Zwi a Penga
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So we waited outside the ward on a bench for about an hour without hearing anything. Everyone from my team was there…Rendi and Sticks’s wife were also there. Rendi and Xolani tried to talk to me but I didn’t want to hear anything. Ndivhuwo was standing at the corner waiting too. I didn’t want him to be here but for now the only thing that mattered was my wife’s and my child’s wellbeing. Finally the Doctor walked to us and everyone gathered’
Me:”Doc how are they?”
Doc:”who is her family here?”
Svig:”we all are….is she fine?”
X:”please tell us she is fine”
Javas:”Doc we are waiting” Ndivhuwo also walked to us
Doc:”owk please just calm down….uhm she is fine and we have stabilised her, we just have to clean her up”
Me:”owk just wait a minute….what are you cleaning up? I mean you didn’t say anything about our daughter” he gave me that look….that damn look that all the doctors give out when they are about to give you bad news….he gave me that….and something in me died, I knew what it meant
Doc:”I am so sorry….it was already too late when she got here”
I stopped breathing and bent down with my hands on my knees. Tears started coming out and they were followed by a massive headache. I couldn’t recognise myself anymore, I was angry, confused, I thought about her, TSHILILO, she was going to hate me, FOREVER….she was going to leave…..i was the worst father, I got my child killed, I should have let her go, if I had agreed to the divorce then my child would still be alive. I looked around and saw something that looked like a miracle….a black man’s skin turning pale? No they weren’t pale…they all looked darker instead…more darker and sad. Ndivhuwo’s tears started coming out. I hated him in a way that I’d never hated anyone before.
Me:”I wanna see her”
Doc:”we are still busy with her, it’s gonna take time for us to allow visitors in” I turned around and looked at Ndivhuwo
Ndivhu:”sorry my man, I am really sorry I didn’t mean to” he sobbed, I pointed at him with my finger and lost my voice, I couldn’t even whisper a single word. Everything was just bit and pieces. Nothing made sense. PAIN…VHUTUNGU…PYN…IINTLUNGU was the only word and the only feeling I was familiar with. I don’t know what came over me but I punched him so hard and he stumbled…I then grabbed him and pulled him outside. The securities tried to come to me but I took out a gun on them
Me:”if you know what’s good for you, you’ll stay the hell away from me” I was breathing fire. Xolani ran to me as fast as he could.
X:”Thembu!!” he shouted
Me:”don’t….don’t Xolani, you have no idea how it feels” I was crying….. Ndivhuwo just looked at me and said nothing…he was crying
Ndivhu:”I understand your pain and I will take everything back if I can but I can’t… so I won’t fight you Thembu, beat me up all you want because I feel even worse….this will haunt me for the rest of my pathetic life so go ahead” if he thought that I wasn’t going to take that offer then he had another thing coming.
Me:”Xolani come help me with this” I hit him on the head with a gun and he fell to the floor. I carried him with Xolani and put him on the boot of one of the cars we came with. It was fortunate because it was early hours of the morning so the parking at the hospital was empty
Sticks:”V Boy!” he was looking at me
Me:”come lets go” he had the car keys…he looked at me and then back at the door
Me:’NOW” we all got inside. I went to the driver’s seat and he gave me the keys. I started the car. I saw the other guys walking out of the door but I ignored them and drove away
Sticks:”V Boy you need to breathe”
X:”Thembu take it easy please”
Me:”I need to kill him…that’s what I need” I had tears on my face. This was all his fault. The stress that Tshililo had been carrying this whole time, he was the cause of all this. I was in so much pain and I felt that killing him was the only thing that was going to help me.
Xolani was at the back seat and I looked at the mirror and my eyes met his and I could see the pain in his eyes
X:” I’m sorry Thembu” I looked straight ahead and continued driving; I was driving to our torture house. We got there and I got out of the car. Sticks and Xolani ran to me and grabbed me and put me against the car
Sticks:”I only agreed to come with you because I have never seen you like this and I could see that you were about to do something really stupid and I wanna beg you not to do it, Svig will kill you….whatever you do to that guy, it’s gonna cost all of us billions of Rands”
X:”Thembu….there is a better way of dealing with this”
Me:”I want to see him suffer, that’s what I want…have any of you lost a child before? Especially after your wife was trying to leave you to protect that child because somehow she was able to foresee all of this? Do you have any idea about the guilt and PAIN I am carrying right now? Its excruciatingly painful Xolani” they let go of me and looked away. Sticks looked at me and nodded. I got up, took a gun and went inside the house…we didn’t have the keys so I shot the door open and I went for the hand cuffs and then went back to the car and took out Ndivhuwo with Xolani and Sticks’s help.
Ndivhu:”did you really have to do th-“ I punched him on his stomach and hand cuffed him. We took him to the house and I just stood there looking at him
Me:” I want to see you cry like a child…I want to look at you as you endure the mother of all pain”
Ndivhu:’Svig will kill you” he smiled
Me:” fine by me” I was serious. I started kicking him right away. I kicked him until my feet hurt. I then took the pliers. Sticks and Xolani were just sitting from the distance watching the whole show
Sticks:”need help?”
Me:”no”
Sticks:”whatever you do, don’t kill him” I nodded and then went to him and squeezed his nose up with a pliers. He screamed and kicked and I just kept the pliers there on his nose. I wanted him to suffer. I stopped doing that after I was satisfied and went for the grander. He was now bleeding.
Sticks:” no ways” I saw a smile flashing through his face
Sticks:”I am impressed” he got up and walked over to me. I gave him a death stare; he put his hands in the air and backed away
Ndivhu:”Thembuluwo what are you doing?” I gave him an evil smile
Me:”I wanna have fun” he looked at me and begged me not to do it but I blocked everything out and switched the machine on.
Ndivhuwo cried and screamed as I cut him with the grander. I didn’t want to cut any of his limbs out yet…all I wanted was to cut the flesh deep enough for him to feel the pain…I drew lines from his hips to his feet with a grander and he started bleeding immediately. I was not cutting too deep because I knew that it will cut the leg open, I just wanted him to feel pain. And I wanted to ease my pain. I was expecting to feel some kind of a relief, to feel better But the more I hurt him the more it hurt me. It didn’t change a single thing. I didn’t feel better. My baby was never coming back. Tears immediately started coming out and I turned the grander off. I walked out of the room and walked to my car and cried. Xolani walked out to me.
Me:”she is gone Xolani, she won’t come back”
X:”shhhh I know” and then I heard a car driving in. I looked and it was Svig’s car. I wanted to end Ndivhuwo’s life and I knew he was going to stop me, I just couldn’t live in the world where he exists, I felt that I couldn’t breathe the same air as him. I ran to the house and took out a gun and pointed it at him
Me:”this is where it ends”
Sticks:”no no no no V Boy you can’t”
Me:”I have no choice” Xolani walked back in
X:”Thembu Svig will kill you don’t do that” he shouted….i closed my eyes and shot him 5 times. I wanted to make sure that he dies. Xolani fell down on his knees and I could see the disappointment on his face….Sticks just stood against the wall looking all scared for me. Svig walked in right at that moment. He looked at me and then my hand and then at Ndivhuwo who was lifelessly lying in the pool of blood. Svig walked to Ndivhuwo and started shaking him. Gerrit and Javas also arrived…they just looked at me and then at Ndivhuwo’s body. Svig looked back at me
Svig:”WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE?” he roared
Svig:”do you have any idea what you’ve done?” he yelled. He got to me and took me by my neck and pinned me against the wall
Me:”he killed my child” I cried
Svig:”I had a plan for him” he roared
Me:”what plan? To lick his butt? I don’t think so” he punched me on the face and I fell to the floor. He walked to me and put his foot on my neck…his boot was hard against my skin
Svig:” You are talking to me like that? My plan was for him to give us the damn formula to make that drug, to give us the ingredients and to introduce us to the market and then….i was going to kill him” he was so pissed....damn I messed up, I didn’t know about the plan
Svig:”you’ve just cost us a chance to be billionaires….give me one reason why I should not kill you? Don’t tell me about your sister because not even she can bail you out of this one…she will cry for you, yes, I will be there to comfort her but she will surely accept and move on…..so what’s it gonna be?” I couldn’t even talk because of his boots that was blocking my airways
Me:”sorry” I managed to say
Svig:”I can forgive you for stealing a biscuit from my kitchen, for mistakenly using my main bedroom bathroom…BUT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR COSTING ME AND EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM BILLIONS OF RANDS…..it’s over” he went down on his knees on top of me and squeezed his grip around my neck with both his hands and I battled to breath, fighting with everything I got, until I couldn’t fight anymore….
So I woke up in a peaceful place. I honestly thought I was dead. That was until I heard my sister saying “he is blinking” and then I knew that I didn’t die. Xolani was also there and he sounded happy to hear the news. So I woke up and Xolani and Rendani were fussing over me. I kinda expected Rendani to say she had broken up with her boyfriend after what he did to me but she didn’t and we kinda had an argument about it. I mean why was she still with him after almost killing me? Her argument was that at least he didn’t do it. So she walked out of the room after I told her to. I then asked Xolani how I am alive
X:”we begged Svig not to kill you, all of us…we literally went down on our knees begging him to spare your life….we asked him to at least do it for Tshili because this was seriously going to kill her…..so he let go of you but it was already a bit too late….we did CPR and all that s*** but you didn’t wake up but still had a pulse but was weak…..i don’t know if you were shutting your mind trying to die or what…..but yeah we came here, called a doctor to check you up and now here you are”
Me:”so….if Svig didn’t decide to let me go…you were not gonna do anything? You were just gonna let me die? Wow so much for being brothers and best buddies”
X:” Damn it Thembu how stupid are you? Wake the hell up and smell the damn coffee….this world doesn’t revolve around you owk? You are not the centre of my universe. Do you have any idea how deep this gangster s*** runs? Let’s say I jumped at Svig and killed him while he was busy killing you, and then what? Was Jay and them gonna just let me be? Even if by some miracle which was not likely to happen they let me go….Svig have a boss, who was obviously going to avenge his death…we were both going to get killed within an hour of killing Svig and then what? Who was going to take care of our families? We were going to die as traitors and obviously the gang was not going to support them anymore…..Thembu your problem is that you don’t think so I have to do all the thinking alone that’s why I don’t end up in so much s*** as you, one of this days you’ll get killed and if you find yourself in a situation like that again then count me out, I won’t get involved because someone will have to see to it that your son is well taken care plus our family and that person is obviously not gonna be you because you are always busy trying to die” he said that and walked to the door
Me:”Xolani” he turned around and looked at me
X:”Thembu you need to take some responsibilities. Yes you need to mourn, we are also mourning….i loved that child too and you know how much it hurt me to see you like this….but you have to control your anger….you can’t talk to Svig the way you did, you can never do that…that’s what pushed him, you embarrassed him in front of everyone”
Me:”yah I was a jerk”
X:”clean yourself up, you have to go see Tshililo, I am sure she wants you there”
Me:”how many hours has it been since I killed Ndivhuwo?”
X:”just one or maybe a little more than that”
Me:”so it’s almost morning?”
X:” its past three”
Me:” where is everyone?”
X:” Everyone is dealing with the issue of Ndivhuwo’s body because no one can know that he is dead….we don’t even know who was working with him so we can’t risk anything happening”
Me:”Svig?”
X:”downstairs”
Me:”eish owk”
X:”owk…I am really sorry about the baby, I know you are hurting so I am here for you….just don’t do stupid things please” he walked out.
After I had showered and was feeling much better Svig came and asked to speak to me. We were in Xolani’s house. It was still early hours of the morning. We went to one of the rooms to talk in private
Svig:”you might be asking yourself how you came to be alive”
Me:”Xolani filled me in”
Svig:”good, what you did was punishable by death V Boy….i told you that you only become my brother in law when it fits but at work I am your boss and therefore you will be treated like anyone else…you disrespected me…questioned my decision and…you said something about me licking Ndevhoho’s butt” he was looking at me with his hands folded on his chest
Me:”I am sorry, I wasn’t thinking”
Svig:”let me be your brother in law now and be a bit friendly….Themburuwo you do not ever speak to me like that….worst part is you did it in front of everyone….you can get away with costing us billions because I understand the guy played a role on your wife’s tragedy but the way you talked to me drove me against the wall”
Me:”I know…I am so sorry”
Svig:”I would have killed you, but then what they said made sense, they said I should think of your wife…she just lost a child and I knew it was gonna kill her so I was very gracious to you for her and for Rendani….but if it happens again I won’t care”
Me:”it won’t”
Svig:”so how did it feel? When you killed him….did you feel better?” I shook my head
Svig:”you felt even worse right? You realised that it’s not going to bring her back”
Me:”how do you know?”
