Life As We Know It 136-140

Life as we know it

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After spending the day with Vhusani Eugene came and pick me up at night and then we said goodbye to my friend and left. Vhusi and I cooked dinner together and I ate so when Eugene came to pick me up he ate supper first and then we drove back home. We got home and got out of the car.

Me:” babe” I said as he was reaching for the door…he turned around and looked at me

Eugene:” yes”

Me:” I don’t want us to lose this baby” I said holding my tummy…he looked at my tummy as well

Eugene:” we won’t” he turned around to open the door

Me:” Eugene you are not hearing me” he stopped and looked at me again

Eugene:” I heard you my love”

Me:” no you didn’t...i meant what I said Eugene. If we are going to have this baby then few things have to change around here. I don’t know what need to be done or how you go about it but I don’t want to see your business associates in this house…I don’t mind the guys guarding me at the gate but I do mind being kidnapped and people just pitching up in my bedroom with guns trying to kill me. We’ve had two break-ins Eugene and on the second one I got kidnapped so please you always say that you are the best in the business so work your magic” he smiled

Eugene:” mhm was that a complement?” I pulled my straight face…this was no laughing matter

Eugene:” ok I am on it”

Me:” and another thing is that I am a human being sweetheart and I am bound to make mistakes or make you angry every now and again and please when I do…don’t lose complete control of yourself and try to hurt me either by your words or physically or go back to your addiction, with the baby on the way you need to sober up please…yes we can fight here and there as a couple but we should be able to draw the line ok? I know sometimes we fight a lot but let’s try and be civil. I will do my part in all this, I will try my best not to cause a rift between the two of us. I want this to work; losing a baby is something that we both can’t survive right now”

Eugene:” I will do my best babe…we won’t lose this little me ok? Come here” he pulled me to him and cupped my face

Eugene:” I am making a statement out there through Gola that whoever tries to mess with me is down for some serious s*** so I doubt that anyone will dare try to even look our way” he then kissed my forehead

Me:” thank you for that” I smiled

Eugene:” anything for my little wife” I raised an eyebrow

Me:” I am little?” he laughed

Eugene:” uhm babe you are little” I pulled my straight face

Eugene:” what? Do you want me to lie?”

Me:” mtzm” I opened the door and walked inside the house. Eugene walked after me laughing. I was a little bit angry…maybe playfully angry. He then grabbed me and carried me.

Me:” Eugene put me down” I was holding off a laugh

Eugene:” no”

Me:” I said put me down”

Eugene:” I said no” he laughed. I couldn’t help but laugh too. He took me all the way to the bedroom. We got there and he put me on the bed

Eugene:” I hope you are fine tonight” he said as soon as he put me down, I looked at him and just laughed

Eugene:” so…before I get my hopes high…are we on?” ok the look on his face is what made me laugh, he looked funny…like he was negotiating a business deal or something, he was really taking this sex thing serious yohh. He stood close to the bed with both his hands on his hips and looked down on me as I lay on my back

Me:” uhm babe i-“I’ve been avoiding to call him by his name ever since he mentioned it this morning…it was weird though…I loved his name and I loved calling it as well, there is nothing wrong with that is there? Yes he was most comfortable calling me ‘cupcake’ but what if I just loved calling him Eugene more than anything else huh?

Eugene:” Andani I am actually begging here ok? We haven’t made in love in like forever. We fought and separated…and just when I thought I had you back you got kidnapped and here we are now…last night you said you were not ready and now, I can’t shake the feeling that something else will happen to prevent us from making love so please be ready for me…I miss you” I know this wasn’t a laughing matter and I shouldn’t be laughing but I couldn’t help it shame so I fell in stitches of laughter and Eugene just looked at me blankly. Ok his look transformed to the beasty one and I knew I shouldn’t be laughing so I stopped

Eugene:” so this is funny to you? I am funny? Me wanting to make love to my fiancée is a joke?” he turned around and walked to the door. I got up and ran to him…I grabbed his hand

Me:” babe?”

Eugene:” just let me go Andi…if you find me funny or don’t wanna make love to me yet or just anymore then it’s cool”

Me:” it’s not that…I just loved how you are wanting me…it’s a good thing, it feels good”

Eugene:” is that why you laughed so hard?”

Me:” well, I laughed because you looked like you were discussing a business deal of some sort…I am sorry for laughing ok?” he just looked at me. I looked up at him and started unbuttoning his shirt slowly. When I was done I ran my hands on his 6 packs and I realised how much I missed him. I slid my hand to his V shape and he closed his eyes and looked up at the ceiling

Me:” I am sorry for laughing” I whispered going down on my knees and unbuttoning his jean.

The following morning I woke up early and Eugene was still in bed. I decided that maybe after everything we’ve been going through and Eugene trying to ensure my safety…I had to treat him to a breakfast in bed. I hoped that he was not going to wake up while I was still busy in the kitchen. We had a very late night the previous night…we kept on making love again and again and again…believe me I was dead tired when we went to bed and Eugene was tired too. I wasn’t even supposed to be up already but I guess I wanted to make him feel loved for a second. I mean the man bought me an AMG so the least I could do was breakfast in bed to make him feel special….with the money he has, he could definitely afford to get himself anything so I had to give him the only thing he desired the most…pure love and to make him feel wanted.

I went to the bathroom and washed my mouth and then hop into the shower for 2 minutes…with the activities of last night…I couldn’t start making food without a little bit of shower. When I was done I wore an underwear and his shirt…yep I was tryna act like girls in the movies…hope it was not going to blow out on my face. I went to the kitchen where I started preparing English breakfast for my man. When I was done I brought the tray in the bedroom with enough food for both of us. I put the tray on the bedside table and woke him up

Eugene:” babe what’s wrong?” he said rubbing his eyes and trying to sit up

Me:” nothing is wrong babe” I took the tray and put it on the bed

Eugene:” oww” he smiled

Me:” breakfast in bed” he couldn’t hide the excitement

Eugene:” I can’t even remember the last time you made me breakfast” he said excitedly

Me:” it’s the least I can do…I can’t buy an expensive car but I can definitely prep you something good to start your day” he laughed

Eugene:” I will do the car buying and you do this” we laughed

Me:” but honestly Eugy…thank you for that car and for loving me this much, it scares me sometimes but hey maybe I should just accept that my days to cry and surfer are over…this is what my life is all about now I guess” he kissed me

Eugene:” let me assure you, this is what we are about…love”

Me:” I know that sometimes I have a funny way of showing it and that I tend to have a temper at times but I love you…no matter how crazy I may act, especially now with the hormones…don’t even doubt my love for you. It’s real and I promise to give you my support at all cost” he smiled shyly

Eugene:” thank you so much” I kissed him and we started eating.

