Zwi a Penga 101-110

Zwi a Penga - Insert 101

Rovha ri tshi khou difhelwa lwau fhedzisela. Roswika Mossel Bay rayela nga hangei beachini, rovha ri songo ambara nga ndila ino takadza ro lingedza u yela hehavha husina vhathu vhanzhi. Ro ri rono neta henefho rayela  decider u humela murahu

X" bro its mu turn now"

Me:"ahhh X washu"

X:"no we are not even arguing about this" nne ndo mbo di tsa Xolani a dzhena nga phanda aralo u I kanda. Hu si kale-kale ro mbo divha ri tshi khou swika George. Roswika nduni yashu ratsa radzhena, hovha huvho one ya masiari, zwiliwa rovha rola restaurant henengei Mossel Bay.

Sihle:"what time are you guys gonna take us back?"

Tshili:"guys you have a bedroom here and I am sure that Thembu and I can provide you with something to wear so lets take a shower, you can leave at night"

X:"eishhh Tshili we have plans"

Me:"cancel them, lets have some family time man"

Sihle:"uhm bbe?" oralo o sedza Xolani as if asking if they should stay

X:"yahh its fine"

Tshili:"yeppy,  come, lets go look for something for you to wear" she said that looking at Sihle. Vho mbo di tuwa vhayela kamarani

Me:"so are you also buying the machine?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou setshelela ndi tshi khou bvisa apula firidzhini

X:"yeah I think so man, that baby is so fine, I wanna drive that too"

Me:"want one?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou musumbedza apula

X:"yeah sure" ndobvisa apula firidzhini nda muposa lone, Tshili na Sihle vho mbo di vhuya husikale

Sihle:"shower bbe"

Me:"are you good with the clothes?"

X:"yeah I am a man so I am good"

Me:"owk sure", Xolani na Sihle vho mbo di hwenya asizwila vhayela kamarani ine vhai shumisa musi vhafhano. Nne ndo mbo di sendela kha Tshililo nda mufara nga khundu

Me:"ndi khou mufunesa bbe thi"

Tshili:"I love you too bbe wanga....dzi business dzi khou tshimbila hani"

Me:"zwavhudi nga maanda nana, ri khou ita tshelede isina vhukono"

Tshili:"thats great news"

Me:"yeah it is, uhm bbe next week ndi khou ita delivery neh"

Tshili:"ow"

Me:"don't stress bbe"

Tshili:"I don't know if I will ever get used to this, hone why asa litshi ngauri una tshelede bbe"

Me:"bbe uya zwidivha uri thats not possible,  nahone kha ri litshe u amba ngahazwo ngauri I don't like where this conversation is going.....so ene khade ngeno riye u tamba thi" ndo mbo di fara Tshililo ratuwa raya raya bathroom u tamba. U fhedza u tamba bbe wanga o ambara rokho ino guma magonani ya black na ma sleepers, nne ndo ambara shorty na vest nda ambara na ma sleepers, rovha risina lwendo so there was no need to dressed up. Ro fhedza ratsela living room, rowana Xolani na Sihle vhodzula vhotakulana vha tshi khou vhala inwe yadzi baby megazines dzanga. Muthusi washu o mbo di onesa atuwa sa izwi yovha I tshi khou tshaya five

Tshili:"owww are you guys also planning on having a little family?"

X:"eishh not now, we are just reading through here so that we can assist you guys you know"

Me:"oww thats very thoughtful"

Sihle:"yeah it is, so friend when is mom in law coming?"

Tshili:"uhm in 2 weeks time, I am kinda excited" Tshililo smiled

X:"I can't wait to see her you know"

Me:"me too bro but Tshili and I won't be sharing a room, anymore eishhh "

Sihle:"auch"

Tshili:"but its just after the baby is born and when the baby is few months old then we can go back to normal"

X:"wow few months?"

Sihle:"hauwa Xolani its not that bad"

X:"bbe it is bad"

Sihle:"what are you trying to say exactly? If I fall pregnant and give birth to your child, won't you wait for few months?"

Tshili:"uhm guys we are the one's who are pregnant and we should be stressing about that not you two" she was laughing at them

Me:"few months its not that bad and plus Tshili will be back on shape by then" nne na Tshili ro mbo di sedzana ra sea

X:"bbe I was just kidding ok?"

Sihle:"ok" nne na bbe wanga rovha rodzula ro kuvhatedzana. Phone yanga yo mbo di lila. Ndo struggler nyana ndi tshi khou ibvisa tshikwamani, ndo mbo di fhedzisela ndoi bvisa. Hovha hu Sharon, I looked at it and just froze, ndovha ndi sa divhi uri ndi khou tea uita mini, Tshililo looked at me and looked away a tshi tou vhonala uri o zwi kwatela. Yo mbo di droppiwa and it rang again, ndoi tanganedza ndai vhea kha tshipikara ngauri ndovha ndi sa khou toda u ita mafhungo vhukati hanga na Tshililo.

Me:"Sharoni ndori nisongo tsha nkwama ai"

Sharon:"ndi a zwidivha Thembuluwo, fhedziha ndi khou toda thuso yanu" ovha a tshi khou lila nahone a tshi khotou hevhedza, nne na Tshililo ro sedzana, nne ndo mbo di tou vuwa ndadzula zwavhudi

Me:"ndi thuso ya mini mavhanna?"

Sharon:"ndo kidnapiwa Thembuluwo, thidivhi uri ndiite mini kana ndiye gai please, founelani mapholisa, ndi kha nndu ya number 44 Gerison street please"

"what the fuck do you think you are doing huh" I heard the guy shouting at the back ground and then Sharon screaming and then the line went dead

Me:"Sharon.....Sharon .....Sha" ndo takuwa ndaima ndasedza ntha and then ndasedza Tshililo ndofara khundu

X:"whats going on?"

Me:"Sharon has been kidnapped"

Sihle:"who is Sharon?"

Tshili:"Thembu's Ex?" oralo nga voice ire fhasi nahone ya muthu ane u khotou kombetshedzea u amba

Sihle:"and why is she calling you?" she said that looking at me

Me:"I am the only person she knows in George.....guys please I will answer the questions later but right now I need to call the police, she told me the house number and the street name"

X:"uhm I will come with you, I will also call Javas"

Sihle:"who is Javas kengoku?"

Tshili:"Thembu ha khouya ene, khalitshe Xolani aye and then ene udo dzula hafha na nne a founela Javas wahone but you are not going to that girl" Xolani looked at Tshililo with a shocked expression

Me:"Tshililo washu, ene o thoma lini uvha na mbilu ntswu, ozwipfa ene mune, nwana wa vhathu u khomboni and all you are thinking about is your jealousy? Huh uh bbe I love you and only you but hezwo azwi ambi uri ndia toda Sharon a tshi vhulawa fhano George nne"

Tshili:"Thembuluwo ha pholisa ene" ndo femela ntha ndo musedza

Me:"I can't believe this, X I will send the address on your phone so that you don't forget and I will call Javas, as for you, arali houla nwana a vhulawa Tshililo, I will blame you" ndo amba statement tshau fhedzisa ndosedza Tshililo

X:"Tshili I am sorry to stick  my nose but this is not the right time, someone's life is in danger and just let me and Thembu help her, I promise you that's where it will end, I will make sure of that, Thembu lets go mfowethu" ndo lavhelesa Tshililo and she looked back at me, o mbodi imisa mahada awe and walked up the stairs. Ndo gidima ndaya kamarani ndadzhia zwigidi zwivhili nda bva nazwo

Me:"eish I am a bit worried about Tshililo

X:"you will talk to her when we come back she is gonna be fine, I also don't like that girl but we need to help her"

Me:"yeah you are right, we are taking the benz, dial the police"

X:"nah lets try Javas first, I know the police won't do much"

Me:"sure" o bvisa founu a putedza-putedza

X:"sure Mjav sine inkinga aph.......ehhhh umnye mtana neh, well not just a girl, she is Thembu's ex, she has been kidnapped bro, sfuna u sizo lwakho mtakababa.......uhm ndizaw u sendela Inumber yakhe ye phone ne address of the house where she is being kept.......owk I hear you.......owk Mjav.......so what should we do now?,.......ok we will do just that" and he dropped the call

Me:"and?"

X:"well Javas said we should lay low for now, he will call us if they need help, they are gonna go to that house now and find out what's going on"

Me:"eish"

X:"I am sure that Javas knows what he is doing bro so just relax"

Me:"its not easy, I know I am not dating her or anything like that but I cannot wish for this to happen to anyone,  I wanna help her, like really help her"

X:"yeah I hear you, Javas will bring the situation under control" u tou amba ngoho I was feeling sorry for Sharon, I was also stressed, ndi amba uri what if vhono fhedza ngae, ndovha ndi tshi khou sokou divhona mulandu, although i didn't understand why, I felt like it was my fault, fhedziha ndovha ndisa pfesesi uri hani-hani ngauri nne Sharon asi vhudifhinduleli hanga. Nne na Xolani rovha ri tshi khou sokou driver around doroboni ro lindela call ya Javas. Rovha rono paka hunwe fhasi ha muri musi Javas atshi founela X

X:"Mjav.......what?.......noooooo........what now?.........uhm ok"

Me:"what is it?"  whatever has happened?  hovha hu tshi pfala hutshinga ho itea zwithu zwisi zwavhudi

X:"they got to the house and there is no one, but they said that there is evidence to show that someone was there unwillingly"  mbilu yanga yovha yonovha mutanani

Me:"yohhh Murena wanga, nwana wa vhathu ma vhanna vhashu"

X:"I know I know, but don't stress our team will eventually find her"

Me:"why can't they track her phone?"

X:"they found it at the house"

Me:"dammit" I breathed " if that girl dies neh?" ndoralo ndina zwikamba matoni

X:"nothing will happen to her Thembu"

Me:"it’s my fault"

X:"what? No of course not"

Me:"bro you and I both know that that girl is here for me, like seriously,  I mean I lead her on knowing very well that ndina Tshililo and because of that she followed me here.....and I should have convinced her to go back home you know, at least she could have been safe"

X:"stop it Thembuluwo, stop ok....this is not anyone's fault,  you didn't call her to come or hire people to kidnap her so its not your fault" my phone rang,  ndowana nomboro dzahone nne ndisa dzidivhi na luthihi

Me:"hello"

Sharon:"The.....Thembu" ovha a tshi khou lila lu thukhulaho mbilu

Me:"Sharon u gai?"

Sharon:"vha khou toda u mmbula" hango tsha fhedzisa

"that’s about it.....uhm well well well....cheese boy" a guy said after taking a phone from Sharon

Me:"who the F***k are you and what the hell do you want?"

Guy:"I will be very very friendly if I were you" I closed my eyes ndi tshi khou dzungudza thoho

Me:"what do you want?"

Guy:"a million rand"

Me:"are you out of your damn mind?"

Guy:"I am sure you can afford it, I mean you can even sell the benz if you don't have enough" f***k who the hell is this, and then I started to panic, Tshililo na Sihle vhosala vhavhothe hayani, damn what if? What if he go after them? I was running out of breath

Me:"owk when do you want the money?" ndo vhudzisa ngau tavhanya

Guy:"in an hour, I will give you a call and if you don't have it by then? Only God knows what I will do to your little mistress or even your wife" and he dropped the call, ndopfa muvhili wanga wothe u tshi songa tshitungu, ndopfa ndo tshuwela Tshililo na nwananga, ndovha ndi tshi khou femela ntha, ndovha ndotshuwa u fhirisa na ipfi tshuwa, ndo mbo di starter goloi

X:"what happened?"

Me:"Tshili and Sihle are not safe bro, we need to go now and then we need to have a million rand in an hour"

X:"they want that amount of money?"

Me:"yeah"

X:"let me call jay, I am sure he do have  a million lying somewhere at his club, I am sure the money in my safe won't make 1 million"

Me:"owk, for now I just want us to get home and make sure that Tshili and Sihle are fine" ndovha ndoi kanda benz, Xolani o mbo di founela Jay

X:"yes boss.....they called Thembu and demanded 1million....V boy......yeah.......we are rushing home now I think the guy is also threatening our family.....yeah......ok will keep in contact"

Me:"and?"

X:"Jay will organise the money"

Me:"minus 1 problem" ndovha ndi tshi khou divhudzisa uri ndi nwana wa nnyi uyu ane a khou ntsala murahu nahone u khou toda mini kha nne?

X:"and Jay will also get security for your house" ndovha ndi tshi khou ita thabelo khulu ngangomu hanga, ndopfa uri ndido balelwa u difarela arali ha itea zwinwe kha Tshililo na nwananga

Me:"if something happens to my child neh Xolani" ndo mbo di bonya mato ndari ndi tshi bonyolowa ndawana robort dzi red hu tshi khou fhira vhathu, ndo kanda biriki ngau tavhanya, nne na Xolani ro toda u rwana na dashboard, vhathu vhe vha vha vha tshi khou fhira vhotavha mikosi, ma driver manwe a nndidzela bele ngau dinalea

X:"dude what the F......do you wanna kill us?"

Me:"I am sorry......I am just too stressed"

X:"I hear that but keep your eyes on the road" Xolani was shouting, ro driver raswika nduni. Ndovha ndo tshuwa lwau fhedzisela. Nne na Xolani rotsa ra gidima ro fara zwigidi rasia ro vula na mavothi, roswika ra phamula vothi radzhena nduni

Zwi a Penga - Insert 102

Rowana Tshililo na Sihle vhodzula vha tshi khou vhona movie, ndopfa muya wanga u tshi vhofholowa nyana

Tshili:"guys you look like you have been running a marathon what’s wrong?" Tshililo o ralo vha tshi khou takuwa na Sihle vha tshi khou dela kha rine

Me:"uhm bbe are you Ok?"

Tshili:"yeah of course"

X:"are you sure? Sihle are you also fine?"

Sihle:"uhm what is going on? And why are you guys holding guns?" Sihle ovha a tshi vhonala o tshuwa

X:"just wait right here, i have to check the rooms just to make sure, don't move" Xolani o mbo di gidima a phinyela phatshisini, nne ndovha ndo kuvhatedza Tshililo

Me:"are you sure nobody came in here? Nobody knocked or tried to break in?"

Sihle:"we are sure, Thembu can you please explain to us what is going on and why do you guys have guns? Like what for?"

Me:"Sihle just chill ok"

Sihle:"chill? Are you asking me to chill? You walked out of here with my boyfriend on a 'save my ex' mission and you are asking me to chill?"

Tshili:"Sihle it’s fine"

Sihle:"its not fine and why do you have guns? What is going on here?" Xolani o mbo di vha a tshi khou vhuya

X:"its clear, thank God" ovha a tshi khou femela ntha

Sihle:"bbe what’s going on here? I am confused and since when do you carry a gun? Can you even shoot?" Sihle ovha o ima phanda ha Xolani

X:"now its not really a good time bbe, i will explain everything later but for now we need to get moving"

Me:"where to?"

X:"i was thinking Jay's club, they will be safe there, i mean we don’t even know who this lunatic is so we can't risk being in this house as we don't know where the guy is"

Tshili:"what guy? Thembu hu khou itea mini?" Tshililo was panicking

Me:"bbe ndido explainer later, khade" ndo mufara nga tshanda and Xolani a fara Sihle, robva ra khia vothi radzhena kha Benz

Sihle:"you better explain to me what is going on Xolani, and where the hell are we going now and please put that thing you are holding away" she said that pointing at a gun Xolani was holding, nne ndovha ndi tshi khou reverser goloi

X:"can you please just shut the F***k up for a damn second, i said i will explain to you LATER, do i need to interprete that in Xhosa for you?" Sihle ovha o mangadzwa nga reaction ya Xolani, Xolani was really stressed or should i say pissed, he was not the kind of a guy to just lose it like that. Xolani o founela Jay a mutalutshedza uri ri khou disa Tshililo na Sihle clabuni. At least Sihle ovha ono fhumula a si tsha vhudzisa dzi mbudziso. Roswika clabuni ra paka ratsa.

Tshili:"ndi gai afha?"

Me:"clabuni ya Jay"

Tshili:"and why are we here?"

Me:"the house is not safe bbe, the guy who kidnapped Sharon is after me so ndi khou shavha uri anga dela na ene"

Tshili:"oww" ovha a mpfara nga tshanda ri tshi khou dzhena nga ngomu, ovha o nnyima hezwila zwa vhukuma, zwauri ovha o tshuwa zwovha zwi tshi touvha khagala. Ro dzhena rayela bvungwi

Sihle:'this place looks scary"

Tshili:"yeah it is" ndovha ndi sa vha blame ngauri na nne nga duvha la u thoma ndi tshi da ndovha ndo tshuwa nyana.

