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The following day Tshililo came to see me and she said that she loved me and that she understood why I did everything that I did and that she was willing to be with me no matter what…even if it meant that she was dating a dealer then she was willing to do it. I was happy that she came around…at least now I could relax. I later showed Ncedo and Thembani my car. They were happy for me.
On Wednesday it was my first delivery. Tshililo was stressed out the whole day and kept on saying that she wished there was another way but there wasn’t. I finally did my delivery. I went to the club to collect the stuff in the afternoon but only left at around 6 at night. Jay gave me clear instructions on how to go about it and how important and expensive the package was and that I should make sure that it got to the destination still safe and sound. i drove in my car with the parcel and then Gerrit and another guy were driving an Audi behind me just to make sure that i get to the destination safe…well it was not really about me but about the drugs. I also had my gun with just in case. We took the N2 road and all the way through Wilderness, then Sedgefield and all the way through Knysna and then Plettenberg Bay. We then entered Eastern Cape and made our way to PE and then to Summerstrand. We were dropping the package at the house in Summerstrand and then we went to Uitenhage and Motherwell to do some drop offs as well. We finished all the deliveries at around 12 midnight and then we had to drive back.
I got to campus at about three in the morning and I went straight to bed. I was woken up by Xolani not so long after I slept. Damn I hated him for that but I was shocked when he said that Tshililo is outside looking for me…the hell? I checked the time and it was past five in the morning. So I had only been sleeping for two hours. As tired as I was, I got out of bed and went to her. Well she came to my room that early because she was worried about me, she wanted to make sure that I was still in one piece. Uhm I was very flattered that she cared but damn I was tired and needed some serious sleep. So I asked her to give me some time to nap and she was ok with it. I went back to bed and after about 30 minutes my phone rang. It was a phone call from Jay saying that he heard that the delivery was successful so he was impressed since it was my first day. He also told me that the pay day was tomorrow…see? That’s the part I really wanted.
I woke up in the afternoon to find Tshililo cooking for me. Well I was shocked by that but hey what can I say…I was in love with her and the feeling was mutual...she loved me too. She even told me that she got a waitressing part-time job at a coffee shop in a mall. Well I was not too happy about that, I mean I got a job and could support both of us but Tshililo insisted on working saying that she didn’t want to depend on me about everything so I let her be.
The following morning was Friday and it was our pay day…yeyyy. I woke up the following day to find 37k deposited into my account. This must have been my pay. I showed it to X and he didn’t look surprised at all…he said that’s how they roll. He told me that the job sometimes have lots of risks so Jay make sure that he pays everyone accordingly…especially if you are not just working in the streets but doing a job like delivery….delivery was a big post. With all the money I had I told all my friends that we are going clubbing and everything was on me…yep I was about to be a cheese boy too you know….Tshililo and Sihle also tagged along with us. I didn’t forget about Xolani’s money so I planned on paying Xolani back his money as soon as I have 100k on my account. So I was out alone while everyone was in the club when I spotted Sibu that evening and she looked pregnant, I tried to talk to her but she brushed me off. I was left with so many questions….like is it possible for the baby to be mine? What if it was my baby?
Anyway after going out with my friends on Friday night, Saturday morning I took Tshililo to Knysna where we were going to spend one night. Yep we had fun bro. We booked into a BnB at The Heads. We swam at the lagoon, went on a cruise boat at the waterfront and enjoyed the best restaurants in Knysna. I can’t talk about shopping because Knysna is not really a big town so George was much better than Knysna when it comes to that. I asked Tshililo to move in with me while we were in Knysna and she agreed…. Yeyyyyy. Sunday late afternoon we drove back to campus. Tshililo went to her room and i went to mine. I decided that I needed some time to rest since I’d been busy the whole weekend
I was taking a nap in my room resting after having such a beautiful weekend. I was woken up by a phone call from Tshililo. I picked it up with my sleepy voice
Me:” hello” she said nothing and then I heard a guy's voice speaking
"Tshililo you can’t do this to me, you can't leave me" the guy sounded so angry and it could only be Luvhengo
Tshili:"Luvhengo please leave" she said with a shaky voice and it was obvious that she was scared. Now I knew what was going on. I took my phone and ran out of the room. I then walked to my car and took out my gun and put it on my waist and hide it with the t shirt I was wearing and then ran to her room. I don’t know what was going to happen but I wanted to be well prepared for anything. I got there and knocked on the door but it was locked. I knocked again and then Luvhengo came and open the door. This guy was really full of himself. He looked angry
Me:” what are you doing here?”
Luvhengo:” I could ask you the same thing” I pushed him and walked inside the room. Tshililo was sitting on the bed crying. I quickly ran to her
Me:” babe are you ok?” I was wiping off her tears
Luvhengo:” wh….what did you call her?” He pointed at me with his finger with his one eye closed. As if that was supposed to scare me
Me:” I am pretty sure that you are not the one that I am talking to. As you can see, you are scaring my girlfriend here so leave” I knew that what I said was going to make him really really angry but hey I had to set the record straight…I wasn’t about to live in fear of him for the rest of my life
Luvhengo:” how disrespectful of you” he said walking towards me
Tshili:” guys stop what you are doing” Tshililo was crying and standing in the middle
Me: “ babe tell your ex to leave”
Tshili:” Luvhengo I am begging you to leave. What we had is over, you need to accept that” Luvhengo gave her an evil smile
Luvhengo:’ Tshililo you are mine, you belong to me and nothing is going to change that…I’ll rather have someone killed than accept that its over”
Me:” dude just accept the break up and leave us alone” he pushed Tshililo away and she fell and then he grabbed me by the neck of my t shirt
Luvhengo:” be thankful that I have left my gun in the car or else I’ll be shooting this dog”
Tshili:” Luvhengo please I will leave him and then we can get back together and be happy again…just don’t hurt him”
He punched me once and I fell to the floor. He then went to Tshililo and grabbed her by her neck. He gave her one hot slap…I got up from the floor and took out my gun and pointed it at him…he saw the gun and let go of her quickly. He stood up with his hands in the air. I was burning with anger…I thought of how he mishandled Tshililo in my presence and I wanted to blow his head off. I wanted him to be out of our lives for good and killing him was going to give me that guarantee
Tshili:"Thembu please don't, don’t kill him"
Me:"ow so you still want him?"
Tshili:"of course not, babe if you kill him then they will arrest you…we don’t want that do we?” I looked at Tshililo and then at Luvhengo, the hatred I had towards this guy was overpowering me, the only thing I wanted was to get rid of him
Tshili:"please"
I looked at Tshililo and then at Luvhengo again. Luvhengo was not saying anything, he just looked so scared
Tshili:” you are not a killer, I know you are better than that”
Me:” and how long is he going to keep on sticking his nose in our lives huh? How long?”
Tshili:” Thembuluwo he is not worth it”
Luvhengo:” please man I am begging you, don’t kill me please”
Me:” just shut the f*** up, you have no right to talk to me ok?” he gave me a pleading look
Me:” just go….leave” he stumbled and quickly walked out to the room
I put the gun on the bed and cried. What’s going to happen? Was I really prepared to kill someone? To end someone’s life? For what huh? Was it because of love? If this was how Tshililo makes me feel then I needed to think twice. How sure was I that I was not obsessed with her? And what if one day she decide to leave what then? How will I handle that? or worse what if she decides to go back to him? I thought about all this while I was standing in the middle of the room…I was seriously scared. What I felt for Tshililo scared me and it didn’t seem healthy. Tshililo was still sitting on the floor looking all terrified. She got up and walked to me and gave me a hug
Tshili:"thank you" I broke the hug and walked to the bed and took my gun and put it on my waist and walked to the door.
