Zwi a Penga (English version) 81-the end

Zwi a Penga
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So we all flew back to OR Tambo and then drove to Venda. We got there and explained to Xolani everything that went down. Our parents were concerned when they saw Bonita without the baby. We couldn’t really explain what was going on so we just told them that the baby was with Bee’s parents and he was fine. They didn’t buy it, they demanded more info but we were not prepared to tell them anything else. Ndivhuwo left for George again…yep he said he wanted to work on finding out more about Svig’s dad and plan on how we were going to handle him.

So Bonita was sharing a bedroom with me…mind you, I didn’t invite her to stay in my room, she invited herself so I let her be because I didn’t wanna chase her out to my sister’s bedroom. She wanted to have sex with me and I couldn’t give it to her. Yeah I felt bad man…like I’d be betraying Tshililo again…Bee was the woman that Tshili hated so I couldn’t even touch her.

The following day Elelwani called me saying that she was back home in Venda for her uncles funeral. Lucky me, she didn’t stay too far away from my place…her place was about an hour drive. So I went to see her in the afternoon and she was happy. I could see something building up between us and I was loving it. Maybe with her it would be different. Maybe I’d be able to do things with her because I was battling to do anything with other women. After sometime I drove back home, I couldn’t stay long because she had to be helping out at the funeral.

I was sitting outside alone when my phone rang. It was Ndivhuwo. He told me that he had something to share and that I should put the phone on speaker with Xolani around. I called Xolani to come and then I put the phone on speaker.
X:” so what’s happening?” Ndivhuwo breathed loudly
Ndiv:”after a whole lot of digging, I finally found the whereabouts of the old man or where he was staying because he is obviously not there right now. He was staying in one of the villages in Kenya….he had a new identity and was living a new life”
X:”that sound chilled to me”
Ndiv:”nah it’s not….it turns out that he was dealing drugs that side…he is very well known and he has connections….he goes by the name Diesel….well I don’t know why they call him that but that’s his street name and then…..” he breathed…okay this was serious
Me:” and then?”
Ndiv:” I was checking through different cctv’s that I managed to hack in Kenya when I saw him with someone”
X:” does that someone has a name?”
Ndiv:” I don’t know guys but I saw someone that looked like Tshililo…I think it’s her”

Ding!!!!!!!! That’s how fast I went blank, like literally lost every sense of my brain and for few seconds I was none existing. After few seconds I came back to life and put together what he said but the possibility was far reaching, it wasn’t possible at all
X:”Thembu! Thembu! Thembuluwo?”
Me:”huh” I woke up from my slumber or whatever predicament was going on in my head, my eyes were suddenly teary
Me:” so she is alive somewhere? Is that what you are saying?”
Ndiv:”Thembuluwo don’t raise your hopes high or anything, maybe I am just as delusional as you were when we were in Rio…please don’t think too much about it until I do more research about it. I am going to Kenya, I know where he was staying  and maybe I can meet the woman I saw and then we will know for sure if it’s her”
Me:” I am coming with you” that didn’t require any thinking, I knew for sure that I had to go with him, if there was any chance that my wife could be alive then I had to go there and find her
Ndiv:” no Thembu, you’ll lose it and the last thing we need is for Diesel to find out what we are up to ok?” I couldn’t handle it, it was too much. I quickly ran to the house and then to my bedroom and locked myself inside and broke down. I still loved her, in fact I still wanted her…what if it was really her? Was it possible? But we buried her, she died.

Later on Xolani came to check up on me. Well I told him that I’ll be fine and that I didn’t want to be too hopeful just in case the whole thing was not true. He also told me that Ndivhuwo booked the next available flight to Nairobi Kenya. The flight was leaving in the evening.

We were chilling with the family watching TV in the evening. I took my phone and went on News24 reading some news. I felt like chocking when I came across a headline about a flight that went down when it was taking off. Several people died and more were injured…damn it…it was the same flight that Ndivhuwo was in. I panicked and told Xolani about the article. We didn’t waste any time…we told the family that we had to leave…they weren’t happy but we told them that Ndivhuwo had been in an accident. We didn’t fly because it was already late and we were going to get the fight the following day. We told Bee to take care of the family and to keep them safe while we were gone. I even went to Ele and said goodbye just before leaving and then we drove all the way to Cape Town.

We got there at about 4am. We checked for more info on news 24 regarding the crash. Of the 175 people that were on the flight…only 25 made it out alive…damn X and I started sweating. We found out which hospital the people were taken to and we drove to that hospital. It was after a couple of hours since the crash happened so they had already taken the survivors to the hospital. We tried calling Ndiv but his phone was off. We got to the hospital and asked about the survivors of the crash. We were directed to the office at which the list of the survivors was being kept. We got there and looked through the list and Ndivhuwo name wasn’t there…what the hell? I didn’t want to believe that he was gone…he can’t be gone. We then asked for where the corpses were being kept for those wanting to identify their family members. We were then directed into the room at which they were being kept…I had never seen so many dead bodies in my life…looking at them I even vomited...it was nauseating. So Xolani and I looked through all the bodies and Ndivhuwo wasn’t there…that could only mean that he was one of the few people who were not recognisable.

We knew when we couldn’t find him that he was dead. Yohh we broke down and cried. i mean we were still getting to know him as our brother and we just lost him so soon. After a lot of crying we drove back to my house. We were still in distress when Ndivhuwo walked into the house…nga vhanna!!! We were shocked and mostly we were excited. We asked him what happened and he told us that he was one of the survivors but he had to get out of there because he suspected that maybe someone was trying to get him killed so he couldn’t take that risk. We hugged and laughed in joy. Our first suspect was Diesel…I mean no body else would just pick up a fight with us…unless the accident was really an accident but that was rarely the case. Ndivhuwo was limping but other than that he was fine.

