Life as we know it 21-25

Life as we know it

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I got to my room and throw myself on the bed and sobbed. It was really over…my marriage was over….2 years was all it took for our marriage to be over.

Mom:”don’t worry Andi, we will talk to him again ok? We will fix it” she was standing somewhere in my room

Me:”mom just go away”

Mom:”Andani baby please” I sat on the bed and looked at her

Me:”stop babying me ok? I am not a baby anymore I am a divorced-to-be mom” I said that crying

Mom:”I am sorry” she was heartbroken

Me:”I know and I am sorry for calling you down here”

I wish I didn’t because the whole thing just turned out to be humiliating, she looked at me one more time and walked out. After what happened I couldn’t leave my room, at least I knew my baby was taken care of. Round at about 7 Ria’s mom came to my room and she apologised for her son’s behaviour and said that she’ll still try to talk some sense into him. well as much as I appreciated her trying to ensure that our marriage get back on track I had no hope…having him walking out like that told me that he was really done, it told me that it was no longer just a phase but it was something that he really wanted.

Round at about 9 I was hungry because I hardly ate during our family lunch. So I walked out of my room and found my mom and dad sitting in the living room…weren’t they supposed to be sleeping already? Maybe not sleeping but in their bedroom?

Me:”hi” I said as I walk past them to the kitchen. I dished up some food for myself and poured juice on a glass and then walked back to the living room. I sat on my own couch alone, I quietly started eating looking at the TV which was on

Mom:”how are you feeling now?” she said faking that smile of hers, I knew how much this must’ve been affecting her

Me:”fine I guess”

Dad:”I made few calls to my lawyers….we will fight him Andi, he cant break your heart like this and get away with it” I looked at them and felt weak

Me:”I don’t want you to” they all looked at me like I had grown an extra head

Mom:”what do you mean Andani? This is a divorce, people fight dirty when they separate”

Me:”I know they do but that’s not what I want…leaving him penniless is not gonna bring him back to me…it not gonna take me back to what and who I was before I met him…its not gonna take back all the hurt and pain he put me through, its definitely not gonna ensure that my son grow up living with both parents, it surely not gonna make me as happy as I once was with him….it means nothing ok? If there is anything that I would like for you to do is to make him love me again…that’s what I need but obviously that’s not possible”

Dad:”Andani I understand your frustrations love but you of all people know that we made him….that job he has now, it was all me…I put in a good word for him and that’s how he got it…so I can also snap my fingers and it can all be taken away”

Me:”I know that dad but that’s not what I want. I am not going to be the pathetic revengeful ex wife. He fell out of love and I just want this divorce to be over because fighting him is gonna take longer”

Mom:”are you fine though?”

Me:”I am not fine but….he doesn’t want me”

I stopped eating and just sat there. My parents were just looking at me with their sad faces. After a while I said goodnight and walked to my bedroom….well it used to be our bedroom. I looked around and realised how big it was. I never used to notice that it was such a big room. It finally sunk in, he was going to leave me alone in that big house. Tears were flowing by now…I walked to the closet and went to his side and looking at his clothes…I felt the pain that can only be compared to it self because nothing else could be compared to it. It was over, this was soon going to be my bedroom and my bedroom alone. I sent him an sms

“Let’s meet tomorrow at one, at our favourite restaurant and I will bring my lawyer and you can bring yours”

After sending that sms I tried to sleep but I couldn’t. Vhusani called and I didn’t picked up, I didn’t wanna talk to anyone so I just sent her an sms so that she don’t drive all the way here thinking that maybe I was on some suicide mission.

“don’t worry Vhusani I am just not on the mood to talk, will talk tomorrow after my meeting with him, my lawyer and his lawyer…its finally happening” after that sms I tried to fall asleep which appeared to be a rocket science, I couldn’t sleep.

