Life As We Know It 116-120

Life as we know it
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After the session, we had lunch with his sisters and then got ready to leave. We boarded the flight and flew back to Cape Town. I was happy that Eugene was taking charge of his life. It meant a lot to me to know that he was doing his best to be a better man. We got home after 6 and we started cooking right away together as a couple. It was all great. I then called my mom while I was busy in the kitchen with Eugene. She gave Omphu the phone and we talked to him…he sounded happy to hear our voices. After the dinner we prepared together we ate and then went to bed.

The following morning I woke up first and went to make breakfast. Eugene walked to the kitchen when I was about to finish
Eugene:” morning cupcake” he was smiling
Me:” morning” I smiled back
Eugene:” uhm I am going to work today ok… Do you have plans for the day?”
Me:” not much…I think I will just contact my lawyer regarding the lease agreement for Ria’s house…and then I will spend the rest of the afternoon chilling here by myself…maybe even go to the mall, ahg I am not sure”
Eugene:” I wish I could keep you company babe but I haven’t been working in a long time…things are falling apart without my magical hands” I laughed
Me:” magical? Really?” he laughed
Eugene:” don’t start with me plea-“ his phone rang and he took it out and answered
Eugeen:” sure….what!...nooo please no” ok it sounded like something terrible happened…my mind started racing trying to figure out what could have happened and to who but I couldn’t come up with an answer so I paid more attention to him
Eugene:” uhm …well thanks keep me updated ok?” he dropped the call grinding his teeth and frowning at the same time
Me:” what’s happening?” he grinded his teeth and his jaw tightened…ok now I was a bit scared, something terrible obviously happened…Eugene was suddenly pissed
Eugene:” your perfect Doctor is happening” he spit the words as if saying them hurt…I wanted to know what he meant, was the Doctor selling him out? Ow no please
Me:”wh…what happened?” there was panic in my voice
Eugene:” she’s been talking to some investigators and my name was mentioned” he said that and walked to the lounge, I followed him
Me:” are you sure?”
Eugene:” is that a trick question? Are you telling me that my guys are lying now? Huh? Is that what you are saying? Your damn perfect Doctor messed up Andani” I looked at him and just blinked, so it was my fault? She was my Doctor now? Just yesterday he was happy that the sessions with her were going well and I never got the credit but now that she’s been found to be unfaithful I am to be blamed?
Eugene:” uhm I am sorry about that babe it’s not your fault ok? I am just….i am pissed because she betrayed me even after I told her what could happen to her but I am mostly pissed at the fact that I failed to see through her…that’s what I am mostly pissed about” he took the car keys from the table
Me:” where are you going?” he was walking to the door and I was following him
Eugene:” to work”
Me:” and the Doctor?” I was having a silence prayer. Please lord protect the poor woman and everyone close to her
Eugene:” I am giving her today to come clean…I am giving her this day to tell me that she’s been approached by some investigators regarding me…if I wake up tomorrow and she still hasn’t contacted me then…..”
Me:” then?” I was afraid of what he would do to her…this was punishable by death according to Eugene’s books…Imagine selling him out, what do you think could happen to that person?
Eugene:” then I will deal with her and her family accordingly” he said that and walked out with me on his tail. What did he mean deal with her and her family accordingly? What did the family do now?
Me:” her family? Her family didn’t do anything to you” I was shouting a bit
Eugene:” you don’t expect me to kill her right? What’s painful about that? maybe she is going to heaven for all I know so imma keep her here in this hell hole called earth with me and kill the rest of her family while she watch. That would be punishment enough for trying to bring me down….this is big Andi…if that woman gets hold of serious evidence then it could be my downfall” he got inside the car. I walked to the window
Me:” Eugene please I am begging you”
Eugene:” don’t worry about it…I am hoping that she’ll call me…I don’t want to believe that she could betray me like that” there was sadness in his voice
Me:’ you think she’ll call?”
Eugene:” I am hoping so….i would like to think that she really wanted to help me”
Me:” ok…see you when you come back from work then…what time do you knock off?”
Eugene:” around six maybe…I have lot of work today love, let me catch up ok? Even the construction company needs me so I will seriously be busy”
Me:” ok see you later” I bent down and kissed him. He drove out of the gate and I waved at him as he disappears.

Jeez I was seriously praying that the Doctor would call him immediately. I didn’t want the poor woman to suffer in the hands of Eugene. I was tempted to call the Doctor and ask her to call Eugene but that would be risky…what if she is really selling him out? He deserves to know the truth because if I get involved then he will blame me for anything that could go wrong. I decided that maybe I should wait until the end of the day and find out if the doctor has really been playing him.

After eating breakfast by myself I then started cleaning the house and then did some laundry. When I was done I took a shower. I was getting dressed when my phone rang. I checked the caller and it was Jake
Me:” hey Jake”
Jake:” hi Andani how are you doing?”
Me:” I am cool and you?”
Jake:” I guess I am cool…uhm can we do lunch?” I rolled my eyes…I wanted to go out with him but I was not sure if Eugene would let me…that didn’t come out right, I meant to say if he’d be happy about it
Me:” uhm Jake…”
Jake:” I know you are engaged so I won’t jeopardise that”
Me:” uhm…just give me five…I will call you back with an answer ok?”
Jake:” sure thing” I dropped the call and called Eugene
Eugene:” my one and only” I blushed…he always knows how to say the right things to me shame
Me:” mhm my everything”
Eugene:” is everything ok?”
Me:” uhm…there is a friend of mine who wants to have lunch with me”
Eugene:” ow…uhm do you want me to join you guys? I mean I told you that my day is gonna be long”
Me:” no it’s not that…uhm he is a guy”
Eugene:” a guy? You mean Jake?” my heart did some serious flopping and I almost chocked…how the hell did he know about Jake? I only met Jake on Tuesday and he only talked to me for less than 5 minutes…other than that, I’ve never seen Jake since my relationship with Eugene became serious and I don’t remember discussing Jake with Eugene
Me:” how do you know Jake?”
Eugene:” I just know him…you used to work with him so I obviously know him”
Me:” Eugene that didn’t give anything away”
Eugene:” I thought you’ve already given up on asking me how I did or know certain things….you will never get it…so you wanna have lunch with him?”
Me:’yes”
Eugene:” and why am I being informed? Don’t you want to go?” what the hell? Eugene loved playing games shame, he knew why I was informing him
Me:” I want to…but”
Eugeene:” if you wanna go then my opinion don’t matter….i am not going to force you to do things Andi, I want you to decide by yourself what’s right and what’s wrong ok” this was hard…what he just did now was hard. I was not even sure if the idea of me and Jake sat well with him
Me:”but what do you think about it?”
Eugene:” you really don’t want to know what I think my love…just decide on your own please…now if you don’t mind I have to get back to work”
Me:” I love you”
Gee:” I love you more” he dropped the call and I just sat there feeling confused. I called Jake right away
Jake:” hey”
Me:” uhm Jake I am sorry…I have to be somewhere, I thought I could be able to cancel but apparently I can’t…I am so sorry”
Jake:” ok cool, next time then?”
Me:” next time”  we dropped the call and I took a sigh of relief. I didn’t want to start trouble where there wasn’t any…. Eugene was a true animal and the last thing I needed was make him angry or jealous. I called him back again
Eugene:” my one”
Me:” I won’t go to lunch”
Eugene:” may I ask why?”
Me:” I just don’t feel like it anymore”
Eugene:” ow owk”
Me:” has the Doctor called yet?”
Eugene:” not yet”
Eugene:” ok…see you when you come back home”
After that call I sat there feeling uneasy. I was worried about the Doctor. I never thought she could betray him…her not calling him only meant one thing…she was working with the Police on Eugene’s case. I decided not to think more about it so I called my lawyer and discussed the lease I wanted for Karabo in Ria’s house. He said he will start working on it and then we will have a meeting to discuss it when he is done.

