Hollow Hearts 6-10

HOLLOW HEARTS
Chapter 6

MUNEIWA

I stood at the parking lot and watched as her car drove away. I smiled but then suddenly the smile faded and my mind snapped back to the reality in front of me. The reality was that I had finally let myself get swallowed by the stupidity and the regularity of the world. I wasn’t supposed to be regular, I wasn’t supposed to do what regular bored people do, my life was supposed to be more interesting than this and I’d been good at keeping my life interesting up until this point but this was my epic failure. I wasn’t supposed to take Jane out on a date….even worse, I wasn’t supposed to make everything so special and movie-like…and more worse, I wasn’t supposed to enjoy her little silly company but the f*****g bitter truth is that I did. I enjoyed seeing her smile and how she laughed at my silly jokes and I enjoyed hearing every word from her mouth. I don’t know why but while I was with her I felt like the world had stopped and it was just me and her. I shook my head and snapped out of my thoughts and remembered the flowers. Jane forgot the flowers in the restaurant and it was all because I walked out of there fuming so she left in a rush. I took out my phone and gave her a call. She picked up immediately
Jane:”hello”
Me:” did you forgot the flowers or left them on purpose”
Jane:” ow no, I forgot them, I am so sorry”
Me:” don’t be sorry…just meet me at my hotel parking and I will ensure that you put them in your car this time around” she giggled a bit and I smiled. My mood kept on changing like weather. One minute I was pissed and the next I was okay
Jane:” I will meet you there”
I dropped the call and wanted to give myself a serious beating. Like what the f*** was this? This was going to ruin everything, it was going to ruin the plans I had but the thing is I was already in and couldn’t really get out. I don’t know if this was love or just infatuation, I mean you can’t really fall in love this quickly right? Worst part was I didn’t even have a friend to talk me out of this stupid s***. If this is what happens when one falls in love then I finally understood why they call it ‘falling in love’ and not walking into love or strolling or running to love…they call it falling because it feels more like falling. Like you want to pull yourself together and balance yourself so that you don’t fall but you can’t because everything is happening way too quickly. I shook my head and walked back to the restaurant. I had already settled the bill for the night. I did that before the date because when you book the restaurant then they want you to make a payment beforehand so I also paid for the meal. I got there and took the flowers and thanked the store manager for the well-planned evening. I then went to my car and drove to the hotel.

By the time I got there Jane was already waiting for me. I felt my insides jumping with excitement. The only time I had ever felt like that was when my bosses gave me a job well done comments in a difficult assignment. I parked my car close to hers and got out of the car. She got out too.
Jane:” you should know that I really didn’t leave them on purpose” she said that walking towards me. I opened the passenger door and took out the flowers
Me:” I hope so too” she smiled and extended her hands to take the flowers
Me:” uhm …do you mind going up to my suite for another glass of wine?” I don’t know what I was doing, I knew that she said I couldn’t handle dates and not end up having sex and I was hell bent on proving her right but I also didn’t want this night to end, I wanted to spend a little more time with her
Jane:” Muneiwa…I…”
Me:” I promise not to touch you” stupid old me….what the f*** happened to Muneiwa that doesn’t beg a bitch huh? I suddenly regretted using the word Bitch because somehow I felt like Jane wasn’t one of those girls; the word didn’t fit her at all
Jane:” are you sure?” I wasn’t sure
Me:” very certain” I lied, she nodded and I led the way and she followed
Jane:” I forgot to ask…why are you always here? I mean you are studying in Joburg so why are you always in a hotel and in Pretoria?” I knew I had to lie again
Me:” I love it here” I said that looking back at her, she frowned as if she didn’t understand
Me:” you will never understand” I said with a smile
Jane:” ow” we went to the lift and went all the way to my floor. We got out of the lift and went to my suite. I opened the door and we walked in
Me:” let me call room service so that they can bring us a bottle of good wine” I said that putting her flowers on the dressing table
Jane:” you don’t have to Muneiwa, I know this wasn’t about the wine but about having me being up here so forget the wine” f*** this kid was not beating around the bush and as much as I was a little embarrassed I was happy with her
Me:” you got me” I ushered her to the couch and she put her bag on the dressing table and sat down
Me:” so are you loving it here?” I said while sitting on the bed. She got up and went to the window and opened the curtains and looked out the streets
Jane:” you mean South Africa?” she said looking back at me and I got up and went to stand next to her with my hands inside my pockets
Me:” yeah”
Jane:” I am not sure yet, give me few months” I smiled thinking to myself that I was going to make sure that she enjoys it. The fact that I was thinking like that was a little bit unsettling. I mean how long was I planning on hanging out with her?
Me:” okay I will give you few month” I looked at her and she looked at peace. I went to stand behind her and wrapped my arms around her.
Me:” don’t shy away please, I won’t go further than this” I held her in my arms while we both stare outside. In my mind I thought of all the nasty things I could do to her little body. I shook my head and stopped the thoughts. I inhaled her perfume and somehow felt contented. I didn’t want her to leave; I just wanted her here with me. I don’t know what was going on because I just met this girl like yesterday and all these things were happening, all I know is that I didn’t want to stay away and it was weird.
Me:” I love this” I whispered in her eyes and she flinched a little. I wasn’t lying though; I really loved standing there with her in my arms
Jane:” me too” she said in a small voice
Me:” I love how this little dress you are wearing suites you” she giggled
Jane:” stop” her voice was still small
Me:” I am serious, you really looked lovely today Jane” she said nothing but just took one loud breath
Me:” I loved how your face lit up before you burst into a laugh and how you tilt your head just before you melt into a cute smil-“
Jane:” I said stop! What part of ‘stop’ don’t you understand?” she said that and pushed me away. I looked at her in complete shock
Jane:” the date was great Munei, everything was great and you don’t have to ruin it” she said that and walked towards the dressing table and took her purse and the flowers
Me:” Jane I am sorry” I didn’t even know what I was apologising for but apologising seemed like the right thing to do because I didn’t want to upset her further
Jane:” I know, we will talk on the phone” she said that without even looking at me.

