Life as we know it 36-40

Life as we know it

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So I spent the afternoon with Vhusani talking about her and her guy and how the wedding should be like. It felt great to talk about her and seeing her that happy was refreshing, Vhusani was a good friend to me and I knew she deserved some sort of happiness. We didn’t leave Vhusani’s place, we spent the night there.

The following morning we woke up early and she prepared herself for work and I cleaned up the house before leaving because we made such a mess the previous night. When I was done I walked to her room and went to the drawer and took out that small black box. I looked at the ring and I was reminded somuch of the two I once wore. I prayed to God that my friend could have a different fate from mine, I prayed that her marriage would be forever and not go through what I went through. Looking at the ring I could feel how much I missed being a Mrs, how much I missed being a wife, having a stable family, having a home, having a job and attending social gatherings with Ria. I looked at it until tears started coming out. I felt like I had wasted many years of my life on someone who didn’t give a damn about me. I put the ring back and then took my son, locked the house and left for my place.

Bongi was already waiting when I got home. My son was more than excited to see his nanny. I left him with her and walked to my bathroom to take a shower, after the shower I got dressed on something simple. I wanted to finalise the payment for the house so that it can officially be mine and I can start buying furnishers and then move. I also felt that I needed a job, I should start applying, I couldn’t be a stay at home mom forever, now that I was buying a house cash, then I needed some sort of an income to balance my finances.

After I was done with everything I said goodbye and went to the bank to make a transfer for the house payment. I had all the paper works and banking details with me. After that I went to the estate agent where everything was finalised and they said they would declare the house as ‘sold’ and I was given the keys for the house. I then drove to my old office…Ria’s office but I was not going there for him….i wanted to see Jake.

I parked my car at the drive way and I walked to the building. I ran into Ria on my way in and he was walking out.

Ria:”Andani, wow what a nice surprise”

Me:”yah it is” he looked at me and I looked at him too

Ria:”how is Omphu?”

Me:”he is fine, perfectly fine”

Ria:”ok that’s great”

Me:”yeah its great, uhm I hope you don’t mind I have to go in”

Ria:”uhm Andi”

Me:”yeah”

Ria:”do you mind doing lunch or breakfast with me tomorrow? Please” I looked at him and blinked

Me:”last time I checked you were in a relationship, I wouldn’t want to be the other woman on your relationship” he smiled

Ria:”you know you are my wife, you’ll always be my wife…it doesn’t matter who comes along, they know you are the one” I raised an eyebrow because I was seriously confused

Me:”uhm..ar…are you hearing yourself?”

Ria:”yah I am, you know how much I love you Andi” I had somuch to say to him, for starters I wanted to beat the day light out of him for thinking that I’d fall for whatever this was but I found myself turning around and walking inside the building without saying a word. But one thing for sure, I was pissed. I walked straight to Jake’s office and I knocked.

Jake:”come in”

Me:”guess who is here” I said walking in, walking into the office all my anger evaporated

Jake:”what? Noooo” he got up from his chair and walked to me smiling

Jake:”wow Andi you look great” he gave me a hug and damn the nigga smelt so sweet

Me:”thanks Jake, you don’t look bad yourself” I smiled looking at him. We broke the hug and he went to sit on his chair and I sat on the other one

Me:”I just thought I should come say hi”

Jake:”thank you somuch, that’s the best news I have heard all day…your husb- I mean your ex husband has been making my life a living hell….i have a pile of work to finish by Friday this week and my wife? Well she is another problem I have to deal with ,so thank you for gracing me with this visit”

Me:”that bad huh? You look stressed”

Jake:”work and marriage....it’s too much”

Me:”I was here two or three weeks ago and everything was fine, you and your wife were fine”

Jake:”we were not fine fine plus a lot can happen in a week Andi, but I am hoping that it’s just a phase and it will pass”

Me:”I am sorry”

Jake:”I am a strong man, I’ll be fine” he said with a smile

Me:”ok how about I help you out? I am good at my job and I am jobless now so how about you give me some work to do for you?”

Jake:”what? Are you kidding me? That’s against the company policy”

Me:”its not like we are going to broadcast it around the office now are we?” I said smiling

Jake:”nope”

Me:”so send me an email and I will spend tomorrow helping you out…you will finish the whole pile of work by Thursday…or maybe Wednesday” he giggled

Jake:”I miss you you know that? I don’t even know why you left”

Me:”well you know why” we laughed. So I spent about 30 minutes with him and I left. I didn’t want to spend too much time with him because I didn’t want Ria to be on his case about it too.

