Zwi a Penga 10-15

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Nne ndo mbo di humela rumuni yanga nda swika nda ambara vhurukhu hanga ha shothi na luvese. Ndo dzhia laptop yanga nda vha ndi tshi khou vhona movie. Nga murahu nyana ndo mbodi wana mulaedza ubvaho kha Sibu

"Hi Thembu, I am back in campus, can I see you?", ndo mbodi mufounela ngau bonya ha ito.

Sibu:"Hey you", eish ndopfa na liipfi lawe litshi tou homolosa vhone

Me:"hey bbe, uhm where are you now?"

Sibu:"my room, wanna come?"

Me:"do you even have to ask? I miss you so bad"

Sibu:"I will be waiting"

Ndo mbodi vuwa nga lunwe luvhilo holo, nda ambara jean na tshikhipha tshisa dini nda ambara na mathaphuthaphu nda dzhena ndilani. Ndo swika nda khokhonya ada a vula, a hungo vhuya hathoma havha na mafhungo ano ambiwa, ombodi thoma u nkhisekanya na nne nda vha submissive and kissed her back. Rombodi tsetsema asizwiila raswika ntha ha mmbete. Ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo mutuvha bbe wanga ma vhanna vhashu, nwana hoyu nne ovha a tshi nnyita zwithu zwine ndo vha ndi tshi balelwa nau zwitalukanya. Thi ngo vhuya ndavha na tshifhinga tshau sedza uri ovha o ambara mini, ndo mbo di sutula tshenetsho tshe avha o ambara ndatshi sendedzela thungo hangei, na ene ombodi kokodza kokodza tshikhipha tshanda a mvula, musi nne ndi busy nae ene avha a busy na vhurukhu hanga. Ndovha nditshi vhodivha uri condom dzi wanalafhi so ndo mbo di ya henefhala kha kubogisi konokula ndabvisa nthihi raita mushumo. Rofhedza ra ganama ntha ha mmbete.

Me:"I missed you", ndoralo nditshi khou mukhisa tshikuma

Sibu:"missed you too"

Me:"so how was home?"

Sibu:"home was home wethu, wena how was campus?"

Me:"boring, all I wanted was you", ndotwa na Sibu wanga uvhuya uswika litshi mbwandamela, ndosala nditshiya rumuni yanga honovha late nyana.

Duvha litevhelaho hovha hu musumbuluwo, sanga misi ndovuwa ndaya u dilugisa uri ndiye kilasini. Ndori ufhedza ndaya u attender. Ndo swika nda vhona Tshililo o dzula khonani, ndo mbo di ya nga haningei heavha odzula hone. Ndo swika Tshililo tsha mbo di sedza thungo.

Me:"uri mini fhedzi?"

Tshili:"ndi hone"

Me:"ndi khou humbela pfarela khazwa mulovha"

Tshili:"zwofhira Thembu"

Me:"so hango mpfara nga mbilu?"

Tshili:"na luthihi"

Me:"ndo livhuwa Tshililo, ri kha divha vhangana musi?"

Tshili:"ahuna zwinwe", o mbo di setshelela, ndopfa na nne mbilu yanga itshi dzula vhudzuloni. Ro fhedza u attender ubva hafho ravha ri free. Roya radzula fhasi ha muri, Tshili ovha odzula o navha milenzhe nne ndo ganama ndavhea thoho yanga khae. Rovha ritshi khou zuwa nga zwithu zwisa dini. We were friends after all.

Me:"u a divha thithu vhuya nda muvhudzisa uri ubva gai venda ene?"

Tshili:"ndibva Nzhelele nne, ene habe ubva gai zwila?"

Me:"ha Tshisele nga hangei"

Tshili:"thi hudivhi fhedziha ndia kholwa uri ndido vhuya nda hu divha saizwi ri vhangana kani?"

Me:"husina na zwinwe thama yanga", rovha rodigeda ngauralo musi nditshipfa Sibu atshiri "Thembu", ndombodi vusa thoho nga tshipidi nda mbo di tou dzula.

Me:"hey bbe"

Sibu:"and you have the guts to call me bbe when you are with her?", Ndo mbo di takuwa nda ima, Tshililo na ene a takuwavhoo

Me:"no bbe Tshili is just my friend"

Sibu:"friend my foot, I know whats going on here, you were sleeping with her while I was away"

Tshili:"ahg Sibu just chill please, I am not sleeping with your boyfriend"

Me:"Tshili kha fhumule mani ai", sibu ombodiya kha Tshili atshi fara ngadzi washini

Sibu:"you don't know me and I don't know you so stay away from my boyfriend"

Me:"uhm Sibu bbe just calm down"

Sibu:"really Thembu, you gonna tell me to calm the fuck down? "

Tshili:"yeahh because you are just jumping the gun, nothing is happening"

Sibu o mbo diri nga clapa kha Tshili, Tshili tshathoma tsha dzunguluwa nyana. Ndo mbo di fara Sibu uri ayele thungo, Tshili na tshone tsha mbo di takutshedza tshavha tshi tshi khou yela Sibu vhoo. Hevhanna nne ndowana ndodada tshothe, vhathu vhe vha vha vhanga tsini vhovha vho risedza.

Me:"uhm guys please this is not necessary", Sibu ovha oima atshi khou ita hezwila zwau vha akho ginda mulenzhe muthihi fhasi zwine zwaitiwa badi nga manigeria musi atshi khou toda ulwa, ndotoda usea fhedzi zwovha zwisa seisi.

Me:"uhm Tshili, I will see you tomorrow in class please"

Tshili:"so you are not attending the rest of the classes?"

Me:"please just go, kho tou muhumbela"

Tshili ombodi doba bege yawe abva afhela.

Me:"bbe what was that? Tshili is my classmate, you can't just rock in here and accuse her of sleeping with me"

Sibu:"but you look so cosy together"

Me:"but I did told you that there was nothing going on though"

Sibu:"its just that you don't understand Thembu"

Me:"make me understand", ndovha ndo sendela tsini nae ndo mufara nga khundu.

Sibu:"I am just afraid that you gonna leave me for a girl your own age, I love you so much Thembu and I don't wanna loose you at all", ovha o tsengisa mitodzi nyana, uhm ndopfa zwone kana wee, utonga ori uya mpfuna.

Me:"did you just said you love me so much?"

Sibu:"uhm yeah Thembu", ovha akho nwenwela, aahhhh nwana o nnyitela duvha hoyu ndo mbo di mutakula nda mumonisa, ndovha nditshinga ndisa tavha gosi lau vhudza munwe na munwe uri khuvhani Sibu uri u khou mpfuna. Ndo muvhea fhasi nda mukhisa ndisa fhedzi, I was just so happy.

Me: this calls for a real celebration come here", ndo mufara nga tshanda raya goloini yawe, o mbodi dela nga hangeno kha side ya driver

Me:"no no go that side, I am driving you today", u reilavho ndovha ndi tshi kona ngauri khotsi anga thi vhana ku korokoro vhoo, na licence ndovha ndonovha nayo.

Sibu:"uhm are you sure?"