She opened the door and walked out and then slammed it shut. I was left there in my hotel room feeling as confused as f***, I didn’t understand what was going on and why she acted like that. I mean all I did was give her a complement, what was wrong with that? I walked out of my hotel room and went to the bar. I realised as I was walking to the bar that it was crazy for me to think that I could try out the dating s***, I mean it’s for stupid normal people and I was neither stupid nor normal. So the  whole dating charade was not for me and obviously I kinda sucked at it I mean why did she ran out of my hotel room after such a beautiful evening? I was done, I was not going to try that s*** again and I had to try and forget about Jane. I got to the bar and Norman was the barman on duty.
Me:” my usual” I said that looking around for the girls. I knew that during the week there weren’t many girls in the hotel except for the escort girls that come regularly in the hope of scoring a rich guy for the night. Week days weren’t as populated as the weekends so I knew that I wouldn’t have time to be picky. All I needed was some good pussy for the night just to remind myself of who I really was. Norman gave me two shots
Norman:” there you go” I took the shots and downed them
Me:” thanks bra…you know what to do…put them on my bill and put theirs as well” I said that while pointing to the three girls sitting on the other side of the bar. I walked over to them
Me:” hey ladies” I said with my usual charming smile
“Hey” they chorused
Me:” drink whatever you want and it’s on me” they looked at me and smiled
“Thank you”
Me:” it’s my pleasure….and you…do you mind having a chat with me?” she looked at her friends for approval and then at me. She got up and I took her hand and walked over to the private corner. I knew that it was a done deal; I was going to take her up to the hotel room with me.

JANE

I couldn’t do it. I knew that it was an epic fail from my side but I couldn’t stand there and hear him talking about how beautiful I was and all that crap. It was one thing to have a man tell you all that in passing or when he was about to sleep with you because you’ll know that he don’t mean any of that s***. But standing there with Muneiwa listening to his heartbeat against my back and hearing him talking about me like that just threw me against the wall. It just hit me that he wasn’t lying or trying to sleep with me, he actually meant what he was saying and I couldn’t handle being told that I was beautiful and good looking. I felt weak and I was disappointed in myself. I couldn’t believe that I messed things up like that. Where was all this coming from? I’d never have to involve my personal feelings before. Was it because I never had to try something real before? It was all about sleeping with men and it was always a known fact that it was a no strings attached scene. But this thing with Muneiwa was a little bit hard, for him this was all real. I tried to bottle it all up throughout the night when we were on a date but then the whole hugging complements just threw me against the wall. I drove to the flat in explosive anger. I was angry at myself for involving my personal feelings and for ruining what was supposed to be a beautiful evening.

I got to the flat and took the flowers and went to our flat. I got there and Abigail and Terry were all sitting in the lounge. They all stood up and ran to me when I walked through the door
Abigail:” how did it go?” I shoved my anger aside and smiled
Me:” great, he even gave me the flowers” I said while showing them the beautiful bunch of flowers
Terry:” so there will be a next date?” I started walking and they followed me
Me:” yes and another one after that. He booked the whole restaurant for me and he didn’t want me to leave”
Abigail:” so why didn’t you spend the night with him?” I laughed
Me:” you obviously haven’t done this love thing or studied Muneiwa very well. This guy have sex with different ladies almost every night and believe me sex won’t make him fall in love with me, if anything sex might make him lose interest because he has seen all type of vaginas and I am sure mine looks like the rest and maybe a little bit bigger and more experienced”
Abigail:” ow yeah you are right”
Me:” yes I am because I know what I am doing…now if you don’t mind, let me go to my room to plan my next move” I said that and walked to my room.
I was not sure if another date was going to happen between me and Muneiwa after my outburst but I couldn’t tell Terry and Abigail about what I had just done. I got to my room and went to my laptop to spy on Muneiwa. I logged on to the hotel cctv. I wanted to see if he followed after me or left the hotel after I had left. Yes he left his suite few minutes after I had left but he didn’t go to the parking to check me but he went to the bar. I saw him buying few drinks and then went over to the group of girls and then took one of the girls to have a private chat with her. I had watched him do something like this like a hundred times before and I knew that he was going to sleep with the girl. I took my laptop and threw it against the wall and it fell to the ground. I then got up and ripped off the dress I was wearing and screamed. I didn’t care what Abigail and Terry were going to say about me screaming, what I did in my room was none of their business. Seeing him there with a girl gave me this rage…I felt like I had really lost, like the whole date thing didn’t work to my advantage. I couldn’t believe that things were spiralling out of control so quickly. The whole time throughout the night I thought I had him but then it looks like I didn’t.
Abigail:” Jane?” she came after hearing me scream
Me:” let’s not pretend like I love this job so can you give me a moment to scream and hate myself for the things I just did with that guy?” I waited for her to say something so she didn’t and I suspected that maybe she was gone.
I threw myself on the bed and screamed once more and breathed had. Failing this assignment was going to cost me more, this was going to cost me much more. I took my phone with my hands shaking and wanted to call him but I didn’t know what to say. I had never done this typa s*** before and I didn’t know what to say to him. I threw my phone on the bed and started pacing.
Me:” I can’t lose…f*** no I can’t lose…no I can’t lose to that asshole” I said that as I pace around my room. I threw myself on the bed again and decided that I should sleep it out and see how to fix it tomorrow.

HOLLOW HEARTS

Chapter 7

MUNEIWA

I had a few minutes conversation with the girl and as it turned out I had already been with her but couldn’t even remember her. She was happy to remind me all about it but I wasn’t really there with her…I wasn’t focused on what she was saying. I kept on nodding and smiling. After a while I took her hand
Me:” let’s have a rematch” she giggled
Girl:” hopefully you won’t wake me up early to leave your room this time around” I smiled
Me:” I have things to do in the morning and I can’t just trust anyone to stay in my room while I am gone”
Girl:” but you can trust me” I shook my head
Me:’ nahh sorry it’s not personal but I can’t trust anyone” she nodded and looked away
Me:” now…can we do this?” she smiled
Girl:” let’s go” I didn’t even remember her name and I didn’t even care what it was. All I wanted was good sex to help me forget the horrible night I just had. I walked out of the bar with the girl and went to the lift and all the way to my floor. We then went into my suite and got in. I closed and locked the door
Girl:” the room is still as beautiful as I left it” I shook my head taking off my watch
Me:” make yourself feel at home” I said that taking off my shoes
Girl:” thank you” she was smiling. I then walked to the bathroom to pee and then I walked back to the bedroom
Me:” aint you supposed to be naked already?” she frowned looking at me while sitting on the bed
Girl:” I thought we will do it like last time…I enjoyed having you takeoff my clothes” I took of the cardigan and then started unbuttoning the shirt
Me:” not today sweety, not today” she sighed and started taking off her clothes. We both finished taking off our clothes and she came to me and started kissing my chest. For some odd reason I didn’t like that. I removed her hands from me and pushed her back to the bed
Girl:” can I come here tomorrow too?”
Me:” shhhhh”
I didn’t want her to say anything because I was trying to focus. My mind was still flooded by the events of that evening with Jane. I climbed on the bed and started kissing her breasts. She tried playing with my cock but I didn’t like that too. In fact I didn’t want her to touch me…the feel of her hands was a little bit nauseating…I felt like I was about to get sick. Something was definitely wrong with me because I had never felt like that before. I felt like telling the girl to leave my room and stop whatever it is we were about to do but then I was the town player and couldn’t have a girl walk out of my hotel room laughing because I couldn’t give it to her. So I roughly fondled her whole body just so that she could get wet. My manhood was already up by then. I was on top of her with my legs on either side of her body. I kept on leaking her whole little body and my hands cupping her big sized breasts. I slid my left hand down to her VJ to feel if she was ready. She was already wet and I stopped everything I was doing and turned her around and then quickly grabbed her waists and pulled her to me and without a warning I went in. She screamed louder and her nails dug on the bed as I thrust in and out. We were both down on our knees and my hands were tightly holding her waist.