I spent the rest of the day just watching TV. Vhusani called me and we chatted a bit. Sitting at home the whole day made me realise that maybe I missed going to work. Round at about five I started on dinner. When I was done I cleaned up the kitchen and eagerly waited for Eugene. I was watching TV when I heard a car pulled up. He was back. I quickly got up and rushed to him. I met him at the door
Me:” hey” I said and gave him a kiss
Eugene:” hey” he was cold and distant
Me:” everything ok?”
Eugene:” yeah” he walked in and went to the kitchen
Me:” and the….Doctor?” he looked at me with those eyes that just shouts “danger”
Eugene:” nothing” I swallowed hard…so the Doctor had been really betraying him
Me:” but…w…we still have the whole night” well I didn’t want to believe that she really was playing him…if this was true then everything we’ve worked so hard for would be for nothing…Eugene will go back to square one. He opened the pots to see what I cooked
Eugene:” yeah we do” I walked to him and took his hands looking into his scary eyes
Me:” Eugene”
Eugene:”mhm”
Me:”no matter what happens my love please don’t go back…don’t do it please” he broke the eye contact and looked away
Eugene:” we will see”
Me:” I don’t want you to see, I want you to promise me that you won’t do anything….that you won’t relapse…promise me you will try hard please”
Eugene:” that woman betrayed me”
Me:” let’s wait until tomorrow to confirm that”
Eugene:” then we will have this talk tomorrow…can you dish up please”
Me:” Eugene”
Eugene:” Andani I am hungry” there goes my full name. He walked off to the living room and started taking his shoes off. I dished up the food for both of us.

The following morning I woke up and he wasn’t in bed. Lord I started panicking…what if he was gone to her already. I quickly got out of the bed and I then saw him walking from the bathroom
Me:” morning” I was a bit shaky
Eugene:” morning” he had already showered and dressed already
Me:” going to work?”
Eugene:” yeah”
Me:” and the Doctor?” I asked with my heart beating fast
Eugene:” I should do what needs to be done to those who crosses me”
Me:” Eugene I am begging you...just don’t see her anymore please…if you do anything stupid the cops will know and they will come for you”
Eugene:” stupid? I never do anything stupid and that’s why I have been able to get away with every s*** I have done so far” he was walking to the door…I walked to him
Me:” don’t kill her family” I was near tears
Eugene:” I am sorry” he had this cold look on. He kissed me on my forehead and walked away
Me:” Eugene please” I ran after him with tears in my eyes…he didn’t respond. I got to him and took his hand but he yanked it away and I failed to balance myself and I fell. I quickly got up and walked to him. He was already out of the door and opening the car
Me:” cupcake please don’t do this…you don’t have to do this…Eugene” shame he ignored me…he didn’t say anything, it was as if he couldn’t hear what I was saying. He got in the car and gave me that beasty look one more time and reversed the car. I ran to the house and all the way to the bedroom. I had to try and save that woman’s family. I couldn’t be able to live with myself knowing what and who killed them. And mostly I couldn’t be able to live with Eugene knowing what he had just done. This…whatever it is that I was about to do could not only save the Doctor’s family but my relationship with Eugene too.

I took my phone and called the Doctor right away
Lady :”Doctor Britz’s office Good morning”
Me:” uhm morning…uhm can I speak to the Doctor please…my fiancée is a client of hers and something terrible happened to him and I want to talk to her”
Lady:” uhm she is not in yet” oww gosh no
Me:” her cell phone number please…this is a matter of life and death please” I was crying
Lady:” uhm ok here is her cell phone number…076 1234567” I dialled the number on my phone as she called it out
Me:” thank you so much” I quickly dropped the call and called the Doctor immediately
Doc:” hello”
Me:” morning Doctor you are talking to Andani here…Eugene’s fiancée”
Doc:” Eugene…ow yeah I remember you”
Me:” yes he know what you’ve been doing”
Doc:” what?”
Me:” he knows that you talked to some investigators about him and he is coming for you”
Doc:”wh…what do you mean?” she was now panicking
Me:” you know what I mean so I want you to run with your family…please get a public transport or a cab and disappear into some village or some bnb in the middle of nowhere please do that for me and don’t take your cell phones with and don’t use social networks...take your whole family with you….he left here with the “kill” look on his face”
Doc:” ow my God…what have I done…oww my God what have I done?”
Me:” Doctor…Doctor please now it’s not the time for you to do that…I want you to run ok? Copy my cell phone numbers in a piece of paper and take them with you….call me after three days and I will let you know if the situation is better…. For now I want you to run and don’t tell me where you are going because I might end up telling him when he come back here”
Doc:” thank you so much”
Me:” don’t get caught because this might get me killed and I don’t wanna die for nothing ok?”
Doc:” oww my-“ and she dropped the call. I fell down on my knees realising the extent of what I had done. Eugene was going to kill me…this was going to be the end of me.

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I stayed in that position for a while and cried it out. This was bad…this was more than bad…this was worse than anything I had ever done to him. He was so going to kill me. After a very long time I got up from the floor and head to the shower. I could feel that my heart was heavy…my whole body was just tense. I got in the shower and turned on the water and just stood there as I let the water drip over me. I didn’t even wear the shower cap and I didn’t give a damn about my hair being wet. I was afraid of what he was going to do to me. After being in the shower for a very long time I got out and got dressed in just a jean and a shirt and some sandals. I was not feeling up to anything. I then dried my hair with a hairdryer and tied them up. After that I was feeling kind of hungry so I went and make myself a sandwich and ate. When I was done i knew I had to be doing something. Sitting at home and wait on Eugene to finally come back home was obviously going to kill me because I was feeling so edgy.

