Life as we know it 46-50

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So after spending an afternoon at his office we left just after four because we didn't want to risk Rialivhuwa bringing my son back when we are not around. I was in the mood to cook so we got to my place and i started cooking while he helps me out. I was happy, my son was back from the hospital and i had the sweetest man on the planet, i honestly had no reason to be sad. After cooking we waited for my son before eating. Rialivhuwa brought him back just after 6, shame i was excited to see my baby. He was happy to see me too, Rialivhuwa didn't stay, after dropping my son, he quickly left. He bought more toys and some clothes too, i wondered if his woman chose the items...well it was none of my business now, i had happily moved on with my life. I took everything that Omphu came back with and took it to my bedroom, i was going to look at them when we were done eating, plus i was still too excited that my son was back with me. He didn't look like he was in pain at all, he was bubbly and was playing. We ate supper just the three of us, it was our first one together and i believed that it was the beginning of many more. After supper Eugene said that he wanted to give me some space to be alone with my son....Eugene was considerate in a most annoying way, but it felt good. Well as much as i didn't want him to leave, he was right, i needed some time alone with my baby so we said goodbye to him and he left.

After He was gone i figured that Omphu was bathed so i didn't t have to do that.

Me:"now i have to take you to bed right?" i said walking to the bedroom with him on my hands. I knew he was just going to play, as long as he was not sleepy then i was not gonna be able to put him to sleep and for the first time in a long time, i didn't have a problem with that.

We got to my room and i put him in his cot bed and he started jumping right away. I wanted to stop him because i was worried that he'd hurt himself but i realised that he was not going to and that he was just excited to be home and to finally be on his own bed again. I remembered the stuff that Ria bought so i sat on my bed and went through them. Well the clothes weren't bad at all although i hated the fact that some woman probably picked them. Yes i had moved on and i should not be jealous or have a problem with him having another woman but i had a problem with another woman buying clothes for my kid. For a second there i understood how Ria must have felt everytime he saw me with Eugene. I mean i had never even seen him with his woman. Ria knew that our son loved cars so he bought him a car as well...i put it aside and thought he will play with it the following day. There was also a usb in the bag....what the hell? A usb? There was also a note.

"Please play the song on the usb first and then read the rest of the letter please"

What? I sighed and felt a bit confused, Ria sent me a song? I looked at my son who was now singing and got up with the usb and walked to my living room. I switched on the DVD, inserted the usb and pressed play. I waited for the song to start. The song i was familiar with started. I knew the song but i never listened to the lyrics so i paid attention to the lyrics. My heart started racing, palms sweating and my whole body was nervous. I didn’t understand why though, this was Rialivhuwa playing with my mind. The song was John Legend - This time. The lyrics goes:

"Ran into you yesterday, Memories rushed through my brain, It's starting to hit me, Now you're not with me, I realized I made a mistake, I thought that I needed some space, But I just let love go to waste, It's so crystal clear now, That I need you here now, I gotta get you back today.

This time I want it all, This time I want it all, I'm Showing you all the cards, Giving you all my heart, This time I'll take the chance, This time I'll be your man, I can be all you need, This time it's all of me.

I hit the bar every night, Looking to score a good time, It's not like I planned it

I'm left empty handed, 'Cause I'm still alone in my mind, Now what will it take to feel right, Can I come see you tonight? Is there someone new now? What can I do now? 'Cause I need you back by my side.

This time I want it all, This time I want it all, I'm showing you all the cards, Giving you all my heart, This time I'll take the chance, This time I'll be your man, I can be all you need, This time it's all of me.

Last time I wasn't sure, This time I will give you more, I'm more mature, I'll show you, Last time I didn't know, messed up and let you go, I need you, Don't say no.

Lying alone in this room, All that is missing is you, Pick up the phone, Won't you come home?"