So we stayed in my house together. The following day we woke up and chilled in the lounge talking and laughing.
Ndiv:"uhm, I am thinking of going to Kenya tomorrow…this time around I will use a private jet"
Me:" is that a good idea though? I mean we don’t even know if Diesel was behind that crash and if he knew the truth about us…I mean if that old man has already figured out that we killed his son then he is coming for us. What if something happens to you again? We can’t afford to lose you or worse…what if he go for the whole family”
X:"I agree with Thembu, it’s not safe for you to leave now Ndivhuwo"
Ndiv:"uhm how about I show you the plan I have just in case Diesel attack when I am gone…that way you’ll know how to deal with him, i can’t stay here any longer i have to know the truth, i need to know if she is alive"
Me:"Ndivhuwo did you even hear what we said?"
Ndiv:" I heard you but Tshililo is also important okay? I have to find out if it was really her…you guys can pull this off I believe in you”
Me:"Ndivhuwo Tshililo was my damn wife and she is dead ok? It seems like you are forgetting the fact that you also had a hand in her death. Yeah if you didn’t show up in our lives and steal her away from me none of this would have happened, we would never have divorced and she’d still be alive so please you killed her and deal with that and stop running around looking for something that’s not there. You were there Ndivhuwo, you saw her…she is gone”
X:"Thembuluwo please don’t do this"
Ndiv :"really now? You wannna start lecturing me? I didn’t steal your wife, you drove her to me and maybe i was better at everything than you ever where"
Thembu:"Ndivhuwo that’s s***, you are talking s*** right now” I was pointing fingers at him
X:"damn it guys stop it!"
Ndiv:"well, talk to your brother over there before I destroy him…maybe I need to remind him that I am older than him”
Me:"ahg you’ll be walking around here as if you own the place…like you know every damn thing there is to know…f*** off” within a split seconds Ndivhuwo came to me and grabbed me by my neck and pinned me against the wall
 Ndiv:" this is you taking chances huh?” I was about to answer him when he punched me so hard on my face and I felt like I had lost all my teeth. I was still trying to make sense of what just happened when he pushed me and I fell
 X:"Ndivhuwo!" he yelled
Ndiv:" I will kill you the same way you killed my brother. You know that if we start talking about the past right now then you’ll go back to being my enemy and if that happens then you won’t see how today ends so pull yourself together and stop acting like a damn woman” he walked to the door
X:" so where are you going?"
Ndiv:"i am gonna call my ride, I am going to Kenya" he was pissed
X:"now?"
Ndiv:" yeah what am I sticking around for?"
X:"Ndivhuwo please you just had an accident and you are not really fine…you also still have to tell us the plan to destroy Diesel if he attacks us”
Ndiv:" talk to your brother over there to help you…I am out" he said that putting his hands up in defat and then walked to the door
Me:"Ndivhuwo this is not just about me, if Diesel attacks then our whole family will be destroyed...including your daughter” he looked at me and laughed a bit
Ndiv;"and you'll all be dead too...i can take my daughter with me. It’s funny how you are going on and on about how you wish you had never met me but if you didn’t then you’ll be long dead”
X:"Ndivhuwo washu!"
Ndiv:" I am leaving for Kenya…go to my house and you’ll find everything there…uhm Thembuluwo" he looked at me and I looked at him
Ndiv:" you now that I can be evil If I have to and killing you wouldn’t be so difficult but don’t make me do it ok? Don’t disrespect me like that, i am not saying you should bow down to me and agree with everything I say but i just don’t appreciate the disrespect and acting like you are just tolerating me because i can gladly exit your life...you should work on your s*** boy" he said that and walked out of the door
X:"Thembuluwo what’s your problem huh? He is your big brother” he said that walking towards me with his finger pointing at me
Me:" I am also your big brother so watch your damn mouth"
X:"bro if you want respect then you should at least act like a big brother not like a bitch" he vhathu!
Me:" what did you say?" I said walking to him
X:"ahg don’t try that s*** with me Thembu…you need to apologise to Ndivhuwo"
Me:" ow really?” I said that and grabbed him by his collar…I don’t know what was wrong with me…I was just so angry
X:"tsek let me go” he tried removing my hands from his collar but I held them tight. He then slapped me across the face and then we started fighting. After a bit of fighting we stopped and stood across each other
X:"you are dead to me...you are just a p****y man….Tshililo is dead and there is no need for you and Ndivhuwo to fight about her...let him go to Kenya if that’s what will give him closure but nooo you are so used to being everyone’s centre of attention and you don’t want other people to live their own lives…ahg grow up bruh” he said that and walked out of the door. He left me standing in the middle of the room with my hands on my head. What was wrong with me?

I was left alone in the house feeling super bored. I couldn’t believe that I fought with both my brothers…what was going on with me? Ele called and told me that the funeral was done and that she flew to George just to see me and that she was going to fly to PE later on because she had to go back to work tomorrow. so she came and we chilled. This girl knew everything about me so I decided to tell her about the fight I had with my brothers. She told me that I needed to apologise to both of them. She then asked me what will I do if Tshililo was really still alive. I told her that there was no need to answer that because obviously Tshililo was not coming back and as hard as it was to move on…I had to accept the truth because that’s what was good for me.

I was still chilling with Elelwani in my house when I heard gunshots and then a window breaking…dammit. She started screaming and crying and shaking in fear. I took out a gun and she screamed more. I told her that I had to protect us. I peeped through the window and shoot while I hide. The gunshots stopped and the car drove off. Elelwani was sitting in some corner crying hysterically...she was really afraid. I went to her and hugged her and then I sat with her in the lounge trying to calm her down. She wanted to leave, she told me that she couldn’t stay here anymore but I told her that this was the safest place for her to be and that out there it wasn’t safe.

I then called my brother Ndivhuwo
Ndiv:"you have 10 seconds to explain why I should continue talking to you” seriously i wanted to laugh, reason why? I missed him already
Me:" well i feel like laughing because I really miss you and i am just glad to hear your voice"
Ndiv:" is that all? because I am waiting for a valid reason”
Me:" someone came and shoot my house…they broke my windows…Ndivhuwo I am suspecting that maybe its Diesel”
Ndiv:"so? Why are you telling me? ain’t you confused perhaps?”
Me:"Ndivhuwo washu"
Ndiv:"your house your problem bro" he said that and hung up on me. I then called Xolani
X:" bruh awunyi perhaps? What do you want from me?" hevhanna!!!
Me:"Xolani we need to talk?"
X:" I have nothing to say to you…you are dead to me" and just like that, my Xhosa brother dropped the call....i was officially all alone on this.