The following morning when I woke up I found my parents and his mom already having breakfast

Me:”morning” I wondered who prepared? My mom or mom in law, well I didn’t care

“Morning” they all said

Me:”uhm I am sorry for calling you down here for nothing, I really hoped that the marriage was worth the saving” I gave them a faint smile

Mom in law:”don’t sweat it Andi, I really hope that he comes around ok? I tried calling him but he is not picking up”

Me:”don’t worry about it, at least I know I tried…so I booked you all a flight ticket for 12 o’clock this afternoon, I hope you don’t mind. I will deal with all this alone… at least that’s what I want, I wanna deal with this on my own now”

Dad:”Andani are you sure?”

Mom:”I mean we don’t mind staying for a week or so” I smiled

Me:”I am sure, we have a meeting today with our lawyers”

Dad:”so who is representing you? I mean I can talk t-“

Me:”dad don’t, I am fine….i will handle it” he breathed and looked at me

Me:”I promise I will” well that was a big fat lie.

That afternoon I drove them to the airport and then after that I got ready for that meeting. I had already talked to Katlego my lawyer…she was good on such things and as much as she was ready for a fight and was willing to throw great punches I told her that I didn’t want a fight….i only wanted a divorce because that’s what my husband needed. What I knew about fighting over your possessions during a divorce is that it can be very dirty and people end up getting hurt during the process and at the rate that things were going I was not ready for Ria to hurt me even more, I just wanted to walk out.

I met with Katleho around past 12 and we briefed each other a bit and we had the same agreement we had over the phone. After that we met in a restaurant where Ria was waiting with his lawyer. We greeted each other and we all ordered drinks and then started with the meeting

Me:”uhm Katlego can I please do this?”

Katlego:”go ahead love” I looked at her and smiled

Me:”Ria I know that a divorce can be so dirty and people might end up hating each other or worse killing each other but I don’t want that for us”

Ria:”me too”

Me:”so I am not gonna fight you on anything. I will give you the houses…the one here and the one in Venda, you can keep them both, you can have our savings….you can get one car and I get one…we will have joint custody of the baby…I will stay with him obviously and you get to see him on any weekend or school holiday of your choosing…we will attend his birthdays together…none of us can bail out on that one…..i guess that’s about it” I looked at them both and Ria and his lawyer were shocked

Ria:”Andani you want me to keep both houses?”

Me:”too much memories there, I don’t think I still wanna call that place my home”

Ria:”and the savings? You do realise how much we have in there right?”

Me:”I know how much we have Ria and you can have it….i am sure I wont starve” he looked at me in disbelief, he sure as hell didn’t expect me to throw all this on him

Ria:”the baby thing is fine…but as for the savings…..i think I should only take quarter of the money and you can take the rest, I mean you are the one who will be staying with the baby…just in case of emergency, the money should be helpful” I raised an eyebrow

Me:”ow?”

Ria:”it’s the least I can do….after everything that’s happened I didn’t expect our divorce negotiations to be like this”

Me:”so that’s the agreement then?”

Ria:”that’s it”

Me:”ok I guess Katlego and your lawyer can put all this in writing and then we can sign the papers” they both nodded

Me:”ok then….i think we are done here Katlego” just like that…we negotiated how our marriage was coming to an end.

After two weeks the papers were ready and after signing them I went crazy. It was finally sinking in….Rialivhuwa and I were divorced, I was no longer staying in the house. I was renting some fancy flat in town and Vhusani was staying with my son because she knew how stressed out I was so she had my nanny coming into her house to take care of my son. I even left my job because I couldn’t look at him everyday knowing that he belonged to someone else

And that’s when this happened……

Vhusani: “Andani wake up”

I heard Vhusani’s voice from far. I was deep in my sleep and had no plans to get out of bed. I knew it was Monday morning and I was in no mood to do anything, well that’s how I had been feeling for weeks…I know some people were running around trying to get to work but that part of my life was over.

Vhusani: “Andani you can’t keep doing this” she removed my blankets from me and I looked at her once and then closed my eyes again. I needed my sleep, I felt like screaming

Vhusani: “Its Monday morning for heaven’s sake, get the hell up” she shouted, the hate I was feeling towards Vhusani neh?