Tshili:” babe what is wrong? You are just gonna leave?” I didn’t even have the strength to talk to her
Tshili:”babe?” I opened the door and walked out. I felt really really tired. Tshililo followed me, got to me and took my hand
Tshili:” what’s wrong?”
Me:” I am really tired and all I need is some rest” she looked at me with a pained look
Tshili:” I am sorry about him…I didn’t know that he was coming…I am really sorry”
Me:” you didn’t do anything wrong so no need to apologise”
Tshili:”but why are you like this?”
Me:”I just don’t want to talk Tshililo” I walked to my car with her behind me. I got in at the back seat and threw the gun at the front and fell back on the seat with my hands covering my face. Tshililo got in and sat next to me
Tshili:” please talk to me”
Me:” I don’t want to talk about it”
I had tears in my ears by now. Tshililo just looked at me with a face that spells how helpless she was. I had so many things going through my mind. Like I had no idea what to do with the gun, I didn’t want to own a gun anymore…I lose my temper way too quickly and there was no telling what I could do. What if Tshililo wasn’t there, I could have killed him. But then again, if I didn’t have the gun Luvhengo could have destroyed us all. Another thing that really had me worried was how I felt about Tshililo…I loved her way too much and I couldn’t bear the thought of losing her. She completed me, with her in my life felt fine, like I could share everything with her and have no problem, she made me feel young and care free at times but then again she also made me feel matured and like a man…just thinking about her made my head spin. I thought that I was in love with Sibu but no what I felt for her was nothing compared to this. What I felt for Tshililo was much deeper…I felt like if she left me then I’d kill the guy she’d date next. That’s what scared me the most, the length I was willing to go for this girl. Was it possible to love someone this much? Maybe this is how Luvhengo loved her, but no he wouldn’t beat her up if that was the case.
Tshililo:"babe you are scaring me…what’s wrong?”I looked at her for a long time and wiped the tears away
Me:" if I didn’t take out a gun…would you have really left with him? Are you so scared of him to an extent that you would have left everything we shared for him? You were not even willing to put up a fight”
Tshili:” not that’s not true, I said all that because I wanted him to leave”
Me:” do you know what worries me the most? If something happens to me and I fail to protect you…it means that you are just going to get back with him…you’ll give up everything we share for him…like you are prepared to be his victim all the damn time” she started crying
Tshili:” I am just scared of him”
Me:”and I love you and I want to know that one day you’ll be able to stand up to him. I won’t always be there so I want to know that you’ll be able to stand your ground in my absence”
Tshili:” I don’t know”
Me:” the truth is there will be a day that it will just be you and him and I won’t be anywhere near you. So I want you to get up and get him a restraining order and then give him a call and tell him to back off and that you are not afraid of him anymore. Stop the sniffing and shaking and crying every time you see his face, stop being weak in front of him” i don’t know but i hated the way Tshililo was around Luvhengo. Tshililo was very strong but wherever Luvhengo was around she would be so dumb and start shaking like a hobo looking for his next fix. I didn’t like seeing her like that and even though I was being a little bit harsh on her, someone had to tell her the truth about this
Tshili:” ok I will do that”
Me:” do you maybe want to go for counselling as well? We can find a good Doctor for you”
Tshili:”no I am fine thanks”
Me:"are you sure?"
Tshili:''yeah"
Me:"bbe sorry i am being harsh on you but you need to do this….i can help protect you but you need to get rid of this fear you have about him”
Tshili:” I will, thanks” she moved close to me and we hugged for a very long time
Me:” I am scared”
Tshili:”babe what do you mean?”
Me:” I almost killed someone today Tshili, I don’t even understand what’s happening with me. I love you Tshililo, I love you in a way that’s hard for me to understand, I almost killed someone today because he hurt you…what does that say to you?”
Tshili:” that you are full of love and that you are willing to do anything to help and protect the one you love”
Me:” you are getting it all wrong Tshili, it only means that I am obsessed over you and I can do anything to get rid of whatever or whoever tries to get on our way. It scares me, I am scared that I might become something else because of all this”
Tshili:"please tell me you are not having second thoughts please"
Me:” I don’t know, all I know is that I am scared to become a monster”
Tshili:"you won’t i promise" she had tears in her eyes
Me:” let me take you to your room”"
Tshili:"no i am not leaving you like this Thembu"
Me:” I want to be alone”
Tshili:"i am not going anywhere" she looked at me and I looked at her
Tshili:"i know you are scared because this is all new to you but please don’t push me away, i wanna be there for you and I will fix my issues with Luvhengo, he won’t have to bother us again please"
Me:” it’s not just about Luvhengo. What will happen when you lose interest in me, when you don’t want me anymore…Tshililo I will go insane” I said that with my one hand on my head. She looked at me and took both my hands onto hers
Tshili:” babe where is that coming from huh? I will never lose interest on you just like you won’t lose interest on me. I will love you until the end and I want you to love me the exact same way because I am all yours”
Me:” you promise?”
Tshili:” I promise”
Me:” speaking of us…I want us to put the whole moving in thing on hold”
Tshili:” why?” she frowned
Me:”with everything that happened today, I really think we should take things slow”
Tshili:” everything is going to be fine Thembu, you don’t have to be scared”
Me:"you think so?"
Tshili:"i know so" after a while I walked Tshililo back to her room
The following day i asked Xolani if he could be able to move in with Sihle so that I can move in with Tshili. Well he told me that he will discuss it with Sihle first and later that day he told me that they were cool with the moving arrangements. I received an sms later that day telling me there was a meeting tomorrow in the evening at around seven. Well this is the part of my job I dreaded the most…things were really becoming a little bit too much, I loved the money and all but not the actual job. So I wanted to give Xolani his first instalment this coming weekend but he told me that I should sort out my stuff first and when everything is sorted I can then pay him. I went to visit Tshililo in her room late that afternoon and she told me that Luvhengo sent her an sms threatening her. Well I asked her to call him and put him on his place once and for all. She did that, she called him and told him where to get off, she told him that he was a coward for abusing women and that she was going to get a restraining order for him and that she was not scared of him anymore. I was proud of her shame, I was happy that she got the courage to talk to him. She was happy too. She said that talking to him like that felt great.
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The following day i went to the meeting at Jay’s club. The guards knew me now and they let me into the secret bar. I got there and greeted Jay and then sat on the couch and waited. Three more guys and Javas came and joined us
Jay:"owk thank you all for making it on time hey, uhm the business is doing great" everyone smiled
Jay:"yeah i am happy with the way that things are running, and V Boy, the stock that you delivered to PE last week is almost finished and we did some shit money out of it" he laughed
Jay:"and Javas, i see your dealers are doing baie baie good at the location, so we gonna have to celebrate for all that" he took a bottle of whiskey that was on the table and poured shots for all of us
Jay:"to more money” he said holding up his glass and we did the same with ours
"to more money" we chorused
Javas:"so does this mean that our pay is gonna be upped"
Me:"you mean increased?"
Javas:"upped or increased it means the same thing" i laughed out loud
Javas:"really now V Boy?"
Me:"you are right my man, it means the same thing, so back to the question Jay, are you upping our pay?" I said while laughing and Javas playfully punched me
Jay:"we will see about that, i want us to talk about this week's delivery to PE"
Guy 1:"owk"
Jay:"That’s going to be on Friday night, as i have mentioned that we don’t have to use the same day each week, so V Boy you know die pleek mos?"
Me:"yeah, so who is coming with me this time?"