Me:"why you gotta ask?", ro mbo di dzhena goloini na Sibu asi zwila. Ndoswika nda paka Garden Route mall,

Me:"just wait here, I won't be long"

Sibu:"owk", ndo mbodi tuwa ndaswika ndadzhena Woolworths Food, ndoswika ndarenga Champagne nyana, 2 glasses, dzi fruits nyana, a yogurt and some chocolates, ubva hafho ndodzhena kha side ya zwiambaro ndarenga thavhula nthihi. Ndovhuya nazwo zwikha plastic

Me:"don't look please", Sibu laughed

Sibu:"owk then", ndo mbo di driver nga N2 ndi tshi khou yela George. Ndoswika nda paka hafhala parkhani heila ire opposite PnP Mall as you are driving to George CBD. Ndo mbo di ya ndavulela Sibu vothi abva, she was smiling non stop. Ndo mbodi bvisa thavhula ndai adza fhasi,ndadzhia plastic langa helia lenda vhuya nalo Woolworths ndada nalo.

Me:"you may sit", ndoralo ndi tshi khou musumbedza fhethu hau dzula hone. Oya adzula na nne ndadzula vhoo, ndombodi bvisa ngilasi mbili hedzila nda shela champagne,  nda nekedza Sibu nthihi, mitshelo heila na yogurt na chocolate ndovha ndozwi bvisa plastikini nda zwi vhea nga ntha halo.

Sibu:"woow Thembu"

Me:"you like?"

Sibu:"I love", she giggled, ndo imisa ngilasi yendavha ndofara ndari "to us"

Sibu:"to us", ro mbodi nwa mukulo muthihi rathoma ula na zwidzhangu dzhangu nyana izwo zwendavha ndo renga.

Me:"I am so happy that you finally told me that you love me too, you have no idea how happy you have made me Sibu, you are everything to me and I love you somuch"

Sibu:"uhm I love you too and thank you for all this", o mbo di thoma ubvisa mitodzi, aivhoo

Me:"bbe did I do something wrong?"

Sibu:"you are just so sweet Thembu", ndo mbo di nwenwela musi ndi tshipfa atshi ralo.

Me:"you deserve it and I wish I can do more for you, take you to a nice hotel so that we can just relax, but I can't afford all that and I am sorry nehh?", o phumula mitodzi yawe

Sibu:"you are giving me enough already Thembu, your love is enough, I can take you to a hotel myself", she smiled

Me:"stop it please"

Sibu:"just think about it though, a weekend away just me and you"

Me:"I will never let you pay for all that"

Sibu:"why not? We are a couple right?"

Me:"yeah but I am a man in this relationship,  you can't keep taking me out", she laughed

Sibu:"you sound so sweet yazi but I am not taking no for an answer"

O mbo di kwatamela kha nne a nkhisa. Ro dzula henefho lwa tshifhinga nyana ri tshi khou zuwa nga ano na ala na baby wanga. Ro humela Tshikoloni late nyana musi duvha lono kovhela. Roswika raya rumuni ya Sibu. Ndo mukhisa goodbye musi ndi tshi vho toda u tuwa.

Me:"thanks for loving me, see you tomorrow nehh?", ndovha ndi tshi khou setshelela lunwe

Sibu:"I thought you were staying over, we are celebrating remember?", oralo atshi khou mmbanda mbanda

Me:"I have to leave early though because I have a 9 o'clock class"

Sibu:"no problem", ndo mbo di mutakula nda muvhea ntha ha mmbete nda mugonya nga ntha ndathoma u mukhisekanya.

Matshelo nga matsheloni ndo vuwa nda mufha ya good morning then ndakona udzhena ndilani ndaya rumuni yanga, ndowana X a tshe o edela. Ndoswika ndadzhia zwithu zwanga zwau tamba ndaya u tamba, ndori ndi tshi vhuya ndawana X ono vuwa.

X:"Thembu where did you sleep? Sibu or Tshili", he was laughing

Me:"uhm I don't understand why you are mentioning Tshili", ndo vha ndi tshi khou dola mapfura.

X:"I know that you and Tshili have a thing going on and now that the madam is back, kuzobanzima"

Me:"I am not going to entertain your crazy ideas X", X lovha li tshi kha di ntsea, nne ndovha ndofhedza u dola mapfura ndi tshi vho ambara.

X:"believe whatever you want bro but you know I am telling the truth", ndo mbodi decider usa li entertainer X khazwine lakho amba zwone, hafhu nne na Tshili rovha ri tshi touvha dzithama ende zwiguma henefho.

X:"so I take it that you where with Madam Speaker Sibu", he laughed out loud, mtzm hei authi iya penga serious hafhu ndodi wana na nne nditshi khou sea waa

Me:"Tsek man X what is wrong with you today?", o sokou isa phanda nau ntsea. Ndori ufhedza u ambara ndaita breakfast yanga ubva hafho ndaya kilasini. Ndoswika nda tinga tinga nditshi khou sedza tshili, ndo mbodi tshivhona ndaya udzula tsini natsho

Me:"hey"

Tshili:"hi"

Me:"kha mpfarele nga zwe Sibu aita mulovha nehh?"

Tshili:"hoyo thina mushumo nae nne, zwine zwa khou mmbilaedzisa ndi zwauri mulandu inwi ni songo tsha attender kilasi mulovha?"

Me:"uhm eish", ndo mbo di kweta thoho

Tshili:"novha ni tshi kha di luvheledza girl friend yanu nga tshifhinga tsha tshikolo Thembu?"

Me:"asi hezwo Tshili ai"

Tshili:"ndi University hafha Thembu, uri notobva hayani ngei kule kule nitshi khouda uita zwau tamba afha?"

Me:"u khou yesa zwino ai, kha litshe u diita mubebi please"

Tshili:"holuga ndo fhumula"

Me:"so u do ntsumbedza zwenda tahela zwone mulovha musi?"

Tshili:"yahh, rofhiwa na assignment"

Me:"ndi mufunela zwenezwi ene", ndo mbo di mu hug. Ndo ri u fhedza u attender nne ndaya kha Sibu, ratwa rirothe duvha lothe rumuni yawe. Ndosala nditshiya rumuni yanga honovha vhusiku vhukuma.

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One year later

Nne na Sibu rovha ri kha di pfana. Rovha ro no touvha couple I divheaho kha vhangana vhashu, na hanevha vhathu vhane ra attender navho. Rovha ritshitwa rothe almost everyday, nne ndovha nditshi edelesa ha Sibu ufhirisa rumuni yanga. Ndo vha ndi tshi khou difhelwa nga maanda na Sibu wanga. Nne, X, Ncedo na Thembani rovha ri kha divha vhangana nga maanda, nahone zwino rovha ritshi vho tounga vharathu na vhakomana. Tshililo ovha a tshi khadivha mungana wanga, things between her and Sibu were much better now, vhovha vhasatshalwa sa kale lini, Tshili ovha ono tanganedza uri nne ndi funana na Sibu, Sibu na ene ovha ono tanganedza uri nne na Tshili rivhangana. Tshili ndovha nditshi khadi attender nae dzinwe kilasi saizwi nne ndovha ndina tharu dza first year dzenda feila dzine ndo vha ndi tshi khou repeater and Tshili o dzi phasa, infact Tshili ovha o phasa dzothe. Sibu ovha a khou ita 3rd year zwino. Lufuno lwanga kha Sibu lovha lu tshi khou duga nga maanda. Nne ndovha ndo no tou vha munwi wa halwa, dzi beshe nadzi party itali vhovha vhatshi vhona nne na Sibu, rovha risa taheli shame.