Me: “Nooooo go away” I said as I bury my head in my pillow. She came and pull the pillow and I sat up on the bed and looked at her

Me: “the hell is wrong with you?” I said with my sleepy voice, she didn’t answer me, instead she walked to the windows and opened the curtains and damn….it was hot outside, the sun was already out

Me” “what time is it?” I was yawning

Vhusani: “it’s my lunch time Andy” ok I felt confused

Me: “so you went to lunch early today?”

Vhusani: “No I didn’t, its past one in the afternoon”

What? Noooo. I slowly got up from my bed and checked myself in the mirror. I looked horrible, like a train smash. The weave I had was upside down, I think I hadn’t combed it for about a week or so, I couldn’t remember the last time I brushed my teeth, I could shower every now and again but it wasn’t a real shower, it was just a matter of me going to stand in the shower for few seconds and then get out.

Vhusani: “You need to change Andani you can’t keep doing this to yourself, it’s not worth it”

Me: “I am just tired” I replied

Vhusani: “you’ve been tired for months now” I looked around the room and couldn’t believe that it’s been months, so I had been mopping around for months already? But what was I to do? I was divorced, well he divorced me, the man I loved with all my heart chose to break my heart. I was only 27 and already a single mom and a divorcee.

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Me:”how is my baby?”

Vhusani:”as if you care, you’ve been burying yourself in this hell hole for months Andi, you need to end it...now” I rolled my eyes and gave her my lazy eyes

Me:”how? Tell me how?” I was sitting on my bed

Vhusani:”you need to clean up this flat of yours today and after work I am bringing your son here…it’s about time you become a mother to that boy again Andi…time for crying is over now...I’ve been playing full time mom for months and you only get to spend few hours with him” I looked at her and feel hopeless

Me:”I will try to clean”

Vhusani:”don’t try just do it ok? Or else I will take the baby to Ria and you will lose him forever”

Me:”what? You wouldn’t”

Vhusani:”ow woman watch me…and owww it’s about time you go house hunting…that boy of yours need a house and a garden for him to play….this two bedroom flat and no garden is not gonna cut it” I looked at her and blinked

Me:”ok friend, I will go house hunting tomorrow or I can check on the net….i have enough cash to buy myself a descent house”

Vhusani:”exactly…pick yourself up and move on…I am sure Ria is about to get married already” I looked at her and didn’t even smile

Vhusani:”I am being truthful here so wena there is a whole lot of things you need to start doing…like getting a new wardrobe and make up kit and also…that weave? You need to get rid of that weave” I started smiling

Me:”isn’t your lunch over? I don’t like this person you are today”

Vhusani:”I am being a friend I should have been a long time ago…I’ve been watching you mop around and it’s really getting old now”

Me:”ok go back to work love….I need to start cleaning remember?” I said that and took off my PJ’s

Vhusani:”I will see you tonight then?”

Me:”tonight” she walked out and then I walked to the shower and took one long shower. After that I came back and looked through my clothes…I took out some shorts and a tank top…about time I show some skin. After getting dressed I struggled to comb the weave so I wore a beanie instead. I wore my sneakers and took my car keys. I felt funny…the only time I used to go out was when I was going to buy myself some food at PnP because that was the closest store to my flat.

I got to town and bought a hell lot of cleaning products. I came back and then started with my spring cleaning. I might have spent three hours cleaning and by the time I was done the house was totally spotless. I had lot of laundry to do so I didn’t even get into that. I collected all my dirty laundry and went to drop them off at the laundry store….I was willing to pay which ever amount they wanted me to…as long as I didn’t have to deal with it.

After that I cooked. I was feeling good. For the first time in many months I felt alive. That evening Vhusani came to my flat with my son. I was happy to see him. I felt bad for abandoning him after the divorce. I was just a wreck and was in no position to take care of the baby…I was really glad that my friend came through for me.