I switched off the DVD because i couldn't take no more, he was obviously trying to mess with my head, trying to get me to consider taking him back. I was not going to do it, Eugene loved me and i loved him too, he deserved the best from me. I walked to my room and i was scared to even open the letter. After listening to the song then i knew what was in there, he was probably begging me to take him back. Ahg i took the letter and decided to read anyway...whatever happens i was never going back to him so i was just reading and then throw it away. The letter read:

"I guess you've listened to the song and you are probably very angry with me for wanting you back after everything that’s happened. Well the song better explains how miserable i am without you. Yes i acted like a dwors at the hospital because i was jealous, i was hurt and i was heartbroken that you actually slept with someone. It hurts so bad Andi, for the first i fully understand the pain i put you through day in and day it and it is because of that that i think you are better off with him. He loves you and he knows how to show it, although i wish i could get another chance to show you how much i have changed, i know i dont deserve it. I broke up with her, the woman i left you for...she was not you Andi, she was never you....thats why i freaked out because i thought we still have a chance but now i know we dont and i just have to find a way to deal with this, with loving you, with the fact that i lost the woman i really loved while going after the one i liked. I am sorry for everything i have done, for insulating you. You didn't deserve it. You made me, you built me and what did i do? I broke your heart... I am so sorry...misery is what i deserve after everything i put you through"

After reading this, i had tears in my eyes

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I read the letter again and still couldn't believe that Rialivhuwa was actually apologising to me. He said he was sorry for everything...as in every little thing he did. He also apologised for insulting my parents, so he also still remembers that we made him, that he became what he is because of me and my family. I broke down and cried. The whole thing was overwhelming, he was finally giving me something that i longed for for quite some time, well for a long time. I never thought i'd hear that from him. My son started crying too, i think he was just shaken to see his mother crying. I quickly wiped my tears and walked to him. I took him and started smilling right away

Me:"i am so sorry boy boy. Mommy loves you ok? Mama loves you neh?" i said holding him in my arms. He kept quite and i walked around the house with him until he fell alleep. I then went back to the bedroom and put him to bed. I looked at him and smiled. I then took my phone, i wanted to call Rialivhuwa. As much as i appreciated him apologising and giving me some closure it was also important to make it clear that we were seriously done and that he should not make a habit of sending me gifts and stuff, i didn't need any reminder of the fact that i was once a victim of abuse.

I called him and he picked up on the second ring, it was as if he was just waiting for my call

Ria:"hello"

Me:"hi" i tried my level best to hide the fact that i was crying

Ria:"i am guessing that you read my letter" he sounded nervous

Me:"i did"

Ria:"and?"

Me:"and what? You thought that you'd send me a letter and some song and everything is gonna be fine? Your little Andi is just gonna crawl back to you right? Things dont work out that way, that’s not how things work out here Ria, you've hurt me in a worst possible way and now you just can't stand to see me happy with someone so you thought you should ruin it huh?"

Ria:"no Andi of course not, i am not gonna lie and say that i dont want you back because i do but i have accepted things as they are, i know i dont stand a chance anymore...i am not gonna try and come between you and him"

Me:"you better not"

Ria:"so the other day you said something about sleeping with multiple men, was that true?" jeez he didn't forget that?

Me:"i was lying, you know me better than that"

Ria:"wow thank you" he actually took a sigh of relief, i don't know why he cared though, well maybe that's because he still loved me

Me:"so let’s make this clear, i forgive you for everything you've done....but that’s all you get, just forgiveness and i am not doing it for you, i am doing it for me"

Ria:"thats good enough" i was feeling sorry for him

Me:"Good night"

Ria:"night" i dropped the call and took one deep breath, that wasnt bad. I sent Eugene an sms telling him that i missed him already. After that i fell asleep.

The following morning my phone woke me up, someone was calling me. I took the phone and put it on my ear without looking at the caller ID.

Me:"hello" i mumbled

Vhusi:"wow and she is still sleeping" wow my besty was still alive

Me:"so you are still alive huh?" i said trying to open my eyes

Vhusi:"so much alive that i am standing at your doorstep" whaaat?

Me:"you’re serious?"

Vhusani:"dude just come open for me"

Me:"coming" i put the phone down and got up. I walked to the bathroom to pee and then came back and went to open for her, I was in my PJ shorts and a matching vest. I unlocked the door and opened for her.