I decided to call my mom so that I can talk to my son. Maybe that was going to help me ease up. I talked to my mom for few minutes and she also let me talk to Omphu. Well I thought talking to my son would help a lot but it still didn’t take away the fact that I betrayed Eugene and that I could get killed for it. I thought of my son and the fact that if I die he’d have no parents…the thought cut me to the core. I then called my sister who picked up immediately
Rinae:” hey baby sis” I rolled my eyes
Me:” I am never going to get rid of you calling me baby sis now am i?” she laughed
Rinae:” give it up already…it’s not gonna happen…I will call you baby sis even when you are 60” I found myself laughing
Me:” so how are you?”
Rinae:” mhm….i am great...well perfect I guess” she sounded happy shame
Me:” ow?”
Rinae:” yeah Mulalo and I have been open about lot of stuff and yeah I am working on my issue with my friends”
Me:”huh?”
Rinae:” oww I forgot to tell you that one of the things that drove us apart was my friends…I involved them too much in my marriage so I am working on that now…this is one piece of advice I am giving you Andi…never get your friends too involved in your relationship and don’t always seek advice from them...always follow your own heart” well I guess I didn’t really need friends in order to ruin my relationship…I was doing it all by myself
Me:” thanks hey but unlike you I don’t have much friends”
Rinae:” yeah lucky you”
Me:” I just wanted to hear how you are doing”
Rinae:” thanks for checking up on me hey…I am so in love with my husband” I smiled
Me:” now that’s music to my ears” we chatted a bit longer and then ended the call.

I sat there still feeling empty and scared. I was definitely not looking forward to seeing him…I was terrified of this meeting. I then took the car keys and my handbag and left the house. I needed to do some shopping shame…well I didn’t actually needed to…but I wanted to…maybe it was going to help me forget…who knows. I drove to Canal Walk…I wanted to shop somewhere where I would be able to walk into various shops and have a choice of what to buy and what not to buy. So I bought four pairs of high heels for myself…if you ask me why, well I don’t know….i was not even working anymore and I hardly wear heels when I go shopping but I guess I was just buying them for some sort of satisfaction because shopping has that effect on a woman…it has the ability to make us forget the things we wanna forget.

After shoe shopping I looked for a beautiful dress that I could look sexy on. I went to some boutique where I came across a black knee high tight fitting dress…lord help me it looked sexy…it had two gold lines around the neck. I took it to the fitting room and damn…it didn’t disappoint…I was definitely taking it home. I asked the boutique manager if I could change into a dress and she didn’t have a problem with it so i changed into that dress and wore one of the new high heel shoes I bought. Damn it….i looked at myself and loved what I saw. I took out my make-up from my bag and applied a little bit of it while still in the fitting room. I looked at myself and I looked terribly sexy. I paid the money for the dress and also gave the cashier extra…the dress was way too beautiful that costing a thousand rand felt like getting it for free. I then walked out of the shop feeling like a damn sexy boss and for that few minutes I felt as if Eugene wouldn’t hurt me, and for few seconds there my fears had evaporated. I then did a little bit more shopping for my son…I bought him few clothes. I planed to courier them home or take them with me when I finally go there.

By the time I finish shopping I was already hungry and decided to go to some Italian restaurant for some food. I got there and chose a table. The waiter came and took my order. I was sitting there waiting for my order when I saw Jake walking in with another guy I used to work with. Oww not him…why now anyway? Just as I had thought, they spotted me and walked to me. I don’t know what was it with me and Jake bumping into each other…really it was weird and could add to the reasons why Eugene would need to kill me. I mean he wouldn’t really believe that I bumped into Jake again now can he?
Jake:” hey you”
Thabiso:” wow hey stranger…long time hey?” they all had smiles on. I got up and gave them each a hug
Me:” we are not working together so yeah…you can’t expect to see me regularly” they sat down on my table…but why though? I didn’t invite them? Did they just invite themselves on my table?
Thabiso:” I get that but a little visit once a month wouldn’t hurt anyone”
Jake:”exactly”
They were laughing…I forced myself to laugh but I wasn’t really into it…I wanted them to leave my table already. The waiter came back and guess what? The gents took their order and they even had the decency to ask me what I had ordered. Lord why was I been tested like this? Eugene was going to kill me twice today…that’s if something like that really exists
Me:” but Jake I am starting to think that you are stalking me…Thabiso can you believe that just another day…well on Monday to be precise I ran into him in a restaurant”
Thabiso:” mhm and now that you’ve mentioned it…it was his idea for us to come have lunch here” we all burst out laughing
Thabiso:” so when are you popping up in our office?”
Jake:” you should come sometime hey, our department misses you…damn woman you were good at your job”
Me:” I kinda miss that job too you know….i will try find some time to come visit” they smiled
Jake:” do you remember your first day in the office?” we all laughed…how could I forget…I remembered very well
Thabiso:” well I remember….Jake was following you around the whole day like a lost puppy and he kept on asking if you needed anything” we continued laughing
Me:” owww noooo Thabiso don’t even go there”
Jake:” no man it was all her fault…I mean she didn’t even bother to tell me that she was rolling with the boss yeses”
Me:” but did you honestly expected me to just come out and say I am dating your boss on my first day? Hell no”  the waiter brought our drinks and I took a sip from mine
Thabiso:” on a serious note now Andi…you are missed hey”
I ate lunch with Thabiso and Jake and shame there were laughter’s throughout our lunch…all we did was go down memory lane and burst out laughing. After about 45 minutes they said they had to go back to work. I was done with my shopping so I walked with them to the parking still laughing. When we reached my car Thabiso said goodbye and went to Jake’s car and I was left standing there with Jake
Jake:” seriously now….you look smoking hot”
Me:” ow…thanks”
Jake:” I will see you around then?”
Me:” sure thing” he hugged me goodbye and walked off.

I got inside the car with a smile and as soon as I sat inside my car the smile evaporated. My mind immediately took me back to the reality. The reality was that I had betrayed my man and that death might have been closer than I had ever thought. I drove home. When I got there I took all my shopping bags with me to the house. I took the shoes I bought to the bedroom and then came back and started preparing dinner. I know it was early for me to do so but I had nothing else to do. The time was now just before three in the afternoon. I was about to finish preparing the food when I heard the car pulling up at the drive way. I looked through the window and it was the Ferrari, so Eugene was back. He came back earlier than I thought. Probably because he realised what a traitor I had been to him.

He walked in carrying a plastic bag. He came into the kitchen and put the plastic bag on the table. He came to me and pulled me towards him without saying a word
Me:” hey” I said as he quizzed me into his arms
Eugene:” hey” he broke the hug and looked deep into my eyes…ow my God did he know? Or maybe he found them…did he?
Eugene:” I bought some fruits…I figured we only have apples in the fridge” he said taking out the strawberries, grapes and more apples and putting them in the fridge
Me:” thanks” I was swallowing. I was seriously scared
Eugene:” I am starving…how far are you?”
Me:” 30 minutes tops”
Eugene:” I will be in the shower so long…please dish up as soon as you are done” with that he walked away and disappeared into the passage. Ok he didn’t say anything but he seemed pissed. Well the fact that he didn’t mention anything to me meant that maybe he didn’t know that I tipped the Doctor or maybe he caught her before she got anywhere so her family is already dead as we speak. I felt tears coming out of my eyes….i was not sure what to do with myself. I was scared for myself and for the Dr’s family.