Vhusani:” wow am i in the same flat? I think i am lost” she was laughing as she got inside

Me:” ahg Vhusani please”

Vhusani:” what? I am just saying...anyway it looks great and you look great too...the only problem is-“

Me:” the weave...i know i will deal with it tomorrow” she laughed

Vhusani:’ wow you even cooked?”  i took my son and walked to the kitchen where Vhusani was already tasting my food

Vhusani:” wow i had already forgotten how much of a cook you are” i smiled...i kissed my son and he looked at me and giggled

Me:” you hungry?”i said looking at him...he nodded

Me:” wow Vhusani you didn’t feed my son?”  i said jokingly

Vhusani:” really? Omphu i didn’t give you food?”  She was trying to take him and he refused laughing

Vhusani:” ow wow i see...now that we are here i am your enemy huh? Uhm friend can we eat already? The food is great”

Me:” yeah of course”

Vhusani left my place late at night and i was left alone with my son. I was feeling better....great even. Maybe it was possible...life was possible without him after all.

The following morning i woke up and started cleaning up. I took a shower while my son was still sleeping. His nanny came in at around 7 in the morning. I don’t know but i was considering taking him to crèche...i mean he was two years already...the first thing that came to my mind was that i’d have to discuss it with Ria but we were no together anymore plus i didn’t think that taking the child to school would be such a big deal so i didn’t have to tell him. Or maybe i do? I mean that would give me a chance to hear his voice...i thought about it and decided against the idea. I mean what if i do that and he acts like he is not interested or he shut me out so to prevent such disappointments...i was not going to call.

I kissed my boy and said goodbye to my nanny and left the house. I drove to town and my first stop was at the salon. I had to get my hair done. I got my weave removed and decided to do bob braids...i didn’t want anything complicated. I did my nails as well...well i was single and being a hot mom was now on top of my list. After spending about three hours at the salon i left and made few stops at various state agents and there were about three houses i was interested in. I made appointments to go view them on a weekend. I wanted to take Vhusani with because her opinion mattered. I was seriously not used to being on my own and making all the big decisions by myself, Ria was not here to help me out but Vhusani was definitely my go-to.

I was walking out of the state agent’s office while searching for my phone in my bag when i bumped into someone and my bag fell.

Me:” ow s*** sorry” i whispered as i try to gather the items from my bag that were now scattered on the floor.

Guy:” no i am sorry, i am in a hurry so i was not looking” he helped me collect the stuff and our eyes met as he was giving them to me. Ow crap...he was one hot thing....i found myself gazing at him without somuch of a blink or a movement for that matter

Guy:” uhm, you gonna take these?” he smiled...owww lord i melted

Me:”ow uhm…yeah...thank you” i took the hair comb and my little mirror from him and put them in my bag

Guy:” I am Eugene by the way” he was extending his hand to shake mine

Me:” Andani” i was smiling from ear to ear. This is what was awkward...we looked at each other for a while with our hands still shaking

Me:” uhm...i think i need to run” 

Eugene:” oww yah” he let go of my hand and i quickly walked out of there. I got to my car and breathed. What the hell was that? I smiled alone and decided that i needed a whole new wardrobe....i had to look good...i had to be one hot mom....i laughed at the thought.

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After that episode I drove to the mall where I was to buy myself new clothes. I realised when I was fitting that I had lost weight. I was a size 34 but I was down to 32. I guess it wasn’t that bad. I bought lot of clothes…from shorts, to dresses, to skirts, to skinny’s, blazers and everything that I thought might look good on me. I also bought new PJ’s and underwear’s. I had the cash so why not spend it. After that massive shopping spree I drove back to my flat. I was happy to see my son and to spend some time with him.

The following morning I had no plan so I called Jake

Jake:”uhm am I dreaming?” that’s the first thing he said when he picked up my call

Me:”no Jake you are not dreaming, it’s really me”

Jake:”wow….girl you sure can disappear” I laughed

Me:”I was still dealing with the divorce but I am fine now”

Jake:”so when am I seeing you?”

Me:”well if you don’t have plans, lunch it’s on me today” I was laughing

Jake:”ow great where?”

Me:”don’t sweat it, I will bring it” he chuckled

Jake:”really? Please can it be lunch already” I laughed shame

Me:”ok Jake see you at one”

Jake:”ok then” after that call I sat there and just smiled. If only Jake was not married, he was the guy I’d try to move on with, I mean I knew him and I felt comfortable with him. Ow yeah Jake was very much married, he got married last year to a very beautiful young lady, I envy that girl shame….i mean Jake was a true gentleman and had I left my husband sooner he would’ve been mine.