Wow what i felt was pure excitement, i missed her so much. I gave her one long hug

Me:"dont ever ever do this vhusani, i missed you somuch it’s not even a joke" she giggled breaking the hug

Vhusani:"i know love but my pumpkin couldn't let me off his site even for a minute can you believe it?" we walked in and i went to the kitchen and she followed me

Me:"i am guessing you said yes" i was smiling

Vhusani:"and so far i am not regretting it" i switched on the coffee maker

Me:"you wont regret it love, you should be positive...uhm do you need coffee?"

Vhusani:"nah i am fine thanks, Andi i am living the dream"

Me:"when is the wedding?" i was now taking out my cup

Vhusani:"haven't decided yet, where is my boy?"

Me:"he is still sleeping, i tried calling you a dozens times, even went to your office but i was told you were on leave, i felt stupid that you didn't notify me.... Anyway Omphu was admitted in hospital"

Vhusani:"what? Noooo what happened to him?" i could see that she was shaken

Me:"burnt with hot water while i was out spending the night at Eugene's, he was with bongi when it happened but don't worry about him, he is fine now...well better i mean"

Vhusani:"whaaaat? Girl how long have i been gone? You've already did the did with Eugene, your son landed in hospital... What else did i miss?"

Me:"Rialivhuwa dedicated me a song...John Legend - This time and he also sent me an A4 page letter apologising for everything he's done to me"

Vhusani:"noooo you told him to go to hell right? I mean we are not even supposed to discuss him"

Me:"you can say that"

Vhusani:"what's that supposed to mean? Andani if ever you go back to him then our friendship will be dead, i can't watch you do that"

Me:"no need for threats love, Eugene is a gentleman enough for me"

Well a person can lie to everyone else but the honest truth is that you could never lie to yourself. Deep down i knew for a fact that what Rialivhuwa did last night did shook me up, part of me was symphathetic towards him, part of me wished to experience being with this new changed Rialivhuwa but i knew that doing that would mean that i have to hurt Eugene and shame he didn't deserve anything like that, he was a great guy and i didnt want to hurt him at all.

Vhusani:"exactly... So how was he?" she said with a smile, we were still standing the kitchen while i sip my coffee

Me:"he is a gentleman Vhusani, i've never felt so alive"

Vhusani:"so you mean to say that the sex is great then?"

Me:"sooo great i feel like asking him to move in" we laughed out loud

Vhusani:"good relief, i was worried that he'd be sweet and all and then the sex could be horrible"

Me:"not to worry, he knows his game.....so what where you up to?" looking at her i could see how happy she was with the new guy, it was written all over her

Vhusani:"well he took me out and boy did i have a good time...jeez girl i felt like i was dreaming...we went to this Nature Reserve...somewhere in Garden Route...i still can't believe it was me" she said with a huge smile on her face, my friend was happy and i was happy.... Life was great

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So i spent the whole day with Vhusani and my son. I talked to Eugene on the phone and he was happy that i was spending some time with my friend as he was trying to catch up on work. He promised to come by after work to check on Omphu. I was a happy soul and Eugene was contributing highly on my happiness. Bongi came in the morning because i did gave her a call the previous day informing her that Omphu was discharged. She was feeling guilty about what had happened to my son and i insured her that it wasn't her fault and that it could have happened on my watch as well. I told her that she can take a day off, and that she'd start working the following Monday after i had moved into my new house. Yep, i wanted to move that weekend, there was no need for me to wait any longer. After Bongi had left, i discussed moving to my new home with Vhusani on Saturday and she agreed to help me and said that she'd also call her Mr Right, well that made me even more excited, it goes without a saying that Eugene was going to be part of this as well so it was going to be more like a double date.

Eugene came to my place after work and he found me still chilling with my girl. we were having one of our girly moments were we'd spend the whole day just eating and watching TV and gossiping, that's what we did the whole day. Omphu was running around the house playing, Vhusani and I made sure that we were watching his every move, we didn't want him to lend in hospital again.

Me:" Vhusani love this is my punchu Eugene and Eugene babe this is my besty Vhusani" i said smiling as soon as Eugene came in. Vhusani got up from her couch and walked to him with a smile

Vhusani:" nice to meet you sir" she was shaking his hand

Eugene:" i am just glad that i finally met the famous Vhusani" she laughed

Vhusani:" i'd really be worried if you knew nothing about me" we giggled and made our way to the living room

Vhusani:" Andi girly we had a great day and i enjoyed chilling here like old times but i am gonna have to leave now”

Eugene:" is that because of me?"