(N.B…NDI HAFHALA HE TSHITORI TSHA THOMA HONE)

Back to the hospital bed. Ndo humbula zwothe hezwi ngaha Sibu ngoho ndapfa thoho itshi bvuma. Nne na Sibu ribva kule nga maanda, ndopfa uri a zwi konadzei uri avhe ana munna na luthihi. Ho mbo di dzhena Nurse.

Nurse:"time to eat sir",

Me:"I am not hungry, I just wanna leave", ndopfa uri ndi khou tea ubva sibadela ndi ambe na Sibu, mybe oto kidnapiwa muthu wanga.

Nurse:"I will leave these here", thingo fhindula tshithu, ngoho arali avhe atshi zwidivha uri ndi khou munyala hani nehh? Ndo edela henefho, until ndi tshipfa vothi litshi vuliwa. Ndovusa thoho nda sedza uri ndi nnyi, ndowana hu X, Ncedo na Thembani

X:"hey hey mjita", ndopfa ndi tshi delwa nga mutakalo nyana musi ndi tshi vhona vhangana vhanga

Thembani:"you look scary bro", vho mbo di sea vhothe, ndolingedza u sea na nne mara tshifhatuwo tshovha tsho oma hetshi, so ndovha ndi tshi khou balelwa u sea

X:"so how are you feeling?"

Me:"I am in agony bro as you can see, I can't even laugh"

Thembani:"uzoba strong"

Ncedo:"so do you know those guys Thembu?"

Me:"guys I don't clearly remember what happened last night so obviously I don't remember those guys"

X:"I wonder why though I mean you don't really have a grudge with anyone do you?"

Me:"and I think those guys kidnapped Sibu"

Thembani:"what do you mean?"

Me:"I tried calling her this morning and a guy picked up her phone and he said he was her husband and I should not call her back", vho mbo di ntsedza nga mato ane ndovha ndi sa khou pfesesa uri a khou amba uri mini

Me:"what?"

X:"uhm what if Sibu is really married"

Me:"ahg X I know you don't like her that much but I thought we were over that already"

Ncedo:"think about it bro, that chick always say that her family is strict and she ignores your calls when she is at home"

Thembani:"yeah, I mean you have been with her for like a year now and she still don't wanna talk to you when she is at home"

Me:"I do talk to her when she is at home man but only when her dad is out of the house", X o mbo di nnekedza founu yanga saizwi ovha oda nayo

X:"call her again and mybe she will pick up and then you will find out once and for all", ndo I dzhia nda dialer number phone dza Sibu. Ndovha ndi positive tshothe nne uri Sibu anga sivhe a married, I was in denial I mean huna possibilities dzauri phone yawe ivhe yo to tswiwa. Founu yolila luraru ya mbo di fariwa.

Sibu:"hello", li ipfi lawe lovha lifhasi mara ndopfa ndo takala musi nditshipfa uri o I fara.

Me:"hey bbe, how are you? I tried calling earlier on and…", o mbo di nkatudza ndi sathu fhedza u amba

Sibu:"Uhm Thembu I am sorry about what happened last night, it was all my fault and I am sorry"

Me:"but Sibu what do you mean?", ndo vha ndi khou thoma u panicker

Sibu:"I am sorry Thembu but we can't continue with this, I am so sorry"

Me:"wh....wh....what...do...do you mean?", u tou amba ngoho ovha o nkhedza nne, ndovha ndi khou balelwa u pfesesa uri hu khou itea mini

Sibu:"there is no easy way to say this but we are over Thembu, I am a married woman and my husband knows about you so we can't continue,  don't even try to contact me again"

Me:"Si....Sib....Sibu", o mbo di dropper call. Ni a divha uri ndo to pfa zwonotovha na vhutanzi tshothe uri nangoho Sibu o malwa.

Ncedo:"uhm and?"

Me:"she is married and I hope you are all happy now"

X:"we are sorry bro"

Me:"nahh you are not, just leave please"

Thembani:"but the…", I cut him off

Me:"I said leave", ndo vha ndi khou amba nga ipfi lodzikaho, nahone la muthu o netaho.

Hezwila nga matsheloni nditshi founa ya farwa nga munna ndovha ndo tsikeledzea and I was in shock, but at least I was still in denial so there was still a bit of a hope ngauri ndovha ndi sathu amba na sibu. Fhedziha ndori u amba nae musi atshi nea vhutanzi ha uri khuvhani ene o malwa ndapfa ndo tou zhakea hezwila zwavhukuma. Zwanga na Sibu zwofhela. Ngoho muhumbulo hoyo woda na vhunwe vhutungu vhusa kondelelei. After nwaha wothe ritshi khou funana, nne thi ngou vhuya ndavuwa ndo humbulela uri Sibu una munna, ndi ngazwo ovha asa todi aumba na nne musi a hayani, ngoho ndopfa ndi tshi touvha buphuthe la munna, houla nwana Sibu o ntamba nne ndizwone. Ndovha ndi sa khou toda u tou zwikholwa zwavhudi, ndo mbo di lingedza u mufounela futhi, and she dropped it. Ndo lingedza futhi, adovha a dropper. Ndori u vhona zworalo nda lata fulufhelo.

Ndodzula mmbeteni wa Sibadela ndi tshi khou humbula nga tshifhinga tshenda tshitambisa kha Sibu, ndo feila mi modules last year nga nthani hae. Habe ovha a tshi khou mpengisa nne houla nwana, ndowana mini khazwo mara ngoho? Ndo twa ndo lala henefho uvhuya uswika li tshi kovhela. Musi vho X vhoda vhovha vho nndela na zwiliwa nyana, at least ndovha ndi sa dola zwiliwa zwa sibadela. Ndo dzhia founu yanga ndavha ndi tshi khou lavhelesa mi message kha whatsapp, hovha husina na zwi no dina na luthihi. Ndo decider uri hayani thinga vhavhudzi ori ndi sibadela, ndovha ndisa todi utwa ndi khou vhalisa mbilu na luthihi. Ndo dzhena kha Facebook uri ndivhe ndi khou tshova tshifhinga, ndoya kha profile ya Sibu, there was nothing about her husband, thidivhi na zwauri mulandu ndi khou I sedza ngauri profile heyo ndia idivha. Ngoho ndo pfa ndi tshi khou lenga ubva sibadela ngauri ndovha ndi tshi do tahela dzikilasi nazwauri ndo pfa uri ndi kha di tea uamba na Sibu, I wanted to understand why oita uri nne ndi tende uri ene uya mpfuna ngeno ana munna. Duvha lovhuya la kovhela nne nda mbo di farwa nga khofhe.

The following day ndo vuswa nga Nurse a tshi khouda u nthathuvha nyana.

Nurse:"you are looking better today Thembu, we might discharge you tomorrow", mbilu yanga yovha I sa tsha tou swela u dischargiwa ufana na mulovha lini, hafhu ndovha ndi khoupfa hu si tshena tshine nda khou tshilela tshone, Sibu was everything to me.

Me:"ok I see"

Nurse:"I thought you'd be happy"

Me:"I have nothing to live for so why should I be happy?"

