Life as we know it 31-35

Life as we know it

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We drove to my place in total silence. We got there and he parked the car at the parking.

Me:”I will understand if you don’t wanna see me after this” I said with a lump on my throat, I was feeling bad for what happened…even worse for the fact that Eugene witnessed the whole thing

Eugene:”what? Andani no” he got out of the car and came to my side. He opened the door and took my hand, I got out of the car and he hugged me

Eugene:”if there is anything you need right now is for me to give you this” I broke the hug and he looked at me with both his hands on my hips

Me:”I am sorry we couldn’t do dinner, I mean I should have known that he’d go there because we used to eat out there a lot”

Eugene:”shhhhh Andani please, it’s not your fault ok…it’s not, you can relax now, it’s all over” I couldn’t look at him anymore, I was ashamed

Eugene:”you were scared when he grabbed your hand, you were shaking” I moved closer to his car and learned against it

Me:”was it that obvious?” I said faking a smile, he nodded. Tears started coming out and I wiped them off

Eugene:”shhhhh Andani babe please”

Me:”I have to go in” I said walking away, he ran after me

Eugene:”ok, let me walk you in” I walked to my flat with him behind me. I got there and unlocked the door and then stood at the door looking at him

Me:”thank you”

Eugene:”come here” he hugged me again and I couldn’t help but cry. We stood there for a while until I calmed down

Eugene:”can I please come in? I wanna make you a cup of coffee….or maybe prepare you something to eat because we couldn’t eat out”

Me:”Eugene…i…”

Eugene:”I am not taking no for an answer” I gave up on trying to stop him and we walked inside my flat.

Eugene:”beautiful place you have here”

Me:”thanks” we were standing in the kitchen

Me:”I feel like I just wanna lay down” I said walking towards the living room

Eugene:”do you still love him?” he asked out of the blue, I stopped on my tracks, turned around and looked at him, I didn’t expect that question from him

Me:”uhm”

Eugene:”it’s a simple question requiring a very simple answer….it’s either you still love him or you don’t….i can’t be playing games at my age” I could see the look of pain in his eyes

Me:”I don’t….it’s over between us, he brought more heartache in my heart than you can ever imagine, so no….i will never go back to him if that’s what you are worried about” I said looking straight up at him. I wanted to give him some sort of an assurance that I was now his and that Rialivhuwa was nothing more than just my past

Eugene:”I am interested to know what really happened” he was walking towards me

Eugene:”please, I just wanna know what I am dealing with, how I can try to make it up to you, try to be the best man you deserve and help you forget the pain…but for that I want you to help me understand what happened” he got to me and I turned around and continued walking to the living room with him behind me. I sat on the couch and he sat next to me

Me:”we dated for 6 years before getting married…he is the only person I have dated and the only one I had loved….so you can imagine how deep I must have loved him. He started cheating on me on the first three months of our marriage, and he made me feel like I was too spoilt to be a wife and he insulted my parents every chance he got. I loved him and when we met he had nothing and I had everything but I loved him still and I forced my parents to accept him too. But with the cheating came the beating, the emotional abuse, I felt unattractive, like I didn’t deserve him or any man for that matter but even with all that happening, I still stayed because I was afraid to make it out here without him. It became more about my security than love. I forgot to mention that he cheated with our colleague…his PA”

Eugene:”our?”

Me:”yeah we worked together in the same company and he started dating a girl we were working with, you can imagine the shame and the humiliation. I had to compete with that girl for his attention, he even went as far as telling me that she was better than me in bed…..i tolerated everything for three good years until…….until he decided to end it”

Eugene:”he what?” I could see the look of hurt in his eyes and I didn’t wanna look at him anymore because I felt stupid and dumb for putting up with somuch s*** from Ria

Me:”I know it sound dumb and stupid and childish but maybe I am all these things ok? I get it…you have so many things going through your mind right now and one of them is that this girl is so stupid for putting up with so much crap” I said that and stomped to my bedroom. I threw myself on the bed and didn’t allow myself to cry. I just stayed like that for few minutes feeling numb. I felt bad for just leaving Eugene alone in my living room but I needed my space and I was hoping that he had left. I was still thinking when I heard him opening the door, I looked up and I saw him walking in with a cup in his hand. The hell was going on? I couldn’t hide the shock on my face.