Vhusani:" of course it is, i wanna give you guys some space" she said that walking to my son and she took him

Vhusani:" bye bye my boy...mommy will see you soon ok?" she kissed him and put him on the floor

Me:" please talk to Mr Right about Saturday"

Vhusani:" ok i will, bye Eugene"

Eugene:" bye Vhusi" she walked out and left me with my man and my son

Eugene:" if you dont mind me asking, whats going down on Saturday?" he said holding me by my hips

Me:" i am moving" he smiled"

Eugene:" mhm finally you are getting rid of this flat"

Me:" you dont like it?"

Eugene:" it’s not that but i just feel that the house will be much better, Omphu will be able to play" he said that and kissed me briefly and then walked to my son and scooped him up

Eugene:' heeeey big boy...helllow" they started laughing together, i looked at them and smiled

Eugene:" so i told my baby sisters about you" he was still calling them baby sisters, those were big girls already

Me:" you did what?" well i was astonished, i didn't expect that, not anytime soon anyway.

Eugene:" yeah and they are excited to see you....i must warn you...they'll come down here sooner than we all think, i know those kids" i looked at him and didn't smile, i was still processing being introduced to his sisters. I know it was nothing epic but they were his family and this only meant that he was very serious about us

Eugene:" i know that look you are overthinking this and please dont do it"

Me:"what?"

Eugene:' they will love you and you'll love them too and...." he smiled looking at Omphu

Me:" and?"

Eugene:' they will love this little champ as well" i giggled, Eugene had this whole thing figured out, he loved my son so much and he was already thinking about me meeting his sisters, what follows after that? Moving in together? I was seriously getting cold feet

Me:" i love you" i said as i was standing a distance from him

Eugene:" i love you too" he was looking at me with my son on his hands

The following day i hired a cleaning company to spring clean my house. I was not gonna move in to an unclean house and i was obviously not going to be able to clean the whole house all by myself. I know Vhusani was going to volunteer to help and Eugene too but Vhusani had a man now, i had to give her some space to do her thing as for Eugene, i couldn't let him miss any more of his work. While they were busy cleaning i went to town and i was shopping for some furnisher and decor. Only the kitchen was furnished so i had to buy everything else. I paid for most of the stuff and promised to collect them the following day.

The following day was a Saturday and i hired a truck to deliver my new furnisher from the shops and my old furnisher from the flat. Obviously Vhusani was helping and she brought her boyfriend with. His name was Lala, well Lalamani in full and they were in love shame, it was so obvious. Obviously Eugene also joined us, my baby couldn't miss this for the world. We didn’t hire anyone to decorate the house but Vhusani and i were doing that ourselves. Moving into a new house and packing everything is not a child's play by the end of the day we were still half way through, Omphu Was at his dad's, i couldn't deal with having a child with me while busy moving so Ria agreed to have him for the weekend. We both spent the night at my house after ordering some takeaways for super.

On Sunday we woke up and finished everything. By the end of the day my house was no longer just a house but it was now a home. Spending a day with Vhusani, her boyfriend and my Eugene was just great, we joked and laughed a lot, Vhusani and i didnt do any heavy work, and we had our guys to handle that. When everything was done we chilled in the garden braaing some meat and that’s when Ria arrived bringing back our son because i gave him the address. He congratulated me on my new house. He didnt cause a scene or stay longer than he was supposed to. After he left we continued having a great time.

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A months later

I can’t even describe how it felt like to own my own house, to live with my son in the house that I call my own. My parents were happy that I was doing what they called ‘doing great after a divorce’ they were happy that I bought myself a house because they believed that it was good investment, which it was. Eugene used to come to my house quite a lot, although we used to give each other space to do our own thing sometimes. Well, I honestly had nothing important to do other than being a mom to my son and go shopping but I knew that Eugene had work and maybe other personal things to attend to so I was giving him some space, I didn’t want to overcrowd his life. I had been trying to apply for jobs around Cape Town because I didn’t want to move out of town….well I didn’t want to leave Eugene for starters, from what I hear, distance relationships are pain so I didn’t want to even try it and secondly I wanted a stable home for Omphu, I didn’t want to be one of those Mothers who’d move from one town to another like a yoyo leaving a child confused and unable to make friends plus thirdly….Ria was here and I was sure that Omphu needed his father close to him….he was a boy after all….though I was applying for jobs, I still had no luck, no interview nothing but I wasn’t about to give up.

