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He didn’t spend much time in the shower. He came back and wore some sporty shorts and a shirt. He then took Omphu
Eugene:” I will just be few minutes ok?”
I just looked at him dumbstruck…what the hell was this? He comes back and starts matching around without an explanation? After all the worrying and all the voice mails I left him and this is what I get? He walked out of the door with my son…uhm our son I mean. I fell back on the bed feeling extremely pissed…If Eugene thought he was going to have an easy pass on this then he had another thing coming. I slept for several minutes and with each passing minute I was getting more and more angry. I expected him to walk back in the room but he wasn’t walking back in. after a long while I heard the door open. It was obviously him so I didn’t bother look. He climbed on the bed…well that’s what I thought when I felt the bed moving but I still pretended to be asleep…I wasn’t going to give him any time of day and if he knew better then he’d stay away
Eugene:” cupcake” I kept quiet
Eugene:” babe” I still kept quiet
Eugene:” Andani babe please” ok I still kept quiet. He tried to shake me but nothing. He removed the blanket and I turned around and looked at him. He was sitting on the bed holding some flowers
Me:” what?” I snapped
Eugene:” I got you these” he smiled…seriously? Somebody please tell me that this guy is joking…ow my God this can’t be it
Me:” so?” I asked with my straight face
Eugene:” you don’t like them?” he frowned a bit
Me:” a plant? You got me a plant and you expect all to be forgiven? A f*****g plant?” I shouted at him…he blinked looking obviously confused
Eugene:” its…uhm its flowers”
Me:” and they are still part of a plant right? Do I look white to you? You think you are just gonna buy me some piece of a plant and I will be excited and forget that you ignored me for two days? I hardly slept for those two damn days…I was worried sick about you” I punched his chest as I said the last part. I was now sitting on the bed
Eugene:” babe”
Me:” don’t babe me Eugene…I was worried sick over you….all you could have done was send me an sms informing me that you were still alive and kicking but no you didn’t do that….and do you know what else was worse?”
Eugene:” no I don’t”
Me:” oww my God Eugene did you just answer that? You were not supposed to answer that” I was still shouting
Eugene:”oww…uhm”
Me:” what was worse is the fact that you walked back in here like nothing happened, like you didn’t disappear on me for two days…you didn’t even greet me or hug me or anything…you just walked to the shower and then came back and…and took Omphu…now that I thought about him, wh…where is he?”
Eugene:” I took him to the day care”
Me:”why?”
Eugene:” because I want us to spend some time alone” ok at least that was a bit thoughtful
Me:”ow”
Eugene:” cupcake I am really sorry about everything…I went to the shower because I had to before we could do anything, I hadn’t showered since I left this house so you can imagine…I am sorry”
Me:” you had me worried Eugene” I was now calm
Eugene:” you thought I was gonna get killed?” he smiled a bit
Me:” maybe” yeah I was seriously scared that I might lose him, I really didn’t think I could survive losing my Eugene
Eugene:” I will never leave you wifey, so you better get that thought out of your head ok?”
Me:” I am still angry at you though”
Eugene:” can you at least take the plant” he said bottling up a laugh, I smiled
Me:” put the damn plant away” he put the flowers down while smiling
Me:” so what was happening?”
Eugene:” I thought you miss me” he started kissing me…I stopped him
Me:” I want to know”
Eugene:” there is nothing to know love, you said from the first day that you don’t want to know the details of my day to day running so please love…let’s not talk about business”
Me:” uhm did you…uhm”
Eugene:” no I didn’t….the blood is not what you think” I took a sigh of relief
Eugene:” can I do my duties as a husband now?” he had that charming smile on
Me:” no Eugene, I think I am going to keep my legs closed for now…dude you don’t ignore me for three days and barge in here and expect my legs to be open for you…no I refuse”
Eugene:” you are kidding right?” he had his serious look on, I wanted to laugh at him so bad but I didn’t want to ruin the moment, this was supposed to be a serious conversation
Me:” I am not….you really hurt me and I want to starve you a bit so that next time you think of ignoring me you’ll know what punishment is waiting for you at home” I got out of bed and I could feel his eyes piercing through me
Eugene:” cupcake you can’t do this to me…I miss you”
Me:” I just did” he sat on the bed looking at me like I was some piece of meat. I undressed in front of him on purpose
Me:” going to the shower”
Eugene:” Andani please I am begging”
Me:” keep begging”
Eugene:” we have an appointment with the Doctor in two hours so can we please spend this time playing”
Me:” no” I smiled and strolled all the way to the bathroom. He followed me there
Eugene:” I swear to God Andi if you don’t give it to me I will do this to you one day” he wasn’t laughing or smiling…in fact he looked really serious
Me:” be my guest” I walked in the shower and showered with him staring at me. Seriously having him looking at me like that was funny and arousing at the same time. He looked like he could eat me alive and I was enjoying it. After the shower I got out and dried myself and then walked to the bedroom with him behind me. Lord this was funny, can we do this every day? Damn I was enjoying myself.
He sat on the bed and looked at me as I applied my body lotion.
Eugene:” I hate you”
Me:” I hate you back” when I was done I took out an outfit
Eugene:” please don’t”
Me:”watch me get dressed”
Eugene:” I promise you babe no matter how bad things can be in the future, I promise you that I will stay in touch please”
Me:” you promise?”
Eugene:” I seriously promise”
Me:” I am kinda lazy to walk over to you” he smiled immediately and walked over to me.
After making love we laid on the bed for a while
Me:” you said the Doctor’s appointment was in two hours…I am sure it’s in less than an hour now…can we drive?”
Eugene:” the doctor is coming here for the session”
Me:”ow?”