Jay:"Javas with 2 other guys so it’s gonna be safe"
Me:"owk That’s fine"
Javas:"V Boy should also get a big machine because if something happens and he has that 9mm thing of his, he wouldn't really survive"
Me:"can it get that bad?" they both looked at me like i was going crazy
Jay:"drug dealing is the biggest money making business in the world and it is the most dangerous, so i guess that explains a bit of what we are talking about here"
Javas:"things get really bad around here, it’s not just about making money, there is danger associated with this bitch as well"
Me:"uhm owk, i guess i will get the 2nd gun next time"
Javas:"owk suite yourself" we went on and discussed business for a little while.
After the meeting I tried calling Tshililo but she was not picking up so I guessed that maybe she was just sleeping as it was past 10 at night
The following day i woke up at around 7 in the morning and I found no missed call or a message from Tshililo. This was weird, usually if I call and she’s not around then she usually comes back to me. I woke up and left for her room still in my PJs. I knocked and Sihle opened the door. I told her that I wanted to see Tshililo but she looked at me with a shocked expression. She told me that Tshililo didn’t come back from work last night and she just assumed that she was with me. Yohh my world stood still and nothing moved. Something must have happened to her…dammit Luvhengo. I immediately walked out of the room feeling confused. I was not sure whether to call Jay or the Police…with Jay I was guaranteed real action and possibilities of finding her today but with the Police??? Well I was faced with delays after delays and finding her after weeks or not finding her at all. I took out my phone wanting to call Jay but my rang before I could dial Jay…the call was from a landline number, I took it immediately. It was a call from George Provincial Hospital, they informed me that they got my contacts from Tshililo’s phone because it was the last number that called her. She was involved in a car accident and was not in a very good state. I literally ran out of breath and I bent down with my hands on my knees because I was unable to stand upright. After regaining some strength I took out my phone and called Xolani and asked him to drive me to the hospital…I informed him that Tshililo was in a car accident and that I couldn’t possibly drive myself.
We got to the hospital and were told that she had to undergo some surgery and I was not allowed to see her yet. Yoh I was so stressed out and I kept on lashing at the Doctors. Xolani was by my side and he kept telling me that everything was going to be fine. I even called my mom because somehow I felt that I needed her. I told her about Tshililo and the accident. I told her that Tshililo is the friend I was with during Easter Holidays and I felt better after talking to my mom
I then called her cousin sister and informed her about the accident. I didn’t want to call Tshili’s mom directly, I mean this is her child so it’s better if she hears the news from someone who can just tell her in person. Even after being advised to leave and come back a little bit later I didn’t leave. I was sitting on the bench with Xolani waiting for the Doctors to finish with her surgery. Luvhengo appeared and it’s hard to even explain how he made me feel. I got into some sort of an argument with him and he got to tell me that he was not in love with her anymore but rather just wanted to see her suffer. He went on to say that he was going to do everything in his power to make sure that she pays.
After a very long wait the Doctor finally came to us and said that he was done with the operation and we can all go see her one by one. Luvhengo insisted that he also wanted to see her so I went in first. She was just lying there looking lifeless. The Doctor said she was going to be fine so I had to have a little faith. I talked to her even though I was not sure if she could hear me. After that I walked out and X and I left the hospital. I just didn’t want to deal with Luvhengo anymore. That evening i went back to the hospital. Tshililo was still not up but the Doctor’s said that she was resting so I shouldn’t worry about it. I was leaving when I ran into Luvhengo. Yeah he was still being all funny and tryna act like he owned the damn hospital. He even told me that Tshili’s mom was on her way to George…my guess was that Luvhengo paid for her flight and a place to stay…he was probably doing all this knowing that Tshili’s mom won’t let me anywhere near her.
The following morning I bunked my classes, I was not going to be able to attend. I went to the hospital to see Tshililo. I walked inside her ward and I found Luvhengo sitting with a woman who looked slightly like Tshililo…yep it was her mother. Luvhengo had already told her about me because all he said was “here is the boy I’ve been telling you about” and after that the woman went crazy towards me. she literally pushed me out of the room and told me that she don’t ever want to see my face ever again and that I’d been poisoning her daughter and I was the reason why she had left her lovely boyfriend Luvhengo. I saw Luvhengo laughing as I looked at him with the corner of my eye when all of this was happening. I had no choice but to leave because Tshili’s mom was about to call the Doctors not to ever allow me anywhere near her daughter.
I left the building and stood at the parking lot. I knew Luvhengo’s intentions, I knew that all he wanted was to avenge her, he wanted to just hurt her and there was no telling what he could do to her when she get out of that hospital. I started pacing as I try to come up with a plan to try and get rid of him. Like a hit song it hit me….Jay. I took out my phone and called Jay immediately. He said something about us being a family, about them always being there for each other so maybe…maybe they could help me deal with Luvhengo. I told Jay that I needed his help and he asked me to come by the club…I drove to the club immediately.
I went to the club and told Jay my situation…I also told him that I was suspecting Luvhengo for the accident. I mean the accident was a hit and run and only Luvhengo could benefit from it. Jay told me that Sticks was the right person to deal with this…he said dealing with people like Luvhengo was what Sticks was good at. Sticks was called in and damn you should have seen the look of excitement on his face as I explained the situation to him. He looked happy and alive…like this was some kind of a sport he was good at. He asked me if I wanted Luvhengo dead or just being dealt with. Well I gave it some thought. Having Luvhengo killed was the best option, at least after that I would be sure that I was never going to deal with him again but then again I would be labelled a killer after that, I would have taken someone’s life. So no I told Sticks that all I wanted was for Luvhengo to be dealt with.
Sticks and I left the club together and went to the hospital where we were going to wait on Luvhengo because Sticks didn’t know him and I had no pictures of him on me. We saw him walking out of the hospital with Tshili’s mom after a bit of waiting and we followed his car as soon as he drove out.
Luvhengo drove to a hotel and we were following him. He got out with Tshili’s mom and walked inside. Sticks left me in the car and followed them. He walked back a while later with Luvhengo willingly walking with him…he had a gun that was pointing at Luvhengo’s waists but you couldn’t really see it if you didn’t know what was going on. He took Luvhengo to the car that was parked close to us. There were two guys in there. Well I didn’t know that we had another car with us. We then drove away and then took the N12 road and drove through the Outeniqua mountains leading to Oudtshoorn. We didn’t make it to Oudtshoorn though, we took a turn to a farm and drove on a gravel road for a while until we got to a one roomed house.
We all got out of the car with Luvhengo as well. His hands were tied up and they pushed him inside the room. Luvhengo was shocked to see me and at first he kept on telling me that this was not going to stop him. Well that was until Sticks started drawing serious cuts on his chest with a biggest knife I had ever seen…as if that was not enough, he took out a grinder and wanted to start cutting him…I couldn’t bear to see the whole show so I ran out of there and started vomiting outside. I couldn’t just stand there and watch a person being cut like that…it was disgusting and very nauseous. Funny enough, Sticks seemed to be having a time of his life. When Sticks was done with Luvhengo he instructed the two guys to take him to the hospital and told Luvhengo that if he wanted to live to see another day then he better come up with a story about what happened to him when the Doctor’s ask…whatever the story he decides to come up with, it was not supposed to involve our names.
That night a hardly slept…I kept on dreaming about Sticks evil smile as well as Luvhengo screaming in pain…lord how could someone be as cruel as Sticks?