After breakfast he went to the shower while I cleaned up the bedroom and when I was done I went to the kitchen where I started cleaning. I was now cleaning the lounge when Eugene walked in wearing some chino shorts, a sneaker and a vest…he looked simple and fine

Eugene:” babe I have to go to work ok? Just few hours is all I need…will you be ok?” ok I honestly wished he didn’t have to work, in fact I wished we could stay in the whole day but he already had plans and I didn’t want to come across as a nagging wife

Me:” I will be fine...if I need anything I will talk to the guys”

Eugene:” huh?”

Me:” I mean if I want something from the shops I will ask them”

Eugene:”ow I see” I smiled

Me:” what did you think I was talking about?”

Eugene:” don’t mind me” he held me by my waist with both his hands and bent down to kiss me

Eugene:” I love you”

Me:” I love you too…you’re taking my car?”

Eugene:” nope that’s your car….i will drive my old rover, although the Benz is tempting” I laughed

Me:” you can take it if you want?”

Eugene:” not good for today’s business…did I tell you that I joined dance classes?”

Me:” you must have mentioned it but a lot has been going on so I don’t remember”

Eugene:” well I did…it’s part of the therapy, it’s something to help me cope and I am also drawing and painting some arts, it’s also part of it as well” you see? In Tshivenda they say “u kondelela hu disa dakalo” being patient brings you happiness. This was it for me…all the hard work and all the crying and fighting, this is what it led too. Hearing that Eugene was doing something this big to deal with his situation was heart-warming, it made me feel emotional and most of all it gave me a new hope. There was light after all…his redemption could be reached; all I had to do was keep on believing in him and supporting him.

Me:” wow that’s…that’s great news”

Eugene:” yeah and I am also seeing a Doctor for one full week each month…she comes down here and we have our sessions for as long as we want each day for five days…we did the first one immediately after our separation”

Me:” owww I am speechless, this is what I have always wanted, you seeking help all on your own without me pushing you. Thank you for doing this” he looked away as if something was wrong

Eugene:” it’s not that easy…I am doing my best but…it’s hard. With the baby on the way, I really have to make it work” his eyes were suddenly red

Me:” I am here for you Eugene, to support you and to listen to you when you want to. I can even go with you to the dance classes or see the painting you are busy with…anything you are busy with, I wanna show you my support” he pulled me to him and gave me a tight hug

Eugene:” you are the best Andi, everything I ever wanted and more”

Me:” you are all that to me as well. Yes you are not perfect but you give me true love and pure happiness” he pulled away and kissed my forehead

Eugene:” see you later”

Me:” ok” he walked out of the house and I just smiled at myself realising that everything was finally coming together

EUGENE

I didn’t want to lie to Andani, I never wanted to but how do I tell her? how do I tell her that I was failing dismally, that dealing with Gola was bringing me down on my knees, I was actually considering going back to my old habits, I was actually considering hacking into the police system or the hospital system in order to track my kind of victims…it’s something that I had been forever thinking about since I tortured Gola for the first time. I knew for a fact that if I go the route I was considering then coming back wasn’t going to be easy. I wanted to make Andani proud, to be a better dad to our kids. I got inside the car feeling rather confused and helpless. As much as I was in love with her, sometimes I regretted ever trying this whole love thing out, life was much easier and uncomplicated before her. I only did what I had to do without thinking about the consequences or what anyone would say. But now I had her and a baby on the way…a lot of things really had to change. I had made several promises to her and for my child’s safety, I had to try.

I drove to Lusani’s apartment. I asked Lusani to wait for me there with Sizwe. I had to let go of Gola and see if I can be able to cope without having had to cut anyone for a while. If I fail then I will have to do a hell lot of dancing classes or painting or even call the Doctor down here. I can’t fall back, I had to fight it. Well this is what I know was right but was I going to do it? Was my heart going to let me? I shook my head as I drove out. Dendron and two of my boys were still at the gate. I nodded at them and drove away.

I got to Lusani’s apartment and walked inside. He was sitting on the couch drinking Vodka with Sizwe. Why were they drinking during this time of the day? I decided not to ask, they were grown responsible men

Me:” hey”

Lusanu:’ sure”

Sizwe:” boss”

Me:” uhm we have to send Gola back home”

Sizwe:” yohh boss I salute you…that guy looks dead bro…the way you’ve rearranged his body? Tjoo”

Me:” that’s what happens when you try to mess with me. So we have his address so I wanted him delivered at his gate with a message. He said something about his brother so the brother must be in this game too. Once we do that, word will be out about what I did to him and then just like that, everything will be back to normal. I thought of terrorising his whole family but I wanna lay low for now although I will want him and his family to be monitored, one mistake to try and come back to me then I will deal with them accordingly…Lusani can you deal with all that?”

Lusani:” yeah I guess I will, if there is anything else then I will surely contact you”

Eugene:” sure thing…uhm I just want a moment with this guy for the last time…make phone calls in the meant time ok? He should be home by tomorrow”

Lusani:” sure boss”

Me:” get Sizwe to help wherever he can” I walked past Lusani and Sizwe and all the way to the bathroom where Gola was. I opened the door and stood there smiling. He was up but he looked weak. He was fed though, I asked Lusani to do that

Me:” I have great news…you are going home” I said and smiled even more

Me:” but before we do that…let’s see how we can part ways” he looked at me as if he was seeing a ghost, he was obviously terrified of me.

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EUGENE

After I was done with Gola I drove to my office to do some office work. I was neglecting my construction company and my friend Tsepo wasn’t too happy about it. according to him, Andani has been keeping me too busy to work…little did he know that I had a hell lot to deal with so I had to try and make things work for our business plus this is where I make some of my legal money so I had to keep it afloat. I got to the office and greeted the receptionist who looked a little bit surprised to see me

Joey:” there are few messages for you here sir…maybe not few but a lot”

Me:” email me what you can and what you can’t email then we can have a meeting in an hour, I have to settle in first ok?”

Joey:” sure thing”

Joey had been my receptionist since the word go, since we started this company. She was a sweet girl and she sure knew her work and I trusted her with that…I then went straight to my office to start working. I tried my level best to focus and to respond to my emails but my head was seriously not on it. I couldn’t stop thinking about Gola and what I did to him and how much I still wanted to do it. I knew I had to do something to get it all out off my mind. I replied to all the emails, had a meeting with Joey in which she gave me a report on a number of things and she also gave me a hell lot of paper work to sign. After my meeting with her I finished on some financial report that our finance department wanted me to finish as well as sign. When I was done I drove out of the office, it was round at about lunch time when i did that. I could feel it in my veins that I didn’t want to be here anymore and I knew where I needed to be.