Me:"its nothing scary ladies, this is the safest place to be”

Sihle:"what are we running away from?"

Me:"all in good time" Xolani was awfully quiet. Ro swika ra wana husina muthu, hovha hu tshi touvha na havhala vhasidzana vhano shuma barani. Tshililo na Sihle vhovha vha tshi khou tinga-tinga badi

Me:"you can sit over there" ndoralo ndi tshi khou vha sumbedza couch. Nne na Xolani roya ravula linwe vothi lire phanda nyana henefho. Ro wana Jay ana Gerrit vha tshi khou vhala tshelede.

Me:"boss" i was feeling kinda guilty ngauri ndovha ndi khou sokou ruvha-ruvhisa vhathu nga nthani ha X yanga

Jay:"V Boy", Xolani o sokou tenda nga thoho "i am really sorry about all the trouble, i will pay all the money back i promise"

Jay:"that wont be necessary boy, i am not giving S***t to no one, i have worked so hard for this mula boy, i aint giving it to anyone for free, whoever the guy is, he is going to regret ever trying to do this" ndopfa maipfi a Jay a tshi nnea fulufhelo

Gerrit:"Javas and Sticks are ready, we are just waiting for that phonecall"

X:"and what happens after the phonecall?"

Javas:"V Boy will give us the address to deliver the mula and then we can make sure that we are hiding somewhere close by and yeah we will follow that domkop"

Me:"i see"

Jay:"i am not even stressed, this must be some amateur who don't even know what they are doing so its gonna be like taking a candy from the baby"

X:"you think?"

Jay:"i know" vho panga tshelede kha bege and we walked out.

Gerrit:"hi ladies"

Tshili:"hi"

Phone yanga yo mbo di lila, ndo i fara nda isa kha speaker

Me:"hello"

Guy:"so this is how this whole thing will play out, you don't call the police or anyone else for that matter because if you do, i will kill her"

Me:"uhm ok i won’t"

Guy:"sure....so you are gonna go to the Garden Route Mall, go to the cinema and i will send you a message when you are there as to where to drop the money, i will know when you arrive, i am giving you 15 minutes to come"

Me:"i got it, please don't do anything to her" the guy dropped the call.

Jay:"Ok i will tell Javas to go to the mall now and wait inside the cinema, and then the moment you get the number of the cinema to drop the money in, just forward the message to me ok?"

Me:"will do so"

X:"so you are going alone?"

Me:"yeah that’s the plan"

X:"keep in touch"

Me:"i will"

Sihle ovha a tshi tou vhonala uri una mmbudziso nnzhi nga maanda dze avha a khou toda u vhudzisa, but she was tying to keep her cool

Tshili:"please asongo mmbudza uri u khouya kha vhathu vho kidnapaho Sharon bbe please"

Me:"ndi khou tea utuwa Tshililo, i only have 14 minutes to save her life"

Tshili:"mara nne thi khou toda a tshi ya bbe" she was now crying

Me:"i know and i am sorry" ndo mukhisa tshikuma nda gidima ndabva ndadzhena kha benz yanga nda driver ndolivha moloni.

Ndori ndi tshi tou swika ndawana message wa uri kha ndi dzhene kha number 4, ndo mbo di forward message kha Jay. Ndoswika nda badela ndaya kha number 4. Hovha huna swiswi hu tshi khou tamba movie. Ndo vha ndo vhudziwa uri ndi vheye bege kha seat ire khonani kha line ya u thoma ubva ntha hangei bvungwi, hovha hopfi ndi tshi fhedza uvhea ndibve, fhedziha Javas ovha onovha henefho nga ngomu and ovha o dzula tsini na seat yeneyo. Ndo swika nda vhea bege ndabva, ndo mbo di receiver message wa uri Sharon u tsini na goloi yanga. Ndo bva nga u gidima, ndo tangana na Gerrit na Sticks henefho nnda, thi ngo amba navho tshithu, just in case i was being watched. Ndo swika ndawana Sharon o dzula fhasi o imisa magona henefho tsini na goloi yanga, ovha o shingizhela  mitodzi. Ori u mmbona a mbo di takuwa ada a nkuvhatedza nga u tavhanya, o mbo di tou nana u lila

Me:"its all fine now, o tsireledzea Sharon" she just continued crying

Sharon:"i thought my life was over" ovha a tshi khou tswimila

Me:"its fine ok?"

Sharon:"they....they just came and dropped me here.....vhari arali nda gidima vhado nthuntsha, you need to call the police Thembu or leave now ngauri na inwi vhado ni thuntsha please"

Me:"its fine Sharon they wont"

Sharon:"you don't know those guys, they have guns and everything"

Me"they are gone now"

o mbo di nambatuluwa kha nne a ntsedza

Sharon:"ndi khou humbela uri ni pfarele Thembu, ndovha ndi tshi dovha ndi songo ni founela if i had any other plan fhedziha ndovha ndisina ngauri ndovhona uri u founela mapholisa zwido toda tshifhinga tshilapfu"

Me:"zwoluga asongo explainer, zwa ndeme ndi zwauri ene u safe"

Sharon:"u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndono lata fulufhelo"

Me:"but u right? Ndi amba uri avhango muhuvhadza? I mean sexually"

Sharon:"hai"

Me:"kha de a dzhene goloini"

Sharon:"ndi goloi ya nnyi?"

Me:"yanga" she looked at me o atama mulomo, u tou amba ngoho the way ye avha a ngayo yovha isa takadzi shame

Me:"kha dzhena" o mbo di dzhena, na nne ndoya nda dzhena kha side ya driver

Sharon:"so you are driving a benz now?"

Me:"yeah, vhathu vhahone uya vhadivha? Ndi khou amba vhe vha vha vho mu kidnepa?" o mbo di sokou sedza zwanda zwawe

Me:"sharon"

Sharon:"sorry Thembu, ndi houla muthannga we ndavha ndi khou jaiva nae helia duvha, ovha ana inwe authi, nne ndovha ndi sa zwidivhi uri ndi tshigevhenga u amba ngoho, ndo tuwa nae nduni sa mungana and then ndi tshi vhori ndi a tuwa a thoma u ambisa na nne zwinwevho a nkhiela nduni, ovha ana dzinwe authi mbili, i think vhaya ita hezwi zwavhu gang and he said nne ndinga muitela tshelede nnzhi ngauri i have a rich boyfriend"

Me:"ow"

Sharon:"ndi khou humbela u awela please, and ndi khou humbela uri ri ambe ngahazwo matshelo ngauri i am still feeling a bit shaky" ovha a tshi khou rothisa mitodzi

Me:"ndi kho zwipfesesa, eish ndovha ndo tshuwa uya divha"

Sharon:"me too" ndo mbo di bvisa founu yanga nda sendela Jay message wa uri Sharon ndo muwana so rolindela houla wa tshelede atshibva nayo cinema. Gerrit o mbo di founa

Me:"Gerrit"

Gerrit:"i think this domkop is waiting for the movie to finish so that he can leave with everyone but i told Javas to keep an eye on him and we will also be on the lookout for anyone with the bag"

Me:"ok sure, thanks for the update" ro mbo di dropper call

Me:"kha ri tuwe ndi mufhelekedze tshikoloni"

Sharon:"ndo tshuwa Thembu, houla muthu uya divha uri nne ndidzula gai"

Me:"dont sweat it, mapholisa vhado dealer nae neh?"

Sharon:"i am scared"

Me:"ndi khou mufulufhedzisa ahunga itei tshithu neh"

Sharon:"eish"

Me:"trust me" ndo mbo di driver ndaya tshikoloni, ndo swika ndapaka, ndotsa ndaya nda muvulela vothi lawe, otsa, ovha o sokou diputa. Nne ndo mukuvhatedza ralivha rumuni yawe.

Me:"khaye u tamba, ndidovha ndi khou mulugisela nguvho dzau edela"

Sharon:"thanks" o mbo di dzhia zwithu zwawe zwau tamba a tuwa. Nne ndosala ndasedza zwiambaroni zwawe ndabvisa zwau ambara a tshi edela, ndo fukula na nguvho uri atshida a sokou dzhena. Ndo sedza ndawana uri ahuna zwiliwa zwo bikiwaho, ndo mbo di founela Debonairs nda order pizza. Hu si kale-kale Sharon o mbo di vhuya

Me:"kha ambare a edele, ndi mu ordela na pizza, inga deliviwa anytime neh"

Sharon:"you didn't have to"

Me:"ndi khotou thusavhoo"

Sharon:"thanks Thembu, i think you should get going thi khou toda ulwa na mufumakadzi wanu futhi please"

M:"but ene u fine naa?"

Sharon:"ndi right, hu touvha uri nditshe ndo tshuwa.....i want to go home" and she started crying again, ndo sendela tsini nae nda mukuvhatedza

Me:"zwido luga Sharon, ene kha awele zwa zwino neh"

Sharon:"owk ndo livhuwesa Thembuluwo"

Me:"ndovha ndi tshi khotou ita zwo fanelaho" phone yanga yo mbo di lila. Hovha hu Tshililo

Me:"bbe"

Tshili:"i am worried sick here Thembu, utshe fine?"

Me:"ya bbe ndi khou vhuya husikale and asongo stressea please"

Tshili:"i will stop stressing when you are here"

Me:"ndi khou vhuya" ro mbo di dropper phone

Sharon:"good night and ndo livhuwesa"

Me:"a edele zwavhudi thi"

Sharon:"ene a drive zwavhudi" nne ndo mbo dibva. Minus one problem, Sharon ovha o tsireledzea. Ndo humela moloni, ndori ndi tshi tou swika nda vha ndi sthi khou receiver message wa Gerrit a tshi khouri vho i fara heila authi. Ndoya khavho ubva hafho ra driver ro salana murahu, roya haningei clabuni ya Jay, roswika radzhena nga munango wa murahu, heila authi yo jiiwa ya isiwa nga hangei hune ha practisiwa hone u thuntsha hune havha na dzimbondo dza soundproof.

Me:"can i have a word with this guy before you can start with him?"

Sticks:"all yours" Sticks, Javas na Gerrit vho vha vho ima henefho, Xolani na ene o mbo di bvelela. Ndo i sedza heila authi nda wana uri ndi yone heila ye yavha i tshi khou jaiva na Sharon helia duvha

Me:"so.....now its my turn to make demands, why were you doing this? Like what do you want from me? Is this about the girl?"

Guy:"i am so sorry bro, i didn’t know that you work with them, i wouldn't have disrespected you guys"

Me:"i dont think you have answered my question"

Guy:"uhm, after that night that we had a fight, i made it my mission to know you, and when i found out you have a house in town and you and your friend are always flashing money around, i thought that maybe you are one of those kids from rich families and i thought i could mke some money out of you.....when you showed up at varsity with your benz this morning, i was more than convinced that you were rich"

Me:"owww?"

Guy:"i am sorry my man, i know about Jay and them because i belong to a small group of gang and i respect your gang because you guys are our seniors, if i had known he is part of your family i wouldnt have.....harde guys"

Javas:"who are you with in this whole thing?"

Guy:"my 2 friends"

Sticks:"do you have any idea what you have done? X mean i had to leave my family to come here and solve an X which you have created"

Guy:"i am sorry"

Gerrit:"say that word again and you are dead" the poor guy just looked around

Me:"i dont think i wanna witness the episode that’s about to play"

Sticks:"don't worry we will deal with him and then his friends"

Me:"do you mind if i take my wife home, she is pregnant and a bit stressed at the moment"

Javas:"its fine boy, you boys can go, this is our baby, we will deal with this"

X:"night guys" nne na Xolani robva raya hangei hehavha huna Sihle na Tshililo, vhori u ri vhona vha gidima vhada vharifha hug

Tshili:"ndovha ndo tshuwa" she was crying

Me:"i am fine bbe, ahuna need yau stressea"

Tshili:"like hell you are"

Me:"what?"

Tshili:"how do you explain this huh? I am sitting at some bar, stressed and panicking because you are out saving the day for you ex girlfriend, how is any of that fair Thembu huh? Ndi amba uri nne na ene rovha ro fanela ri hayani zwino, but hai, Sharon ubva phanda asi zwone? Milenzhe yanga yo zwimba khei, and i am sick and tired of this damn bar ngauri hu khou sokou nukha minukho minzhi-minzhi and i feel like vomiting" ndovha ndo mangadzwa nga maipfi a Tshililo

Me:"bbe"

Tshili:"ndi khou toda uya hayani" and then o mbo di hwenya a tshi khouya kha munango usi wone, ndo mugidimela nda mufara tshanda

Me:"kha ri bve ngahafha"

Tshili:"don't touch me" oralo o ntsedza tshifhatuwo tsho shingizhelaho mitodzi. Ndo mu ranga phanda ri tshi khou bvela nnda, Xolani o ri sala murahu na Sihle.

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Ro swika Tshililo a dzhena goloini nga phanda, nne ndo dzhena kha seat ya driver, Xolani na Sihle vhoya vhadzhena nga murahu

Sihle:"i really want someone to explain to me what is going on here, non of this makes sense"

X:"bbe please, when we get to the house ok?" Tshililo ovha o sokou peta zwanda zwawe o kukumuwa a muhulu-hulu. The ride to the house was a long one ngauri hovha husina muthu ane a khou amba na munwe. Ro swika ndawana huna goloi getheni ya vha shumisani, i guess they were keeping an eye on the house, ndo swika nda vha lidzela bele nda putedza remote ndavula gethe. Ndo dzhena nda paka benz on the drive way radzhena nduni.

Sihle:"owk here we are tell us what’s happening"

X:"bbe sit down, i will tell you everything"

Tshili:"i know everything so i am going to bed"

Sihle:"what do you mean you know everything? can you please just stay for this?" Tshililo looked at me and then at Sihle and she sat down on a sofa, nne ndovha ndo ima ndo gogodela luvhondo ndo vhasedza

X:"Sihle bbe there is no better way to say this so i will just say it as it is"

Sihle:"ok"

X:"i am a gangster" Sihle looked at Xolani, at me and then at Tshili, she laughed a bit and then she realised that all of us had our serious faces on

Sihle:"uhm that’s supposed to be a joke right?"

X:"if that’s what you wanna see it but no its not a joke" she looked around and let out a fake laugh

Sihle:"u li gintsa Xolani? U li gintsa? Hayini bethuna mna i thought your family has businesses? That’s what you told me"

X:"i do have businesses, not my family's but my own"

Sihle:"wait wait wait" o mbo di takuwa a ima nga milenzhe "i am confused here, so you have been lying to me all this time Xolani?" Xolani o fhumula a sokou musedza "i am asking you a quastion, you've been lying to me?"

Me:"uhm it was not like that Sihle"

Sihle:"you haven't changed your name to Xolani right? So keep quiet" yohh nne ndo mbo di fhumula na zwenezwo

X:"Sihle you can't just expect me to walk up to you and say hi, my name is Xolani and i am a gangster, really?"

Sihle:"that would have been better than this.....and Tshililo did you know about this?" Tshililo o mbo di kweta thoho

Tshili:"uhm well.....i found out from Thembu....he is also a.....well......a gangster"

Sihle:"you have got to be kidding me, so all this time Tshililo? All this time you knew and you didn't care to tell me? Why huh?"

Tshili:"it was not my place to tell you"

Sihle:"wooow i can't believe that you guys have been making me a fool, i....i thought i meant something to you all, but clearly i meant nothing, and as for you Xolani" she looked up o fara khundu, ovha onovha na zwikamba zwa mitodzi "i....i think we have come to an end"

X:"what?"

Sihle:"yeah we are done" and she walked to the door

X:"no bbe please and where the hell are you going now?"

Sihle:"i will get a cab to the campus"

Me:"uhm take my figo boy and drive her to the campus you guys need to talk"

X:"this is all your damn fault Thembu, if only.....if only you had kept it together that night, we wouldn't be in this mess right now" o mbo di dzhia key abva

Me:"wooow that was......not what i expected" Tshililo ha ngo amba tshithu.

O mbo di takuwa a yela kitchen, nne ndo mutevhela henengei

Me:"bbe we can't continue like this ai, please kha pfesesi zwo iteaho bbe, that guy wanted my money and that’s why he kidnapped Sharon, ndi amba uri arali hu iteye zwinwe yovha i tshi dovha i fault yanga, ene u tou vhona unga nne ndovha ndi tshi do tshilisa hani knowing uri ndo hana u thusa ula wana? Ene zwovha zwi tshi do mufara zwavhudi naa?"