Eugene:” yeah I want to do this in a place where I know my secrets will be safe”
Me:” ok I get it…I think we should get dressed because the Doctor can be here any minute”
Eugene:” come here first”
So we were already dressed and down at the lounge waiting for the Doctor. There was a buzz at the gate
Eugene:” that must be her”
Me:” I will open” we had decided that they will have their session in the study room…I was obviously not going to be part of it so i wonder what I was going to do for the full hour. I opened the gate and then within few minutes the Doctor walked in with some files
Me:” hey Doctor Britz come on in”
Doctor:” thank you” she walked in and I led her straight to the study where Eugene was already waiting for her. I said my goodbyes to them and left the room. I was glad that Eugene was taking the sessions serious, it meant a lot to me
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Eugene showed the Doctor where to sit and she did while thanking him. He sat on his chair and looked at her
Doc:” I am not used to having sessions out of my office so this is all new to me”
Eugene:” I hope it doesn’t interfere with your work”
Doc:” not at all, this office seems friendly…shall we begin?”
Eugene:” before we start, I am kinda shocked to see that you didn’t contact us trying to cancel…after the stunt I pulled, I didn’t expect you to come” the Doctor smiled
Me:” the stunt you pulled is the thing that made me eager to come. I help people deal with their issues for a living, I don’t just do it for a money, I do it because it’s something I love and It has become part of me so it’s in my nature to want to help people” Eugene raised his eyebrows
Eugene:” so you want to help me?”
Doc:” I have never come across a patient like you before and what happened on Tuesday only proved to me just how much you need my help and that’s why I came….you won’t believe this but I have already spent quite some time trying to understand your behaviour”
Me:” that was quick…anyway having you here means that I trust you enough to say the things I will say in here so if anyone approaches you regarding me….you should tell me immediately because if I find out that you’ve sold me out….i won’t kill you but I will gladly kill your whole family while you watch and have you live with the guilt and trauma for the rest of your life” the woman looked scared but then she took control of her emotions
Doc:” there will be no need for all that….i am starting to understand what I am dealing with here, my lips are sealed…shall we begin?”
Eugene:”yeah”
Doc:” so why are we here? Why are you doing this?” he looked at her and then on the wall and then took one long breath
Eugene:” because I need your help dealing with stuff”
Doc:” stuff being?”
He looked at her not even sure which stuff he wanted to deal with. There was an addiction and nightmares but now they were gone so maybe they were not to be talked about, there was also the anger he felt towards his dad and all the other men like him….his obsessions with Andani uhm no not obsession but love…he didn’t want to believe that he was obsessed with her. He loved her too much it scared him. he could literally do whatever she commands him to do and having someone have so much power over him was not something that he was comfortable with. The last time he had someone control him was when Rod was still alive and it’s been years now
Eugene:” I am honestly not sure”
Doc:” you seemed deep in thought…you were thinking about something weren’t you?” he gritted his teeth
Me:” maybe”
Doc:” tell me what you were thinking” he looked at her and leaned on the chair…he breathed before he said anything
Eugene:” the thing that really bothers my fiancée is my addiction” she raised her eyebrow writing something on the notebook she had
Doc:” what addiction?”
Eugene:” you seriously don’t want to know”
Doc:” I can take it…I am sure I have heard worse addictions believe me” he tensed up unsure if he should really be talking to her. He got up
Eugene:” I think this whole thing was a mistake…i…I can’t do this, you should leave” the Doctor didn’t move but starred at him
Doc:” so you are giving up? I thought you wanted to deal with your skeletons”
Eugene:” I do but…”
Doc:” but you are scared to talk to me, you are scared of opening up to a stranger, you are scared of waking up your demons right?” he didn’t look at her but looked away
Doc:” I am glad that you have acknowledged the fact that you have an addiction that’s a first step…you are doing great so far Eugene, keep going…don’t give up…sit down and talk to me please” he sniffed and then sat down again. The Doctor smiled at him
Doc:” you are doing great, I can see how hard this is for you but making this arrangement for us to meet is a very huge step so don’t give up ok?” he nodded
Doc:” you said the addiction worries your fiancée, does that mean it doesn’t bother you? Is this all for her?” he scratched his head obviously thinking
Eugene:” uhm yeah I think it’s for her….the addiction doesn’t really bother me because I enjoy it so this is all for us…for me and her and our little family….i have realised that I can’t be a monster and a family man…somehow I got to prioritise and she is my number one” the Doctor smiled
Doc:” you really love her…but don’t you think you should be doing this for yourself though?” he laughed a bit
Eugene:” myself? Well when I got addicted to the activities I got addicted in it was all for myself so that’s the best I can do for myself….but doing this? Seeing you and changing my life that’s to accommodate her because I love her”
Doc:” now tell me about the addiction, what are you addicted in?” he swallowed
Eugene:” uhm I … uhm I slaughter people” the doctor coughed and mistakenly dropped her pen on the floor. She tried to pick it up and she fell while trying to do that.
Eugene:” I am so sorry Doc are you ok?” he was trying to touch her so that he could help her but she moved her arm away
Doc:” I am ok thank you” there was obvious fear in her voice, she then picked up the pen and sat on the chair again
Doc:” uhm I am sorry about that” she couldn’t even look at him
Eugene:” no I should apologise” she fumbled her hands inside her purse and took out her glasses and tried to wear them which lasted for about 10 minutes because she was shaking. And now all of a sudden she needs glasses? Eugene wondered
Eugene:” ok Doctor if this is too much for you then I can let you go… I will totally understand”
Doc:” what kind of a Doctor will I be if I leave you like this? If I abandon you then who am I expecting to be able to help you? You need my help and I will try my best to help you Eugene”
Eugene:” you are sure?”
Doc:” yes, now tell me about that addiction…what makes you think you are addicted”
Eugene:” I am trying to find words to explain this…uhm I find great pleasure in torturing and slaughtering men who abuse their families. My dad used to do the same to my mom and I guess I never got the time to make him feel the emotional pain he caused us or the physical one he caused my mom. so when I am busy making these men bleed and cry in agony…it fulfils me Doctor…it gives me life, it makes me feel better about…about” he couldn’t continue
Doc:” about?” he starred into space for a while without saying anything
Doc:”Eugene?”