Svig:”when my dead died, I was hell bent on getting a revenge and I did what you did….tortured and killed the people who killed him….it never made me feel better, it made me worse….made me feel like them because I had taken someone else’s dad….i still had feelings then, another reason why I got so angry when I got to the scene was because I realised that you’ve just made the biggest mistake….people like Ndevhoho don’t need to be killed, you need to take everything they have, everything that matters to them and then make them your slave…make them work for you, just like what I did to Munro….punishing someone for a serious offence take patience and strategy”
Me:”something died in me Sivuyile, I was in love with that baby, I was looking forward to having her…..i don’t even know how I am going to look at my wife” tears started coming out
Svig:”I am sorry…..it will get better with time….don’t rush it”
Me:”it hurt so bad I just wanna get rid of the pain”
Svig:”come here” he opened his arms for me, I was more than shocked, I just looked at him and couldn’t move
Svig:”like I said, I am your brother in law now….let me be the big brother you never had….come here, you are not alone” I walked to him and he hugged me.
Svig:”I am not all bad….your sister has made me a bit soft and proved to me that I can be a good man….i just hate to be questioned and to be disrespected….that really makes me lose it…now go see your wife” he smiled. It’s always weird when he does that because we rarely see him smile.
I got to the hospital and Tshililo was still sleeping. I sat on the chair and slept while waiting for her. Part of me didn’t want her to see me. I don’t know what I was gonna say…she was obviously in pain. I woke up in the morning and Tshililo was up…she was looking at me
Me:” I don’t know what to say Tshililo” sorry was not going to cut it
Tshili:”she is gone” yohhh she cried joe. And with that she just ripped me apart more than I already were
Tshili:” I want to see him…I want to get out of here and kill him myself” she was wiping off tears
Me:”shhhh babe just rest please…..he can’t be killed twice”
Tshili:”what?”
Me:”I killed him” she looked at me with just tears on her eyes. I climbed on the bed and held her tight as she cried on my chest
There is always that fateful event that changes things forever in someone’s life…we all have that event. The kind of event the leaves you nothing but pain, the one that leaves you with nothing but scars in your heart, the one you wish you can reverse. This was it for me and Tshililo. Yes we’d been through some serious s*** together but we were able to hold each other’s hands, to support each other and in the end we held our heads up high and smiled again. This time around I was not sure if I was ever going to enjoy life again. It was so painful. Thinking about the moments I had spent with Tshililo making jokes about our baby, how I had spent some time holding her tummy, how I had talked to that baby hoping that she was listening, we don’t know for sure if she was a girl but we always hoped she was.
Two days after the incident I sat on the bench in the hospital waiting for Tshililo to change as she was discharged….it was at this moment that I decided that I was going to add a 4th T on my tattoo. Yes she was gone but it didn’t mean that she never existed. Though we didn’t know for sure if she was a girl….i decided that we were going to call her Tshedzatshashu which means “Our Light”….yes she was gone but was going to add another T for her name and maybe I might even have to write her full name on my hip where I wrote Tshili’s name….i was a damn gangster after all so there was no limit as to how much I could ink my body. The last two days were hectic, I was spending most of my time at this very hospital, Tshililo was very weak and all she ever did was cry. So I’d stay here almost the whole day trying to make her feel better. This was painful for me too but I didn’t have a choice but to be strong for her.
So we drove home and the whole gangster family was there. Yeah my sister and Tshili’s sister were also there. They cooked and were braaing…they were there to support us. We got there and greeted and then went to our bedroom. We got to our bedroom and I could see that Tshililo wanted to cry again. I took her and carried her into my arms with her legs wrapped around my hips
Me:” babe look at me” she looked at me
Me:” Did you see all those people out there in our garden? They are here to support us, they love us. We are not alone on this, we don’t have to be…we have a whole lot of family down there, they could have stayed in their places doing other things but they chose to be here for us so…..they are also in pain over this, we are not alone on this….i love you so much” I said that and put her on the bed and climbed on top of her wiping off her tears
Me:” can I tell you something?” she nodded
Me:”I know it sounds crazy but I will add another T on my triple T tattoo…I have named our baby Tshedzatshashu….i know it doesn’t make sense because our life is so dull and seems so dark because of everything that’s happening but….she made us happy for few days, there were days we laughed so hard talking about how she will be, for few days she was our light and who knows…maybe after this we will get our big break…maybe we will be happy like really happy...they say that everything happen for a reason so there is a reason for this too””
Tshili:”come her” she kissed me so hard
Tshili:”even at our darkest hour, you still manage to make me feel so much in love with you, you still manage to make me feel better….yes it Is still very painful and will be painful for as long as it decides to be but for now….you’ve made me feel much better for the fact that I am not alone on this….and I will always remember our Tshedzatshashu” I kissed her
So we spent the whole afternoon with our family…by family I mean our gang members and their women. We had fun….Tshililo managed to laugh as they were cracking jokes. We played music and people danced and sang along to the songs…it was a beautiful afternoon and for those hours I was reminded again that maybe losing Tshedzatshashu wasn’t really the end of the world…we had a big family that really cared about us and that supported us
Zwi a Penga
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The following morning Tshililo was moody and didn’t want me close to her. I let her be. I walked down the stairs and found Xolani, Rendi and Svig already in my house. Breakfast was already done. Rendani left us guys alone and went to my wife. So Xolani and me kinda took the advantage of having breakfast with Svig and asked him about how he came to know our sister and how they started dating. Well he didn’t hesitate…he told us the story of how they met and how he pursued her. It didn’t sound like him at all…it was as if he was talking someone else’s story. It felt great though, sitting there with Svig and my brother…we managed to laugh and talk like brothers.
Onndwela walked in to the lounge along with Rendani. So Svig said that he was leaving…apparently he had some place he needed to be. He said his goodbye and left us. After he had left I walked back to my bedroom with Rendani, I was hoping that Tshililo had changed her mind.
Onndwela walked to the kitchen where she started washing the dishes. Xolani followed her and stood by the Zink
X:”are we gonna talk about last night?”
Onndwela:” I don’t know Xolani”
X:”owk let’s talk about it….i am sorry it happened, my fiancée is coming back today and it shall never be spoken of and we are both going to act like adults and pretend like none of it happened” he knew he regretted what he did with her, especially because she was young and she was Tshililo’s sister
Ndweli:” you’re serious?”
Xolani:”yah I am serious, Ndweli you know that I am engaged and the whole thing was a mistake, I guess I was just too stressed out” she stopped what she was doing and looked straight into his eyes
Ndweli:”but you loved it…that’s why you don’t even want me to leave because you are hoping to do it again….tell me that you didn’t enjoy it Xolani, tell me you didn’t enjoy it and I will gladly stay away” he looked at her in frustration
X:”you can’t expect me to say that Onndwela” she smiled
Ndweli:”because you had the time of your life Xolani” she wiped her hands off and started removing his belt
X:”no no no no Ndweli don’t….don’t do that please”
Ndweli:”you can stop me you know” she unzipped his jean and Xolani just looked at her feeling rather helpless
X:”Ndweli babe just stop”
Ndweli:”make me” she inserted her hand inside his jean and kissed him.
X:”damn it Onndwela” he kissed her back and carried her to his room.
Owk this is what really went down last night. After Tshililo and Thembu went up to their room and Rendani had left with Svig. Xolani was about to go to his room when Ondwela appeared wearing her Pyjama shorts and a tank top. She went straight to the kitchen to get some water and for the first time Xolani saw Onndwela not just as Tshili’s sister but as a woman. And he liked what he saw. So she went and put on the TV and sat on the couch. Xolani came and sat next to her. They talked about Tshililo and the baby she lost and before they knew it they were kissing….1,2,3 they were in Xolani’s bed doing it. So they spent the night together and Onndwela only left for her room in the morning.
THEMBULUWO
My wife was still not fine but at least she didn’t shut me out. We talked to her a bit and she seemed better. I suggested going to Venda for few days, I thought that maybe she needed her mom or our son but she didn’t want that too.
BACK TO XOLANI AND NDWELI
X:”Ndweli we can’t keep doing this” he was looking straight at her as they lay on bed after the session
Ndweli:”you feel something for me don’t you?”
X:”no…I…I don’t know, what I know is that I am about to get married and I can’t ruin your life, your sister will kill me”
Ndweli:”owk this is it then” she got out of bed and walked to the door. Xolani walked after her
X:”Ndweli please don’t breathe a word about this to anyone…Tshili could kill me...and my brother…well he’ll do worse”
Ndweli:”so you love Zoli??” Xolani put his hands on his head and looked at her
Ndweli:”do you?”
X:”i am marrying her so yeah I love her…I am sorry” she looked sad
Ndweli:”but why is this happening then? I mean if you love her that much then why are you doing this with me? Is it stress? Or you just want sex, which one is it?”
X:” you’ll have to forgive me but I won’t answer that, all I can say is that I am sorry it happened”
Ndweli:”can I tell you something?”
X:”you can go ahead”
Ndweli:”I have always liked you, since the first day I saw you during Tshili and Thembu’s wedding...and as much as you regret this and you probably don’t ever want to do it again, I don’t regret it and given the chance, I will do it again and again” he let go of her and gave her a fake laugh
X:”you think I regret this? Ndweli I don’t….not at all but….it’s not easy, you and I can never happen, we are like relatives and what will I say to Zoli…she loves me” he looked sincere and desperate
X:”this whole thing is not easy for me, I didn’t plan this at all…it just happened and I can’t let it happen again, Please Ndweli don’t come onto me again please”
Ndweli:”so are you telling me that you are incapable of stopping me?” he looked at her and nodded. Onndwela walked out of the room.
THEMBULUWO
So I went down because I was trying to give Tshili and Rendi some sisterly time. Xolani was in the lounge when I got there. He asked to speak to me in private so I walked with him outside.
Me:” What’s wrong?” he looked weird, like he was nervous about something
X:”uhm eish” he scratched his head, this was new…Xolani was scared?
Me:”Xolani what’s going on? What happened? Please don’t tell me that something happened to my boy please”
X:”nah its nothing like that you can chill” I breathed
Me:”oww thank you so if it’s not that then what’s up?”
X:’uhm owk just so that we are clear, I am only telling you this because things may get ugly and when they do I will need your support, I will need you by my side so I will tell you the truth now so that you can get angry all you like and then sooner or later you’ll get used to the truth and when something happen you’ll be on my corner” he was seriously scared and that made me want to know
Me:” stop scaring me like this and just tell me what is going on already”
X:”uhm I….eish bruh I just got tempted man….i love Zoleka a lot and I don’t wanna lose her and….”
Me:”you cheated on Zoli?” owk I was expecting a big no, Xolani was always the responsible one between us, he always thought before he could act, it was always the case with him
X:’yah” I looked at him in disbelief. I couldn’t believe this…what could have happened for Xolani to get tempted?
Me:”no ways Xolani you couldn’t be that stupid….Xolani huh uh my boy…so who is the girl?” he started swallowing saliva
X:”Onndwela” he was blinking. I looked at the door expecting to see Onndwela walking out or standing there I mean why else would he mention her name. Onndwela wasn’t there so I looked back at him
Me:” I thought we are talking about you and your cheating here…what did Onndwela do now?”
X:”I did it with her” he said that and put his hands on his head and looked away from me. What?
Me:’ what….is this some sick joke or what?” Xolani and Onndwela? How could that have happened? No ways
Me:”Xolani you are lying right? Nahh you got to be lying bruh. I mean…no no no man what the hell were you thinking? This is not like you…if it was me yes….i mean it seems as if I have been bewitched and troubles follows me everywhere but you? No man even I cannot be this stupid…no ways” I was pacing
X:”i…i…uhm Thembu I don’t know how it happed but it did”’
Me: ‘what do you mean you don’t know how it happened? What will happen when Tshililo hears about this? Eish this is bad, boy” I was yelling at him
Me:”you can’t be a damn ass like your brother, you can’t be like me Xolani, always messing things up…you are supposed to be the better version of our dad….i know I am cursed, everything I touch just turn out to be the worst but you…..no no no no do you have any idea what you’ve done?” s*** my stress level was high…I knew that if this gets to Tshililo and Zoleka then everything was going to be messy
X:”I do i…”
Me:”no you don’t, that girl is a child Xolani, she is my wife’s baby sister, OUR SISTER IN LAW”
X:”she is not really a child, she is only three years younger than us”
Me:”so? Is that supposed to make everything fine? No man you are talking kak”
X:”ahg thembu please I am also human and not a damn robot, I make mistakes too so please let’s just move on to the part where we talk about what we will do to get her to keep quiet about this” yohh I was disappointed and angry at Xolani and to think that he was taking this lightly? I punched him on the face…he was still as shocked when I pushed him and he fell…I climbed on top of him and strangled him
Me:”Seriously Xolani? You want me to help you get Onndwela to keep quiet about this? Do you have any idea what you’ve done? It’s one thing to sleep with a random girl for a meaningless sex but this is Onndwela…you can’t do this to her….don’t you get it? You can’t play her Xolani, she is family”
X:” you are hurting me” he whispered
Me:”right now I feel like squeezing the life out of you tsek!!” I got up and stood up leaning against his car. He got up breathing hard
X:”I know I messed up Thembu, I know you hate me for this because it seems as if I was doing what I used to do in the past and this time around I did it with our sister in law….i swear Thembuluwo I didn’t plan it, it just happened. I struggle to think when I am with h-“
Me:”enough” I yelled
Me:”the thought of you and her in the same bed is nauseating”
X:”I know”
Me:”I need some time, I can’t deal with this right now” this life we were living though, I was seriously tired of all the drama
X:”just don’t tell your wife please”
Me:” you see? Now I have to lie to my wife”
X:’I know and I am sorry” I walked to the door, I turned around and looked at him
Me:”do you feel anything for her? or it’s just like the meaningless sex I had with Teressa?” the fact that Xolani decided to play poor Ndweli really hurt…I mean that girl was like my sister
X:” I honestly don’t know but I know I can’t hurt Zoli, that girl loves me joe”
Me:”it’s supposed to be about you….how much do you love her? You can’t marry her because she loves you and you don’t wanna hurt her….you must be in love with her, the big question is are you?” I said that and walked back inside the house. yohh the disappointment I had.