So I drove home and found Andani sitting and watching TV. I couldn’t talk much or do anything else…all I needed was her to remind me that I was me…to remind me that I was not the monster that I was, to remind me that I could be better, I wanted her to remind me again how much she loved me…I wanted to feel her touch, her moan, her nails digging under my skin, I wanted to feel myself inside her and maybe…maybe that was going to be enough to bwat up the thirst that was erupting inside me.

ANDANI

Eugene got home looking…uhm what’s the right word again? Uhm he looked scared as well as sad and then there was also a little bit of a beasty look in him…it was all mixed up and his eyes were red and I could see his veins popping up on his forehead…something had happened. He didn’t say anything to me but instead he just came and sat on the couch I was sitting on and scooped me up like I weighed nothing and put me on top of him. He started kissing me right away…he kissed me so hard and so rough it hurt

Me:” Eugene?” I tried to stop him and tried to look into his eyes but he couldn’t look at me he kept on trying to bury his head on my neck sucking on me. Something was very wrong with him and I didn’t know if sex was going to fix it, maybe he could try talking to me

Me:” Eugene stop it” I cried out. He quickly stopped and still didn’t look at me. He just held me so tight with his head buried on my shoulder

Eugene:” Andani please I need this” he whispered…more like sobbed

Me:” maybe we can try talking” I whispered back trying to break the embrace so that I can look at him

Eugene:” cupcake don’t do this to me now…I need this, I desperately need this” he stopped the embrace and looked at me…his eyes…people his eyes…if I say I was not scared I’d be lying

Me:” I love you” he didn’t say anything but just breathed on me.

I wrapped my hands at the back of his neck and started kissing him. If this is what he needed in order to be better then let’s do this. I loved him and it was my duty to make love to him whenever he needed it. Yes we were not yet married but we were engaged and was going to have a baby soon

Eugene:” thank you” he started kissing me roughly and harder…this was no usual love making, this was something else…something I was willing to do because I loved him, because I wanted to give him what he wanted. He went down to my breasts and sucked on them harder and more intimately.

When we were done we lay on the couch with him wrapping his hands around me. I don’t know how to say it but damn…this was not ordinary love making that we were used to...this was tense, rough, full of emotions and it was soo damn good. I enjoyed him smashing on me with every force on his body, I was not sure what was wrong with him yet but whatever it was…it was huge.

Me:” so you wanna tell me what’s wrong?” he shook his head. I looked up at him

Me:” Eugene I promised you support”

Eugene:” you will leave me” he said in a low tone…ok if he thought that I was going to leave him then it means that what he did was big

Me:” I will never do that…with everything that has happened so far I am still here Eugene, I am carrying our baby and in order for me to help you, you need to tell me what is wrong”

Eugene:” you won’t leave?”

Me:” no matter what it is, I won’t” he sat up and helped me sit beside him

Eugene:” I taught Gola a lesson…I guess you know what I mean by that…I did to him some deep stuff Andi…what I did reminded me of what I used to be, of what I fight not to be and….i enjoyed it and I  want all of that back” he said with a frown on his face. I looked at him unable to understand what he just said. So he still wanted to torture people again? Is this what he was saying?

Me:” but you haven’t…”

Eugene:” not yet”

Me:” you do know that you can’t right?”

Eugene:” I know that dammit! But it’s hard to control” he snapped

Eugene:” I am sorry I shoul-“

Me:” its fine”

Eugene:” so you’re leaving?” I laughed a sad laughter

Me:” why would I do that? You obviously need my help Eugene so how about we give your Doctor a call, even if she can just come for a day and then after the call we can heard to the dance studio…or we can just dance here…you and me”

Ok I wasn’t happy with what he had told me…in fact I was angry that he was falling back but he needed my help more than he needed me scolding him so at this moment it was important to put my feelings aside and make him feel loved and supported, I didn’t want to judge him because that could just drive him to the same thing we are trying to fight.

Eugene:” seriously? You are not angry?” I smiled at him and got up and got dressed. I wanted to cry so badly because I was scared of him falling back into his old habits, I was not sure if it was good for the baby but I kept my smile so that he won’t see through me

Me:” get dressed quickly” I took my phone and connected it to the music system…I put on ‘Black Coffee – we dance again’

Me:” you told me you’ve been taking dance classes, let’s see what you can teach me” he laughed putting on his jeans

Eugene:” I’ve only went there once”

Me:” then show me what you learned that day” he laughed

Eugene:” owk…let’s see if we can do this” we started giggling. He stood in front of me so that I can see his moves and try to copy them. I was excited to see him really dance for the first time…I was wondering if he was good. He didn’t disappoint shame, my baby was everything he was plus a dancer. I tried to copy him but I was failing

Me:” yohh no my love that’s hard” I said laughing

Eugene:” not really cupcake…look at my legs neh? You do it like this” he started moving slowly so that I can be able to copy. We started dancing again and I was better at it this time. I looked at him and he was genuinely laughing and smiling as we move together dancing. When we were tired of house and hiphop dance I put on ‘A-Reece – Sebenza’

Eugene:” owww slow dance?”

Me:” our house our rules, we can dance to any music” he giggled and I could see it in his eyes that he was happy

Eugene:” come here” he held out his hand and I took it. He pulled me towards him and we started moving slowly with my hands wrapped around his neck and his on my waist

Eugene:” I don’t know if there is a word to explain what you are to me…I feel like any word I use will be an insult to what you are and what you mean to me Andi. God what did I do to deserve all this?” he said the last part looking up at the ceiling. He then looked back at me

Eugene:” I always thought I deserved every nightmare I had, every feeling of being alone and lost, I felt like I deserved the pain of losing my mom as well as the pain of losing Rod and his wife…I always felt like the universe hated me for my evil deeds, like I was being punished for everything I had done Andi, i even felt like I deserved Kat betraying me and with all that in my head…I had no reason to be better, no hope whatsoever…I never thought I could be this happy, this contented, I never contemplated having a baby…i…I thought I was destined to hurt people and to be punished for it in return” I rested my head on his chest and let my tears fall…Eugene was so damaged

Eugene: “but you came along and for the first time in my life, I had hope…I saw a little bit of future, I saw some lights and after being close to your son I knew I wanted one for myself…like my own blood, that’s why I tried to get you pregnant back then. You’ve been the light in my life Andi, you gave my life back and that’s why I say no word can explain my gratitude to you…I owe you everything cupcake” I couldn’t help but sob. This was a bit emotional for me, to hear him explain how I pulled him out of the darkness, it was overwhelming

Me:” you only showed me real love Eugy, you deserve all this”

Eugene:” I sure do” he kissed my fore head and we continued moving together. Right there in Eugene’s arms is where I deserved to be…this was my home, this was everything I ever wanted and I was glad that things were starting to look up for a change

Me:” can I ask you something?”