Eugene:” makes me feel better about killing my dad, it kills the guilt I carry with me everyday” the Doctor swallowed and was writing on her note book
Doc:” so you killed your dad?” he nodded
MEANWHILE
After Eugene and the Doctor walked into the study I decided to go to the mall because I had an hour all by myself. I took the car keys and drove the ranger all the way to the mall. I decided to go to the pharmacy where I got the family planning injection. Yah I wanted to do it sooner rather than later. Eugene didn’t want kids yet and I didn’t want to risk having unwanted baby. So I paid the little amount required and got injected a two months injection so after two months I had to come back again. I then went to Woolworths where I bought few items which included some wine. I was not sure if Eugene had a wine cellar in the house, even to this day, there were still rooms I haven’t been to in that house. I doubt that they had a wine cellar though, I mean his sisters stays there longer than him…he usually visits on weekends so I wine cellar for the girls…hauwa I doubt it. I also bought some roses as well…I wanted to make a romantic set up for my man shame. I don’t know if the session with the shrink was going to upset him or make him excited but either way I wanted to show him that he had my support and that no matter what happens I had his back.
I drove back to the house and went straight to our room with the shopping bag of the items I was going to need. I got there and changed the bedding set…I went to his closet and took out another bedding set. After I was done changing the bedding I then took out the rose petals and just scattered them on the bed and around the room. I was smiling while I was busy with that. I closed up the curtains so that the room can be a bit dark. I then took out the candles and light them up and put them on the bedside tables. Well I kept on hoping that the love making would be so gentle in that the candles won’t get in contact with anything….i mean something’s are not for us blackies but we kinda just force them into us so yeah I was hoping that we won’t have a fire incident. It’s like I can already see the headlines “woman burnet down fiancée’s house to ashes while trying to be romantic” hauwa I didn’t want that. When I was done with that I went to take a very very quick shower, five minutes shower to be precise, I then took out the new black lingerie I bought. I also wore a matching pair of high heels, when I was done I walked back to the bathroom where I put on some make up and combed my hair. I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn’t stop smiling, I kept on hoping that Eugene was not going to think that the whole thing was too much. I walked back the room and checked the time. Well the session was done now so I was expecting Eugene to walk back to the room any minute. I sat on the bed with my legs crossed waiting for my man.
He walked in right at that moment. He stopped at the door looking at me. There was obviously shock on his face which slowly dissolved into a smile
Eugene:”uhm…wow” he smiled
Me:”too much?” he smiled
Eugene:” no, just perfect”
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That evening we had dinner together as a family…Omphu included. Eugene was the one helping him eat though. I loved how Eugene loved my son and treated him like he was his own. Was he guilty maybe? I mean you never know, maybe he was just feeling guilty about the fact that he took Omphu’s real dad away from him Or maybe he just loved him…I mean he liked him way before Ria’s death.
Eugene:” so we are leaving tomorrow” he said looking around the table
Thaby:” what why?”
Tebogo:” yeah exactly why?”
Eugene:” guys you know I don’t stay here so let’s not make this dramatic”
Me:” plus we will come visit more regularly”
Thaby:” regularly? I am sure you are talking about few months” she wasn’t too happy
Me:” no it’s not going to be that long…just two weeks or so”
Tebogo:” you do know that Thendo’s family is coming back to pay up the lobola in three weeks right?”
Eugene:” how can we forget that, don’t worry we will be back here”
Thaby:” please leave Omphu with us” I raised my brows and stopped eating looking at the girls like that aint gonn happen
Omphu” yeahhh yeave me” I giggled
Me:” no baby it’s not happening”
Eugene:” don’t even dare think about that, we can’t leave a toddler with you two…it’s not happening”
Tebogo:” I wish we can fast forward the time so that we can have you guys back here again”
Me:” we are family sweety we will be back…I just want Eugene to meet my sister and then we have to go to Cape Town for a while…I miss my friends”
Thaby:” it makes sense”
Me:” yeah it has to”
The following morning Gee and I drove down to Venda with the Ranger. I first booked him into a hotel before going to my place. I was obviously not taking him home; I didn’t want my dad to freak or to start expecting lobola tomorrow. I planned on going to my sister’s place the following day. I was going to leave Omphu with my mom, not that it was my choice; I just knew that my mom was not going to let me take my son with.
Me:”if I hear of a woman walking into this room I swear I will kill someone” I said as he walk me to the car after booking into a hotel. Eugene laughed
Eugene:” now I feel like getting some woman to keep me company” I punched him
Me:” Eugene I am serious”
Eugene:” love I wouldn’t dare, I will be waiting for you to come by tomorrow and please try make it a bit early, I will be super bored”
Me:” don’t worry I will try to be early…my sister and her hubby will be waiting for us…I can’t wait” I seriously couldn’t wait to see my sister and let alone introducing her to Eugene
I drove away from the hotel. I called Vhusani on my way home. Damn I missed my besty
Vhusani:” hey woman”
Me:” hey you”
Vhusani:” I see you don’t want to come back to Cape Town”
Me:” don’t worry love…I think I might come back this Sunday or Monday and then we can catch up…ow gosh I miss you so much”
Vhusani:” I miss you more…having you gone made me realise that I actually don’t have a life you know…its booooring with a capital letter B”
Me:” but Lalamani is there”
Vhusani:” yeah he is here and he is soo sweet but he also works you know and I can’t always be with him…you are my best friend….i am trying to say I really need you” I smiled
Me:” I know what you mean…my life has been a rollercoaster these past few weeks…it’s been crazy and I feel that I need some me and you time to just reconnect to my old normal self” I meant this…I really needed to be around my old surroundings so that I could be reminded of how it was like to be truly me again…to be the old me before Eugene…before him and his past come to my life. I missed being normal with my friend Vhusi
Vhusani:” sounds like a lot has been happening, should I be worried?” how I wish I could tell her what I knew
Me:” worried? Of course not…I think I have gotten over Ria’s death and Eugene has been a darling as always” she giggled
Vhusani:” ow that’s good to hear…I wish tomorrow was a Sunday” I laughed
Me:” I am sure we can handle few more days apart” I was feeling this happiness, I really missed her
Vhusani:” I am sure we can”
Me:” when I come back I want an update on everything that’s been going on….everything” she laughed
Vhusani:” nothing big has been going on really…it’s just been me and my Lala having lot of sex, lot of dates and lot of happiness….seriously Andi, that man makes me happy”
Me:” wow if you are that happy then when is the big day? I don’t understand what you are still waiting for”
Vhusani:” give us few months to get to know each other better”
I chatted to Vhusani until I got home
Me:” friend lets chat later…I just got home ok?”