I walked back to my bedroom and found Onndwela with Tshililo and Rendani. I asked to speak to Ndweli in private. We walked to her room together. I questioned her about Xolani and told her that he told me the truth. You won’t believe this…the girl had the nerve to say to my face that she loved him and that she didn’t care about his engagement. Yohh I don’t know what happened but I lost it and slapped her across the face
X:”no no no Thembu what are you doing?” Xolani walked in and quickly walked to her
X:”Ndweli bbe sorry neh”
Me:” he vhanna! Xolani are you insane? She is Tshililo’s sister. If you continue acting like this then I will tell my wife and yours” I walked out of the door and he followed me. He took my hand and pulled me to his room instead
X:”Thembuluwo I know what I did was wrong but what you did to that poor girl was also wrong….please man stop acting like a damn saint here”
Me:”I am not acting like a saint, I am doing what any person in my position would have done, including you…..have you forgotten about how you’ve beating me up and how much we’ve fought in the past? You forgot how you got angry at me for days after finding out about Teressa…why did you do it? Because you love me and you were disappointed….i share the same feelings about you. I don’t want you to ruin your marriage before it even starts because of this child bruh. The worst thing about this Is that Ndweli will always be part of our lives, she is family. How long do you think she is going to keep this a secret? I think you should do what I usually do after I messed up, confess to your fiancée before she heard from someone else….at least coming clean shows how much you are sorry and how much you respect her”
X:”what? Never, I am not doing that, Onndwela said she won’t breathe a word”
Me:”and you believe her?”
X:’yeah I do”
Me:”owk the kakest feeling in this world is seeing the woman you love breaking down into pieces, crying and not wanting anything to do with you because you are just a kak a** man to her…..take it from me, you’ll hate yourself when Zoli finds out about this. Tshililo found out about Teressa and almost killed the girl….as for Bee…she is dead. You are my brother Xolani but if things gets so ugly and Onndwela end up in trouble then you will have me and my wife to deal with”
X:”damn it I never thought about the possibility of something like that happening”
Me:” yeah you didn’t….now I need some time and you are leaving my house right now. Don’t ever come back here until Onndwela is gone. One more thing…Onndwela is my wife’s sister and if and when I see that she is wrong…I will slap her and you won’t have to say anything about it do you understand? Now you have five minutes to look for your car keys and leave”
X:” noo Thembu I am sorry”
Me:” I understand your sorry but for now you can’t be here….you have four minutes now”
So I managed to have some alone time with my wife again. I suggested seeing a shrink to her but she said that she’ll rather talk to me than talk to a stranger. As for Xolani and Zoleka…I wasn’t going to say anything to Tshililo because I didn’t want to upset her more plus this was Xolani’s mess, I didn’t want to make it worse for him
The following morning we were woken up by a knock on the door. I expected it to be either Rendani or Onndwela but I was shocked when I heard Xolani’s voice. Wasn’t he supposed to stay away? We let him in and he was with Zoleka
Tshili:”so we are back to doing this now?”
Zoli:”morning guys, uhm we are sorry to wake you up…..uhm I am also sorry about the news, I wish I was here for you guys”
Me:”don’t sweat it you were helping our son remember? Xolani was very supportive”
X:”as always” he smiled
Zoli:”owk so we came up with something to help you guys go through your hard time….guys you will love this, you are getting out of bed right now, we’ve booked four flight tickets to OR Tambo and we have also booked accommodations for 2 couples for the whole week” she was smiling…Tshili and I looked at each other and frowned
Me:”uhm so?”
X:”how dumb are you guys? We said four tickets”
Tshili:”yeah we heard that, what does that have anything to do with us”
Zoli:”owk we will pretend like we didn’t hear that….the flight leaves in 2 hours so you have 2 hours to prep yourselves, pack your stuff and drive to the airport…we will be down stairs waiting for you guys”
Me:’ what? You guys are not being fair”
Tshili:”at least you should have told us beforehand”
X:”we’ve just told you”
Zoli:” and the more we stand here talking the less minutes you have to get everything done” they quickly walked out of the door. My wife and I looked at each other
Me:”Gauteng babe” Tshililo looked at me and smiled
Tshili:”it can’t be that bad can it?” she continued smiling….it was good to see her smile
Me:’not at all” I shook my head smiling
Tshili:”damn we have less than two hours” we looked at each other once more and quickly got out of bed
Zoleka nd Xolani walked back to the lounge and found Onndwela there
Zoli:”Hey Ndweli, I didn’t know you were still here” she was smiling at her. She went to Ndweli and gave her a hug, Onndwela didn’t look too happy
Ndweli:”I will leave on a weekend”
Zoli:”ow just make sure that you are not behind with school work honey, oww and you are going to be alone with Rendi in this house hey….we are going up to Gauteng for a week” Xolani scratched his head and walked away
Ndweli:”what? Uhm…you and who?” she was blinking
Zoli:”me and my baby, your sister and her hubby…it’s a couples’ thing…you know after losing the baby, we just want them to focus on something else, have fun a bit”
Ndweli:”sounds like a good idea, whose idea was it?” she didn’t look happy at all
Zoli:”ours, anyways, enjoy a little freedom in this huge house honey, you can invite some friends over, have some fun but if you get caught….i didn’t give you the idea” she laughed and went to Xolani who was in the kitchen already finishing up the second can of Heineken
Zoli:”bbe we don’t want you getting drunk before we even board the plane please”
X:”I know that love” he said that and walked out of the door and to his car. He received a text right at that second
“My room now, please” it was Onndwela
He walked in the house and walked through the passage to her room. Onndwela was standing there with her hands on her hips
Ndweli:”seriously Xolani? You couldn’t at least wait for me to go back to Cape Town? You just have to do it now?”
X:”huh uh Onndwela don’t start please, it was Zoleka’s idea and I thought it was a great idea, there was no need for me to turn it down….plus we talked about this bbe, I am engaged to be married, I can’t be hiding from you, you knew this from the word go…so please Ndweli, let’s just be adults about this, I am sorry” she looked at him, her eyes were now teary
Ndweli:” owk if this was all to hurt me then its fine. Just know that I am still a fine beautiful woman and I have someone in campus so its fine Xoli”
X:”I want you to be happy with whoever is capable of giving you that happiness. I can’t give you happiness because I have someone as you can see”
Ndweli:”get out”
X:” I’m sorry Onndwela, I really am”
Ndweli:” its fine”
THEMBULUWO
So my wife and I prepared ourselves in less than two hours and then we left for the airport. We got there and boarded the flight. Xolani had hired a Q7 for us. So when we got to Gauteng we started driving around in it. So Xolani and Zoli told us that our first stop was in Soweto Orlando West, they even booked a Bnb for us there…like what the hell...dude we were shocked. They said that the kasi lifestyle was seriously going to be fun for us all. Well I was not sure but I decided to just give it a try. I mean we had the money to took any hotel we wanted in Gauteng and they chose some Bnb in Soweto.
We went shopping before going anywhere. We wanted to rock some kasi outfits for the night out. So we drove back to the Bnb that they booked for us. It wasn’t bad though. So we had to freshen up and then leave. Tshili was in shorts, a long shirt and an All-star…yeah we had to look the part. I was in blue jeans, grey plain shirt and an All-start too…as much as I hated how cheap it was…I had no choice…I had to look the part.
We drove to one of the tavern ekasi. We just wanted that kasi vibe man. We danced with our girls…ate the braaid meat and chicken feet in the streets…we played and ran around and just laughed none stop. Believe me…this was the best way to make us forget about every little problem we’ve had. So we were at a tavern drinking and occasionally dancing to the music. Tshili and Zoli were not drinking but they were having fun too. So Tshililo was sitting on my lap and Zoleka on Xolani’s when some boys decided to approach us.
“cheese boys huh?” a strange voice said behind me, I turned around and looked at the person…Xolani also looked at him
X:” can we help you boy?” he wasn’t really a boy, the guy looked older than us, or maybe he was just not good looking
Guy:”for a starter, I want your drinks” owk our table was literally full, we had all sorts of drinks, I don’t even know why we did that….just for control I guess
Me:”uhm babe excuse me” I helped her stand up and then I stood up too
Me:”come again?”
X:”you are good with jokes huh?” Xolani stood up too
Guy:”I know cheese boys like you, coming here ekasi and act all smart” I laughed
Me:”owk so what’s your plan bro?” I had my serious look on
Zoli:”guys let’s just go, it’s not worth it”
Tshili:”yeah please I think so too”
X:”ladies just chill” another guy came and joined the party
Guy2:”you are still negotiating with the cheese boys? When we are done here you are going to give us the car keys” he said that and took out a knife. I grabbed the one with a knife and pointed him with a gun. The place was busy and people were busy dancing and walking around so they couldn’t really see what was going on, Xolani did the same to the other one
Me:”you are going to leave our table and we will be good cheese boys and forget that any of this s*** ever happened owk?”
X:”you do that and we won’t bother you…and for the record, we aint just pretty boys owk? We can blow your stupid heads off if we want to….we are just the same as you guys, hustling”
Me:”the only difference is that we are good at it”
X:”and we are also good looking”
Me:”and obviously make more money than you do….that’s why you see us buying our own booze”
X:”and if you are a as clever as you think….you might sit down”
Me:”borrow a pen and paper”
X:’get some f*****g tips from some rich filthy thug boys like us” we let go of them
Me:”we’ve been faced with some life threatening experiences and having people like you taking chances like this is really an insult”
X:”a big one”
Me:”so sit down and have some drinks with the cheese boys….that’s what you call us mus” Xolani and I looked at each other and laughed.
Guy1:”uhm i-“
Me:”sit….that’s a request”
Guy 2:”uhm owk” they sat down.
We offered them some booze and sat with them and then started chatting. We didn’t say much to them…we just told them we are from George. They talked about the top gangs around Soweto and all those s***. I wasn’t really or seriously interested until one of them said
Guy2:”there is also another guy, maybe you guys know him…I don’t work for him though but one of my friends works for him, his name is Tebza, he went down to George and was working there but now I hear he disappeared, apparently he messed up with some Xhosa guy and he was last seen with him and his gang”
Me:”uhm no I have never heard of him” i immediately knew that he was talking about Ndivhuwo. Tshililo looked at me and then away, I didn’t want them to suspect that we knew the guy
X:”so what’s up with that Tebza guy? Was he also like the rest of the guys you mentioned?”
Guy1:”no, he was worse…everyone knew him and most people feared him. He was quite but didn’t want to be bothered”
Me:”ow?”
Guy2:”and rumour has it that they are planning a revenge party for him”
Me:”who is they?” this was getting even more interesting, I was now totally interested in this conversation….i called the bar man to give us more booze…I didn’t want these guys to stop talking
Guy1:”don’t whisper a word to anyone….but the other gangs here in Soweto, they want to send their best guys down to investigate what’s going on down there and when that guy is relaxed and having a lekker time….they will strike, they want to leave him with nothing”
X:”wow I am impressed, they must be really powerful”
Guy1:”he was a leader of a very powerful gang….real monsters.... and ow he has a twin brother” Tshililo looked at me in horror
Tshili:"he didn’t tell me about the twin" she whispered .Xolani and I looked at each other and we knew that it was really about to get ugly. Tshililo looked at me with her eyes almost in tears.