Right there in that moment while I banged on her is when I finally felt like myself. The nauseating feeling had evaporated and my head was finally thinking straight. It was just me and a good pussy and I was having the time of my life. I groaned a little as I welcome the pleasure that only these bitches can give me. I slid my hands up her shoulders and banged even harder. She screamed loudly and I groaned louder too.
Me:” wh…what’s your name again?” I asked breathlessly as I was busy
Girl:” Lerato” I smiled and pushed her forward without a warning and she winced
Me:” Lerato let’s see what you got” I sat up and signalled for her to come sit on me…she breathed and then came and sat on to me with her legs on either side of my body. She slid my cock in as she sat and damn…I don’t know why but there was just something about sex, it never got old. The pleasure kept on getting better and better. Lerato never disappointed me…she bounced up and down…up and down…and damn I was going crazy by now. I fell down on my back and looked at her as she bounced on me. With each thrust came a sensational flood of pleasure. See? I didn’t need bloody Jane, I didn’t need her at all…I could have any girl I wanted and I didn’t even have to book them a fucking lousy restaurant or sit and have lousy meaningless conversation while eating…I didn’t even have to do any of that s***. This was better, this was way better and could definitely do this every single day…I thought about all that as Lerato rode me. Lerato came as she was busy bouncing on me and she dug her nails on my chest as she did her ultimate final scream and I enjoyed watching her come. After a while she rode me like a damn horse rider from the 60s movies. It didn’t take time for me to go crazy, for my brain to shut down and my eyes to roll back. My head spun around and my whole body trembled as I come. Even so, Lerato didn’t stop riding and it felt so damn good
Me:” Lerato stop…Lerato f*** stop” the girl didn’t stop…she just smiled and kept on going. I started panting and released everything. I then laughed a little and laid on my back with my hands at the back of my head
Me:” f***” I said that looking up on the ceiling
Lerato:” you liked it?” she said while resting her head on my chest
Me:” more than liked it” I said with a smile
Me:” uhm let me get the towels” she removed her head from me and I took the towels that were somewhere on the bed and gave her one. I used one to wipe myself
Lerato:” hopefully I won’t leave early tomorrow morning” I looked at her and smiled
Me:” maybe if you give me a little more of what we had done then I might reconsider” she giggled. Her giggle didn’t excite me…not the way that Jane’s giggle excited me.

JANE

I couldn’t sleep that night. I kept on thinking about how this little relationship was going to determine my future. I woke up around five the following morning and went for a jog. I came back to the flat and showered. After the shower I gathered my broken laptop and breathed. I had to get myself a new laptop. I walked out of my room and went to the kitchen to get myself something to eat. By the time I finished eating it was past 7. I decided to go talk to Muneiwa. It was Wednesday morning and he hardly went to school Wednesdays so I was hoping that I would find him. I left the flat and went to the hotel. The hotel was just 10 to 15 minutes drive from my flat. Even though Muneiwa had a girl in his room, I knew that she was already gone because he always chased them out around five in the morning. I got to the hotel and went straight to Muneiwa’s floor. I didn’t go to the reception area because I was avoiding questions.

I got to Muneiwa’s room and knocked once but no one answered. I knocked again and no answer. I knocked for the 3rd time and still no answer. I finally concluded that he was out so I turned around and started walking away but then I heard the door opening. I turned around and nervously walked back. I had never done this typa s*** before so I had no idea how I was going to apologise to him. He opened the door and couldn’t even hide the shock on his face. He was really shocked to see me
Me:” hi” he blinked and then walked out and closed the door behind him. He had no shirt on and was only wearing boxer shorts
Munei:” uhm I didn’t expect to see you here” I clenched my teeth together in anger and looked at him
Me:” you have a girl in there” it wasn’t a question, it was a statement and I wanted him to verify it.
Munei:” Jane…uhm…its…it’s not really what you think” I laughed
Me:’ what am I thinking?”
Munei:” that yesterday meant nothing…well it did”
Me:” really? It did? You have a funny way of showing it”
I said that and started walking away. I was angry…no I was pissed. The angry reaction and the walking away reaction wasn’t an act. I was pissed beyond the word pissed and I just wanted to be away from him. I didn’t understand why I was so angry and I didn’t have time to start asking myself such questions, all I know is that I was angry and disappointed. I knew he slept with the girl but I didn’t expect the girl to be there at 8 in the morning. I was supposed to be at school and I ditched my class for this s***
Munei:” Jane…baby wait” I turned around and looked at him…I tried to punch him but he caught my fist mid air
Me:” don’t fucking baby me” I said that and tried to take my hand from him but hi grip was tight. I don’t know where the stupid tears came from but they started flowing
Me:” let me go” I screamed
Munei:” Jane I am sorry”
Me:” everything was fine yesterday…where you lying? Was everything a lie? I hardly slept last night thinking about all this and you didn’t sleep a wink because you were busy with her…you even let her stay the morning” I fought him to let my hand go but he didn’t. I knew I had enough strength to push him away but I didn’t want him to start suspecting me
Me:” let me go”
Munei:” I am going to let her go and I promise I will never have anyone over in my room again…never” he let go of my hand and I stopped everything and thought about what he had just said. I looked at him and wiped off the tears
Me:” never?” I knew it was impossible
Munei:”yes never, just don’t put an end on us”
Me:” us?” I said in a very small tone. My heart was beating out of my chest. I was fuming with hatred towards myself. I hated what I was doing and what I had become
Munei:” I only slept with her because I thought you hated everything about me and I was trying to distract myself from the thoughts of you” he seemed sincere
Me:” did it work?” he shook his head
Munei:” it didn’t”
Me:” okay” I said that and started walking
Munei:” Jane I am really sorry” I said nothing
Munei:” are we okay?”
Me:” I don’t know…so keep her in the room the whole day to distract yourself again”
I said and got inside the lift. Immediately when the door closed I screamed and hit the lift with my fist and it hurt. I was angry at myself. Why was I so angry at him? Why does it hurt to know that he did something with a girl that he had never done with other girls? I thought I was special and that’s the reason why. Everything we did yesterday made me feel a little special for the first time in my life and I believed him and even though I was working but I believed that I was a little special but what he did today made me feel otherwise. Like I had been lied to, like I was a fool to ever think that I could be special to anyone.