Nurse:"oww I see", o mpha mikapu yahone ndala, ubva hafho a mpha mishonga na philisi. Eish ngoho ndovha ndi khoupfa ndi khou divhenga, Sibadela huya bora ma vhanna. Ori u fhedza zwezwo abva. Tshifhinga tshau dalela vhathu tshoswika and X a mbo di dzhena.

X:"hey"

Me:"hey"

X:"how are you feeling?"

Me:"except for the fact that I am damn heart broken, I am fine", ndovha ndo bilufhala lwau fhedzisela

X:"eish sorry ntwana"

Me:"nahh its fine, I am sorry about yesterday,  I shouldn't have"

X:"nahh we understand my man, so Thembani and Ncedo had classes so they couldn't come hey"

Me:"its fine and there are chances of me being discharged tomorrow"

X:"owww thats great news"

Me:"I am not so sure anymore, its not like I have anything to live for in campus"

X:"ahg stop saying that man, how many ladies are in our campus huh? Beautiful ladies than the married Sibu so don't stress yourself, speaking of which I have a friend here", ndo mbo di nwenwela

Me:"who?", X o mbo di bvela nnda, avhuya few seconds later and Tshili ovha a murahu hawe. I smiled involuntarily,  Tshili was a good friend and ndingazwo ndovha ndi tshi mutakalela.

Tshili:"hey you"

Me:"hey", o mbodi sendela tsini a lingedza u mpha hug"

Tshili:"X you don't mind if we speak venda do you?"

X:"actually I am going to get us some coffee so its fine"

Tshili:"owk thanks", X o mbo di bvela nnda

Tshili:"zwino ho itea mini kha inwi? Hafhu nne ndoto mangala X atshiri inwi ni sibadela"

Me:"eish Tshili dzovhuyesa nga mugivhela besheni mani ene"

Tshili:"novha ni khou tou ita zwau lwa naa?"

Me:"hai hotoda tshigwada tsha vhathu vhanthwa"

Tshili:"zwi khou tshuwisa wee, vhovhuya vhanivhudza uri mulandu wazwo?"

Me:"uhm khombela usa godombedswa ngauri ndono disola kale thi, asongo nnyitela I told you so please"

Tshili:"owk thingadoni judge"

Me:"hu tounga vho rambwa nga munna wa Sibu", she frowned

Tshili:"munna wa Sibu?, ni khou tou zwiambisa hani?"

Me:"Sibu o maliwa Tshili", mutodzi wovha u khou toda ubva mara ndolwa nga ndila dzothe uri usongo vhuya wabva

Tshili:"litshani miswaswo Thembu ai, Sibu o malwa?"

Me:"mafhungo ndi haneyo"

Tshili:"azwi pfali na luthihi, musi inwi nina nwaha wothe ni khou pfana na ula muthu, na zwauri ovha asa vhuyi azwi dzumba uri u khou pfana na inwi ovha atshi vhonala atshi nifuna", habe ori u zwitalutshedza ngauralo nda tou nana u vhaisala, just last month nne na Sibu ro celebrater one year anniversary.

Me:"ndizwezwo Tshili"

Tshili:"ndi sorry nga maanda Thembu, ndia zwidivha uri nia mufuna nga maanda"

Me:"azwi tshena ndavha, she said she had nothing to do with me, so nne ndovha ndi tshi touvha kubwanana kwawe kwau tamba ngako hafha tshikoloni"

Tshili:"mara ni khou dipfa hani?"

Me:"u khou vhudzisa iyo mbudziso zwavhukuma?"

Tshili:"sorry thi", X o mbo divha a khou dzhena na cup tharu dza coffee, o nea nne nthihi, inwe afha Tshililo.

X:"so should I come pick you up tomorrow then?"

Me:"yeah but I will send you a confirmation sms if I am discharged"

X:"owk", Tshili na X vhodzula na nne tshifhinga tshilapfu nyana. Nga murahu musi tshifhinga tshau dalela vhalwadze tshono fhela vhakona utuwa.

Duvha litevhelaho ndo dischargiwa, banditshi dzedzavha dzikha tshifhatuwo dzovha dzono bvisiwa fhedziha ndovha nditshe ndo zwimba nyana. Hovha hono tou sala yeyavha inga hafha khadzi mbabvu. Mapholisa na vhone vhoda just before I leave ngauri hovha hovulwa case ya assault against havho vhathu vho nthwaho mara thaidzo ndiya uri nne ndovha ndisa humbuli na muthihi saizwi ndovha ndo dikambeliwa, so ndo vhavhudza uri kha vha droppe case, na zwauri ndopfa uri athina nungo dzautwa ndi khou senga nne naho vhathu vhahone vha wanala. X o mbodi swika husikale.

X:"mfana"

Me:"hey"

X:"hey, here is your clothes", o mbo di nnekedza zwiambaro zwau tshintsha  ndaya utshintsha, ufhedza hanefho ratuwa. Ndovha ndi kha dipfa uvhavha nga maanda, muvhili hoyu wovha usa pfiwi na zwitukutuku. Roswika radzhena goloini ya  X. Ro takuwa rolivha tshikoloni. Roswika ratsa nda dedengela nditshiya rumuni. Uswika nda mbodi gonya mmbete nda ganama.

X:"do you need anything?"

Me:"I need to talk to Sibu that's what I need"

X:"huh uh Thembu, you can't do this to yourself"

Me:"I need explanation,  like why did she do this to me? Showing me all this love and only to find out a year later that she is married?"

X:"I think the best thing to do is to distance yourself because we don't know who those guys who beat you up are and the possibilities are that if they see you with her they might do worse"

Me:"and you think I care about that?"

X:"you are supposed to care though"

Me:"but I don't"

X:"leave Sibu alone, you have a lot to live for, your family,  how do you think it will make them feel if you get murdered here"

Me:"eish X you don't get it bro, you don't, I love that chick and she just can't drop a bomb like that and expect me to just move on, at least I deserve a bit of an explanation"

X:"do what you feel is right but I have your back"

Me:"thanks for being a good friend"

X:"you are also a good friend", nne ndo mbo di edela. Ndo tou vuswa nga Tshili, Ncedo, Thembani na Sihle. Ndo tou hangwa u zwiamba thi, Sihle ovha atshi vho funana na X, Tshili ene ovha asa pfani na muthu ngauri uri u khou toda uvha busy na zwa tshikolo saizwi odela zwone.

Me:"are we having a party or something?"

Ncedo:"yeah, we are celebrating the fact that you almost left us but here you are, alive and kicking", Tshili o mbo di posa Ncedo nga ku feisi.

Tshili:"ahg no man Ncedo, uhm Thembu we just wanna support you as your friends thats all"

Thembani:"yeah so how are you?"

Me:"ndi grand as you can see"

Thembani:"and emotionally?"

Me:"thats another story lets not even talk about it, so what do you have there?"

X:"we have beers for us three and juice for you and the ladies", everyone laughed at me

Me:"can someone explain to me why I will be drinking juice"

Ncedo:"dude you just got out of the hospital, you cant mix medication with alcohol"

Me:"no guys its not like I have a heart disease or lung Infection,  its just minor juries man"

Sihle:"yeah but you are taking pills right?"