X:”I think we need to leave now, it’s about time we go back and rest….it was nice meeting you”
Guy2:”sure sure bafanas” we got up and walked outside
Me:”what now? Do we tell Jay and Svig through the phone? Or Go back home or wait until our holiday is over”
X:”I don’t think the guys will strike now….like they said, they are still planning it so we can warn Svig when we go back….i don’t want to interrupt this holiday, if we let this get in the way of our week then I promise you….we will never know peace because every time we try to be happy, something happens”
Me:” yeah you are right…where do we go from here?”
Zwi a Penga
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So we went to Panyaza where we had more fun. We managed to meet few people there and had fun laughing and making jokes with them. We left the place round at about 3am. Everyone one was drunk except for my wife so she was the one driving us. We then drove to our BnB. The following morning we woke up in the afternoon, we were both extremely tired. We wanted something to eat and we went to some busy corner and bought some takeaways there. It felt good man…I felt at home…like I was back home. So we spent the remaining days of the week just having fun. We played, went for a swim, ate at expensive and cheap restaurants, went to some expensive hotels, went to ekasi, bought lot of clothes, visited few wildlife reserves, visited some resorts…well the bottom line is that the whole week was all about fun. There was lot of laughing and playing. Even though Tshililo and I were not having sex…we were seriously having the time of our lives.
We finally drove back home on a Friday. Damn we seriously didn’t want to go back but hey we had a life to get back to. We drove home after landing at the airport. Rendani was alone at home…Onndwela was gone to Cape Town already. So Rendi was happy to have us back. We were now chilling and telling her all about Gauteng when we asked her about Svig and she said
Tshili:” Uhm I was with him in town but yohhh something happened, he received a call from Bee, can you believe it? He left me immediately after that call”
Me:”ehhh uhhm…w…wha…what did you just say?” I looked around and I saw everyone’s face growing even darker
Rendi:” I don’t know what’s happening but he said Bee called him…he said that it was really her voice so he went to her. You should have seen how happy he was”
Tshili:”no…no no no it can’t be noooooo” she broke down
X:” Oww f*** it what did you say? No no no no this is not happening” he started pacing with his hands on his head. As for me…I was too confused to talk. I took out my phone and called Jay
Jay:”V Boy”
Me:”I hear that Bee is back” my heart was beating out of my chest…I was praying that Rendani had made some mistake and that she didn’t hear right
Jay:” yeah she is back” I dropped the call and dropped the phone on the floor and sat on the sofa
I didn’t understand it. She was dead…I know she was…I carried her body and I threw it down to the valley…she has to be dead. I mean if she was not dead then we were not going to live to see tomorrow….this was the end of us
Me:” we are all dead” I said looking at all of them
Rendi:” what are you guys on about?”
X:”but it can’t be Thembu, how could she be alive…no someone must be trying to be her” he looked really scared
Zoli:”and if it’s not?”
Me:” then we won’t see the end of today”
Rendi:” you are really confusing me guys…what’s happening?" we ignored her
Me:”so we all agree that this is just some misunderstanding right? There is no way that Bonita is alive”
X:”yah it has to be, I was there munna, I saw what happened and there is no way that it could be true”
Rendi:”please tell me that what I am thinking is wrong” she was looking at us
Tshili:”what exactly are you thinking?”
Rendi:” you made her disappear”
Zoli:”no”
Rendi:” I was not born yesterday, its written all over your faces”
Me:”Rendani!” I warned
Rendi:” I am your family do you honestly think that I can sell you guys out? I will never do something like that, I know for a fact that this can get you killed so I wouldn’t dare, I won’t breathe a word”
Tshili:’we need to find out for sure if she is really alive” she already had tears in her eyes. My phone rang and it was Svig
Me:”uhm hello” damn I couldn’t even control my voice…I was too shaky
“V Boy” my whole body went into shock, and I felt a rush of fear taking over. It was her, It was Bee…yohh I almost peed on myself
Me:” Bee!!” how did this happen? No ways. Everyone was looking at me like they were watching a ghost in action. I felt my hair rising
Bee:” I wanna see you now…I am at Svig’s house in Wilderness”
Me:” uhm…uhhhh Bee”
Bee:” I miss you V Boy so don’t take long” I dropped the call and sat on the sofa and looked into space
X:” is it her?” he was standing in front of me
Tshili:”bbe?” she shook me
X:”Thembuluwo?”
Me:” it’s her, she want to see me now and….she sound chilled….she didn’t sound angry, she was just being herself”
Tshili:” oww my God, what the hell have I done?”
X:”you are not going are you?”
Me:”I have to go, I need to see her myself…I have to know what happened and I wanna know if she is planning revenge…if she is planning one then I am the only person who can try and reason with her”
Zoli:”this is not making sense at all”
X:”since when has our life ever make sense….that’s Bee people, the gangster female boss…I was just as shocked to know that she died so easily, Just one bullet from Tshililo and she dies?”
Tshili:”but you guys said you threw her down to the valley””
Me:”yeah we did, that’s why I don’t understand how this might have happened”
So I had to go see Bonota like she asked. Xolani said he couldn’t let me go alone so he was coming with. I really didn’t want him to come but hey he insisted. Rendani also insisted on coming…she said that if things gets ugly then she’ll try to reason with her boyfriend…So we left Tshililo alone with Zoleka and left for Svig’s house. We got there and we found her in the lounge with Jay and Svig. We greeted and then Bee asked for a private moment with me. We went to one of the rooms to speak in private. The first thing she did was giving me a hug when we got to that room…I was seriously shocked…I was expecting a gun.
Bee:” I missed you so much, you still smell the same” she let go and looked straight into my eyes
Bee:” you are the only person I ever thought about V Boy, I was angry at you for weeks, well I still am but seeing you here…..wow it’s hard to stay angry”
Me:” what happened to you?” I really wanted to know. She looked at me and shook her head
Bee:” you mean after you threw me down the mountain like a dog to rot? Well this is what I was told when I woke up in a hospital bed” she sat on the bed
Bee:” there was a car accident on the N12 road where you and Xolani threw me that same night…..so apparently the car lost control and fell over, you know mus how high up the road is, so they said that the car didn’t really fell down to the valley, thanks to some trees so it got stuck there….fortunately for me, the same thing happened when you threw my body down, you rolled me down and I was stopped by some branches and the car fell just close to me” owk this was some scary s***, so now Bonita knew everything that’s happened....the biggest question was what was she gonna do about it? Was she gonna tell Svig?
Bee:” so when the emergency people arrived on the scene and were trying to help the passengers in the car, they saw the wrapped up linen and took it out only to get shocked to see me with a new gunshot wound…they checked for the pulse…they found it but it was very weak so I was finally dying… I spent 2 days unconscious, and then it took me few days to remember what had happened to me” I swallowed saliva
Me:” so you know what happened to you?” she looked at me and stood up
Bee:” you are asking if I still remember that your wife tried to kill me? Well the answer is yeah I do” I just looked at her
Bee:” I gotta say that she took me by surprise, never thought she had the guts to pull the trigger….after she shot me I was totally gone, unconscious, but she didn’t shoot me on the heart…she missed it buy few mm’s…I think for few minutes to an hour I was unconscious due to shock because I later regained my consciousness but somehow my body was unable to move….they said she shot me and cut one of the veins connected to my spine, that’s why I was paralysed”
Me:” but I checked for a pulse and there was nothing” I wiped off the sweat on my face…i was seriously sweating
Bee:” I can’t say I know why but when you came back with Xolani my mind was back and my body was just paralysed and I couldn’t move so I couldn’t really do anything, but I could hear you guys talking….i had never felt that helpless in my life, i tried screaming your name but my lips couldn’t move at all …..I was just fortunate that I didn’t bleed a lot” I put my hands on my face...this was messed up
Me:” so when are you telling everyone?” seriously I wanted to meet my fate and get it over with
Bee:” I am not”’
Me:” what? But why? I betrayed you”
Bee:” wrong, your wife betrayed me and I am going to make her pay”
Me:” damn it Bonita you can’t do that, she didn’t mean to do it….she regretted it ever since but there was nothing she could have done...Bee you slept with her husband, did you honestly expect her to thank you for it?” I said pointing fingers at her
Bee:"i didn’t force you did i? If i remember correctly, you came on to me and said you are willing to give it to me"
me:"i know that but my wife still felt betrayed and you can’t punish her for acting out of anger"
Bee:” I should be killing you too but you know I can’t do that because I have a soft spot for you but the thought that you threw me off the mountain like a dog…” she looked at me and shook her head
Bee:” I don’t mean a thing to you do i? Not even a single thing”
Me:” that’s not the truth, the thing is you were dead when I arrived on the scene…well I thought you were dead and I had to protect my wife…Bee if I didn’t protect her I was going to lose both you and her….just try to understand this”
Bee:” the only thing I understand is that I am going to kill that wife of yours and then get rid of this baby I am carrying and I will get back to this gangster bitch without any hindrances…everyone need to know that the bitch is back and the bitch is hungry for some serious action” this just finished me off….Bee was pregnant?
Me:” Bee nina thumbu? I mean are you pregnant?” my vision was blurry, I sat on the bed because I was struggling to stand, I didn’t have the strength
Bee:” not for long, I won’t be pregnant anymore in a day or so….i mean I would have taken morning after pill but your wife sort of like shot me before I could take one”
Me:” you are not terminating that baby Bonita it’s not happening” i roared....she looked at me and gave me the ‘F*** off' look
Bee:” you do know that this is not worth us fighting about because I will win right? I am not some little Barbie doll you can boss around V Boy….just because I let you sleep with me doesn’t mean that you can tell me kak….i am still me and I might change my mind about not killing you"
Me:” but why are you doing this to me? Is it to torture me for what I have done to you? You can’t kill our baby Bonita please I am begging you” I was standing in front of her looking her straight in the eyes
Bee:” why would I hurt you deliberately, this has nothing to do with you V Boy, this is about my life, I am not the type to have a child”
Me:” I know that, and I also know why you don’t want that child Bonita, you are scared….you think of yourself as an undeserving woman but I promise you we can do it together, we can parent our child together, I will walk you through it Bee just don’t kill my child” I was seriously pleading with her
Bee:” it’s not just that, I am a gangster boss….my life is not for kids, I can’t have a child, I will hate to have a leverage, that’s what this child will be, plus imagine me with a big belly….V Boy I can’t do that and I won’t do it, not even for the only human being in the world I care about…you, not even for you”
I got closer to her, touched her chin and kissed her so hard, I was so angry at her, even when she was as irritating as hell, even though she didn’t want to listen to me…she was still attractive and I knew the effect I had on her, I knew this was my only chance at changing her mind and if this would save my baby’s life then I was willing to do it, I wasn’t about to lose another child, not when I could do something about it. She kissed me back. I carried her and put her on the bed, I climbed on top of her and kissed her some more. I stopped and looked at her
Me:” I know this is not easy for you Bee but please, do it for me….for the special time we had….give me this one special gift, don’t kill our baby, OUR BLOOD” my eyes was near tears, she looked at me, her eyes teary. She pushed me away and stood up
Bee:” Thembu having this child will change things for me, I have enemies, real enemies….and I am a gangster boss, I run around with guns, I shoot people and torture people at times….i enjoy being like this and I can’t imagine going 9 months playing it safe…no it’s not going to work, I can’t carry the baby for 9 months…if this was a two way thing, if I could give it to you I was going to do it”
Me:” it’s not an ‘it’ it’s a him or her” damn this girl
Bee:” doesn’t matter much to me”
Me:” just try, we can make it work”
Bee:” STOP IT V BOY!! Don’t you get it? I am not going to do it, it’s not my thing, I have told you this before, all I ever wanted from you was sex because I feel something for you but it ends there, I don’t want any kind of relationship with anyone, including you and sharing a child with you?.....nooo I can’t” this girl was just scared, she spent most of her life on her own without a parent and I think she was scared of doing the same to her child, she was afraid that maybe she won’t make a good mom
Me:” Bonita please”
Bee:” no I am sorry Thembu, I wanna help you on this one but it’s not happening, so we are done here”
Me:” Bee”
Bee:” I said we are done, I will make an appointment to terminate” I looked at her, and a tear came out, I was about to lose another child, my blood. I walked to her and grabbed her by the neck and pinned her against the wall…I was so damn angry
Me:” Bonita I am begging you with every bone in my body, I will do anything you want…anything…just don’t kill the baby” within seconds she hit me so hard on my face and then the tables turned and I was now the one being pinned against the wall, she was breathing fire
Bee:” DO-NOT-EVER-DO-THAT…EVER!!!! You don’t get to do that to me V Boy, I will crush you if I want, you know that…I love you, yes but you of all people know the kind of an animal I am inside, don’t…do not test me owk? I am still Bonita the boss and you know what I am capable of” she let go of me and I coughed
Me:” Tshililo lost a baby, I can’t lose another one” she kicked me so hard and I fell to the floor. She squatted and looked at me
Bee:” I hate you for doing this Thembu, I hate you for making me feel all this” she was breathing hard. She got up and I did the same too.