When I was done cooking I dished up for both of us and took the plates to the living room. I then went to the spare bathroom and cleaned myself up. When I came back Eugene was already sitting on the sofa watching sports on TV. I got there and took his plate and handed it to him and then took mine. We started eating in silence. I decided to break the ice
Me:” so how was your day?”
Eugene:” hectic” he was staring straight at the TV.
Me:” I went shopping because I was bored and I ran into Jake with another one of my former colleagues” I decided to fill him in even though he didn’t ask. At least that would assure him that I wasn’t hiding anything
Eugene:” oww it must have been great” he was not looking at me or even attempting to
Me:” yeah it was” and that was it…he didn’t say anything after that and I didn’t know what else to say so we went silent. When we were done eating I took our plates to the kitchen. He followed me and helped me wash them. We walked back to the lounge
Eugene:” so the Doctor disappeared” I felt my heart throbbing, my insides turning, my whole body shaking and my hair rising…bottom line is I was frightened
Me:”ow?” I said hugging myself and standing in the middle of the room. He was standing across me standing against the wall looking straight at me with his beasty eyes…Gosh he knew…that look only meant that I was in trouble
Eugene:’ yeah it seems like somebody tipped her off. I mean why else would her husband not pitch for work and her kids not pitch for school….they are all gone and nobody know where they are…their cell phones are at home, car at home and they haven’t used social networks since this morning while they were still at home” I swallowed. He moved closer to me
Eugene:” so obviously  somebody told her what was up. It couldn’t have been my guys…they know better than to talk…they know that I’d kill them without second thought….so cupcake…do you have anything you wanna tell me?” The calmness of his voice is what deeply bothered me…lord he was so calm it scared the s*** out of me…why would he be this calm knowing what I did. I tried to look at him and his eyes pierced through me so hard that I couldn’t even look at him for two seconds…I looked down
Me:” it was me” I whispered
Eugene:” it was you who did what?” ow God why was he so calm…the calmness was intimidating…I felt like I was on a trial
Me:” I tipped her off Eugene” this time I looked at him and I saw him swallowing and grinding his teeth and then his eyes changed to those of an animal. My blood pressure went up and my breathing escalated to the highest point it could ever reach. He closed his eyes looking away for a brief moment and then open them again and looked at me
Eugene:” why would you do that?” that was more of a hiss
Me:” Eugene…i…I am sorry”

Within the blink of an eye he was walking to me so fast and I knew that this was the end of me. The word “kill” was written all over his face. I walked backward knowing full well that this was my final moment as a living human being. I stumbled upon the couch and fell on it. Eugene got to me and picked me up like I was a piece of a paper and then held his fist up to punch me on the face…I closed my eyes as I wait for him to hit me but he never did so opened my eyes slowly and found his fist held up at mid-air. I looked at him breathing heavily. If that fist had come in contact with my face then I was probably going to lose all my teeth and my face would be permanently rearranged. He looked at me with anger and then at his hand and then frowned but then stopped. He then took me to the wall and pinned me against it.
Eugene:”do.you.have.any.idea.what.you’ve.done?” he roared….tears starting welling up.
He held me by my neck and squeezed it so tight. I tried to scream and to plead with him but I couldn’t. All I did was move my legs as they were hanging at mid-air…I tried to remove his hands to no avail and within seconds I was running out of breath and I knew it was the end. I looked at him and searched for my Eugene…my Cupcake and I knew he wasn’t there anymore. The beast in him was out….the worst part of it all was that I summoned it out and it swallowed him. I closed my eyes as I accept defeat and then that’s when he threw me down. I coughed holding my neck. He looked at me with disgust and disappointment

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Eugene:” do you have any idea what you’ve done to me? What you’ve woken up?” I looked at him and just cried. I knew exactly what I had done and it pained me. He picked me up from the floor and held both my hands so tight
Me:” I know Eugene and I am sorry but someone had to do something. I couldn’t just stand by and let you kill innocent people, not after everything we’ve done to make you better”
Eugene:” all you had to do was trust me Andani…all you had to do was wait and see what the outcome was going to be. Even if I decided to kill them…it’s not like I lied to you and say I will never kill people ever again….all I said was that I wanna fight my addiction, which is something different from what I wanted to do to the Doctor”
Me:” I wanted to save you from yourself”
Eugene:” the most painful part of all this is not that you tipped her off…the sick part is the fact that you betrayed me…for the second time Andi…you betrayed and lied to me…that’s what is more painful….that’s what broke me…and you sat down there and ate with me knowing full well what you’ve done. You had the whole day to call me and apologise for this mistake Andi...i would have understood but you didn’t….do you think I am a fool? Did you think I wouldn’t know? You’ve killed me…how in a world am I supposed to trust you after this huh? I waited the whole day for you to call me and tell me that you’ve made a mistake and that you are sorry but you didn’t do that…somehow I wanted to believe that you were better than this…but I was wrong” he was shouting and Looking at him I could clearly see that he was enraged.
Me:” I am sorry” that’s all I could manage to say…I had lost all sense of reasoning, I couldn’t even defend myself
Eugene:” that’s the sickest part…you knew that all you had to do was say sorry and the puppy dog Eugene who is head over heels with you will forgive you….this is not one of those things Andi…you broke everything I have worked so hard for you know….that sick traitor of a Doctor was right about one thing…you are bad for me…you are bad as my coping mechanism…I gave you too much credit” he let go of me and sat down on the couch with his hands on his head while his elbows where on his knees and he sobbed. Looking at him like that i knew I had broken him.
Me:” I am sorry…i…I wanted to save them…I had to save them Eugene…I did it for us because I couldn’t live with myself knowing what you had done to them”
Eugene:” but I lived with you knowing that you cheated on me with a man who did nothing but abused you and cheated on you repeatedly….i stayed with you Andani…our struggles are not the same but all you had to do was support me the same way I supported you and restored your faith in love….have faith in me ok? But you failed to do that” he was now calm and not shouting anymore
Me:” I am sorry” I sobbed
Eugene:” that woman is helping out the people who want to put me away for a very very long time and if by any chance my trial happens in the US then I can also face chances of getting death sentence….but I guess you didn’t think about that. Do you know what else worries me? I am not sure if you love me anymore, I am not even sure if you turned McCarthy down for real…what if you are working for them and all this time you’ve been pretending? I feel like a damn fool for believing that someone can love me for me” he said in a calm voice while looking away
Me:” Eugene I will never sell you out I promise…you got rid of McCarthy, you know that I haven’t been talking to him” I said in a desperate attempt to make him believe me
Eugene:” do you have any idea what I wanna do to you right now?” he was looking at me as he wiped the tears on his face. I shook my head in fear…I didn’t want to know
Eugene:” I love you….i really do but right now all I feel for you is hate….i hate the fact that you’ve taken me back to square one…I am losing my mind right now and my whole mind and body is screaming to me telling me one language I have always understood…I wanna do the one thing I’ve been trying so hard to stay away from….do you have any idea how that feels? To wanna do something with your whole being knowing full well that it’s wrong and you are not supposed to do it? It’s so damn painful because I remember all the reasons why I shouldn’t do it but I can’t stop myself” he got up and walked out of the room. Lord he was going to hurt someone….all because of me.