So I was chilling with Ele who was going on and on about wanting to leave when someone opened the door. I quickly took my gun but it was X and Ndiv. Damn I smiled when I saw them walk in. I went to them and asked if I was forgiven and they didn’t say anything but they both just punched me on the face with Ele around…after that they told me that I was forgiven…like really. so I told them about the gunshots and what happened…we knew it was Diesel. So Ndivhuwo said that he knew where the old man was staying and that we were going there. I went to Ele and explained to her that things were about to get ugly and that she had to tag along because nowhere else was safe…the poor girl was really shaking. My brothers and I got our guns ready and walked out of the house. we were about to get in the car when my phone rang. It was Bonita
Me:" Bonita"
Bee:" he is here" i froze
Me:" how sure are you?"
Bee:" stop asking me silly questions and get your black asses here, i will try my best to protect the family but you guys need to come here" she hung up
Ndiv:"ok that look is not good"
X:"it can only mean one thing"
Me:" the bullets here were a distraction, Diesel is at home"
Ndiv:"hell noo"

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So we had to get home immediately. Ndivhuwo organised a Choppa for us to get home in a blink of an eye. So we drove to his house in the farm where we found the choppa waiting for us. We all got in immediately and it flew off. We were both worried. Ele was shaking in fear and she was also angry at me for the fact that she was going through all this. Xolani was worried about his pregnant wife Zoleka. So we got home after almost three hours. The choppa dropped us off at the school close to our house. We then climbed the fence and ran home. Ndivhuwo had organised for his guys to also be transported up here.

We got to the gate and we all just stood there looking at the house while breathing heavily. I guess we were both scared to find out what happened to the family.
Ndivhuwo:" please Lord let them be alive" he said still standing there
X:" f*** it i am so scared"
Me:" there is only one way to find out if they are in there or not" all the lights were off…that’s what was creepy
Ndiv:" let’s do this"
We all opened the gate and walked in. We got there and tried opening the door and to our surprise it was not locked. We all slowly walked in. Ndivhuwo switched on the light and the living room was messed up…the furnishers were upside down…dammit…we all quickly ran to the bedrooms and our worst fear had come to life…no one was there, they were all gone. Dammit we all fell down on our knees and screamed and cried…we lost the strength to do anything else…the kids and our parents and Zoli and Bonita…they were all gone

I had suffered in my life, been through some serious s***, been hurt in a most possible way...but not this....this was the grand mother of all pains....i felt like I was finally dying...the thought of someone torturing my son until he dies broke me completely, i lost all strength and all focus, I was just sitting on the floor not knowing what to do. Ele sat beside me and hugged me as I cry…my brothers were all crying too. This was our ultimate down fall...the end of us....the end of Vhadau.

So we all sat there for a while without any movement and that’s when Elelwani got up and told us to get a grip. She told us that maybe our family was still alive somewhere and instead of sitting there and cry feeling sorry for ourselves then maybe we should get out of there and try to find them. Well Xolani kinda attacked the girl for saying all that. I just sat there and said nothing; I still didn’t have the strength to say anything. Ndivhuwo then got up and said that he agree with the girl…we had to find them…dead or alive we had to get up and do something. We then started talking about the plan we could come up with in order to try and found them when someone walked in.

“molweni” we looked at the person standing at the door and it was the one and only…Diesel
Me:” this is him” I said looking at my brothers
X:”so it was you huh? You did all this?” he was really really pissed
Diesel:”beautiful house you have here, sorry for the mess though” he was smiling
Ndiv:”so you took our family and we are still here unkilled so what’s up? What do you want from us? If you didn’t want anything from us then we’d be dead” there was that word again…unkilled, had he said it somewhere in a different situation, I would have laughed out loud, but this was not a moment for that
Diesel:” I know you are not stupid…you are the clever one so yes you are right…I do need something from you guys and you are going to help me”
X:”like hell we will” he said walking to him with a gun on his hand
Diesel:”its not really open for negotiations, I have your kids, mom, dad, cats, dogs, cockroaches I mean I have everyone and if I die here today then you will never see them again….they will starve to death because I wont be there to feed them”
Me:”they are still alive?” he put his hands in the pockets
Diesel:”except for one though, she had to die for crossing me” he said signalling for us to look outside. We all ran outside
Diesel:”surprise surprise”
Me:”nooooo, noooooooo” we found Bonita’s body lying on the floor…damn it…she looked like she’d been tortured. I was not in love with her but she was my son’s mother and she didn’t deserve to die,not like this…she died trying to protect our family. I realised something at that moment, I had two sons and they both didn’t have mothers...as much as Bonita’s death was hard to swallow, we still had bigger problems to attend to
X:”you didn’t, where is everyone else?” he wanted to cry
Ndiv:”I get your point old man….so what do you want?”
Diesel:”lets leave that fot tomorrow and don’t even try look for them because you won’t find them and what I did to Bee is what happens to those who betray me….this could have been your families and then you guys but I realised something……I need you guys to set up something for me”
Ndiv: what the hell do you want from us? Just say it” he was losing his patience
Diesel:”I said tomorrow” he said walking away
X:”so how do we know that they are still alive?”
Diesel:” you won’t, it’s a chance you need to take” he walked away.
Ndiv:”f*** it” he threw his fist on the wall

So we had to deal with Bonita’s death. There was no time to cry…we had to get rid of her body fast. So we put her in a big bag and then put her in the boot of my dad’s car. We then drove away. Yeah we were all going to dispose of her body…we had to stick together…Elelwani was still shaking and crying…she kept asking us to call the police and about how wrong we were for doing what we were doing to Bonita’s body. She even asked if I could do the same to her…like I had time to answer her. So we drove to my dad’s little farm close to Luvuvhu river...it was far from the human settlement. We had the tools with us. We got there and dug a grave and then buried her ourselves. I felt bad for the fact that this was how I get to bury her…what was I going to tell our son? But then I had no choice…we couldn’t risk involving the police…how were we going to explain having her body in our house? We were all sad and nobody was saying anything. When we were done we drove back to the house in total silence…Ele was not crying anymore too…she was just awfully quiet.