Eugene:”sorry for walking into your bedroom but maybe you need this, I have also ordered some food, they will deliver soon” he gave me a cup and stood in the middle of the room. It was coffee, I took one sip and it tested heavenly, I looked at him

Me:”thanks for this and for the food that’s about to be delivered” I gotta say that having someone here other than Vhusani taking care of me was great

Eugene:”it’s my pleasure….and for the record, I don’t think you were dumb or stupid or childish…I think you were in love and you did your best to be the best wife anyone can ask for so you gave it your all”

Me:”Is that how you think of all this?” he smiled for few seconds and his smile faded

Eugene:”yeah that’s what I think and I also wish I had met you sooner, before he did all this to you”

Me:”does the fact that you didn’t meet me sooner changes anything?”

Eugene:”yes it does” I felt my heart racing

Eugene:”it means that I have to love you more, make up for his mistakes and make sure that I never become anything like him” he held out his hand and I got up from the bed with a cup on my hand and walked to him. He took the cup and put it on the bedside table

Eugene:”I know its too soon Andi, I don’t know you that much and you don’t know me much either but I like you and I am falling for you….every minute when I am alone you are all I think about….i want you to be mine Andi, I want to make you happy again…give you the love that you highly deserve….give me the chance to do that” someone knocked at the door

Me:”it must be the delivery guy” I whispered

Eugene:”ow yeah” he let go of me and walked out of my room…..i stood there and breathed….he was in love with me.

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Insert 32

I walked after him and he was paying the delivery guy. He thanked him and the guy walked away.

Me:”thank you for this”

Eugene:”it’s my pleasure” I smiled and we started eating while sitting on the kitchen stools

Eugene:”so when are you moving in to the new house?” I breathed looking at him

Me:”not sure yet, but I have put up an offer which was approved so I just have to make the payment and the house is mine”

Eugene:”ow great news”

Me:”yeah it’s great” I don’t know why but I was not too excited about the new house anymore. After the food we walked to the living room where we sat on one three seater couch

Me:”thank you for everything, you handled everything better than I expected”

Eugene:”ow I did? Thank you” he took his phone and checked the time

Eugene:”it’s getting quite late, I should be leaving now” he said not looking at me

Me:”ow is it?” I honestly didn’t want him to leave but asking him to stay might have to mean that I’ll have to be sleeping with him and I didn’t want that, at least not tonight

Eugene:”we’ll talk on the phone right?” he was getting up and I got up too

Me:”yeah right” I walked him to the door although the inner me was kicking and screaming begging him to stay the night, he opened the door and looked back at me

Eugene:”I love you”

Me:”uhm…ahh”

Eugene:”you don’t have to say anything, its fine” I smiled

Me:”thank you” I said with the lowest tone, if you ask me what had happened to the voice then I’d tell you that I don’t know because that was the truth.

We went quiet, our eyes locked on each other, I breathed and he did the same. Wow he had beautiful eyes, I never noticed that before. He slowly moved his face towards me and I stood still and didn’t make a single movement. His mouth reached mine and he gave me just a tiny bit of touch and I melted. He kissed me again as if he is trying not to and damn it turned me on. He slowly stopped and looked into my eyes

Eugene:”I wanna make you happy” he whispered and then gave me one passionate kiss.

I could feel his mouth eating on me, his tongue in my mouth, the taste of foreign saliva in my mouth felt so pleasant and I wouldn’t mind swallowing it at that rate every damn second. Its funny how I had been with one man and I used to think that his kisses were the best…men like Eugene weren’t just sweet but they also knew how to kiss too and at that moment I was waiting in anticipation as to how he might be in bed, I knew it was not gonna be now but I wished it could be, the waiting was already killing me.