I left my flat at around 12. My son was crying for me but I couldn’t take him with shame so the nanny tried to calm him down. I went to the restaurant and bought some lunch for me and him, I then drove to work. I got to the parking lot and smiled alone. To think that I used to work here, i saw Ria’s car and knew that he was in. suddenly I felt nervous, I don’t know why I even thought coming here was a good idea. I could have just gone out to a restaurant with him. I told myself that I needed to be brave so I walked out of that car and walked inside the building. Ow and as for what I was wearing. I was single so wearing shorts was not forbidden….that’s what I wore with a long greyish shirt and some sneakers….my hair and make up was also on point. I had lost a bit of weight as well so wearing shorts was no hassle…I didn’t have to worry about the short being too tight or anything…it was actually a bit lose.

I walked straight to Jake’s office and everyone was greeting me as I walk past, they all looked happy to see me. I saw my office and felt like crying, that was once my office. I walked past to Jake’s…I knocked

Jake:”come in” I walked in with the takeaways

Jake:”hey, you are five minutes early” he was laughing

Me:”I know that” he walked to me and gave me one long hug

Jake:”wow, you look happy” we broke the hug and he looked at me

Me:”because I am happy” he showed me the chair and I sat down…he took the takeaways and sat on the table

Me:”really?” I was smiling

Jake:”my chair is gonna be too far from you, so tell me…how is it like?” we started eating

Me:”well it feels weird”

Jake:”I am just happy that you are free now…although it’s already too late for us to have a thing…at least you are free”

Me:”speaking about that…how is marriage?” he looked at me and sighed

Jake:”its fine….i mean we argue like normal people but it’s nothing toxic”

Me:”and thebaby? Are you guys pregnant yet?” he laughed

Jake:”what? Dude how can you ask something like that? Anyway not yet, we are working on it ok? Wifey is still busy climbing the career ladder so we will have babies maybe in two years time”

Me:”ow that’s great, at least you are having more time to yourselves”

Jake:”yeah you can say that again….back to you….how many dates have you had so far?” I rolled my eyes and laughed

Me:”uhmmm none” I said while laughing

Jake:”what? Andani what is wrong with you?”

Me:”please Jake I am not in a rush ok? It will happen soon”

Jake:”please tell me you are over him?”

Me:”I am, don’t sweat it” was i?

So I ate lunch with Jake while we chatted away. After an hour or so while I was in his office, I had to leave because his lunch time was over.

Jake:”thanks for coming over, for few minutes there I felt like you were back at work” he said as he was walking me out of the building

Me:”it was my pleasure”

Jake:”I am just happy to see you like this and if ever you want someone to talk to, I am here ok?”

Me:”thanks Jake but you are married and I honestly wouldn’t want to be that woman…I know how it feels like, the last thing I need is for your wife to feel neglected because you are being a good friend of mine” he was about to reply when we bump into Rialivhuwa. I hadn’t seen him since the divorce….he looked well, like he had always been, I looked at him and wanted to hug him or kiss him or worse…make love to him

Ria:”uhm hey”

Me:”hi” it felt weird, I mean he used to be my husband and we used to stay in the same house and now we were nothing to each other

Ria:”Hi Jake”

Jake:”hi” ok the awkward part was that he stood there looking at us smiling, i was expecting him to pass but he didn’t

Jake:”I guess I will see you around Andi, thanks for coming over….i enjoyed the food”

Me:”it’s been my pleasure” he walked away and left me with this ex-husband of mine

Ria:”please tell me you are not sleeping with him” he said through gritted teeth

Me:” excuse me?”