Tshili:"DO NOT"  she breathed "do not make this about me Thembuluwo, this is about you and not wanting to cut all ties with her"

Me:"Tshililo u khou vha unfair ene zwino"

Tshili:"really Thembu, nne ndo tou muhumbela zwavhudi ene ndari let Xolani handle this whole thing, i didn't say don't help her fhedziha i didn't want you going close to her"

Me:"ahgg Tshililo get a grip man, i was saving the girl's life for f***ks sake, i was not sleeping with the damn girl ok.....and please stop with this jealousy madness of yours because non of it is good for my child"

Tshili:"don't ever give me that 'its not good for the baby' crap ok....i mean it doesn't matter how i feel or how hurt i am and you don't even care nga dzi feelings dzanga nne, zwa ndeme ndi nwana kani? All you care about is that i might lose the baby"

Me:"Tshililo respect"

Tshili:"ndoneta nne Thembuluwo, you don't respect me either"

Me:"bbe washu"

Tshili:"Nyebby washu ya mini?"

Me:"bbe nne ndia mufuna, nga mbilu yanga na muya fhedziha Sharon ndovha ndi si nga si mulitshe afa sa mmbwa, kha pfesese nana, this is not worth us fighting for ok?"

Tshili:"you don't understand how painfull it is to be pregnant and wait for your husband while he is out being a hero for his ex, how is that Sharon girl supposed to get the message that you don't want her? She obviously thinks that she has a special place in your heart right now"

Me:"sorry bbe but i had to help"

Tshili:"arali hovha hu Luvhengo a tshi khou toda thuso, nne nda ruvha-ruvha ndi tshi khou muthusa, nda vhea na vhutshilo hanga khakhathini nga nthani hae, where you gonna be cool about it?" she was now calm a tshi khou rothisa mitodzi, she was putting some food on the microwave

Me:"you are not honestly bringing your abusive ex into this conversation"

Tshili:"my abusive boyfriend never used to run around saving the day for his ex's, at least he respected that part of our relationship" my mind went blank, i couldn't believe that Tshililo just compared me to Luvhengo and made me a bad guy

Me:"you don't mean that" honestly i was hurt "do you still want him? ndi khou amba Luvhengo, do you still want to be with him?" ndovha ndo tungufhala ngauri zwe a amba zwo mmbaisa

Tshili:"you are not getting the message are you? I love you ok? Only you Thembuluwo and you are hurting me, you hurt me almost everyday Thembu, how am i supposed to live with this huh, ndi a mutikedza kha zwothe but zwituku-tuku zwine a nga ita ndiu nthonifha nau thonifha dzi vows dza munyanya washu" she sobbed, i tried to move closer to her but o mbo di imisa zwanda zwawe signaling for me not to come closer

Me:"owk sorry"

Tshili:"ndoneta Thembuluwo, i need to get some air" Oya a doba key dza goloi

Me:"Tshililo you are not going anywhere ndi vhusiku zwino"

Tshili:"you are not gonna stop me"

Me:"try me" she walked to the door, ndoya ndaima ndofara loko

Tshili:"thi khou toda ulwa na ene khari ndi fhire"

Me:"ahuna uri ndi mutendele abve na nwananga vhusiku vhungafha nne Tshililo, especially when you are like this"

Tshili:"once again, you are only concerned about the baby" o mbo di rembuluwa a vhea key, nne ndo mbo di dzidoba ndadzi vhea tshikwamani, o vha a tshi khou gonya zwitepisi a mbo di suvha a wa

Me:"babe!" ndo gidima nga u tavhanya ndo livha khae, ovha a tshe o shingizhela mitodzi, o mbo di tou nana u tavha mukosi, fhedziha hoyu wovha a tshi tou pfala uri ndi mukosi wa muthu are vhutunguni

Me:"bbe u sharp?"

Tshili:"bbe.....ahhhhh....bbe.....nwana Thembu.....our baby" she screamed in agony. ndovha ndo dada, i didn't know what to do, ndo lingedza u muvusa a mbo di tou nana u tavha mukosi,  o vha o edela nga lurumbu henefho he a wela hone

Me:"bbe asongo panic neh, zwothe zwido luga, kha mpfare nga hafha" ndorali ndi tshi khou lingedza u mu takusa

Tshili:"zwi khou vhavha Thembu.......nwananga" i couldn't ngauri she looked paralysed, like she didn't wanna move ngauri zwovha zwi khou nanisa vhutungu.

Me:"khari ndiye u toda thuso bbe" ndo gidima ndabva nduni ngau tavhanya ndaya kha hedzila authi dzedzavha dzi getheni, ndo dzi humbela uri dzide dzi thuse, ro gidima rothe ra humela nduni, Tshililo was still crying in pain

Me:"bbe khavhe strong ok, ri khouya ha Doctor zwino, just stay strong for our baby"

Tshili:"do you think........do you think?" and then she sobbed

Me:"asongo humbula ngauralo bbe wanga please" ro mutakula ra muisa kha benz nga murahu, i asked one of the guys to drive us, nne ndovha ndo dzula na bbe wanga nga murahu

Me:"ndi a mufuna bbe and i am sorry about everything ok?" ndo mangala mitodzi yanga i tshi khou rotha, i was scared to lose my wife or my baby

Tshili:"ahhhh Thembu.....i am in serious pain"

Me:"ri khou swika sibadela bbe, we are getting there" ndovha ndi tshi khou muvhanda tshifhatuwo ndi tshi khou mu phumula mitodzi yawe

Tshili:"i....i....bbe" and she passed out

Me:"bbe...bbe Tshililo....nana...bbe kha bonyolowe ma vhanna" ndo mbo di tavha mukosi, i felt a knife piercing through my heart, the pain was unbearable, i felt like something was taken away from me

Me:"drive faster please" i said that in between the sobs. My head was spinning, ndovha ndi tshi khotou tama hutshinga ndi muloro, i wanted it to be a dream, i didn't know what to do with myself, ndovha ndi sa divhi uri ndido tshilisa hani arali ndanga loser Tshililo kana nwananga or vhothe, i dismissed the thought immediately ngauri wovha u tshi khou disa vhutungu vhusa kondelelei

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Ro swika sibadela nda tsa goloini nda gidima nda dzhena nga ngomu nda ya reception

Me:"uhm my wife....she...she just passed out and she is pregnant please"

Reception lady:"uhm sir, just breathe please....uhm what’s happening with your wife?"

Me:"she is pregnant and she fell off the steps and now she had passed out please help" ndovha ndi tshi khou amba ngau tavhanya ndi sa khou mila na mare

Lady:"uhmm let me…" thi ngo tsha lindela a tshi fhedza u amba, ndo tshimbila nga passegi ndi tshi khou hwenya, ndo mbo di tangana na munwe anonga Doctor henefho o ambara dzhasi la white

Me:"sorry sir...uhm my wife is in the car right now, she is pregnant and fell off the stairs and now she has passed out, please you have got to help me" ndo amba hayo maipfi othe ngau tavhanya withought breathing

Doc:"uhm where is your car sir?" Doctor o mbo di vhidza manwe ma nurse mavhili henefho vhabva ngau tavhanya vha tshi khou phusha mmbete wa sibadela, ndo swika ndavha sumbedza goloi yanga, i opened the door for them, vho mbo di fara Tshililo vha mubvisa goloini vha mu vhea kha mmbete, ndo vha sala nga murahu musi vha tshi khou dzhena ngangomu sibadela. Vhophusha mmbete vhayela bvungwi

Doc:"how far is she?"

Me:"uhm i think she is about 7 months and half"

Doc:"owk what really happened?"

Me:"she fell while on the stairs, she was in somuch pain and then she passed out on our way here"

Doc:"uhm owk, you gonna have to remain here sir, your wife needs serious surgery"

Me:'can i....uhm can i-"

Doc:'no you need to stay out here" ndovha ndi tshi khou lila, mitodzi yovha i tshi khou sokou elela, ndovha ndotshuwa holuya lwau fhedzisela, ndovha ndi tshi khou disolesa nga zwothe zwenda vhudza Tshililo

What have i done, what have i done, this is all my fault, arali nwananga a lovha? Tshililo ma vhanna, houla nwana zwe a ita ndiu mpfuna ubva day one, and what did i do? Ndidzulela u dzhia mbilu yawe ndi tshi i kandekanya nga matombo, ndi dzulela u mu vhangela vhutungu tshifhinga tshothe. Ndo humbula ngauralo musi ndodzula kha bench yeyavha i henefho ndalila ndisongo lila iwe vhathu.

Thidivhi uri hungavha hovha hono fhela tshifhinga tshingafhani fhedziha ndovha nditshe ndodzula henefho kha bannga ndo tungufhala ndi tshi khou ralo ula mbilu, Dokotela o mbo di bvelela, ndo takuwa ngau tavhanya ndaya khae

Me:"uhm Doctor how is she?"

Doc:"uhm sorry i didn't really get the time to introduce my self ealier on, i am Doctor Lukhele" i was not really into the introduction thing, i just wanted to know how my wife and my child were

Me:"uhm ok Doctor Lukhele, i am Mr Mudau and that’s my wife, please how is she?"

Doc:"you’re gonna have to come to the office" ndopfa thoho yanga i tshi bvuma magonono

Me:"Doctor, just say it, i don't think i will make it to your office" mitodzi yovha i tshi khou rotha

Doc:"uhm.....your wife was very stressed Mr..."

Me:"Mudau"

Doc:" yeah Mr Mudau, she is now recovering well and we are doing our best to keep her stabilised, she didn't sustain any injury from falling though, she was just too stressed and i think she panicked when she fell and that’s why she passed out" and then i realised something, the Doctor had not said anything about the baby, its been all about Tshililo. What happened to my boy? What happened to my baby?

Me:"and the baby? You haven't said anything about our baby" the Doctor looked at me and then at his clip board and then he looked to the right and then back at me

Doc:"ahh"

Me:"something happened to him? Something happened to my child" ndo mbo di tou tavha gosi nne, i couldn't keep it together anymore, this was my child, my flash and blood, my first born, and i was responsible for whatever that had happened to him, yovha i fault yanga, i was responsible for what happened to my baby. I looked at the Doctor and i could see that there was no hope in his eyes and i felt my heart breaking into million pieces, ndopfa unga hetshila tshifhinga ndi tshi wanulusa uri Sibu una munna nahone a mbo di ntala ndovha ndi heart broken, but that was nothing compared to this, this was big, this was painful, this was way out of this world, ndi vhutungu vhune ndi nga si vhuye nda tama na swina langa lihulwane li tshi tangana naho

Doc:"uhm i can't really say anything regarding the baby right now, we have been working so hard to try and save your wife, i mean it’s best to save one rather than loosing all" i put my hands on my face, ndahwala zwanda ntha ha thoho

"So just give us more time to see if we can save the baby, the heart beat is still there but its very weak, there was also some bleeding, so we need to do a surgery and you’re gonna have to sign some paperwork, if we don't do the surgery the baby will die anyway so we have to take our chance" everything he said zwovha zwi tshi khotou mphupha, i was too confused to even understand what needed to be done, he gave me some papers and i just signed without even looking at them

Me:"please....please just save my child....please, if i lose him?....i...i" i lost my words

Doc:"i understand your pain sir, i will do my best, for now i suggest that you go home and rest, the surgery is scheduled for this morning"

Me:"no i will wait here"

Doc:'i suggest you get some rest, its 2 am in the morning" ndobvisa phone yanga nda sedza tshifhinga and nangoho hovha huvho past 2 ya madautsha, i couldn't believe it, naa nne ndina tshifhinga tshingafhani ndi fhano?

Me:"no its fine Doc…can i see her?"

Doc:"only if you promise not to upset her please"

Me:"no...no...no i won’t"

Doc:"you can go in, please she need to rest because her stress levels need to be under control prior to the surgery tomorrow"

Me:"so is she awake now?"

Doc:"she was still sleeping when i left her but i am sure she might get up anytime"

Me:"thank you for everything Doctor, thank you"

Doc:'pleasure its all mine" Doctor o mbo di tuwa.

Nne ndosala ndabvisa phone yanga. Ndopfa uri ndi khou tea u divhadza mianga nga mafhungo haya, i wanted her to come, i couldn't deal with this alone, nga afha Xolani o nkwatela. Ndo dialer phone ya mianga

Mma:'hello" vho vha vha tshi tou pfala uri vho vha vho edela

Me:"Mmawe"

Mma:"Thembu mulandu ni tshi khotou mvusa vhusiku vhungafha?"

Me:"ndi Tshililo" ndo mbo di thoma u tavha liya gosi

Mma:'Tshililo o ita mini? Thembu....Thembu ambani zwavhudi thi khou kona unipfa....ho itea mini kha Tshililo na nwana?"

Me:"Tshililo u sibadela mmawe, owa a tshi khou gonya zwitepisi and zwino....zwino hupfi......hupfi nwana.....anga...." ndovha ndi tshi vhotou lila sa nwana mutuku

Mma:"hai nwananga vhathu, yoweeeee, heiii"

Me:"ndi khou humbela uri vhade matshelo mma.....ndi...ndi khou....balelwa"

Mma:'Thembuluwo, ndido zama goloi ya ntswikisa gauteng nwananga, ndido namela flight nga matsheloni, awara ya vhufumi ndidovha ndono swika, khavhe strong mutukana wanga ndi khouda.....ndido muitela thabelo Tshililo na nwana, vhado vha khwine"

Me:"ndo tshuwa nne....zwe dokotela a amba zwi khou tshuwisa, kha vha de please"

Mma:'irani ndi droppe ndi lingedze u wana goloi"

Me:"ndi khou livhuwa mmawe"

Mma:"ivhani strong Thembu, hafhu Tshililo u khou thembela kha inwi hafho zwino"

Me:"owk mma" ndo mbo di dropper call. Ndo dzhia founu nda founela Xolani, yolila lwau thoma, lwavhuvhili? And then lwavhuraru ya fariwa

X:"its past 2 in the morning Thembu what do you want?"

Me:"Tshililo is in hospital....the...the baby...might...not make it" ndovha ndi tshi khou tswimila

X:"what? What happened?"

Me:"eish bro"

X:"i am on my way" o mbo di dropper phone, ndo zwi limuwa uri thi ngo mutalutshedza uri ndi sibadela tshifhio, ndo mbo di musendela dzina la sibadela tshendavha ndikhatsho.

Ndoya ndadzhena wardini ya Tshililo, ovha o tandiwa ngadzi thambo-thambo thovhela, ndo mulavhelesa ndapfa mbilu yanga i tshi thukhukana hafhu, thidivhi uri ho vha hu tshi kha di thukhukana mini sa izwi yovha yonovha zwipida kale. Ovha a tshe o edela, i looked at the pregnancy ndapfa ndi tshi kundelwa tshothe, ndopfa nungo dzothe dzi tshi tuwa, ndo mbo di dzula kha tshidulo tshetshavha tshi henefho, ngoho thidivhi uri vhanwe vhathu vha dealer hani nau looser nwana, this s***t is painful. Ndodzula henefho ndosedza Tshililo, ndovha ndi tshi khou tetemela. Phone yanga yo mbo di lila, hovha hu Xolani

Me:"hello"

X:"i am at the reception where are you?"

Me:"wait there" ndo mbo di takuwa ndaya kha Xolani, ndo swika nda wana ana Sihle, vhovha vha tshi tou vhonala uri vho vha vho edela, vhori u mmbona vha gidima vhada kha nne

X:"i am so sorry bro" o mbo di nkuvhatedza, for the first time i didn't mind being hugged by a guy, Sihle na ene oda a ima nga matungo ari khavara rothe, i cried like a baby, i was too emotional, ndovha ndi tshi khou balelwa u di controler

X:"its gonna be fine bro" voice ya Xolani yovha i tshi khou tetemela nyana, hovha hutshinga na ene u khou lila

Sihle:"i am so sorry Thembu, i am sorry" she was also crying. Thidivhi uri ringavha ro ima ngauralo lwa tshifhinga tshingafhani, ro swika he ra litshedzana, Xolani was also crying

X:"so how is she?" nne ndoya nda dzula kha bench, Xolani came and sat next to me, Sihle oya a dzula kha thungo heila inwe yanga so ndovha ndodzula vhukati

Me:"the doctor said that Tshililo is fine....but...but"ndo mbo di thoma u tswimila nda phumula mitodzi "they are not sure about the baby...my baby might not make it" Sihle was rubbing my back with her hand

X:"lets hope for the best"

Sihle:"what really happened?"