MUNEIWA

I felt my heart aching as she walked away. Everything I had been thinking about her being nothing to me and all that crap suddenly evaporated. I knew I needed her and I knew that I had to stop pretending otherwise. I knew that I had to fight to get her back to me because seeing her cry like that and seeing her walk away from me with tears in her eyes hurt more than anything I had ever felt before. I walked back into my room
Lerato:’ what was that outside?”
Me:” that was my woman being angry at me…you need to leave” I stopped for a second to think about the ‘my woman’ phrase I had just used…I couldn’t believe that I did that but I did
Lerato:” but I th-“
Me:” Lerato you need to get out of here…now” I said that and looked around the room and gathered her clothes
Lerato:” so you have a girlfriend?” I smiled looking at her
Me:” actually yes….uhm yeah” I threw her clothes at her and started pacing while I thought about the way to get Jane back







HOLLOW HEARTS
Chapter 8

JANE

I walked out of that hotel room with nothing but disappointment and anger. I was angry at Muneiwa but I was also angry at myself. I was not even sure if I wanted to do the assignment anymore but then again I had no choice when it came to that…an assignment was the only thing that could determine whether I live or not. I was driving out of the hotel when my phone rang. I checked the caller ID and it was my friend Gudani
Me:” Gudi”
Gudani:” hey Jane where are you?” I breathed
Me:” I might not come in today”
Gudani:” have you been crying?” can she tell? I was shocked that she could easily tell if I was crying or not
Me:” no I am just not feeling well…I think I am catching flu so I don’t think I will come in”
Gudani:” ow…uhm I am sorry about that…make sure that you get some medication okay? I will cover for you here and I will give you everything that we will do today” I found myself smiling, Gudani was so sweet
Me:” thank you so much Gudani”
Gudani:” that’s what friends are for”
Me:” thanks, talk later neh”
Gudani:” sure” after the call with Gudani I felt a little bit better.
I drove to a restaurant to get myself breakfast while I wait for 9 o’clock so that the shops can open and I could buy myself a new laptop. By the time I finished my breakfast it was already after nine. So I went to Game and got myself a new laptop. I then immediately drove home. Abigail and Terry were obviously not there, I was sure that they went to work. I got home and set up the laptop and then called one of our IT guys to send me the hotel cctv app. He did just that and I downloaded it and then got access to the videos again. I went to the videos and checked what happened after I was gone. I went to Munei’s floor and checked the passage that showed his door. I saw the whole episode between me and him. I shook my head as I watched it and found it hard to believe that I actually did all of that. Few minutes after I walked away a girl walked out of the room and left. I just raised an eyebrow and didn’t know how I felt about it. After that I never saw Munei walking out of his room. So he was still in there and probably working.

I had nothing interesting to watch so I decided to take a nap. I was just about to lay my head down when my phone rang. I rolled my eyes and answered without checking the caller ID
Me:” hello”
Gudani:” hey it’s me again”
Me:” don’t tell me that the school is burning down” Gudani laughed
Gudani:” no it’s not that….this weekend is my parents’ 30 years anniversary and all my friends are coming, not that I have many but yes my other three friends are coming and even though I only met you last weekend we’ve became good friends so you can come” i didn’t know what to say to that, I wanted to act normal and build a good profile but then going to anniversaries and all that crap seemed a little bit too much for me
Me:”wow…uhm”
Gudani:” please Jane; I will feel bad if you don’t come. It’s just a family thing and me and my siblings invited our friends”
Me:” okay count me in then” she giggled
Gudan:” that’s about it and ow….bring a date” I frowned
Me:” I thought it’s just a family thing” she laughed
Gudani:” I lied because I wanted you to say yes…you know how black people roll…its gonna be like their second wedding and when I talk about family...i am talking about our extended relatives as well…and you know just how extended black families can be” she said laughing but I couldn’t laugh because I had no idea. I had no family and no one in my corner so I wouldn’t know
Me:” I know what you mean” I lied
Gudani:” so bring a date…everyone will have one Jane and don’t even think of cancelling on me because it will be the end of our friendship”
Me:” I won’t cancel, don’t worry”
Gudani:” it’s this Saturday and I stay in Thembisa so I will whatsapp you the address and you might not know the place but I am sure your boo knows it” I rolled my eyes thinking about the fucking fucker boo
Me:” yeah I am sure he does” we said goodbyes and I was about to put my phone down when I realised that I had several texts that came in while I was on the phone. I opened them and they were all from Muneiwa.
1st text “Hi Jane…I am really sorry about what happened okay? I hope that you are feeling better than you were when you were here”
2nd text  ” uhm you’ll get back to me right? I mean I am worried about us”
3rd “again, I am sorry about what happened. Like I said, I have never done this thing before but now that I know that what I did upsets you then it will never happen again I promise”
4th “ I want to call you but I am not sure if you are in class so please send me something if you want me to call and if I don’t receive anything from you then I will surely call around 4 this afternoon or maybe I can come to school to see how you are doing? Would you mind if I come?”
5th “okay Jane say something”
6th “Jane I am going crazy here…an empty text will also be appreciated, I just want to know if you are okay”

I re-read all the texts again and found myself smiling. These texts were sent one after another. I don’t know how he expected me to be able to reply while he was sending them all at the same time. I held my phone on my hand and wanted to call him but something said I shouldn’t. I wanted him to sweat a little so I put my phone on silent and took my nap. I was feeling better, much better.