Eugene:” anything”

Me:” there is a church service tonight at a church I used to go while I was still married”

Eugene:” uhm…o..w..k” he broke the embrace and stopped moving and looked at me with horror on his face

Me:” let’s go to church” he looked at me like I just grew a second head…he was mortified. I knew what I had said and I meant it. Eugene needed God in his life, that’s the only thing he needed, God was the only way to save him. I was not expecting it to be easy but I was hopeful

Me:” please” I begged

Eugene:” now you are pushing it Andani…I am not going there” he snapped…there goes my full name. He said that and walked to the bedroom….i guess I was pushing it too far, I should give him time…baby steps is what he needed.

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I followed him to the bedroom. He was sitting on the bed looking all tired

Me:” I am sorry about…uhm church”

Eugene:” its fine…just don’t bring it up again”

Me:” ok” well that was a lie, I was obviously going to bring it up again but I was just going to give Eugene enough time to deal with everything and then we can take the next step which was going to church

Me:” what’s the plan for the rest of the afternoon? It’s just after three now”

Eugene:” mhm what do you have in mind?” I smiled

Me:” stay in the whole afternoon…we haven’t spent quality time together in a very long time…we need this” he pulled me to him and held my waist with both his hands

Eugen:” mhm that could work”

Me:” how about we start by cooking a good home cooked meal together and then we can take a shower together…bathing each other and then we can enjoy our meal…after that….” I breathed

Eugene:” after that we will play huh?”

Me:” something like that” he kissed me on my neck and I giggled

Eugene:” when does the baby start kicking?” really?

Me:” it’s too early for that…come let’s go” I took his hand and we walked to the kitchen where we started helping each other with a good meal. Eugene loved tripe, I heard that from his sisters so we decided to cook tripe even though it was going to actually take the whole year to get them ready, it was worth it...i loved tripe too. We also cooked pap and some salads. We didn’t take too much time with pap and the salads. I was excited for tonight’s dinner... I mean we will just be eating proper meal for a chang.

Eugene:” I am excited about tonight’s dinner…eating pap and tripe? Yohh babe don’t be surprised when I KO everything.  Although I try to act a little bit white…I am still black and black men eat pap” we laughed together. See? It was not just me, Eugene was excited for this too. No matter how much we could try to fit in and eat the fancy food every now and again…but if you are a Venda, Tsonga, Pedi or Sotho we know that you haven’t really been getting fully satisfied until you get a plate full of pap

Me:” mhm I am glad to know that it’s not just me”

Eugene:” now that we are talking about that…we should cook pap more often babe, refrain from takeaways and all the other food for a while”

Me:” it will depend on what the little mini Eugene want” I said looking and touching my tummy. Eugene smiled

Eugene:” I am sure my baby want pap…like father like son” I raised an eyebrow

Me:” oww so you want another boy?”

Eugene:” I wouldn’t mind five boys my love…no offence but a man need more men in the family” I laughed

Me: “as long as they don’t get involved in all this” I waved my hands in the air

Eugene:” obviously they won’t....our kids will have a normal life cupcake…we will give them that and we will make sure never to fight in front of them”

Me:” sounds sweet”

Eugene:” let’s head to the shower ok?”

Me:” uhm let me clean up in the kitchen quickly and then we can hop in the shower together”

Eugene:”ok babe I will be checking my emails so long” he walked to the bedroom and left me in the kitchen cleaning up.

THREE DAYS LATER

Ok things had been soo beautifully perfect…I was happy with my man. He was going to work every morning and would come back home at around five. We would spend every evening together…we would either dance, watch TV or just run around the house playing and giggling. I was bored during the afternoons though so I went to MrVideo and hire movies and a series…I was currently watching ‘Hit The Floor’ it’s been keeping me busy in the afternoons. I had also been talking to Vhusani a lot on the phone. She told me that Lala was putting in some effort into their relationship so she was happy. Eugene and I called home every night for the past three days and we talked to my mom and my son…we were even calling my sister and her husband and he would chat with our phones on speaker and just laughed and chatted away.

Eugene just got home from work and was taking a shower while I finished up on dinner. I cooked pap of course…we were tryna get back to our roots wethu, pap all the way. I cooked pap and beef stew so I was just waiting for the stew to simmer a bit and then I was done. Someone buzzed at the gate, I wondered who it was…there were guys at the gate so whoever it was must have been an innocent person or maybe it was Vhusani because if that wasn’t the case then they were not even going to let the person ring. I took the phone

Me:” who is it?”

“It’s me…Kat” owww God take me now…can this be my time to come to you? Because I felt defeated shame…I could feel all the blood leaving my body…just the mention of her name was enough to upset me so much. We’d been through so much with this girl, what the hell was she still doing here? Why was it so hard for her to get the message? Everything have been so perfect lately and she just had to show her damn face?

Me:” what do you want?” the boredom in my voice was very much clear…I couldn’t even hide it

Kat:” I want to talk to Eugene, its urgent” she sounded like she was shaking…there was panic in her voice but I didn’t care about her and what was going on in her life. She needed to stay away

Me:” Kat please leave” she huffed

Kat:” Andani I am the last person you want to see I know that but this is important” important to who? To me or to her? heee! Some people love to act like they were special

Me:” ok give me a message, I will make sure he gets it” I said sarcastically, I wasn’t going to give him any damn message shame, I just wanted her out of my damn gate

Kat:” you are stubborn aren’t you? Your f*****g life is in danger and I stopped what I was doing to come here in your house to warn you guys and this is the s*** treatment I get? when things gets bad you will be the one to blame…it will all be on your precious head, at least I tried to warn you” ok now I felt like I didn’t have a choice, what did she want to warn us about? I was curious

Me:” ok come in” I pressed the button and let her inside the house.