To my big surprise, Ria was waiting for me by the parking lot. He was leaning against my car

Ria:”so you have two men that you are sleeping with? Two men that my son gets to be around?”

Me:”are you drunk? Because my personal life has nothing to do with you anymore…who I have sex with is no longer any of your concern….you stopped being part of my sex life when you chose to divorce me” I roared with a low voice because I didn’t want to cause a scene that would embarrass me.

Ria:”you are mistaken Andani you are the mother of my child and I won’t let you whore around like this” he was frustrated

Me:”how about I tell you that there are three more guys that I am sleeping around with? And your so called son gets to see them all….go to your lawyers Ria, run around and do whatever the hell you wanna do…take the baby if that will make you feel better and then I will have some more time to whore around because I won’t have to worry about a two years old son” I said as tears were coming out. I unlocked the car and got inside

Ria:”you really don’t love me anymore?” he said with tears in his eyes

Me:”I never stopped loving you...in case you had a memory loss….you are the one who stopped loving me and now I have a hell lot of man trying to love me…something that you failed to do so dismally” I started my car and drove off. As soon as I was out of the building I packed the car by the side of the road and cried. I thought I was healed but I am not….i wanted to hurt him so bad, I wanted him to feel the same pain I felt…I wanted him to suffer as much as I did and if I had to lie to do it then I did it and judging from the look on his face, it worked.

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After a bit of crying I realised that I was wasting my time and that i seriously needed to start living because Ria started living long before our divorce. What did I stand to lose by being with Eugene? By sleeping with him? Well I lose absolutely nothing, as in zero so I had to live for myself and enjoy this life while I still can and stop holding back. While still on that thought…I took out my phone and dialled Eugene’s number

Eugene:”my person” I smiled

Me:”hey you”

Eugene:”I am so happy to hear your voice”

Me:”well how about I come over to your office and you can hear more of it”

Eugene:”really?” he was shocked….so he never expected me to come up with the idea of visiting him?

Me:”yep”

Eugene:”wow ok let me sms you the directions”

Me:”ok see you in a few” I dropped the call and dialled Vhusani right away

Vhusi:”hey friend”

Me:”hey love, I need your favour, are you busy tonight?”

Vhusi:”yep…I am cooking for my Mr, I wanna say yes tonight” wow that was great news

Me:”perfect news friend”

Vhusani:”yeah it is, what where you saying?”

Me:”it doesn’t matter love, enjoy your night neh?”

Vhusani:”thanks babe” we dropped the call and I sat there feeling rather disappointed that I couldn’t get my son a nanny….well maybe I could try Bongi and see if she could be able to baby sit throughout the night. I called her immediately

Bongi:”hi Andi”

Me:”hey Bongi, how is everything at home with our boy?” she giggled a bit

Bongi:”you know how he is, he is running around the house”

Me:”well that’s great news …uhm can I please ask you a favour?”

Bongi:”Anything”

Me:”I wanna get busy with something tonight, can you please please babysit throughout the night? I will pay you triple for this….i know it’s too much to ask but I am kinda desperate”

Bongi:”not to worry Andi as long as I get to make some extra cash, I will call at home and inform them” I felt a bit bad that I was taking her off her plans

Me:”and if you have a friend or maybe a boyfriend then you can call him over and you can sleep in my spare bedroom, I don’t want you to be lonely”

Bongi:”unfortunately I don’t have a boyfriend….man can be such a problem, I will be fine, and you don’t have to worry about me”

Me:”ok thanks, I might come back tomorrow or very late”

Bongi:”no problem” we said goodbye and I dropped the call

I then checked the phone and there was a message from Eugene, he smsed me his office address. It was situated somewhere at the CBD. It was not too far from where I used to work so I was gonna be there in less than 15 minutes. I drove to his office feeling excitement and a bit nervous about what I was about to do….life is about taking risks and whether you take them or not, you are bound to get hurt.