It was somewhere around 3AM by the time we got back to the house. Xolani cleaned up Bonita’s blood while I put Ele to sleep. I had a little talk with my brothers before going to sleep. Ndivhuwo said that he was going to call one of his guys to start following around Diesel...that was the only way to find our family’s location. He said the guys will have to be careful though. After that little discussion I left them in the lounge and took some rest.

I think I only slept for an hour or so but I woke up early and started cleaning the house along with Xolani. Ndivhuwo was busy making phonecalls. Elelwani woke up and volunteered to cook some food for us. Well, yeah none of us was thinking about cooking, it was a good thing we had her. Ele was done cooking and we were sitting in the lounge eating when Diesel walked in.
Diesel:”Molweni…uhm don’t bother looking, it’s just me and him” he pushed our father to us. My dad looked bad…he was dirty and his clothes were torn
Diesel:”he will tell you all about what happened later but for now I want us to discuss the business” he took some eggs from my plate and ate
Diesel:”mhm delicious” he took more and ate
Diesel:”whoever prepared this food is a genius” he said looking at Ele…Elelwani couldn’t even look at him
Ndiv:”uhm I am guessing that you didn’t come here for breakfast right?”
Diesel:”true that but I just couldn’t help myself”
X:”you said you have a business proporsition”
Diesel:”if that’s what you wanna call it but I wanna call it an order….its not like you have a choice”
Me:”so what’s the order?”
Diesel:”I want to have what Svig had” he frowned…like he looked scary all of a sudden
X:” we are lost, Sivuyile had many things”
Diesel:”ok I want you to build back his empire to what it was….i want his territories back, his drug supplies, I want his team, the club, the respect he had…I want it all”
Ndiv:”and how do you suggest we do that sir?” he didn’t look happy
Diesel:”I have no f****ng idea, you brought it all down so I am pretty sure you can build it all back up”
X:”uhm Sir Diesel you do know th-“
Diesel:”I don’t give a damn how you go about it…..i want my son’s empire back and you guys will work for me, you will be my team and you will recruit more people to work for me…I am pretty sure someone has his territories already but I am counting on you lot to take it back….you must really be good to be able to bring my son down so yeah…..you’ve just been hired” he smiled
Ndiv:”if I am hearing you clearly….you want us to deal drugs? Put up a team to work for you…get you drug supplies and get your territories back and then we walk away?” Diesel laughed
Diesel:”walk away? Aninyi perhaps mfondini? Did my son walked away? He died in your hands so walk away my left ass…you’re gonna be my slaves for as long as I decide to keep you alive”
Ndiv:”now you are seriously insane old man”
Diesel:”I am giving you a day to think it through and just bare in mind that saying ‘no’ means that you’ll be saying goodbye to your whole family. I lost mine and don’t think for a second that I will hesitate to end them”
Me:”uhm wait a minute Sir, if we say yes….will you bring them back to us?”
Diesel:”you must think that I am really dumb huh? I will keep the two little kids and I will raise them myself in the country of my choosing…..having them with me will guarantee that you guys will stay loyal to me”
Ndiv:”whaaaaaat????? Are you insane? That’s my daughter we’re talking about” he was fuming
Diesel:”see? That will be enough motivation for you to be my slave” he said that and walked out of the door
Ndiv:”owww crap what the hell have we done?” he covered his face with his hands. He then took out his phone and told his guys to start following Diesel. They were not going to use one car…they were going to take turns following him. The guys also had some tracking device thingy so the guys just had to make sure that if Diesel stops anywhere for something then they should plant it on his car.

So my dad was pissed. He gave us a grief about the whole situation… he explained how the kids were traumatised and all that stuff. After a long time Ndivhuwo received a call from his guys saying that they got the location. We all wanted to go with him but he told us to all stay behind because he had enough man power to bring them home. We wanted to go with him but we decided not to fight him. Ndivhuwo drove away and left us waiting. Elelwani was cooking…yep she had to cook for everyone coming back home.

It was around 11 at night when we heard cars outside and we ran outside. Ndivhuwo got out of the car and so did our whole family…dammit I was so excited. Xolani and I laughed and ran to them for hugs. My mom was pissed and didn’t even want to talk to us…let alone hug us. Thendo my little brother was also pissed…like he went on and on about how we traumatised the kids and how he had lost all respect for us and all that s***, we couldn’t even talk back to him because we knew that this was all our fault. I hugged my sons and cried the tears of joy…damn they were finally safe.

After everyone had gone inside the house Xolani and I asked Ndivhuwo about Diesel…he told us that they killed him…well it was kinda unbelievable…that man had been a nightmare and we wanted to make sure that he was really dead…Ndivhuwo ensured us that we had nothing to worry about. So Ndivhuwo also told us that he was leaving for Kenya the following day. I didn’t try and fight him over that….i wished him goodluck instead. I mean our enemies were all gone now so we had nothing to worry about.