The following day I still didn’t attend my classes. I left to see Tshililo with the whole team of our friends…yep we both bunked classes. It was me, X, Sihle, Ncedo and Thembani. Tshililo was awake when we got there and she was very happy to see us both. We spent few minutes laughing and talking and then our friends left to give me and Tshili some privacy. Tshili was upset about me not attending my classes, I told her that I was too stressed to attend but she didn’t want to hear of it…I promised her that I was not going to skip classes again. We were talking and smiling when her mom walked in. she tried to get me to leave but Tshililo stood her ground and told her that I was the man in her life now…the mother wasn’t happy but I think she let it go for the sake of some peace. She told Tshililo that Luvhengo had been hijacked so he couldn’t come see her. Good boy, so Luvhengo decided to keep his mouth shut huh?
After that I drove to the club where I met up with the rest of the guys and we were all given stakes of money. I counted my stakes and I had 8 of them and I was told that one stake had 5k. I almost choked. This was my second week of working and I already had 70something K paid to me? As dangerous as this s*** was…I was never changing my mind, I wished I had met these guys sooner. Money was not the only good thing about my job…nope you also get to have people like Luvhengo to be dealt with accordingly…I couldn’t have asked for a better job. I didn’t attend my morning classes that day but at least I managed to attend my two last classes at 13:00 and at 14:00. After the class i went to my room since I had nothing to do.
On Friday I had a delivery to do in the evening. I called my mom while I was resting in my room. the people staying in the house we bought were moving this weekend so my mom said that she was going to have the whole week to clean the house and the whole yard in general and then weekend she was moving. I told her that I was going to send her money to buy some furnishers and everything else they were going to need. She was still a little bit sceptical about me having all this money and all that s*** but hey I kept telling her that some people don’t have problem with money and therefore have no problem with helping those who were in need so my friend was willing to help…she just agreed and didn’t say more. My mom was not stupid; I knew she was doubting everything I was telling her but hey, it’s not like she was going to find out the actual truth.
On my way to work I went to the mall and bought some flowers and supper for Tshililo and some snacks. I then went to the hospital. I sat with her for a while and gave her the flowers and the food I bought, she was happy shame. She kept on smiling as we chat. Looking at her all I could feel in my heart was love and I knew at that moment that I wasn’t willing to stay away from this girl, in fact nothing was going to separate us. After a little bit of chit-chatting I left for work. Tshililo was not happy when I told her that I had a delivery to do but I told her that I was getting good at my job and that she didn’t have to worry at all. I was being honest though, I was no longer the same person I was two weeks ago before starting with the job.
I left for Jay’s club and I was a little bit late. I got there and found Jay, Gerrit and Javas.
Me:"uhm sorry i am late" Gerrit and Javas looked at Jay. Jay checked the time on his Watch
Jay:"you are 46 minutes 53 seconds late" he had a serious look on his face
Me:"yeah i was at the hospital as you know that my girlfriend is there, it won’t happen again" he gritted his teeth
Jay:"i have a wife and 2 kids, Gerrit has 2 girlfriends and 3 kids and Javas don’t have kids but he do have a girlfriend, but you found us here didn't you?"
Me:"uhm yeah"
Jay:" this is a real shit V Boy and you need to take it so fucking serious because i am sure you don’t wanna see me angry"
Gerrit:" you really don’t hey"
Jay:"i take every second very serious because we are making money here and your excuse is really not valid because it’s not like she is in a coma is she?"
Me:"no"
Jay:"and even if she was you are not a Doctor so next time V Boy, i don’t want you to be one second late virstand jy?"
Me:"yeah yah i hear you" the look on his face only meant business...there was no playing or joking around.
Jay:"so back to business, you will get 2 more guns, uhm Javas i think you should give him an A447 Rifle and maybe a 7.65mm pistol and more bullets just in case and please V Boy keep these babies safe and you don’t show them off" I just looked at him without blinking…he said I was getting a 44 what?
Jay:"do we understand each other?"
Me:"uhm yeah" I wasn’t about to ask him about the names of those guns…Javas left and came back with two guns for me….one of them was a big one
Me:"and where do i put this because it’s too big"
Jay:"walk around with it on top of your head.....damn V Boy figure it out" Jay was in a bad mood today serious
Me:"uhm owk"
Jay:"yeah so let’s discuss your deliveries"
Gerrit:"owk"
Jay:" nothing has changed, you are rolling it the same way you did last time so Gerrit will be by your side in case something happens and then the drop out points are still the same"
Gerrit:"owk we got it"
Jay:"you can get going because you are late already" he said that looking at me
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After the delivery I came back to campus in the early hours of the morning. I woke up quite late the following day. I chilled with Xolani talking and laughing in the morning. We mostly talked about our job. In the afternoon I decided to go see Tshililo in the hospital. She was going to get discharged maybe next week, I am not sure but she still had few days still stuck in hospital. I bought her some food on my way to see her.
I got to the hospital and walked to her ward. Here is what totally ruined my day and made me angry. I found Tshililo chilling with her mom and Luvhengo. She seemed really happy. Luvhengo’s one leg had a bandage and he also had crunches
Me:” hi” I couldn’t hide the anger and disappointment I had
Tshili:” hi” hi…all I got was a ‘hi’ people
Luvhengo:” uhm I better get going…I was only here because your mom begged me to come…I know you don’t want to see me again…bye”
Tshililo:"uhm no its fine and thanks for coming, get well soon" what kind of fuckery was this? Can someone please explain to me what was going on here? Why was Tshililo being so friendly to Luvhengo? Did the Doctors missed something and she got brain injury or memory loss or something like that? I mean what could explain this?
Luvhengo:"bye" he looked at me with obvious fear in his eyes.
Me:" its chilled" I said with my serious tone
Tshili’s Mom:"uhm let me walk Luvhengo out, I will come back tonight” the hate in this woman’s face was obvious…she really didn’t like me, not at all
Tshili:"owk mma" they walked out
Tshili:"babe is it me or Luvhengo scared afraid?”
Me:" how will I know that? I was not paying as much attention to him as you, that’s how you were able to pin point that he looked scared”
Tshili:” babe what’s this about now?”
Me:” I came to the hospital to see the love of my life and I found you playing happy family with your mom and your ex…that’s what it’s about”
Tshili:” babe how can you even say that? You know how I feel about Luvhengo”
Me:" yeah exactly, I thought I do but i am not so sure any more...nywe nywe get better, nywe nywe thanks for coming…really? What was that?”
Tshili:"but bbe-"
Me:” but what? That’s Luvhengo for heaven’s sake and all of a sudden you can sit around with him and crack jokes? Just because he got hijacked and is now in hospital doesn’t mean that he has changed”
Tshili:”sorry”
Me:” sorry for what exactly? You seemed very cosy when i walked in here and all I got was a ‘hi’”
Tshili:” he only came to tell me that he was leaving as soon as he got discharged today and he will leave together with my mom…he told me that he was getting someone to drive them and that’s it”
Me:" maybe i should just go back to campus" I said looking at the door
Tshili:"Thembuluwo please don’t"
Me:"i knew this day might come but i didn’t expect it to happen so soon"
Tshili:" what day are you talking about?”
Me:”the day you’d forget everything he had done to you and want him again” I said through gritted teeth
Tshili:” Thembuluwo how can you say something like that? Who told you that I wanted him back huh? I love you and only you, I don’t love Luvhengo anymore or anyone else for that matter and even if he was the only man left on earth I still wouldn’t go back to him. Is this how you think of me? Please Thembuluwo get rid of those thoughts” I didn’t know what else to say so I just looked at her
Tshili:” are you going to say something?”
me:” its fine…I brought you some food…I should go” I put the food on the table and walked to the door
Tshili:” Thembu I am begging you don’t walk out on me like that. Are you seriously letting him get between us?” she shouted. I turned around and walked back to her
Me:” it’s not Luvhengo I am worried about because I know that I can fight him and win but it’s you I am worried about. If you decide to choose him then I am going to have to let go…I can’t be like him so I will have to let go” I said that as I let pain sunk in…the thought of losing her cut so deep
Tshili:” babe don’t be like that” maybe I was wrong but they looked so happy and cosy when i walked in and that shook me up
Me:” ok”
Tshili:” you really need to stop this thing of always thinking that one day I will leave you, what do you want me to do in order to prove that I really love you?”