I ran to him
Me:” Eugene stop it” I was crying…he just kept on walking. I got to him and took his hand
Me:” you are stronger than this please don’t go there”
Eugene:” let me the f*** go” he hissed
Me:” I am not…you’ll feel terrible afterwards and I won’t let you do that to yourself”
Eugene:”nothing can feel as terrible as the person you trust the most stabbing you in the back” he pushed me away and I fell on the floor. I quickly got up and ran to him.
Me:” Eugene I love you, you know that…I love you more than anything” I said as he was opening the door
Eugene:” well I wish I never loved you more than anything because this is the price I pay….the never-ending pain that will bring back every little nightmare, every little pain I have suffered, every little miserable memory of my childhood and most importantly it brings back the edge to do nothing else but hurt people….i hate you for that” he wiped off his tears and got inside the car. I ran to him…I couldn’t give up….letting him get out of the house meant that people were going to get hurt and it was all going to be my fault
Me:” I know I messed up cupcake please I am sorry”
Eugene:” maybe you don’t really know what you mean to me. You are not just someone I love and that I intend on spending the rest of my life with Andi…you are also someone that keeps me sane…it’s the visions of our future that makes me wanna be better…the thought of having a forever with you make me believe that there is more to life than just being whatever it is that I am….you make me cope, make me believe in better things and I never thought you’d stab be in the back…I trusted you so much and with what you did comes the downfall of every little vision I have had of us…every little hope I have had because of you, it’s all coming down….right now I feel worthless and If it’s what you wanted then you’ve succeeded” how could it be what I wanted? Didn’t he understand? I never wanted to hurt him
Me:” what? Babe noo”
Eugene:”we are done Andani…I am going to pretend like I never knew you….i can’t take the betrayal after betrayal…if this is what love is all about then I am out” those words…I never in a million years anticipated him to say those words. Did he just dump me? I stood there feeling rather dumbstruck to move or to even try talk to him or stop him. I just stood there as I let the reality sunk in….Eugene have had enough of me. I grinded my teeth and battled to breathe as I realised what I had done. I didn’t just break his heart or his trust….i made him become the monster he once was.

I then snapped out of whatever episode I was having and ran back inside the house. I had to do something. I had to try and find him so that I could stop him. I had to convince him that I didn’t do it to hurt him. I only did it because I didn’t want him to hurt anymore people, he should believe that. Right now he thought I purposely broke his heart and that I might have been working with the Feds which was not true. I had to try and get through to him, try and make him see reason again. I walked to the house and took my car keys. I walked out to the car and got in and then drove out.

I drove to his office. I was hoping to find Lusani there. He seemed like Eugene’s right hand man and maybe he would know where I can find him. i got to the building and parked my car and ran inside the building immediately. I knew Eugene’s office but I didn’t know who the rest of the offices belonged to. So I went to the reception and asked for Lusani. I didn’t even know his surname. Lucky me the receptionist didn’t ask questions…she just told me that he went out of the office and will be back shortly so I had to wait for him at the reception area. I sat on the bench and waited. With each ticking second I couldn’t help but think that Eugene was probably doing his best to get to his victim…or maybe he had already got his hands on one…lord the thought of it made me sick to my stomach. Why did I love someone who is this damaged? Why didn’t I get someone normal? If I was dating someone normal then I wouldn’t be going through s*** like this. I sat there and waited.

A guy walked in after 30 minutes of my waiting. He walked in and went to the receptionist who pointed at me as she was talking to him. I got up and walked to him assuming that it was Lusani
Me:” hey” he signalled for me to follow him as he was walking to his office
Lusani:” uhm…hi” he seemed nervous…did he know who I was?
Me:” uhm my name is A-“
Lusani:” I know who you are…what I am failing to understand is why do you want to see me…the receptionist gave me a call saying that you were waiting for me” he said while he was unlocking his  office and we got in
Me:” uhm you do know that I am engaged to Eugene right?”
Lusani:” yeah”
Me:” I need your help” I tried my best to keep calm and not to cry…he raised an eyebrow as he sit on his chair and signalled for me to sit on another chair
Lusani:  I don’t think I can….i can only do things after Gee’s instructions…I don’t even think you should be here”
Me:” Lusani you are my only hope ok? I don’t know how much you know about my fiancée but we fought and he Is furious right now…he left the house in a rush and I am sure that wherever he is going he is going to hurt someone…please help me find him so that I can try calm him down”
Lusani:” with all due respect ma’am you should leave my office…I can’t be seen talking to you about anything without his orders….if he is as angry as you say he is then I really don’t wanna get on his bad side…I can’t help you”
Me:” Lusani I won’t tell him that it was you who told me where he is”
Lusani:” you don’t have to tell him…sometimes he just knows things so please….if he wants to talk to you he will come back to the house…leave”
Me:” thanks for nothing” I furiously got up and left the office. I got to my car and sat in there and thought about where he could have gone.

There were parts of me that wanted to just give up and let him be. But I knew that I loved him and that he needed my help. Eugene was a troubled soul and his addiction was more of a sickness that he was battling with. I was a temporary cure to the sickness and now that I had betrayed him then it was obvious that the sickness will get worse. That’s how addiction works…those people who are addicted wants to change, they know they have to change and sometimes they even know how to change but they just can’t do it by themselves. So I knew that wherever Eugene was he was already feeding off his addiction and when he was done he’d feel bad afterwards or become worse than he was in the past….so I had to find him.

Damn…how could I not think of it….his business house…that’s where he could be. I quickly drove out and then drove straight to his house. I opened the gate and drove in. his car was parked at the drive way. So he was here then. I quickly got out and unlocked the door and walked in. There was loud music playing in one of the rooms. I ran towards the direction where the music was coming from. I got to the room and stood at the door before I could open. My whole body was shaking….i was petrified…I said a little prayer hoping not to find what I was thinking. I slowly opened the door and damn.

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I am 27 years old and I could honestly say that I have never seen something so blood-curdling in my life. I looked at him as horror strike and reality sunk in….there was a man who was on the floor screaming his lungs out and Eugene was holding a knife with blood on his hands…there were other tools on the floor. Eugene was wearing a white apron which had blood everywhere. By some mistake the man’s eyes short at me and he shouted…
“Lady run! Call the police, run!” I stood there and couldn’t move an inch. I was shaking and feeling cold at the same time. Eugene turned around and my eyes met his. His eyes were beasty and ready to kill…as soon as he saw me his facial expression changed to something even scarier…and I knew I had to run. I turned around and ran out of there and he followed me
Eugene:’ Andani”
I didn’t want to listen to him…matter of fact, I didn’t even want to see him anymore. My legs became wobbly and I failed to balance myself as I was running and I fell. I wanted to get up again and continue running but I couldn’t because I started vomiting. I couldn’t erase the picture of what I saw….it was spine-chilling and disgusting at the same time, the amount of blood that was on the floor…gosh I couldn’t believe what I just saw. He got to me and tried to touch me but then he realised that he had blood on his hands. I couldn’t stomach the fact that Eugene relapsed and was now back to his old ways.
Eugene:” cupcake” he was now breathing heavily.
Cupcake? I was not his bloody cupcake….he should go to pick n pay for his cupcake…I was done…I couldn’t deal. He took off the apron he was wearing and threw it on the floor and then wiped his hands with his t shirt. He then came and held my head as I bent down and vomit. I looked at his hands with the corner of my left eye and they had blood on them… Someone’s blood…I cringed at the sight that was in front of me.
Eugene:” I will be back in a sec…don’t leave because I will follow you” he said that and ran back to the room. He closed the door and locked it and then came back to me. I was done vomiting. I got up and stood in the middle of the room. I couldn’t face him. I looked back through the passage and all I saw was blood from his footsteps. I looked at that apron and I couldn’t believe my eyes. So this is what made him happy? Doing this?