MUNEIWA

After sending her 6 texts I felt bad. I mean I sounded a little desperate but then I was desperate. I wanted her to start smiling again. I realised that I felt like I was going crazy so I left my room and went down to the bar. I kept on looking at my phone to see if she’d replied but she didn’t. I got to the bar and it was empty…like literally empty. There were no people and it was understandable, I mean it was still early in the morning. I went to the bar in the hopes of finding Jeff but when I didn’t see him at the bar I realised that he worked last night with Norman who had the same name as mine meaning that they wouldn’t be working this morning. I sat in the bar and decided to give the cleaning ladies a chance to clean my room
Me:” sure bra” I said that while sitting at the bar stool and looking at the barman on duty
Guy:”Mr Makungo”
Me:” Jeff is not on duty this morning?”
Guy:” he was working night” I nodded
Me:” do you mind giving me his contact details?”
Guy:” uhm I don’t know, do you mind if I ask why?” I rolled my eyes
Me:” I am not about to assassinate him okay? I just need advice on something” Jeff was the Barman I was closest to as opposed to the others. I was close to the others but then Jeff seemed trustworthy and he had scored me ladies on few occasions so he was my guy
Guy:” ow” he seemed shocked
Me:” I am waiting”
Guy:”  0821234567” I dialled the number on my phone as he called it out and I saved it
Me:” thank you” I walked away from him and sat in one of the tables. I dialled the number that was given to me and called Jeff
Jeff:” Hello”
Me:” hey Jeff it’s me” I was feeling stupid by doing this
Jeff:” sorry but who is me?” I had forgotten that I had never called Jeff before and that I would be the last person he would expect to hear from
Me:” It’s Muneiwa Norman Makungo….the friend from the hotel?”
Jeff:” oww Muneiwa…we’re friends? How did you get my number sir? Ow no, did I do something wrong last night?” ahhh gerraaarrraaa here maaaan…so he thought that the only way I could be calling him was if something had happened at the hotel?
Me:” sorry if my call alarmed you but nothing is wrong, I thought we’re friends and that’s why I am calling”
Jeff:” ow…uhm we’re friends?” he couldn’t even hide the shock from his voice
Me:” I know that maybe that’s not how you see me but you are the only thing I have close to a friend…I mean we talk about girls sometimes” I was feeling so stupid, I couldn’t believe that I was doing this s*** but then if I wanted to have Jane’s smile back in front of my face then this was crucial. I kept telling myself that acting this dumb was actually worth it. I needed to talk to someone who was normal and who knew how women think.
Jeff:” ow yes”
Me:” I need your help with something”
Jeff:” anything” he sounded eager to help and that motivated me a little
Me:” I met a girl that I like” Jeff went quiet
Jeff:” what do you mean?”
Me:” I mean I like this one girl”
Jeff:” nahhhh are you serious?” his reaction was expected…this boy had seen me changing girls like underwear
Me:” unfortunately I am…so she came over this morning and found me with another girl”
Jeff:” that’s what I would expect” I rolled my eyes
Me:” so she is angry and I tried to apologise but she just cried and left. So I sent her 6 texts and she hasn’t replied”
Jeff:” so this is real?”
Me:” f*** Jeff do you think I am joking?” Jeff laughed and I got a little pissed when he did that because I needed help for real
Jeff:” okay sorry for laughing…so what do you want me to do?”
Me:” I want you to help me on how I can deal with a girl when she is angry and not replying to my texts”
Jeff:” how long has she walked out on you?”
Me:” about two hours ago”
Jeff:” and when did you send her the texts?”
Me:” less than 30 minutes ago but it feels like the whole day I swear”
Jeff:” I say give her a little more time and in the mean time you must behave” he said with a giggle
Me:” so right now I should just chill and wait?” that seemed hard
Jeff:”yeah”
Me:” nahh I am not doing that…tell me something else other than wait”
Jeff:” ahhh…if you really want to be romantic you can go to wherever she is and apologise again in person” I smiled
Me:” that seems like a plan”
Jeff:” so you really like this girl?” I smiled
Me:” oddly enough yeah”
Jeff:” good luck then”
Me:” and how much do you want for this?” Jeff laughed
Jeff:” you called me your friend and friends don’t make each other pay so no payment…this just goes to show how desperate you are” he was laughing
Me:” tsek Jeff” I laughed and dropped the call. I put my phone on the table and looked at it and hated myself. I hated what I was becoming but I couldn’t stop myself. I was becoming everything my bosses told me not to ever become. I took my phone and was about to check for the direction to Jane’s school when my phone rang and it was Mr Duke my boss
Me:” Duke”
Duke:” Norman?” the way he called out my name told me that something was wrong and I had an idea of what was really wrong
Me:” that’s me”
Duke:” do I need to take you back to class and tell you the rules?” he was calm.
Duke was a short chubby white man with a bald head. He was married with 2 children but they knew nothing about his other life. He got married and had kids as a way to cover what he was underneath. He had two more children from his first marriage with his late wife. He killed his wife and one son and was only left with two daughters. So in total, Duke had four kids. The late wife found out something about him she wasn’t supposed to know and she told the wrong people and also told her son so Duke killed all of them in order to protect the organisation and to prove his loyalty to the organisation. His present wife knew nothing about the organisation as well. The rule as a member of this organisation was that you could have a woman in your life but then you were not meant to love her or your children if you happen to have them…you were supposed to appreciate having her and to love her to an extent that you could be able to kill her if push comes to shove. So there wasn’t supposed to be any real emotional attachments.
Me:” I still know the rules Duke”
Duke:” I’ve been listening to your phone calls and checking your texts as usual but something has changed right?” f*** I knew this was coming, I did everything I did knowing that this was coming and I didn’t give a f***
Me:” so you know about Jane” I decided to just go straight for the kill
Duke:” I also know how she is driving you crazy”
Me:” but it’s only been few days and few meetings and phone calls” I said while laughing nervously
Duke:” and in that few days you’ve broken more rules than you’ve broken since you joined the organisation. If we give you a month with this girl then we stand a very good chance of losing you. You texted her like a lost love struck puppy and suddenly you have a barman as a friend? All because you need help about a girl? You booked a fucking restaurant for this bitch and you gave her some sick promise about never sleeping with other women…the f*** is that? Do you not see how you are turning into a disaster? Few days of meeting this girl and you are acting like a love struck regular teenager? You are involving your emotions and you know what that means. You need to end it” I laughed a little
Me:” Duke that’s a little harsh…i think you are overreacting”
Duke:” I said end it”
Me:” but Duke…”
Duke:” that’s the reason why you need to end it…the fact why you want to try and reason with me is the reason why you need to end it…she is not good for you at all.  Bitches are for good sex and that’s it Norman…this conversation is over” he hung up


HOLLOW HEARTS

Chapter 9

The call from Duke and what he said to me didn’t really come as a surprise. I expected that kind of little outburst from him and yet I continued pursuing the girl anyway. I knew that they tracked my every move and I also knew that my actions were not aligned to who I was meant to be. I can’t say aligned with who I was because I was not sure about my personality anymore. I sat there in that bar and didn’t know what to do with myself. I knew what he asked me to do but I wasn’t going to stop talking to Jane…not because I didn’t want to but because I was incapable of doing so. I sat there and looked at my phone and hoped that she would reply but the girl never did. Everything in my body kept telling me to go check her at school but then I had to deal with my organisation first. There was another problem…how do I blow my life up for someone I wasn’t sure if she wanted me as much as I wanted her? If I knew about her intentions for me then I was going to make sure that we happen but with her intentions still unknown I couldn’t blow my life up for nothing. So the bottom line was that I had to see her first and then decide what to do from then on. The best thing about the organisation was that they were capable of following me around and knowing my every move but they couldn’t get the audio of my conversations when I was in public. The only audio they could access was my car and the hotel. I took my phone and left the bar and all the way out of the building. I decided that I was going to see her.