Me:"just pain killers"

Tshili:"they are still medication"

Me:"mtzm you guys are bad friends", vhothe vho mbodisea. Ndo takalela zwevha nnyitela. Uvha havho hafha nau tikedza zwovha zwi tshi khou amba zwinzhi kha nne. Rodzedza rothe uvhuya uswika litshi kovhela musi Sihle na Tshili vhatshi tuwa.

Nga tsha matshelo hovha hu lavhuvhili. Ndo decider usa attender class uitela uri ndiye u vhona sibu. Ndo lindela X atshi tuwa for class dzawe. Ndovha ndikhwine nyana namusi naho ndovha ndi tshi khou thobila nyana, muvhili hoyu wovha wonovha khwine nga maanda. Ndoya bathroom ndaswika ndatamba, ndavhuya ndada nda tshintsha. Tshifhinga hovha huvho past 9, ndo zwidivha uri ndidowana Sibu a rumuni ngauri class dzawe dzovha dz itshi khou thoma nga 12. Ndovha ndi tshi tou divha na class schedule tshawe tshothe. Ndobva ndolivha rumuni ya Sibu. Ndoswika nda khokhonya. Nga murahu ha tshifhinga nyana oda a vula. Ndopfa mbilu yanga itshi rwela ntha musi ndi tshi muvhona, ovha o ambara kurukhu kutuku na kuvese zwau edela a ambara na gown hedzi dza tshilimo dzisina zwanda afhedza ari ma sleepers milenzheni. Ovha a atshi vhonala uri ndi hone o vuwa zwino mara ndori u muvhona ndapfa mbilu yanga itshi vhavha, ndovhona atshinga ovha oto nana unaka vhone. Ndo mbo di humbula uri arali hu few days ago ndovha ndi tshi dovha ndi khou sutukanya zwiambaro zwea ambara nda muita zwithu but then I remembered the current situation,  she was someone else's wife.

Sibu:"uhm what are you doing here?"

Me:"we need to talk", thi ngo lindela atshiri ndidzhene, ndombodi tou dzhena ndisongo Invitiwa.

Sibu:"Thembu you can't be seen here please"

Me:"or what?"

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Sibu:"please Thembu you can't be seen here"

Thembu:"why not"

Sibu:"its dangerous"

Me:"I don't care Sibu, please I want you back in my life", ndo mbodi sedza tshanda tshawe ndawana ana rinngi, ndonga ndisa fenta ma vhanna vhashu.

Me:"how long have you had this?"

Sibu:"what"

Me:"the ring"

Sibu:"been married for 2 years Thembu"

Me:"how come I never saw it?"

Sibu:"its none of your business owk, but if you must know I never wore it at school because I wanted a normal varsity life, I didn't want to be anyone's wife here"

Me:"but why didn't you tell me the truth Sibu? You knew that I love you"

Sibu:"I am sorry Thembu I wish things were different but the are not"

Me:"but why Sibu huh? Why did you make me believe that you loved me in the first place huh? So I didn't mean anything to you?"

Sibu:"its not like that, you meant something but I am married and we can't continue"

Me:"you feel something right? Then why can't we do it? Why can't you leave your so called husband for me?", mitodzi yanga yo mbo di elela ma vhanna, ndo mila pride yanga yothe ngauri ndovha nditshi zwidivha uri lufuno lwanga na Sibu lwovha lu tshi khou depender kha hoyu moment

Sibu:"you must be joking Thembu, you are a school kid for crying out loud,  you can't offer me anything" ori u amba hezwo ndapfa oto nthavha na mbilu

Thembu:"I can offer you love, I love you please Sibu" she chuckled

Sibu:"you can't be serious, can you maintain this standard huh? You can't even give me a quarter of what he gives me, love dont don't pay the bills", aaaahhhh ndopfa o mmbaisa

Me:"so this is all about the money huh? The only reason why you are with him is because of the money?"

Sibu:"I love him Thembu now go"

Me:"no I am not leaving", ndovha ndo digana nne uri ahuna hune nda khouya hone shame not until nditshi wana zwe nda vha ndi khou toda

Sibu:"a piece of advice Thembu, if my husband find out that you were here again, he won't hesitate to kill you"

Me:"is that a threat now?"

Sibu:"I am telling you the truth, I care about you a lot and I don't want you to get hurt please, uhm my husband is a gangster....a dangerous one at that and he has killed for me before and he can do it again"

Me:"what? So you are a gangster’s wife?" ndo tou pfa unga ndi khou lora

Sibu:"yeahh and you better leave please"

Me:"I still need some answers"

Sibu:"I will contact you Thembu, we will talk but not in campus, he is having people watching me"

Me:"thats insane"

Sibu:"just go I will call you", ndo takuwa nda thobila ndi tshi ya munangoni, I looked at her

Me:"a kiss?"

Sibu:"please go", ndo vhunaila nda thobila ndabvela nnda.

Thoho yovha I tshi khou rema lusa kondelelei. Ngoho Sibu ontsuvha ma vhanna vhashu. Uri munna wawe ndi Gangster, what if he was abusing her eish ndovha ndina stress tshihulu. Ndoya rumuni ndawana husina muthu. Ndo sendela X message wauri avhuye na halwa vhunzhi nyana na dzi cigarettes ndido mufha tshelede atshi vhuya,  I wanted something to make me forget. Ndo edela ngeno mbilu I tshi khoupfa vhutungu, ngoho lufuno lunga inwe ndila ndotenda, khoyu nwana o nthovha mbilu nne nga khaladzi. Ngavhuya nyana X ombodi dzhena na 12 pack ya Heineken na 12 pack Lite, nadzi cigarette nyana. Ndombodi dzhia Heineken nthihi nda I dududza, ubva hafho ndadzhia ya vhuvhili ndafhedza ndadoba na cigarette.

X:"uhm dude did you attend?", ndo soko fhumula and stared into space with the cigarette on my hand tshinwe tshofara Heineken, vhutsi vhu tshi khou duba.

X:"Thembu"

Me:"did you say something?"

X:"yeah I asked if you attended classes"

Me:"nope I went to see Sibu"

X:"owww and?"

Me:"she never loved me bro, she never did", ndovha ndi khou amba nga ipfi helia la muthu ane akhou humbula nga maanda. Ndori uralo nda hoba luthihi ndasedza ntha ndabvisa vhutsi

X:"I am sorry bro"

Me:"its fine X, you tried to warn me my man, but did I listen?"

X:"but don't blame yourself though"

Me:"she said her husband is a gangster, can you believe it? She can't be with me because of him"

X:"what?"

Me:"yeah she has choosen a damn gangster and not me, she said I don't have enough cash"

X:"wooow thats bad"

Me:"tell me about it",

X:"so whats your plan?"

Me:"I wish I have one but I don't"

X:"sorry ntwana", ndo dzula na X ri tshi khou nwa khathihi nau dala lavhuya la touvha vhusiku.

Ndovuwa ngatsha matshelo ndapfa uri I can't face the world,  ndovha ndofarwa ngainwe babalasi heyo so I decided that I won't attend.

X:"hey Thembu are you not attending?"

Me:"eish not today ntwana"

X:"huh uh mfethu you cant do this to yourself because of a girl"

Me:"eish mybe tomorrow X but I can't attend today", X obva aya clasini nne ndasala ndolala. Ndovuwa nga masiari ndaya bathroom utamba, ndoswika ndatamba ndavhuya ndada nda relax rumuni. Ndowana huna missed calls dza Tshili kha founu yanga. Husi kale kale ho mbo di da ha khokhonya muthu. Ndoya ndavula ndawana hu Tshili.