Me:"what if this is just a rebound relationship for you?"
Tshili:"what? Now i am insulted and i think you really should go"
Me:" truth hurts" I whispered and walked away.
I walked to my car…what did I just do? Fighting Tshililo for what huh? I mean she is always telling me how much she loves me, it’s just that I am insecure and if I don’t find a way to deal with it then it will really drive us apart….I said this to myself while sitting inside my car. I thought of going back and apologise to her but I thought that maybe I’d do it tomorrow; she needed some time alone too. I drove from the hospital and went to the mall where I bought new bedding sheets and some décor stuff for our room. I wanted to make a nice welcome party for her when she got discharged…we were not sure when she was going to be discharged but hey I just had to buy everything just in case. After my shopping I drove back to the campus and found Sibu’s car at the parking lot. I got out of the car and that’s when I spotted her walking to her car. I asked her if we could meet up and talk. I wanted to ask her about the baby, if I was the father or not. She said that she was going to contact me when she had time. After that I went to my room where I chilled with Sihle and Xolani.
The following day was a Sunday, so me and my friends were both busy moving our stuff. Yep I was moving in with Tshili and Xolani was moving in with Sihle. Ncedo and Thembani also came to help us. I wished Tshililo was here to help but hey I had no choice. After we were done moving our stuff I got ready and left for the hospital
Me:"my love" I said as soon as I walk into her room
Tshililo:"leave"
Me:"babe please"
Tshili:"I said leave" ouch!!!
Ok I was honestly happy and was in a good mood so I technically blocked everything she was saying because I was just in love with her
Me:"mhm?"
Tshili:"Thembuluwo I am serious"
Me:" if only you have any slightest idea of how attractive and beautiful you look when you are tryna be angry”
Tshili:"I am not playing…what you said yesterday really got to me"
Me:"i know and do you know what I love the most? This little scratch here on your face…damn girl it looked good on you” she kept quiet and gave me her defeated look
Me:"nana please, why can’t you just try and accept that your man was just a little bit pissed yesterday…forgive your person nana please…can I kiss that little scratch on your face?” Tshililo looked at me and laughed
Me:"now that’s my girl, I knew that making you laugh wasn’t going to be difficult”
Tshili:"don't flatter yourself I am still angry"
Me:"i know" I said with a smile
Me:"on a serious note neh, please forgive me about yesterday…what I did was very stupid and I am even embarrassed about it, can you forgive me?” I gave her my sad little look
Tshili:” are you really sorry?”
Me:” yeah I am…I mean I know how much you love me and if we are being real…you loved me long before I ever thought of loving you so you are the initiator of all this…I know you won’t ever bail out on me, so am I forgiven?”
Tshili:"uhm yahh" I bend over towards her and give her a kiss
Me:"I love you my little Tshili"
Tshili:"i love you too"
Me:"here, I brought you some food”
Tshili:"you really want me to gain weight don’t you?”
Me:"babe I do need you to have a little bit of meat" she gave me a death stare
Me:"ok I am joking, why are you taking everything serious?”
Tshili:"some jokes are just not funny”
Me:"owk I get it" I opened up the takeaways I brought her and we started eating
Tshili:"so what you said about this little scar on my face…does it really look good?” i laughed out loud
Me:"babe when has the scar ever look good on anyone? I was tryna make you laugh” I was laughing but I got the shock of my life when she hit me with a piece of meat and the sauce was all over my face
Tshili:"mtzm"
Me:"hahhhh babe I am joking, please don’t tell me that you are angry" I was still laughing while looking at her angry face
Me:"babe I love you and I don’t care if you have a scar or not. I am in a good mood today and I am just happy, let’s not ruin that”
Tshili:" why are you so happy if I may ask?"
Me:" because I love my woman so much…you are such a blessing to me even though you wasted my money by hitting me with a piece of meat”
Tshili:” sorry about that”
Me:” it’s cool nana, and don’t worry about the little scar I love you with or without it…this is love baby”
Tshili:” the way you carry on and on”
Me:” I am being honest though”
Tshili:” ok I hear you…uhm by the way…my mom left early this morning...she came and see me just before boarding her flight”
Me:” oww why?”
Tshili:” she has to go back to work and I am feeling much better right now…Luvhengo also left”
Me:” mhm great news”
Tshili:"yeah it is…but I was enjoying having mom around though"
So the following day Tshililo got discharged and I went to pick her up from the hospital. We really didn’t expect her to get discharged so soon but we were not complaining. Shame she was excited and so was i. I picked her up and we left for our new home…yep her room was now ours and Xolani was sharing mine with Sihle. I told Xolani and the rest of the squad not to interrupt me. I wanted the whole afternoon with her without any interruptions. She was shocked when she got to our room…she kept on completing me saying that its more than what she expected…I guess I have a style then.
Tshili:"so we are doing this?" she said looking at me with a nervous smile
Me:"all the way…we are staying together” I gave her a long hug
Tshili:" I won’t lie to you Thembu, I am nervous about this so please don’t change on me”
Me:” I am never going to change Tshili, I promise”
Tshili:” I love you”
Me:"i love you too" I said that and kissed her
She was now settled and I was busy cooking for her. Yep I thought that after eating takeaways for that long she might need a home cooked meal. So I was cooking her some food while playing ‘John Legend - you and I’....I found myself smiling looking at her as I stood against the fridge
Tshili:"what?" she was sitting on the bed looking at me and she also melted into a smile.
Me:"out of all the girls, you're my one and only girl, ain't nobody in the world tonight" Tshililo giggled like a pre-school little girl…I couldn’t help but sing along...the song said pretty much how I felt about her
Me:"All of the stars, you make them shine like they were ours, ain't nobody in the world but you and i, you and i, ain't nobody in the world but you and i" I finished singing that part and walked to her. She was sitting on the bed with her legs crossed. I went and sit opposite her also with my legs crossed
Tshili:” God is just beautiful…giving me such a blessing”
Me:” I think I am the blessed one here” I kissed her and then stopped and cupped her face
Me:” I don’t see myself ever stopping loving you”
Tshili:” makes the two of us”
So I after cooking we ate. And after eating I showed Tshililo the money that I got paid...she was shocked to see so much money. I told her that Jay was giving us cash because it was safe as opposed to transferring money in our accounts just in case we get investigated. I let her in on my plan to give my mom money as she was moving to a new home and I also told her that we had to start thinking about a business we could start. Well she looked happy to be discussing all this with me. I was still sitting with her when I received an sms from Sibu saying that we could meet anytime and she was not busy. I Replied saying that she should never send me an sms and that I was going to call her the following day. Tshililo must have read my face because she asked what’s wrong and I lied and said that it’s a message from Jay updating me about the job.
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The following day I went to classes and Tshili didn’t attend. Well I begged her not to because I wanted her to be better first. She still had pains here and there so I wanted her to be perfect before starting with classes. I called Sibu on my way to the class and asked for a meeting. We agreed to meet at 11:00 at the library as we were both open. By 11 I was sitting on my usual seat at the library and I had asked Sibu to come join me right on that spot. She came and took out her books and we greeted each other…I decided to get straight to the point right after greeting her.