Me:"Tshililo was really angry at me when you guys left so we sort of like argued a lot, and then Tshililo was going up the stairs when she tripped and fell....she was in somuch pain so i rushed her to the car and asked one of the guys who were guarding the house to drive us and she passed out along the way"

X:"so she is fine now?"

Me:"yeah she is....but we don't know anything about the baby yet"

X:"at least Tshili is fine"

Sihle:"yeah at least" i buried my face in my hands and asked God to help us through this

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Ro takuwa ra dzhena ngangomu wardini ya Tshililo. Ro swika nne nda ima kha tshanda tshaula, Xolani na Sihle vhovha vhoima kha tsha monde. Rothe rovha ro sokou mulavhelesa ri sa divhi uri ri ri mini. Tshililo o mbo di dzingunyea and then she opened her eyes

Tshili:"uhm...hu...hu khou itea mini?...ndi gai afha?"

Me:"shhh its ok bbe"

Tshili:"ri gai?"

Me:"u sibadela bbe" she closed her eyes as if trying to think and then a tear escaped her eye, ndi vhona unga ovha a tshi khou humbula zwo iteaho

Tshili:"nwananga u hani?"

Me:"bbe asongo la mbilu, hupfi zwothe zwi right, vha do ita surgery nyana nga matsheloni just to make sure" ndo sedza Xolani na Sihle

Sihle:"yeah you don't have to stress friend" u tou amba ngoho ndovhona uri ndavhudza Tshililo ngoho ndidovha ndi khou muvhangelo mutsiko and that’s the last thing she needed

Tshili:"why are you here?"

X:"we are here to see you Tshili"

Tshili:"no, i am talking about him" she said that looking at me, she had tears in her yes

Sihle:"uhm Tshili bbe, you need to calm down"

Tshili:"that’s the last thing i wanna do, i don't want him here"

Me:"bbe please, we need to stand together on this, this is my mess and i wanna fix it"

Tshili:"somethings are better unfixed Thembu, just leave"

X:"you don't mean that Tshili, Sihle and i can give you guys some space to be alone"

Tshili:"Thembuluwo kha tuwe" o ralo o sedza fhasi

Me:"bbe please"

Tshili:"you really don't wanna finish this baby off do you? I want you out of this room and out of my life" i couldn't believe it, i was too week to protest or to even think about what she really meant by that statement

Me:"ok" i walked out of the room, Ndovha ndi vhutunguni vhu sa kondelelei, ndovha ndisa divhi uri ndiite mini, ndovha ndi stressed holuya lwau fhedzisela. ndoya ndadzula kha bench and just stared into space, nono vhuya da lila napfa mitodzi yofhela, na wana tshifhatuwo hetshi tsho oma tshitshinga mukumba nga u omelela ha mitodzi? Ndi zwe nne ndavha ndi zwone hezwo. Xolani na Sihle vho mbo di bva vhada he nne ndavha ndihone

X:"its gonna be fine Thembu, she is still under too much stress, just give her time"

Me:"i intend to do just that"

Sihle:"yeah", Sihle oya a ima tsini na luvhondo and Xolani went to her and tried to hug her

Sihle:"don't ok" she said that looking right into his eyes

X:"but bbe"

Sihle:"Xolani you know that the only reason why i agreed to come here with you was for Tshililo and Thembu, it had nothing to do with you so please" Xolani o mbo di kweta thoho ada a dzula tsini na nne. Everything was a mess, so zwi amba uri Xolani na Sihle vhovha vha kha di lwa and that was also my fault.

Rodzula henefho duvha lavhuya latsha, ndo sedza tshifhinga nda wana hu vho past 7 ya matsheloni, Xolani ovha o dzula o gogodela luvhondo o edela, Sihle ovha otou edela kha bench. I heard someone's shoes walking towards us

"morning"

ndo mbo di lavhelesa nda wana a munwe wa ma nurse

Me:"morning"

Nurse:"uhm i think it will be best if you can go home and just come back a bit later"

Me:"uhm what time is the Doctor coming?"

Nurse:"he will be here any minute" zwenezwo ndi tshi khou amba na nurse dokotela o mbo di bvelela

Nurse:"oww here he is"

Doctor:"morning, i didn't expect to find you here Mr Mudau"

Me:"i know"

Doc:"i would advise you to go home and rest, the surgery only start in an hour and it will take few hours" tjoo did he just said hours?

Me:"uhm...owk please Doctor do your best"

Doc:"i always do"

Me:"thank you for everything"

Doc:"i am only doing my job" ndo mbo di vusa Xolani na Sihle, ro tshimbila rabvela nnda

X:"what time are you coming back?"

Me:"maybe in the afternoon, i need to rest a bit and oww my mom is coming so i will have to go fetch her from the airport later on"

X:"call me once she is here owk?"

Me:"sure"

Sihle:"give us a call when you come back please"

Me:"owk its fine" ndo dzhena goloini and drove back home. Ndoswika ndadzhena nda tinga-tinga. It felt like ndovha ndina nwaha wothe ndobva hafha nduni hei, ndo mbo di thoma upfa maneto othe atshi vhuya. Ndo tshimbila nda gonya zwitepisi ndaya kamarani. Phone yanga yo mbo di lila, i looked at the screen nda wana hu mianga.

Me:"mma?"

Mma:"ndi hafha OR Tambo nwananga, ndido swika henefha ngavho 10 thiri?"

Me:"ndo livhuwesa mmawe, vhado wana ndo vha lindela, hupfi Tshililo udoya surgerini husi kale and then rido kona udivha uri hu khou itea mini"

Mma:"rido vhonana hu si kale nwananga"

Me:"ok ndi zwone" ro mbo di dropper phone. Ndo diposa ntha ha mmbete nda mbo di farwa nga khofhe na zwenezwo. Ndo vuswa nga phone yanga i tshi khou lila

Me:"hello" ndoralo ndi tshi kha di vha ndo bonya mato

Mma:"Thembuluwo roswika hafha George nwananga"

Me:"zwino?" u tou amba ngoho nne ndovha ndi khoupfa unga thina 10 minutes ndo edela

Mma:"ee ri henefha"

Me:"owk ndi khouda" mianga vho ri ri...vhadovha vhoda na nnyi? Anyway ndido vhona ndi tshi swika. Ndo tsa ntha ha mmbete nda ambara sandals dzanga ndadzhia key ndabva, ndovha ndi tshe ndo ambara zwenezwila zwiambaro zwa mulovha and ndovha ndisongo vhuya nda didina ngau tamba, ndovha ndoto phumula tshifhatuwo sa izwi tshovha tshina mitalo ya mitodzi. Ndo dzhena kha benz yanga nda driver ndolivha airport.

Ndoswika nda founela mianga, vho ntalutshedza uri vhoima henefho munangomi wau dzhena ngangomu. Ndo swika nda paka goloi yanga ndatsa nda yela nga henengei. ndovha ndi tshi khou tshimbila ngau hwenya ndo fara key, ndo ima nda nga nazwino ndovhona tshipuku musi ndi tshi vhona uri mianga vhovha vha na nnyi, u tou amba ngoho this was the last person i expected to see here

Mma:"nwananga iwe vhathu" ndovha ndi tshe ndo mangala

Me:"mma" ndoralo ndi songo vha sedza, ndovha ndo lavhelesa khotsi anga vhevha vha vho ima henefho na mianga

Dad:"Thembuluwo, zwi khotou tshimbila hani nwananga?" nwananga? Did he say nwananga?

Me:"uhm...." ndopfa ndo fhelelwa nga maipfi, so my dad do care, khotsi anga vhana ndavha, ndiamba uri arali vhovha vhasina ndavha vhovha vha tshi dovha vhasiho fhano, ndovha ndonovha na zwikamba matoni

Me:"ari tuwe goloini rido amba ri tshi swika nduni" ndo phumula mutodzi nga tshanda nda dzhia bege nthihi nda vha ranga phanda ndo livha goloini, this was awkward, i hadn't talked with my dad in almost a year and here he was now. Ndo swika goloini yanga nda vula vothi nda panga bege, mianga vho ima vha nndavhelesa, khotsi anga vhone vhovha vha tshi vhonala vhodada tshothe

Dad:"ndi goloi ya nnyi iyi?"

Me:"yanga"

Mma:"mini? naa mathina ni khotou rengisa zwidzidzivhadzi inwi?" how i wished i could say yes

Me:"mmawe ndo ita loan nne nda vula business ngauri ndovha ndovhona ha Xolani zwi tshi khou vhatshimbilela, ndovha ndo humbula usa tavhanya ndo vhavhudza" mianga na khotsi anga vho sedzana as if a vha khou nkholwa

Mma:"aredi" khotsi anga vho dzungudza thoho vhadzhena goloini. Vhovha vhodzula vhothe nga murahu nne ndodzula nga phanda ndindothe

Me:"baba vho vha vho fanela vhasiho mushumoni?"

Dad:"ndo founela nda amba uri huna situation ya shishi hayani, ndido dzhia vhege yothe yenei" Ndo driver ndolivha nduni yanga. Ndori u swika nduni nda paka nnda

Me:"roswika"

Mma:"ndi mudini wa nnyiha afha?"

Me:'ndi wone wanga" ndoralo ndi tshi khoutsa, ndo dzhia bege nthihi ndatsa nayo, ndoya ndavula vothi, mianga na khotsi anga vho mbo di tevhela. Ndo vhea dzi bege henefho sitting room, vhovha vha tshi khou tinga-tinga vha tshinga a vha khou kholwa zwine vha khou vhona

Me:"vhathu kha vha dzule, uhm vhana ndala?"

Dad:"zwa zwiliwa rido zwivhona nga murahu, idani ridzule fhasi" ndoya ndadzula sofani, mianga na khotsi anga na vhone vho vha vhono dzula fhasi

Me:"ndi khou livhuwa vhathu vhoswika" ndoralo ndo sedza mianga

Dad:"ndi a zwidivha uri wovha u songo lavhelela u mmbona ndi fhano Thembuluwo, fhedziha mme au vhori u mpfounela vha mmbudza mafhungo a mazwale wanga na kuduhulu kwanga ndapfa uri ndi khou tea u takutshedza, ndia zwidivha uri thi khotsi ane wa dihudza ngae nwananga fhedziha lufuno ndinalo mbiluni" khotsi anga vhori vha tshi fhedza u amba ndapfa ndisa divhi uri ndiri mini, ndo sokou kwatamela fhasi

Mma:"hezwi mafhungo o ima ngauralo nwananga ri tea u farana ravha tshithu tshithihi, ndihone na sathane a tshido shona"

Dad:"hezwo ndi zwone mme a Thembuluwo, khari farane rivhe nanda nthihi, ndi a kholwa zwothe zwido tshimbila hadovha hafhu havha na mulalo"

Me:"uhm...baba ndi khou humbela pfarelo kha zwothe" ndovha ndi tshi khou rothisa mitodzi, hafhu zwia itea muthu avha ovha a tshi khotou divhangela mafhanza ngau sa farela mubebi, na zwauri u farela khotsi anga zwido thusa nne mune u fhirisa u thusa khotsi anga.

Dad:"na nne u mpfarele kha zwothe nwananga, mme a u ndono vha humbela pfarelo kale....zwino kha ri ambe nga heli lo ridisaho fhano" eish ndovha ndi khoupfa mbilu yanga yono rulea nyana ngau amba na mukalaha khathihi nau divha uri rofarelana na u divha uri vhatshe na ndavha na nne, but it was now back to the real business

Me:"Tshililo u sibadela, nne nae rolwa nyana mulovha hafha, ari a tshi khou gonya zwitepisi a mbo diwa, so ndo mbo di muhwalela sibadela, hupfi ene u right fhedziha thaidzo i kha nwana, avhana vhutanzi uri nwana udo tshila naa, vha kati na surgery zwazwino ri tshi khou amba" ndovha ndi tshi khou rothisa mutodzi, mianga vhotakuwa vhada vhadzula tsini na nne

Mma:'zwido luga nwananga"

Dad:"ri khou tea uya sibadela uitela uri vhatshi fhedza na surgery rivhe ri henengei"

Mma:"ndi muhumbulo wa vhudi hoyo"

Me:"ndi khou livhuwa nga maanda uvha havho fhano baba"

Dad:"ndi khou ita zwo fanelaho, zwino phumulani mitodzi heyo ai...hafhu ani tshavha dukana nonovha munna zwino, nwana udori ndi zwa mini khotsi vha tshi khou lila" mianga dzo mbo di sea

Me:"baba na vhone" at least he made me smile

Dad:"Thembuluwo nina vhutanzi uri iyi tshelede yothe ni khou i wana lwa mulayoni? ndi amba uri ahuna zwinwe zwine na khou ita zwisiho ndilani?"

I seriously hated talking about this ngauri there was no way that i would tell my parents the truth, i mean my mom could just pass out on the spot and my dad could kill me right here and right now so ndo decide uri thi nga do vhuya nda zwithoma. I never realised this, but khotsi anga ndovha ndi tshi vhatoda vhutshiloni hanga, he had only been there for less than an hour and already ndovha ndi tshi khoupfa ndikhwine. Robva nga munango nne nda khia vothi rayela goloini. Roswika radzhena nne nda driver rolivha sibadela. Ro swika reception nda amba uri ro dela nnyi, vho ri talutshedza uri utshe a khou itiwa muaro, roya radzula ngahangei restaurant yahone

Me:"vhathu kha vha order zwine vhafuna, nne thina ndala lini" u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndi khoupfa uri zwiliwa zwi nga si dzhene na luthihi

Mma:"Thembu ni khou tea ula"

Me:"mmawe thiathu vha na ndala"

Dad:"mara utshipfa ndala u fanela ula thiri"

Me:"ndido ita ngauralo, avhari ndi founele X ade avha vhone, hey udo takala badi u vhona baba hafhu ndikale a khou toda uvha vhona" ndovha ndi tshi khou setshelela, having my parents here really made me feel better, zwoita uri ndidipfe ndi nwana arena vhabebi vha re na ndavha tshothe, it was a great feeling, ndovha ndono hangwa nyana ngaha vhutungu

Mma:"ndo mutuvha nwananga iwe vhathu"

Dad:"X ndi nnyi?"

Me:"ndi mungana wanga ane ndadzhena nae, ndovha ndi tshi khou shuma kha company yahawe, ndi ene o npfundedzaho hezwi zwa mabindu"

Dad:"upfala a muthannga wavhudi vhukuma"

Me:"nga maanda vhado muvhona" ndo mbo di dzhia phone yanga ndarwela nomboro ya Xolani

X:"Thembu" ovha a tshe o edela

Me:"hey sorry to wake you, my mom is here"

X:"are you at the hospital?"

Me:"yep we are just waiting for surgery to be completed, we are at the restaurant now, you will find us here"

X:"i am on my way, i can't wait to see mom"

Me:"sure"

Mma:"u ndilani?"

Me:"ee udo swika hu sa athu fhela na mithethe mingana" ndodzula na vhabebi vhanga vha tshi khoula. Kubilu kwanga kovha ku tshi kha di vhavha nyana musi ndi tshi humbula nga ha nwananga fhedziha knowing that my parents were here was making me feel a lot better, ndori ndi tshi lavhelesa ndawana Xolani a tshi khou bvelela, ori u mmbona a smiler a dela kha rine, ovha a yethe. Ori u vhona mianga a setshelela aya khavho avhafha hug

Mma:"ndo ni tuvha nwananga"

X:"na nne ndo vatuva"

Me:"uhm Xolani, this is my dad" o setshelea a tshi khou rembuluwa uri avha sedze, khotsi anga na vhone vho musedza

Dad:"Xolani?" vho mbo di takuwa vha mulavhelesa and he looked back at him

X:"dad?"

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X:"Tata?" Xolani ovha a tshi vhonala o mangala tshothe

Dad:"Nguwe Xolani?"

X:"ewe ndim....but how did you...?" owk this was getting even more weird

Me:"owk wait a minute.....what is going on here?" Khotsi anga na Xolani vho sokou sedzana

Dad:"he vhanna" khotsi anga vho amba ngauralo vha tshi khou takuwa vhaima nga milenzhe

X:"yonke iminyaka tata? i....i"

Me:"Xolani you are not making any sense, do you know my dad?" Xolani gave us that fake laugh

X:"obviously ndyamazi u tatam"

Mma:"naa hu khou itea mini afha fhethu?"

X:"uzawndi xolela but ndifun uhamba, andikwazi u hlala apha mna" he had a sad look on his face and just like that Xolani turned around and walked off. Nne ndovha ndodada tshothe, i didn't understand what just happened. Ndo mbo di takuwa ndagidima nda sala Xolani murahu, ndo wana a tshi khou dzhena goloini

Me:"X what just happened back there?"