Vhusani:” and you are driving from?” I laughed
Me:” I was in Gauteng....i was still at Eugene’s” she giggled
Vhusani:” I see I am not the only one who is love struck”
Me:”byeeeee Vhusani” I dropped the call still laughing.
Omphu was sleeping so I carried him all the way to the house. My mom was super excited to see us. Dad was still at work because it was before four
Mom:” I feel like I haven’t seen my grandson in years” I smiled at her as I put him to sleep. Mom had followed me to the bedroom
Me:” don’t worry mom you will have plenty of time with him the whole weekend”
Mom:” are you going somewhere?”
Me:” yep…I am going to visit Rinae for the weekend…I haven’t spent time with my sister in a while” I was smiling and taking my mom’s hand as we walk out of my room
Mom:” but Andani you just got here”
Me:” mom please I was home for more than a month”
Mom:” ahg ok I know I was just happy to have you back”
Me:”tjoo I am starting to think that coming home for such a long time was a mistake...you are going to cry on Sunday when I leave for Cape Town mus”
Mom:”what? Why am I only hearing about this now?” she had now stopped walking and looked pretty worried
Me:” mom I stayed at home way longer than I was supposed to, I should go back to Cape Town”
Mom:”for what? You don’t even have a job anymore”
Me:” mom I have two houses in the Cape…I haven’t been back there since Ria’s death so I need to go check on things”
Mom:” ok I get it, it’s just that it feels good to have you home”
Me:”and Eugene is there too” I smiled and we started walking to the lounge
Mom:” when are we officially meeting this Eugene here at home?”
Me:” mom I am not in a rush….don’t forget that my first marriage failed so if I am taking my time then don’t rush me” we got to the lounge and sat on one sofa
Mom:” I totally understand what you are saying, as long as you are happy then I am not worried
Me:” yeah I am happy”
Mom:” i hope you are leaving Omphu with me”
Me:”but mom”
Mom:” please Andi he keeps me company….you know that dad works during the day”
Me:” but why did you leave your job mom? Now you are bored”
Mom:” I seriously regret that decision”
The following morning I left home and went to pick up Eugene at the hotel. My sister was staying at Thohoyandou Unit D.
Eugene:”I miss you so much” he said giving me a hug as soon as I got inside his room
Me:” I miss you too, you smell lovely” he giggled
Eugene:” I used the cologne that you know”
Me:” you’re ready?”
Eugene:” don’t tell me that I look like I haven’t been to the shower” I laughed shame
Me:” I don’t know where you get that sarcasm from, take your stuff and let’s get out of here” he came to me and hugged me from behind
Eugene:” my little wifey….i love you so much and damn I was so lonely last night”
Me:” serves you right; we aren’t married yet so don’t get too comfortable with sleeping by my side”
Eugene:” jeez babe I am so in love” he kissed me briefly and then took his bag
Me:” let’s go” we walked out to the reception where he signed out. We got to the car and I drove to Thohoyandou. I was eager to see my sister again. The last time I saw her was during Ria’s funeral and we didn’t get to talk because I was all tears during that time.
We got to the right address and drove into my sister’s mansion
Eugene:” mhm what a mansion”
Me:” dude don’t tell me that you are jealous…you have three mansions that I know of” he smiled
Eugene:” and yet I am impressed by this one”
Me:” I am just excited to be here…I miss my sister”
Eugene:” I am a bit nervous…how is her husband? Is he cool?” he really seemed nervous
Me:” babe there is no need to be nervous ok? They will obviously like you” I parked the car at the drive way
Eugene:” I am not more of a social person babe so I don’t know how this is going to play out and to think that we have the whole weekend here…damn”
Me:” Eugene stop worrying ok” I was still getting Eugene to calm down when my sister walked out of the house. Yeah she didn’t go to work today
Eugene:” I don’t even have to ask if that’s her…she sure looks like you, you really look alike”
Me:” people say that but I obviously don’t see it…let’s get out” my sister was in a jean, a shirt and some sleepers.
Rinae:” ow my God you are really here” she ran to my side. Damn the excitement I felt at that moment. I suddenly hated the fact that we grew up. I couldn’t believe that we used to stay in the same house and her bedroom was just close to mine…sometimes we’d share a bedroom
Me:” ow my God I miss you” we hugged and the hug didn’t last long because she quickly broke it and ran to Eugene who was standing awkwardly by the car
Rinae:”ow my God Andi…is this him? The Eugene?” she was smiling from ear to ear
Me:” yeah that’s him”
Rinae:” ow come here Eugene” she walked to him and gave him a hug which didn’t last long
Rinae:”uhm so…Eugene…welcome to my home….yohh you won’t believe this but I have heard so much about you”
Eugene:” ow…thanks for welcoming me into your home” shame Eugene was shy lol…I looked at him and just giggled
Rinae:” come on inside...ow my God baby sist-“
Me:” don’t call me that” I hissed…how dare she call a grown woman like me ‘baby sister’?
Rinae:”ow owk lil sis-“
Me:” Rinae please I am 27” Eugene looked at me and couldn’t hide the smile
Rinae:” ok Andani, I am just excited to have you at my home with your….your Eugene” we walked to the house
Me:” where is hubby?”
Rinae:” working but he said he will try his best to be early” we walked to the lounge where we sat
Rinae:” I am happy to meet you Eugene and please get used to the fact that I talk a lot ok? I will probably be asking you questions throughout the weekend don’t take it the wrong way”
Me:” Rinae please”
Rinae:” what? Anyway what can I get you guys to drink?“
Me:” I think I need a coke, I don’t even remember when last I had one”
Rinae:” and Eugene?”