As much as I wanted to spend the night with my son…I couldn’t sleep in the house with Ele and my parents around...it would seem disrespectful so I drove out with her and book a Bnb instead. So we talked a bit…she wasn’t happy with everything that’s happened...infact she was scared. So we spent the night and had sex or should I say we made love. But here is the thing…that girl slept with me and then I poured my heart out to her and told her I loved her and that I wanted to be with her but she said nothing. When I asked her why, she said that she had nothing to say and she was not even sure if she wanted this relationship to happen. She said all that after sex…I felt used. So we agreed that I will leave her in the Bnb with some cash to get herself back to PE…she still had her bag in my house in George though. I the morning I had to go home to my family. I got home and wished Ndivhuwo good luck as he was leaving for Kenya. We didn’t tell the family about where Ndivhuwo was going…we just told them that he had some business to take care of

NDIVHUWO

So I finally boarded the flight to Kenya. With Diesel gone I had nothing to fear. I got to my destination after couple of hours. I got there and hired a car and then booked myself into a hotel. I had the GPS coordinates of the house where Tshililo was spotted. The following morning I drove to the house. The house was situated in some suburb…it was a big fancy three storey house. I took my gun and then drove inside…the gate was wide open. I rang the bell at the door and waited. I almost feinted when Tshililo came and opened the door for me…how the hell?
Me:”Tshililo” I said with my eyes near tears…she looked at me for a long time
Tshili:”uhm…I…ahhh”
Me:” you are alive?” s*** I was even shacking, I couldn’t believe it
Tshili:”Do I know you?” she said while looking behind her shoulder…she looked scared and I understood that, she was not expecting to see me so that explained the shock in her face
Me:”Tshililo it’s me okay?”
Tshili:”ok Ndivhuwo you will walk out of here and never come back do you hear me?” she whispered to me…yohh I felt a painful stab in my heart
Me:”what? Tshili I can help you”
Tshili:” you will die before you can do that and I don’t want you to die because of me Ndivhuwo”
Me:”Tshililo you know how far I can go for you”
Tshili:”ok now is not really a good time…come maybe around one…you should say that you are a client and you want to see Charlotte…..you should be driving a fancy car for that….then we will talk”
Me:”ok I am lost…client? What client…Tshililo you are not……” I lost my sense of thinking and wanted to take her and run but like she said….i could get killed so I had to obey
“Charlotte who is at the door?” a male voice yelled
Tshili:”a client, I told him to come back around one is that fine?”
“Yes that’s fine…now come back here”
Tshililo:” I miss you” her eyes were suddenly red
Me:” I will see you in the afternoon”
I turned around and walked away while rubbing my eyes with my hands. I got in the car and quickly drove away.

I got to my hotel room and sobbed. I couldn’t believe it….she was a sex worker…..they were making her a whore…..i couldn’t hold it together…..the thought of all the man touching and…and….and sleeping with her was enough to send me to my grave. So all this time we were sitting at home having some family time she was sleeping with strangers? They took her and they were using her for this? It was all too much for me to bare…I couldn’t deal with it. I thought of calling Xolani and Thembu but I didn’t want to worry them…I didn’t want to stress them or to give them hope before freeing her

So in the afternoon I went back to the house. I was welcomed by a big bodied man who asked me a hell lot of questions...i felt like I was in an interview. I then paid some cash and then was directed to a room I was going to use. I got there and waited for her. After about five minutes she walked in. I can’t even explain how I felt when I saw her. She locked the door and ran to me for a hug…dammit I carried her up and spun her around, I couldn’t help the tears…Tshililo was the only woman who had tha ability to make me cry.
Me:”it’s really you” I held her tight
Tshililo:” I can’t believe you are here either” she was crying. We broke the hug and I looked at her and damn it was really her, she looked beautiful with all the make up on. She was in some sexy lingerie
Me:”how long do we have?”
Tshililo:” I was told that you paid enough to keep me here for about three hours”
Me:”yah I paid a lot”
Tshililo:”Ndivhuwo I still can’t believe this…uhm how is my son? Thembu? How are they?” she said that and broke down again…I hugged her
Me:”they are safe…they are all fine Tshili, what happened? You died, we buried you so what really happened?” she broke the hug and sat on the bed
Tshililo:”I didn’t die Ndivhu...i was told that after being shot my life was hanging by a thread so Svig took care of me…he made sure I was well taken care of and I survived…he decided to take me out of the picture as a way to get back at you and Thembu for hanging around with you”
Me:”but at the funeral…”
Tshili:”yah that was me, I was much better by that time but I was still in pain, so they flew me down for the funeral, they had injected me with a drug so that I couldn’t move my body…so I couldn’t even blink but I could hear everything that was happening”
Me:”whaaat? So after the funeral they came for you?”
Tshili:”yep, they made sure I had enough medication in my system for me to last that long”
Me:” so you were able to breathe?” honestly I was confused over here
Tshili:”yep, I could breathe…it’s a miracle really. So after the funeral they dug out the casket and took me out and then I was taken back to Cape Town where a Doctor took care of me. When I was really fine then I was taken to this place…to entertain men”
Me:” I am so sorry, I am so sorry I didn’t do enough to save you”
Tshili:”you did your best Ndivhuwo”
Me:” I need to take you home”
Tshili:” I really wanna go home but the guys here are really dangerous...this place is owned by a man called Diesel…you don’t want to mess with him”
Me:” well I kinda killed him”
Tshili:”mhm?”
Me:”yeah he wanted revenge from us, he is Svig’s dad” she looked surprised
Tshili:”so you took him out?” I smiled
Me:”I did”
Tshili:”I know you are worried and you are blaming yourself for all this but please don’t do it” she could see through me
Me:” it’s just that the thought of you and other men…..i can’t bare it” I was near tears, it hurt
Tshili:” well that’s my life, I don’t go anywhere or do anything Ndivhuwo”
Me:”how are you coping?” she looked away from me
Tshili:”it hurts…to have a man you don’t know want to play with your body and worst part of it all….i….i have to smile…an….and pretend like I am enjoying this…all this…..i hate myself  Ndivhuwo…..i…I hate my body” she broke down and cry
Me:”I am so sorry love”
Tshili:”you have no idea how I miss home….i cry myself to sleep, I miss my son more than anything else”
Me:” I will take you home okay?”
Tshili:” please do” I looked at her and didn’t know what to say but I wanted to know how many men she had slept with…I know it was not a good question but I wanted to know. I went to sit next to her
Me:”so, u…uhm….i mean….how many per day?” I was looking at her straight in the eyes…I then looked on the floor
Tshili:”it depend….sometimes two or three or even four” I covered my face with my hands. I then got up and looked out the window
Me:” I will kill them Tshililo” she walked to me
Tshili:”it’s the worst thing in the world Ndivhu, being touched, being kissed or having have to give them a blow job, it’s just nauseating but I knew that my life depended on it. There were days where I’d feel like giving up but my family kept me strong, I always prayed that one day I’d find an opportunity to run and I’d go home to my family”
Me:” I promise to get you out of here and you’ll see your son again…my daughter is also at home, can you believe it?” we laughed
Tshili:”wow thank you for finding me…how did you even do it?”
Me:” you know me” she went to sit back on the bed, I turned around and looked at her
She asked me about Thembu and if he was seeing anyone. I told her he was still single…I didn’t want to break her heart. We talked for a long time until I said goodbye and left. I wanted to have some time to start making plan on how I was going to free her.

