nido tambula nothe....no one dump me for a school kid and gets away with it" ndo sokou musedza ndi sa divhi uri ndi muvhudze uri mini

Luvhengo:"irani rine ro dumaho riye u todulusa uri hu khou bvelela mini nga hoyu musadzi wanu" he smiled and walked away. ndo sala ndokwata vhukuma, i screamed in anger, a nurse came rushing to me

nurse:"is everything owk sir?"

Me:"yeah everything is perfectly fine" she just stood there and looked at me

Me:"i said all is fine, do you want something else?"

Nurse:"uhm no" and then she walked away quickly.

Ndopfa ndo kwata zwo kalulaho, Luvhengo needed to be dealt with in a very serious way, maybe its about time i ask Jay for help, anga nthusa u tavhanya. Hone uyu Luvhengo asi ene mu iti wa iyi accident ya Tshililo? Zwavhudi-vhudi ho itea mini kha iyi khombo? How many people were injured ngauri nne ndi khou vhona Tshililo fhedzi, hu tounga houla musidzana wa reception ori ndi hit and run. Ndo mbo di hwenya nda humela hangei reception

Me:"uhm hey, i want to ask about the accident that happened last night? like do you maybe know what really happened?"

Reception lady:"last time i checked i put more effort on chewing my bubble gum than on my job so i don't know anything" o ralo a tshi khou tonga and nne ndovha ndi tshi khou nengisea vhukuma but ndovha ndisina choice but u di tukufhadza

Me:"i am sorry about this morning when i arrived, i was just panicking about my girlfriend thats all, i am soo sorry"

Reception Lady:"apology accepted so what do you want to know?"

Me:"what really happened on that accident if you know"

Reception Lady:"they said that it was a hit and run and no one else got injured except for your girlfriend"

Me:"dammit i knew it"

Reception Lady:"mhm?"

Me:"no i am sorry and thanks for your help and let me apologise again for this morning"

Reception Lady:"its fine", ndo mbo di tshimbila nda yela henengi wardini ya Tshililo. Ndo swika ndadzula kha bench. The time was now past 1 in the afternoon, Luvhengo was also sitting there. X, Sihle, Ncedo, Thembani and a girl i didn't know appeared.

X:"hey, heard anything yet?"

Me:"not yet"

Ncedo:'eish i am sorry my man" o ralo a tshi khou mpha hug

Thembani:"its gonna be fine hey" he also hugged me, Sihle ovha o sokou nambatela X a tshi khou lila, the other girl was just looking around sa muthu o xelaho.

Me:"and who is this"

Ncedo:"ow this is my girl Roxy"

Me:"hi, sorry you have to meet me like this but i am Thembu" ndo mbo di khadana nae, she was a coloured girl with silky long hair. Dokotela o mbo dibvelela o fara vhu bambiri nyana, i quickly ran to him na Luvhengo a ntsala nga murahu

Me:"how is she?"

Doctor:"the procedure went well but we just have to wait and see how she will respond to it"

Luvhengo:"so can i see her?"

Doctor:"only one person at a time"

Me:"i will go first"

Luvhengo:"dolitsha u nndwalela mahh, i will go first Doc"

Doctor:"is any of you 2 related to her?"

Me:"no i am her boyfriend and he is her ex"

Doctor:"can the boyfriend go first please, we don't want anything that will upset her please"

Me:"thanks Doc"

Luvhengo:"but this is not fair though"

Doc:"i know but i am sorry, this way sir" o ralo o ntsedza, ndoya khavho X ndavha talutshedza uri i am going to see her, they were both nervous. Ndo tevhela Dokotela ndaya kha Tshililo, my heart was beating fast. Ndo swika ndaima tsini ha mmbete and mitodzi ya sokou rotha.