Eugene:” uhm well coke for me too”
Rinae:” coke coming right up and guys I have a great collection of some classic wines so don’t be drinking coke the whole weekend please” she walked away to the kitchen…I looked at Eugene with my questioning look
Me:” coke…really? You hardly drink coldrinks” he rolled his eyes
Eugene:” there is a first time for everything I guess”
Me:” she doesn’t bite you know”
Eugene:” I told you I was nervous…I have never been with the in laws before, except for the time when your mom and your brothers came to Cape Town so…I wish we could leave already”
Me:” you are not serious”
Eugene:” honestly I just want to be alone with you….being here and have to socialise and force myself to laugh…ahg not for me” I looked at him and laughed
Me:” it’s good to know that there are things that makes you nervous” he shook his head smiling
Eugene:” yeah right”
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We spent the afternoon together with my sister. She showed us the room that Eugene and I were going to share. She was talking a lot shame
Rinae:” so Eugene what do you do?” she sat on a sofa across us crossing her legs with a glass of wine on her hand. I had already told her that Eugene was a business man but I guess she wanted to hear it from the horse’s mouth. Eugene was drinking coke with some cookies that my sister brought us. I kept on looking at him and smile, coke was seriously his least favourite drink
Eugene:” uhm I studied Criminal law and Psychology but I am currently running a construction company” my sister frowned as if surprised
Eugene:” I know it doesn’t make sense when you look at what I studied but hey sometimes we go to school for the sake of having a qualification and after I acquired mine I realised that I didn’t want to work under someone for the rest of my life so yeah” Rinae smiled and winked at me. I rolled my eyes, my sister though
Rinae:” can’t say I am not impressed…so your family? Are they also into business?” Eugene shifted looking a bit uncomfortable
Eugene:” well my parents died when I was still a teenager so I only have my two little sisters as my family” my sister raised an eyebrow
Rinae:” ow I am really sorry about that” he smiled
Eugene:” its fine”
Rinae:” you do know that this is my only sister right? Like the last born of the family so you dare not mess with her” Eugene smiled looking at me and then at my sister
Eugene:” I would never, she has a very special place in my heart”
Rinae:” and that’s what she deserves…believe me Eugene if you break her heart then I will murder you” she gave him a warning with her little serious look, Eugene chuckled…I giggled too thinking about the fact that my sister had no idea that she was talking to a number one murderer…Eugene had probably seen more dangerous warning looks than that funny looking serious face of hers
Eugene:” it won’t come to that I promise”
So we sat there and chat for a while and then later on I went to help her in the kitchen while she was preparing dinner. Eugene said he’d be checking work emails so long. Well whenever he talks about work all I think about is him conspiring to kill certain people or talking about drug deliveries and all that creepy s***. At past four her husband came back with their kids. The kids were excited to see their aunty and I was happy to see them too. They greeted us and went straight to their bedrooms to change. Mulalo, Rinae’s husband was happy to see us too and mostly he was happy to meet Eugene. I saw Eugene softening up when he starting talking to Mulalo.
Me:” I think they will get a long” I said while I was in the kitchen with my sister while Eugene and Mulalo were walking out the door to the stoop
Rinae:”I am sure they will…I mean Eugene is in business so that’s Mulalo’s thing…they will surely have a lot to talk about”
Me:” yeah”
Rinae:” he really loves you”
Me:” you think?”
Rinae:” yeah I can see it in the way he looks at you…he looks at you like he just want to bow down to you, like he could consume you with his eyes…Andi there is something deep about the way he looks at you, it’s real….like there is real love there” I laughed out loud
Me:” I’ve never seen that before, not the way you are explaining it” she laughed too
Rinae:” aaaaaaaand he is hot too…woman where did you meet him? At the Gym? The nigga sure do some workout” we laughed
Me:” that’s my jackpot”
Rinae:” please don’t mess it up….i am so jealous of you right now” there was sadness in her voice
Me:” do I smell something in your tone?” she looked at me with a bit of a frown
Rinae:” no it’s nothing” she was not looking at me but rather busying herself checking on the meat
Me:” thank God…I mean I don’t think I could handle you two going through some stuff”
Rinae:” why is that?”
Me:” you just seem too happy to have serious problems…you give me hope” she laughed out loud
Rinae:” it’s always greener on the other side baby sis” there was truth in her statement and mostly there seemed to be pain in the way she said it. It wasn’t just a statement she was making, there was more to it
Me:” Rinae what is going on?” she breathed
Rinae:” marriage is hard Andani and I really admire you for leaving your ex-husband when the going got tough on your first marriage…some of us don’t have that much courage” so things were so bad that she even wished she could divorce him?
Me:” well I didn’t leave…he left me remember?”
Rinae:” ow yeah that…well I don’t think Mulalo will do that” ok my sister was starting to worry me; I thought she was happy in her marriage. They seemed happy…they always go on vacations together as a family…they always post their pics on social media…I mean they seem perfect
Me:” talk to me” she smiled
Me:” Rina I am not your baby sis anymore…I am a grown woman and you can lean on me ok? What’s up?”
Rinae:” I honestly don’t know where things went wrong…I don’t know how we got here but things are bad…my marriage is as good as over Andi…I don’t even remember when last we had sex…I am not talking about making love but just sex, it’s been months” I raised an eyebrow
Me:” wow uhm I am sorry, do you think he is seeing someone?”
Rinae:” not that I know of…maybe he is and he is just being careful for me not to find out but he is always busy with work and when I try to get us to make love then he always tells me that he is tired”
Me:” I am so sorry…come here” I gave her a hug.
I wanted to cry, I suddenly felt emotional because I was reminded of how Rialivhuwa had treated me. I know the feeling of yearning for your husband’s attention…the feeling of missing him so bad when you are sleeping next to him every night….it’s a painful feeling that eats you up every time you get home from work. I know exactly how she was feeling. The worst part of it all is putting up a front for everyone, pretending to be happy and as time goes you start cherishing and looking forward to being in public events because that’s the only way you’ll get his kiss or his hands around your waist…that’s the only time you can feel his love. It’s a painful feeling indeed and knowing that my sister was going through the same thing was emotional for me.
Rinae:” thank you” she said as we broke the hug
Rinae:” I don’t want to cry right now, can we talk about this later? Please” I nodded
Me:” yeah of course, just remember that I love you ok? A lot Rina”
Rinae:” I can’t believe I am breaking down in front of you” she was wiping off her face
Me:” its ok I understand, I was married too remember?” her son walked in right at that moment and Rinae pretended to be busy and looked away
Murendeni:” uhm aunty dad said he wants some ice”
Me:” ow ok” I went to the fridge and took out some ice and gave them to the boy
Murendeni:” thank you” the boy walked away
So we had dinner together as a family that night. There was a lot of talking and laughing around the table. After dinner the kids went to their bedrooms and then it was just us adults left.