He stopped the kiss and looked at me again….damn I was falling for this nigga

Eugene:”I better get going ok?” he was caressing my face

Me:”I don’t want you to leave” I said breathing

Eugene:”but I have to Andi, we can’t do anything yet”

Me:”we don’t have to” I said in a slow seductive tone. Damn it….i didn’t know I had that in me, he gave me the seductive look

Eugene:”don’t test me Andani, I didn’t bring anything because I only came for food like real food so lets not risk it” I chuckled and eyed him very carefully

Me:”just come in already, I promise we won’t do anything that’s not supposed to happen” he smiled and walked in and we locked the door. He looked at me one more time and scooped me up and took me all the way to my bedroom. Ow my God, but he said he don’t have protection and I thought we agreed on the fact that nothing was to happen. He put me on the bed and smiled.

Me:”I thought we agreed”

Eugene:”yeah I know that but that doesn’t mean that I can’t do this”

Me:”whaaaa…” I think I lost the ‘t’.

He started kissing me slowly, at the back of my ears, my neck and then he started taking my dress off. S*** I was so timid, I hadn’t done anything like this with anyone else other than Ria. After a bit of struggle my dress was thrown somewhere across the room and I was officially naked, with just my bra and my undies. He slowly undid the bra. He massaged my body slowly, showering me with kisses here and there. He then went on my breasts, he breathed on them and his breath alone took me to another level. That’s the results of not being intimate for long. He was kissing them as I moan lightly in pleasure. His hands were all over me and at this moment I couldn’t do anything to him,  I was kinda afraid, I felt like an  inexperienced teenage girl, he had a hot body, six pack and all but I was nervous to even touch him so I lay there like a dead branch of a tree and let him do me. When his hands started reaching my privates, I knew what was coming next, he was gonna play with my clit and then gave me a BJ, I was not gonna have that. I didn’t prepare for anything like that when I took the shower.

Me:”please stop” I cried out, he looked at me shocked

Me:”I think you better go” I quickly got out of bed and went to my closet and came back with a towel wrapped around my body, Eugene was sitting on my bed looking as confused as f***

Eugene:”you really want me to go?”

Me:”I am sorry Eugene this whole thing was a mistake ok? I really thought I could do this but I am failing, I am so sorry” he got up not looking at me

Eugene:”I will see you around then”

Me:”yeah you will” we walked out of my room to the door in an awkward silence. He opened the door and looked at me, I could see the look of disappointment in his eyes

Eugene:”good night Andi”

Me:”night Eugene”

He closed the door and I stood against it feeling like the dumbest woman alive. What just happened? What did I do? I ruined a good party, I officially drove him away. The guy was perfect, his personality was perfect, his body was to die for and I ruined it all….all for what? I put my hands on my face in frustration. This was all Ria’s doing, he got under my skin and I couldn’t even do a s*** in the bedroom with some hot guy. I wanted to just sit there and cry.

Life as we know it

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I walked to the living room and just sat on the couch. People don’t get this. It’s not easy being married to someone or being with someone for years and then being spitted out afterwards. You fail to fit in, to find your feet and to start dating again. Everything become such a hassle, I mean its been 9 years since I was with someone who was new to me so now that I have to start over, its not easy, its hard to let yourself be loved by someone else, to let yourself be touched by that new person….its not a walk in the park. I was only used to his touch, his kisses, his voice, his groan and his everything and now that I was with a different someone? It was also different, I must admit that it felt great but how do I become free? How do I lose the shyness? The nervousness? How do I become myself around him? I cant build all of that in just two weeks, that’s how long he has been in my life…two weeks and God knows if he was gonna stay longer or if he was just gonna steal the few months of my life and move on as well, just like what Rialivhuwa did.