I looked at her and held her by her waist….the only way I could win Bee was being intimate with her, it was her only weakness, fighting her physically wasn’t going to cut it
Me:” for making you feel what?” I breathed into her ears and carried her to bed…I climbed on top of her but she turned around and changed the tables…I was at the bottom and she was on top…damn this girl just wanna be in control of everything
Bee:” for making me love you so much, I don’t want a family and I don’t want this baby, honestly I don’t but I also don’t want to deny you a chance at having a second born…I hate this feeling, I wanna be in control of everything and with you…well I don’t know,
I hate you and i am so damn angry right now”
Me:” you love me” she tried to get out of bed but I held her tight
Me:” Please think about it”
Bee:” Thembu let me go”
Me:” no…not until you promise to think about it”
Bee:” F*** it V, you do know that if I decide to throw a punch on you now on your face you’ll bleed right? So let me go before I seriously lose it” I let her go
Bee:” I will think about it, but that doesn’t mean anything…and it doesn’t mean that your wife is safe…she need to be taught a lesson”
Me:” But Bee i-“
Bee:” GO”
I walked out of the room. Ok she said that she’ll think about it. Until I was sure that Bonita was not going to try and kill my wife I had to keep her safe. I got to the others and chatted a bit and then walked out with my brother. I told him about my convo with Bonita and that she was pregnant. Xolani was still shocked at the pregnancy news and we were discussing how we were going to protect Tshililo when I received a text on my phone
“Someone has to protect your so called wife from your psychotic gangster side bitch….so I took her and she is with me, don’t bother looking because you won’t find her, I will return her when you’ve finally put your side dish on the leash...until then she will be with me….and oww I want my brother’s body…we will talk about my revenge when I am good and ready, you still have a lot on your plate right now…..but I AM COMING FOR YOU, I KNOW YOU KILLED HIM” I was still starring at my phone’s screen when Xolani answered a phone call
X:” what do you mean someone took her?” after that I knew that he really took her….this was Ndivhuwo’s twin….but how did he know my wife and why was he protecting her? And how did he know about Bee and the fact that she wanna kill my wife?
TSHILILO
I was chilling with Zoleka waiting for a phone call from the guys when someone knocked on my door. I walked to the door and opened and someone immediately covered my mouth with something and just like that I passed out.
So I woke up in a strange room that had everything white. I was lying on a bed. I looked at myself and I was still wearing the same clothes…I looked around the room in fear and I saw him. He was looking straight at me, he was standing against the closed door with his hands folded on his chest. He was wearing black everything…black shorts, black vest and black sneakers. I moved backwards until I hit the headboard. I was petrified. They said they killed him…last time I heard he was dead…how was he here with me? Could it be that I am dead too? And then it finally hit me…the guys at the club in Soweto said he had a twin. So this must be the twin they were talking about. Yohh I was so scared…this guy had no single reason to keep me alive…I was the reason why Ndivhuwo was dead.
He walked towards me and I quickly got out of the bed and ran to the window and started screaming “help!” while hitting the window. I then ran to the door and tried to open but it was locked. I looked at him and what I saw was Ndivhuwo…this was him…if this was the twin then they looked awfully alike
Me:”what do you want from me?” I was scared shame
Me:” if you wanna kill me just get it over with” I just wanted him to kill me without first torturing me…an easy death is what I wanted
Him:” why would I do that Tshililo? I was not lying when I said you are the only woman I have ever loved….i will never hurt you?” what? Ok I really thought I was dreaming…I was totally confused
Me:”what? Ndivhuwo?” he was walking to me
Ndivhu:”yeah it’s me” yohh the shock on my face was priceless I tell you
Me:”what? it…uhm how…ahh and the other guy?”
Ndivhu:” that was Roli my twin….your guys killed him right?” he was very calm…I just looked at him and swallowed
Ndivhu:” I know they killed him…I heard about the baby, I am so sorry Tshililo” yohh the only thing I knew at that moment was fear. He got to me and tried to hug me
Me:”no no no stay away from me Ndivhuwo or Roli or whatever the hell your name is please stay the hell away from me”
Ndivhu:”Tshililo I know my brother messed everything up between us but believe me when I say it was not me but him”
Me:”what are you trying to say?”
Ndivhu:”well” he scratched his head and went to sit on the bed
Ndivhu:” well we used to swap lives…like I could be him and he could be me depending on what’s happening with our business”
Me:”ow my God” I sat on the floor with my legs stretched out and my back against the door.
Me:”owk Ndivhuwo Roli or whatever, so why did you kidnap me? Do whatever you wanna do to me and then take me back or if you wanna kill me then just do it already”
Ndivhu:”well I brought you here because Bee is back and she wants to kill you for what you did to her” yohh my throat went dry, how did he know about this? And if Bonita was really back then Xolani and Thembu’s lives were in danger but clearly Ndivhuwo didn’t care about that obviously.
Ndivhuwo:”ahg Tshililo please don’t look so surprised, it’s not like I’ll do anything to hurt you…I have already told you that I love you. So you will stay here with me until I am sure that Bee is not a threat”
Me:” and what will you get in return?’
Ndivhu:” you will be alive, that’s what I will get”
Me:” I am seriously confused here. Just yesterday you told me you didn’t care…you grabbed me by my neck and had me chocking, you then tried to get my husband arrested and you kidnapped me, which is why I am sitting here today unpregnant and now you are telling me about your undying love for me? ahg Ndivhuwo please cut the crap…if you tell me that you are protecting me because you are trying to get some deal with Svig and them then I will believe you….i am just a leverage aren’t i?”
Ndivhu:” what? Tshililo no…goodness it wasn’t me…it was my twin brother who is now dead and I am sitting here alone mourning his death” I looked away and not say anything
Ndivhu:”owk let me be honest with you….i have told you the truth about my life but I told you half the truth. Everything I told you is the truth Tshili, except for the fact that I wasn’t alone…I was with Rolivhuwa….my twin brother”
Ok he looked like he wanted to cry and I didn’t know what to say or what to do…I was not even sure if he was telling the truth and I wasn’t even sure if I should be comforting him because i was still afraid of him
Ndivhu:” well I didn’t tell you about him because that’s what we do…when we move into a new town, we don’t do it together, only one of us move and the other one stand-in for the other if the other is busy and no one will notice….we were really alike. So Rolivhuwa is the friend I told you about, the one that took me out of the children’s home to Gauteng...it was him, he ran away from the home and he managed to get involved in this life. everything I explained happened the same way…except I was with him and not alone…I studied Conservation and he studied IT and other computer stuff that I don’t quite understand but he was a computer geek” he took a break and wiped off the tears…owk I had to be a good person here and comfort him shame, I know he kidnapped me but it was for my own good, even though I was struggling to believe that he really had a twin brother but if it was true, losing a twin must really be painful. So I went to him and helped him wipe off the tears and held his one hand
Ndivhu:” the people we do business with, most of them don’t know that we are twins…some knows but they’ve never seen us together. When I came here the main aim was to open a branch this side but I had to move here permanently so that I can do research about the market and the dealers around here. Sometimes I’d go overseas and leave him on my place because I couldn’t miss work”
Me:”what?”
Ndivhu:”I could be him and he could be me at times….depending on what’s happening. We shared everything Tshililo, we updated each other about everything and we’ve even shared girlfriends…I mean sometimes Roli could go overseas and I had to be him…meaning that I’ll have to check out his girls too” I looked at him with my eyes wide open
Me:”uhm…did him? Like did i? With him?” i just had to ask
Ndivhu:”Tshililo” he whispered…the look on his face said it all
Me:”nooooo Ndivhuwo”
Ndivhu:” I could not be here full time and I had to come to work so he was doing that for me sometimes”
Me:”ow my word…so I have kissed him?” he nodded
Me:” damn it…that’s sick man...who do something like that” I was now standing
Ndivhu:”the twins who love each other and that are willing to share every damn thing….and that have an empire to build and protect…we had a vision Tshili and sharing things was part of the bargain”
Me:”the night at the beach…who was that?”
Ndivhu:”me”
Me:” and the person who grabbed my neck?”
Ndivhu:”him, i will never do that”
Me:”who told me about the gangster life?”
Me:”that was me and that’s why he decided to take over….he was angry and said my feelings were clouding my judgement so I had to leave and he came here to handle the whole situation” owk I was confused
Me:”how did he do your job? I mean he studied IT” he gave me a fake laugh
Ndivhu:”I was a conservation manager Tshili not a mathematician….it’s nothing major”
Me:”when you said you shared everything you mean everything?”
Ndivhu:”every damn thing so that if I had to leave or he had to leave I can be able to take over where he left off” yohhh these guys were really sick
Me:”the night in your house? Who was that?”
Ndivhu:”that was me Tshili, he wouldn’t have crossed that boundary, I told him not to”
oww lord this was too much to process serious…I just stood there feeling really speechless
Ndivhu:” Tshili I had to go to France for business and you were back at work…so I told my brother to win you back for me while I was gone but I also told him not to ever sleep with you…he was also supposed to do some business proposal to Svig…so he told me he will handle everything….and I left everything in his hands…”
Me:”when did you come back from France?”
Ndivhu:”when I couldn’t hear from my brother for two days, I knew something had happened….we talked like 100 times a day and when two days passed without him and with his tracking device off…I knew something was up….so I had to come down, our team filled me in on where he was last seen, he took you and your husband to hospital and that was it” I put my hands on my head, I knew it…somehow I knew it….i knew that the Ndivhuwo that I knew would never hurt me, so it wasn’t him? This was still confusing
Me:”how do I know that you are telling me the truth? That you are not Rolivhuwa?”
Ndivhu:” follow your heart, I won’t convince you to believe me”
Me:”I am so sorry about your brother” seriously I was feeling sorry for him, especially now that I knew it wasn’t him, I know he didn’t hurt me
Ndivhu:” Roli and I had different personalities but he was still my family, my best friend, my twin and I loved him more than anything in this world Tshili, I won’t lie to you, I loved him more than I loved you…he was impatient but he always gets things done so that’s why I trusted him so much and that’s why I trusted him with you….I didn’t know he was going to do things the way he did….i only heard the things he did to you when I was back from France by colleagues…when I was in France he told me that all was in control”
Me:”but he cried when he realised that there was something wrong with my baby…I really thought it was you”
Ndivhu:”like I said….we share all the important things if one is to stand-in for the other….so I told him everything about you and the baby….i think he was more scared of how I’ll react when I learn the truth about what he did to you and how he was the cause of you losing the baby….he knew how much you meant to me”
Me:”so it really wasn’t you?” I had tears in my eyes
Ndivhuwo:” No” he walked to me and hugged me
Ndivhu:” I am so sorry about the baby”
Me:”somehow I knew you wouldn’t hurt me…and I was so angry at you Ndivhuwo…I honestly wanted you dead for killing my baby…..but I am sorry about your brother, I really am….even though he brought me pain, he was your brother, your only family”
Ndivhu:” someone will be sorry….but it’s not going to be you….i am sorry love but I will make them pay Tshili….that’s my brother, my only family except for my daughter, he was everything to me…we had so many plans together, I can’t rest until someone pays for killing him….the people who killed him deserves the best revenge in the world…I am still planning it, I am going to sit and enjoy as I see them surfer for killing my other half” I closed my eyes and felt chills down my spine…he was saying all that while still hugging me. I knew that he was talking about Thembu and his gang. I knew for a fact that Ndivhuwo was not going to back down without a fight…but I had to find a way to stop him…not kill him but persuade him in some way. I broke the hug and looked at him
Me:”how did you find out that Bee wants to kill me?”
Ndivhu:”like I said….my brother was a computer geek….we have eyes and ears everywhere…not literally everywhere but in important places” I broke the hug and sat on the bed
Ndivhu:” you’re hungry?” I shook my head, hunger was the last thing on my mind, I had to think of a way to save my family and friends from the heart broken Ndivhuwo.
THEMBULUWO
Xolani and i went back to the house. Bee refused to tell anyone where she was and said that it was not up for discussion. All she said was that Nico didn’t take her so the poor guy was innocent. Svig said that even though Nico wasn’t guilty he wasn’t going to apologise for falsely accusing him because apparently he don’t do apologies. So Xolani and I told them about what we knew about Ndivhuwo and the twin. They were shocked and Svig immediately made few phone calls wanting to find out more about the mystery twins. He looked at me and told me that this is why you don’t have to kill people when you know nothing about them…we were in deep s*** now because I couldn’t think straight
Zwi a Penga
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TSHILILO
Ndivhuwo walked out of the room and left me alone. I walked out too because he I didn’t lock. I made my way to the passage and then to the lounge. I opened the door and walked out of the house. I got the shock off my life when I looked around and realised that we were actually in the middle of nowhere. It looked like we were in a farm and there was no house near-by
Ndivhu:” wanna run away?” he gave me a fright…I turned around and looked at him
Me:” maybe…I mean I was taken against my own will”
Ndivhu:”it’s for your own good” I walked inside the house and he followed me. I walked to the lounge and sat on the sofa…there was no running away from this so I better get used to it. He went to the bedroom and came back with one big book and handed it over to me
Me:” what’s this?”