I got to the building and walked to his office. He was in office number 121. I knocked on the door

Eugene:”come in” I took a deep breath and then walk in. He smiled from ear to ear the moment he saw me walk in

Eugene:”I thought you were gonna take a while to get here”

Me:”it turns out that I was not too far away”

Eugene:”you have no idea how happy I am to see you” he got to me and we hugged. I loved how he smelt, it was not a fresh smell of someone who just had a shower but it was a scent of someone who have had a long day but still…I loved that scent

Eugene:”I hope you don’t mind me asking, I am just shocked to see you so what made you decide to come?” he whispered

Me:”you” I whispered back and then we broke the hug.

Me:”I wanted to do this” I wrapped my hands around his head and forced him to bend downward to me and I kissed him slowly. He then scooped me up and walked with me to his table where he gently put me on top

Eugene:”so you are here for this?” I nodded and immediately started undoing his shirt, I looked at him and it was obvious that he was in shock, I guess he didn’t expect any of that from me. I loved that, I loved the fact that I surprised him…that I was not like a book that he had already done reading. I kissed his chest while he fondles my hair

Me:”you don’t mind do you?” I said while busy kissing him

Eugene:”not at all”

I might have only slept with one man in my life but I knew how to do things, Ria had taught me well although according to him I wasn’t up to standard I knew I wasn’t clueless. I looked up at him and went for his mouth again, slowly, our mouths moved….i felt in love and I also felt loved, he was driving me insane and at this moment I couldn’t mind making love to him right there in his office. I stopped kissing him and took off my top, he eyed me with his sexy eyes and I couldn’t help but felt sexy myself. I threw the top across the room. He walked to the door and locked it and then came back to me. He kissed me hard, he held my neck with such a force and continued kissing. He was hard and ready, I could feel it. I stopped him from kissing me and I started undoing his jeans

Eugene:”Andani”

Me:”shhh”

I wanted to play, I wanted to be happy and I wanted to live for me…for today and this was me doing that. I was tired of overthinking everything of being scared if he was gonna hurt me or not. I finally came through and pulled his jeans a bit down. Kurt Geiger I smiled as I saw his underwears. I looked up at him and I couldn’t read his face or his eyes for that matter. I pulled the undies down and I didn’t waste any minute before his manhood was in my mouth and damn the feeling of it all? I had it in my mouth, in and out…in and out…..i put my hands at the base of his man hood and tilted my head side ways, back and forth. He groaned lightly and quietly, I guess he didn’t wanna make noise because we were in the office. he then pulled me up and then kissed me so hard and then he pushed me down with such a force that I fell on my back and I looked at  him as he quickly took off the legging I had on along with my undies and he did what he did the other day. The BJ. I swear I died and woke up like 1000 times at that moment. He put one hand on my mouth to stop me from making noise, I guess I was noisy…when I couldn’t take no more I pushed him away and looked at him and he looked at me too…his eyes red and his mouth wet

Me:”you have condoms?” he shook his head, damn I wanted to just die

Eugene:”but I can make a plan…I can try and get them”

Me:”no, you are not going out and get a condom from your colleagues because I can’t have them knowing that we did the DID right here in the office”

Eugene:”uhm ok” he gathered my clothes and gave them to me

Me:”and now?”

Eugene:”we are going to my house” he was getting dressed too

Me:”it’s not even four yet?”’

Eugene:”and I am the boss” he quickly finished getting dressed and helped me with my top and then he took my hand and we walked out of his office to the parking.

Me:”so we drive separately?”

Eugene:”yep, you should drive behind me”

Me:”right behind you”

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So after a hot and long session we laid on our back in his bedroom. I was feeling good, well, maybe better than good…I felt great. I looked at him and I smiled…he smiled too

Eugene:”I love you” I didn’t say anything but just giggled.

I laid my head on his chest and felt at peace. I was happy with him. His bedroom was big but it was a guy bedroom…everything inside was guyish…it was obvious that Eugene was staying by himself. When we arrived the bed was done in a way that a guy can get the bed done….everything was neat but the colours and how everything was still needed a woman’s touch. He had a big queen sized bed, a build-in cuboard which was quite gigantic and I was asking myself if he had enough clothes to fit in there because usually guys don’t buy too much clothes. There was no couch in the bedroom….he had a headboard and two bedside tables and that’s kinda it. The colours where just brown…bedding was also brown. Although I hadn’t walk around the house…it seemed big, I saw that when we drove in.

Eugene:” I wish you could spend the night” he said playing with my braids

Me:”I plan to” I answered back

Eugene:”what about the baby?” I loved this about him, he was not just concerned about having me for the night but he was also concerned about my son

Me:”I got him a nanny” he stopped touching my hair and eyed me carefully

Eugene:’so you mean to say you planned this?”