Tshili:"hey", oralo atshi khou dzhena

Me:"hi"

Tshili:"hu khou itea mini Thembu?"

Me:"ni khou amba nga mini?"

Tshili:"why are you destroying yourself like this?"

Me:"if you are here to lecture me nehh please leave"

Tshili:"I am not here for that, I am trying to be your friend here"

Me:"really?"

Tshili:"Thembu ndia zwidivha uri nia mufuna Sibu and ndi sorry nga maanda nga ndila yezwithu zwafhela ngayo, ndi khou toda uri nidivhe uri I am here for you"

Me:"ndo livhuwa Tshili, azwingo leluwa naluthihi, nne Sibu ndia mufuna nga maanda", ndovha ndo tsengisa na mitodzi mara ndopfa uri ndingasi lile phanda ha Tshili

Tshili:"nidovha strong Thembu"

Me:"hango vhuya  avuwa o mpfuna nne Sibu, ovha atshi kho tou ntambisa houla musidzana, she never felt anything for me and to think that nne ndo mufuna with everything I had"

Tshili:"zwia itea hezwo tshinwe tshifhinga mara azwi ambi tshithu"

Me:"eish yahh nehh".

Ndori ndodzula na Tshili nda receiver massage une wa khoubva kha Sibu

"hi, can I see you....make a plan to come to the Cinema and book a movie, I will also do the same then we can talk inside please......we can't be seen in public together", ndo reply ndari holuga.

Ndopfesesa uri mybe there was still a little chance that nne na Sibu ringavha rothe. Mybe u khou toda u mmbudza uri o shandukisa muhumbulo, ndovha ndina mihumbulo minzhi minzhi nga ngomu hanga.

Tshili:"uhm Thembu mulandu?"

Me:"she wants to see me"

Tshili:"for what?"

Me:"she didn't say but she just said that she wanted to see me"

Tshili:"Thembu please asongoya"

Me:"I have to, ndi khou toda udivha"

Tshili:"dibviseni khae houla muthu, she is not worth it please, you can't throw your life away like this, hafhu nau attender class anitsha attender Thembu",

Me:"Tshili ndia zwidivha uri una ndavha but I have to do this"

Tshili:"udo dovha ani vhaisa futhi"

Me:"thats a risk I am willing to take"

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Ndo dzhia founu yanga nda founela X

X:"Thembu"

Me:"hey mfana where are you?"

X:"I am with Sihle"

Me:"eish bro I need a favour....can I use your vehicle?"

X:"uhm dude you can't be serious"

Me:"I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important please"

X:"eish owk come to Sihle's room to fetch the keys"

Me:"owk dankie",

Tshili:"so ni khouya khae?"

Me:"sorry Tshililo but I have to"

Tshili:"ndi khou zwivhona uri ahuna na tshithihi tshine ndado amba tsha ni shandukisa muhumbulo, so let me be a good friend and just support you, come here", ndoya tsini nae ndaswika rahagana lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu

Me:"ndi khou livhuwa Tshili"

Tshili:"thats what friends are for"

Ndobva rumuni na Tshili raya rumuni yavho. Ndovha ndi tshi khou dipfa ndikhwine nga maanda, ndovha  ndisi tsha tou thobilavhoo lini na matsivha one ovha ono fhu fhungudzea. Roswika X a nnekedza key nne  ndaya Cinema Garden Route. Ndo sendela Sibu message nda mutalutshedza uri ndi ngagai nahone ndi khou vhona movie ufhio. Ndo dzula nda lindela nga mato matsuku. Movie wendavha ndi tshi khou uvhona wovha usina vhathu vhanzhi vhane vha khou vhona. Husi kale kale sibu o dzhena a tinga tinga, oda he nne ndavha ndo dzula hone saizwi ndovha ndo mutalutshedza side yendavha ndodzula khayo. Mbilu yovha I tshi khou rwela ntha nga maanda. She came and sat next to me, tshanda tshawe tsho mbo di sendela tsini na tshanga a mpfara. Ndopfa malofha atshi gidima ngau tavhanya.

Sibu:"I want to apologise for everything Thembu, you are a good guy and you have been good to me so thats why I think you deserve an explanation", ovha a tshi khou tou amba zwavhudi asongo dzhaya nahone atshi kho tou hevhedza

Me:"I am listening"

Sibu:"uhm my husband's name is Sivuyile, they call him Svig. He is a gangster as I have already said. I started dating him 3 years back and few months into the relationship he decided to marry me, I said yes because he was being sweet and loving but I found out after we were married that he was actually a gangster, I wanted to leave because I was terrified but he threatened to kill me" Ovha a tshi khou tswimila…Odovha aisa phanda

Sibu"I secretly dated this other guy few months after I found out about him being a gangster and he killed the guy, thats why I want you to stay away Thembu, I can't have your blood in my hands please"

Me:"but Sibu I love you"

Sibu:"I know and I am sorry that you do but you just have to accept that you can't have me Thembu, I am Svig's wife and it ends there. We had a great time together and thank you for that"

Me:" but Sibu why did you date me in the first place if you knew what your husband is capable of killing a guy you are having an affair with?"

Sibu:"I was desperate to have a normal life, I wanted to be me not Svig's wife just for once, I wanted to be like other girls, do what they do at varsity"

Me:"you have crushed me Sibu, you killed me"

Sibu:"I am sorry Thembu, I didn't expect things to be so serious between us, I thought it was just gonna be a fling"

Me:"ow really? Did you ever love me or it was all a lie"

Sibu:"I never lied about my feelings for you Thembu they were true, you made me feel loved, appreciated and alive

Me: thanks, so this is it"

Sibu:"yeahh this is it", ndopfa uri khwine ndiu tanganedza zwo iteaho kha nne na Sibu, ndiyone ndila ya khwine yeneyo.

Me:"I think I should go"

Sibu:"but you are not angry at me are you?"

Me:"you lied to me for a year Sibu I guess I will never get over this"

Sibu:"but Themb…"

Me:"no buts", ndo takuwa ndabva Cinema, ndo mbo di ya toilet ndaswika ndatamba tshifhatuwo ndaya goloni.

Ndoswika ndadzhena goloini ndadzula, I wanted to calm down before I start driving. Ndingavha ndodzula awara yothe nga muraru ndakona u takuwa. Ndoswika nda paka goloi ya X parking ya tsini na room yashu ndaya rumuni, ndowana X onovhuya kale. Ndoswika nda munekedza key nda mulivhuwa for helping me.

Ndo mbo di mu onesa ndari ndi khou vhuya, ndoya rumuni ya Tshili ndaswika ndawana Tshili na Sihle vhahone, ndo humbela privacy nyana kha Sihle uri ndithome ndi ambe na Tshililo, Sihle o mbo di bva rasala rivhavhili.