Ndivhu:” open” I took it and it was a photo album.. I started paging it. I saw a photo of two identical twins…they must have been about four…so this is them
Me:” it’s you and him?” he nodded, I continued paging and watching the pics. There were more pics of them now than when they were young. They really looked like the same person...i couldn’t even tell which one was Ndivhuwo
Ndivhuwo:” can you even tell the difference? Can you tell which one is me?”
Me:” I honestly have no idea…do you even know yourself? I bet this confuses you too” I never thought that two people can look so identical
Me:” your daughter?” it was a picture of one of them holding a little baby girl
Ndivhu:”yah”
Me:” she is cute”
Ndivhu:” like me” he smiled. I finished watching the pics and gave him back the album.
So he told me that he was busy cooking for us. I asked him to let me go and said that I’d take care of myself…he didn’t want to hear of it and said that I had nothing to go back home for except for my husband who was probably bonding with Bee. I hated it when he said that. I then asked him to let me talk to him. I wanted to at least tell him not to worry about me and that I was ok. He finally agreed to give me the phone and I called Thembuluwo. I told him not to worry about me and that I was safe. I then told him not to worry about me and that he should never ever do anything with Bonita…he swore to me that he wouldn’t dare. I sat there on the couch after the call and thought about my husband and how bad everything was with Bonita back. I didn’t realise it but tears started coming out. Ndivhuwo quickly walked to me
Ndivhu:” Tshili love what’s wrong?”
Me:” stop Ndivhuwo just stop…don’t start with that nonsense of yours of calling me ‘love’ ok?”
Ndivhu:” ok I get that just don’t cry ok?” he tried to touch me but I removed his hands from me
Me:” I want to go home Ndivhuwo, I just wanna go home”
Ndivhu:” I know…I know you do but I can’t let you go Tshili, Bee can’t be trusted at all, she is a dangerous woman so you are safe here with me…you and I both know that Thembu can never protect you from her….but I can and I can’t do it if you keep on crying and being sad like this….it hurt to see you like this….at least pretend like you are fine owk? I can take you back home and then she kills you within a day and then what? How will that make me feel?” I rolled my eyes because he made me feel like I was being dramatic, like I was blowing everything out of proportion
Me:” but why do you love me? i don’t understand why you are protecting me like this?”
Ndivhu:”we shared something special before your husband came back from jail and I believe that it was something real. Deep down you know that you love me, maybe not the same way that you love Thembu but you love me….and I know I confuse you, I make you so confused that you don’t know what to do but you always choose him because you are married to him and you have a huge history together and you have a family, it’s easy to brush me off because you’ve just met me but I promise you Tshili, one day you’ll admit that you love me and I will be happy to accept those words from you” I just looked at him and said nothing. This guy had a confidence that I didn’t quite understand
Ndivhu:”I know it won’t be now but we still have a long way to go, Thembu is not a competition for me, it’s just that I want you to be happy and I want you to make your own choices….the boy is always on the wrong Tshili….you’ll cry coming to me after he messed up...and I will love you like you’ve ever been loved. I know you are full of fear because you wanna be loved and you love the way he loves you but that’s because you haven’t experienced anything better….i mean you started off with Luvhengo who used to beat the s*** out of you and then Thembu…..he loves you, yes no doubt about that….but can you honestly look me in the eyes and say you are happy? Are you contented? He’s hurt you a lot… Well there is still more in store for you…. I will always be here for you…as a friend or as your man….depending on which one you want”
Me:” how do you know Luvhengo?” he looked at me and laughed
Ndivhu:” you know me better….i know you more than you know yourself love”
I got up and walked to the bedroom I was in in the morning while wiping off the tears. I was crying, I don’t know why but I was crying. Ndivhuwo was manipulating me, he was reminding me of all the wrongs that Thembu had done on purpose but I was not going to budge…Thembu was my husband and I loved him and nothing would come between us, not even Ndivhuwo. He walked after me…I opened the door to the room and he took my hand
Ndivhu:” sorry”
Me:” I know what you are trying to do, I love him Ndivhuwo, stop manipulating me owk? Just stay away from me until you decide to let me go”
Ndivhu:” owk love I will do that”
Me:” love? Love again?” I yelled at him. He got to me and gave me a hug…I couldn’t fight him simply because I had no strength so I hugged him back
Me:” I love him Ndivhuwo, I love him with all my heart and the things you’ve been saying?” I was crying
Ndivhu:” I know you love him i never said you don’t and I am sorry if I upset you?”
Me:” I want you to understand one thing Ndivhuwo, I know I said lot of things to your brother when we were still working together but I will repeat again….i love Thembuluwo and I will never leave him, whatever happens I will stay….i can get angry and cry for days but I will never leave, I really really love him Ndivhuwo, so please find someone else, we cannot be together” he broke the hug and looked at me
Ndivhu:” thanks for that love but I am a big boy…don’t worry about me, I won’t go psycho on you the way my brother did, I am in love with you not obsessed so take a chill pill”
Me:” I want to sleep” he gave me his phone to call my son…he reckoned it was good for me and he was right
THEMBULUWO
That evening I decided to spend the night at Xolani’s place. I didn’t want to be at home and alone. I told Xolani about how I lied to Tshililo and told her that I used protection with Bee…and now with Bonita pregnant it was obvious that I lied. I knew for sure that Tshililo was going to be pissed at me…well maybe the word pissed was not the right word…she was going to go insane. Xolani told me not to worry about it because Tshililo loves me and she’ll come around. I was worried about her but for now there was nothing I could do about it…all I had to do was wait on Svig’s plan…the fact that I talked to her earlier on made me feel better
TSHILILO
I woke up in the middle of the night because I was battling to sleep. I went to the kitchen and I found him standing in the dark crying. The only light in the room was the one coming through the window from outside. I stood at the door and didn’t know what to do
Me:” Ndivhuwo” I said going to him
Ndivhu:”uhm hey” he quickly wiped off the tears with his t shirt
Ndivhu:” what’s wrong? You aint sleepy? Why are you up?” he was trying so hard to hide the fact that he was crying
Me:” I was thirsty”
Ndivhu:” uhm owk, let me get you some water” he said trying to reach for a glass
Me:” Ndivhuwo its owk, its fine to cry….you miss him I understand, you don’t have to act tough with me…you’ve known him your whole life, I know that it can’t be easy”
Ndivhu:” I am not crying Tshililo, you need to go back to sleep” he said that and handed me the glass of water. There was a bottle of whiskey on the table, so he’s been drinking. I put the glass on the table and took his hand
Me:” Ndivhu its owk” he took his hand away from me and walked to the lounge and I followed him. He stood in the middle of the room with his hands on his hips
Ndivhu:” I have never felt anything like this….i loved him Tshili, he was my other half, a part of me….how do I face this world without him….we had so many plans together….this is killing me” he covered his face with his hands, I don’t know why but my tears started coming out. I went to him and we hugged
Me:” I’m sorry Ndivhuwo”
Ndivhu:” I am trying to be strong, to deal with this the best way I know how….it’s hard, I just can’t believe that I will never see him again….i need them to give me his body Tshililo or I will kill them both….i promise you if they destroyed his body then I will destroy them both” he let go of the hug. He switched on the light and took his laptop
Me:”Ndivhuwo!!!” he had a scary look on his face
Ndivhu:” I have been chilling for few days now, I know exactly what to do to them now….i have to find out the person who actually killed him, the person who stopped his breath, I will cut his hand, cook it and eat it while he watch, I will torture that person until I feel satisfied….i know Roli would have done the same for me….somebody is gonna shit on themselves around here” owk now I was scared, I mean the person who actually killed Roli was Thembuluwo
Me:” Ndivhuwo please just think about this”
Ndivhu:” I have been thinking about it since I came back and I know this is what I need to do….i will leave them confused and helpless. Once they have accepted defeat and their mighty Svig have bowed down to me…they will continue doing business just like how Roli explained to them only this time i won’t give them a cent of my profit. I will rule them Tshililo and if you want….you will be the damn queen of this kingdom” owww God, this was bad, real bad Michael Jackson
Me:” Ndivhuwo I am begging you what if they kill you too?” I was scared for Thembu because Ndivhuwo meant business
Ndivhu:” never, they won’t even see me coming” owk I knew that Ndivhuwo was going to find out that Thembu is the one who ended his brother’s life so I figured that I should tell him now and buy myself some time to plead with him
Me:” I know who killed your brother” I cried out. He looked at me with his eyes wide open. He walked to the kitchen and took out a bag that had guns and a whole lot of tools. He put the bag on the table and started preparing the guns
Ndivhu:” who did it?” i looked at him and started crying. He stopped what he was doing and came and stood next to me. He looked at me straight in the eyes
Ndivhu:”Tshililo?”
Me:” Ndivhuwo I am begging you”
Ndivhu:”Tshili?”
Me:” it’s Thembu”
Ndivhu:” owk” was that all?
So he started making few phone calls while away from me. He walked back to the living room and I started begging him not to hurt Thembuluwo. He couldn’t budge…he told me that nothing was going to stop him so I decided to offer him the only thing he wanted form me in exchange of Thembu’s life.
Me:” Ndivhuwo I will give you anything you want just don’t kill him, please don’t do it” he looked at me
Ndivhu:” anything?”I nodded with my heart beating so fast.
I felt that if I had to sleep with him to save my husband then I was ready to do it…it was better than having him killed….he walked to me as I was standing in the middle of the room and held me by my hips. He knew what i meant when i said i could give him anything. I didn’t know if Thembu was going to forgive me for this but i was doing this for him. He looked me straight in the eyes. His eyes were scary and he looked really pissed. I was scared shame. He carried me and I got even more scared, it was about to happen....i was about to have sex with another man who was not my husband, it had never happened before. My heart was beating out of my chest. He kissed me so so hard, owk I won’t lie and say I didn’t enjoy the kiss because I enjoyed it, it reminded me of the times we had before Thembu came back. He put me down.
Ndivhu:” I love you Tshililo I do…but I won’t let you trade making love with me for a Fucker like him…one day I will make love to you but it won’t be to save his f****d up life, it will be for us, it will be because you want us to do it so I am sorry, I am not buying this” yohh I felt like I was dreaming
Me:”what? Ndivhuwo please” i begged him, i was desperate to save Thembu's life
Ndivhu:” I love you, you know that and I wanna make you happy but this is one thing I won’t do for you….i have to do this for my brother…I actually feel insulted right now, to think that you take me for a fool, do you honestly think I’d choose sex over my brother’s revenge? These two things are different Tshili…I love you but this is real life business, they have woken up a monster in me, I have to earn my respect…they have to learn not to ever ever cross me ever again” he had cupped my face as he said that
He kissed me one last time and disappeared into the passage. I walked after him with tears on my face. I walked into the room he walked into and damn I got the complete shock of my life. What the hell was this? What? I couldn’t believe what was in front of my eyes
Me:”Ndivhuwo what the...?” I really didn’t see this one coming.....i knew he was sick but not this sick
Ndivhu” s*** you are not supposed to be in here Tshililo”
THEMBULUWO
The following morning I went to Bonita’s house. She was shocked to see me, in fact she didn’t even want me to be there. So I begged her to spare my wife’s life. After a little bit of begging she told me that she’ll let Tshililo live but will get rid of the pregnancy. Yohh I begged her again to give me the chance to father our son. I told her that she won’t even have to stay with him or her and that I will take the child after birth and she’ll continue with her life as if nothing had happened. Nothing made me happy than hearing her say
Bee:” I will have the damn F*****g baby and I won’t kill your bloody stupid wife” it felt like a dream…I expected a real fight
Me:” are you serious?”