X:"i am sure you have already figured it out Thembu, you are not that dumb" oralo a tshi khou starter goloi yawe, nne ndovha ndo ima fasitereni

Me:"i am confused Xolani" ndovha ndi tshi khou amba ngoho, ndovha ndo dada, My dad can't be Xolani's dad, nahh that wasn’t imposible

X:"your so called abusive Father Thembu is my father who sort of like abandoned us ok? Like we didn't deserve his love and clearly you guys did....that’s why he got on the first flight here when he found out your baby was in danger" and then he drove off. Nne ndosala ndoima henefho. Ndosea nyana ndi tshi khou lingedza u pfesesa zwe Xolani a amba. Zwovha zwisa pfali, my dad can't be Xolani's dad. Ndo humela murahu heravha rihone, mianga na khotsi anga vho vha vha tshi vhonala vha serious nga maanda

Mma:"vha khotou zwi ambisa hani vha tshi ralo?"

Dad:"nne ndovha ndi songo lavhelela u tangana na houla mutukana fhano"

Mma:"ngoho avha khou vhuya vha mphindula lini"

Me:"baba afha fhethu hu khou itea mini?"

Dad:"Thembuluwo ari ambe ngahazwo musi ri tshi humela hayani"

Me:"Xolani u khotou bva u mmbudza uri vhone vha khotsi awe, ndi amba uri zwi konadzea hani izwo zwithu?"

Mma:"ndi zwone khotsi a Thembuluwo? Kana ndiri khotsi  Xolani wee?" mianga dzovha dzono kwata

Me:"baba Xolani ndi murathu wanga naa?" yeah ndovha ndi tshi fhira Xolani nga minwedzi but rovha ro bebwa nga nwaha muthihi, so zwiamba uri i was still a second born

Dad:"ndi khotou humbela please khari ambe nga haya mafhungo rono vhona mazwale, ndido talutshedza zwothe" ndo mbo di sea nyana

Me:"vhaya divha vhone vhaya mangadza, ndiamba uri vhaita hani ngaurali? Xolani o mmbudza about how his dad abandoned them, mathina ovha a tshi khou amba nga vhone? Ndo tamba zwanda nne kha vhone" u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndo nyama, nne kha mubebi ndobva nga litsu hafha, ndi amba uri who leave their kids without a father? So he was not just responsible for me being a drug dealer, he was also responsible for Xolani being a drug dealer too, mbilu yanga yo mbo di thoma u vhavhela Xolani, i could only imagine uri angavha a tshi khou tangana na zwifhio

Mma:"ndi khou balelwa u zwikholwa nne hezwi" mianga vho mbo di takuwa vha tshi khou yela munangoni

Me:"mmawe, rodela Tshililo na nwananga hafha, ndi khotou humbela khari dzhene nga ngomu hangei, thanwe muaro wono fhela"

Dad:"ndi khwine zwezwo" ro mbo di takuwa rothe ra vhuelela nga ngomu sibadela, hovha hu si tshena mutakalo kha rothe, nne ndovha nditshe ndo tshuwiswa nga la uri Xolani ndi nwana wa khotsi anga. Ndovha ndi tshi khoupfa ndisitshena dzangalelo lau vha sedza havha mukalaha, roswika radzula henefhala bannganu ro lindela. Ndo takuwa ndayela thungo nyana, ndo dzhia phone yanga nda founela Xolani. Yolila yo lila isa fariwi. Ndo dropa ndadovha nda founa hafhu, o fara on the 3rd ring

X:"what do you want?"

Me:"Xolani don't be like that please we are brothers"

X:"its easy for you to say because daddy was there when you were growing up but i can't say the same can i?"

Me:"Xolani please you are my friend, my best friend"

X:"Thembu i need sometime alone ok?"

Me:"owk will come by a bit later"

X:"rather not" and he hung up on me. Ndo vhuelela ndaya ndadzula na vhabebi vhanga, hovha husina ane a khou amba na munwe, rothe rovha ro sokou mbumbumala. Husi kale-kale dokotela o mbo di bvelela, ndo takuwa ngau tavhanya ndaya khae, mianga na khotsi anga vho ntsala murahu

Me:"uhm Doctor how was the surgery?"

Doc:"uhm"

Me:"these are my parents, so you can say anything infront of them"

Doc:"owk if that’s the case....the surgery was a success i must say, the baby is fine as well as the mother, but we were forced to deliver the baby as a premature because he was not gonna make it to full term, so your boy is alive and kicking"

Me:"what!" ndo ralo ndi tshi khou sea ndosedza mianga na khotsi anga

Dad:"ndi mafhungo a vhudisa hayo"

Mma:"nia divha Mudzimu o luga ngoho?"

Dad:"vhaya zwifuna naa vha ha nyankwita"

Mma:"so can we see them?"

Doc:"you can see the mother but not the baby yet"

Dad:"when can we see the baby?"

Doc:"tomorrow maybe, we still have to monitor him"

Me:"i am just happy they are fine, can we go see my wife?"

Doc:"yes of course, she is still resting though"

Dad:'its fine we just wanna see her" dokotela o mbo di ri ranga phanda ro livha wardini ya Tshililo.

Ovha o edela kha mmbete a tshi vhonala o awela tshothe

Doc:"you can stay as long as you want"

Me:"thanks Doctor" Dokotela o mbo dibva a ri sia ngangomu

Me:"uhm baba ndi ene mufumakadzi wanga Tshililo hoyu"

Mma:"mazwale wanga iwe vhathu"

Dad:"ndi dotou muvhona zwavhudi musi atshi vuwa"

Me:"ndi khoupfa ri tshi khou lenga nga maanda u vhona nwananga" ndovha ndi tshi khou setshela nga maanda

Dad:"uri Thembuluwo no novha khotsi zwavhukuma ngoho?" my dad was laughing

Me:"hezwi zwi tou amba uri vhone vhonovha makhulu" khotsi anga na mianga vho mbo di sea. Ro dzula henefho lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu nga maanda ri tshi khou haseledza. Ndivhona unga lwa tshifhinga nyana rovha ro hangwa nga mafhungo a khotsi anga na Xolani. Tshililo o mbodi vuwa musi rodzula ngauralo

Tshili:"Thembu?" ovha o mangala nyana

Me:"mia mutukana" i smiled

Tshili:"uhani?"

Me:"ari athu muvhona but vhodokotela vhari ndi dukana lo di takalelaho"

Mma:"u khotou dipfa hani mazwale?"

Tshili:"ndo tou neta"

Me:"Tshililo havha ndi khotsi anga, baba ndi ene Tshililo hoyu"

Dad:"hurini mazwale"

Tshili:"nne rihone rivhudzisa ngeo" Tshililo ovha a tshi vhonala o takala, maybe na nne ndo farelwa hudivha nnyi. Ro dzula henefho ri tshi khou ralo u zuwa rotakalela nwana. Ndovha ndo takala u diwana ndina Tshililo na vhabebi vhanga in the same room. Rine hoswika hera thoma u onesa sa izwi hovha hukale rodzula

Tshili:"ndi khou humbela uri Thembu a thome a sale"

Me:"vhadovha vha tshi khou dzhena goloini" ndombodi nekedza khotsi anga key dza goloi, mianga na khotsi anga vhobva

Me:"eish bbe ndo takala a sharp vhathu, u tou amba ngoho i was going crazy"

Tshili:"don't play dumb with me Thembuluwo thingo hangwa zwothe zwo iteaho and i meant what i said in the morning....i want you out of my life"

Me:"what?"

Tshili:"you heard me"

Me:"but bbe rovha ri tshi khou amba zwavhudi nga ha nwana washu rotakala"

Tshili:"that's because your parents were here Thembu, but honestly nne ndoneta and the fact that ndotoda u loser nwananga was a wake up call, i don't wanna be part of your charade anymore, i don't have the strength to do it. It was enough when i had to deal with your lifestyle but i refuse to deal with your mistress and be the second best"

Me:'so you are leaving me?" i said with a low voice

Tshili:"i am giving you your freedom, you are still young and clearly you still wanna act your age and i won't stand in the way of that"

Me:"bbe you are the one that i want, you and our son please Tshililo don't do this"

Tshili:"its already done" ndo ima nda mulavhelesa, i honestly couldn't blame her, maybe i was just not ready for this whole marriage thing, ndo fara khundu nda femela ntha, ndo atama mulomo ndi tshi khou toda u amba something ndadovha nda u vala. Ndo mbo di ya munangonu, ndoswika nda rembuluwa nda musedza

Me:"ndido vhuya nga madekwana na mianga na Khotsi anga and maybe na Sihle na Xolani.....and please i would love us to keep on pretending that we are ok, i am not ready to tell anyone yet"

Tshili:"ok" ndo mbo di bvela nnda ndaya packing

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Ndobva ndatuwa ndaya goloini, ndowana mianga na khotsi anga vhono dzhena goloini. Ndovha ndi tshi khou lingedza u humbula ngazwe Tshililo a amba, maybe angavha atshe o tou dinalea, I mean she can't really break things off with me, or can she? Mianga na khotsi anga vhovha vha tshi khou amba but I was not really paying attention. Ro swika nduni nda paka goloi ratsa radzhena nduni. The time was now around 2 in the afternoon.

Me:"nne thiathu vhuya ndawana tshifhinga tshau bika ubva tsha mulovha mmawe so ahuna zwiliwa hafha fhethu, ndovha ndi khou humbula u renga dzi take away"

Mma:"ni songo vhuya na didina nwananga ndido bika" khotsi anga vhovha vhodzula masofani na mianga

Me:"ndido vhasumbedza uri zwithu zwothe zwinga gai uitela musi vhatshi vho toda u bika"

Mma:"ahuna thaidzo"

Me:"baba ndi khou humbela u vhudziwa nga ha Xolani, zwida hani uri vhone vhavhe khotsi awe, nne ndi khoupfa hezwo zwithu zwisa pfali na luthihi" mianga dzombodi sedza thungo dza koka lunwe lukovhi holo

Dad:"ehhh hei"

Mma:"inwi nido talutshedzana na khotsi anu haya mafhungo a Xolani, nne ndi khoupfa ndisina dzangalelo lau apfa lini"

Dad:"mia Thembuluwo ndi khotou ni humbela"

Mma:"zwiafana nne thitshavha mufumakadzi wavho, so ndi khou shavha u tolou dilisa mbilu" owk ahuna zwithu zwino bora u fana na musi vhabebi vhanu vha tshi khou ita zwingaho hezwi phanda hanu

Dad:"ndia zwidivha hezwo fhedziha ndia ni koloda u amba ngoho kha haya mafhungo othe"

Mma:"u tou amba ngoho haya mafhungo nne o ntsomela, nwana ano edana na Thembu mara ngoho zwavhukuma?"

Me:"ndi vhana mmawe, asi muthihi" ndo amba ngauralo ndi tshi khou kweta thoho

Mma:"ndi ngoho iyo? Naa mathina vhone vhotou ita hani?" mianga vhoralo vha tshi sumbedza u dinalea

Dad:"ni kha di zwihumbula uri ndoya ndashuma ngei Mthatha musi inwi nitshe tshikoloni?"

Mma:"vha touvha na vhutanzi uri ndi kha di zwihumbula" owk this is the part where i just sat and pretended like i was not there

Dad:"ehhh ndori ndi henengei nda tangana na hoyu mme a Xolani, ovha a tshi khou dzula hunwe nga henengei, roswika hera ita zwau funana"

Mma:"ndi zwa musi nne ndo siiwa hayani hezwo?"

Dad:"well yah....inwi nori ni tshi vhifha muvhilini nga Thembuluwo, hu sa athu fhela minwedzi mivhili Pamela na ene a wanulusa uri o vhifha muvhilini" ndovhona mianga vha tshi bonya mato vhosedza ntha, vhodovha hafhu vha a bonyolola, vhasedza khotsi anga nga lito helia linonga li khou vhudzisa uri 'how could you'. Nne nga hetsho tshifhinga ndovha ndo di fhumulela ndi sa divhi uri ndi ri mini, hafhu na u takutshea hovha hu si tsha takutshea, khotsi anga vho mbo di isa phanda

"Thembuluwo ovha ene nwananga wau thoma"

Me:"and I guess that’s supposed to make me feel better for the fact that ndo aluwa ndina vharathu khathihi na khaladzi ndisa vha divhi"

Dad:"hoko kukhuwa kwanu ku naka ni khou kuambela thama dzanu Thembuluwo, ndi kha divha khotsi anu" ndi a zwidivha uri nne na khotsi anga ro tou farelana namusi, but I was angry at him again, ndo sokou dzungudza thoho nda fhumula, vho mbo di dovha vhaisa phanda

"nga murahu ha minwedzi mivhili Pamela o mbo di beba vhatukana vhavhili vha matwins, Xolani na Xolile"

Mma:"zwiamba Xolani una li twin?"

Me:"munwe wahone o lovha"

Mma:"oww"

Dad:"zwino havhala vhatukana vho shumisa tshifani tsha miavho ngauri nne na miavho rovha ri songo malana, nahone naha hashu Pamela ovha a sa hudivhi. Nga murahu ha minwaha nyana hoda ha bebwa kusidzanyana, ku tou fhirana nyana zwituku na Rendani, dzina lako kupfi Nwabisa"

Mma:" so zwothe hezwi, zwi khou itea zwenezwi ro malana? Zwiamba uri vhone tshila tshifhinga vha tshi vhuya u shumela hayani vhovha vhosia muta ngei?"

Dad:"ahhh yah ni nga ralo?"

Me:"baba kha vha litshe uri ninga ralo vhatou tenda"

Dad:"Thembuluwo watch your mouth man"

Me:"vhaya divha uri ndi mini zwino bora nga vhone? Vhadzulela u demand uri kha ri vha thonefhe but honestly avha thonifhei, ndiamba uri vhasiya hani vhana vhavho vha sa vhuye vha senda na peni yau vha supporta, vhovha vha khouri vha khoula mini?"

Dad:"Thembuluwo.....Thembuluwo?" vhoralo vhontsumba nga munwe

Me:"ndi ngoho baba, vhaya vhuya vhadivha uri Xolani o tambula hani nga nthani ha vhone? Khakhathi yea didzhenisa khayo nga nthani hau savha na khotsi?"

Dad:"hovha husina zwendavha ndi tshinga ita zwothe Thembuluwo"

Me:"you could have at least send them money on a monthly basis baba"

Mma:"nne ndi tounga ndido thoma ndaya u edela, hezwo zwi khou m balela"

Dad:"Mia Thembuluwo....heh Thinavhuyo.....Thina nisongo ita hezwo ma washu please"

Mma:"thi khou ita tshithu, ndo tou neta" I could see that my mom was hurt and vhovha vha tshi khotou balelwa u lila ngau shavha nne

Me:"avhade ndi vhasumbedze kamara yavho"  ndo ranga mianga phanda nda vhaisa kha inwe yadzi room. Khotsi anga na vhone ndovha sumbedza yavho, ndori u fhedza henefho ndi humela sitting room , khotsi anga vho mbo di ntsala nga murahu

Me:"ndi khou thoma ndabva nne, ndi khou tea u vhonana na Xolani"

Dad:"irani na nne ndide, ndi khou tea u amba nae"

Me:"thivhoni u muhumbulo wa vhudi nne ngauri Xolani o dinalea vhukuma hune avha hone"

Dad:"sorry u ni shonisa khathihi nau ni dissapointer mutukana wanga, ndia zwidivha uri thi perfect fhedziha ndi khou toda u lingedza u lugisa mafhungo"

Me:"u tou amba ngoho nne thitsha divha ntsu na tshena hafha kha vhone, they all look the same" ndoralo nda vala vothi ndabva, ndori ndi tshi khou toda u dzhena goloini yanga ndapfa phone yanga i tshi lila, ndosedza caller ID ndawana hu Jay

Me:"boss"

Jay:"hey V Boy"

Me:"sorry I couldn't get back to you to find out how everything went boss, my wife fell and we had to take her to the hospital and there was something wrong with the baby and they had to operate, so the baby had been delivered as a premature"

Jay:"owww its great news that your baby is fine....boy or girl?"

Me:"a boy"  I said that with a giggle

Jay:"mhm welcome to fatherhood boy, so I take it you won't come to Svig's party?"

Me:"I don't think I will make it....and what happened to those guys?"