I sat there on that couch until I developed a serious headache, I was just a confused soul. As much as I knew I liked him, I also knew that I was scared to try anything out, I was scared of being hurt again, being cheated on again and being insulted again. I felt like I couldn’t take anymore abuse from anyone. My phone beeped and I was reluctant to check it so I ignored it for a while….but within few minutes I gave in and took it, I was curious to know who sent a message and what they were saying. Well my guess was right, it was Eugene. I braced myself and slowly started reading the sms

“I am sorry if I went further than you were willing to go. I don’t know what to make of this whole thing, don’t get me wrong Andi I am not angry and I am trying to understand what’s going on here. So I have concluded that maybe you still need some time on your own to think over everything and to accept that you have to move on or to take him back if that’s what it leads to but I want you to know that I care, that I love you and I will sit here on my corner and wait for you to give me a go ahead. One thing for sure, I am not the one for games, I don’t wanna play, I have done a lot of that in the past and right now I am looking for a wife so I wont pressurise you or force you into anything. Take your time to think and tell me what’s the income but I am hoping that the income is US. Have a good night Andani and I am sorry if I broke some boundaries”

I might have read the message 5 times trying to understand what he wrote. So even after that childish stunt I just pulled he still loves me. The guy kept on surprising me and with each passing second he was becoming even better than a guy should be. I knew I had to reply, I had to say something but what was I to say? I took the phone and started typing

“I am the one who should be sorry, I was telling the truth when I said Ria and I are over, I honestly won’t go back to him, ever. I want you Eugene I really do. But there are so many things about you that scares me to death. You are too perfect, too chilled and always keep your cool, I don’t know if that’s really you or if you are just putting up a front to charm me so that I can be yours and then you can finally show me your true self”

Well the whole thing of communicating via sms seemed much better, I don’t think I was gonna be able to tell him that in person, there was another beep on my phone

“I think that’s what your ex husband did and now I have to pay the price. Do you want me to rebel around so that you can say I am real? This is me Andani, there is no hidden me somewhere and if you don’t mind….i can prove it to you tomorrow, I can show you that what you’ve seen so far is really what you are going to get, nothing more or less”

After reading this message I breathed, what did he mean he would show me

”what do you mean by showing me?” I replied

“I can take you to my world and you can meet my people and I think that may help you understand me better. Well lets make it a date….i am not asking anymore, I will come pick you up tomorrow morning at 9, wear something comfortable….i love you Andani and I don’t want you to give up on us without even trying” I read the message and shook my head

“We’ve only known each other for two weeks and you are already declaring your love for me like its been months”

This time around he didn’t reply, he called me back, I picked up the call

Me:”hello”

Eugene:”my car is still at the parking lot and I think its best if I come up so that we can talk about this” I went dead silent, I thought he was gone

Eugene:”Andani?”

Me:”you mean you are still here?”

Eugene:”yeah I am”

Me:”uhm ok, come up” I breathed and dropped the call. I walked to the door and unlocked and then walked to the couch. I heard the door open and he walked in. s*** I shouldn’t have let him come in again because now I was struggling to look at him, he came and sat next to me.

Eugene:”hi” he said with a smile

Me:”hey” I said with a low voice

Eugene:”so you don’t trust me” I could sense his eyes gazing at me and I was looking at the TV which was playing with a very low volume

Me:”should I trust you?” I asked

Eugene:”yeah I would like you to try”

Me:”ok, let me try and we can start by you not proving anything to me….lets cancel tomorrow, I wanna learn to trust your word”

Eugene:”that’s a good start” I slowly looked at him

Me:”I am sorry about….earlier….eish Eugene I don’t know what came over me….uhm….i….” I put my hands on my face as I fail to explain what made me act like that, I looked at him and giggled, he giggled too

Eugene:”I am loving this though, I feel like I am back in high school” he said with a laugh, I punched him as we giggle together.

I realised as we were making a joke out of this issue that I had found myself a perfect man. So we sat there and started talking, he started telling me about his first girlfriend from high school. Damn it was a beautiful story, I found myself seriously cracking up, and hearing him talk about himself as an inexperienced boy was just funny. But I realised something as we were now laughing at him and not me that he was trying to make me feel better. He was trying to make me feel less of a loser because he realised that’s how I was feeling. I looked at him as he was talking and I knew he cared about me, and at that moment I made decision to give him a chance. We talked and laughed until around past midnight. And then I went to bed and he slept on my couch.