Ria:”is this you trying to get to me or what?” I looked at him and wanted to laugh

Me:”are you crazy? We are divorced Ria and nothing I do is to spite you ok? This is me trying to live my life so just live yours and leave me alone” I tried to walk away and he grabbed my hand

Me:”I will get you arrested for this” he quickly let go

Ria:”I am sorry”

Me:”like hell you are” I walked away and left him standing there looking at me

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I got to my car and drove as quickly as I could. I drove to the complex where I was staying…I parked the car at the drive way and took one deep breath. I was nervous…shaking and tears started coming out. I missed him so terribly….i wanted to hug him, to kiss him, to hold his hand, to laugh with him, to make love to him, to do everything we used to do together. Four months down the line I hadn’t moved on and I was still thinking about him. I don’t know why I didn’t prepare my mind for something like that because I knew that seeing him was the possibility. At least I didn’t lose it in front of him. After this episode I was fully convinced that I was still in love with him. I cried so much sitting in the car….the main reason why I was crying was because I was feeling disappointed with myself, I hated myself for still feeling the way I did…I didn’t understand why I’d still feel this strongly about him after everything that’s happened. I stayed in the car for a while and then I cleaned myself up and walked to the flat.

My boy was running around the house when I walked in. he saw me and quickly ran to me giggling. I scooped him up with a smile on my face. I hugged him so tight and wanted to cry all over again

Me:”uhm sis Bongi thanks for looking after my baby but I think that will be it for today...thanks” that was me talking to Bongi my helper….the woman was about 15 years older than me and she was good with kids shame

Bongi:”Andi are you sure?” I smiled at her

Me:”yeah I am, you should have some time out”

Bongi:”thank you somuch, let me prepare to leave” she smiled all the way to my son’s bedroom to take her bag. After a while she left and it was just me and little Omphu. I put him on the floor with his toys and he started walking around messing up the flat. I sat on the couch and just looked at him. I wondered how things would have been like if he never changed, if he never started cheating…we would have been happy together with our little boy.

I took my phone and called Vhusani

Vhusi:”hey friend” she sounded happy and hated why I called because I was going to give her bad news

Me:”you sound happy”

Vhusani:”well I went to lunch today with…you know….and he told me that he loved me” I involuntarily screamed

Me:”you lie?” my voice was very loud and my son looked at me in shock…I smiled at him

Vhusani:”well I am not sweety pie….he told me how happy I make him and that I mean everything to him…so….”

Me:”sooooo?” I was excited for her

Vhusani:”don’t ask me to be on back up or baby sitting for you tonight because he is cooking for me…and maybe we might even make love” she was giggling…I laughed out loud, I was now up on my feet

Me:”owww boy…did you buy new lingerie?”

Vhusani:”mhmmm nahh I mean I do have so I don’t wanna be too prepared… what if

the brother hit me with the ‘lets take it slow’ game” I couldn’t help but keep on laughing

Me:”I can feel it love, tonight is your night…this guy might be your hubby”

Vhusani:”you have no idea how great that makes me feel….uhm Andi I would love to chat more but the potential husband is calling”

Me:”oww sure…talk later” I dropped the call and continued laughing alone. I was excited that at least Vhusani had someone that was making her happy and seemed serious and hopefully is different from my own husband. I rolled my eyes and sat on the couch.

There was something that was going on through my mind, something I was trying so hard to ignore. I think Rialivhuwa was still in love with me and that he was regretting the route we took. I mean why else would he be jealous? Why else would he get pissed at the fact that I was with Jake? He must feel something else for me…the love was still there but the big question was do I still want him back? ‘No no no no no’…. I actually said that out loud. I didn’t want him back in my life, not after I had worked so hard to overcome the depression he left me in.

I sat on the couch and decided to focus on the positive aspects of my life. Vhusani finally met someone and hopefully he’d make her happy. As happy as I was for her, part of me knew that she was going to have less time for me. Well I had to adjust to that. I started playing with my son and we giggled, run around, fall, roll on the floor and it was just great. After a while I felt tired and I sat on the floor breathing….my son was standing close to me wanting me to play some more. I told him I couldn’t and he was not too happy about it. I took him and walked to the bathroom where I freshened up a bit and decided to go out for dinner with my son #MoreBondingTime. I asked myself where I wanted to eat and I had no idea. I realised that I hadn’t gone to Spur in like forever….Ria didn’t like that restaurant and because of that I abandoned it so since I was alone and not with him anymore….i could eat wherever I wanted. I drove to Spur and I got there and picked a table where I sat with my son who was very excited to be there. I placed an order and waited.