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The first thing I did when I got to my hotel room was to contact some of my guys to book the first flight to Kenya. Yep if I was to pull this off then I needed them with me, I couldn’t do it by myself. So I spent the whole day just chilling and putting a plan in place. I still didn’t tell anyone at home because I didn’t want to give them false hope.

The following afternoon I went back to see Tshililo. I paid lot of money so that I can at least spend few hours with her. I couldn’t let any man sleep with her again…not when I was there. So we chilled like we did yesterday. She was in some sexy lingerie and boy she was smoking hot. I wanted to make love to her so damn bad. I won’t lie and say that I didn’t want her because I wanted her for myself
Me:”so do you ever think about us?” we were sitting on the bed. I was being honest, we talked about lot of things here but we never said anything about us…or what we used to be
Tshili:”Ndivhuwo please”
Me:” just say anything Tshili…I will accept anything, I am just curious because since you died…well I mean since we thought you died I’ve been thinking about you everyday….my life was a mess and I was blaming myself…I felt like such a failure and being here with you….gives me a great joy…it’s a feeling that’s hard to explain” I was looking at her straight in the eyes…she looked at me and then away
Tshili:”but you know I love your brother”
Me:”I know that and if you don’t mind I would like to correct you….it’s not that you don’t love me, you love me Tshililo…a lot even. It’s just that you love him more than me and reason for that being that Thembu is the father of your child, you’ve been through a lot together, you have a beautiful story to tell, you want to give people hope that love conquers all…that’s why you chose him. I know you love me and you also miss me….you also miss how I used to make love to you right?” I know that what I was doing now was not fair on Tshili or Thembu but so what? I couldn’t let her lie to me or to herself…she loved me and she knew it
Tshili:”Ndivhuwo don’t” she stood up with her hands on her hips
Me:” what? Am I lying? You don’t love me?”
Tshili:”let’s not talk about it”
Me:”ok if that’s what you want but I just want you to know that I still love you…a lot even…if Thembu wasn’t my brother then I was gonna take you for myself”
Tshili:”even after everything that’s happened to me? You still love me? I have been sleeping with strangers everyday Ndivhuwo….i have been having sex with men I don’t know” her eyes were now red, like she wanted to cry…I stood up
Me:”I don’t think I’ll give a s*** even if you were doing this willingly but I know you didn’t choose this okay? You’ve been forced into it and given the chance I’d still make love to you like you are the only woman in the world because Tshililo….you have the key to places that no one has in my life….you are the only person I can truly bend over backwards for…I’ve done a lot just for you and I’ll continue doing that…even if it means being your brother in law when we leave this place” I shook my head and sat down
Tshili:”let’s not talk about how much you love me please, it’s really intimidating….i am your brother’s wife” I gave her my fake smile
Me:”in few hours time we will be going home Tshililo…you’ll see your husband and we wont ever have to talk about this ever again so I just want you to know that I will always be that stupid guy who loves you no matter what happens in your life…I will be there for you”
Tshili:”and now I feel like I owe you”
Me:”ow sorry for making you feel that way, I didn’t mean to”
After spending more time with her talking and laughing….i left her and went to my hotel room.

I had to pull some strings for my guys to come here with weapons…yeah it’s important to know people in the right places. So the guys arrived round at about 6 in the evening. We didn’t waste any more time…we then had a meeting about how we were going to run everything. I told them how the house looked like and drew it out for them…I showed them the entrance and where the girls are usually kept and all the gory important details.

That evening we left the hotel in three cars and went to the location. We got there and I got out of the car with one guy. We went to the door and rang a bell. A guy came and open and we shot him with our silenced machines. We had hand gloves and had covered our faces as well. All the guys then followed us in and we were killing every guy walking from whichever direction…we didn’t care if they were clients but we just didn’t want to risk anything. The plan was to be out of there within five minutes…the guys went to the rooms and collected all the girls they found in there. I found my Tshililo and we all quickly drove out of there. The girls had to squeeze themselves in the cars. We drove to some forest where we found more cars waiting for us. We all got in and left the cars we used right there. There was no need to waste time. So we went back to the hotel where I booked flight tickets for me and Tshililo and all the other girls. The girls didn’t have their papers with them so I had to get that done so that they could be able to go back to their countries. Once we have all the papers and flight tickets booked… Tshililo said goodbye to the girls and I boarded my flight with her and the other girls boarded their own flights. I also gave them some cash to get them home and to get them started in life.

THEMBULUWO

I was chilling at home watching my son as he play soccer when Ndivhuwo called me. I was happy to finally hear from him. He told me that he was in George and that Tshililo was with him. I just stood in one place and froze. I couldn’t say anything else. I asked him not to play like that but he gave her the phone and I heard her voice calling out my name. Damn I felt like jumping in joy and I also felt like crying…I couldn’t believe it…I just stood there and not know what to say. She told me not to tell anyone about it yet and to come to George. After that call I just stood where I was with tears in my eyes. So my Tshililo was not dead…she was still very much alive. I jumped and ran to Xolani and told him what happened. He couldn’t believe me, he thought I was joking…I told him that I even talked to her myself. So Xolani and I booked the first flight from OR Tambo to George and then told the family that we had to take care of some business and then drove to OR Tambo. I was so anxious…I couldn’t even drive…Xolani was the one driving…I couldn’t wait to see her. We got to OR Tambo just on time…the flight was taking off at around 18:00.