Life as we know it

Insert 34

The following morning I woke up to a smell of bacon…I think eggs too….oww crap was he in my kitchen cooking? I giggled alone and wanted to do a drop dance but forgot how it’s done lol. I got up and went to the bathroom to wash my mouth, dude…I had a hot guy in my kitchen probably preparing me some breakfast the last think I needed was to have a smelly mouth. I looked at the mirror and loved the smile that smiled back at me. I washed my mouth and my face and then walked to my closet to take out a gown which I wore as I was walking out of my room. I saw him busy in the kitchen as I was walking to him. Eugene was hot and I was not sure if I was ever going to get used to having a man like him in my life.

Me:”morning” I said as I approached him

Eugene:”morning to you too, I hope you don’t mind me doing this?”

Me:”not at all” I said peeking to look at what he was cooking. He was done with the scrambled eggs, the bacons were done and he was busy with the mushrooms on the stove and he was also busy peeling a tomato

Me:”uhm where can I help?”

Eugene:”I am almost done so you can sit over there and let me finish and I am hoping that you are not allergic to any of these seeing that you have them on your freezer” I smiled

Me:”I don’t think I am allergic to anything” he pointed to the living room signalling for me to leave, I shook my head looking at him

Me:”I wanna watch” I sulked, he rolled his eyes and shook his head. He finished preparing the food and dished everything on one plate

Eugene:”coffee, tea or juice?”

Me:”juice please” he poured juice for me on a glass. He put the plate and a glass on a tray and walked to the living room and I walked after him

Me:”you prepared one glass though, what would you like to drink?” he put the food on the table

Eugene:”nahh I am not eating, I have to run…I got to freshen up first”

Me:”you can do that here” he smiled

Eugene:’please Andi, just enjoy my breakfast ok? We will communicate”

Me:”thank you so much” he came to me and gave me a quick kiss

Eugene:”see you around” and with that he walked out, I looked at the plate which was full as in full and couldn’t help but laugh alone.

The following day I woke up really late. I realised that I missed my son and I also couldn’t call Rialivhuwa to ask what time he was bringing him back. As much as I wanted my son back home I also dreaded to see Ria. When I woke up there was an sms from Ria informing me that he was bringing Omphulusa back at around 2 in the afternoon, finally I felt excited and I felt that I had something great to look forward to, there was also an sms from Eugene, he was telling me to have a great Sunday. I sent him another sms back thanking him and wishing him a good one too.

Rialivhuwa arrived at around two. I was both excited and also pissed at the same time. I was pissed that I had to see Ria’s face…that alone was enough to ruin my day. I went to the parking where his car was. I saw a big smile on my son’s face when he saw me and I finally felt peace. I giggled as I got to them and took my son who was already extending his hands towards me

Me:”owww big boy” I said hugging him

Omphu:”mommy” he said and giggled hiding his face on my chest, shame he was shy…I shook my head in joy, I looked at Ria and my facial expression suddenly changed

Me:”thanks for bringing him back” I said with a straight face

Ria:”it’s my pleasure, it was nice having him for a weekend, I hope you enjoyed the time off from his noisy self" he said smiling

Me:”that I did but I missed him so much, uhm where is the bag?” I just wanted him to get out of there already

Ria:”here” he said that and went inside the car and came back with our son’s bag and a gift bag

Me:”and that?” I asked as he was giving the stuff to me

Ria:”my way of apologising to the way I acted, I should have handled the situation better but I guess I can’t undo it now can i? So I thought I should get you this to try and apologise”

Me:”I am sorry but I can’t accept anything from you” i said taking only my sons bag

Ria:”I know you don’t want to and I understand that but I am genuinely sorry Andani and please apologise for me to that guy as well, we have to try and work things out for our son and we can’t raise him well if we don’t get along so please just accept the gift” so he was matured after all….all this came as a shock, I never expected him to apologise for this, I guess people tend to grow up when you are not with them. I took the gift bag

Me:”what’s in here?” I asked feeling anxious to know, I know that I was not even supposed to accept the gift in the first place but taking it was not gonna hurt and it’s not like it meant anything more, it was just his way for apologising after the stunt he pulled

Ria:”your favourite series, all 5 seasons, it’s a pity I couldn’t get six because it’s not yet available on DVD but I know how much you want to repeat them so you can do it 1000 times sitting at home” i felt like jumping and giving him a hug

Me:”Game of thrones?” I said with a huge grin on my face, he nodded with a smile on his face

Ria:”yes” the excitement in me was beyond recognizable, I was excited because he got me Game of Thrones, all 5 seasons at that. He knew how much I loved that series and he knew I wouldn’t be able to say no.