I was not too happy with having her inside the house, in fact I didn’t want to see her but it seemed like I didn’t have much of a choice. I waited for her to come through the door. She knocked and then i opened the door. I stood in the kitchen leaning against the kitchen table with my hands folded on my chest. This girl was full of nonsense shame…so she was coming to warn us about some supposedly tornado that was to take place and she decided to look like this? Yohhh if I must tell you….sisters was in a very short dress…when I say short I mean short as in she could barely bend over. She was not wearing heals for a change…she was in sleepers sandals. She had a long curly Brazilian weave and had a very bold make up all over her face…as jealous as I was….she was what anyone can call a model type of a woman, she looked good and for few seconds while starring at her I contemplated fighting her and ruining that whole make-up on her face. I wouldn’t mind Eugene walking here and find her wrapped in curtains, as long as she was not inside that bandage thingy she was obviously calling a dress.

Kat:” where is he?” Good God the nerve though? Was she serious? To barge in here like she owned the place? She started looking around

Kat:” mhm a lot has changed around here” she was walking to the lounge while still looking around. I grabbed her hand before she could walk any further

Me:” hello” I said politely

Kat:” I told you why I am here Andani”

Me:” and I am greeting you…hi” she tried to snatch her hand from me but I tightened my grip

Me:” you don’t just walk in here like you own the place because I do…I own the damn house…so hello Katlego”

Kat:” hi” she snatched her hand from me with such a force and I stumbled and almost fell. What was wrong with some women though? She broke up with the guy and there was no need to be a nuisance. How much did she love him? I mean to still act like this even after they had been apart for this long…really people it’s not healthy, she should move on with her life and try to be happy

Me:” you look….sluty”

Kat:” I want to talk to Eugene, this is serious”

Me:” you can talk to me” she closed her eyes as if trying to calm herself down

Eugene:” babe who are you talki-“ he stopped as soon as he saw Katlego. He was wearing shorts with no shirt so everything was exposed…his v shape and all that….he didn’t even have a belt on his shorts so it was hanging low a bit. He pulled it up walking towards us.

Eugene:” what the hell are you doing here?” ok I wished Eugene could have walked back to the bedroom and wore a t shirt of some sort because by this time Katlego was drooling over him. She looked at him and batted her eyelids with her mouth slightly open. I rolled my eyes at that act…can she get over him already…damn!!

Kat:” we need to talk…in private” I gave out a slight laugh…that’s not happening

Eugene:” I don’t have time for this Katlego, just tell me why you are here” he seemed bothered and I was happy to notice that he was not even checking her dress out…that made me feel good

Kat:” I have to warn you Eugene…they are coming for you” Eugene gave her the coolest look ever, almost like he didn’t believe her

Euegne:” I don’t know what you are trying to do Katlego but I want you out of my house”

Kat:” this is not a joke or one of the stunts I have pulled before Eugene”

Eugene:” ow yeah yeah right it’s not”

Kat:” you do know Gola right?” he started paying attention to her and walked closer

Eugene:” you know him?” he was now frowning and his facial expression changing

Kat:” not really but since you fired me I’ve been in contact with some of the people in the game and I have received few offers from different people who wanted you”

Eugene:” ow?”

Kat:” I refused any offer Eugene and now I’ve been contacted again…some guy who didn’t give me a name said that he wanted to avenge his brother’s death…he told me that Gola was his brother and that he wants you to suffer the same fate that his brother did. He wanted me in on the team…I don’t know what he needed me to do but I refused” Eugene eyed her carefully for a long time. I was feeling scared now, so someone else was coming for us?

Eugene:” I didn’t kill Gola”

Kat:” but he died as soon as he got home…a day after he was delivered home” Eugene closed his eyes and there was obvious worry in his eyes

Eugene:” you are not lying are you?”

Kat:” you know me better than that Eugy…you know were my loyalty lies. They want you. Word is out that you dealt with Gola in a very very disturbing way” she swallowed

Kat:” but Gola’s brother is determined for a revenge…I advised him not to even try because he won’t succeed but hey…just be extra careful” she started walking to the door. Ok now I was a little bit embarrassed because I didn’t expect her to come up with something like this, I expected her to be here and cry for Eugene like she usually do

Eugene:” uhm Kat” she turned around and looked at him

Kat:” yes” he looked away and then back at her

Eugene:” I know I don’t deserve your loyalty anymore, especially with everything that I did to you so thank you and I will try to pay you for this” she gave him a faint smile

Kat:” I am not working for you anymore and therefore I don’t need to be paid. I don’t need your money Eugene, all I want is for you to keep yourself safe” and with that Katlego walked out of the door. Eugene looked after her as she walked away…he looked at her like really looked at her. Was he regretting the decision to let her go? I mean obviously she was good at her job. I looked at him and he realised that I’ve been looking at the way that he’s been starring at her and looked on the floor and then rubbed his hand on his nose and walked back to the bedroom without saying a word.

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I walked after him feeling suddenly scared. I got in the bedroom and found him pacing. I tried to read his facial expression to see if he was scared but he didn’t look like he was so I relaxed a bit. I had to try and trust him. He says he is the best in the business and surely he could try and make this go away

Me:” love” he was folding his one hand just below his chest and his other hand on his mouth

Eugene:” yes” he looked at me and swallowed…it looked like he was scared…looking at him I could see fear all over him

Me:” sho…should I be worried?” I wanted him to tell me that it will be ok, that he will fix it all…I didn’t want him to start panicking because that could only means that he was struggling to deal with this

Eugene:” come here” he pulled me and gave me a hug. He brushed my hair as I lay my head neatly on his chest. I was scared…I didn’t want to deal with anymore gangster stuff, it was becoming too much

Eugene:” nothing is going to happen”

Me:” but you do believe her right?”

Eugene:” yes…I know Kat and she looked scared for me so she was telling the truth. Don’t worry about it though, I can deal with it all ok? I’ve been through worse” he kissed my head as I was still in his arms

Me:” thank you, that’s kinda what I wanted to hear”

Eugene:” let me make a quick phone call ayt? And then we can continue with our day as if nothing happened, I am not going to let some street gangster dictate how I get to spend my days…I am not even going to get bothered with them, I wanna see him try with this revenge thing” the sound of his voice carried some weight…it gave me the kind of assurance I wanted. He broke the embrace and took his phone and dialled a number. I sat on the bed and he walked to the window and stood there looking outside

Eugene:” Luu…what happened to Gola? Are you sure?...he is dead I just got the message…yeah as you might have guessed, his brother want to come for me, a revenge of some sort….yahh I know but I don’t want to invest my time on him, I am not even sure when he will come or if he really wanna take a risk but anyway keep your ears open and your ears out ok? Sure thing” he dropped the call and looked back me

Me:” I thought we’d be going into hiding or something like that” he chuckled

Eugene:” hahaha babe I have maintained a status that don’t allow me to do that, I can’t be seen as weak or scared…so come on…we are spending our evening together and happy ok?” he carried me up and I wrapped my legs around him as we kissed. My phone rang at that moment…damn it who the hell was that?