Me:”kind of short notice….i called my nanny while I was in town to spend the night” he giggled, he was happy about this

Eugene:”don’t get me wrong but will the baby be ok?”

Me:”yeah of course he will…..he is fond of Bongi plus that child have spent months without sleeping with his mom…believe me he is a strong young man” I said feeling sad that I had done that to my son. That I had abandoned him for months because I was heartbroken, I wished I could be given a chance to re-live those moments so that I could love my son even in the midst of my heartbreak

Eugene:”ow….that seem to make you sad”

Me:”and I don’t wanna talk about my sad moments”

Eugene:’ok that’s fine by me…so since you are spending the night can we start preparing dinner then?”

Me:”you are happy about this ain’t you?”

Eugene:” perfectly happy” he got out of bed and opened his build-in and took out a t shirt and threw it on me, I laughed out loud. I got up and wore my penty and then his tee and followed him to the kitchen. He was only wearing his jeans and no t shirt.

His kitchen was not big but good enough for a man staying on his own. The main colour was also brown, I guess he was fond of brown or maybe he was too men-ish to care about the décor. So we spent more than two hours cooking. I tell you he was the one cooking and I was just giving him my 2 cent advice here and there and helping on chopping off veggies….but the whole experience was kinda fun. He was cooking for me, not the other way around. It was romantic so that was another tick for him. After cooking we endulged on the meal that we both prepared and we laughed and talked while eating. The food was great and everytime I looked at him while we were eating I knew I was falling for him. After our dinner then we washed the dishes together and then head for the shower. We showered together and spending so much time with him was helping me get over the shyness. I was now free and comfortable around him and I think that’s also because he was not tense and therefore he always made me feel like I had known him for years, he let me be me and he didn’t show me what he was expecting of me so whatever I do seemed enough for him. We made love in the shower with water dripping all over us…..So after the shower I was tired and I just wanted to sleep.

The following morning I woke up first and he was still fast asleep when I woke. I looked at him and just smiled. Shame he was a cute soul and he was surely making me happy. So what this meant was that me and him were now officially an item. I was dating Eugene…I had a boyfriend and saying it like that felt weird and highschool-ish. I felt something inside of me….i was no longer scared that he might break my heart…infact was kinda waiting for him to start cheating on me now that we had made love….there was nothing for him to wait for anymore….no reason for him to pretend. So I lay there and told myself that if he decide to leave me then I’ll be fine, him leaving me was to be expected, that’s how guys are and its hard to find a real one these days.

He moved and then stretched and finally opened his eyes…he found me gazing at him. part of me wanted to cry because the sex was so great that I’d like to do it everyday but I knew I didn’t have to get used to it because it was going to be over soon enough.

Eugene:”morning beau”

Me:”beau?” I giggled….s*** the nigga had a strong hold on me

Eugene:”yep…beautiful”

Me:”oww morning hand” we laughed out loud

Eugene:”you are one crazy woman and I love you for it” he said that and started kissing my neck

Me”:”uhm sorry Gee, I am gonna have to go”

Eugen:”now?”

Me:”my son” he closed his eyes and then open them again

Eugene:”oww yah that…sorry I got carried away and kinda forgot about him” I got out of bed

Me:”so you still want me to stay?”

Eugene:”are you kidding me? of course I do….the whole week if that’s possible” I cried silently…obviously he still wanted to f*** me…I was probably good and he wanted to do me until he feel tired and then leave me for the next available girl

Me:”you do know that that’s not possible right?” I said with a faint smile, I couldn’t rock the real smile, I was too emotional to do that….i suddenly regretted spending the night

Eugene:”Andani what’s wrong?” he walked to me and took my hands

Me:”its nothing, I just miss my son that’s all”

Eugene:”oww shame love….let’s get you going then….you are not hungry?” I shook my head

Me:”my son first”

Eugene:”ok” I got dressed on my yesterday’s clothes.

I took my car keys and then we walk out of the house to the driveway where my car was. I unlocked my car and he opened the door for me. I didn’t find it necessary though, he had already done it so he can drop the romantic act….it wasn’t necessary anymore. I saw my phone on my passenger’s seat and realised that I left it in the car

Eugene:”I really don’t want you to go but we have no choice” I smiled taking my phone and unlocking it

Me:”yeah I wanna stay too but eish….parenthood”

Eugene:”we should go on a date with your son” i couldn’t respond because I realised that there were dozens calls from Bongi and then from Rialivhuwa…..ow my God did he went to the flat?