Over the past few weeks Ria had been great shame. He used to come pick up our son every weekend and he was not causing any unnecessary problems, he was only focusing on what mattered to him…his son. We used to discuss things about him, like school…we decided that after his 3^rd birthday we will enrol him at a pre-school, he was old enough to start school. My son’s birthday was just a month away and I had nothing big planned. Ria suggested a party but the thing is Omphu didn’t really have friends, he used to spend all his time with us njee…us being me, his dad, Vhusani or Bongi….there was a neighbour’s kid from our old house who was his only friend and now  he was only playing with him during weekends when he went to Ria’s. he also had two kids he used to play with close to my old flat and that was about it so I thought that we should just buy him a cake and sing him happy birthday….he didn’t have enough friends for us to throw him a birthday bash. Taking him to school was a great idea because we wanted him to start having real friends, learn to play and socialise with other kids as well.

So today was a Saturday and Eugene’s sisters flew down to Cape Town yesterday. I was going to meet them that afternoon. I was a bit nervous and mostly I was a bit unsure. Part of me felt like Eugene was taking everything way too fast and too serious. I just broke up with the guy I had been with for 9 years of my life so I was obviously not looking for a serious relationship…well maybe that didn’t come out right, I sure didn’t wanna play around but I also didn’t want someone who was as fast as Eugene. I was still processing the fact that I had a boyfriend and that boyfriend was not Rialivhuwa whom I had known like all my life so it was all too much for one person and I think I was starting to lose it, like I was not sure if I wanted the same thing as Eugene and I also knew that meeting his sisters was going to mean a whole lot to him and them than it did to me….they were all going to start treating me like part of their family and I didn’t want that. I’d been part of someone else’s life for nine years and it all went down the drain so honestly I was still afraid of commitment and hopes about relationships.

I took a shower just after 10 in the morning, Eugene was coming to pick me up at 2 in the afternoon, well, at least I was just going to spend few hours with them. After the shower I sat on my bed naked still thinking about what I should wear and nothing really seemed fine. Jeez I was so nervous. I went to my wardrobe and looked through my clothes and dololo, nothing was made for this particular event…so I gave up, wore my PJs and went back to bed. I made up my mind, I was not meeting them….i couldn’t do it, I didn’t want to do it, I didn’t want to go through another trauma of meeting new family members and then after the break up I need to be forced to distance myself from them, to act like strangers….do you know what is more painful about break ups when families are involved? You are not just ending your relationship with your guy but with his whole clan too and sometimes you get too attached to his family and now it feels like you are losing more than just romance but parents and siblings too. I mean I loved Ria’s mom, I still do…she was good to me but look at us now? The poor woman still calls and she still calls me her daughter but deep inside I know that somehow we need to let it go…how do you do that? How do you accept the loss of a mother who is still alive somewhere? I was honestly not ready for that. I thought I was ready for a relationship, for everything but I wasn’t, my mind was not ready to let go of the past and accept the new relationship, I was battling.

I took out my phone and called my sister, shame we hadn’t talked in a while. In fact after my divorce I kinda shut everyone out and I was ignoring my family’s calls, I didn’t want their sympathy, it was too much. Her phone rang twice and she picked up

Rinae:”hey baby sis” well my sister was 6 years older than me, she was a third born and we were quite close, although she had always treated me like a baby, she loved me to Paris and back though. She was happily married with two kids, a boy and a girl. Her husband was rich…as it was expected by family so she didn’t disappoint. Apart from the fact that she was…well…rich and obviously acted like a rich spoilt brat who was now a wife and a mom, she never changed even after marriage, she still hangs out with her primary school friends…she is all about fashion, expensive trips and just blowing cash…her kids? Well they are so spoilt it’s not even funny, sometimes I don’t even want to be around those kids because they are so annoying

Me:”Hey Rinae, how have you been?”