Me:"i know that we are not together anymore and i couldn't help but notice that you are pregnant and you didn't even bother to tell me about it"
Sibu:"Thembu there was no reason to tell you"
Me:"how far are you?" she just looked at her books
Me:"Sibu please i want to know if this is my child"
Sibu:"well it’s not"
Me:"Sibu please, i know you are married and all, but i just wanna know the truth that’s all, i won’t try to ruin your marriage or anything like that because i know you are married to a dangerous man but just tell me if its mine....please Sibu at least you owe me that much"
Sibu:"Thembu"
Me:"Sibu please"
Sibu:"owk, the truth is i am not sure who the father is, that time when the condom broke, i totally forgot about the morning after pill and then i went home that same weekend and then obviously i slept with Sivuyile, i was not on contraception because we were trying for a baby" yohh I put both my hands on my head
Me:"so it could be my baby?"
Sibu:"or it could be his"
Me:"uhm thanks for telling me the truth Sibu, you don't know how much it means to me"
Sibu:"but please Thembu, i can’t have my husband knowing about this please, he will kill us both without even thinking about it, he is very excited about the baby and if he is to find out that the baby might not be his, then we are dead"
Me:"so i am never going to know the truth?"
Sibu:"i think it’s best if we don’t know the truth Thembu"
Me:"i know that you are scared of your husband and all but can we do the pregnancy tests when the child is born?"
Sibu:"no Thembu, i am honestly fine when things are like this because i want the baby to be Sivuyile's"
Me:"what if its mine though? Don't i deserve to know the truth"?
Sibu:"the truth can get us killed"
Me:"owk just think about it please, i won’t want the baby Sibu, i just wanna know the truth that’s all, at least that will give me a peace of mind"
Sibu:"let me think about this please, at least until the baby is born owk?"
Me:"owk thank you so much”
Sibu:"pleasure"
Me:"so how is it?" I was smiling
Sibu:"how is what?"
Me:"The baby?"
Sibu:"he is growing well"
Me:"wow is it a boy?"
Sibu:"yes" she looked happy shame; looking at her pained me…I mean what if the baby is mine? What then? But if the baby is mine I can always talk to Jay and then we can try fight that Sivuyile dude, he can’t be that bad
Me:"let me get going, i got to meet my girlfriend"
Sibu:"ow owk"
Me:" and please i am staying with her so a call is safer than a message please"
Sibu:"owk"
Me:"sharp neh"
Sibu:"sharp"
I attended the rest of my classes and then walked back to my room. I had decided to come clean to Tshililo about my meeting with Sibu, I didn’t want to start keeping things from her. She was obviously going to get pissed but better that than having her to find out months later. I was about to tell her and had already said the famous “I have to tell you something” when my phone rang…Jay’s number appeared on the screen. I picked up the call and he didn’t bother to greet me but he just summoned me to his club…he said I should be there within the blink of an eye, I tried to get more info but he dropped the call. I was scared; the sound of his voice was far from friendly. Tshililo realised that something was wrong and was trying to get me to talk when my phone rang again and this time around it was Xolani. he also didn’t bother greeting me but he just told me to quickly come to the parking lot. I said goodbye to Tshililo and quickly ran to the parking lot.
Me:"What’s going on X" I said as soon as I got to him. He was standing next to his car and he looked so damn scared and that was enough to send chills down my spine… i had never seen X so scared, he was always cool about everything, something must really be wrong
X:"did you receive a call from Jay?"
Me:"yeah and he sounded very pissed"
X:"he is more than pissed Thembu, shit is about to go down" he said with both his hands on his head
Me:"you are scaring me now"
X:"sorry bro i don’t mean to but i am fucking terrified my man, i also received a call from him and then i called Javas and asked him what’s going on"
Me:"what’s going on?" he looked at me as if asking if i really wanna know. My heart was beating so damn fast
Me:"X please we don't have the whole day, tell me" yohh I really wanted to know what was going on
X:"uhm there is this guy, his name is Jerome, but they call him Jero, he is a coloured guy, a very dangerous one"
Me:"so what’s up with him?"
X:"some of his guys are now selling drugs somewhere in PE, and that’s Svig's territory"
Me:"now you are losing me, who the hell is Svig and where do we fit in?" can he tell me everything already, I just couldn’t wait
X:"Svig is our big boss, i haven't met him though, his real name is Sivuyile, he stays in Grahamstown...my boy that guy is dangerous, Jay is also afraid of him"
Ok I scratched my head…what was Sibu’s husband again? And then I remembered when she told me that they call him Svig…yohh what if I had been shagging the boss’s wife? But Sibu was from PE right? And Svig stayed in Grahamstown so it couldn’t really be him plus we have lot of Sivuyile’s around and it’s always Svig when you shorten that name…so I had nothing to worry about…or so I thought
X:"Thembu are you still here?"
Me:"uhm yeah, you were saying?"
X:"obviously the big boss is not happy at all, he wants to take Jero down and Jero also has his crew so that’s why Jay called all of us, we are going to PE and there is going to be the mother of all fights, Svig won’t take this laying down and it seems like Jerome is being disrespectful, he doesn't know about Svig though, he only know Jay and he has a beef with Jay and he is trying to teach Jay a lesson"
Me:"and what do you mean when you say we are both going to PE?"
X:"we are going to try and take this guy down Thembu, Svig said he wants him down and this Jerome guy is running Cape Town and now imagine us taking him down, he is Dangerous Thembu, with a capital letter D, that’s why Jay is soo worked up"
Me:"oww Murena wanga( My Lord)" I was pacing with my hands on my head
X:"what did you say?"
Me:"uhm nothing, so you say it’s bad?"
X:"very bad, i think about 5 years back, something like this happened and the team lost about 8 members, i was told this story by Javas, that’s why i am scared Thembu, we won't be selling drugs tonight but we will be firing shots at people, killing people"
Me:"what? i didn't sign up for that"
Jay:"of course you did and there is no going back"
Me:"i can't die now Xolani" I was super scared
X:"hey bro me neither, but if something happens to me, please make sure that my mom is taken care of, i have few savings, i will right down the pin and everything and put them in my car, if something happens, help my mom to run the business, i have two siblings and just try to be there for them Thembu, i know you have not met them but you are my friend and i trust you" X had tears on his eyes…I didn’t even know what to say to him. For the first time in my life I was tangled in a situation where I will be starring death in the eyes and there was no running away from it
Me:"X i am scared, i still have a lot to live for, my mom, Tshililo and my siblings. If i die, please just take care of them, i don't have much cash on my account but just make sure they are taken care of, i know you are a good guy and you won't disappoint, i never thought i will ever say this to another guy but...i love you X, you are a true friend indeed"
X:"i love you too" we both had tears in our eyes
Me:"let me quickly change, Jay said i should be there in 30 mins"
X:"yeah, let’s take my car"
I ran to my room and Xolani went to his. I got there and quickly changed. Tshililo kept asking me what’s wrong because I looked like I had been crying but I couldn’t even answer her. I was soo scared and didn’t want to stress her as well. I found myself lashing out at her once for not keeping quiet but I immediately apologised for it. I kissed her goodbye and asked her not to worry and I left. I met with Xolani at the parking lot. I got inside his car and we quickly drove off. We got to the club and walked through to the secret club house. Jay was standing with his left foot on the couch and his elbow on his left knee with his left hand on his chin. Everybody looked sad…there was about 11 of us
Jay:"uhm Gerrit is everything ready? The machines and everything we will need?"