I called her while I was on my way to school and surprisingly she picked up her phone
Jane:” I don’t know if you are watching me from wherever you are because you called me right about at the time when I was checking something on my phone…I put it on silent so chances are that I wasn’t going to pick up” I smiled
Me:” I guess the odds are on our side”
Jane:” I don’t know about that”
Me:” I am on my way to your school, what time are you free?”
Jane:” ow…uhm…you don’t really have to come”
Me:” I am not about to turn around Jane…what time are you free?”
Jane:” I didn’t go” I raised an eyebrow
Me:” what do you mean you didn’t go?”
Jane:” exactly what I said” ow, so what I did really affected her that much?
Me:” you’re home?”
Jane:” maybe”
Me:” okay” I hung up and turned my car around and drove to her place.
I got there and parked my car outside the gate and waited for someone to eventually open the gate to the flat and I walked in. I knew the flat number she was staying in. I got to her flat and knocked. I stood there with my heart beating out of my chest. For some crazy reason I was feeling nervous. It was as if a lot dependant on how my visit here was going to be like. It was the truth though; a lot depended on how she was going to reply to my proposal. Either way, my life was going to change. I don’t know how I was going to cope if she rejected me but then if she said yes then I had one big task ahead of me. I was not stupid and since the first day I met Jane, since I realised that I felt something for her….I’d been cooking up a plan and today was the day to execute the plan.

I waited at the door and no one answered. I knocked again and then the door opened. She was puzzled to see me
Jane:” how did you-“
Me:” one day you’ll understand the ‘how’” she looked at me and didn’t show a sign of happiness
Jane:” what are you doing here?”
Me:” ask me to come in please” she folded her hands on her chest. I realised that ever since I met this Jane girl I was using a lot of the word ‘please’
Jane:” and why would I do that? Actually where is your girl?” I looked at her like she had just asked me a question with an obvious answer
Me:” you are my girl” she rolled her eyes and tried to close the door but then I blocked it with my hand.
Me;” Jane I am sorry”
Jane:” you’ve already said that”
Me:”okay on a serious note, I have a serious proposal Jane…everything depends on it” she frowned a little and looked at me
Jane:” you took me out on a date and then promised me things and then turned around and did that? All because I freaked out on the romantic gesture you made towards me?” she was loud
Me:” that’s the thing, why did you freak out?” I was even louder. She rolled her eyes as if saying that I should know what she was talking about. She turned around and walked back in and left the door open. I took that as an invitation that I should come in. I followed her inside and closed the door behind me
Me:” why did you?”
Jane:” because freaking out is kind of my thing” she seemed pissed and I didn’t want to upset her more because I was there to give her my proposal and then take it from there
Me:” okay I am sorry I made you freak out okay?” she just went and threw herself on the couch. I walked to the lounge and stood in the middle of the room
Me:” I feel something for you…I don’t know what it is yet but it’s there and it’s strong” I looked at her expecting some kind of a gesture but she gave me nothing
Me:” and I want to know if you feel something too”
Jane:” why does it matter what I feel?” she was not looking at me
Me:” because I am about to blow my life for us…for you” she looked at me with a puzzled expression and I knew that she was about to ask me what I meant but I wasn’t going to give her an answer to that…not yet
Jane:” am I supposed to know what that means?”
Me:” Jane I want to know if you are in or not…I’ve never done this s*** before and I have always looked at people who were doing this kind of thing and thought it was stupid so I am about to be stupid for you…for us…I can be your stupid stony man” I couldn’t believe I was doing this, I was pleading with a girl to give me the very thing I spent years not wanting
Jane:” but I can’t trust you” there was pain on how she talked. I finally released the breath I’d been holding, that wasn’t a no
Me:” we will work on that together, right now I just want to know if you are with me or not. Can you do this with me or not? I want to know if you want me...” I swallowed and put my hands on my hips
Me:” I want to know if you want us to happen” she got up and started pacing with her hands folded on her chest. I was just looking at her and my eyes kept on following her as she paced around the room
Jane:” this is strange…I mean it’s not how relationships are meant to start…this is not how people do it” she said and swallowed…she then stopped pacing and looked at me. She seemed scared
Me:” but we are not other people are we?” she looked at me and relaxed her shoulders. I was still standing in one position looking at her
Jane:” you can blow your life up” she said that and walked to the door. I let out a slight laugh and felt the kind of satisfaction and excitement I never thought someone as little as her could bring to me.
Me:” so we can try?”
Jane:” we are not dating yet but yes there is a chance” she opened the door and signalled for me to leave
Jane:” I am not over what you did so leave”
Me:” ow” I walked over to her with a smile on my face but she wasn’t smiling. I was excited but I was also nervous. I was not even sure if this was the right thing to do
Me:” uhm, I will stay in contact”
Jane:” okay” I walked out of the door
Jane:” one more thing”
Me:” yes”
Jane:” my friend invited me to her parents’ anniversary this weekend and I am supposed to bring a date so can you be my date?” I couldn’t smile anymore…this s*** was real….i Muneiwa Norman Makungo just acted as a regular, stupid and normal human being and it might mean the death of me
Me:” okay, just text me the time and the place…this time around I am picking you up, we can’t drive in different cars”
Jane:” okay” she looked at me and then I looked at her. I didn’t know if this was the part where we could finally kiss or maybe hug…I mean I hadn’t even kissed her yet. I opened my arms for a hug but then she shook her head
Jane:” you just spent the night with another girl and stayed with her the whole morning in your room so thanks Munei…I am not hugging you, not today and don’t make me do it” women were so insanely dramatic and right now I felt like Jane was also being dramatic but I couldn’t call it out on her because I wanted her
Me:” uhm…wow…uhhh okay….see you then” I turned around and walked to my car.

The whole walk outside the flat I was emotionless. I was still not sure about what was going on with me. Everything with this Jane girl felt like a bad dream and I felt like I would wake up and find that it was all just a dream. I got to my car and got inside before I could drive. My phone started ringing when I was about to start the car. I checked the caller ID and it was Duke. I decided to ignore his calls while knowing the implications of my actions. I then drove my car and went all the way to my planned destination. I had to do this now, Jane had given me a go ahead that I needed and that only meant that I could be able to execute my plan.