Me:”thank you” I said walking to him and extended one hand that had the bags and hugged him. There… I felt awkward, being in his arms was just awkward and it felt good too. I knew I had to let go and walk to my flat as fast as possible, he was trying to intimidate me and I had to stop him, I broke the hug and our eyes met

Ria:’Andani” he whispered

Me:”no Ria don’t say anything….thanks for the gift and maybe you’ll be forgiven, don’t make a habit of what you did the other night….i have moved on with my life and it should be acceptable to you” I said that and walked away from him as fast as I could

Omphu:”bye bye dada” he said as I bounce him up and down because I was in such a hurry

Ria:”bye bye big boy” he shouted

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I couldn’t believe what just happened, I couldn’t believe that I actually felt something out there. I put my baby on the floor of the living room and walked back to the kitchen to drink some water. I stood in the kitchen with a glass of water on my hand and re-visit that moment. Noo, I knew that I was never gonna go back to him, he had his chance and it was now over. Eugene was too good and I couldn’t bring myself to do anything to hurt him, especially not with Rialivhuwa. I took out my phone and called my friend, I hadn’t talk to her the whole weekend and I couldn’t believe it. I felt a bit guilty that when things were not going well on my side she was always there for me and now that they were looking up I was even forgetting to give her a call. I wonder what she has been up to the whole weekend, I mean she didn’t call either, meaning that she was busy.

I called and she picked up

Vhusani:”my besty” she was happy

Me:”hey love….we didn’t talk the whole weekend did we?”

Vhusani:”mhmm no we didn’t”

Me:”that’s not healthy, besties not communicating the whole weekend? Anyway how have you been?”

Vhusani:”well…” I could hear the excitement in her voice

Vme:”well what?”

Vhusani:”he proposed”

Me:”what?” I couldn’t believe it, I literally jumped up and down and then finally found the courage to talk

Me:”you are not joking right?” I said catching a breathe

Vhusani:”no I am not” she was laughing

Me:”vhusani where the hell are you now?”

Vhusani:”home”

Me:”stay put love, I am coming over….we need to celebrate this” I said that and hung up.

I looked at my son who was standing in front of the TV playing and I just laughed all alone. Vhusani was getting married and the excitement within me couldn’t be described. I jumped and screamed and my son looked at me surprised. I ran to him, scoop him up and took the car keys and left the house. I called Vhusani while on my way to ask if she had cooked lunch and she said nope. So I drove by a restaurant to get some food. After that I drove to her place. I took my son and ran to the flat. I felt like I was not walking fast enough, I got to the door and knocked and then quickly opened…lucky me it was not locked.

Me:”hellows” I screamed as soon as I entered

Omphu:”heyoooo” he screamed too and I burst out laughing. Vhusani walked in from the bedroom to the kitchen where I was now putting the bag with our takeaways

Me:”wow the bride” I said giving her a big hug, after that we broke the hug and she took Omphu

Me:”wow…its finally happening Vhusi”

Vhusani:”I hadn’t said yes” she said rolling her eyes, I gave her a confused look

Me:”what? Why?” really she lost me, I thought she already said yes and I was ready to see the ring on her finger

Vhusani:”Andani you were married, look at how it ended. I don’t even know this guy….i mean it’s only been few weeks and he wanna marry me? I told him I wanna think about it” I looked at her and took her hand and then walked to the couch

Me:”so you are scared to end up like me?”