We got to George at around 8 in the evening and Ndivhuwo was waiting for us. I expected Tshili to be there but he said she was waiting at home. We drove to my house immediately. I got home and Xolani and Ndiv stayed in the car and told me to go in alone. They wanted to give me some privacy with my wife. I thanked Ndivhuwo for doing this…if it wasn’t for him then Tshililo would never have been found.

I got out of the car and walked to the door. I slowly opened the door and walked in. The first thing I saw was her sitting on the couch looking at the door. I couldn’t move, my fleet were glued to the floor. I looked at her and she looked at me. We just looked at each other for a long time without saying a word. I then ran to her and she got up from the couch and we hugged. Dammit it was her. Her scent and everything…it was really her. My Tshililo. I don’t think I have ever been this excited in a long time. Nothing else mattered anymore…i had found my other half. After a long time we broke the hug
Me:”Tshililo washu” I had tears in my eyes, she was also crying
Tshili:” this feels like a dream” she covered her mouth with her hands and I removed them
Me:”it’s really not a dream” I cupped her face and tried to kiss her but she pulled away
Tshili:” how is my son…I mean our son” I think she didn’t want to kiss me because she was still in shock and too excited to be home…that was the only explanation I wanted to believe
Me:” he is home…he is growing...at least now I know I won’t be a single parent”
Tshili:” how I missed him” she said with tears in her eyes
Me:” you are home now nana, you are back to me” I broke the hug and tried to kiss her again but she brushed me off
Tshili:” I heard Xolani was also coming with you”
Me:” yeah he is outside...lets go” I took her hand and we walked outside

Xolani was more than excited to see her. So we all chilled in the lounge and talked and laughed. Xolani asked her what happened and where she was? She told us that she was kidnapped and was selling drugs in Kenya. The thought of my wife selling drugs was really not on…I felt bad for the fact that I didn’t even want Ndivhuwo to go look for her. So now we were all just happy to have her home…she was happy to be here too.

TSHILILO

I can’t even begin to explain how being home with these guys felt like. It was something I had dreamt about for a while. I chose not to tell them the truth because I didn’t want to hurt Thembu. Telling him the truth was going to hurt him so bad and I couldn’t do that to him. I spent some more time with them until I was tired and Thembu and I went to our bedroom.

Me:”uhm let me go to the shower” I said as soon as we got to the bedroom
Thembu:” mind if I join you?” he was smiling. I didn’t want him to join me…I could feel that I didn’t want to be naked with any man anymore…including him…the thought of it reminded me of everything I was doing in Kenya.
Me:” of course you can” I said swallowing saliva. I only agreed because I didn’t want to disappoint him
Thembu:” I love you nana”
Me:”I love you more” I said walking to the shower while he follows me.
So we took off our clothes and got in. I couldn’t even look at him…I was scared. I felt like I was back in that house again.
Thembu:” I miss this” he was looking straight into my eyes
I put on the tap and we stood there and got wet. I couldn’t do anything shame. I was shaking the whole time. Thembuluwo tried to put his hand on my hips and I lost it, all I saw were those man waiting for me to please them, waiting for me to ride them, to suck them, to make them happy….i couldn’t handle anyone touching me anymore, not even the man I loved. I ran to the corner and started crying right away. I was in deep excruciating pain. Everything I had been suffering for months came rushing back. I felt like I was back to being a sex slave again
Thembu:”Tshililo my love what’s wrong?” he was walking to me looking all scared
Me:” Thembuluwo I can’t, please Thembu you’ll have to forgive me but I can’t” I said that and broke down
Thembu:” I understand what you are saying nana I do but why are you so scared? Is it me?” I shook my head while shaking. I got up and walked out and all the way to the bedroom. Tehmbuluwo walked after me. We were both still wet. We got there and I took my pyjama pants and wore them…yeah all my clothes were still there…in fact our bedroom still looked the same
Thembu:” ok babe talk to me please, you look really terrified, what’s going on?”
Me:”uhm I need some water…let me go get myself some water” I wore a top and walked to the door
Thembu:” nahh let me go get water for you”
Me:” no Thembu…let me go…get dressed and I promise to talk to you when I come back”
Thembu:”ok”

I walked out of the door and all the way to the kitchen and I found Ndivhuwo standing in the dark drinking some whiskey. The only light was that coming in through the window
Me:” I thought you have already gone to sleep” he drank the contents on the glass and smashed the glass on the table
Ndiv:” you lied to them” he looked at me with his angry scary look
Me:” Ndivhuwo I can’t do it”
Ndiv:” you can’t do what? It’s better for him to hear this from you not from someone else”
Me:” what someone else? We are the only people who knows about this and please I am asking you not to say anything to him, I can’t hurt him like that”
Ndiv:”hurt him?” he poured another glass and drank it
Me:” Thembuluwo is too fragile, he is happy that I am back Ndivhuwo, how do you think he’ll feel when he find out the truth huh? This will hurt him and he will never ever look at me the same ever again, I don’t want to hurt him” he took the bottle of whiskey and drank
Ndiv:” so it’s better to hurt me because I have a heart of a stone I guess?”
Me:”Ndivhuwo what are you talking about?”
Ndiv:” its sweet, really it’s sweet for you to consider his feelings but did you stop to think about mine? You didn’t have problem giving me some gory details about how you slept with those men, how it hurt you and how it made you feel…do you think it made me happy? because I don’t have a heart huh?” whaaaat? I never thought Ndivhuwo would feel this way
Me:” but Ndivhuwo”
Ndiv:”but what? You never thought that knowing how you’ve been in pain could hurt me?”
Me:”uhm I came here to get myself some water…I really don’t want to fight with you”
Ndiv:”and you think I wanna fight?” I looked at him and my heart broke…I hated seeing him in pain
Me:” sorry Ndivhuwo, I am really sorry for not considering your feelings”
Ndiv:” its fine Tshili, I am just having one of my pity parties and I am sorry you had to witness it…..it will pass…just go back to your person”
Me:” I want you to be fine Ndivhuwo please”
Ndiv:” I will, just not tonight…..the thought of you and him f*****g…” he said that and drank some more whiskey and then walked to the door
Me:” where are you going?”
Ndiv:” I think I need my brother, by that I mean Roli…..i need him so bad….he is the only one who could make me sane but I guess I am on my own now” he had tears in his eyes. I won’t lie, I felt guilty for coming back home, being here was going to hurt Ndivhuwo so bad…I was better off with them thinking that I was dead
Me:” Ndivhuwo I am sorry”
Ndiv:” its not your fault, I fell in love with someone’s wife….that’s my fault” he said that and walked out of the house.