Jay:"that’s old story boy, you have absolutely nothing to worry about"

Me:"thank you somuch boss"

Jay:"I do this for a living boy, sure"

Me:"sure" and he dropped the call, nne ndovha ndo no tou hangwa tshothe nga mafhungo a Sharon. Ndo mbo di zwihumbula uri nne thiathu amba na Sharon upfa uri u hani ubva tsha mulovha, but I figured that khwine ndi u sa amba nae ngauri otherwise mia Thembu Junior vha dotou nana u kwata.

Ndo dzhena goloini nda livha tshikoloni. Ndo swika ndapaka goloi yanga nda yela rumuni ya Xolani. Ndoswika nda khokhonya, Xolani oda a vula

X:"damn Thembu u funani apha?"

Me:"we need to talk"

X:"I don't wanna talk", ndo mbo di mu ignora nda musukumedza  nda dzhena rumuni

Me:"you know you are not being fair Xolani, its not like I knew about this whole thing, I am as shosked as you are right now"

X:"you will never understand how it feels like Thembu, to learn that the man who abandoned you years back was actually playing happy family with his other kids? You have no idea how much I longed to have a father, and all this time, he was being a father to you"

Me:"I am sorry things happened like that bro but it aint my fault too"

X:"I understand that its not your fault but I want you outta here owk?"

Me:"you are kidding right"

X:"I am so damn serious Thembuluwo, I want nothing to do with you or your dad or anyone close to you for that matter"

Me:"you don't mean that"

X:"owww bro believe me I do" I looked at him in disbelief

Me:"but you said if you'd meet your dad you'll want to be part of his life Xolani, has that changed now? I know you need him"

X:"that was before I found out that my dad is your dad.....I always knew that maybe he had a family somewhere and I always thought I'd ran to him and hug him if I get the chance to meet him but.....the honest truth is he don't want me in his life, I don't mean a thing to him, if I meant something,  he would have contacted me, he would have come back to us, or maybe just keep in contact, but he didn't do anything"

Me:"I am sorry"

X:"I want you to leave"

Me:"I am not leaving you like this Xolani"

X:"owk I am gonna have to force you to leave then", he reached for something on the drawer, it was a gun, o mbo di ntsumba ngatsho

Me:"Xo...Xolani ni khou ita mini?..wha...what do you think you are doing?"

X:"asking you to leave my damn room" he was so calm but at the same time i could see the fire in his eyes

Me:"Xolani put that thing down" o mbo di tshi reya

X:"i said get the F***k outta my room owk? i wanna be alone" ndo mbo di tsetsa nga tsha murahu ndi tshi khou yela vothini, ndo piringedzana na zwidulo sa izwi ndovha ndo lavhelesa Xolani weavha o ntsedza nga lito lelavha lodala vengo

Me:"just know that i love you and i am sorry about my dad" ndo bva ngau tavhanya ndavala vothi. Ndo ima munangoni ndo gogodela vothi ndo tshuwa, that didn't look like Xolani, Xolani was not that type of a guy. He was really crushed.

"F*******K" i heard Xolani screaming and then ndapfa phosho ya u nga hu khou kwashekanyiwa thundu, ndopfa zwi tshi khou ntshuwisa. Ndo vula vothi zwavhudi ngau ongolowa nda tolela, The gun was on the floor, the sound system was scattered on the floor, tshidulo tshovha tshoposiwa tshi ntha ha mmbete, fhasi hovha hodala dzithundu, he was sitting on the floor crying. Ndo dzhena zwavhudi ngau ongolowa, ndoya ndadzula tsini nae, he didn't move kana u ntsedza zwaho, ndo mbo di mukuvhatedza, o mbo di tou nana u lila a ladza thoho yawe kha nne

Me:"i am sorry Xolani"

X:"ndi ikaka yo mtu Thembu, wonke umtu aka ndifuni"

Me:"that’s not true, i love you, my mom loves you, your mom and sister loves you"

X:"what about my dad? Does he care? And u Noks yena? And what about u Sihle, naye she is gone bro, just when i was giving my heart to someone again, undishiyile bro, and what happened to uXolile? Naye undishiyile Thembu....ndim ndodwa apha....bonke abantu ndibathandayo baya hamba?"

Me:" you are not alone, i am here though, andiyi ndawo, you are my brother, i love you and i will never bro, i mean never leave you"

X:"intloko yam is spinning, like everything is coming back, the pain of losing Xolile...." he stopped and cried even more

Me:"i am here for you, i will be your brother"

X:"but why, ndinayo imali ye baya bro, i can buy anything i want, but andinwabanga tu, my life is sad....my life is F****d up"

Me:"no its not"

X:"i think i really want to be alone"

Me:"no you don't, lemme me call Sihle"

X:"aka ndifuni lo mtana, uthi yena akadlali ne gintsa boy" he was still crying, he was really messed up and this was all my dad's fault. It reminded me of how messed up i was when he beat up my mom and i beat him back, that was the night the whole charade with Sharon started, i slept with her ngauri ndovha ndi stressed nga khotsi anga, havhala munna vha toxic, he was not good for any of us, i mean vhoda fhano vha tshi khou lingedza uvha mubebi wa khwine kha nne but look what he did. Ndo mbo di bvisa phone yanga nda founela Sihle

Sihle:"hello"

Me:"hey Sihle, where are you?"

Sihle:"uhm at campus"

Me:"owk come to Xolani's room"

Sihle:"there is no way that i am coing anywhere near you guys, i don't wanna be kidnapped mna"

Me:"ahgg Ftsek cut the crap man, you've been chawing the gangster money for 2 years and now you don't do gangster? Uxolani need you here, he is in a bad space, he just learned who his biological dad is and he is losing it so please i need you"

Sihle:"owww, his real dad?"

Me:"yeah that’s exactly what i said"

Sihle:"uhm ok i am coming, and owww i don't appreciate you telling me Ftsek owk?"

Me:"sorry i am just in a bad space"

Zwi a Penga - Insert 108

Hu si kale-kale Sihle o mbo di swika. She was just wearing a simple jean and some nike sneakers na knitted top yo itaho khulwane nyana ya peach.

Me:"hey, thanks for coming"

Sihle:"i didn't have much choice" Xolani ovha o sokou dzula o sedza fhasi, "so what happened?"

Me:"its a very long story but it turned out that Xolani and i are half brothers"

Sihle:"what do you mean half brothers?" she was laughing

Me:"we share a father" she stopped laughing and looked at me and then at Xolani

Sihle:'you mean.....his father is your father?"

Me:"yeah"

X:"it’s a pity they were the chosen ones but we weren't" Sihle o mbo di ya a tumba gwadama phanda ha Xolani we avha o imisa magona

Sihle:"bbe don't say that"

X:"but it’s the truth"

Sihle:"so did you do this?" oralo a tshi khou sumbedzela nga zwanda a tshi khou tinga-tinga na rumu ya Xolani

Me:"yeah he did"

Sihle:"i understand you are in shock but you can't throw your life away because of your dad, look what you've done?" Xolani didn't say anything

Me:"Sihle can you please keep an eye on him, i need to go see Tshililo again"

Sihle:"yeah its fine i will look after him", ndo sendela tsini na Xolani na Sihle

Me:"thanks Sihle....uhm X you are my brother and my best friend boy, that’s not gonna change, please don't beat yourself up about what dad did, you are better than that, i will come by later or maybe tomorrow but i will definately give you a call"

Sihle:'ok Thembu" ndo bva, ndaima munangoni nda femuluwa. U tou amba ngoho nne ndovha ndo neta, ubva tsha mulovha ndovha ndi sathu awela. Hovha huvho 5 ya mathabama zwino. Ndo mbo di fhirela rumuni ya Sharon, ndovhona uri ri khou tea u amba once and for all. Ndo swika nda khokhonya rumuni yawe, a strange girl opened the door

Me:"is Sharon around?"

Girl:"yeah come in", ovula vothi nne ndadzhena Sharon ovha o edela but asongo fara khofhe

Me:"muthu utshe nguvhoni tshifhinga tshino?"

Sharon:"after hezwila zwothe zwo iteaho ndi khoupfa ndisina dzangalelo lau ita tshithu, i am still traumatized"

Girl:"uhm Sharon, i am just gonna go to the shops"

Sharon:"ok"

Me:"ndi sorry nga maanda kha zwo iteaho kha ene, havhala vhathannga vhovha vha tshi khou todana na nne, vho mmbona ndi khou reila Benz vhavhona uri vhanga ita tshelede, so kha mpfarele"

Sharon:"na nne ndi fault yanga, if i didn't hang out with them"

Me:"but how are you feeling?" ndovha ndo no tou dzula ntha ha mmbete, Sharon na ene ovha o no tou dzula o gogodela misiamelo

Sharon:"ndi khoupfa ndi khou tshuwa, ndi sokou vhona unga vhado mmbuyela"

Me:"asongo vhilaela ene, havhala vhathu vhofarwa nahone ene hupfi hangado tea u nea vhutanzi sa izwi a traumatised so rine rido testifier sa izwi rina mi message nadzi call history to prove the case, so you wont have to face them again" this had to be done, otherwise nwana hoyu ovha a tshi do toda u divhesa uri ho iteani kha hedzila authi and tshitori tshahone tshovha tshi tshi do mu ofhisa vhukuma

Sharon:"wow i am happy that i wont have to testify, that’s great news"

'Me:"yeah it is...uhm Sharon sa izwi ene a sharp, ndi vhona uri ndikhwine ri tshi humela murahu kha agreement yashu, i love my wife and mufumakadzi wanga ha zwifuni hezwi zwauri nne ndi ambe na ene ngauri rina history, so ndi khou humbela uri arali zwi tshi konadzea a humele hayani, ndi amba uri angaya a dzhena UJ, Univen, kana TUT"

Sharon:"Thembu ndo no registara fhano nne and i have a bursary here, nivhona unga vhabebi vhanga vhadori ndizwa mini?"

Me:"owk ahuna thaidzo, nne na ene ari tsha divhana neh"

Sharon:"ok"

Me:"ndi sorry but zwi khou tea uitea ngaurali"

Sharon:"ndi a zwidivha Thembu, na nne ndo tou divhangela ngauri ndovha ndi tshi zwidivha uri ni na musadzi" she looked sad but i didn't wanna take pity on her ngauri ndovha ndi tshi do lutana navho madam chair hangei hayani

Me:"owk khari nne ndituwe"

Sharon:"ok" ndo mbo di takuwa ndaya vothini ndatuwa. At least hovha hu si tshena u vhilaela nga Sharon. Ndoswika ndadzhena goloini yanga ndadzula nda awela. Ndovha ndoneta holuya lwa u fhedzisela. Ndo mbo di zwihumbula nga muthethe honoyo uri nne hafhu a thi athu tamba tsha mulovha.

Ndo starter goloi nda driver ndolivha sibadela. Ndo thoma nda fhira nga Nandos ndi tshi renga zwiliwa, i then went to pick n Pay to get some fruits nazwi snacks nyana, ubva hafho ndo i kanda ndolivha sibadela. Ndo  swika reception nda humbela uya u vhona mufumakadzi wanga. One thing i loved about these expensive private hospitals is that ahuna visiting time, ni sokouya ngau funa nadzula nga hune na funa. Ndo hwenya ndo fara ma plastic anga, ndo swika wardini ya Tshililo nda vula nda dzhena, ovha o edela fhedziha asongo fara khofhe

Me:"Vho-Mme Mudau" i said that and smiled. Ndovha ndi tshi zwidivha uri she kinda dumped me in the morning but sometimes you just have to act like you had memory loss and you don't remember the part were she dumped your A**.

Tshililo:"Aa" ndo mbo di vhea maplastic kha kutafula kwekwavha ku henefho ndaya khae nda mukhisa kha tshikuma

Me:"i had a loong day bbe, but ndovha ndo mutuvha uya divha"

Tshililo:"Thembu hu khou itea mini, you heard what i said in the morning"

Me:"uhm what happened in the morning? Seriously bbe, i kinda had a memory loss so u tou amba ngoho thitsha humbula wee, ndi khou humbula hezwila rodzula na mianga na khotsi anga" ndovha ndoima ndo peta zwanda khanani yanga ndo mulavhelesa, ndovha ndo koka na lukovhi nyana

Tshililo:'Thembuluwo thi khou ita zwau tamba nne"

Me:"na nne bbe, so ho itea mini?" ndoralo ndi tshi khou putulela ma plastic haala, ndobvisa zwiliwa zwa Nandos ndada nazwo mmbeteni wa Tshili

Tshili:"ndo muvhudza uri thi tsha mutoda vhutshiloni hanga"

Me:"owww o zwi amba?" hahahaha i was loving this, there was no way in this hospital that i was giving up on my wife, iyohhh she was allowed to be angry though but i would keep playing it like this so that i don't lose my cool and we start arguing again

Tshililo:"why are you doing this?"

Me:"u khou amba u tolela mufumakadzi wanga nau mudisela zwiliwa?" i said that with a huge grin on my face, Tshililo was not smiling at all, infact she looked a bit annoyed, but i was fine with it, as long as a sathu mpandela

Tshililo:"o mmbaisa Thembuluwo, ndotoda u loser nwana washu nga nthani ha ene and you are just gonna waltz in here with a brown bag of Nandos and expect all to be well?"

Me:"owk thi khou zwilavhelela hezwo Tshili, but ndia mufuna ai, and thivhoni uri ene u khou lavhelela uri nne ndidzulele kule na ene musi a sibadela, no ways"

Tshili:but.."

Me:"asongo twa a khou talutshedza, ndia zwidivha uri o kwata nga maanda and you are allowed to, i messed up big time and believe me ndo guda"

Tshili:"utshe o ambara zwiambaro zwa mulovha ene?"

Me:"ahhh well yeah that’s how messed up i am bbe, ndi khotou balelwa nau dzhena shawarani, eishhhh Tshili you have that effect on me bbe" i said that and laughed, and i saw a smile escaping her lips

Me:"yeeeeeey a smile" ndoralo ndi tshi khou imisa zwanda sa nwana u vhudzwa upfi udo rengelwa malegere

Tshili:"when i get discharged ndido tuwa hayani na mme awe and ene udo kona u wana tshikhala tshauvha the Venda  charmer Boy"

Me:"ahhhh Tshililo washu"

Tshililo:"this is not up for discussion" ori uralo a kokodza zwiliwa a thoma ula

Me:"why a tshi funa u mmbaisa ngaurali mara?" o mbo di ntsedza nga heliya lito, ee ndi khou amba lenelia

Tshili:"really? Is that coming from you?"

Me:"babe rina muta zwino you can't just up and leave whenever S***t start hitting the damn fan"

Tshili:"mhm this tastes good, thanks for the food"

Me:"Tshililo washu don't do this to me"

Tshili:"you did it yourself" Hovha na muthu we a khokhonya, nne na Tshililo rothe ro mbo di sedza munangoni, Dokotela o mbo di dzhena

Doc:"evening mr and mrs Mudau"

Me:"hey Doc"

Tshili:"evening Doctor"

Doc:"this is great timing because i wanted to know if you would love to see your boy?"

Me:"what kind of a question is that? Of course we wanna see him" ndovha ndo takala lunwe ndi si tsha kona nau tokomelwa

Doc:"Mrs Mudau are you good to walk or you gonna use a wheel chair?"

Tshili:"Wheel chair please, and please just call me Tshili" nne ndo mbo di muzondolola, smile tshothe tshotuwa

Me:"u khou lingedza nga ndila dzothe u ntuwisela mutakalo neh?"