Vhusani:”marriage can be such a scary thing”

Me:”look at me when I tell you this Vhusi. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known someone and not all man are like my ex husband ok? I mean we dated for 6 years and our marriage couldn’t even last for 5 so even if you’ve only known him for two months or less….if he is the one then he is the one and if he isn’t then he can pretend to be for years without you knowing about it so its all a game that we stand to either lose or win. So do this thing now and wait to see what he has in store for you….the time you’ve known each other matter less, if he is a great guy then he’ll still be great even after marriage”

Vhusani:”I wish it was that simple”

Me:”don’t you like him?”

Vhusani:”I do, I like him a lot…he is a great guy Andi…everything is perfect so far”

Me:”then say yes and don’t get married immediately…wait 6 months or so and then get married, an engagement doesn’t have an expiry date so take your time but wear that ring love…where is it anyway?” I said looking around….she smiled and got up and I followed her. We walked to her bedroom where she took out a black little box from her bedside drawer and she handed it to me

Me:”woooow…..Vhusani this is some rock” it was a beautiful Diamond ring…not those big gold ones that teachers and nurses wear…nahh it was a small beautiful ring

Vhusani:”I know right?”

Me:”he is a keeper, you gotta wear this rock….uhm so when am I meeting him?” I said jokingly

Vhusani:”soon, don’t worry about that”

Me:”can I at least see a pic?” she put my son on the floor and took out her phone and browsed through and then gave it to me.

Me:”wow, where did you find him?” the guy was cute. A bit short, light skinned and not bony or thin…he was a bit chubby, he had a nice hair cut, red lips and all…he was one of the cute guys shame

Me:”so you were thinking of saying no to this? Girl stop playing” we laughed walking back to the living room

Me:”uhm where is Omphu?” we looked around and he was no where to be found. We ran to the living room and we found him in front of the TV playing with a remote on his hand

Me:”this boy though” I was walking to him

Vhusani:”no let him play Andi” she walked to the kitchen and came back with the food I brought

Vhusani:”so how are things on your side?”

Me:”ahhh well, fine I guess…uhm Omphu lovy” he looked at me and smiled, I showed him some chips, he looked at me and then continued playing

Me:”I guess your daddy fed you huh?”

Vhusani:”he was with Ria?”

Me:”yeah he took him for a weekend” I said not looking at her

Vhusani:”Andani whats happening? Your eyes are telling me something”

Me:”nahh I don’t think so…something must be wrong with your eyes”

Vhusani:”tell me” she was looking straight at me, well it was no use hiding it from her…I needed to hear her thoughts anyway

Me:”well he bought me a gift to apologise for the scene he caused on Friday night?”

Vhusani:”wow I am missing out a lot…what happened on Friday night?”

Me:”well I went out to a restaurant with Eugene and I found Ria there with our son so he lost it and started shouting, causing a scene and all that so this afternoon when he brought Omphu back he brought me a gift” she went silent and just raised her eyebrows

Me:”he said it was just his way of apologising. My favourite series…that’s what he bought” she frowned

Vhusani:”Game of Thrones? He got you season 6?” I rolled my eyes

Me:”of course not dummy, that’s not in stores yet…he bought me a collection of season 1 to 5”

Vhusani:”wow, I know how much you love that series” I smiled

Me:”he knows that too”

Vhusani:”so whats up with that smile?”

Me:”what smile?” I kept a straight face

Vhusani:”you are not falling for it are you?” she had her serious face on and I knew she could see right through me

Me:”no of course I am not”

Vhusani:”promise me that no matter what happens you are never gonna take him back”

Me:”I will never do that, I promise” my voice was low

Vhusani:”what?”

Me:”we hugged and I felt something, I think he felt it too. For a second there I felt like I had my old Ria back….dont give me that look Vhusani I wont go back….i am just saying how the hug was”

Vhusani:”whats really worrying me is the fact that you are still thinking about that hug meaning that it meant something to you….Andani do I have to remind you what he is capable of? You spent months in bed Andani, I took care of your son like he was my own because you couldn’t….you were too heartbroken to do a dime thing, you left your job and you threw away everything that mattered because he broke you and now he just bought you some DVDs and you are smiling like a damn teenager? No man Andani don’t do this to yourself” she was upset, I blinked looking at her and didn’t say anything