Gerrit:"yes boss"
Jay:"are you sure? Because you know how Ta Svig is"
Gerrit:"it’s all ready"
Jay:"uhm guys, today is going to be a long ass day, there is some stupid guy from Cape Town who think that we are going to share PE with him and that’s not going to happen, so we are going to meet our big boss, most of you don't know him but you are about to, and be warned, he is not the best person to be around with" looking at him you can see that he wasn’t happy
Jay:"uhm V Boy, do you think you will be fine handling the machine? Or should Gerrit show you again for a minute or 2"
Me:"i...i think he should show me again" better be safe than sorry, I didn’t want to mess up
Jay:"Gerrit?" Gerrit nodded and took me to a room that was said to be sound proof
Gerrit:"this is a TAR-21 and this is how you hold it" he showed me how to hold the gun and how to use it
Me:"uhm Gerrit" I said as he was opening the door because we were done. He stopped and looked at me
Gerrit:"yah"
Me:"how bad is it going to be?" he breathed
Gerrit:"V Boy i don't want to lie to you but we just have to accept whatever happens, i have done this before and believe me it’s the worst part about this job but if we die we die, we can't run away from it....the honest truth is we have to be brave and show whoever is trying to disrespect us that we are in control"
Me:"i wish it was that simple"
Gerrit:"it is, for me every day can be my day, so when i leave my house every morning, i make sure that i say a proper good bye to my loved ones because i know i might not make it and i know that at least if i die, they will be taken care of"
Me:" by?"
Gerrit:"our family, this is more than just a drug dealing job, we are a family so don't stress, if you die today then your family will be taken care of" yohh I wished I had that kind of spirit in me, I wished things were that simple. Gerrit opened the door and we walked back to the others. They were busy packing up guns
Me:"i don't have my guns with" they both looked at me like i was going insane
Jay:"i seriously don't have time for this" he said that looking at Gerrit, Gerrit pushed a bag that had guns to me
Gerrit:"you can take one and then keep the rest in the bag but keep it close to you"
Jay:"can we leave? I know the boss is will start panicking and that won't be soo great"
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We all left…each of us had one gun on hand and the rest were on the bags. There were three black BMWs waiting for us. We got inside the cars and left. I was in the same car as Xolani. I sent Tshililo an sms telling her that Jay gave me some kind of a job and that I won’t make it back home tonight…I told her I love her and that she shouldn’t worry. She replied telling me that she loved me and that I should be safe. We got to PE and all the cars entered this beautiful home….damn whoever owned the house was filthy rich. It was one of those big beautiful houses with glass wall and all that s***.
Jay led the way and we both followed him. We walked through to a room that was unlocked using an access card, Jay had a card. There were about 7 guys in there. I looked around to see if I could find someone whose face screams ‘I am the big boss’ but no one had that face
Jay:"sure bossa" he said shaking one of the guys hand…ok that can’t be Svig
Guy:"what took you guys so long huh?"
Jay:"eish Ta Svig we were still preparing" nope there has to be some kind of a mistake, this guy didn't look old at all and he certainly didn't even look like a gangster, let alone a gangster boss yohh, I seriously expected an ugly big guy with a Mkhaba like Rick Ross’s and who looked like he was in pain….but no the Svig I was looking at didn’t look at all scary, he looked normal, yes he had tattoos but it was nothing you can’t look at twice. He was wearing shorts, a vest that had funny drawings on it and a boots that could literally kill you if it stepped on your neck.
Sivuyile:"you know i don't like excuses at all" he was lighting a cigar
Jay:"yeah i know and i am sorry boss" I have never seen Jay so calm
Sivuyile:"so who are they?" his voice was shouting a bit
Jay:"uhm this is V boy, X, Jilo, Bongani and you know the rest"
Sivuyile:"sure majita, i am Ta Svig and i don't play...so i guess Jay has already briefed you about what’s happening" we both nodded
Sivuyile:"yeah some shit from Cape Town thinks that he will march in here and do as he pleases, but hell nah, this is Ta Svig's territory, and i will make sure that i teach him a lesson that he will never forget, i won't let him do this shit in my territory, never" he was shouting when he said the last part…we were all just looking at him
Sivuyile:"somebody is about to s*** on themselves today… shit is about to go down, this guy will know who i really am, we will teach him a lesson that he will never forget and please whatever happens, i don't want him dead because he needs to learn, you can kill his wife, kids mother, his dog, his cat or his donkey, i don't care but i want him alive.....i want him to bow in front of me and ask for forgiveness.....understand?" we both nodded, owk i think i need to rephrase what i had said earlier…this guy was scary, i mean his facial expression was just something else, I was scared to the last degree, how in a world was I going to kill someone? Lord I started praying a silent prayer
Sivuyile:"uhm Jay can you call Roja and ask him where he is? i asked him to pick up my wife from George because he was coming from Mossel Bay, i wish i told one of you guys to do it because he is now late.....i want my wife here because that domkop might kidnap her and use her to fight me so i don't want to give him any loophole"
Jay:"i am on it" Jay made the call and after few minutes he was done
Jay:"he said he is just at the gate"
Sivuyile:"sure, ehh guys this is not going to be like taking a candy from the baby, but it need to be done because otherwise everyone will be doing as they please in my territory, this guy is loaded and he has a big team, mind you, i said he runs Cape Town so don't undermine him, when we go out there we need to go out with our eyes wide open"
Sivuyile was busy talking when a guy opened the door and he entered with a woman. And damn I couldn’t believe it. Sivuyile walked to her and gave her a hug
Sivuyile:"hey babe, how are you doing? How is the baby?" Xolani and I looked at each other with our eyes full of fear. I couldn’t even stand anymore; I didn’t have the strength to so I sat down
Gerrit:"is everything owk?"
Me:" ye…yeah it is" oww noo, nothing was owk, nothing was ever going to be owk, i slept with Svig's wife, Sibulele was Sivuyile's wife? But how? Dammit! can someone please come and wake me up from this bad dream, i have to be dreaming or otherwise my life was over, D....E....A.....D, I was dead, this was the end of me, if he finds out the truth then I was dead
Sibu:"uhm everything....is....f...ine" she started stuttering when she saw me. She obviously looked scared and I looked away
Sibu:"babe can we talk in private please?" they walked out and I pulled Xolani to a corner
Me:" i am dead X, this is the end of me, please promise me that you will take care of my family bro please, take care of my mom, my sister, my brother and Tshili, i am begging you mfowethu" I was whispering with my voice shaking. Jay came to us
Jay:"is everything owk here?" we looked at him and then back at each other
Me:” yeah I just wanna use the bathroom”
Jay:” I know you guys are new to something like this but don’t worry it will be fine”
Me:” is it?”
Jay:” yeah, in few hours’ time this will all be over”
Me:” and some of us might not make it”
Jay:” don’t think about that right now”
Me:” owk where is the bathroom?”
Jay:” second door to your left”
Me:” and the access card when I come back?”
Jay:” give me a call and I will come open for you”
Me:” owk sure”
I was trying my best not to show him how scared and nervous I was but I think I was really failing. Svig was the type of a guy who wouldn’t even think twice about killing you if you double cross him, and to think that I had slept with his wife? Even a coward can’t let another man sleep with his wife so imagine someone like Svig? I had dug myself a hole that I was not going to get out of. I passed Sibu and Svig talking in the passage. Sibu looked like she was about to cry. I passed and went to the bathroom without saying a word. I got to the bathroom and slightly opened the door so that I can hear them
Sibu:”but baby what if something happens to you huh or to this baby, you can’t keep on picking fights to people Sivuyile, it puts all of us in danger and now it’s not just about you and me, we have a baby to think of”
Sivuyile:” babe I am not picking a fight at anyone, that guy is the one who picked a fight and if I don’t do something now, then we will be in serious danger in the future so it’s better to do damage control at an early stage”
Sibu:”you know I hate this”
Sivuyile:”you never said anything when you were saying I DO”
Sibu:”really now?”