Me:” so you did it?” I was crying…he just looked at me and said nothing. I was now standing in the middle of the room
Me:” but Eugene why?”  I shouted. He still just looked at me. I felt like I failed…like everything we’ve done to try and help him was all for nothing
Me:” you know what…you were right…me and you? We can’t work” I said and tried to walk but he took my hand
Me:” don’t touch me with your bloodied hands please” he let go of my hand
Eugene:” I…I didn’t want you to see that, to see me like this…Andani I need help…i…I can’t help myself”
Me:” I thought I made you better”
Eugene:” but today you made me worse” his eyes were teary
Me:” no I didn’t…you’ve been wanting to do this all along and you were just waiting for me to make one mistake so that you can find a reason to go back to your old self…this has nothing to do with the betrayal, this is about you not wanting to leave this life style. I mean just one mistake from me and you are here?”
Eugene:” that’s not true and you know it”
Me:” I am done here” I said crying and walking away...i turned around and looked at him
Me:” you know what Eugene…you are just one bloody weak monster…one mistake from me and you fall off the wagon? I am not a robot that you can just program to act a certain way…I am a human being and I make mistakes ok? My mistakes shouldn’t mean that people need to die” I was crying
Eugene:” I thought you understood what addiction is…but you clearly don’t” I walked to the door and remembered the man in the room…was he still going to finish him off? I held the door lock and looked at it
Me:” if there is still a little bit of you left in there then let that man go please” I looked at him and he looked away
Me:” please”
Eugene:” done...you know I don’t know how you managed to turn this around and make it to be about me and all….you are forgetting that this is about you failing to do what you promised me…you promised me support and staying out of my business but you failed to do both in the space of one day….and I admit that I was too weak to cope with that and I admit that I am a weak blood-spilling monster but you should also own up to the fact that you are a non-trustworthy spoilt little brat who tend to think that the whole freaking world revolve around what she thinks….you should sit down and consider other people’s feelings at times. Maybe Kat was right, you are not cut out for this” I looked at him like what the f*** did he mean? Bringing Kat into this? Wow that was rich coming from him
Me:” you didn’t just say that” he looked away. I turned around and walked to him
Me:” so you are saying that you’d rather be with her than being with me? Is that it? You wanna go back to your skimpy Kat?” he didn’t say anything.
Me:” if you think I will let you go back to her then you are very much mistaken” I turned around and walked out of the door.
I got inside the car and sat there as I let tears come out. What was this? What was happening here? Pictures of Eugene with that man flooded my mind. I knew I had to let him go…I couldn’t be with someone like him…it’s just….it can’t work. I drove out of there as quickly as I could. I didn’t even know where to go…could I go to his house? I wanted to go there…that was my home now, I had moved in with him. But he told me that it’s over and I think I wanted it to be over too. Well let me just go back there…if our relationship was really ending then we’d have to sit down and discuss it.

***
After Andani had left Eugene sat on the couch as he listened to his heart throbbing. He looked around the room and felt defeated. He knew he loved her, he loved her more than anything else in this world but he never imagined that his life could be this complicated. All he dreamt about since he met her was perfectness…he never saw this coming. This was one thing that Rod forgot to mention to him…Rod didn’t tell him that women can really be a nuisance at times, all that he expected was a perfect happy relationship. Yes he expected little fights here and there but not something this massive. He couldn’t deal with someone defying him…it was something he was not used to and having Andani did what she did…gosh she should be thankful that she was still breathing at this moment….that took a hell lot of strength for him to restrain himself like that.

He felt confused though…his head was spinning. He had tasked some guys to look for the Dr and he knew that by tomorrow morning she will be on his custody. But the question was….what will he do with her and her family? He didn’t want to upset Andani further so maybe he could let the Doctor go? Ahg no man but that woman betrayed him. Andani was already angry at him and it’s not like letting the Doctor go would change anything. Ahg I will decide when I meet her tomorrow, he thought as he got up and walked to the room where he kept the guy.

He opened the door and walked in. the man was still tied up and was shaking in pain.
Eugene:” today is your lucky day” he looked at the man who was crying. He wanted to stop...he knew he had to but damn this whole thing was tempting. Looking at him like that…scared and in pain….that was an epic moment for him…something that he could do anything to experience. He looked at the man for a brief moment just enjoying the view
Man:” please my man I promise you…I would never hurt them again…I’ve heard everything you’ve been saying” Eugene cracked a smile
Eugene:” damn it, I wanna stop so bad but that begging…you begging me is a show stopper…that’s the best” he said with an evil smile as he felt the rush of satisfaction run through his body. He moved closer to the man and took a grander. The man screamed even louder and cried like a baby
Eugene:” owww you are scared?”
He knew that stopping was not possible anymore. He was about to cut his hand when his mind took him to how scared and upset Andani was when she saw him like this. He held the grander and debated with himself…damn his whole body was telling him to do it…it was as if he could see how this man was going to scream at the pain but then the look on Andi’s face kept coming back to him. The pleasure of torturing this man was defeated by the yearning to be better for her. He switched off the grander and put it down. He sat on the floor and just sobbed. Parts of his body wanted to do this…bigger parts of him wanted to do this but then what about Andani? If he fails to stop himself now then what? There won’t be hope for him and her anymore but at least if he stops then there could be some hope. He felt confused….maybe he could work on making himself better and then…just then maybe they can try on their relationship again. See? There was little hope there. He walked to the man and removed the hand cuffs.
Eugene:” I am letting you go…you should thank your God for this” the man didn’t say anything but just cried
Eugene:” if I hear as much as a thought about this then I will kill you ok? As for what you did to your wife…dude do as much as talk to her the wrong way then you are gone from the face of the earth do you hear me?” the man nodded
Eugene:” and don’t even think of the Police…dude I am an international criminal and won’t be arrested for something as small as this…if anything, taking me to the police will be signing off a death warrant” the man nodded again
Eugene:” cool….that’s my nigga right there” he took the man to the shower and asked him to take a quick shower, after that he bandaged him and gave him clean clothes. He didn’t want him to go to the clinic. By the time the man was taking a shower Eugene managed to wash his hands and just his face and then changed into clean clothes.
Eugene:” so when your wife asks what happened then you tell her that you got stabbed and went to the clinic ok?”
Man:”yes”
Eugene:” cool then…lets go” he walked out to the car and drove the man to the deserted location. All the while the man was even scared to look at Eugene…he kept shaking and was looking out the window the whole time. When they got to the deserted area Eugene told the man to get out and he gave him R200 bucks so that he could be able to hike. He then drove to his home where he knew Andani would be. He called Lusani on the way to organise for a very quick clean up at his business house. He gave him clear instructions on how to do the job. He wanted the house to be clean within 30 minutes just in case that stupid scumbag decide to turn him in to the Police.