Tshili:"zwo tshimbila hani?", she had a concerned look on her face

Me:"azwingo tshimbila Tshili, ahuna tsho shandukaho, I am never going to get her back"

Tshili:"sorry nga maanda thi"

O sendela tsini hanga a mpha hug ndapfu, rori ufhedza u hagana raima rofarana khundu, thidivhi uri mulandu ndo zwiita, fhedziha ndo sokou mangala ndono kwatamela kha Tshili ndi tshi khou mukisser, she kissed me back. I kissed her so roughly, like anger yothe yendavha ndinayo ndovha ndi tshi khou ibvisila khae. Ndo mutakula ndamuvhea ntha ha mmbete and we contunued kissing. Ndori musi ndi tshi vhoisa zwanda kha khana yawe ari:

Tshili"huh uh Thembu ndi ngasi kone", ndopfa maipfi hayo atshito mbvisa khatsho tshothe"

Me:"u kho tou zwiambisa hani?", ombodi vuwa Tshililo adi dzudzanya ato dzula fhasi

Tshili: we can't do this Thembu, not when you are like this"

Me:"like what?"

Tshili:"you don't feel anything for me, ni khou toda utou ita uri nisi pfese vhutungu but I wish I can help mara not nga sex Thembu"

Me:"owwww"

Tshili:"you need to face the heart break and get over it ngauri u edela na nne azwinga nithusi na luthihi"

Me:"mara ene ha khou ntoda naa?"

Tshili:"azwina ndavha Thembu you never liked me in that way and ndozwi tanganedza hezwo'

Me:"but I want you now please"

Tshili:"no you don't…you just want me to be a distraction so that you won't think about Sibu, sorry I can't"

Me:"owk” Ndobva nda mbo di hanzhamedza vothi. Ndotuwa ndaya rumuni yanga, ndoswika ndawana X a atshi khoula, ndoswika ndaganama ntha ha mmbete ndo imisa mulenzhe muthihi ndosedza ntha, tshanda tshithihi ndovhea khatsho thoho yanga.

X:"Thembu"

Me:"yeahh"

X:"you need to forget this chick mfana, you really need to"

Me:"I will need something very strong in order to do that"

X:"o mbodi dzhenisa tshanda tshikwamani abvisa lu plastic holuya lwauvhea dzi coin dza banngani, lovha luna matari ngangomu, ndosedza zwavhudi ndawana uri ndi mbanzhe

X:"you said you wanted something strong, this is a bit strong but I think it will do for now"

Me:"you want me to smoke that?"

X:"yeahhh or I can give you a line, something that is even better", ndopfa ndodada ndisa pfesesi uri u khou amba laini ya mini nne

Me:"you've lost me, what line are you talking about now?", X ombo di bvisa ku plastic kurena lupuse lutshena ngangomu, ndopfa ndotshuwa

Me:"what the hell X are you on drugs?"

X:"no man stop being a stupid ass I am a dealer and this is me trying to help a friend who is heart broken, your choice", ori uralo abvisa vhuplastic vhuvhili a vhuvhea phanda hanga. The thought of myself taking drugs terrified me, I mean who wants to be a junkie? Hone mbanzhe dzone hafhu dzitou nkhumbudza madukana haala a hayani anotwa odzula dzi khonani.

Me:"eish X"

X:"its fine Thembu I was just trying to help you forget about the pain because believe me bro, you look terrible"

Me:"uhm"

ndodzula nda humbula. Ndi khou zwiita namusi fhedzi musi, matshelo ndido vuwa nda attender class and everything will go back to normal right? Its not like ndido namba ndavha addict ngau tou shumisa luthihi fhedzi. Hai mani khandibve khazwo fhedziha vhutungu uvhu ndido tou vhubva haniha nne? Ndovha ndi tshi khou toda uhangwa nyana, naho arali lwa nga touvha lwaduvha lithihi fhedzi. Ndosedza vhuplastic vhuvhili he X avha ovhu vhea phanda hanga nda humbula luvhili na luraru. Ndiiteni ngoho?

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Ndofara thoho ndasedza zwi plastic hezwila. Ndo mbo di humbula Tshililo, nwana wavhathu anga dinalea zwihulu arali nne nda ita hezwi, ovha ana ndavha Tshili, and she cared about me. Naho Sibu asina ndavha na nne, fhedziha hovha huna muthu muthihi weavha ana ndavha. Ndo dzhia tsheo yausa nanga na tshithihi tshazwo, hafhu ndavhuya nda thoma ahutshena u humela murahu, isn't it enough already that I am drinking and smoking cigarette? I can't go further than that….ndori u humbula ngauralo nda sedza X

Me:"nahh I will be fine X and thanks for trying to help" hafhu na fhungo la uri X ndi murengisi wa dzi drug nalone ndopfa litshe lo ntshuwisa, no wonder ovha atshi dzula ofara tshelede nga tshanda, zwiamba uri na goloi hei na zwothe zwe avha a nazwo ovha asongo tou itelwa nga vhabebi vhawe lini.

X:"Thembu are you sure?"

Me:"positive" ndovha ndisina u tima tima na huthihi lini, as much as Sibu o mmbaisa fhedziha ndovha ndi kha difuna u bvelela na zwauri I needed to catch up khau salela murahu henda hu itiswa nga ene Sibu wahone

X:"if you are ever in need just tell me and I will be happy to help"

Me:"so you have been selling drugs this whole time?"

X:"uhm yeah and this is not a public knowledge so you don't go around telling people about it"

Me:"my lips are sealed,  but why though?"

X:"I need cash Thembu, its not like I am just doing this to show off but my family needs the money and I need money for education too and selling drugs was all i could do in order to achieve all that"

Me:"but X you could have just got a piece job or something"

X:"you have no idea what you are talking about my broer, try job hunting without a qualification and then we will talk"

Me:"sorry if it sounds like I am judging its just that I am just taken aback"

X:"yeahh you have no idea what you are talking about,I can tell you that much"

Me:"sorry my man"

X:"its fine"

Me:"let me go out a bit, I need some sir"

X:"sure ntwana"

Ndo mbo di dzhia founu yanga ndabvela nnda. Ndopfa uri I needed to talk to someone, the thought that I was actually considering taking drugs scared the shit out of me, ndovha ndotou humbula mini mara ngoho nne huh? Ndopfa ndotshuwa nanga mafhungo a X nadzi drugs, ndopfa uri I needed to talk to someone and huna muthu muthihi fhedzi who was always willing to listen to my problems and never judge me, muthu honoyo ndi Tshililo. Ndopfa ndina thoni nyana dza uya khae nga nthani hahezwila zwenda ita few hours back, fhedziha ndo pfa uri asi sokou ya ndiswike ndi humbele pfarelo mybe udo mpfarela.

Ndo hwenya ndaya rumuni ya Sihle na Tshili, ndo swika nda khokhonya havula Sihle.

Me:"hey"

Sihle:"hi"

Me:"uhm is Tshili here?"

Sihle:"uhm yeah come in", ndo dzhena ngangomu ndawana Tshili tshi mmbeteni, ndosedza tshifhinga ndawana huvho 10 ya vhusiku, wow ndovha ndisa zwidivhi uri ndivhusiku ngaurali.

Me:"uhm Tshili ndi khou humbela u amba nae"

Tshili:"ambani"

Me:"in private"

Tshili:"vhathuvho Thembuluwo hafhu ni khou zwivhona uri nne ndono edela vhoo"

Me:"ndi kho tou luvhelela vhathu"

Tshili:"eish", o mbo dibva nguvhoni atshi vhonala o borea, ovha o ambara zwenezwi zwidukhu zwine vhasidzana vha edela ngazwo na ku vese kwa hone. O vuwa adzhia gawn a ambara rabvela nnda. Roya ra ima nnda hanefho tsini na munango.