“Wow” a male voice said…I looked up and damn…

Eugene:”what a good coincidence” he was smiling….s*** the nigga was too damn hot for my liking

Me:”uhm wow” I smiled back, I couldn’t believe that I met him again

Eugene:”is this your son? Wow he is the cutest boy I have seen all day…you know….some kids are just not….cute” I rolled my eyes and laughed

Me:”should I take that as a compliment?”

Eugene:”maybe you should….do you mind?” he said that while his hands were ready to take Omphu

Me:”nope” I was shaking my head with a smile on my face. For some odd reason I trusted this guy to hold my son even though he was a total stranger. He took him and started talking to him with that baby language….lol it was funny, I couldn’t stop giggling

Euagene:”uhm…let me go get my order neh? Be back in 2” he walked away with my son and I looked at him as he walk through the tables all the way to the tills where he received his takeaway order and walked back to me

Eugene:”I take it that your boy don’t have problem with strangers”

Me:”he usually has…I don’t know what you did to him” he gave me a proud smile

Eugene:”I worked my Eugene magic” he kissed the baby and gave him back to me

Me:”I can agree with that”

Eugene:”I would love to sit here and have dinner with you even though I am not invited but I am a bit of a workaholic so I have to drive back to work….do you mind giving me your contacts?” I looked at him and popped my eyes out

Me:”uhm what?” I knew what he meant but damn I hadn’t been in the game for years so the whole thing was kinda unexpected and it felt weird

Eugene:”I would love to hang out a bit more with you….that’s if you don’t mind” I looked at him and got intimidated by his looks

Eugene:”so?”

Me:”uhm ok give me your phone” he took out his phone and I dialled my cellphone number and gave him back the phone

Eugene:”thanks, will be in touch” I just nodded. He kissed my son one last time

Eugene:”bye big boy….uhm See you around Andani” he said that and walked away. I got up from my seat and looked at him as he made his way to the parking and to the Rover at the parking lot. He was smoking hot. I smiled at myself and sat down. He was tall…handsomely tall….not light in complexion but also not too dark so he was kinda in between…he was well built, had a nice muscular body to die for….his face was cute, bold head, sexy eyes and sexy lips…

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So he called me the following morning and asked to meet. Eugene was cute so I’d be stupid to turn him down. I quickly said yes. I was not sure what to wear or what he’d be wearing or what the occasion would be. I asked Vhusani for her opinion but she told me to just be myself. Well at that moment I didn’t know what it meant to be myself….i mean I was with someone else for 8 years of my life so going out on a date with a new guy wasn’t going to be easy. I looked through my closet and finally decided to go simple. A knee-high dress with pumps was gonna cut it. I didn’t wanna look like a brat I once was. So I applied minimum make up and made sure that my hair looked fine. Damn I was so nervous. I wanted to cancel at some point but thinking about his sexy self is what drove me to go. After I was done preparing myself I drove to Atlantic View Boutique hotel where we were to have breakfast at a restaurant. It sounded fancy but I wasn’t intimidated at all because I had done many kinds of fancy. I got to the hotel and was impressed, I was coming to that particular hotel for the first time and it sure looked lavish. I walked into the restaurant where he was already waiting for me. I looked around the restaurant and I spotted him sitting at a far corner. I walked to him and I could feel the nervousness seriously kicking in. He saw me getting closer and got up from his chair and gave me a hug.

Eugene:”you look lovely” he whispered in my ear and I felt chills down my spine

Me:”thanks” I whispered back. We broke the hug and he pulled out a chair for me

Me:”thank you” I said looking at him, he looked at me too and I felt like there was more to his starring than he was letting out

Eugene:”I wish we could skip lunch and just book a room…..i can’t hold myself Andi” he said through his breath

Me:”what if I tell you that your wish is granted”

Eugene:”you lie” he was looking straight into my eyes

Me:”watch me” I walked out of the restaurant and he followed me. I lead the way to the reception area where I took out my bank card and booked a room

Eugene:”don’t tell me that you wanna pay” I smiled

Me:”you were gonna pay the lunch so let me take care of this, will you?” he raised an eyebrow

Eugene:”ok” he bit his lower lip and that alone turned me on. After booking the room I lead the way to our suite. I felt my heart racing as I was unlocking the door. I was now nervous but there was no going back anymore.