I got to Sandton and went to the house that I knew I needed to get to. I had the access to the house so I pressed the remote and opened the gate and drove in. The house I was in was a very big mansion and it suited the owner. I got out of my car and walked into the house. I knew that Duke had already saw my arrival and the only thing I had to do was head to his study.
Me:” Hi Alison” I said that smiling at Duke’s wife as soon as I got in. She knew me as a PhD varsity student that her husband was supervising so she knew that I had access to the house and she liked me. She was in the kitchen doing something and I was standing at the kitchen door
Alison:” Hi Norman…how are you? It’s been a while” I smiled
Me:” the research is killing me” she nodded
Alison:” don’t remind me of those days…anyway embrace it”
Me:” I haven’t found a way to embrace it yet” she laughed
Me:” so where is he?” she pointed with her head
Alison:” the usual”
Me:” let me go to him then…it was nice seeing you again Alison” I said that and walked away. I went straight to Duke’s study where we usually had our meetings whenever I visited him. I got there and knocked once and then opened the door and walked in. I closed the door behind me and stood against it
Me:” Duke” he was looking at his laptop screen and he didn’t bother looking at me
Me:” I didn’t pick up your calls because I wanted to speak in person”
Duke:” killing you wouldn’t really be difficult you know” he was still glued to his laptop screen
Me:” I know and I am here to give you a reason to keep me a live and to let me and Jane happen” he shut the laptop and looked at me
Duke:” what did you just say?”
Me:” I want her Duke, I’ve never wanted anything in my life and I have always done everything you’ve ever wanted me to do so I want you to allow me to do this one thing” the old man took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes and wear the glasses again and looked back at me
Duke:” she is a fucking weakness to you and you can’t be weak Norman…you can’t be weak”
Me:” you know me better than that”
Duke:” exactly, I know she will be the death of you...of us”
Me:” Duke, all I want is for us to revise the terms of my contract and incorporate Jane into it” he looked at me and got up from his chair

HOLLOW HEARTS

Chapter 10

MUNEIWA

Duke:” I am waiting for you to tell me that you’ve decided to venture into comedy and this is you proving to me that you are good with comedy so that I may give you my blessings and if that’s the case then you have them…you can go ahead and be a comedian for all I care” he was standing in front of his desk with nothing but a straight face on
Me:” unfortunately I am not playing some prick on you Duke, this is serious and I would love for you to treat the matter as such” I said that and rubbed my nose, I was trying my best to stand still and not show how nervous I was. I was nervous about what I was doing but I was also nervous about how my life was going to drastically change if I make it out of here alive. Duke smiled a little and sat on the table
Duke:” I don’t know what’s worse, the fact that you’ve broken the rules or the fact that you have the guts to come here and ask me about all this crap…forget it Norman, it’s not happening and you’re dismissed” he said that and got up from the table and sat on his chair and opened up his laptop… I looked at him and tightened my jaws
Me:” Duke I am aware of the situation and I don’t have intentions of affecting the business in any bad way. I will remain loyal to you and the organisation and I will remain the best in the business…all I ask is that you give me some little bit of happiness” he looked at me and breathed…he looked really tired
Duke:”or I can just kill you. I mean this is not a ‘happiness serving’ scheme…I don’t give people the fucking happiness, I make sure that the job is done or I kill those who makes it hard for the job to get done and right now you look like a damn hindrance” I closed my eyes for few second and then opened them again, I knew that bargaining with Duke wasn’t going to be a walk in the park
Me:” killing me is also an option but how soon can you replace me?” he smiled
Duke:” your replacement is just a phone call away” I shook my head
Me:” I am not trying to be cocky or anything but you know that you can never have another me. I am good at what I do Duke. I’ve never disappointed you once and I don’t plan on disappointing you. You killed my parents and I never questioned you or try to avenge them or anything like that” he raised an eyebrow as if shocked by what I just said, even though I had no proof, I knew that my family’s death wasn’t a coincidence, they were killed
Me:” now I am asking you to at least give me something. To give me some kind of a happiness  even though you don’t run a ‘happiness serving’ scheme and believe me I will ensure that I continue being the best I’ve always been to the organisation. All I ask is for you to give me a chance to get to know her” he looked at me and said nothing
Me:” and as time goes by then she will have to sign the relevant forms and if she messes up then I will take it upon myself to deal with her” he breathed
Me:” I will give you a moment to digest all this” I walked to the door and was about to open when I turned around and looked at him
Me:” I don’t intend to live another day without knowing that I have a chance of getting to know her Duke. I want to try this out with her and if it fails it fails but then I want to give it a chance first. I feel like getting to know her is worth every risk…I feel like the world won’t be worth living if you don’t give me a chance to get to know her so don’t give me death threats, if you are planning on killing me then just do it without even informing me because this is where I am right now and I am not backing down on my word”
I said that and left the office. I was being honest with Duke. I had never felt what I was feeling. I had never wanted anything or anyone the same way I wanted this girl. It made me feel like I had been missing out on something all my life and after experiencing how good it was to have someone then I realised that I couldn’t go back to my old empty life. I wanted some excitement other than the assignments and the bitches. She kind of gave my life a meaning and if I wasn’t going to get a go ahead then I was as good as dead. It scared me though, the kind of devotion I had to this girl who was nothing but a total stranger was scary. The kind of sacrifices and lengths I was willing to go for a strange girl that I met few days ago was alarming. I couldn’t believe that it was happening but the fast thumping of my heart reminded me that it was really happening and that I was nervous about it all.

I walked out of the house without saying goodbye to Duke’s wife because my head was really disoriented. I didn’t know where to go or what to do after that meeting with Duke. I had nothing else to do because I simply had no life. The time was sometime around 11. I decided to drive to campus and spend my whole afternoon on my fake research project because sitting and not doing anything was going to blow my head off. It was a fake research because in all honestly I didn’t study for my Degree, Honours or Masters…the organisation took care of it all and gave me the certificates and got me enrolled at Wits as a way to give me a normal looking life. This was my second year of research and it was going to drag on for two more years. I was in no rush to finish because finishing up will mean getting a new job and meeting new people which was something that I wasn’t looking forward to.

I stayed in campus until late at night. I even had a very long meeting with my supervisor discussing some of the contents of my research. I left campus around 9 at night and I drove to Pretoria. I was on my way there when I received a call from Duke. My heart skipped a beat and I parked on the side of the road because I wanted to have a clear conversation with him
Me:” Hello”
Duke:” I am in the process of reviewing the contract. I am only giving you two months to get to know this girl and that would be enough time to decide if she is worth the risk or not. If she is worth the risk then you will have no choice but to tell her the truth about the nature of your job and have her sign the paperwork”
Me:” but your wife didn’t sign the p-“
Duke:” I am not in love with my wife Norman so I have no business with her knowing stuff about me but it’s different with you and this girl. You feel something for her and since this is your first relationship then we can’t risk you yip yapping to her about the organisation so two months is all you have and then you tell her everything and have her sign the paper work” I breathed, this was better than I could ever get so I’d be stupid to say no
Me:” okay that’s fine”
Duke:” if all goes well and she sign then papers then she becomes part of our business and we start tracking her and all that crap and one breath about us to anyone then you are expected to kill her” I breathed
Me:” I understand the terms”
Duke:” good then”
Me:” thank you Duke”
Duke:” as much as you are good at this, I am still not sure if you are ripe enough to do what you are asking of me and still be as useful as you’ve been” well, I wasn’t sure too. The way in which everything drastically changed because of this one girl had me doubting myself in every way. I felt weak and not in control of anything
Me:” I won’t disappoint and you won’t regret this” I said the words in a desperate attempt to convince myself that the old me was still in here somewhere. Duke hung up and I fell back on the chair and relaxed before starting the car.