Eugene:” don’t take it” he said while he was kissing my neck. I ignored it until it stopped but it started ringing again

Me:” maybe it’s important hey” damn it…I wonder who it is. He put me down and I reached for the phone

Me:” hello”

“Hey Andani…its Lalamani” oww what a surprise, I never expected to hear from him…anyway what could he possibly want from me? Unless…unless something happened to my friend.

Me:” uhm hi Lala”

Lala:” uhm are you home? I was hoping to see you for about 15 minutes or so if you are not busy” huh? Something was wrong here…I started panicking

Me:” oww my God what happened to my friend?” I said wanting to cry

Lala:”ow…uhm no no no nothing is wrong with her, she is perfectly fine…so can I come?”

Me:” uhm yeah I guess” I agreed simply because I was curious to know what he wanted from me

Lala:” and please don’t tell her about this, she doesn’t have to know” iyohh he was pushing it now…me not tell Vhusani that I am meeting her boyfriend? That was my bestfriend, my everything so I was obviously going to tell her

Me:” you know that’s not possible right?” Eugene was looking at me as if reading something on my face….he was really paying attention to every word I was saying

Lala:” Andani please”

Me:” don’t even try to beg because I am going to call her immediately after this call and inform her about you coming to my house”

Lala:” ok don’t tell her because I want to surprise her and she can’t know about it…do you see why you can’t say anything?” I smiled immediately

Me:” owww…well…ow uhm in that case consider your secret safe…get over here already” I heard him chuckle

Lala:” I will be there in 15” I dropped the call and looked at Eugene

Me:” Lala is coming over…he wants to surprise Vhusani so obviously I am the person to talk to”

Eugene:” ahg really? Don’t get me wrong I have nothing against the guy…you know I get along with him very well but now? We were about to make love” he was kissing me

Me:” he said he will only be 15 minutes”

Eugene:” yeah yeah right…that can stretch to an hour right” I giggled

Me:” babe”

Eugene:” yea”

Me:” are you ok? With what Kat said, I can’t help to think that you are hiding your feeling because of me”

Eugene:” trust me to deal with it…just know that you will never get hurt again, I will make sure of that. As for me being worried…I am a man, I can take it” he kissed me.

Me:” ok”

After about 15 minutes someone buzzed at the gate. Eugene and I walked to the kitchen and pressed the button to let the person in. it was obviously Lalamani. We opened the door and after few seconds he came through

Lala:” hey” he gave me a brief hug and then turned to Eugene and shoulder bumped

Eugene:’ hey hey”

Me:” hi”

Lala:” I am so sorry to come at such a short notice hey but I am too excited…this cannot wait” he said with a nervous smile.

Eugene:” come on in” we let him in and walked straight to the lounge

Eugene:” I don’t know if I am needed so I will leave you guys to it…nice to see you again Lala” Eugene said walking away

Lala:” sure thing” Eugene left and gave us some privacy

Me:”uhm do you need a cup of tea, coffee, juice or coldrink?”

Lala:” nahh it’s cool...i won’t stay long” we sat in the lounge, he sat opposite me

Me:” so…you have a surprise for my besty huh” I was smiling ear to ear, I was happy even though I was not sure what the surprise was all about

Lala:” actually I do”

Me:” ok what are we still waiting for? I am dying over here” I was excited and nervous as if I was the one to be surprised

Lala:” ok uhm…” he swallowed

Lala:” I want to give her a surprise wedding”

I raised an eyebrow...i don’t know but I had mixed feelings here…I was not sure whether to be excited or to just remain shocked. I was excited that he was actually giving her what she had always wanted…a wedding plus marriage, she was old enough for that yeyyyyyyy I wished I could call her already and discuss the details but then there was also an issue here. Every woman dreams of her wedding, I’d been married before and I honestly enjoyed preparing for my own wedding, I managed to have everything I wanted so imagine having someone choose a dress, a ring and everything for your wedding? Nooo that wouldn’t work…no

Lala:” is there something wrong?” oww I actually forgot that I was still sitting in front of him

Me:” uhm Lala I don’t know hey…well don’t get me wrong, I am happy about the wedding part” I giggled

Me:” I really am happy that this is happening but…hey I know Vhusani, she would want to plan her own wedding, choose her own dress or her own ring for that matter…she’ll want to choose her bridesmaids dress and everything else…I really don’t want to take all that away from her, I don’t want her to get stuck with the ring she don’t want” he looked at me thoughtfully as if he never thought of what I had juts mentioned

Lala:” ow uhm I never thought of that…but I am sure you can try to find a way. Andani she is your bestfriend…you must know what she wants for her wedding, I know girls talk about these things so talk to her…just try to find ways to fish it out of her. I want this to be special, I know she’s been wanting this since I proposed and I wanna give it to her and I want it to be special…so much special” I looked at him and smiled

Me:” now that you are giving me that look I can’t even turn you down…but I feel bad though…I feel like I am stealing this from her” he chuckled

Lala:” seriously? I think she’ll be happy you helped me” I smiled

Me:” thank you” he raised an eyebrow looking confused

Me:” for loving my friend and for thinking of this….for wanting it to be special for her. Just promise me one thing”

Lala:” ok”

Me:” she is a good woman Lala, a very good woman who deserves the best so please treat her well” he smiled

Lala:” that should be easy because I intend to do just that” I smiled

Me:” wow yeyyyy my friend is getting married…ow my God Vhusani is finally getting married. I will apologise to her later for keeping a secret but I am so going to enjoy this” he laughed

Lala:” I don’t know if its gonna work out…I was thinking of doing it on her birthday”

Me:” that’s three months away”

Lala:” yeah I know…can you be able to be ready by then?”

Me:” I will do my best…so how do you plan to do lobola negotiations without her knowing? I mean we are black bruh, you can’t have a wedding without lobola”

Lala:” don’t worry I will handle that part” I smiled

Me:” you better”

Lala:” so we are a team?” he stretched out his hand to shake mine

Me:” definitely a team”

Lala:” I better get going…contact me if you need anything. And oww I think I have budgeted enough to give her the wedding of her dreams, don’t go cheap Andi…I want the best for her” hahahha he didn’t just say that, did he have any idea what he just signed up for?

Me:” I was not planning on going cheap…that’s my best friend” he laughed

Lala:” I will hear from you with the costing of everything”

Me:” sure thing” he got up to leave

Lala:” thank you so much”

me:” anytime”

lala:” tell Eugene I am gone will you?”

Me:” sure thing” I opened for him and he left.