Me:”oww my God” I said dialing Bongi immediately

Eugene:”what’s wrong?”

Me:”uhm I have like 100 missed calls from the nanny”

Eugene:”what?” Bongi picked up the call

Bongi:”Andani I have been trying to get hold of you since last night”

Me:”I saw the missed calls what’s wrong?” my heart was racing, Eugene was looking at me like had seen a ghost

Bongi:”uhm its Omphu….i took him to the Doctor…well we are still here” ow my God, it was worse than Ria coming to my flat

Me:”what? No no no Bongi wh…what happened to him? Is he ok”

Bongi:”he is better now”

Me:”uhm wait a minute…is Ria there with you?”

Bongi:”yes, I had to call him because you were unavailable…you were not there and they needed his family”

Me:”oww noo” I had messed up big time

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Eugene:”Andani what’s wrong?”

Me:”uhm Bongi what hospital are you at?” I was not trying to ignore Eugene but I had to get more info about my son

Bongi:”uhm I forgot the name but it’s the one closest to your flat”

Me:”uhm ok I will be right there” I said breathing. I dropped the call and quickly started the car, I was about to reverse when I realised that Eugene was still here with me

Eugene:”Babe? Andi please what is going on?”

Me:”I need to get to the hospital, something is wrong with my son” I said with tears on my face, I couldn’t keep it together, something was wrong with my son and I couldn’t be there for him because I was busy with Eugene

Eugene:”Andi Babe you are shaking and I don’t think you are in any position to drive”

Me:”don’t you get it? My nanny couldn’t get hold of me the whole night so he called Omphu’s dad and he is there right now so the last thing I need is more drama”I said feeling irritated

Eugene:”you are wasting more time Andani, get out of the car and let me drive ok? This is not the time to be thinking about what your ex husband will think….i mean what if you get involved in an accident because you are crying and can’t even see clearly? Just let me drive” I got out of the car and walked to the passenger’s door and got in. Eugene got in on the drivers’ seat and started the car.

We drove to the hospital. We got there within 30 minutes and he parked the car

Me:”thanks for driving me, I am gonna have to go in there alone”

Eugene:”but I want to be there for you”

Me:”I know that Eugene but right now I wanna be with my son ok? Please give me some space, I will surely give you a call when I’ve seen him”

Eugene:”you’re sure you gonna be fine?” I nodded

Eugene:”ok don’t beat yourself up about it ok? I love you” he said that and kissed me. We got out of the car and I quickly ran inside. I got inside and asked around for the kids ward. I was directed to where it was and I ran like a mad woman. I got to the location and luckily I found Bongi sitting on a bench. I quickly ran to her…she saw me running and she ran to me too and we hugged but I quickly broke the hug

Me:”Sibongile what is wrong with my son?” I asked with tears all over the show

Bongi:”uhm he got burned with hot water and I tried calling you several times but you couldn’t pick up, I tried your friend too but she also didn’t pick up so I was left with one option”

Me:”I know and I am so sorry that I wasn’t there, I forgot my phone in my car…so how did it happen?”’

Bongi:”I left the cattle with boiled water on the living room table and took him to the bedroom with me but then he went back without me noticing and next thing I hear him crying”

Me:”ow my God, is it bad?” I was crying….oww God my little boy….what was really painful was the fact that I wasn’t there for him, I felt like such a failure

Ria:”bad? So you do care afterall” he said behind me, I knew this was coming

Me:”uhm Bongi thank you, I think I will take it from here…you can go stay in my car so long” I said that and gave her my car keys

Ria:”nope you are not going anywhere Bongi”

Bongi:”uhm sorry?”

Ria:”yeah you are a nanny who has been taking care of my son day and night and its only fair for you to stay here not her” I closed my eyes and felt this rage taking over

Me:”Rialivhuwa please this is not the time to fight”

Ria:”I am not fighting Andi, I am just stating the facts. Sit over there Bongi….i will pay you extra” Bongi looked at me and at him with a confused look

Me:”the car Bongi….i hired you, not him”

Bongi:”I will be in the car” she said and hurriedly walked out. I looked back at Rialivhuwa and felt weak

Ria:”so you are still wearing yesterday’s clothes?” I walked to the bench and sat down and decided to ignore him. He walked towards me and sat on the bench too

Ria:”I get it Andani, I am nothing to you but what about our son? This could have been worse and you were out gallivanting with some guys huh?”