Tshili:"its not like i will be a mrs for long mus"

Me:"mtzm" Dokotela o mbodi swika na Wheel chair, ndothusa Tshililo utsa ntha ha mmbete, ndoda sibadela ndo divhudza usa dinalea but Tshililo was seriously pushing it. Ori ono dzula nda muphusha ndosala dokotela nga murahu. Ro  swika hunwe he havha huna zwibete zwavhana, ro fhiruludza ra wana hunwe hehavha huna kwana kutuku-tuku henefho, ovha a nga ngomu kha tshinwe tshithu tshino vhonadza, ovha o tou lerisiwa fhedzi, wooow the baby looked adorable

Doc:"meet your son" ndo mbo di litshedza wheelchair nda sendela tsini zwavhudi, Tshililo na ene o mbo di takuwa kha whelchair, nne na Tshililo rovha ro sokou lavhelesa ritshinga vhathu vho chokeaho nyana, thoho dzashu dzovha dzi tshi khou kudana nyana, ndo mbo di sedza Tshililo ngau tou mutswa and the smile on her face was priceless and it was at that moment that i told myself uri ndido ita zwothe nga nungo dzanga u takadza Tshililo hafhu nauvha mubebi vhukuma kha dukana langa

Me:"woooow, Thembuluwo Junior Mudau" my voice was almost a whisper

Tshili:"Thembuluwo Junior Mudau" she repeated what i said, i could hear the happiness in her voice

Me:"the product of our love bbe, ndi khou mufulufhedzisa nga nwana washu o edelaho hafha, lwanga ludo dzula lu khou duga kha ene Tshililo, kha kwate kana a ntale or do whatever zwine zwado mutakadza but you are the one for me, hodzula ene na Junior hafha mbiluni yanga.....thank you, for such a wonderful gift......a baby boy" mutodzi wo mbo di rotha nga lito lithihi, ndovha ndi tshi khou thoma u zwipfa uri zwauri ndi mubebi wa munwe muthu azwi tshavha joke. Ndopfa uri ndi zwa vhukuma and ndi khou tea u thoma uvha responsible kha zwithu zwine ndadi dzhenisa khazwo. Ndo mbo di fara Tshililo nga tshanda, o mbo di tshisuvhisa, ndo mulavhelesa and she was looking right at the baby

Me:"ndi mufuna naho o kwata"

And again she ignored me....hahahah you gotta love women, hafhu vhaya andana nau luvheledzwa, hafhu Tshililo ovha a tshi mpfuna but i don't know why she was doing this to me, she probably wanted me to sweat a bit. i dont know why but being here with our child zwo mbo di tou ita uri ndi tou mufunesa, naho o nkwatela ndovha ndi khou sokou musedza ndapfa ndi tshi khou swa ndi tshi khou nyengelela. You know you are really inlove musi ni tshi khou dala nga mufumakadzi wanu o ambara helia lirokho la sibadela na mavhudzi o thamalala. Thi divhi uri nne na Tshililo ringavha ro dzula afho lwa tshifhinga tshingafhani, rovha ri tshi khou ita ritshi amba nakwo junior, even though Tshililo was not talking to me, she was happy to see the baby. Dokotela o mbo diri zwo edana saizwi duvha lovha lo no kovhela. Hovha huvho 8 ya madekwana. Nne na Tshililo ro humela wardini yawe

Me:"bbe o zwivhona uri ula nwana u fana na nne?" Tshililo smiled

Tshili:"houla nwana o naka u tounga nne ai"

Me:"bbe kha tende mulandu ai KuThembu kufana na daddy" she smiled again, o mbo di gonya ntha ha mmbete, phone yanga yo mbo di lila

Me:"hello"

Jay:"V Boy, S***t is about to go down, the F****in cops are on our case, they are digging bro, they are searching my damn pozi as we speak, others are at Javas and Gerrit, i think they will also come for Sticks and possibly you and X"

Me:"what?" ndoralo ndo hwala tshanda tshithihi ntha ha thoho

Jay:"i think some lunatic is on our a*s bro, someone want us behind bars...you don't have lot of cash lying around do you?"

Me:"uhm..."i was trying to think fast

Jay:"any guns? Any coke? Boy you need to get rid of anything that can be incrimating and act cool when the cops come to your house ok?" ndovha ndi khou tetemela blind

Me:"uhm ok, i will call Xolani right away"

Jay:"do that, please keep everything incriminating away, you do have a business mus to justify your levish life style?"

Me:"yeah i do"

Jay:"alles reg dan"

Me:'sure" i dropped the call and looked at Tshililo

Tshili:"what now?"

Me:"i have to go"

Tshili:"and here i was thinking that maybe...just maybe we can make this work....is Sharon kidnapped again?"

Me:"no, maxata bbe, they are coming for us"

Tshili:"what?" in just a split second mato awe o mbodi dala zwikamba

Me:"yeah i have to go"

Tshili:"bbe please you can't go to jail"

Me:"exactly i have to go, ndi khou tea u lugisa zwinwe" ndo mbo di ya khae ndaswika nda mukhisa like it was the last time

Me:"whatever happened, u zwothe kha nne and i love you"

Tshili:"be safe and i love you too" she shouted as i was walking out the door

Zwi a Penga - Insert 109

Ndo bva sibadela ndi tshi khou gidima nga luvhilo luno fhira na lwa ndadzi. Ndoswika nda dzhena kha benz nda i starter, ndo ri ndi nga ngomu nda founela Xolani, phone yawe yo sokou lila isa fariwi, i tried him again asa fare. Ndo droper nda reverser goloi ndadzhena badani, ndo mbo di lingedza ya Sihle

Sihle:"hello"

Me:"hi Sihle can you please give Xolani the phone please"

Sihle:"uhm"

Me:"Sihle this is Serious, i need Xolani on the phone now"

Sihle:"he...he is not here"

Me:"what do you mean he is not there?"

Sihle:"well he left, i tried to get him to calm down but he was just too angry and he stormed out"

Me:"F********k" ndo tavha mukosi ngauralo ndoima robothoni, vhathu vhevha vha vha kha goloi dzedzavha dzi tsini anga vho ntsedza vha dzungudza dzi thoho,

Me:"WHAT? haven't you seen an angry person before?" ndo tavha mukosi ngauralo ndo tolela nga fasitere, makhuwa a vhathu o sokou sedza thungo, ndi sure uri nga mbilu hovha hu khou sokoupfi vhana vha midini irena tshelede vhadina lunyadzo. Robort dzo ri u vula ndai kanda nne benz yafhufha. Ndovha ndi tshi khou thoma u vhilaela nga Xolani, hune avha hone ovha ana tshigidi and there was obviously another one somewhere in his room and nne thidivhi uri tshingavha tshi kha mini. I was not worried about his town house ngauri una safe and i doubt that vhado i wana. Ndovha ndisina na vhutanzi uri Xolani una tshitoko tsha dzi drug rumuni naa eish and obviously ovha ana tshelede nnzhi-nnzhi somewhere, thoho yanga yovha i tshi khou mona. Ndovha ndi tshi khou lingedza u humbula ngau tavhanya, goloi ndovha ndoi kanda zwa serious, ndo mbo di swika nduni husi kale-kale, ndowana mukala vha tshi khou vhona bola kha supersport, my mom was not there, she was probably still angry with  my dad.

Me:"baba"

Dad:"iwe mulandu wobva utshiri u khouya ha Xolani u si tsha dovha wavhuya?"

Me:"eish baba, ndo mbo di ya sibadela u vhona Tshililo, mma vhagai?"

Dad:"vho edela"

Me:"vhovha vho bika?"

Dad:"ee na zwino huna zwiliwa zwau zwosalaho"

Me:'owk, ndi khou vhuya" ndo mbo di gidima ndaya kamarani yanga, ndoswika ndabvisa zwigidi zwothe zwendavha ndinazwo, ndo zwi panga kha safe ye yavha i rumuni ya KuThembu, oww yeah ndovha ndina safe henengei ngauri it was the safest place in the house, mapholisa vhangasi hudzhie serious ngauralo. Ndovha ndina inwe kamarani yendavha nditshi panga khayo dzi bammbiri dza business, fhedziha zwithu hezwi zwino dzhenisa khakhathini na dzi tshelede dzi vheiwa rumuni ya nwana. Ndo ri ndi tshi dzhena ndapfa ndi tshi delwa nga mutakalo, finally KuThembu ku khouda u edela rumuni yako husikale. Ndo swika ndavhea zwigidi zwanga henengei, ndobva ngau gidima ndaya ndadzhia tshinwe tshetshavha tshi kitchen

Dad:'Thembuluwo mulandu u tshinga muthu o tshuwaho naa? And u khou gidima-gidima mini?"

Me:"ahuna baba"

Dad:"hei aredi" ndoswika kitchen ndavula kha cupboard ndabvisa tshigidi tshetshavha tsho dzumbiwa kha ku safe kure henefho, kovha kuna combination ino divhiwa nga nne na Tshililo fhedzi, ndotshi dzumba kha khundu ndahwenya nda yela rumuni ya KuThembu, ndoswika nda tshipanga henengei ndavala safe heila. Ndo dzula nyana nda femuluwa, so my house was good to go but can i say the same nga Xolani, ndo dialer phone yawe ndodzula fhasi henefho and he didn't pick up, i tried him again and he picked up on the 4th ring

Me:'Xolani where are you?"

X:"ungubani?"

Me:"Xolani its me, Thembu"

X:"owwwww my haaaalf brootheer nehh" dammit, Xolani was drunk,

Me:"Xolani where are you, amaxata mfowethu"

X:"what? Ahhhhh aaa....maaaa....xa.....ta" o mbo di devha lifhere lihulu nga murahu ha hezwo, ndofara tshikuma tshanga ndofhelelwa na nga nungo dzothe, dammit

Me:'where are you Xolani?"

X:"i...aam...nooot sure....uhm what’s....theeeee naame of this place again?"  ndo femela ntha ndi tshi khotou zwipfa uri u amba na Xolani ndi u difhedzela tshifhinga

Me:"owk, where is your gun and your stock and the money? I need to hide them"

X:"theee money? What money" ndo mbo di droper phone ndi tshi khotou zwipfa uri u amba na Xolani a zwi nga nthusi. Ndo mbo di founela Sihle

Sihle:'did you find him?" 

Me:"yeah but he is at some bar drunk, uhm i need you to do something for me"

Sihle:"owk"

Me:"go over Xolani's things please, look for a gun, drugs and stacks of money please, take them to your room if you find them"

Sihle:"woahh woah woah hold your horses, you can't really be serious right now Thembu, are you saying that Xolani has drugs? So you guys are on drugs?"

Me:"damn Sihle what do you take us for, we don't use them we sell them man, Sihle there is no time the cops are coming"

Sihle:"what do you mean the cops are coming?"

Me:'the police are searching our places and they might come for Xolani's room so please just look for the stuff"

Sihle:'huh uh...i ...icant"

Me:"Sihle of course you can...please listen to me.....Xolani will go to jail for many years if the police can find that stuff in his room"

Sihle:'why can't you ask him to come back"

Me:"he is wasted, he don't even remember my voice"

Sihle:"eish Thembu"

Me:"please Sihle i woudn't be asking if it wasn't the matter of life and death"

Sihle:'but you are coming right?"

Me:"yeah i am on my way"

Sihle:"owk" ndo mbo di droper phone ndayela kha khotsi anga. Ndo wana na mianga vho vuwa

Me:'mma"

Mma:"uhani Xolani?"

Me:'not good at all mma, ndi khou thoma nda humela, ndi khou vhuya zwino-zwino"

Mma:"vhathu Thembuluwo hafhu novhuya zwenezwino vhoo?"

Me:"ee mmawe but Xolani o founa uri u khou ntoda, ndi khou vhuya zwino-zwino" thi ngo lindela vha tshi fhindula, ndo mbo di gidima ndabvela nnda ndadzhena goloini. Ndo ri ndi tshi tou dzhena founu yanga ya mbo di lila, hovha hu Tshililo

Me:"hello"

Tshili:"bbe uhani?"

Me:"ndi right bbe, ndo dzumba zwothe zwine zwa nga npfarisisa but now ndi khou tea uya ha Xolani ngauri Xolani o kangwa hatsha divha tshithu eish"

Tshili:"Xolani o kangwa?"

Me:"bbe its a long story, ndi dotou mutalutshedza zwavhudi but Xolani ndi nwana wa khotsi anga"

Tshili:"mini?"

Me:"yahh bbe rido amba thi?"

Tshili:"owk avhe careful vhathu please"

Me:"owk madam so are we good?"

Tshili:"of course not, just because i dumped you doesn't mean that i want you to end up in jail....so i am just doing what any human being with a heart can do" ndo mbo di sea

Me:"owk mia Thembu"

Tshili:"owk khotsi a Thembu" ndo mbo di dropper phone.

Ndo starter goloi nda driver ndolivha tshikoloni, u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndoneta nne, Tsha mulovha ndi tshi khou tsa ndi tshi gonya, mato haya ovha a tshi khou lemela. Ndo swika tshikoloni nda paka goloi, ndo mbo di founela Sihle, ovha a tshe rumuni ya Xolani, ndo swika henengei ndawana o dzula ntha ha mmbete

Me:"have you found anything?" o mbo di sumba hafhala zwiambaroni zwa Xolani, ndoya ndatolela ndawana huna tshigidi, ndo mbo diya nda tshidoba

Sihle:'sorry but i couldn't touch it"

Me:"its fine i understand, did you find anything else?"

Sihle:"there" she pointed at the drawer, hovha huna coke henefho, ndo fhedza henefho nda guduba tshelede, ndo mbo di wana bege ya tshelede, ndo zwidzhia zwothe ndaya munangoni

Me:"let’s go put these in your room"

Sihle:"what?"

Me:"yeah i mean why would they search your room?"

Sihle:"i dont stay alone"

Me:"i know but we are just putting these things there temporarily"

Sihle:"what if the polce come to my room?"

Me:"they wont"

Sihle:"but what if they do"

Me:"i will take the fall ok?"

Sihle:"owk, but i don't like this"

Me:"i know and i am sorry" ro mbo di tuwa raya rumuni ya Sihle, ndovha ndovhea tshigini na dzi drugs kha bege yeyavha ina tshelede, ndo zwi nea Sihle nne ndatuwa. U tou amba ngoho ndovha ndoneta, muvhili wovha usitsha tenda na luthihi, ndo driver ndo livha nduni yanga. Ndo swika nda wana goloi ya Xolani yo paka nnda, at least he was safe, ndovha ndi tshi khou divhudzisa uri naa o driver hani sa izwi ovha o kangwa tshothe. Ndo swika ndatsa nda dzhena nduni. Xolani ovha o tou ima nga milenzhe, mianga na khotsi anga vhovha vho dzula fhasi, ori u mmbona a pepeleka a tshida kha nne

X:"heeeeeey half brother, so i...i...was talking to...utataaaaa neh" thi ngo amba tshithu nae, ndo mbo di musetsha zwikwamani ndabvisa key dza goloi

Mma:"nne ndovha ndi khouri novha noya ha Xolani inwi?"

Me:"ndo fhambana nae ndilani ndovha ndoya u mudzhia sa izwi ndovha ndi sa khou toda a tshi driver onwa" i was such a liar these days. Ndofara key dza Xolani ndabva ndo livha munangoni

X:"uya ndishiya nawe?"

o amba nga voice ya muthu o kangwaho but are vhutunguni, ndo rembuluwa nda musedza and just went out, i was too tired to deal with the drunk Xolani. Ndo swika henengei nne nda khiulula goloi, ndosetsha nda wana huna tshigidi tshithihi, ndo mbo di tshidzhia ndatshivhea khunduni, ndoswika nduni nda fhiruludza ndisongo amba na muthu ndaya ndatshi vhea kha safe. After that ndo mbo di femuluwa, i was now ready for the damn police woahhh. Ndo mbo di tsela ngei sitting room he vhathu vha vha vhodzula hone, ndoswika ndaya kitchen, i was soooo hungry, ndovha ndi sa thu la ubva tshe duvha latsha.

M:"X can i fix you something to eat?"

X:"nahhhhh i just came here to ask your old man why he left us.....so daddy of the...the century, w...what happened?" ovha a khou amba nga ndila heila yau nengisa lunwe ya muthu o kangwaho, ovha o ima phanda ha khotsi anga a tshi khou vhasumba nga minwe a tshi khou balelwa nau ima zwavhudi

Dad:"since when did you become a drunk Xolani huh, since when?" o mbo di sea tshisea tshaupfa vhutungu, huna hetshila tshiseo tshine kanzhi muthu u tshi sea a tshi khou lila, yeahh o mbo di sea tshenetsho

X:"you really wanna know? Well since daddy left us.....since daddy abandoned us and boooom he  magically appeared as my best friend's daddy"

Mma:"Xolani sit dowm my child, khadzule thiri?"