Mulalo:” so are you guys ready for partying?”
Rinae:” partying?”
Mulalo:” well yeah I bought four tickets for a gig happening at Khoroni hotel tonight” he was smiling
Me:” seriously?” I was shocked really but I kept my smile on so that I don’t seem rude
Rinae:” and I was not told?” ow…ka…y
Mulalo:” I wanted it to be a surprise…guys we can either spend our evening here and go to sleep in an hour or so or we can go to this gig for two hours or so…we don’t have to be on the dance floor or anything like that, it’s just something for us to do together as a family. I’d really hate for you guys to leave my house feeling that it was super boring…so anyone in the mood to spice this weekend up?” mhm brother in law had a point
Eugene:” I am in bro” ow they were bros now? Just two or three hours of getting to know each other and they were already bros? Eugene must really like Mulalo, I mean Eugene wasn’t a party person…I was happy they were getting along though
Rinae:” wow when last did I go to a gig….babe thank you” she went to him and kissed him…i smiled and suddenly felt sad remembering that the kiss was all for us, I remembered how their marriage was on the verge of breaking. Maybe this was good for them, having us here might be good for them.
Mulalo:” cool then, let’s put our party outfits on and then hit the road….ladies please we all have 15 minutes to get out of here…I will talk to the kids so long” he said laughing. Eugene and I walked to our room where I was changing, Eugene said he was cool with his outfit
Me:” I was shocked when you immediately agreed to go to the gig” I said with a smile as I look through my suitcase for something to wear
Eugene:” Mulalo is a cool guy and I happen to like him” I giggled
Me:” see? You got yourself a brother” he laughed
Eugene:” now you are taking it too far, all I said was that I like him”
Me:” ok I get it” I finished getting dressed and we walked out.
We waited for few minutes and my sister appeared with her husband. Hahaha wooooow shame…my sister was still hot, I don’t know what was wrong with her husband to mistreat such a beautiful woman. But then again, I think men don’t really give a s*** about our looks, Ria treated me like some piece of dirt even though I looked like this….i aint bad, In fact I looked as beautiful as my sister but did that stop him? These men can treat you so bad that you’ll feel like the ugliest woman in the planet…I tell you, sometimes marriages can be traumatic. She was in some ripped skinny jeans wethu, a brown leather high heel knee high boots, a stylish cream white blouse and a brown leather jacket…the weather had changed and it was chilly outside…she had short hair with the Madiba line on the side. She applied the make-up that just looked perfect on her. My sister didn’t have a big body, she was just a little bit bigger than me…she was a size 34. Her husband was a bit tall, a bit chubby and a yellow bone nyana…he looked fine shame. The husband held the hand bag for his wife. We walked out of the house and drove to the hotel with their Benz.
We drove to Khoroni hotel. The traffic was very bad as we approached the hotel…so the vehicles were moving quite slow. After a while we finally arrived.
Rinae:” should we get some drinks from the bar?” I looked at Eugene as if asking him if I could have a bit of alcohol
Eugene:” babe it’s your choice…I am definitely in need of some tequila…I need something to help me dance hey” he was giggling, we all laughed
Mulalo:” are you a helpless dancer too?”
Eugene:” dude this is no business plan joe…this is another world”
Rinae:” I used to be a good dancer in the past, I wonder if I could still pull it off”
Me:” well we are about to find out” we went to the bar where we ordered few shorts and dawned them before heading to where the DJ was….we also bought few cans of alcohol. There were many people who seemed to be going about their own business. Some were seriously dancing…I am talking about the serious dance moves like getting down, I kwasa and all those things, I kinda find it less attractive though….i mean it’s only past 9 and you are sweating like this? Mind you, those are the people who wanna stay at the party the whole night. We walked to the back and sat on the chairs
Eugene:” this place is lit” he said as we sat down…I sat on his lap and Rinae sat on her hubby. They were playing some cool house numbers so we sat there moving our bodies nje and chatting away. it felt good being out of the house, being out in the public, watching people being crazy and just forgetting about all the serious stuff…it was a beautiful feeling. I kept on hoping that all this might help with my sister’s marriage.
Right at that moment the DJ changed tune and put on some Beyonce sorry…okaaaayyyy I won’t lie I kinda laaaaarrrveee that song so I couldn’t hold myself
Me:” you don’t mind do you?” I was looking at Gee, he giggled
Eugene:” we are here to have fun, just do it” I kissed him and got up. My sister just stared at me and smiled
Me:” why are you just staring at me? Get over here” I took her hand. She looked at her husband
Mulalo:” fun night babe” she kissed him for a long time. I think she was trying to enjoy the moment, kissing him for all the times that they spent together and never get to kiss. She got up and followed me to the dance floor where few people were screaming and dancing and just having fun. It felt good to move nje. We were not sweating or tryna break our bones…no that shit is for those who dance for a living or those tryna win a certain competition as for us…we were just trying to have some fun. So we moved with the music and we kept on looking at each other and laugh.
Me:” you seem happy” i was screaming because the music was loud
Rinae:” I really am” she was laughing…I decided not to take this conversation further because I didn’t want to ruin the moment. We were having fun when some guy came to my back and held my waist…I turned around and gave him my disgusted look
Me:” the hell?” I brushed his hand off
Guy:” ahg please love….i can give you the night of your life…just let me” hell to the no? I was still tryna think of something to say when my superman came to the rescue
Eugene:” are we having trouble here?” he asked looking at the guy
Guy:” I’m tryna talk to the girl what’s your problem?” he looked at the guy and smiled a bit
Eugene:” the girl is my wife so get outta here before I break your bones” the guy tried to say something but the look on Eugene’s eyes was not funny at all but rather scary. The guy turned around and walked away.