Me:”I am sorry” I said with a low voice

Ria:”you have got to be sorry because you will never see him again”

Me:”what?”

Ria:”my lawyers are already in it…I have Bongi as a witness and the hospital staff….you weren’t here for your son during his worst time so you can kiss motherhood goodbye and say hello single mom and whoeing around”

Me:”Rialivhuwa please don’t do this to me”

Ria:”I am not doing anything to you, I am protecting my son and for the record…you did this to yourself”

Me:”Rialivhuwa you have no right to do this”

Ria:”well I have every right”

Me:”I am sorry Rialivhuwa I really am but you can’t take our son from me please” I begged

Ria:”it’s done Andi, you can fight it if you want but you wont win” I couldn’t help but cried

Me:”so you are using our son to hurt me? To get back at me for moving on?” I said crying

Ria:”maybe….or maybe not”

The doctor came to us right at that moment. Ria got up and ran to him. I quickly wiped off my tears and ran to him too

Ria:”how is he? Can I see him?”

Doc:”he is much better….like I said previously he got lucky that the nanny quickly used ice on him so he will be fine but he is still in pain”

Me:”so can I go in and see him?”

Doc:”yes of course, you can both go in” Ria looked at me

Ria:”don’t even dare Andani, you are not going in there”

Doc:”sorry?”

Ria:”she was out with some men when our son got burned…..she is not a fit mother and I am in the process of getting custody of our son…she is dangerous to him….God knows what she will do in there”

Me:”Rialivhuwa don’t do this”

Ria:”go to hell”

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Me:”its fine Doctor you can excuse us…we will go see him in a sec” the Doctor nodded and walked away, I looked at Rialivhuwa with my hands on my hips

Me:”so our baby lends in hospital because of an honest mistake and you have the guts to label me an unfit mother? What kind of an animal are you Rialivhuwa?”

Ria:”this is for my son Andani, had you slept at home then none of this would have happened or even if it did…at least you would have been there for him…do you have any idea how it was to calm him down while he was screaming calling your name?” ok that hurt…its like I could imagine my son calling me to no avail, I wished I was there for him

Me:”I know it was bad but I didn’t know that something like this was gonna happen and I said I am sorry so stop this madness about me not seeing my son”

Ria:”was he that good?” he asked breathing

Me:’excuse me?”

Ria:”Jake….or that other guy or who ever you were with…was he so good that you ignored my calls and Bongi’s calls?” I looked into his eyes and I saw pain

Me:”there…so this is what it’s all about? This has nothing to do with the baby or me not being there for him. it boils down to you being jealous that I have moved on and now you’re gonna use our son to get back at me well news flash brother….that’s my son whom I carried for nine months while you were busy sleeping with Pearl and all the other whores so you wont stop me from seeing him” I said that and did my Naomi Campbell walk towards the room he was in, Ria ran after me and snatched my hand

Ria:”don’t even dare” he roared

Me:”until the court says otherwise…we have a joint custody so have it in writing and maybe then I will stay away”

Ria:”you reek of sex Andani, I can smell it all over you…so you wanna go in there to our son like that?” I looked at him and didn’t even know what to say. Rialivhuwa was just jealous that I was with someone else and he was using the situation to get back at me for it

Me:”it doesn’t matter” I proceeded to walk.

This is what people don’t get. You can mess with a woman like me all you want but the moment you want to ruin or come between what a waman shares with her kids then you have another thing coming. He walked after me to our son’s ward. He was sleeping, he had bandages on his body…he was also in some machines. I looked at him and wanted to cry, my heart broke when I saw him like that. I sat on the chair that was close to the bed and took his hand and kissed it. Ria just stood there looking at me

Me:”I love you boy boy, I am so sorry that this happened to you…mommy loves you to Paris and back” I said smiling

Ria:”he will be fine” he said….can’t say I wasn’t surprised, I looked up at Ria

Me:”thanks for stepping in and being there for him, I love him Ria, had I known that something had happened then I would have been here a long time ago”

Ria:”I don’t want to do this in here, I can’t have him listen to us fighting” I looked back at my son, now he don’t wanna fight in front of our sleepy son because it suites him. We stayed like that for a while until the Doctor came back in

Doc:”I think that will be it for now, he is resting so maybe you should come back in the afternoon”

Me:”so he is gonna be fine?” I asked desperately, the doctor smiled and I knew he had good news

Doc:”he is going to be fine ma’am, it’s just that after being discharged then you should expect to have few sleepless nights”

Ria:”as long as he is fine then I don’t think that should be a probem” he said looking at me.