TSHILILO
It was in the afternoon and I was sitting on the couch alone feeling so bored. Ndivhuwo had been busy since morning. I think he was preparing his sweet revenge. Thinking about the room I walked into earlier this morning still scared me. It was more like a computer or cctv room or whatever you may call it. There were lot of computers and notice boards and maps. He had a cctv footage of everyone’s house in our gang…this explained why he knew everything that’s been happening. There was another screen with the Traffic Police operations…and the one with SAPS roadblocks…there was also another screen with live weather updates…and there was a big one with a Google map and locations marked in red labelled ‘operations 1 to 20 something’ I didn’t know what it meant….i just assumed that it was their business operations….the labels were not just in South Africa, they also extended to other African countries, Australia, North America and South America….these guys were running some serious businesses, it was not a child’s play and they seem to be well connected. I was angry and pissed when I saw all this, I mean this guy had been watching us 24/7. He told me not to stress and that he never watched any of us having sex, as if that’s supposed to make me feel better. So I was sitting there and we hadn’t talked the whole day. I was pissed at him and I think he was also pissed at me for offering him sex in exchange of Thembu’s life
So he came to me and told me that we will be leaving the house and that he’ll book me into a hotel. He said that it was about to get ugly and that I should not try to follow him or anything like that. He was going for Svig and the whole gang. This was my last attempt at trying to save them so I begged him again to spare their lives…I told him that it would kill me to kill Thembu but all he did was apologise for what he was about to do. He then looked at me straight in the eyes and said
Ndivhu:” I love you a lot Tshililo. I love the way you carry yourself and how you respect yourself, I knew you were a good woman when I learned that you managed to wait four years for your husband when he was arrested. That proved to me that you are faithful and that once you love someone you don’t let go and you should not change so don’t ever…I mean no matter how ugly things maybe, don’t ever trade your body for anything, it looks cheap and for real man like me…well I am sorry to use this word but it’s disgusting…so don’t ever do it, Not even for your child Tshililo, not even for Thembu….what you did this morning really disturbed me, especially when I look at the person you were trying to do it for, it was not worth it at all….when real men loves a woman there is something unique about her but once you lose that…then I don’t know….we will be leaving in 30 minutes” he said that and walked away…he left me sitting there feeling super embarrassed.
After exactly 30 minutes he packed everything in the car and we drove away. He took me to a hotel and told me to stay there until he comes back. He left two guys to look after me. He knew that I’ll try and follow him so the guys were to make sure that I don’t go anywhere and to ensure my safety. He left me in the room. I was stressed and worried about my husband.
THEMBULUWO
Bee called a meeting to her house that evening. We were all gathered when Svig’s phone rang. He picked up and then he seemed to have gotten some bad news because he looked pissed. It was after that call when it rang again and then Bee’s phone also rang and then Jay’s. They were all talking to their callers shouting and screaming…something seemed to be going down. After their calls they told us that all the drugs that were being transported had been hijacked and all the boys selling in the streets had been hijacked as well as the drug lords in different areas that were managing few operations. Obviously someone was onto us. Xolani and I came to one conclusion...NDIVHUWO. We told the rest of the guys who we were suspecting and that’s when we started preparing for war…Ndivhuwo had started a war and it was seriously going to go down.
So we started getting our guns ready. We were about to embark on a man hunt for Ndivhuwo. We all knew that this guy was a pro so we had to really be careful. Svig made few phone calls to assemble all of his guys…even the ones from Cape Town were flying down. I tried to talk Bee out of doing this but she brushed me off…she told me she was not missing this for the world. After we all had guns we walked out of Bee’s house and we got the shock of our lives. There was a car that looked unfamiliar out on the drive way. All our cars were parked there but there was this one strange car. We didn’t even hear it drove in. it was a black Audi…there were three more black cars parked out the gate. And then I saw him…if I didn’t kill Ndivhuwo myself I’d say it was him. He was sitting on top of his car bonnet…he was wearing black everything plus a black beanie as well.
Sticks:” is that…?”
Gerrit:” looks like it”
X:” it’s the twin”
Svig:” the F*** do they think they are doing?”
He said only for us to hear. He was seriously angry. Ndivhuwo’s twin had two guns on him…there were two guys on both doors of his car and they also had guns…there were more guys at the gate with guns too…they were all in black
Bee:” the F*** is this? Are you trying to be funny or what? Because this is pure disrespect”
Svig:” now you’ve over stepped the boundary boy” he said that and got his gun ready and walked to them. Ndivhuwo stood up while still on top of his car
Ndivhu:” you might wanna stop right there Sivu…. You don’t wanna come close to me, you have no idea who I am or what I am capable of”
Gerrit:” isn’t he supposed to be dead?” he was looking around
Ndivhu:” yeah I am, but apparently there is two of us…like photocopies”
Jay:” owk enough talking” he said that and got his gun ready
Ndivhu:” you might want to hear this before you shoot me” everyone looked at him, we were all pointing our guns at him
Svig:” say your last words boy…you will pay for what you’ve done”
Ndivhu:” the mighty Svig…well I visited Cape Town….well my guys did and now little Rendi and your little daughter are in my capable hands….and Jay, beautiful wife you have there, it’s a pity the kids are now left with her sister….uhm Bee, the famous B-O-N-I-T-A, the gangster chikita….you do have a sister right? Yeah I have her too….actually I have your families, all of you and unlike Nico….i am not playing games, I can kill them all if I have to….you’ve killed my family after all so I might as well return the favour”
Svig:” you are bluffing…I don’t give a s*** who you have….i will end you right here and right now”
Ndivhu:” that’s fine, just know that I won’t die alone….all of you here die with me and your families too…. And i don’t bluff”
Sticks:” ahg damn it let me kill this bloody Mother F***” he was walking towards Ndivhuwo’s twin with a gun on his hand…Ndivhuwo‘s twin shot him on the leg and he fell. What the hell? Xolani ran to him….everyone looked at him, guns ready as hell…this was getting real
Ndivhu:” like I said, I don’t bluff…and eryone listen when I talk…so do I have your attention? I take it that you’ve heard about all your heists being hijacked…that was me…firstly I would ask for my brothers body“ everyone went dead silent, no one said anything
Ndivhu:” I will say this one last time….my brothers body”
Svig:” ahg tsek mfondini I don’t have time to listen to you….you are expecting us to sit here and listen to you? Ahg go to the nearest hel-“
He shot Svig’s leg too and then it went down. Everyone started shooting from both directions while hiding behind cars. Just when we were starting to shoot some guys came behind us and we knew that we were outnumbered so we stopped shooting. I looked at Xolani who was shot on the shoulder and wanted to help him so bad but the situation was bad. The guys that came to us were more than 20 so we didn’t have abchoice but to surrender. Trying to fight them would be trying to die a fast death. So they took our guns and everything and then put us in the car. I took off my shirt and wrap it around Xolani’s arm to try and stop the bleeding. We had no idea where they were taking us but I guess we were about to find out.
They took us to some hall in the middle of nowhere. They switched on the light as soon as we walked in. Ndivhuwo’s twin then walked in…he obviously had a bullet proof. We all went to sit in the corner. I looked around and Bonita wasn’t there
Ndivhu:” owk now that you are all here, except for Mrs Bonita of course….i wonder where she went…anyway I am sure she will be caught…the rest of Gauteng is down here anyway….i want my brother…give me his body and you might….and let me repeat, I said you might walk out of this alive”
Svig:” utheth ikaka ngoku…like seriously this is bull….i aint gonn do what you want….no one ever kidnap me or my child so go ahead…kill us, kill our families…but we aint going to give you your dead brother’s body, it aint gonn happen” Ndivhuwo’s twin laughed…I looked at Svig who looked like he couldn’t feel the pain of being shot
Ndivhu:” I thought as much, I am going to have to be a little persuasive then….SGWILO!” he called one of the guys who were still outside
Ndivhu:” we need the electricity” the guy walked out and came back with the electricity shock thingy
Ndivhu:” so no one is volunteering to tell me where my brother is? Owk” he signalled with his head and they grabbed Svig who had taken off his shirt and wrapped it around his leg to stop the bleeding. They started shocking him with the electricity and he screamed in pain…everyone was just looking at him
Ndivhu:” enough!!” they let him go
Ndivhu:” where is he? Where is his body?”
Svig:” go to the f*****g hell….i told you to just kill me….i don’t take orders from anyone village boy” he rubbed his nose looking really angry. He then walked to me and grabbed me by my neck
Ndivhu:” so you are the one who killed him? Do you have any idea what I wanna do to you right now?” his guys were walking around
Ndivhu:” bring me the tool box…looks like it’s going to be a long day….” He said that and took off his jacked and tossed it away. They took the tool box which appeared to be bigger than I thought and they brought it to him. He took out the grander and then looked at it and then at us
Ndivhu:” this is for you Roli…..i will make them talk” he plugged it and didn’t switch it on
Ndivhu:”so who want to be the first one to lose their leg?” he said that while taking out a cigarette and light it…he pulled on it once and then threw it on the floor and stepped on it. The look I had on my face was that of someone horrified.
Ndiv:” owk since none of ya’ll wanna say anything about my brother, this is how it’s going to get down”
He switched on the grander and then went to Gerrit who was obviously scared. Two guys came and held him down. Ndivhuwo’s twin started cutting off his leg…I didn’t wanna look …this was so bad…so painful…I was not the one on the spotlight being cut but I felt like it was happening to me
Svig:” stop!! Wait wait wait please man wait” Ndivhuwo's twin stopped and looked at Svig,t he cut on the leg was not deep yet but Gerrit was bleeding already
Ndivhu:” did I hear a ‘please’” he was smiling
Svig:” cut me…do whatever you like with me but let them go…leave them alone” he looked at Svig and smiled
Ndivhu:” you don’t get this do you? I want you down on your knees, begging me for mercy…I won’t kill you, at least not now…I am going to cut them all, do with them as I please…when I am done with them, when I have tortured them to my satisfaction…I will kill them all and then we will move to your little Rendi” Svig put his hands on his head and I could see that he was confused…he didn’t have any other plan here…I had never seen him this helpless
Ndiv:” your choice mfana, I torture them and then shoot them all while you watch or you tell me where my brother is? Your pride or your team?” Svig covered his face with his hands
Svig:” he is buried in a farm…just after Outeniqua mountains on your way from George to Odtshoorn….i can show you on the map where the farm is and where we buried him….i guess you have all you wanted now, so can you let us go?”
Ndiv:” uhm nope….he is still not coming back to life is he?” he took out his phone and pressed on it and then showed it to Svig
Ndiv:”indicate on that map where you’ve buried him” Svig took the phone and pressed on it for a while and then gave it back to him. He gave the phone to one of the guys who then walked out
Ndivhu:” I hope you didn’t lie to me” he said that and grabbed me by my neck again
Ndivhu:” I know you killed him…so what was his last words?” he whispered to me
Me:” uhm”
Ndiv:” I am not playing here boy…what I did to Svig is nothing compared to what I will do to you”
Me:” he didn’t say anything”
Ndiv:” owk and what’s your last words?”
Me:” what?” he looked at me and gave me a fake laugh
Ndiv:” yep your last words, I am about to kill you right now”
Zwi a Penga
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So he grabbed me by my neck and chocked me. He then let go of me and I fell to the ground. He stepped on my neck with his boots and I could feel my breathing slowing down. He stopped and I coughed. He took a pole and put it on my stomach and applied a force on it…damn it hurt so bad. I started coughing and my body was now shaking. Yohh the pain I was feeling was out of this world. Everyone was quiet, they were all just looking at me as Ndivhuwo do with me as he please. He then took out a metal stick and started beating me up and I got to a point where I blocked everything out and just be numb.
Ndiv:” this is nothing Thembu mfana, I still have to remove your parts one by one….just for my satisfaction and all of them will sit and watch as I do this in memory of my brother” at this point all I wanted to do was die. He was still trying to reach for something from the toolbox when we heard the gunshots outside. Ndivhuwo stopped and looked all shocked. This could only be Bonita. Everyone was here except for her. I guess she managed to escape while everyone was busy shooting back in the house. Ndivhuwo grabbed two guns and walked outside. He left us inside with few more guys guarding us. The gun shots persisted and he came back a while later while holding Bee. He threw Bee across the room.
Ndiv:” the only reason why I am not killing you is because I have rules and my rules entails not to hurt babies so….i would hate to be responsible for your miscarriage” everyone gave Bee the death stare, everyone was shocked
Svig:” what?”
Javas:” no ways...is that true?”
Ndiv:” chill guys, now is not the time for that….i want you guys to understand one thing. I am a boss in this game, I understand and respect what you do but it’s nothing compared to what I do….i destroyed your kingdom in less than 2 hours…2 hours….that’s all it took me...all your businesses are on a stand still, I have your best men here and believe me when I say I am watching all your other guys so give it up and accept that I am the boss” as much as I hated to admit it, we were no match for this guy, he really knew what he was doing and he was really prepared
Ndiv:” I don’t know if my brother told you guys about the proposal but I still want the same thing….i want you guys to make that drug for me…and I will see how much I will give you…at first the agreement was to give you 50% but after all the jive you’ve caused me….you don’t deserve it and you’ll do the business with me…that’s an order” Svig, Jay and Bee just looked at each other and said nothing
Ndiv:” tick tock” he was looking at us
Jay:” and if we say no?”