Me:” I think I did enough dancing for one night, I can’t deal with teenage boys making moves on me” I said taking his hand and walking back to our spot. Rinae also walked back. Mulalo came back the same time as us holding more drinks
Eugene:” that’s because you look young” he kissed me. We went and sat on our spot. I decided that when a song I liked play, I wasn’t going to go to the dance floor but rather dance standing right here with my man. Eugene and Mulalo were having their own kind of fun drinking and laughing. Few artists were on the line up for the night. Believe me, we kept on saying that we will leave in the next 30 minutes but we ended up leaving at around 2 in the morning. We drove back home….Rinae was so worried about her kids because we left them alone at home. But they were not that young because the eldest was 12.
I was tired when we got home. Eugene and Mulalo were super drunk. I walked my man to our bedroom because I don’t think he still knew where to find it. We got to our room and I undressed him and then tuck him in bed.
Eugene:” I looooveee you okaaaaay?” I smiled at him….he looked funny when he was drunk
Me:” I love you more” within five minutes he was already out.
I searched through his jean pockets and took out everything that was in there. I took out his cell phone, car keys, his wallet and few payslips. I took the wallet and opened it, I hadn’t got chance to really look into his wallet, I don’t think he’ll even let me. There was nothing surprising there. There was his ID, three bank cards and then some cash. I took his phone and tried unlocking it. I was hoping that he had changed the password to something I can guess. I tried his birthday, my birthday…I didn’t know his sisters birthdays so I tried our anniversary without the hope of it being the right one but booooooom it worked. I was able to unlock Eugene’s phone. I just starred at it still feeling a bit shocked. I wasn’t really familiar with the iPhone menu because I was using the Xperia. I took a deep breath and looked at him as he was fast asleep. With my heart jumping out of my chest I went to his menu and my first stop was his messages….Eugene was not a whatsapp person, he used to use smses not whatsapp. So I went there to check what he’s been up do. Gosh I could feel it in my heart, head and bones that what I was doing was wrong but I had already figured out the pin and was eager to know what he’s been up to so there was no going back. I was not expecting messages from some women, nope I needed an update on his job…what’s been happening since he didn’t want to tell me about it.
Life as we know it
Insert 110
Most messages were his bank notifications and the airtimes he was buying. I saw one from Kat. This bitch never gives up now does she? I opened the conversation between the two of them shaking my head
“I can’t believe that you’ve given her everything I ever wanted from you, why her Eugene? Please lets meet up I want to talk to you. If there is any part of you that cared about me at all….please lets meet” I rolled my eyes and checked for his reply after that message.
“Kat I hate that I am hurting you but I can’t meet up with you….if you want to know if I cared about you then the answer is yes…I did care but I have moved on now….i am sorry, please move on with your life, I would love for you to be happy”
“Wow ok I get it Eugene, so you don’t miss me at all? I mean I know after the break up we hooked up few times and you seemed to enjoy it, I didn’t see you complain at all” what? So they hooked up after the break up? Is this why she just showed up at the house a while back? Ow my God….was it after me or before me? I wanted to know if Eugene f*****d that girl while he was already with me…that information was crucial….it could change everything, if it’s true then it means that he lied to me and God knows what else he could lie to me about if his honesty was to be questioned. I then read Eugene’s reply
“I am not answering that, Goodbye Kat”
I read that first reply again. He wasn’t rude towards her or was trying to hurt her. He was being sweet to her. That first reply kind of disappointed me…I didn’t expect that from Eugene. Eugene loved Kat more than he was willing to admit to me. I think it’s the reason why he was so hurt when she betrayed him; it’s the reason why he kept her close. Did he still care much about her to get tempted and go to her at some point? Damn it, I regretted ever looking into his messages, I shouldn’t have done this. I wanted to call Kat and tell her to butt off but that would be letting her know that she was a threat and Eugene would also know that I had been through his phone.
I went down to the next message
“Your Barbie doll gave me a call asking me where you’re at….mhm not keeping Barbie updated? Anyway where are you at? I hope you are safe where you’re at…you are welcome to give me a call if you have any job for me…I am always free to help” ahg jeez this girl though….why was she so desperate for Eugene? From what I hear he didn’t care about her that much…didn’t spend much time with her that much so why? Was it because of the sex? I mean I must admit that Eugene knew his way around the bedroom…my thug was good shame I give that to him…it was either sex or Kat was after Eugene’s money. I then read his reply to that sms
“I am sorry that Andani contacted you….she was just worried I guess. As for my safety, you know better than to worry about that and as for your help…thanks for offering but I meant it when I said you are not needed anymore and please…let this be our last conversation. Next time I won’t use the word ‘please’ or text you for that matter…so stay away”
See? That’s more like it; that’s my thug right there…at least he had put her in her place. But still there was something still bothering me….Eugene still had feelings for Kat, he didn’t want to admit it but he still has. I mean Kat was like his first long term girlfriend apart from all the other women he just boinked…so they had a connection or still has a connection. I have brought all this upon myself; I shouldn’t have read the messages.
I then scrolled down and found few messages that I couldn’t even understand. Everything was in codes that meant nothing to me and I was sure they meant a lot to Eugene so I couldn’t gather anything work wise. I mean I came across texts like “K15 secure” “block code required immediately” “k3 will bring the M” so I am sitting there going through these smses like how the hell is anyone supposed to know what’s happening here? So I gave up and put away his phone and got into bed too. I went to his call logs and there were no real names there…it was just letters for each number that he called. For example you just find that he called ‘J’ or ‘k6’ the hell is that? I gave up on finding anything. I put the phone away and took off my clothes and climbed into bed just with my undies.
I woke up very late the following morning. Eugene was not in bed when I woke up. I sat up as I felt my head pounding. Was I still sleepy? Is that why I had a headache? Maybe it was a hangover, but I didn’t drink that much. The people who were supposed to have their heads down suffering from the extreme hangover were the likes of Eugene and Mulalo. Eugene walked in right at that moment holding a glass with something that looked like a shake or something like that
Eugene:” morning cupcake?”