Ria and I left the room. I breathed as soon as i walked out, my son was better and at least that was good news

Ria:”Andani” he said as soon as we got out of the room

Me:”what now?” my tone was that of someone who was not interested

Ria:”I will take my son as soon as he is discharged, I know he will be safe in my house not a flat” this was pathetic, he looked pathetic, using our son like this to try and prove some point?

Me:”ok its fine then”

Ria:”so you are fine with it?”

Me:”f*** it man what the hell do you want from me? of course I am not fine with you taking my son to a whore house where women comes and go but I don’t have the energy or the stamina to stand up to you Ria, it seems like you have a lot of that and you are in the mood but I am not so please be my guest and take the baby, I will come see him on weekends”

I said that and walked away to the parking lot. I knew for a fact that I loved my son and that I wanted to be with him when he got discharged but I also didn’t want to fight Rialivhuwa, I didn’t have the energy for that plus I knew why he was doing everything….it was because he was jealous.

I walked to the parking and to my surprise Eugene was still waiting for me, this guy though. Bongi was inside my car and Eugene was sitting on the bench outside. I walked to him

Me:”I thought I told you to leave” I said without even a smile

Eugene:”I couldn’t leave you like that, how is he?”

Me:”better, he will be fine…that’s what the doctor said”

Eugene:”that’s great news right?”

Me:”I suppose so”

Eugene:”whats that supposed to mean?”

Me:”nothing, I think we should leave” I couldn’t tell him about the drama that went down inside and that Ria was taking my son

Eugene:”ok lets go”

Me:”do you mind driving?”

Eugene:”of course not” we walked to my car and right at that moment Rialivhuwa walked out of the building to the parking.

He gave a deadly stare and I felt chills all over my body, the look he gave me was scary and once again I was reminded of the times where I was nothing but his little wife and he’d beat me senseless for absolutely nothing. I got in at the front seat, Bongi was sitting at the back and Eugene was at the driver’s. He drove out and Bongi gave him instructions to her place like I asked because we wanted to drop her first. We got to her place and I thanked her and we drove back to mine. We arrived and he parked the car at the driveway

Eugene:”I can see how unhappy you are about your baby, I am so sorry”

Me:”its fine”

Eugene:”don’t worry Andi, he will be out soon and you will get to see him everyday ok? I promise you won’t have to come to my place and leave him with anyone else ever again”

Me:”that wont be necessary because Ria is taking him” I said looking straight ahead feeling like I was dreaming

Eugene:’what?”

Me:”he feels that I am an unfit mother, he is taking my son away from me Eugene”

Eugene:”that’s bull and I wont let him….he has no right to do that at all….you are Omphu’s mom and he stays with you so Ria can go to hell” I looked at Eugene

Me:”I don’t wanna fight him, I can’t fight him…I don’t have the strength to do that”

Eugene:”then I will do it for you, that guy has been bullying you for years and it’s about time he realise that those days are over”

Me:”thanks a lot Eugene but I can’t expect you to start fighting my battles so soon into the relationship, I just can’t”

Eugene:”but I wont let him hurt you like this Andi…let me do this” I shook my head

Me:”I will just talk to my lawyer….please stay out of this” he nodded

Eugene:”can I come in?” I looked out of the window

Me:”I just wanna be alone please, I wanna process everything…I hope you understand”

Eugene:”yeah I do” he seemed sad

Me:”you are not sad now are you?”

Eugene:”I am a man Andi and I love you, I better start calling a cab to come pick me up”

Me:”Eugene please”

Eugene:”its fine love I get it…you don’t want me helping out to sort out your ex husband and you also don’t want me around you….i get all that, you wanna be alone to process the whole situation” he got out of the car and walked away. I sat there motionless and failed to move or to try and call him so that we could talk because I could see he wasn’t happy. But I had no strength for that, I had important things to worry about than him. I had my son to worry about and I couldn’t deal with a grown man sulking at this moment