Rinae:”I’ve been perfect but now I am even extra perfect because you called me…how have you been Andi, it’s been a while”

Me:”I have been fine”

Rinae:”mom told me you bought yourself a house, that’s great news hey…although I am angry at you for not telling me, I am your only sister, I should know what is going on” I rolled my eyes, I knew she was going to be dramatic

Me:”I know and I am sorry, I need your advice about something” I knew she was going to like this, she loved it when I ask for advice from her, I guess it was because I was the only sister and asking advice from her somehow made her feel better about herself, I honestly had no idea why

Rinae:”uhm ok, what is going on?”

Me:”I met a guy” she screamed and I had to pause before telling her what my problem was because she was not gonna hear a word I was gonna say

Rinae:”uhm wow excuse the noise but girl I am happy for you”

Me:”Rinae please you don’t have to make a big deal out of this…anyway its been two months now and he wants me to meet his family…like his sisters, they are the only family he has”

Rinae:”Andani I don’t mean to pry but is he? I mean….”

Me:”he is rich Rina, he can afford anything ok? I know you wanted to ask me about how much he earn and stuff like that…I mean just because Ria had nothing when we met doesn’t mean that everyone I meet will be as broke as he was…and even if that’s the case, they won’t all be like him. It’s not always as you think it is….i know you think broke man have nothing to offer but to take your money and treat you like s***”

Rinae:”I am sorry Andi I am just trying to look out for you, I don’t want to see you that broken again”

Me:”I know that and that’s why I want your advice. So far the brother has been so perfect, too perfect Rina…I am talking opening doors for me, pulling the chair, loving Omphu like he is his, concerned about my well being and actually sorted Ria out….i am scared”

Rinae:”why are you scared? The brother is rich and he is doing all of that for you? Girl he is a keeper”

Me:”but what if it’s a trap? I can’t be heartbroken again….i don’t know whether to trust him or a not”

Rinae:”I can’t really tell you what to do Andi but it’s all about what you feel and what he makes you feel. Love is a risk my sister and if you feel that the pleasure and the happiness that he is bringing in your life is worth the risk then take the risk and be happy…..maybe he Is really the one” I smiled at her, I knew she was gonna give me some fairy-tale talk because she was happily married

Me:”thanks sis, I will see what to do”

Riane:”I know you are broken and you are afraid to love again but somewhere somehow you will have to love someone, you will have to open your heart for someone so if you feel that you are not ready to do that then don’t do it because you might get hurt again or worse….you can hurt him” me hurting Eugene? Noooo, I loved him

Me:”thank you Rina, can I go now?”

Rinae:”so you will meet them?” she said giggling

Me:”I don’t know, please I have to go…I love you”

Rinae:”I love you baby sis and thanks for calling me…does this mean that the shutting out period is over and we can go back to being sisters?” I giggled

Me:”yeah we can, I am dropping this call because I know you won’t let me hang up” I dropped the call and smiled, my sister though. I didn’t realise it before making this call but I missed her.

I took my phone and called Eugene

Eugene:”hey love, are you getting ready? Well we’ve been busy cooking for you can you believe it? I  told them that you don’t eat that much but they insisted”

Me:”Eugene i….” I felt bad for doing this

Eugene:”what is it love?”

Me:”I wont make it to lunch…I am so sorry but I have a stomach bug and it’s so bad, I can’t drive or leave this house for that matter, I am in the toilet for like every 15 minutes” I made up a sick voice because I wanted to sound convincing

Eugene:”uhm, don’t you think you should see a Doctor? Babe I am coming right away”

Me:”nooo Eugene don’t come…uhm I mean, you cant leave your sisters and I will feel bad if you leave them and come to me, I will be fine and we can talk on the phone every 30 minutes until I feel better” he breathed

Eugene:”uhm ok, please please call me if it gets worse”

Me:”I will, I love you”

Eugene:”I love you too” we dropped the call. I took a deep breath and went back to sleep

