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I got out of the car and walked to my flat. I got in there and looked around and suddenly felt this huge discomfort within me. It was pain. The fact that my son was now sleeping on a hospital bed without me by his side was enough to kill me but i knew that this was no time for me to sulk, i had to be strong for him. i thought about what Ria said regarding taking my son away from me, i knew i didn’t want him to take the baby but i didn’t know what to do...fighting him was useless, he never listened to me.

I took off my clothes and while doing that i could smell Eugene all over them and i was forced to re-visit the beautiful night we had. I had the time of my life, i enjoyed being with him, i enjoyed making love to him and now i had to pay...Ria was taking my son away from me because i was with Eugene. I don’t know why life was like this, how was any of this fair? I mean he gets to cheat on me with different women and then after years of tolerating him then he decide to divorce me and after few months of mopping around i decide to start dating and now he wanna take my child away from me because of that? I liked Eugene, in fact i think i was starting to fall for him but the poor guy didn’t bargain for so much drama, his life was good enough to have me come along and ruin everything with my baby daddy drama. I don’t think he needed that. After taking off all my clothes i walked to the shower and this reminded me of the shower we had the previous night together in his shower. Shame i enjoyed being with him, he was better than anything i had ever felt...sweeter, gentler and more loving. I stood in the water and wished he was here with me helping me get through what i was going through but the honest truth is that i was scared. That’s why i pushed him away, i was scared to rely on him, to lean on him because if he decide to up and leave then I’d be empty again...i didn’t wanna feel what i felt with Ria.

After the shower i walked back to my room totally naked. I wore some track pants and a tank top and some sneakers. This was no day for fancy outfits and make up and s***. When i was done i walked to the kitchen to try and make myself something to eat but i didn’t feel hungry, i didn’t want anything at all. So i took my car keys and decide that i should drive by Vhusani’s office to tell her what happened, she was my best friend so she’d be angry to hear this after a day or so. I got to her office and parked my car at the parking and made my way to her office. I got to the reception and asked the reception lady to tell Vhusani that i was waiting at the reception. To my surprise Vhusani took a day off. S*** i felt so embarrassed, i mean i was her besty and i didn’t even bother to give her a call before making my way all the way to her office. I thanked the reception lady and walked back to the parking while trying to call her. The phone rang unanswered. I remembered that she said she was having dinner with her man last night so maybe they were still spending some time together so i decided to let her be and not interrupt.

My phone rang when i was getting inside the car

“hello” i said while i was closing the door after getting in

Eugene:” hey, how are you holding up?” his voice was low and he didn’t sound happy at all. I was surprised to receive his call, i didn’t expect to receive any call from him, not after how i acted towards him

Me:” fine i guess and i am sorry about earlier”

Eugene:” that’s fine Andi, what time are you going to the hospital?”

Me:”at 11, next visiting time is at 11”

Eugene:” uhm ok, i will come pick you up ok?”

Me:” Eugene i do appreciate it bu-“ he cut me off

Eugene:” don’t, don’t push me away like that Andi because i don’t like it at all. I will be at your parking lot by 10:30 please ok?”

Me:” ok see you at 10:30”

Eugene:” ok bye” he dropped the call. It was past 9 meaning that i was going to see him in about an hour. I drove back to my place and sat in the car for what seemed like forever. I didn’t want to go inside the house because i didn’t know what to do with myself.

After a long time Eugene arrived and i walked out of my car to his. He didn’t get out of the car so he didn’t open the door for me and i gotta say i got a bit worried, i asked myself if this was the beginning of the end. Anyway i shoved that thought at the back of my head and got inside the car

Me:” hey” i said as soon as i got in

Eugene:” hi”

Me:” thanks for doing this”

Eugene: “that’s what boyfriends do right?” he said looking at me, i just smiled and looked straight ahead. I realised that i was smiling for the first time since i heard about my son. We drove to the hospital in total silence. We got there and he parked the car at the parking. I saw Rialivhuwa’s car when we got out and it meant that he was already here

Me:” uhm do you mind waiting here please?” i didn’t want Eugene to be there when i deal with my baby daddy drama

Eugene:” i am not letting him bully you again, this time around he will have me to deal with”

Me:” Eugene you don’t have to”