We got inside and I throw the keys on the table along with my purse. I walked to the bed and sat there looking at him. He took off his shirt walking over to me. I wanted to die, he had the body to die for. He was hot, he got to me and went down on his knees and started kissing me on the mouth. He didn’t kiss me for long before he moved to my face and then my ears….i was melting, I lost all my strength in just few seconds. I hadn’t been intimate with anyone in months…my marriage with Ria was over before the papers were signed so I hadn’t done something like this in a long while. I was moaning not so lightly because it was impossible to do so. I felt his tongue as it make rounds on my neck. His hands were now battling to take off my dress. I helped him out and I was now on my undies. His tongue….moved to my breast and damn it….i totally lost it, I lost all sense of control and just like that I came…I couldn’t believe it either but it was too long, I hadn’t been touched in months so it was only normal. He went down on me and I was in my fantasy world where the only thing I knew was pleasure. I felt his tongue doing rounds inside me and I couldn’t even make a sound but to glide on the bed as I try to get him to let go of me because I couldn’t take it anymore but he didn’t let me

Eugene:”are you ready for more Andi?” he said looking up at me and I couldn’t answer him. Suddenly I heard a baby crying

Me:”What’s that?” I was looking around

Eugene:’what?” the baby continued screaming and I couldn’t see him. The screaming became louder and louder and boooom!!! I woke up from a cold sweat…….I WAS DREAMING

I sat on the bed and looked around, I was in my very own flat and my son was crying his lungs out. I throw myself back on the bed and buried my face with a pillow. The dream I had? I couldn’t believe that I was dreaming….did I miss being with a man so much that I dreamt about it? I woke up and tried to calm my son. I checked the time and it was past 5 in the morning. Bongi was not going to be in for another two hours and already I felt tired of my child. He finally fell asleep again and I lay on my back and looked at the ceiling. I don’t know what will happen when I finally meet with Eugene, after the dream I had, i felt nasty and dirty…like my mind was already 10 steps ahead of the real situation. The whole thing felt real, the hotel, him...it all felt so real.

Sibongile came in on her usual time and my son was sleeping when she arrived. I started cleaning around the house, i was trying to forget the dream i just had. My phone rang while i was in my kitchen busy working. I checked the caller and i couldn’t recognise the number

Me:” hello”

Caller:” hey, it’s Eugene” wow i loved the sound of his voice

Me:” hi Eugene” i was feeling bad, like he knew about the dream i had

Caller:”uhm how are you doing?”

Me:” uh i am great, and what about you?”

Caller:” apart from the fact that i am over working myself then i am fine...how is that little boy of yours” i could sense that he was smiling

Me:” still sleeping, he is a lazy champ that one” he laughed

Eugene:”maybe he took after mommy” i laughed

Me:” no ways”

Eugene:” so...what are you doing this afternoon?” i popped my eyes out, was he trying to ask me out on a date?

Me:” i am quite busy this afternoon i am sorry” i hated myself for doing that but i was chickening out...it’s not easy to just start going out

Eugene:” uhm ok and tomorrow?” tomorrow was Saturday and i was checking out the houses so i was also unavailable

Me:” uhm eish Eugene things are just hectic...i have appointments to check out some houses tomorrow”

Eugene:” oww so you are trying to buy a house?”

Me:” yeah i am, i am really sorry”

Eugene:” don’t be....i will join you tomorrow”

Me:” what? Uhm Eugene i-“

Eugene:” i am not taking no for an answer Andani, you will give me details tonight....but i will help you choose that house” i smiled shaking my head

Me:”ok then”

Eugene:” thank you, enjoy your day Andani”

Me:” you too Eugene”