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I was feeling guilty for lying to Eugene like that but I also knew that I didn’t want to face him or his sisters, I was suddenly not in the mood. I felt that I missed my son so much, how I wished Ria could bring him back sooner. I might have fallen asleep because I was woken up by a gate bell, someone was at my gate. I wondered who it could be because I was not expecting anyone. Eugene was obviously with his sisters so I suspected that it was Ria or Vhusani. I got out of bed and wore my gown. I walked out of my room to the kitchen. I pressed the button without even asking who it was. The suburb I was staying in was very safe, no history of break ins so I knew that I was safe. I impatiently waited for the person to walk in and finally they knocked on my door. I went to open and boooom!! He was standing there with a big smile on his face. He had a big platter on his hand and owww I forgot to mention that there were two ladies with him…I wanted to just collapse and die.

Me:”Eugene” I said feeling shocked

Eugene:”hey love, since you couldn’t make it to lunch then the lunch had to come to you” I didn’t know whether to laugh or to hate him for this but one thing for sure…..i remembered how much I loved him and I felt stupid for even doubting him. Eugene was no Ria and he could bend over backwards for me

Me:”wow i…..i don’t know what to say” I said making a way for them to walk in

Eugene:”you should just be happy that we are here….uhm sisters this is Andani, the one we’ve been talking about since you landed yesterday…Andi sweetheart these are my sisters….Tebogo and Thabeleng” jeez I was still in my gown, hair not done and no make up at all…I was just a train smash

Tebogo:”hey Andi, I am so happy to meet you” she said giving me a hug

Me:”nice meeting you too Tebza” I was smiling, after hugging her I hugged Thabeleng the last born

Thabeleng:”hey sisi, I am excited about this, I just hope that you are feeling better and will be able to eat because we really went all out” she said with a smile on her face. The girls were beautiful…I can see the resemblance from the pic I saw in the office. Tebogo was now 26 and Thabeleng was now 19…..they were big girls now…..Tebogo was just a year younger than me and I started asking myself why she wasn’t married….i mean she was old enough to be a wife, well if we ever become close then I was gonna understand why. See what I mean? I was already thinking about getting to know his sisters

Tebogo:”how are you feeling though?” she said looking concerned

Me:”I drank lot of coke so I am hoping that it will work and I am so happy to meet you guys but you’ll have to excuse me being a mess, he didn’t tell me that you were coming” I looked at Eugene and found myself smiling. As much as there were still parts of me that didn’t want to admit it, Eugene knew how to make me happy and I loved him for that

Eugene:”I knew you were not going to agree and these two were not taking no for an answer, they wanted to meet you” I giggled

Me:”mara girls look at me? I am still in my sleeping wear…this is not fair…you guys are dressed to kill”

They looked classy shame. Thabeleng dressed like a teenager that she was. She rocked some camouflaged shorts, a brown knee high boots, well I had that same question too…it wasn’t cold so I didn’t understand why she wore that boots or maybe I was too old-fashioned to understand...she wore a long military green shirt that was almost the same size as the shorts she was wearing. She also had a long weave and boy it looked great on her. Tebogo on the other side was in a black and gold long maxi dress and pumps, she looked matured and I loved her outfit because it was something that I could also go for on occasions like this. She had long braids and she left them just hanging.

Tebogo:”worry not Andi we’ve seen all your pics and we know that you are not always on your PJs so be free”

Me:”I have showered already guys can you just give me two minutes to dress up in something presentable”

Thabeleng:”seriously Andi, it’s not necessary, we are about to be a family and you don’t have to impress us…uhm wait a minute….where is the little one?” I looked at Eugene and popped my eyes out

Eugene:”babe I told them everything…I am sorry, I just couldn’t stop talking about you and him” he came to me and kissed me for the first time since they arrived. I realised how much I missed him

Me:”I love you” I whispered on his mouth

Eugene:”I love you too”

Tebogo:”hauwa guys the baby”

Me:”I am sorry, he is at his dad’s”

Thabeleng:”what? Hauwa sis Andi, how could you?”

Me:”I am sorry, I was not sure about all this…I wanted to meet you guys first” you can’t believe that we were still standing at my kitchen

Thabeleng:”and?”