I walked back to the bedroom and I could hear Eugene shouting on the phone before I could open the door. I opened the door and he was on the phone looking all furious. He immediately cracked a smile as soon as he saw me walk in

Eugene:  I gotta go” he dropped the call and walked towards me. I wanted to ask him questions but I decided not to

Eugene:” done already?” I smiled

Me:” yep…guess what?” I wrapped my hands around his neck

Eugene:” tell me”

Me:” he wants to throw Vhusani a surprise wedding and he wants me to help him” I said excitedly…Eugene looked at me with a surprised look

Eugene:” you are too excited for someone’s wedding” he said looking all concerned

Me:” she is my friend…I am over the moon obviously”

Eugene:” do you perhaps want to get married sooner as well? I mean the way you are excited I can’t help but feel like maybe I’ve been holding back and maybe you wanted this to happen sooner” me? Wedding? No, not now. I’ve done that before and my marriage was horrible. Yep I was happy being engaged and having nothing on papers for now, my first marriage was traumatising enough so I was enjoying the set-up we had at the moment

Me:” of course not…I am just happy for my friend babe, I don’t want a wedding now, we are taking our time right?” he looked at me and blinked several times. Owwww God please don’t tell me that he want to get married now too…yohhh please no I can’t do that now. Even the thought of a white dress on my body was a bit nauseating, I didn’t want that experience, not anytime soon

Eugene:”oww uhm ok”

Me:” Eugene” I gave him a questioning look

Eugene:” Andani”

Me:” you want us to get married soon?” he looked at me as if he was thinking

Eugene:” we have a baby on the way Andi, I just thought that maybe we should do the right thing. I mean our families have to meet, you can’t just have my baby, I don’t think your dad will be happy about that” oww I never thought about that. Yep his family had to meet mine and he had to pay damages and then lobola…but I didn’t want a marriage now…there was Tebogo getting married, then Vhusani…now me too? I wanted to wait at least a year

Me:” I never thought that far”

Eugene:” well I have” I can’t believe that he’s just been threatened and he is here all chilled out discussing marriage with me? Was he not bothered or was he just trying to hide everything from me? The tone on his voice when I walked in on him talking on the phone suggested that he was pissed so maybe he was just trying to put up a face for me

Me:” babe let’s talk about this some other time please…you have a crisis to deal with”

Eugene:” ok come here”

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So I’d been thinking about this whole surprise wedding thing and I came to one conclusion. I don’t know if it was the right thing to do so I decided to meet up with Vhusani at lunch time.

Eugene:” do you think that’s a good idea?” he said that morning as he was leaving for work. I had told him what I planned to do

Me:” well she is my friend babe and I don’t want to take this away from her” he shrugged his shoulders

Eugene:” remind me not to think of surprising you…I mean I guess I can’t trust Vhusani to keep the secret as well” I laughed

Me:” please don’t, not all surprises are good surprises you know”

Eugene:” mhm ok…come here” he kissed me goodbye

Eugene:” I will see you after work ok cupcake”

Me:” ok” he walked to the door

Me:” Eugene” He turned around and looked at me

Eugene:” yes”

Me:” be careful please….be safe” he smiled

Eugene:” all the time…and hey enjoy your lunch with Vhusi neh?”

Me:” thanks love” he walked out and left.

I had nothing else to do other than my wifely duties. I cleaned the house spotless, did some laundry…yep I was doing laundry almost every day…that’s how bored I was. After that I cooked as well. I made sure that by lunch time I was done with everything and was already waiting for my friend at the restaurant closest to her work. She walked in just at 5 past one. She looked around and saw me sitting at the far corner. She smiled and walked over to me. I had already taken our order.

Vhusani:” my one and only” she opened up her arms and I got up to give her a hug

Me:” my everything” I giggled

Vhusani:” I can’t believe an hour is all we got here” I laughed

Me:” yeah madam you have to work” we both sat down and the waiter brought our drinks. We thanked him and looked at each other and smiled. This girl was my everything people…she was my best friend and my everything. How I wish everyone can experience this level of friendship…it’s the best feeling.

Me:” so I have some news…better we start talking about this sooner so that you can either be excited or be angry…either way we will have at least more time to discuss it” she raised an eyebrow

Vhusani:’ now you are scarring me…what’s going on?”

Me:” well….uhm you know that I love you right? And I will do anything that seem right for you” she rolled her eyes

Vhusani:” I am at the edge of my seat here”

Me:” Lalamani wants to marry you” she frowned

Me:” well he came to see me…he wants to throw you a surprise wedding” there I said it. It was not a surprise anymore. I think I’d rather have Lala angry at me if he found out that I told her rather than taking Vhusi’s experience of planning her own wedding, I can’t take that away from her, not after the long wait for this wedding

Vhusani:’ are you serious?”  I saw a smile creeping in on her face

Me:” yes” I nodded. She laughed

Vhusani:” uhm you mean to tell me that…uhm that he wants to finally tie the knot?” I nodded with a smile

Vhusani:” oww my God…b..but you told me…didn’t you say it was a surprise?” what? I thought she’d be happy

Me:” well…friend I know how much you wanted a wedding and I didn’t want to take your once in a life time opportunity to choose what you want for your wedding. I mean you are not going to remarry so would you rather have me plan this for you as a surprise or….” She giggled

Vhusani:” you know what…you are a genius…I would have been excited for the wedding but I would have missed out on the opportunity to actually plan it” she giggled and got up from her seat and came to me for a hug. She squeezed me tight as I was sitting on my chair. She then walked back to her seat

Vhusani:’ wow I can’t believe this…so…wow”

Me:” ow one more thing, you don’t tell him that I told you Vhusi…this is me just being your friend and giving you the opportunity to plan your wedding so don’t let him know. He seemed nervous and excited at the same time” I swear to God I have never seen her giggle like this

Vhusani:” don’t worry I won’t mess this up….hah finally it’s happening” I giggled

Me:” it’s happening sweety and its happening in three months so I am giving you today and tomorrow to find yourself a wedding planner. This is all going to go the way you want it to sweetheart…you get to choose what you want for your wedding”

Vhusani:’ yessss” our food arrived and the waitress couldn’t help but smile as he saw the excitement on our faces. He then walked away

Me:’ and ow….he told me to go all out love…expensive and only the best”

Vhusani:” ncoooo did you at least took a video of him saying all that?” really?  Vhusani was seriously hilarious

Me:” you are kidding me right?” we laughed

Vhusani:” I am kidding. I can’t believe that I thought it was never going to come to this”

Me:” you do know what this means right?”