X:"mama i am sorry, ndifun ukwazi ukuba why? What did we ever do to him? Ro vha itani baba?" owww so Xolani ovha asathu hangwa Tshivenda nyana tshea guda a venda

Dad:"i think you need to sleep we’re gonna talk tomorrow owk?" nne ndofhedza uita zwiliwa zwanga ndaya ndadzula fhasi, ndovhea zwiliwa kha tafula ndaya ndafara Xolani

Me:"Xolani just leave him owk? He is not worth it"

X:"yo know...i..i don't need this man in my life"

Me:"yeah you don't", ndo fara Xolani nda mudzudza fhasi

X:"my head is spinning joe, i hate your dad" the last part was more of a whisper, ndopfa zwi tshi khou mmbavha u vhona Xolani anga hei ndilani, Xolani was a guy who had control over his life and to see him like this was way too painful to watch, suddenly ndo mbo di pfa ndo kwatela khotsi anga. Ndo ri ufhedza u vhea Xolani kha sofa nda ya he khotsi anga vhavha vhodzula hone

Me:"vhone neh" ndoralo ndo vha sumba nga munwe "thi divhi uri ndivha vhudze uri mini, ndia kholwa zwi vhafha mutakalo musi vhatshi vhona Xolani anga hei ndila, i guess it makes you happy, vha khou vhuya vhavhona uri vhoitani naa? Xolani asi tshidakwa na luthihi, mara vhone vha tounga tonado kha matshilo ashu, this is what you turn us into" ndo ralo nda sumba Xolani "monsters....ro shanduka mavhanda nga ndavha yavho, we are living the bad life nga ndavha yavho, ndi khou thoma u humbulo luvhili na luraru ngau vha tendela vhatshivha vhutshiloni ha nwananga"

Mma:'THEMBULUWO" my mom shouted

Me:"hai mmawe somebody is gonna have to tell him this s***t, ndo diimisela uri thinga do vhuya ndanga vhone na luthihi, i will love and support my son hezwi zwavho zwa-" khotsi anga vhombodi takuwa nga luthihi fhedzi vha ntshatedza nga mulatela muhulu nga maanda, ndo fara lutaha ndo mangala, munna havha vho vha vha na tshivhindi shem

Me:"really? Are we back to that now?" i was looking at him straight in the eyes

Dad:"ndi khotsi anu Thembuluwo, yes i am not perfect fhedziha nitea u nthonifha" vho amba ngauralo vhompfara nga mukulo wa tshikhipha, ndo mbo di vhafara khola dza hemmbe na nne

Me:"thi tshavha nwana nne baba, and arali vha khou toda u thonifhiwa nga nne vha do tea u litshedza mukulo wa tshikhipha tshanga ngauri..." i paused and took a deep breath "ngauri ndi do vha tshinyadza nne" ndo amba ngauralo ndo luma mano

Mma:"naa ndi mini naa hey, ndi khakhathi dza mini afha mudini ngoho, Thembuluwo vhalitsheni mani inwi, its not worth it" ndo litshedza khotsi anga na vhone vha nnditsha

Me:'minwaha yau rwana yofhela hafha mudini, avhatshado dovha vha nndonga tshanda nne, ndi amba kana u longa mianga tshanda, na vhone mmawe vhalitshe hezwi zwaunga nazwino baba ndi phukha"

Mma:"THEMBU!" my mom shouted again, mianga vhovha vha tshi ofha khotsi anga and hezwo zwovha zwi tshi nana u nkwatisa ngauri ndovha ndi tshi divha uri zwi khou itwa ngani, khotsi anga vhombo di dovha vhasendela tsini hanga

Dad:"ni khou nngwadzhisa Thembuluwo, ni khou gwadzhisa nne naa? Ni khou itiswa nga vhutzhelede hovhu thiri? Nne thitshavha tshithu" vho lingedza u mposa nga feisi ndai gavha

Me:"baba please thi khou toda ulwa na vhone nne" ndo amba ngauralo nditshe ndofara tshanda tshavho. my voice was a whisper, DAMMIT, I HATED WHAT I HAD BECOME, A COPY OF MY DAMN FATHER. i realised at that moment that i had allowed him to make me like him, i had allowed him to make me violent, i had allowed him to make me what he was, A DAMN MONSTER. i looked at my mom who was sitting with tears on her face and the pain was written all over her face. I looked at Xolani and he had passed out, i was kinnda glad that at least o awela

Dad:"inwi mutukana thi"

Me:"thi fani na vhone and i refuse to be the monster that you are" ndo vha litshedza tshanda nda vhasia vhoima henefho, ndoya kha mianga

Me:"mmawe sorry"

Mma:"my worst fear has just come true and ndi khou tea u zwitanganedza, and ndi blamer nne mune, i should have protected you, ni fana navho nwananga, you are just like him"

My mom whispered the last part and broke down into tears, hearing my mother saying that i was like my abusive dad cut deep, ndopfa mbilu yanga i tshi kherukana, i hated the way my dad was during the years, to think that i might be like him, zwo mmbaisa. Ndo takuwa nda tshimbila ndo livha munangoni, ndovha ndisina vhutanzi uri ndi khouyafhi, fhedziha i just wanted to leave, ndori ndi tshi vula vothi ndawana huna pholisa lelavha litshinga li khou toda u khokhonya, ndo lavhelesa ndawana huna mapholisa o vhalaho nga maanda

Police:"we are looking for Mr Themburuwo Mudau"

Me:"it’s Thembuluwo not Themburuwo"

Police:'uhm sorry about that, are you Mr Mudau?"

Me:"yes"

Zwi a Penga - Insert 110

Police:"i am Detective Munro and here with me is my team, and we have a search warrant for your premises"

Me:"ahhhh should i ask why?"

Police:"you are not gonna let us in?"

Me:"i asked you a question" this was not looking good at all. Ndi do ri mini kha vhabebi vhanga mara ngoho huh? i mean what do i say to them? I had been lying too much these days its not even a joke

Police:"ow, we are suspecting that you are involved in some dealings" ndo vha lavhelesa sa muthu o dadaho

Me:"what dealings? Car dealings? i am not involved in any car dealings" i was trying by all means to play it cool, that’s what Jay said i should do

Police:"that’s not what we are talking about"

Me:"owww so what dealings then?" Pholisa lo mbo di femela ntha lo ntsedza straight matoni as if guaging my reaction but i didn't give anything away, thingo vhuya nda poidza na luthihi, you gotta be brave in this game in order to make it

Police:'drug dealing and some illegal criminal activities, i mean you are only 20 years old and-"

Me:"i am turning 21 next month"

Police:"it doesn't really make a difference, i mean at your age you are driving a benz, has a double storey town house and has money to throw around......it doesn't make sense" ndo bonya mato, nda bonyolowa

Me:"come on in" vho mbo di dzhena nga ngomu, ndopfa uri zwine nda khou toda u amba ndi khou toda uri na vhabebi vhanga vhazwipfe

Me:"so i guess if i was a white boy at the same age and owning everything i own and more, i wouldn't be suspected of dealing drugs neh? Just because i am black, young and rich so i need to be a damn suspect? So much for a democratic South africa" oww yeah, this is the best thing about being black. When things start to get out of control and there is a white man involved, we always pull the race card, i don't know what they call it though emotional or racial blackmail? I dont know

Mma:"ndi dzi drug dza mini Thembuluwo?"

Dad:"ndo tou zwidivha, ndo tou zwidivha uri ahuna uri hoyu mutukana avhe onovha na lupfumo lungafha nga nwaha muthihi fhedzi"

Me:"vhathu mafhafhu fhasi, my business is very much legit i have papers to prove it, but since we are living in our so called democratic country where black people are meant to be poor and begging, the moment you work hard and become a bit rich then they start suspecting that you are a damn drug dealer.....search the house gentleman, i have nothing to hide and if you wanna see my business documents and my incomes, just let me know, i will put it all in front of you" ndovha ndi tshi khou amba ndina confidance nga maanda

Mma:"oww ni na vhutanzi uri aniho khazwo?"

Me:"mmawe kha vha nthembe" ma pholisa o mbo di rathela a dzhena a ralo u guduba

Me:"and please you must leave everything as you find it please" i shouted. Ndovha ndi na vhutanzi ho fhelelaho uri avhanga wani tshithu. Safe yeyavha i rumuni ya nwana yovha ikha luvhono and hovha ho itiwa ngadzi pennde dza mivhala ho drawiwa dzi drawings dzavhana so there was no way uri vha humbulele uri arali vha ndondomedza ngafhi hudo vulea nahone a hu vhonali uri ndi fhethu huno vulea

Me:"so detective, do you want some paperworks for my businesses?"

Detective:"not really, we are just looking for specific things at the moment, do you mind unlocking all your safes for us? Obviously you do have a safe somewhere"

Me:"follow me" mianga na khotsi anga vhosoko sala vho akhamala, zwovha zwi tshi touvha khagala uri vhana mbudziso nnzhi nga maanda kha nne. Ndo swika kamarani yanga ndavula safe, hovha huna dzi contracts vhukati hanga na Xolani dza uri o mpha ownership ya dzi business in exchange of me giving him certain percentage of my income.

Me:"there" dzavho Munro dzo mbo di dzungudza thoho

Munro:"you are trying to play dumb with me huh?"

Me:"what?"

Munro:"i know someone tipped you off already"

Me:"i do wish i knew what you are on about"

Munro:"i was not born yesterday boy"

Me:"owk"

Munro:"i will catch you.....and that’s a promise"

Me:"owk" i didn't want to act scared or anything of that sort, ndo mbo di dzhia dzi bammbiri na laptop ndatsa nazwo hangei fhasi, ndovha ndi khou toda u sumbedza vhabebi vhanga dzi bambiri dza business

Me:"ahhh detective there is another safe in the kitchen"

Muro:"i am sure there is nothing that’s why you want me to search it"

Me:"suite yourself" ndoya ndadzula fhasi, Xolani ovha o tou fara khofhe hedzila dza vhukuma Detective o mbo di nyamalala ayela bvungwi nga hangei, ndo teledza zwautwa ndi khou vhasala murahu ngauri hovha hutshi donga ndi khou dzumba zwinwe

Me:"Thembuluwo hu khou itea mini mara? Ambani ngoho aniho kha zwa zwidzidzivhadzi inwi?"

Me:"mmawe khavhade na baba vhavhone"

Dad:"ri khou vhoniswa mini?" khotsi anga dzovha dzitshe dzo dinalea, vho mbo disendela na mianga

Me:"hei ndi contract yanga na Xolani yauri u khou mpha ownership ya hedzi business"

Mma:"hezwi zwithu azwi tumani, Xolani unifha mabindu nga ndilade?"

Me:"mmawe thi vhone ndovha vhudza uri ndovha ndi khou shuma kha Xolani naa"

Mma:"Thembuluwo nori kha khotsi a Xolani inwi and khotsi a Xolani ndi havha vhodzulaho hafha" auch, now i had to think of some serious lies

Dad:"inwi ni khou amba uri aya mabindu othe ndia Xolani? Nahone una manwe nga nnda ha aya?"

Me:'ee"

Dad:"azwi pfali Xolani o dzi wana gai business" S***t ndovha ndi birimani nne zwino

Me:"vhathu khavha thetshelese" my mind was racing, ndovha ndi tshi khou lukekanya scenario ya khwine ine ndanga vhudza vhabebi vhanga

Mma:"Thembu arali no didzhenisa kha zwa vhugevhenga thi?"

Me:"mmawe ndi khou humbela uri vhamphe tshifhinga ndi talutshedze" mianga na khotsi anga vho mbo di mbvisela mato haala auri 'ambani ripfe'

Me:"uhm owk, Xolani oita loan banngani before nne ndi tshi tangana nae, he has paperworks to prove it. O thoma ngau renga restaurant, then a saver chelede a renga inwe restaurant, then construction company and then a renga dzinwe dzi business. Nne ndi tshi tangana nae ovha ana mabindu awe othe, roda ra farana nga maanda ravha vhangana vhahulu. Ho do swika he ravha na thaidzo heila hayani baba vhatshiri avha tsha do nyitela tshithu. Nne ndo founela Xolani nda mutalutshedza thaidzo yanga, oda he a nnekedza R100 000 ari khandi thuse hayani" zwothe zwenda amba yovha i ngoho, except for the fact that thingo amba zwadzi drugs

Dad:"anifha tshelede nngafho nga mahala?"

Me:"baba khavhari ndi fhedzise....so nne nda rengela mianga tshitentsi na zwithu nyana hayani. Ndi tshi vhuya hafha ndavha ndi khou shuma kha company ya Xolani heila ya construction ngadzi weekend, ndovha ndo diimisla tshothe ngauri ndovha ndi khou toda u mubadela R100 000 yawe, ubva hafho Xolani ari kha ndi manage inwe yadzi company dzawe, Hoda he Xolani a tangana na khombo a thuntshiwa"

Mma:"hai vhathu, hovha ho itea mini?"

Me:"ndi tshitori tshilapfu, fhedziha ori o dzidzivhala nne ndavha ndi tshi khou tshimbidza mabindu awe othe khathihi nau khuthadza miawe, ori a tshi vuwa kha khoma a vhona zwo tea uri a nndivhuwe nga ndila yenda thogomela zwithu zwawe ngayo, ndi hezwi a tshi nndivhuwa nga company yawe ya construction, nga ntha ha hezwo ari ndivhe ndi khou langa dzinwe company dzawe lune ndivha ndi khou hola nwedzi munwe na munwe" mianga na khotsi anga vhosedzana vhadovha hafhu vha nndavhelesa, ndovha ndi khou rabela uri vhasongo tsha vhudzisa dzinwe mbudzisa and ndovha ndi tshi khou fulufhela uri tshitori tshanga tshi convincing

Dad:"madukana anga ndi dzi millionair musi" khotsi anga vho amba ngauralo vha tshi khou sea nahone vhotakala, u tou amba ngoho ndovha ndisina nungo dza uvha bvisela mano nne

Mma:"mapholisa zwino?"

Me:"vha khotou nkhumbulela ngau vhona ndi mutuku and ndina tshelede, thi zwino afha Western Cape izwi zwa dzi drugs zwodala badi but zwiiteswa nga macoloured"

Mma:"owk"

Dad:"zwino khotsi anu ni do vharengela lini benz kana bmw nwananga?" like really? This old man can't be serious, less than 30 minutes ago vhovha vha tshi khou mposa nga mulatela and now he wanted a benz?

Me:"kha vha ambe na Xolani, maybe u do khathuwa mbilu a tshi vhona uri khotsi awe vha khou driver mini...." ok ndovhona u muhumbulo wa vhudi wa u rengela khotsi anga goloi fhedziha ndo vhona uri ndido thoma nda zwi discusser na Xolani, ndovha ndi sa khou toda unga ndi khotou ita nga khole ndi tshi khou toda u muvhaisa lini. Mapholisa o mbo di thoma u bvela nnda nga muthihi nga muthihi, Vho detective Munro vho mbo di da kharine

Munro:"thanks Mr Mudau"

Me:"found what you were looking for?"

Munro:"not really"

Me:"can't say i am surprised" ndo vha fhelekedza munangoni vhabva, ndoima ndavha lavhelesa vha tshi khou dzhena venini vhatuwa, ndodzhena nduni nda khia

Me:"nne ndi khouya u edela, ndoneta nga maanda lovha duvha lilapfu"

Mma:"awelani nwananga" ndo lingedza u vusa Xolani we avha a tshi khou soko lembuwa. Ndo tshimbila nae o ditika nga nne raya kamarani yanga, o swika a diposa ntha ha mmbete, ndo mu bvula jean na Tshikhipha. Ndovha ndi tshi khou toda uri a edele na nne uitela uri matshelo ndivuwe ndi mutalutshedza zwenda vhudza mianga na khotsi anga before vhatshi thoma u muvhudzisa dzimbudziso. Ndo mbo di dzhena shawarani nda tamba. Hovha hu kale nyana ndoguma u tou dzhena madini, ndofhedza u tamba nda ambara zwau edela. Ndo ri ndisathu fara khofhe nda founela Tshililo

Tshili:"hello bbe" i could sense the panic in her voice

Me:"nana"

Tshili:"zwo tshimbila hani?"

Me:"eish Tshili" ndo amba nga voice inonga ya muthu a no khou lila

Tshili:"don't tell me that u dzhele please, Thembuluwo you can't go to jail" and then a mbo di thoma u tswimila, i laughed out load

Me:"that was a prank" i said that laughing

Tshili:'uya divha ene hadivhi na zwithu zwino tambiwa ngazwo ngoho"

Me:"sorry, ndia zwidivha uri ene anga nga asa lovha arali nda farwa but i promise ahuna uri zwiiteye hezwo zwithu"

Tshili:"zwo tshimbila hani?"

Me:"ndovha ndo dzumba zwothe kha safe heila ire rumuni ya nwana, so thivhoni vha tshi doya ha Xolani lini, i mean vhatovha na vhutanzi uri ono vhudziwa kale na zwauri Xolani u ngeno and vhaya avhanga muwani"

Tshili:"ndi a mufuna and ndo mutuvha and i don't wanna lose you"

Me:"you won't lose me bbe, so we are good?"

Tshili:"i don't know" her voice was sad

Me:"ndidoda matshelo na family neh, i love you"

Tshili:"i love you too"

Me:"night"

Tshili:"night" i dropped the call. Ndo mbo di farwa nga khofhe na zwenezwo