Eugene:” i know that but i want to and i won’t let anyone, not even you to stop me from making sure that you get your way” i looked at him and found myself smiling

Me:”ok let’s do this” i held out my hand and he took it and we walked inside

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We walked inside and all the way to the kids ward with our hands still together. I was nervous though, i knew for a fact that Ria was not going to be happy about this but i guess his feelings were not supposed to matter but for some odd reason they did. We walked to the passage and i saw Ria sitting on a bench close to where our son was. We were still in a distance so i tried to take my hand from Eugene but he tightened his grip, i looked at him but he looked away. At that moment i felt like a toddler whose been dragged to school without them wanting to go...you know that moment when a child is kicking and screaming but the mom is pulling her/him to class? That’s how it felt like. Rialivhuwa looked our side and i swear i saw fire in his eyes. Eugene and i stood there and waited for the Doctor to tell us to go in. After waiting for eternity the Doctor finally showed up. Really the tension that was there was unbearable. There were two more women there and i suspected that they also came for their kids

Doc:"afternoon everyone, uhm you can all go in" we thanked him and made our way to the room. My hand was still in Eugene's hand.

Ria:"where is he going?" he whispered to me

Me:"to see Omphu" i said not looking at him

Ria:"you are playing with fire Andani, what the hell do you think this is?" Eugene let go of my hand and went to Ria's side. Everyone had walked in already and we were left outside...doing whatever this was

Eugene:"do you have a problem with me seeing my girlfriend's son?"

Ria:"your girlfriend's son happen to be my son so yes i do have a problem with that"

Eugene:"ok lets here it" he said that and looked Ria straight in the eye

Me:"gentleman please don't do this" i pleaded

Ria:"dude you might be screwing her but that doesn't give you any right towards my son ok?" like the speed of light Eugene grabbed Ria by his neck and pushed him towards the wall

Eugene:"i've heard about how you abused her and how much of a jerk you are well you know what? Now you gonn have to deal with me from now on so try and be funny one more time and you'll see what i am made of" he said that and let go. I looked at him and didn't know what to do or what to say, i was glued to the floor

Ria:"so Andani you called your super man to come sort me out huh?" he said fixing his clothes

Eugene:"didn't you hear a word i said? I said you'll have to deal with me from now on, you are used to fighting someone who is weaker than you huh?"

He looked at me and i looked down and he looked back at Eugene and then walked inside the room. I looked at Eugene and felt speechless, i didn't know what to make of what happened? Did it mean that he was also violent and that one day he'll act like that towards me? I didn’t know the answer to that.

Eugene:"i am sorry Andi but that had to be done, he needs to know that you are not something he can just push around ok? I had to do that for you because you couldn't do it yourself"

Me:"right now i just wanna see my son"

Eugene:"ok let’s go" he held out his hand and i took it and we walked in.

My baby was awake....Rialivhuwa was holding him when we entered, he saw us and giggled

Omphu:"mommy" he called out, i flashed a big smile and walked to him

Me:"can i? Please" he gave him to me.

I could see that he was not happy at all but he didn't have a choice because obviously Omphu wanted me and i think he also didn't want another episode with Eugene. Well i might have been a bit shaken by Eugene's act around Ria but i must admit that i enjoyed seeing him scared for a change, he had always bullied me and seeing him being bulied was a priceless feeling

Me:"hi baby boy...mommy misses you somuch" i said that and hugged him, Eugene was sitting on a chair

Me:"Eugene" i said with a smile

Eugene:"let him enjoy seeing his parents for starters" he said with a smile too.

How was this even possible...Eugene was way too perfect man, this guy was so perfect it scared me. He said he was doing all this because he loved me but was that all? Why was he so much in love with me? I had a baby for heaven’s sake...i also had baby daddy drama with me but he loved me still.