Vhusani:” yeah of course…I am gonna be a wife and not a girlfriend anymore” I rolled my eyes at her

Me:” I am not talking about that, that’s just obvious…I mean…the baby…in three months’ time you will be married and then you get to start making a baby” I said trying not to sound too loud so I was whispering a bit. She sat back on her chair. I know how much she’s been wanting to have her own kids

Vhusani:” I am getting everything I ever wanted” I could see that she was about to break down into the tears of joy

Me:” oww my God…please not tears, not now and not here love” she sniffed and blinked trying to block the tears

Vhusani:” it’s just that I have always wanted a family Andi and now I am going to have one” I smiled

Me:” it’s happening sweety” I held her hand

So I had lunch with my friend and we were talking about the wedding and she was telling me the specifics of what she wanted and all those details. Well, the plan was that I will be the one reporting to Lala and she was going to pretend like she knows nothing about the wedding. I felt bad for spoiling Lala’s surprise but hey I don’t think men understand how a wedding is important to us…I don’t think they have any slightest idea of how much it means to us so I was also happy that my friend gets to choose how she wanted her wedding. Vhusi was overly excited and that made me happy too. After an hour she drove back to work and I went straight home. as you might have guessed I had guys following me around everywhere I go…I think with the whole Gola’s brother thing Eugene didn’t want anything to happen to me and on the other side he also didn’t want to keep me in the house 24/7. So he wanted me to still have my freedom and he also wanted to have me protected. I had nothing to do when I got home so I continued watching my series.

I was chilling watching TV when someone buzzed at the gate. I frowned getting up…I had no idea who it must have been. I mean it was obviously not Vhusani. I took the phone

Me:” who is it?”

“It’s me” huh?

Me:” you?”

Rinae:” ahg Andani it’s your sister” oww nooo what the hell was she doing here? oww no

Me:” Rinae?” I asked with a shock in my voice

Rinae:” the one and only” what the hell was she doing here? And what happened to calling people before you just pitch in their houses huh?

Me:” uhm ok”

I pressed the button to open the gate. I then walked outside and her car pulled up at the driveway. I stood outside with my hands on my hips. I was more shocked to see her than excited. My mind was already thinking about the most crucial stuff…their safety. With Gola’s brother still planning some revenge party none of us was safe and my sister chose to come here at this time? How the hell did she even know where we stay? I took out my phone and texted Eugene right away

“Rinae and Husband are here…come back home now” I wanted him here... at least he’ll know what to do. I couldn’t have my sister walk into the lions Dan…she was my one and only sister, it was enough that I was tangled in all this, I couldn’t have her life in danger too. I remembered that I was supposed to smile and act like I was excited to see them. They got out of the car and walked to me.

Rinae:” my baby sister” I rolled my eyes at ‘baby sister’ was I ever going to outgrow that?

Me:” hey big sis” I ran to her with a wide smile. I got to her and gave her one tight hug

Me:” wow I never expected to see you”

Rinae:’ I know right?” we broke the hug and her husband got to me and gave me a brief hug too

Mulalo:” I hope you don’t mind us coming in unannounced”

Rinae:’ mhm you have a beautiful home here” I smiled

Me:” its Eugene’s”

Rinae:” but still it’s beautiful” she was looking around already

Me:” come on in guys” I walked to the house and they followed me

Me:” I just wish you told me you were coming, i would have prepared you know…cook you a special meal or something”

Rinae:” don’t worry about that sweety…we were on the road and we just thought we should come visit you guys…it was not really planned” so they were on the road? It means they were not going to stay long then

Me:” mhm are you guys on some kind of a holiday?”

Mulalo:” yeah you can call it that” we walked to the living room and I signalled for them to sit

Me:” how did you even know where I stay?” they looked at each other and smiled. Mhm they seem really happy, hopefully they were not pretending again…I wanted to believe that Eugene and I really helped them when we were up there

Mulalo:” well Eugene helped us”

Me:” huh?”

Rinae:” well not like that…we didn’t tell him that we wanted to come. I just asked him to give me your home address because I wanted to have a parcel delivered to you…he didn’t know that I actually wanted to come” I smiled

Me:” All that for a surprise visit? What if we were away for a week or something?” I was now laughing

Rinae:” but you are not now are you?” I shook my head smiling

Me:” so…any drink people?” they looked at each other again

Mulalo:” just water…we ate lot of things on the road”

Me:” so what’s happening here really?”

Rinae:” we were on a road trip and we ended up here”

Me:” what happened to your jobs?”

Mulalo:” we both took leaves” I got up and get them two glasses of water. I came back to the lounge and gave them each a glass

Me:” mhm so things are working out huh?” I crossed my legs smiling. Eugene walked in right at that moment. He looked a bit worried. He gave me a questioning look as he walked to us and I just shrugged at him.

Eugene:” hey guys” he said with a smile…you see? We can all just pretend like we were happy to see them but we weren’t

Rinae:” hey”

Mulalo:’ hey bruh”

Eugene:” I am sorry I was not here to welcome you guys…uhm I’ve been working”

Rinae:” not to worry…I mean we didn’t even tell you we were coming so we kinda expected something like this”

Eugene:” wow this is a good surprise” Eugene sat down on the sofa beside me.

Rinae:” then you’ll be happy to know that we plan to stay for few days and we want you guys to show us around”

Oww noo...few days? We couldn’t afford few days. Eugene looked at me looking all exasperated, I just shrugged and looked away…there was nothing else I could do. So we chatted a bit about their road trip and their decision to end up here. Well apart from the fact that I wasn’t happy about the surprise visit…I was actually happy that at least they were happy…I was happy for them. After a while I got up and went to dish up some food for them…I was not even sure if the food I cooked was going to be enough. Eugene walked after me saying that he wants to help

Eugene:” what the hell is that?” he whispered as soon as we got to the kitchen

Me:” babe I knew nothing, you heard them” he put both his hands on his head looking all pissed and confused

Eugene:” just when I was trying to put everything together then they decide to just pitch? What if something happens to them? They can’t just rock up in here…if something happens in this house how do I explain that to them without selling myself out? Dammit” he was pacing

Me:’ I am sorry”

Eugene:” don’t be sorry it’s not your fault. It’s just…I spent the whole morning thinking about Gola’s brother and I’d been trying to plan measures to keep us all safe when you sent me that text…s***Andani I have to sit here and entertain them for God knows how long” he ran his hands through his head.

Me:” I feel really bad, like everything is going to blow up” he pulled me towards him

Eugene:’ nothing is going to blow up…I’ll….deal with it” he hugged me….there was doubt in this statement…there are things that Eugene was not telling me about.