He then drove to the house and found Andi’s BMW at the driveway. She was back home. He remembered what he said about not wanting her in his life anymore….did he mean that? Well he loved her but he was seriously not sure if staying with her was a good idea anymore. She was always going to get in the way…she was never going to understand his life style. He got out of the car and walked inside the house. She was sitting in the lounge just staring into space.
***

I was sitting in the couch looking into space thinking about everything when Eugene walked in. the nerve he has though. Why did he follow me?
Me:” I will move back to my house” I said not looking at him
Eugene:” no you don’t have to…uhm something happened” I raised an eyebrow
Eugene:” I stopped”
Me:” you stopped what?” I was not understanding
Eugene:” the victim…the man I had in my house Andi…it was hard for me to let him go…I switched on the grander and was ready to do things to him but I thought of you and that was enough to make me stop” he said with a little smile creeping in to his face. I looked at him with my straight face
Me:’ so?”
Eugene:” what do you mean so?”
Me:” what am I supposed to do? Buy Champagne so that we can celebrate? You were not even supposed to have that man in your house in the first place…that bloody episode was not supposed to happen. Eugene I just can’t do this anymore. I am a human being and I am bound to make mistakes or to disagree with you but this will be the pattern of events we will face each time I mess up. You will go out trying to hurt people…you will grab me by my neck and scare the s**t out of me…I can’t do it” his face fell
Me:” I feel like I am living for you…trying to make sure that you are better and all that but what about me? What about what I feel and think? Eugene we are partners and you should also learn to listen to me. Yes I betrayed you but did you ever stop to think about how this looks or feel on my side? Having the man I love killing a whole family? Did you really expect me to turn a blind eye and let you kill them? I am a human being who never went through the s*** you went through as a child but I am trying my best to understand but I couldn’t let you kill them…at least if I didn’t know then that was going to be another case. I was not going to be able to look at you after knowing what you did” he looked at me for a long time without saying a word
Eugene:” you can stay in the house…I will come fetch my stuff maybe tomorrow or a day after…I will contact you" he turned around
Me:” and where are you going? To kill more people?” he turned around and looked at me
Eugene:” I won’t do it…I promise”
Me:” so we are done?”
Eugene:” we are too different…I am scared of all this….the pain I feel because of you sometimes overcomes me…I am seriously scared”
Me:” I am also scared of what you can be capable of in the future…I don’t want to see more than what I saw today”
Eugene:” I guess with all that said…it’s all clear now” he turned around and got to the door
Eugene:” we tried” he said looking at me and wiping off a tear
Me:” we did” I swallowed. He walked out of the house

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I got up as soon as I saw him walking out and I stood at the door and watched him walk to the car. I stood there looking at him and felt my heart breaking. He looked back at me with nothing but sadness in his eyes. He walked back to me and then gave me a loooong hug. I held him tight and didn’t want to let go. I wanted to stay in his arms forever. I think the feeling was mutual because he couldn’t break the hug either so we stayed in each other’s arms for a while until he broke it.
Eugene:” I will give you a call before coming for my clothes and if it makes the situation any better….you can be out when I arrive. I won’t even be here for an hour”
Me:” ok” I was wiping off my tears
Me:” you understand that I really tried right?” he looked at me with half a smile
Eugene:” I know you did…you don’t have to stress yourself about it. We both cannot cope so its chilled” he said that and walked to the car and then got in. I looked at him as he started the car and drove out of the yard. I walked inside the house and locked the door. So Eugene was really gone and things between us were over. I walked to the couch and sat there hugging myself.

I know I was supposed to feel relieved. I mean I didn’t have to worry about the blood and all that creepy stuff about his addiction anymore but hey I wasn’t relieved….i was in great pain. Knowing that I had lost my Eugene hurt so bad. I loved him…God knows I did but there was just this wall between us….we tried to work through it but we both failed. I sat there and rocked myself back and forth as I let tears fall. So I was alone again. I felt like everything I had been through with him had been for nothing. Rialivhuwa died for a damn nothing….i went through all those sleepless nights thinking about how to help him for nothing…I felt like a failure. I got my son’s father killed for a damn fling that didn’t even last for a year. I sat there and sobbed. Rialivhuwa was an asshole I know but I felt better knowing that he Killed him for us but now….i have always felt guilty about Ria’s death but right now I felt double as guilty.

***
Eugene drove out of the house and all the way to his business house in Monte Vista. When he got there the house was spotless. There was no sign of the episode that just happened between him and his victim. Lusani was sitting on the couch waiting for his boss to come back
Eugene:” does seeing you here in my lounge mean that the job is done?” he looked angry…well pissed
Lusani:” all done sir”
Eugene:” good” he gave Lusani a questioning look
Lusani:” uhm your…uhm…your fiancée came by my office today asking me about your whereabouts…I didn’t tell her s*** though…so I just don’t want you to hear from other people” so Andani went to Lusani? How? How does she even know him? Maybe ending this relationship was for the best. That girl is way too inquisitive…Kat was never like this…she knew her place. Wait a minute? Did I just compare Andani with Katlego? Damn
Eugene:” its fine” he walked past Lusani and then turned around and looked back at him
Eugene:” was there anything else?”
Lusani:” you are supposed to fly off to Ghana tomorrow, I have already booked the ticket…remember that meeting with Fabo and the others?”
Eugene:” s***! uhm you’re gonna have to go on my place”
Lusani:” what? That’s a quarterly meeting Gee, you need to be there remember? “
Eugene:” no I don’t need to and I won’t be there…you are going” Lusani got up as fear showed all over his face
Lusani:” Gee I know that maybe you are going through some serious s*** right now but imagine me in the quarterly meetings? That’s for big dogs like you”
Eugene:” well you have few hours to transform into a big dog bro…that’s a one day meeting and it only takes few hours. I told you last time when we were having it here that you should take notes….i will brief you quickly tomorrow morning before you leave”
Lusani:” ok boss you  might decide to kill me after this but someone has to say it and since there is no one with enough balls to voice it out then I will do it….uhm here it goes” Eugene frowned at him
Lusani:” that fiancée of yours is not good for you. I understand you love her and all but damn Gee that girl is driving you crazy and you are abandoning your most important responsibilities…you’ve become a softy all of a sudden and you want me to do almost everything. People are starting to wonder where you are? You are not showing your face anymore or calling people and stuff….it’s really affecting the business” Eugene Grinded his teeth
Lusani:” I know it’s not my place but please Gee let her go. You fight almost every day and when you do…you mop around not wanting to do anything and then when you are happy with her...you wanna be with her the whole time, you hardly have time for the business. You gotta change my man because if you don’t….you’ll lose everything you’ve been building for years and all for what? a woman? Let her go…I understand you need someone but get someone from our team or something. Someone who will know her boundaries, someone who will know not to cross you. I mean look now, she tipped off the Doctor”
Eugene:” who told you that?”
Lusani:” I learned from the best Gee…..i have learned to calculate things. If it was one of us then you would have send out an order for someone to get killed but your mood was fowl the whole day and only she can do that to you. You don’t sulk when we do something wrong…you shout, kill and punish and that’s the end of it. But when you drag your feet like you were doing today….only she can do that to you” Eugene looked at Lusani feeling rather shocked than angry. The boy had some serious balls huh? To talk to him like this? It only showed that he was growing up…he was becoming like his mentor…like me, Eugene thought as he cracked a smile
Eugene:” you know what….those balls…the balls that gave you the nerve to say all these is the reason why you are going to Ghana….i’d be happy to die knowing that you have things under control….just like when Rod died knowing that I had the hang of things”
Lusani:” Gee I….”
Eugene:” I am being a little bit too friendly right now, we don’t want to see that other side of me now do we?” Lusani looked at Eugene and smiled
Lusani:” ok I am leaving…just know that I am just trying to look out for you”
Eugene:” start with the meeting preparations”
Lusani:” sure” Lusani walked out