JANE

It was late at night and I kept on thinking about the assignment at hand and the progress I had made so far. Muneiwa’s visit to my flat was unexpected and everything that happened when he was here was all unexpected too. He really liked me enough to go through all the trouble for me. even though I was not 100% sure what he meant when he said he wanted to blow his life up for me…I knew that it had something to do with his work and he was about to take some risks for me. I lay on my back looking up at the ceiling and couldn’t believe that someone like him was about to risk something for a little old damaged me. The feeling I got just by thinking about the whole situation was priceless and foreign to me. It was something I had never felt before and I loved it. I checked the hotel cctv cameras the whole day and there was no sign of Muneiwa…so my guess was that he was busy blowing his life for me. I couldn’t fall asleep that night…I was busy tossing and turning when I received an sms from him
“Hi, I am battling to fall asleep and I can’t stop thinking about you. Are you okay?” it was past 11 at night. I smiled and switched on my laptop and then replied to his sms. I was fine and wasn’t worried about his acts anymore
“I am okay Muneiwa…if you don’t mind me asking, why are you battling to sleep? Is the girl you brought back to the room tonight not doing it good?” I sent the sms and smiled.
I then went to my laptop and checked the hotel cctv. I checked the previous hours and I spotted him coming back into the hotel sometime around 10 and as shocking as it was, he didn’t go to the bar, he walked straight to his hotel room. I felt the edge to know what he was doing in the room but then the hotel didn’t have video tapes of private moments of its visitors. The fact that Muneiwa didn’t bring a girl back to the hotel excited me beyond the word excited. I didn’t realise how much I needed him not to have other girls until this very moment. Another sms came through my phone. I put the laptop aside because I saw what I needed to see. I laid on my back and checked the sms
“I told you I won’t do that anymore…I wish you were here though” I giggled and replied
“You’re gonna have to work a little harder for that” I won’t lie  this felt good…few seconds later another sms came through
“I intend to” God I melted. I replied again
“Usually people use whatsapp for these kind of thing” I leaked my lips and waited for his reply…he didn’t take long to come back to me
“I don’t have that but now that I have you in my life then you’ll help me download it and show me how it works” I laughed out loud because I couldn’t believe that Muneiwa didn’t have whatsapp or   know how it works...so I typed a reply quickly
“What planet are you from? Even five years olds know how to use whatsapp these days” my phone rang as I waiting for the reply and it was him. I laughed and sat on my bed and answered it
Me:” Mr I don’t know how to use whatsapp” he laughed and I honestly loved the sound of his voice as he laughed, it was a real laugh
Muneiwa:” I have you to teach me all about it love” he called me love and I fell back on the bed and couldn’t help but giggle…I was too excited
Me:” yeah that you do”
Muneiwa:” how was your day?”
Me:” boring and yours?”
Muneiwa:” a bit busy and a little bit too much”
Me:” care to elaborate?”
Muneiwa:” let’s just say I’ve never ever have to do what I am doing with you with anyone else…I have already told you that so I was trying to shift certain things in my life to accommodate you” I knew what he was talking about and I was honoured
Me:” and that include the girls?” he giggled lightly
Muneiwa:” yeah that too…it’s never going to happen again”
Me:” let’s see if you’ll prove me right”
Muneiwa:” I will”

Friday night Gudani and the girls planned on going out for the evening and they invited me. I had no reason to turn them down so I tagged along with them. Muneiwa and I had been talking since Wednesday. He’d been calling and texting and I was enjoying our conversations. They were usually short but they gave me the kind of satisfaction I needed. I drove to the club where I was going to meet the girls. Gudani and the rest of the groups had a guy drive with them. I got to the parking and parked my car and then gave Gudani a call
Gudani:” Girl”
Me:” I am here friend where are you?”
Gudani:” are you outside?”
Me:” yeah walking to the entrance right now”
Gudani:” okay I am coming” I walked to the entrance of the building and stood outside. Gudani walked out at that moment
Gudani:” hey…ow my Good you came” she was happy to see me
Me:” it’s not like I have a choice” she took my hand
Gudani:” come on in….we are having so much fun”
Me:” I can obviously sense it” I looked around and then followed her inside. The club was full guys…it was crowded like really crowded. The DJ was playing some house music and people were going crazy.
Me:” wow” I shouted while I follow Gudani...she didn’t hear me and that’s why she didn’t say anything. We got to our group and everyone was happy to see me. They couldn’t believe that I was here. Well I was ready to be their friend and therefore I had to follow them around
Me:” so what are we drinking?” they smiled
Mpho:” we’ve just arrived and haven’t started yet” I opened my purse and took out some R200 notes and wave them in the air
Me:” drink whatever you want girls, it’s on me” they all screamed and hugged me and I laughed excitedly.

Honestly speaking, of all the assignments I had done in the past, this one took the cake. It was the best I had ever done and I was enjoying it. For the first time in my life I was enjoying my assignment and having a great time. The girls ordered some drinks and we started drinking…the music was doing the ‘crazy’ and I also felt like I was going cray cray. I loved the South African vibe and how excited and energetic everyone looked. You’d swear the alcohol had energy drink in it…everyone looked happy and there was a lot of dancing going on. The DJ just completely threw me at the edge when he started playing ‘Tholukuthi’ and even though I didn’t know the song but the way that everyone started dancing and screaming had me running for the dance floor. I didn’t care about my friends or what they were up to…I just wanted t enjoy the moment and had a great time. I was busy dancing when a guy came to me and we started dancing together. I didn’t know him and had no intensions of getting to know him. I was busy shaking it off with the guy when someone grabbed my left hand. I turned round with my face turning sour because I wasn’t happy with someone interrupting my dancing. I froze when I realised that it was Muneiwa. I never told him I was coming to the club so I was obviously shocked to see him
Me:” uhm…wow” I was shocked and happy. I didn’t know that he was into this kind of thing but I was happy that he decided to join me
Muneiwa:” come” he shouted in my ears so that I would hear him. He didn’t give me time to reply because he pulled me through the crown and got out with me. He let go of my hand immediately when we made it outside
Muneiwa:” you are getting in the car and we are leaving” I looked at him and smiled
Me:”what?”
Muneiwa:” I can’t have you doing that kind of s*** Jane” huh?
Me:” Muneiwa we’v-“
Muneiwa:” we are together now and this is not happening” I frowned
Me:” but you can’t control me” he put his hand on his hips
Muneiwa:” you hated the bitches and I got rid of them…imma be chilling in my room horny as f*** every night because you deemed it so…well, I don’t like this partying as well so you are leaving” I looked at him and frowned.