Tshili:"ndi khou nithusa nga mini?"

Me:"ndi khou toda u muhumbela pfarelo kha zwenda ita earlier today, thidivhi uri ndovha ndodzhenwa ngani, kha mpfarele vhathu"

Tshili:"holuga"

Me:"Tshinwe ndi tsha uri ndi khou toda u mulivhuwa

Tshili:"for?"

Me:"Support yawe vhathu, ene nne ua ntikedza tshifhinga tshothe, ha nndateli thaula naluthihi and ha judge musi ndi tshi khoita zwithu zwanga zwa vhudodo you always stand by me. You are a beautiful woman with a beautiful heart and aise phanda ngauralo"

Tshili:"wooow I thought you never noticed", ovha akhou setshelela

Me:"ndisi zwivhone hani mara ngoho Tshili", ndovha ndi khoupfa ndo vhofholowa, knowing that nne na Tshili risharp futhi zwoita uri ndipfe ndikhwine, rovha rono tou sendela tsini na tsini tshothe

Tshili:"ndoneta ngau ima nne Thembu hafhu ndina khofhe"

Me:"kha ri tou dzula fhasi then"

Tshili:"ndikhou lingedza uni talutshedza uri ndi khou toda uya u edela vhathu ai", hovha hu khou nwenweliwa

Me:"ndi kho tou luvhelela, khari dzule fhasi 5 minutes nyana please"

Tshili:"5 minutes fhedzi", ro mbo di dzula fhasi henefho phasedzhini ro gogodela munango wa rumu ya Tshili.

Me:"u ya divha ndori ubva afha nda toda uita vhunwe vhudaela vhuhulu badi"

Tshili:"otoda u ita mini?"

Me:"ndobva hafha ndaya rumuni ndina mbiti nga maanda ngauri ndovha ndi khoupfa unga na ene hatshena ndavha na nne, ngoho ndovha ndodada nga maanda ndi tshi khou humbula na mafhungo haala a Sibu, Ndoswika rumuni X ari ndi khou toda something strong to ease the pain, ngoho angasi kholwe uri ompha mini"

Tshili:"mini", ovha akhou vhonala a eager nau divha

Me:"ovhea mbanzhe na dzidrugs phanda hanga Tshili"

Tshili:"hai Thembu ni khou zwifha vhathu", ovha atshi vhonala o tshuwa atshinga muthu o vhonaho guru

Me:"ndi khou muvhudza ngoho nne ene"

Tshili:"please mmbudzeni uri aningo zwidzhia please"

Me:"thi ngo zwidzhia mara zwine zwa khou ntshuwisa ndi zwauri I actually considered it, ndotoda udoba tshithihi tshazwo Tshili, and arali ndi zwiite nehh ngoho thidivhi", o mbodi tshingamela kha nne ampha hug

Tshili:"zwirena ndavha ndi zwauri aningo dzhia Thembu, ndi khou dihudza nga inwi"

Me:"huna tshithu tshithihi fhedzi tshoitaho uri ndisi dzhie"

Tshili:"ndi mini tshetsho"

Me:"you"

Tshili:"nne?"

Me:"yeahh ene ua tenda kha nne nga maanda and u tou amba ngoho ndopfa uri I didn't wanna disappoint you"

Tshili:"ow", rombodi nambatuluwa rasedzana

Me:"ndi khou livhuwa uvha na ene sa mungana Tshili na thikhedzo nngafha ngafha"

Tshili:"I am not really doing much vhathu vho"

Me:"believe me you are"

Tshili:"thanks, so uyu X uya ita dzidrugs na ene?"

Me:"hai but uri utovha murengisi wadzo"

Tshili:"inwi zwino ni khou tou zwiamba no digeda ngauralo musi no wanulusa uri ni khoudzula na murengisi wa zwidzidzivhadzi ngoho Thembu?"

Me:"Tshili ndingasi mutambe nga nthani hazwo hezwo zwithu and plus he said he has good reasons why he is doing it"

Tshili:"they all said that, nne ndi khoupfa ndi si tsha tou mutakalela, I wonder uri Sihle ua zwidivha naa"

Me:"hai asongo vhuya alinga aamba mafhungo avhathu o"

Tshili:"mara ua fanela u zwidivha thi"

Me:"yahh ndi khou tendelana na ene fhedziha utea uvhudziwa nga X not nga rine"

Ndo dzula na Tshili ri tshi khou zuwa lwa tshifhinga tshilapfu. Nne ndosala nditshi takuwa ndaya rumuni yanga henefha ngavho 1. Ndoswika rumuni nda edela.

Ndovuwa nga matsheloni ndina nungo, ndopfa ndisi tsha tou la mbilu ngauralo nga mafhungo a Sibu, naho zwi tshi do dzhia tshifhinga uri lufuno lutuwe fhedziha ndovha ndi khou livhuwa udiwana ndina thama dzinonga Tshililo. Ndovuwa ndaya utamba, ndi tshi vhuya ndowana X atshe o edele fhedziha ovha asongo fara khofhe.

X:"hey how are you feeling?"

Me:"much better"

X:"thats great then, it means you won't need my help then?"

Me:"nope thanks"

X:"I know that you don't understand why I am doing it and you actually think that it is very wrong for me to do it"

Me:"nahh its fine my man you have your reasons", nne ndovha ndi busy nau ambara.

X:"my dad left us when I was young, I am a first born, have two little sisters, they are 16 and 10. My mom was not working, I had to go to school and I tried looking for a job but I never had luck, I dropped out of school for a year marketing but I didn't get anything. Until I met this guy who offered me a job to be a dealer, I was skeptical and scared at first but I thought about the situation at home, I had to change it and I had to continue with school and selling drugs is giving me all that, its giving me the opportunity to care for my family while I finish my studies "

Ndopfa ndo mangadzwa nga zwe X a amba zwone, hafhu nne ubva murahu hangei ndovha ndikhou zwidzhia uri X ndi ndenwa inobva mudini urena masheleni fhedziha mathina azwongo ralo. Thihani urengisa zwi dzidzivhadzi zwo khakhea fhedziha ungari mini arali muthu anonga X a tshi khou zwiita ana dzi reasons dzingaho dzawe? Zwivha zwitshinga zwia pfesesea. Ndo feeler bad nyana uri nne ndovha ndono mujudge kale hafha detheleni langa.

Me:"uhm X I had no idea"

X:"yeah things are tough out there Thembu and as soon as I get a proper high paying job I can quit being a dealer but for now I have to do it”

Me:"yeahh I get you, so how is your family?"

X:"they are fine now, I managed to buy my mom a house in suburbs, I bought her a car and my sisters are attending private schools, I have money saved up so yeah I think everything is fine"

Me:"I never thought I'd say this to someone who sells drugs for a living but I am proud of you my man, for doing something meaningful with the money and not just spend it on booze and girls"

X:"sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do"

Me:"yeah eish life sometimes, let me go to the class hey"

X:"sure, I am attending in about 2 hours so yeah"