Rialivhuwa and i talked and played with our son....he also brought new toys for hin, it was great to see him happy, although Ria and i were pretending to be a united front for him. After about 30 minutes the doctor walked in and told us that our time was up. We asked when he was going to be discharged and he said that possibly that afternoon...well that was great news although i was worried that i wont get to stay with him. We got out of the room and started walking, Eugene turned around and looked at Ria

Eugene:"i dont know how serious you were about taking the baby but i just want to let you know that you will have one hell of a fight....in fact you gonna have to give her a court order before taking the baby from her"

Ria:"wow, so she met him yesterday and she is already telling him everything" he then gave me a death stare and quickly walked away without saying a word

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Eugene and i walked out of the building to the parking lot. Rialivhuwa was already gone when we got there. I bet he was running away. I couldn’t look at Eugene, part of me was a bit scared of him...i dont know but the experience i had with Rialivhuwa had affected me more deeply.

Eugene:"where to?"

Me:"home"

Eugene:"speaking of home... When are you moving to your new home?"

Me:"i haven't really thought about it, soon i guess" we got inside the car and he drove to my place. We didn’t say much inside the car. We drove by a drivethrough at a restaurant to get some food, i hadn't cooked anything and Eugene stressed the fact that he was hungry. We got to my place and walked in to the flat and i took out the plates, dished up the food and we started eating while sitting in my living room.

Me:"thanks for what you did at the hospital, i kinda enjoyed seeing Ria helpless, it was priceless" he smiled

Eugene:"anything for you"

Me:"but why though?"

Eugene:"what do you mean why? We are dating and i want to see you happy"

Me:"so that's all?"

Eugene:"ok Andani what's wrong?"

Me:"all this scares me, you scare me....you are too much and i am afraid that if i get used to you...to everything that comes with being with you then i will fall apart, if you decide to leave then it would kill me"

Eugene:"what? Andani do you honestly think i will leave you?" well i gotta admit, the look on his face made me feel stupid for even doubting him. It was as if i said something very stupid, like asking him if he was gay or something like that.

Me:"don't look at me like i said you were on drugs or something like that"

Eugene:"well this is worse than that...i love you, i do and instead of embracing that fact, you are busy doubting the love i have for you...why?"

Me:"because i have done all this before and the drama at the hospital today is what i ended up with...a baby daddy drama with the man who didnt just break my heart but also broke my self esteem and my trust for men so i am scared" he stopped eating and moved closer to me. He took my hands and looked into my eyes

Eugene:"i feel like running to Ria's place right now and punch him really hard....i love you Andi i really do....do you wanna know why?" i popped my eyes out..Obviously i wanted to know why so i nodded

Eugene:"because you are you...you are simple, you love your son, i have realised that you are from a rich family and therefore you have cash but you dont let it define you, you live a simple life and you are fragile, you need someone to take care of you and i wanna be that person. You make me happy in a way that i dont even understand...i wanna make you as happy as you make me"

Me:"but it’s just been few weeks"

Eugene:" thats what scares me too but i can't help what i am feeling....i can tell you this much Andi, i dont play around with feelings, i dont feel this more often or with just anyone so you can relax...unless you decide to turn your back on me then i am here to stay" i looked at him and ran out of words, he was in love with me....it was obvious, i could see it in his eyes

Eugene:"i won’t do to you what he did ok?" he was looking down on me and i just looked at him and said nothing.

Eugene:"i love you Andi, i really do" my eyes became teary 😢 in an instant. He slowly bent down to my mouth and kissed me slowly, he stopped and ran his fingers accross my mouth

Eugene:"you dont ever have to doubt me" he whispered and kissed me again.

I was falling for this guy or let me just say that i was in love with him already. He kissed me slowly and that turned me on because i knew it wasn't gonna end with just a kiss. After few kisses he climbed on top of me. We made love and i found myself crying as he was busy moving in and out of me. I was not crying because i was sad or hurt or in pain ....i was crying because i was finally in love with someone that loved me back and the love i felt at that moment was overwhelming. It was new, it was beautiful and it was real

Me:"i love you" i whispered as soon as he came

Eugene:"what?" he breathed, he couldn't believe i said that

Me:"i am in love Eugene" i said with tears in my eyes. He looked up at my face and he laughed a bit and he looked at me again

Eugene:"you have no idea what that means to me.... I love you more Andi" he said that and cracked a big smile and then kissed me

Eugene:"we are going back to the hospital at 2 right?" i giggled because i couldn't believe that he was actually thinking about Omphu right now

Me:"seriously? Did you have to bring that up?"