Ndiv:” you can’t say no”
Bee:” let’s do this” She said that and looked at Svig
Svig:” owk”
Ndiv:” dankie san….this is what you’ll get for all the trouble you’ve put me through and for killing my brother” he walked out of the room and the guys that were there took some metal sticks and beatt the s*** out of us. Bonita was put on some corner and was left alone. I guess it was because of the pregnancy
Ndiv:” now that we got that out of the way….i am looking forward to working with you guys but I would love Svig to do one thing for me”
Jay:”what?”
Ndiv:” say it out loud…NDIV IS THE BOSS” owk this guy was over doing this whole thing, really…wasn’t it not enough that he humiliated all of us? Svig looked at him and shook his head. Ok one thing was confusing here…why was he saying that Ndiv was the boss because I killed Ndivhuwo…unless...unless i killed the twin and this was Ndivhuwo...damn it!
Ndiv:” you know revenge can put you above your limits…make you do things you wouldn’t normally do…that’s what pushed me into planning all this…because I was mourning my brother’s death so say it out or I will kill one of your guys….by now you know that I don’t bluff”
Svig:” Ndiv is the boss” he said that and looked on the floor…I could see the humiliation all over his face…he felt really humiliated
Ndiv:” thank you, now I have to kill this one…there won’t be any mercy here…this boy ended my brother’s life…this is where it ends, it’s only fair that I end your life as well” he said that and pointed at me with a gun and put his finger on a trigger….he was about to pull the trigger when she walked in breathing heavily
Tshili:” Ndivhuwo please don’t….i am begging you….you are not a monster, you are a good guy please, I know you are hurt because they took your brother away from you but Ndivhuwo please do this for me” Ndivhuwo? So this is Ndivhuwo? It was confirmed we killed his twin
Ndiv:” gosh Tshililo what the hell are you doing here? And how are you here? How did you pass through all the guys to here?”
Tshili:” I told them I am your woman…but that doesn’t matter….don’t do it, for me Ndivhuwo please”
ndiv:” damn it woman...i can’t believe you did this” he took Tshililo’s hand and walked outside. They talked briefly and then he walked back in
Ndivhu:” I know you might get out of here and try to avenge me or something of that sort…my advice is that don’t even think about it because I will know before you even start discussing it so Svig…we can be good friends or worst enemies…it’s all up to you…..you killed my brother and I revenged you, we are even now….i took your most valuable thing…..YOUR PRIDE and that satisfies me….so if you don’t defy me then I am good but if you try me then I will do more than this….this is nothing….when you leave this place make few phone calls and ask them about Rolza….ask them what he is capable of…that’s my twin brother we do the same stuff so once you know a bit about him then you’ll believe me when I say I am better off as your friend than your enemy” we all just looked at him and said nothing
Ndiv:” I know that letting you walk out of here alive is a big mistake but I wanted to teach you all a lesson not to kill you….but believe me, if you want to know that I can be a merciless man…mess with me again, try to avenge me for this and we will have a real gangster fight” he took out another cigarette and started smoking
Ndiv:” I am taking it that you’ve learned your lesson…I will let you go…but remember one thing…I am everywhere. I will be in contact regarding the business proposal…as for the drugs and money I took from ya’ll this evening….i will return all of them to you because I don’t need them…my mission is accomplished, I just wanted to teach you not to mess around with the people you know nothing about….so I will have my guys drop all of you at Svig’s Wilderness house because there might be police at Bee’s house” he said that and walked out.
We all just looked at each other unable to believe what just happened to us. Tshililo ran inside and gave me a tight hug. We were all escorted to a black van and then taken to Svig’s house. My sister Rendani was there when we arrived. She tried to hug and talk to Svig but he brushed her off. He told her and everyone that he wanted to be alone and no one should try to come to him. He walked to his room and left all of us there.
He got to his room and closed the door, locked it and he cried. He felt like a failure, like his father’s legacy went up in flames, he felt like he failed his father, all the people who looked up to him….he failed all of them. He didn’t know how to face the world….this was humiliating. He went to his closet and took out his father’s photo and started apologising to him for being a failure. He was angry and didn’t know what to do with himself. The worst thing anyone can ever do to a gangster boss is take away their pride and Ndivhuwo knew that pride was Svig’s biggest weapon.
Jay called in some nurses to help all of us out. One nurse went to help Svig out. Zoleka and other wives arrived for their partners. After we were all bandaged and checked out…we left the house and went our separate ways. I thought about Bee and the baby, I had to tell Tshililo and it was not going to go very well. I knew for a fact that I needed that baby, I had lost one baby and I couldn’t lose another one, especially if I could do something to save him/her. I don’t know how I was going to do it but I had to try and make Tshililo understand. We got home and Tshililo helped me shower and then prepared something for me to eat.
The following morning we woke up and I decided that it was do or die. I had to tell her the truth about the baby, I didn’t want her to find out from someone else. I kept asking myself if the baby was worth all the trouble but hey I couldn’t let the poor innocent baby get killed because I waas an ass. So we were chilling in the bedroom having breakfast in bed when I asked Tshililo to promise me that she will never leave me no matter what. That was after I told her that I had some news to share with her. I looked at her and then broke the news
Me:” Bee is pregnant” she looked at me with her eyes wide open. I looked down on the food and waited
Tshili:” you mean like she is pregnant?” she was surely shocked
Me:” yah” I nodded
Tshili:” that’s weird did she tell you who the father is?” I looked away and took a glass of juice and drank
Tshili:” noo” she said with a resigning voice, she looked weak, the pain was written all over her face. I just knew that I had officially hurt my wife in a most way possible
Me:” Tshililo I only found out now” she got up and folded her hands on her chest
Tshili:” you used a condom so how do you know that it’s yours? I mean it could be someone else’s”
Me:” well that’s the thing”
Tshili:” what thing?” she closed her eyes and shook her head, she knew what I meant
Tshili:” you lied? noo Thembuluwo Mudau you didn’t lie did you?”
Me:” I didn’t mean to bbe, it’s just that I knew you’d be pissed” she sat on the bed with her one hand on her head. I went to her and knelt in front of her and took her hands
Me:” Tshililo please I know that you are angry but remember that I didn’t mean for this to happen” I was scared; I honestly didn’t wanna lose her. She kept quiet, it was as if she was still processing the whole thing
Tshili:” Bee was taken and used as a sex slave Thembuluwo, how could you do this to me? How do you know that she don’t have some crazy STIs? What if she had AIDS?” damn she was freaking out
me:” she don’t babe, she hadn’t done anything with anyone in about 8 years…if she was sick she would have told me”
Tshili:” wow and that’s supposed to make me feel better for the fact that you are fathering her child right? She could have been sick Thembu? How could you be so careless? I just can’t believe you lied to me like that”
Me:” I am sorry Tshililo”
Tshili:” I lost a child few weeks ago and now I have just found out that you are having another child with someone else…how can you do this to me Thembuluwo? Did you even stop to think about what this will do to me? Bonita for heaven’s sake? Even the strong women run out of strength to tolerate sometimes…this is where I draw the line….i am not going to sit around and be a step mother to Bee’s child…no I can’t do it…men cheat all the time but they protect themselves at least…this…you…I give up”
Me:” nooo bbe please, I am begging you just try to understand”
Tshili:” understand what exactly? That you slept with a whore and get her pregnant? That you now have a replacement baby for the one I lost? That I will be reminded of your betrayal every time I look at that child? What do you want me to try and understand?” she walked out of the door and I followed her
Me:” bbe please let’s sit down and talk about this”
Tshili:” I am done” she was crying…. I stopped walking and looked at her…she stopped and looked at me too
Tshili:” this is it….i can’t take no more….its soo painful I can’t even put it to words…you are having a baby with her…with Bee…I am not even sure if you love me anymore” I ran to her
Me:” you know I love you, I always have” I was holding her hand
Tshili:” no I am the one who loves you and you are just a fool who just keep hurting me day in and day out…I am tired Thembu, I can’t do this with you anymore….do you have any idea what I had to do yesterday in order to save you? And this is what I get?”
Me:’Tshililo washu, I promise you that this is the last mistake from me, I promise you”
Tshili:” that’s because I won’t give you a chance to make another one….i am truly done, you are killing me Thembu and this is me saving myself” she walked to the door.
So I tried to beg her to stay but her mind was made up. She changed from her pyjamas to her leggings, an Adidas hoodie and a sneaker. I tried my level best to get her to understand but she was really hurt and told me that she was leaving me for good. I knew that she was going to him. I went down on my knees and begged her not to leave me for him but she said she didn’t love him and she loved me but she was tired of everything I keep bringing to our lives. She said she didn’t understand why I was expecting her to just forgive and forget and then life goes on…she said forgiving was not possible at this stage, let alone forgetting.
TSHILILO
I called the cab that came to pick me up. I was in pain. In fact I don’t even know if what I was feeling was still pain…it was something more than that. This whole thing reminded me of my baby, I mean how do I accept Bee’s child? Bee of all people? The thought of him and her having sex was tormenting my mind, it felt as if it happened yesterday. After waiting four years for him and I get to be a step mother as a price? Life was very far from being fair I tell you. I took out my phone while on the cab and called Ndivhuwo. I was angry at him. Obviously he knew the truth but didn’t say anything to me. I told him that I wanted to see him so he gave me the name of the hotel he was staying at and the room number. I told the cab driver to go drop me at the location. I got there and walked to his room. I knocked and he let me in. he wore the t shirt as I was walking in.
Me:”you knew, you know all about it right?” I said with my hands on my hips. Tears started coming out right away
Ndivhu:”what are you talking about?” he looked surprised?
Me:” Thembu got Bee pregnant…I know that you already knew about it Ndivhuwo”
Ndivhu:” uhm eish” he had his hands on his hips
Me:” why didn’t you say anything to me? Why didn’t you tell me? I feel like a total fool right now…bragging about how much I love him and all along you knew what was happening?”
Ndivhu:” Tshililo washu, do you really mean that? I mean did you seriously expect me to tell you about your husband’s affairs and his bustard child? Would you have believed me? You would have thought that I was just try to get you to leave him and I didn’t wanna do that”
Me:” you should have just told me”
Ndivhu:” how is any of this fair? He messes up and I am the one to be blamed? Huh uh love, he is the one having a child outside your marriage not me so please Tshili don’t blame me for his mistakes”
He was right, Ndivhuwo was not the one at fault here…Thembu was. I started pacing and he just looked at me. Why was I here? Was it only about him knowing about Bee’s baby or there was more to it? Well, I think I was here because I knew that Ndivhuwo would show me the care I needed, he would hold me as I cry and he would tell me he was sorry even though he wasn’t the one at fault. Ndivhuwo walked to me and hugged me
Ndivhu:” I am so sorry love”
Me:” it hurts Ndivhuwo, he is having a child with her…what am I then? I feel so useless…like I am being punished for losing my baby” I said that and cried
Ndivhu:” s***” he carried me up and he held me so tight as I cry
Ndivhu:” i hate it when you are like this.... this is why I wanted to kill that boy….what do you want me to do to make the pain disappear? I can do anything to make you feel better….i can make Bee or the baby disappear, anything for you Tshililo”
his voice was cool and was almost a whisper. I broke the embrace and looked at him…I wiped off the tears quickly
Me:” you mean that?” he looked at me and nodded
Ndivhu:" just say the word" I thought about it…what will it mean if Ndivhuwo kills Bee and her baby? Do I go back to Thembu and we live happily ever after? I didn’t want Thembuluwo back in my life…I was seriously tired of him. I had tried to kill Bee once and I felt like s***, imagine killing the baby too. I decided to let them live…I wasn’t doing it for Thembu but for myself
Me:” I’d rather let it go” I said that signalling for him to put me down and he did
Ndivhu:” you’re serious?”
Me:”very serious, I don’t want blood on my hands Ndivhuwo, I am not like you, I will have nightmares everyday…I don’t want to go through that”
Ndivhu:” so what’s the plan?” he looked at my eyes
Me:”I don’t know” I said wiping off the tears…he hugged me again
Me:” it hurts so bad Ndivhu, I don’t even know what to do with myself”
Ndivhu:” you don’t have to do anything love….i am here for you owk?” he hugged me and I cried in his arms, after a while we broke the hug
Ndivhu:” you’re hungry?” I shook my head…I sat on the bed and he sat next to me
Ndivhu:” maybe you need to lie down a bit don’t you think?”
Me:” owk” he tucked me in and stood there and just looked at me
me:” what?”
ndivhu:” nothing…uhm I will be working neh? If you need anything just let me know”
I really don't understand Tshililo, how stupid is she. kanti why doesn't she tell Vboy that Ndi has installed cameras in their house and his colleagues houses. How selfish is she ..Foolish woman
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