I walked back to the bedroom and found Thembuluwo waiting for me. I got in bed and he stood with his back against the wall looking at me. He asked me to tell him what was bothering me and that he loved me and that he wanted to help me. He was really not taking no for an answer…he wanted me to talk so I had no choice
Me:” you have no idea what I am capable of, i am not good for you anymore Thembu, you deserve better than me”
Tehmbu:” noooo you are very wrong. You are my other half Tshililo, do you have any idea how miserable i was without you, I was lost damn it…don’t shut me out, let me in on whatever you are going through, let me help you” he said with tears in his eyes
Me:” I’ve been a whore, all this time Thembu…I was stuck in Kenya selling my body to whoever had enough cash to afford it” I said that and sat up on the bed
Thembu:” no you were kidnapped and you were selling drugs”
Me:” I lied to you” he quickly walked to me and grabbed my neck
Thembu:” I ve been going crazy over here and you’ve been f*****g men?” he said with tears in his eyes
Me:” I was forced into it, it was either that or my death….my life depended on it” I broke into a heart-breaking cry. He quickly let go of me and looked at me with tears in his eyes. I saw his chest expanding as if it was gonna burst…he started shaking
Me:” Diesel made me do it, he locked me in the house with other girls, I never went outside….they had clients who’d come in for me and I…..i had to…e….entertain them” he covered his face with his hands as if he didn’t want to look at me anymore. He came to me and hugged me so tight
Thembu:” I am so sorry….i don’t even know what to say….owww my good God what have I done” he said that and sobbed
Thembu:” this is all me, I put you through this” see? This is why I didn’t want to tell him
Thembu” Tshililo I am so sorry…I don’t even know what to do to prove to you how sorry I am”
Me:” it’s not your fault Thembu”
Thembu:” you don’t have to try and make me feel better, you and I both know that it’s all my fault….i wont judge you for what happened, I still love you Tshililo Mudau…I am willing to wait for you to be better” that’s the thing, I didn’t want him to wait because I was not sure if I will ever want to be intimate with anyone
Me:” that’s the thing Thembu…you have no idea how I am feeling. It’s painful, I can’t bare it, I am not expecting you to wait for me to be fine, I want you to move on and let me be, I want to be alone” I said that and got out of bed and stood up
Thembu:” no Tshililo don’t do this to me. I now that you think you are doing this for me but do you think I’ll be happy separating with you knowing what you’ve gone through because of us? I know I am a man and I love having sex but if it comes down to either you or sex then I am choosing you…I chose you”
Me:” that’s sweet, it’s really sweet but I can’t have that, I wouldn’t be happy with that, I want you to be happy”
Thembu:” my happiness is with you Tshililo” He walked to me
Me:” I talked to Ndivhuwo and he told me that you haven’t been seeing anyone but I know him…he wouldn’t tell me the truth because he wouldn’t want to hurt me…so tell me the truth”
Thembu:” no its not, there is a girl I was getting to know but she got a bit of taste of this life and she want nothing to do with all this”
Me:” thank you for being honest and I understand why you’ve been with her, you thought I was dead”
Thembu:” but you are not and I love you Tshililo, I will be fine with not touching you”
Me:” Thembu you are just saying that now….after about a year you’ll be wanting more and I don’t blame you. Go back to that other girl and try to get her to understand”
Thembu:” you are really underestimating how I feel about you. Losing you was the worst thing that ever happened to me Tshililo, my world collapsed. I know that sex is what build a relationship between a husband and a wife but we share more than just sex and I want all the other things, we will take one step at a time, I just want to love you”
Tshili:” really? What happened to me don’t bother you?”
Thembu:” not at all, what matters is that you are here with me, come here” I walked to him and he hugged me. God I was in love with this man

So the following morning I ran into Ndivhuwo in the kitchen
Me:” about last night, I am really so-“
Ndiv:” last night? What happened last night?” I just looked at him and raised an eyebrow, was he serious?
Me:” Ndivhuwo don’t be like that, you know what happened last night”
Ndiv:” ahh well maybe I do...i am so sorry for that little episode but I am okay now mama TJ…I have been through worse…I will be fine”
Me:”promise?”
Ndiv:”Tshililo trust me on this…where are my brothers?”

So we spent the whole day together as a family. This is what we had planned. I was going to walk into the police station and report a case about myself being kidnapped and being rescued…obviously the whole story was going to be edited in order to avoid incriminating any of our family members…I was gonna tell the police what they needed to know only. I had to be cleared as a dead person at home affairs and involving the police was the start. Obviously the story was going to make headlines and people were gonna talk about it for few weeks and then they will eventually forget. After the police station we planned on going straight home. I couldn’t wait to meet the family.

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The continuation of this story will be merged with the continuation of LIFE AS WE KNOW IT and will be called ZWI A PENGA – LIFE AS WE KNOW IT (ZwiLife). The two are merged to make up one story. So if you haven’t read LIFE AS WE KNOW IT then you better go and read it so that the chapters of ZWILIFE can make sense. I will start loading the chapters of ZwiLife very soon so keep checking the ZWI LIFE folder on the blog for the chapters.