Eugene stood in the middle of the room and asked himself if he had really become a softy….did he? Lusani was right though…he had been neglecting the business. With Andani out of the way then he could start being hands on with the business again….maybe even go to Ghana. He sent Lusani an sms telling him that he will go to Ghana the following day. Eugene was about to head to the bedroom when someone buzzed at the gate. He wondered who it was. Lusani had the keys so it wasn’t him coming back in and neither was it Andani. Nobody visits him here…unless it was Kat maybe? He rolled his eyes and pressed the button to open the gate. He opened the door and walked outside. The Police Van drove in. he immediately knew that the stupid Mr Mabunda opened a case. He quickly took out his phone and called Andani. He was hoping that she would pick up and thank God she did.
***
I was still sitting on the couch when my phone rang. I took it and checked the caller….it was Eugene…what did he want? I decided to pick up so that I can hear what was happening
Me:” hello”
Eugene:” Andani the Police are here to arrest me ok? I went to work today, came back and found you finishing up cooking, we ate the food and then we fought because you wanted to leave for Limpopo and I was refusing so I stomped out of the house and drove to my house in Monte Vista. You followed me to the office and you couldn’t find me, you then drove to Monte Vista and that’s where I was. You walked in and found me in the lounge holding a glass of whiskey, we had a little bit of argument and you left…I then followed you to the house because I had to get my work laptop which was there,…I then drove out and came back to the house…please this is the story for what happened today. You never saw any blood or any person in my house. As for that man…you’ve seen him a couple of times outside your house and you also saw him when we were moving in together while he was outside my yard. He asked for your contacts but you refused…you told me that you found it creepy to have this man follow you around like that….please cupcake, don’t disappoint” he dropped the call.
Ok what was happening here? So Eugene was getting arrested and he wanted me to lie on his behalf? So that man had got him arrested and Eugene wanted me to say that the man was stalking me? Then it would look like that man wanted Eugene out of the picture so that he could have me for himself…clever idea from Eugene but I don’t know if I could lie like that. I just sat there unsure of what or how to feel or if I should even help him. I thought of McCarthy and the deal he made to me…I knew everything about Eugene and could take him down if I wanted to but I didn’t want to. As for him torturing that poor man….Eugene shouldn’t have done that

After a long time I walked to the shower where I took a very quick shower. When I was done I came back to the bedroom and got dressed in some tracksuits. I sat on the bed and realised that I missed him….i missed his jokes and his love. I then remembered that he was arrested…gosh we had broken up…am I even allowed to go see him? What if I go there and he don’t wanna see me? I sat there feeling confused. It was already late so I figured that I’d go see him tomorrow. Yeah we broke up but that didn’t change the fact that I still cared about him or that I missed having him around.

I sat on my bed and took out my phone. I needed to check Eugene’s condition. I wanted to Google whatever it is that was going on with him. He had deep issues and I wanted to see if there were more people like him out there and mostly I wanted to check how one can deal with such. Why was I even doing this though? We’ve broken up right? Ahg just open Google already Andi. I took my phone and went to Chrome and typed “people who enjoy physically hurting others” on the search box. I waited and the results had a lot of “sadist” word on them. Almost all the results had that word. I opened the first link but it talked about the sexual sadists…those are the people who enjoys hurting other people through sex… the likes of Christian Grey I guess. I closed that one and went to the next one. “Sadistic Personality Disorder Criteria” that was the heading. Oww so there are different of them? Uhm ok….i read through what Sadist was…well basically it’s just a person who enjoys inflicting pain on other people. I then went to the different criterias. I read through the first, the second and when I got to the 3rd…I realised that I was actually reading about Eugene…this was him…everything they described in that criteria was what Eugene was. It was the Tyrannical Sadist.

“This type of sadistic personality is counted among the more cruel and frightening of all subtypes as they seem to really relish their acts of brutalizing and menacing others. It appears that forcing their unwilling victims to submit and cover provides them with some special feeling of satisfaction” it went on to explain that the person may become a sadist due to a bad upbringing, which was the case for Eugene. After reading this my throat was dry. I quickly got up and went to the bathroom to drink some water. When I was done I washed my face and then walked back to the bedroom. Eugene was a sadist…he had a Sadistic Personality disorder…this was no joke, this was very serious and he really needed help. Could I still help him? Did I wanted to? I mean it was confirmed that he was not doing all these things on purpose. I shook my head and threw myself on the bed. Maybe I needed some rest…I needed some sleep and wrap my head around everything that was going on. I was about to get into bed when somebody buzzed at the gate and gave me a fright.  Who the hell? I mean Eugene was in jail…Lusani maybe?

I walked to the kitchen and picked up the phone
Me:’ who is it?”
“It’s the Police” I rolled my eyes and opened for them. I opened the door and walked outside. The Police van drove in. The two Police man walked out of the car and walked to me
Police 1:” Good Evening ma’am…my name is Lieutenant Sikhalo and this is Lieutenant Ngubane”
Me:” ok” I kept a straight face
Police 1:” we have few questions to ask you”
Me:” come on inside” they followed me inside the house and all the way to the lounge. They sat on one two seater couch and I sat opposite them
Me:” do you mind if I ask what’s this about?” a girl’s gotta act smart here
Police 2:” tell us about your day today”
Me:” you want to hear about my day?”
Police 1:” yes we are investigating a case and information on your day may come in handy”
Me:” ow” I thought about the story that Eugene told me. Do I lie or tell them the truth? Maybe Eugene needed some time away from me and everything else. That could serve as a rehabilitation centre for him. Going to jail could actually be good for him and could help him cope. I mean he’d get angry and all but he won’t have to kill anyone in there. I looked at the officers as I debate with myself
Police 1:” Ma’am?”
Me:” uhm…..”