Eugene:"ow i am sorry" he said laughing

Me;"dude we were having a moment" he laughed out loud

Eugene:"i said i am sorry, it crossed my mind and i thought i should ask"

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So Eugene and i drove to the hospital at half past one. We passed by a toy store to buy my son a new car #wink. We also went to a grocery store and bought him few snacks, kids’ love those...i bought him new clothes to change as well. After that we drove to the hospital. It was not a Saturday or a Sunaday and i wondered to myself why Eugene was glued to me the whole day instead of working? I never thought about it until now

Me:" uhm aren’t you supposed to be at work?" i said as we were pulling up at the parking lot

Eugene:" uhm i decided not to go, one day is really not going to kill me" i looked at him and didnt smile

me:" you are a workaholic i know that so it must be killing you to not be at work...you really didnt have to do this...well i am enjoying doing this with you but i am not happy that you are dropping your work for me" well a girl is gotta act like this sometimes...i really didnt want him to leave me to deal with Ria all by myself and also beside Ria issue...i loved having Eugene around....damn i was in love but i was trying to be a considerate girlfriend and if he gave in to what i was saying and decide to go back to work then...i'd be devastated...

Eugene:"well honestly part of me is feeling sick for not going to work but so what? I am with you and you are all that to me" i giggled

me:" thank God because if i am to be honest with you...i dont want you leaving me....i wish we could stay like this for...."

Eugene:" ever" he finished my sentence. I laughed

me:" exactly"

Eugene:" all in good time my love" we smiled and walked inside the building together. Ria was sitting on that same bench. Eugene and i stood there

Me:" hey" i said looking at Rialivhuwa

Ria:" hey" he couldn't really look at me

The Doctor walked in at that moment

Doc:" afternoon"

Me:" afternoon Doc"

Ria:"how is our boy?" wow our boy? I could sense a change in his arrogant self

Doc:" you'd be happy to know that you can take him home. Please be advised that he is still in pain as he still have burn wounds but they are not that bad so he will be fine in no time"

Me:" thank you somuch Doc" i felt relieved, i looked at Eugene and we smiled at each other. I was holding his hand

Ria:" can we go to him?"

Doc:" yes but one of the parents is gonna have to sign this form and come get the medications this way"

Ria:" i will sign the documents and get the meds so you can go change him in the mean time...how about that?"

Me:" cool" he walked away with the Doctor and Eugene and i walked inside the room. There was something about Rialivhuwa, he seemed fine...he didnt have the bitchy attitude he had in the morning...i guess the talk with Eugene really helped. My son was sleeping on the bed when we walked in and he quickly sat up when he saw me walking in. He giggled while clapping his hands in joy

Me:" nunu...my bubu...sweety pie" i said with a smile on my face as i walk to him. I took him and swung him around

Omphu:" mommy" he was laughing

me:" my Omphu...you miss mommy neh?" i said looking at him. I went to Eugene and looked at him with a smile

Me:' do you want to..." i said handing him my son

Eugene:' of course"

Me:" Omphu meet mommy's friend Eugene...Eugene meet my son Omphu"

Omphu:" Hi jujeeen" he said and gave me a shy smile, i giggled

Eugene:" hey Omphu" he took him and they played together. He gave him the car we bought and some snacks. After a while i took him and changed his clothes. After that Rialivhuwa walked in. he smiled walking to our son who was in Eugene's hands.

Ria:" hey boy boy...daddy's big boy" he said with a smile...Omphu laughed while trying to go to his dad. Eugene handed him over to Ria

Ria:" thanks" this was weird, having Ria and Eugene in the same room and not have to fight was kinda weird.

Ria:' i have been thinking....uhm i want to apologize to both of you for the way i acted lately. I thought about it and i realised that my son need both of us to get along if we are going to do this so i am sorry and i am willing to get along for his sake" ok really, i thought i was dreaming. If this was an audio recording then i was gonna repeat what just happened. i coudln’t believe what Ria just said

Me:" you are sorry?" i couldn't hide how shocked i was

Ria:" yes i am"

Eugene:" we accept your apology, i agree with what you said...this is all for your son and i have nothing but best interest for him"

Ria:" still on that, you can take him Andi, he can still stay with you but after what happened i am really not happy about it so please ask Bongi to be extra careful next time"

Me:" i will, don't worry about it, i will make sure that he is well taken care of"

Ria:" so can i spend an afternoon with him? I will bring him over tonight"

Me:" that's ok with me" i said looking at Eugene

Eugene:" ok then" i looked at Eugene and back at Ria who had my son on his hands and felt happy. Maybe after this my life was going to be dramaless.