Sivuyile:”babe I seriously don’t have time for this right now, this is happening and you better go to our bedroom and relax because I am sure the baby is tired, stop stressing about me, you know I am Svig and nothing will happen to me”
Sibu:”but you can still cancel the whole thing”
Sivuyile:”babe go to sleep, I can see you are tired, I have a meeting with the guys right now, I love you” and I heard his footsteps and then the door closed, I think he went back to the meeting with the guys. I quietly closed the bathroom door and stood in the room looking at myself in the mirror. I almost peed on myself when I saw Sibu walking in. I didn’t want to be seen talking to her let alone being found here with her…damn was she trying to get me killed?
Me:”what the hell are trying to do? Trying to get me killed?”
Sibu:”this is my house and I can walk to any room that I want, so why are you here Thembu?” I kept quiet
Sibu:”I don’t have the whole day, what are doing with Svig and them?”
Me:”i…I uhm work for Jay” she put her one hand on her head and another one on her hip
Sibu:”please tell me you are joking Thembu, do you have any idea what will happen if he finds out about us? Please Thembu I want you to quit, please stay away” she was whispering
Me:”you of all people know that I cannot do that”
Sibu:”then I am going to him now and tell him that you have been harassing me, better you die than me, I can’t let you get me killed” I popped my eyes out in shock, this bitch had a nerve neh
Me:” you know what, I still have your silly smses here, so go ahead and tell him that I have been harassing you and then we will see how he will feel about the messages you have been sending me”
Sibu:”you won’t”
Me:”just try me Sibu, this is all your mess and I won’t take the fall alone so be a good girl and act like you don’t know me and I will definitely do the same”
Sibu:”I hate you”
Me:”me too” and she walked off. I let out a sigh of relief, I washed my hands and walked back to the room. Jay came and opened for me after I buzzed at the door
Jay:” what took you soo long?”
Me:”uhm” I went to stand next to X, he looked at me with the questioning eyes but I ignored him
Sivuyile:”so I was saying that Jeroni, Jerome or whatever his name is, doesn’t know that we are coming for him tonight so we are just going to attack and bring him here”
Jay:” I received a message from Mabriza right now, he is parking somewhere close Jerome’s house, he said that he went out”
Sivuyile:”that’s not a problem, we will wait for Mabriza to give us a report when he is back, just tell Mabriza not to move, he should just lay low”
Jay:”owk done”
Sivuyile:” I have some guys who are on standby just in case this guy surprises us and then I am gonna have few guys here at home as well so that my wife won’t be alone but everyone in this room will be out there tonight, we will be attacking all his drug dealers that are here, I have been informed of the spots where they are selling”
Javas:” so do we kill them or just teach them a lesson”
Sivuyile:”its up to you, you can shoot them, slaughter them, I don’t care, all I know is that I want the message to be delivered to this Jerome guy that’s all”, everyone nodded
Me:”so are we just going to shoot them? Like aren’t the police gonna come for us or something like that?” Gerrit looked at me like he was saying wrong move my boy, Svig turned around and looked at me
Sivuyile:”did you say police?” he was now shouting
Sivuyile:”I don’t give a F***K about the damn police, we can go as far as bombing the police station if the police are getting on our way, I want everyone, and I mean everyone, including those police to know that this town is mine and mine alone” owk I took a decision that never again am I going to say anything, this guy was scary as hell, Jay was much better than him. We were grouped into five groups. I was with Gerrit, Sticks and two more guys…Sivuyile took out a map
Sivuyile:”so this is how it’s gonna go down, Jay, you guys will go to this house here, this is one of his houses where they do most of their meetings, and then Sticks, you guys are coming here, there is a dodgy guy selling some fruits right on this corner, yeah he is dealing, and then Javas, you guys are gonna go to this house right here, I heard his girlfriend stays here, her name is Stella or something along those lines, I want her dead and then I will go to his house and find out from Mabriza if he is back yet, I wanna deal with him personally” we all took our guns and wore bullet proofs, all this felt like a dream to me, I couldn’t believe that this was really happening.
Sivuyile:”I will tell you guys if there is a change of plans” Xolani and I shared a hug as we were not driving together
Sticks:”sure boss” we walked to our cars
Sticks:”V Boy are you fine?”
Me:” I think so”
Gerrit:” don’t worry my man you are riding with the best, we won’t let you down, the trick is to listen to whatever we tell you to do”
Guy:” yeah and then uzoba strong”
Sticks:” and it’s not like we are going to a fight, that Jerome guy don’t even know that we are coming for him unless someone tipped him off, but we are just gonna get there, kill the drug dealer and drive back”
Me:” is that all?”
Sticks:”yeah unless he is with other people who are loaded, then it’s gonna go down”
Me:” hopefully that’s not the case”
Gerrit:”I would love a bit of a fight though, I haven’t used my riffle in a while hey” I looked at him like he was going insane
Gerrit:”don’t worry V Boy you will get used to it” I kept quiet and prayed a silent prayer. We drove for a long while before we got to where we were going. We parked by the side of the road as we wait for it to get dark
Gerrit:”there is the guy we want”
Guy:” the one sitting down?”
Gerrit:”yeah its him” I looked at the guy and felt sorry for him…I mean he’d be dead in no time. Our car had tinted windows so we were safe. Sticks phone rang
Sticks:”yes boss…….yeah we are here already…….what?......are you sure?......uhm owk”
Gerrit:”what’s going on?”
Sticks:” uhm that Jerome guy knew we were coming and he has his guys all over this town my man, we have been set up, we have to get out of here as soon as possible or else, PE will be painted red with our blood”
Gerrit:”get your guns ready, anything might happen right now, these M**** F***ers are watching us”, the other guy was driving, Sticks was at the front and I was sitting at the back with Gerrit.
All the riffles were loaded…I knew that I had to try and be strong and hope for the best, this was no time to cry, it was the time to be strong and do what needs to be done. It was a bit darker now. The driver started the car and got into the road and then bullets started flying in the air, I couldn’t even see where the bullets where coming from because we kept our head down. Gerrit looked through the window and started shooting back, I did the same at the back window of the car. The driver was seriously speeding and I was losing balance and falling but I would get up as quickly as I could. All the other guys were not losing their balance, I guess they were already used to all this. Sticks phone rang
Sticks:”boss they got us….yeah we gonna try that….owk….yeah please we do need help….owk sure”
Guy:”and?”
Sticks:”we can’t go back to his house because his wife is there and he don’t want them to go there so he said we can go to the beach house, but problem is we don’t have the keys but he said he is will send a team of our guys there to wait for us and then some will come to help us fight these rascals”
Gerrit:”owk”
So we got to this curve where we were supposed to take a turn and then a black Benz appeared out of nowhere and started shooting at us. The windscreen at the back broke into pieces…damn this is bad. I reached for the bag where I loaded more bullets on my gun and then handed the bag to Gerrit.
Gerrit:”sure V Boy, uhm hey turn to the right, these guys are unpredictable” the driver turned to the right and the car was still following. I was busy checking the car that was behind us that I failed to see what was going on in front of us…all I had was a sound of something colliding with the other and next thing I know I am falling on my back and then my head is facing down….we didn’t have seat belts on so as the car was colliding and spinning we were falling and hitting the seats and that’s when everything went blank.
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