Me:” aren’t you supposed to be in bed? I mean I am supposed to be bringing you that glass….you were flat drunk last night” he smiled
Eugene:” and your sister made this for me and her husband….it helped a bit…I still have a bit of a headache though…so here” he handed me the glass
Me:” what’s in here?” I asked looking at the disgusting shake
Eugene:” I think there is kiwi and some other stuff in there...i am not really sure, don’t try to feel the taste…just gulp it immediately”
Eugene:” is that what you did?” he sat on the bed
Eugene:” yeah that’s what I did” I looked at him and then gulped the shake immediately…oww my God it tasted horrible
Me:” jezz this is super bad” I gave him the glass. He put it on the bedside table smiling
Eugene:” you will be fine…give it few minutes”
Me:” I love you do you know that?”
Eugene:” do you wanna know what I don’t love?” he was still smiling
Me:” please tell me” I smiled back
Eugene:” you going through my phone…that was low” ting???? And just like that, I wanted to disappear from the face of the earth. He now had a serious look on. ow no, how did he know? Did I left some files open? What did I do? I scratched my head
Me:”uhm…ahhh …how did you…” he raised an eyebrow still looking all serious
Eugene:” you went through my phone and you are about to ask how I know? Well just know that I do know and I am not happy about it…I thought you trusted me”
Me:” I do and I am sorry” ok I was seriously embarrassed, I really was
Eugene:” let’s be clear on this…you don’t touch my phone ok? I don’t want you finding things that will make your think of me otherwise…I use that phone for my work…what if you find some horrifying pictures of me hanging people alive in there?” seriously? Did he have to use that as an example?
Eugene:” you don’t have to look at me like that, that was just an example, I will never keep such pictures if I happen to be hanging people which I don’t plant to do anytime soon” this was the difference between me and him...he talked about people dying as if it’s a recipe for some meal and he expected me not to react. I snapped out of that and thought that this may be the perfect moment to ask about Kat since we were talking about his phone…well I needed my mind to be at ease and the only way to do that would be asking him this one last thing
Me:” so…Kat, do you still feel anything for her?” he raised an eyebrow and then chuckled a bit
Eugene:” where is that coming from?”
Me:” your smses…after reading them I couldn’t help but think that you still cared, the way you talked to her is much different from how you talk about her with me or talk to her on my presence” he got up and stood in the middle of the room shaking his head and smiling a bit. Suddenly his smile faded
Eugene:” so you went through my phone and somehow you have the nerve to ask me about the things you saw in there? I am sorry Andani but I am not gonna answer that. I will let it eat you up so that next time you don’t dare check my phone again. I won’t change the password”
Me:” but Eugene…”
Eugene:” stop it…what you did actually made me angry and I am standing here in front of you tryna be chilled and civil with you so please woman don’t push me” so that’s it?
Me:” so you still care?” I said near tears…him not giving me an answer felt like he was telling me that he still cared about her. I mean If he didn’t he was just going to give me a simple no. he walked to my side of the bed and stood there looking at me. He ran his hands through his head
Eugene:” you love fighting me don’t you? You just love picking a fight right?”
Me”no I-“
Eugene:” you what? You want me to admit that I care about her? Andani how many times must I tell you that I am with you, that I love only you…what else do you want me to do to prove that fact to you. I thought I have proven to you how much I love you but no….the spoilt brat Andani is not satisfied” he was pissed and he called me a….a…a spoilt brat…that’s what he called me. I was enraged, how dare he? He walked to the door and I jumped off the bed and grabbed his hand
Me:” a spoilt brat? Really? Is that what I am?”
Eugene:” I am seriously not doing this with you” he opened the door
Me:” Eugene” he closed it and looked at me
Eugene:” yes you are a spoilt brat…my spoilt brat but sometimes it gets on my nerves…like right now, you are getting on my nerves….i am gonna be chilling out there with Mulalo…and ow one more thing, I will be the good guy that I try so hard to be and forget that you went through my phone and that you asked me that sick question about Kat. I am with you Andani, you are the one who controls me, you are the one I am f*****g, the one sleeping next to me every night, the one with my ring on her finger and I am here in Venda with you…do you think I am here because I have nowhere else to be? Dude I have an empire to run and there are 100s of things I could be doing for my business right now but I am here trying to get to know your family so next time you try your level best to piss me off…think about the things I just mentioned”
He walked out of the room and left me looking around the room feeling super ashamed. Really this was embarrassing. Eugene just called me a spoilt brat and I think I deserved it. The nigga had been nothing but sweet and supportive but look what I did? I quickly went to the shower and washed my face and my mouth and then came back to the bedroom and got dressed. I felt bad that I was a guest in my sister’s house and I couldn’t even wake up early to help her out with the house chores. I walked down to the kitchen and found her busy preparing some breakfast.
Me:” morning”
Rinae:” hey nana how are you feeling?”
Me:” ahg better, where can I help?”
Rinae:” uhm just but these in the oven” I did as instructed
Me:” sorry I woke up late, I should have been a bit earlier”
Rinae:” you’re kidding? You are a guest” I smiled
Me:” where are the kids?” I said looking around
Rinae:” they left early this morning….one of their aunts, Mulalo’s sister came and picked them up…she has a new born baby so they go there like every weekend playing with the baby” I laughed
Me:” I hope you’ve taken the hint” she frowned at me
Rinae:” what hint?”
Me:” the kids want a sibling” she laughed out loud
Rinae:” sex has become such a scarce act, a luxury that my husband and I cannot afford so having another baby….not happening, ever” it wasn’t funny but I found myself laughing…she killed me when she said that sex was a luxury
Me:” I am sure things will get better” she shook her head
Rinae:” I don’t see that happening and ow….we are going out this afternoon” she smiled
Me:” we are?”
Rinae:” yep lovie…Marshall Resort” I raised an eyebrow
Me:”ow that sounds great”
Rinae:” yeah it is so I am not sure about the food. Do you think we should cook pap here at home or we can prep everything there when we start with the braai?”
Me:” uhm I think we can take pap with and some salads as well and then we will only braai the meat there”
Rinae:” cool then, we are leaving around 2ish or 3sh…I am really glad that you and Eugene are here…I have something different to look forward to for a change, it’s a good feeling”
Me:” I am glad you appreciate our visit”
Rinae:” I sure do”
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