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Rialivhuwa spent the afternoon with our son and i spent it with Eugene. After leaving the hospital he asked that we drove by his office because he wanted to get some work done. We got to his office and he quickly sat in front of his computer and started typing right away. I sat on the chair and felt bored after about 10 minutes because Eugene had switched on his workaholic mode so i looked around his office and there was something that i didn't take notice of the last time i was here, There was a family picture. It was an old one because i could clearly see Eugene but he was still young, maybe about 15.

Me:"is this your family?" i was now holding the frame in my hands, it was a man, a woman, two young girls and a boy who was definitely Eugene. He stopped typing and looked up at me

Eugene:"yes"

Md:"it looks cute and perfect" i said putting it back to its place. I suddenly remembered that Eugene told me that his parents passed way. Maybe this was their last family pic, although i was interested in knowing, i couldn't ask such personal info

Eugene:"i wish we were that perfect"

Me:"i am sorry they passed away" i said sitting back down on the chair

Eugene:"part of me miss them but the other part? Well not so much" ok it sounded like there was more where that came from but i was too chicken to ask questions, it’s better if he voluntarily tells me about it, instead of me fishing info out of him.

Eugene:"we were not really a perfect family, mom was a pain in the ass and dad was double that so they used to fight like cat and dog on a daily basis....i think having too much money had something to do with it, they were both working high paying jobs so we knew no peace....i have often wondered how they had all of us because it didn't look like they made love at all but i guess they did and that's why we are here"

Me:"uhm i am so sorry" that's all i could manage to say, i didn't know what else to add because my childhood was perfect and my parents were best buddies, i have only read about stories like this and the worst real life story was that of Ria who was raised by his mom while his dad stayed with another woman, that's all...so this was all new and i felt sorry for him

Eugene :" so one day they fought like usual, i think mom was having an affair or something like that and she took the car and drove away after a huge argument, dad took another car and followed her and that was the last we saw of them, they never made it back....both of them collided in a car accident and passed away....i was still young, i was only 18, Tebogo was 12 and Thabeleng was only 5....so i became their dad" i didn't realize it but i had tears in my eyes already, this was seriously heart breaking

Me:"ow my God Eugene how did you manage?"

Eugene:" they were all working so they had savings and life insurances also paid up and i used the money to start off the business with my friend while i was studying at tertiary... At least we had enough to hire someone to look after my sisters. They are more like my kids, we are very close"

Me:" wow life can be cruel, but you managed to be this sweet person....you'll have to forgive me, i really have no idea what to say or do...that's why i am just crying" i said wiping my tears, he got up and came to me smiling, he held out his hand and i took it standing up

Eugene:" its all in the past love, none of it can define me, at least i didn't let it. I wanna be better, better than my parents and i know you to be the woman who can be better as well...we can be better together, we can make this work together" i rested my head on his chest and felt at home, i felt contented, like i had everything i ever wanted. Well it was true, Eugene was all that i wanted in my life. He was everything that any woman could ask for

Me:" i think you need to finish some work" i said breaking the hug

Eugene:" i love you"

Me:" i love you more" he walked back to his chair

Me:" is there anything i could help you with? Anything at all? Finances maybe? I am a pro you know" i said laughing, he looked at me and giggled

Eugene:" if you want employment you should just ask hey" i giggled and actually thought about it, working with Eugene could be great but then again...i was reminded of my experience with Ria, maybe spending too much time together contributed to what we became, so no, i was not about to make the same mistake

Me:" sounds tempting but i want to actually apply for a job, get called for an interview and get the job....sleeping with the boss to get employment is not my thing" i said smiling and he smiled back

Eugene:" so you are thinking about getting back to work?"

Me:" yes, after moving into my new house then i should get a job, I can actually start applying now"

Eugene:"perfect idea, staying at home is not your thing...you are too intelligent for that" i giggled

Me:" you know that how?"

Eugene:" well i just know"