Me:”and what?” I was smiling

Tebogo:”what do you think?” they were giggling

Me:”guys who could not like you? I mean really? So let’s schedule meeting the baby for next time and I am kinda glad that he is not here because I am sure as hell that you ladies where not going to pay any attention to me” we all laughed and walked to the living room

Tebogo:”beautiful house you have here”

Me:”thanks hey”

So we chilled together, made jokes and laughed. After a while we ate the food that they brought. Shame they coked great meal. Looking at the way that things turned out to be…I was thankful that Eugene decided to bring his sisters to my place. I enjoyed being with them and I felt like I was with the friends I had known for years. They were cool girls and I noticed that Eugene was very close to them which was a good thing. By the end of the day I didn’t want them to leave, I asked them to spend the night and they all agreed. I had a big house now and could accommodate guests. I gave them two pairs of my PJs and they decided to share a room, although I offered them each a separate bedroom. We went to bed after mid night…that’s how much we were enjoying being together. Obviously Eugene and I went to my bedroom.

Me:”thank you for today…..gosh your sisters are crazy and I love them” I said as I was changing the PJs that I spent the whole day wearing

Eugene:”but you didn’t wanna meet them” he was taking off his jeans

Me:’what?” I stopped what I was doing and looked at him

Eugene:”babe I know you were not sick, you dont look sick at all…you made up an excuse” he wasn’t angry I could sense that but there was something else in his voice…he was disappointed. I sat on the bed not looking at him, he came and sat next to me.

Me:”I am sorry”

Eugene:”but why? Are you having second thoughts about us?”

Me:”after the afternoon we just had, no….i love you and I love your sisters and I want to be part of ya’ll life. I must admit though….it’s scary for me because I feel like I am setting myself up for disappointment but I need to trust your love and to trust that everything you tell me is the truth, I am sorry about this morning and thank you for being you and coming over even when you know that I was trying not to do this”

Eugene:”you have no idea how much I love you and how far I am willing to go for you Andi, you make me happy and now you didn’t just win my heart but my sisters too”

Me:”they are sweet and I love them and I love you”

There was something about Eugene, he had the ability to make all my fears regarding love disappears, he made me believe in us, in him and I was honestly hoping that what I felt for him was much stronger than what came over me in the morning. I wanted to feel normal, to feel free but it wasn’t easy…moving on was not easy. Eugene and I took the shower and then slept.

The following morning I woke up a bit early. Eugene was still by my side. I looked at him and smiled. I kissed him and got out of the bed and walked to my bathroom where I washed my mouth and took a quick shower and then got dressed in simple leggings and a tank top and my sleepers. I quickly fixed my hair and walked out of the room, Eugene was still fast asleep. I planned on preparing breakfast for my guests. The feeling that I had guests in my house was great…it was something new and highly welcomed. Well my plan for the morning didn’t go very well….i got the shock of my life when I found the two ladies already busy in my kitchen.

Me:”oww no come on” I said as soon as I appeared

Tebogo:”morning Andi, hope you don’t mind?”

Me:”morning to you too ladies…well I do mind because I planned on making you guys breakfast, you are my guests” I said with a smile

Thabeleng:”uhm well, sorry love…you’ll just have to join us”

Me:”next time I will wake up at 4 I tell you”

Tebogo:”mhmm…I sense something here, so we are coming back here again little sis” they looked at each other and giggled

Thabeleng:”I smell a wedding here” I laughed out loud because the thought of me getting married again was absurd, I wasn’t about to do that again….hell to the no. dating was one thing but marriage??? Well that was scary

Tebogo:”Andani you think we are kidding? Our brother have big plans for you girl, you better start planning that wedding”

Thabeleng:”yeah you better and I want in on it”

Me:”no ways, Eugene is not thinking about that yet, we haven’t even discussed marriage…anyways, how can I help here?”

I had to change the subject, the marriage talk was too sensitive for me….i got divorced few months ago, I wasn’t about to get married again…nope. I helped them prepare the breakfast, after that Eugene finally woke up and we dished up and started eating. They spent the whole day in my house and only left at around three that afternoon because their flight back to Gauteng was at around 5. I must admit that I didn’t want them to leave, I was having a great time.